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qoldenskies · 1 month ago

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just saw the tags on your last post about whether donnie would do the lair games again and felt anguish just imagining it ohhhh my gosh ooohhh ohhhh my shayla oohhhh ohh eueueueueueueugh

he used to be so competitive *crying emoji* he used to banter he used to play along he used to want to win he used to push back *falls to my knees banging my fists on the ground*

would they try to play new games in lair games? make them somehow softer? make them less likely to scare him/cause him anxiety? is there any game out there that would let him forget? that would get him so immersed that the worries fall off, that the fears are put on hold at least for a little while? NOT JUST WITH THE LAIR GAMES BUT IS THERE ANYTHING OUT THERE THAT WOULD DISTRACT HIM FROM WHAT HAPPENED? ANYTHING THAT WOULD BRING BACK THE OLD DONNIE EVEN IF JUST A SHADOW? something wherein donnie makes a remark on instinct, says something sarcastic something teasing something snarky, does a confidence gesture, poses funny and silly, dances in front of his brothers again??? something he doesn't even seem to realize but his brothers do, and it means just the world to them but they can't make a big deal out of it, can't draw any attention to it because they know if they do he'll hide away so far within himself they might never see this wisp of him ever again.

(also sorry if you've already posted something like this in cc, i'm not entirely caught up yet but i prommy i will be soon!!!!, just couldn't stop my mind from running away from me after reading your comment about lair games, okay luv you byeeeee)

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKK GODDDDD like would winning even make him feel better. would he actually feel proud of himself or would he classify that under "nice things im not allowed to have" because the idea of being above them in any way about anything that isnt useful would freak him out. is there anything that would ACTUALLY just help him let loose???? considering how lair games were for him before i think he really harbored a lot of insecurity about participating until the most recent year so i dont think itd be something he'd necessarily be excited about but god do i love the idea of him actually managing to enjoy himself :') they would probably adjust it to be more comfortable for him at the very least, IF he even wants to go again. i dont think they'd push him if he said no

ghhhh the idea of them having to stop themselves from saying something when they see little whispers of his old self though. like theyre so proud and so excited and happy but if they mentioned it he would be so insecure i aughhhhhh

#ask #canary continuity #MY SHAYLA....... MY SHAYLA #he's so wound up all the time. he's so scared to let loose. but god he deserves it more than anything #they would do ANYTHING to see that manic excitement in his eyes again. they would kill for him (and they have)#fuck i also think about how much he likes music. and singing and dancing. will he ever be able to do something like that in front of them #because art is such a vulnerable thing to share and he doesnt want to be mocked #itd feel like he was being too loud :')#they want to show him its okay but they cant push or he'll just recede back into himself UGHHHHHHH #AUGGHGHHHHHHHH

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explodikid · 1 month ago

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