#MY BROTHER IN CHRIST YOU'RE THE ONE INTERACTING WITH ME???

[evanwevand]

Remembering that one time when a very anti bright person liked and reblogged with super excited tags my Mann art, it was hilarious as shit

[satcrvz]

CHAPTER TWO: LET HIM COOK

navi

there is a tinnyyy written part under the cut and more screenshots

“what that’s it? you’re gonna leave and have me do part of your stream?” you ask.

“yes please it’ll be reallyyy quick i promise! i owe you one”, and just like that he’s leaving —

“oh and i kinda was playing fortnite so goodluck”. now he's gone. you sit down in the gaming chair to take over his stream, and scan the users of everyone in the lobby which read;

HOTSHOTCHOSO, you recognized this as yuujis brother.

REDRUM_Z3N, which could connect with maki, nobaras girlfriend.

the final name read YUTAA.44.

the tiny person in your head is going crazy, but you snap back to reality, and announce to the chat that yuuji had something to do, you’re streaming for him. before you put the headset on you try to read the chat, barely catching the comments because of the insane speed they’re going at.

melodyyy2sweet: HI YNNN

PARK3R: was this the big plan? get you and yuta to interact

LASTWORDS: waittt yuuji kinda cooked with this idea if he came up with it himself..

melodyyy2sweet: LET HIM COOK..

you start to smile to yourself reading the comments “guys! this was definitely not my idea i’m still embarrassed. i’m probably going to embarrass myself more to be real”. you scan the chat one more time to react to one comment.

"what? no i just found out he was a person i've never watched his streams"

you giggle before picking up the headphones and then place them on your head. your finger reaches for the key to unmute, and you greet everyone.

thankfully, maki sort of got the awkward vibe and took initiative in getting the lobby back talking.

around two and a half rounds were played before yuuji finally came back. you're thankful that it wasn't another one because truthfully, fortnite was not your thing.

“your loadout fucking sucks jesus christ yn”

YALL 😭 i know it seems like megumi is against you so far but he’s not 😭 it’s just the situations

maybe i’ll add a lil bonus chap explaining what else happened on stream. who knows!

tags : @saesofficialwife @k4romis @soy-garbage @sakyira @dreamxiing @swissy23 @shnzies @captaincyberqueen @fantasycantasy

[richeeduvie]

Based on an asked I can't find in the inbox.

People can't even be a creep towards Dulce, the twins leave no time (no space) between them and her.

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"Hey. Sorry."

It's a man bumping into you, just a guy - alright. But somehow you know it's the worst possibly thing that can happen when it's your first day out with the twins in awhile. They didn't have to walk to the bathroom, wait outside the door for you. No. Leonel and Marco a perfect view of the bathroom door from your and theirs table.

You're excited to try the steak taco.

"It's alright."

He lets go of your shoulders.

"...They've got clean bathrooms, righ-"

"Sorry, gotta get back to my table."

The man smiles, something not unkind, and maybe it's because you already belong to another, and another, but you don't feel well in the fact of this...attempt at all.

You haven't been flirted with in awhile, but you're sure that's what's happening right now and you're sure Marco and Leonel won't like it.

"I just saw you come in with those guys. Is one of them your boyfriend?"

...No. Not one of them.

"Yeah, something like that."

"Oh, sorry then-"

And this man, as normal as he is in his rejection, cannot finish his apology.

"Marco!"

"Jesus Fucking Christ! What the fuck?"

You can't stop Marco from slapping the back of the man's head again. You yell out, somehow discreetly, but that doesn't change how the bustle of the restaurant stops - gearing towards his aggression.

Leonel doesn't say anything, but he pulls his brother back, but not without holding the arm of the man with a grip so harsh.

Your boys.

"Both of you! Let's go! I am so sorry-"

"What the fuck is wrong with yo-"

Leonel pushes the man back into the bathroom door, it's a thudding. You push your head in your hands as you drag himself.

It doesn't take a minute before Leonel and Marco get angrier at each other, more than you could ever get angry at the both of them. It's Spanish, them hitting each other as you sit in between. They're careful not to hit you.

It's sweet. You can't help but love it.

You roll your eyes.

"You guys, you didn't have to do that, Marco. And you didn't have to push him-"

"Why you apologize?"

Marco's not looking at you when he says it. Leonel's stare is like his, dark, angry. Asking.

"To him?"

His silence is a reply. You sigh.

"Because you hit him in the back of the head. You backhanded his head, it's just not righ-"

Leonel grunts for his brother. He may not be the one to throw the punches, not at first - but you know he's just as in rage at the sight of the interaction. He's in defense of the question Marco asks.

Your outrageous men.

You know what to do and considering you're hungry and you just want to eat, you'll do it already. No arguments that might bring you back home instead of to another restaurant.

You can feel Marco's and Leonel's cheeks get warm when you kiss them there over and over, pecks where they're...blushing. It's never not funny.

"I'm happy you two want to protect me. But hitting people because of that instinct...like the - you can't act on it. I'm not really asking you to not be angry, I know I can't ask either of you to do that, maybe Leonel-"

You stop at Marco's head snapping. You kiss him again, you know Leonel will have to accept that extra peck.

"But when you two do...whatever it is you do and I'm in public after so long...we have to be careful? Alright?"

Leonel's grip at the wheel, Marco's fists letting go is a yes. You smile. Leonel scoots a little closer.

You'll just hope there's not another person who likes you enough to come up to you at the next restaurant. For that person's sake. The twin's limits only go so far.

[intuspluric-culture-is]

In-system relationship culture is how since me and Seán ( @septiccoffeefreak ) formed without knowing we were a system, we chalked our identities and dissociation from the body as factkin stuff (bc we are Factives) and then were in a cycle for a little while of talking to each other, flirting, generally bonding and being cute, and pining after the other, but not thinking it was real because we were TOTALLY both just imagining it.

This also resulted in things like LITERALLY KISSING IN HEADSPACE and then by our next interaction it's as if we've never confessed our feelings at all... because if everything is pretend and nothing is real then a confession can't stop the pining stage because the confession isn't real either, so the stage of the relationship is totally nebulous and everything is constantly being reset. We'd talk to the other while they did dishes in front and be like. WOW they're so perfect but I'm imagining them :). And then we'd realize we remembered things from our own, different perspectives but were like "that's just memories being weird and possibly kin stuff."

And we STAYED IN THIS SPOT FOR WEEKS, not realizing that the late night conversations and multiple love confessions and snuggles and shit were all REAL until one night Seán suddenly asks me, middle of the night, if we're actually the same person, and I was like "??? I think so?? But no?? But- yeah no maybe we're not? But- AAAUGH idk?????" And we had a crisis and texted our system friend explaining what was going on and they were like. My brother in Christ that is not singlet behavior. And immediately I was like. BOYFRIEND REAL??????? BOY REAL??? And was like, shaken from the realization yeah but ELATED at the Same time because it meant he was real and our interactions were real and it was like. OMG. Boyfriend..Boyf... Him real.... And we also realized that we clearly were both in love and so became together, so we were both for the rest of that night and all day the next day like "OMG.... Real...OMG ur real....OMG .... I love u so much...and ur real and I love you...."

And NOW we has been married for two gay ass years 💕🌈 and our itnitial love story of just. The most miscommunication-comedy-of-errors ass possible romance is very dear to us and very funny. Like omg. Girl how did I not know. Shaking my past self by the shoulders HE LITERALLY TALKS TO YOU. YOU CAN'T PREDICT WHAT HE SAYS HE LITERALLY HAS HIS OWN THOUGHTS AND TALKS TO YOU. HE REMEMBERS THINGS YOU DON'T THAT YOUR PARENTS CONFIRM HAPPENED AND SOMETIMES YOU JUST WATCH "YOUR" OWN BODY MOVE BECAUSE HE'S USING IT TO DO SOMETHING AND YOU ARE JUST WATCHING. YOU DUMBASS GAY MOTHERFUCKER

Anyways in summary in system relationship culture is that if you don't know you're plural instead of the linear progression of time through pining/crush, then dating, your relationship jumps back and forth sometimes because the "imaginary"-ness of it takes it out of a normal timeline

Oh wow, that's a long ask. /lh

Thank you for sharing this storytime!

[verdemoun]

Sean drops reform school lore when he’s drunk but Kieran shares O’Driscoll lore and the gang are genuinely shocked he took so long to break because he will not shut up.

"Arthur you just might be my best friend and it bothers me how casually some people in the gang tell you that you're dumb 'cause you ain't but... Christ you are thick sometimes. I took you to an O'Driscoll hideout NEAR Valentine. I made a point of saying it was just passed Valentine, and told you I saw O'Driscolls riding around NEAR Valentine how could I have made it more clear they owned the town."

"Gotta say one thing Dutch did right was shooting Colm's brother. That feller may have been the most heinous, vile son of a bitch I have ever had the displease of meeting. His 'funeral' is still the best damned party I've ever been to." "... That was in 1886 how long were you with the O'Driscolls?" "I mean I wasn't riding with them at the time just y'know how it is gangs running into each other my previous outfit got invited." "Your previous gang were invited to the celebration of Colm's brothers death." "Ye."

(overhearing someone having the 'there was a second rat' discussion) "Don't be dumb. Colm sold out other gangs to authorities all the time after Six Point he probably tipped Cornwall off about Valentine out of spite for the train score. Hell some of the O'Driscolls were known Pinkerton informants Colm just told them what they were allowed to tell the Pinkertons, kept the heat off hideouts."

"Lmao Colm is a bottom." "What the fuck Kieran."

"We were actually under orders not to shoot to kill in interactions with you guys because Colm wanted the joy to himself. Also he really believed Dutch cared enough to send someone looking if he captured any one of you alive he'd been trying to plan something like the parlay for years." "Thanks for the heads up." "It could NOT HAVE MORE OBVIOUSLY BEEN A TRAP."

[rulerzreachf4n7]

Fight me all you want but huntlow/lumity antis are the weakest links in the toh community,

HEAR ME OUT...

...unless you don't have ears idk block the haters

SKIP IF YOU'RE NOT INTERESTED IN SHIPS WARS IT'S HONESTLY EMBARRASSING I HAVE TO SAY THIS!!

All this slander is coming from the goldric/huntmira/lunter/guster/amiter shippers, yes that's a mouthful, and yes I'll be blocking you if you're a toxic shipper, if your not, good! except if you ship amiter, fuck off you lesbianphobic bitch, anyways back to my rant, also sorry if this comes out as insensitive, rude, or if I sound over dramatic I just really hate these types of people

If I had a dime for every toxic shipper I've encountered since I first came into the toh community...BITCH ID BE RICH CAUSE SOME OF Y'ALL ARE WILD ASF 😭🙏, this is based off of a rant I got below this post so yeah credits to anon it was very helpful pookie

Y'all toxic ass shippers will go FUCKING PARAGRAPH LENGTHS TO DEFEND YOUR SHITTY SHIPS, and this is targated twords lunter and goldric, again, if you're not toxic this ain't for you I don't mean to offend anyone, cause tell me why there is this account on Pinterest, I ain't afraid to say their name it's something like TheGoldenCoven, or some shit like that, BROS A LUNTER FAN ACCOUNT 💀, and a toxic one too, dw I got some proof

How the fuck do you normalize the TWO MAIN COUPLE OF A SERIES??? Hunter was never intentioned to date Luz and vice versa, this is a perfect example of toxic a lunter shipper, and not only are they toxic they're...LESBIANPHOBIC!! I know it was probably from 2021 and they've moved on buuuut they did post amiter art, and they're not even a nice person although having in their bio "I'm nice you if you're nice to me" or some bullshit idk

As for toxic goldric shipper accounts I haven't seen any Pinterest or Tumblr accounts so that's good! But majority of the shippers are the most insufferable human beings on earth, their only excuse for shipping them is "they want a mlm couple and they're the same age" noting against wanting a mlm couple it'd be super nice...buy may I remind you this is post early season two...HUNTERS NAME WASN'T EVEN CONFIRMED YET 😭🙏, And let alone having only two or three minutes of screen time makes the ship have an even worse reputation, and the shippers are just bitchy and biphobic, always complaining that Hunter should be canonically gay instead of literally anything else so he can be shipped with only Edric, and I know huntmira shippers exist but I've actually never had an interaction with one, hopefully they aren't too bad

Y'all will come out withe the stupidest excuses not to ship huntlow/lumity, also sorry I got off track 😭😭, for lumity, don't know how it exists, but it's either "it's abusive" or "it's toxic" brother ew 💀, name one way Luz or Amity have hurt each other and DO NOT say it's by how Luz always makes stuff mess even though it's literally apart of her personality or by how she didn't wanna tell her about the portal door in S2 or how she accidentally helped Philip/Belos, I'll wait 😊, and I see the point of how Amity's personality downgraded to only being Luz's gf but she still did have her family problems but I guess they just didn't wanna make it an episode, I mean we got Clouds on the horizon that counts ig?

And for huntlow I keep hearing the same shit "I-Its a crack ship, I-Its forced, t-they have no chemistry 🥺🥺🥺" yeah I can see your toxic ass shipping a 12 and 16 year old together don't think you're slick bitch, and just because huntlow was rushed doesn't mean it's necessarily bad, you don't know if Dana had intentions on it but because of the cancellation it was forced to be rush, and I'm sorry to y'all hearing the shortened s3 excuse but it's true since there's literally no other explanation, also don't come into the comments saying "B-But you don't know that!!🥺🥺" it's just speculation my brother in Christ 😭🙏, merely a theory put together with brain cells which almost everyone in this community doesn't have, another weird double standard is how everyone ships gustholomule and veesha even though there's very little evidence it'll be canon was supposed to be canon but since it's a more noticeable and popular ship no one bats an eye for some reasons even though huntlow is too a popular ship, but these are the more bigger ones so I'll more obscure like cameda or aladarius which where probably never meant to happen and totally fandom operated

Anyways that's all, I'll block haters/toxic shippers in the comments so don't think you'll get a reaction outta me with some half baked and barely thought through argument you found in a Reddit post

[victor-veloci-simp-69]

Episode 1:

I've always loved the intro song ngl. A good intro song makes me love a cartoon. That's how W.I.T.C.H and Huntik got me

Fiona gets to class. Ms Moynihan says she broke three rules. She says this before Fiona bites her apple. Fiona then says that's only two and then misses her shot, making three. This inplies that Fiona either does this regularly, or that Ms Moynihan has some form of clairvoyance.

(The clairvoyance thing could make some absolutely fantastic fanfiction ngl. *writes that down* oooh, I have IDEAS now) anyway, back to episode

The fact that Fiona only took one bite of that apple bothers me

Oh man, that bio class room looks almost exactly like the one I had in high school.

Oooooh yaayyyy! Mah Boi is here!!! Stripey gay boi

Okay, first off:

This place looks like a giant OSHA violation.

Regardless of that (Peter, go fix this giant OSHA violation. Hey, maybe that's why we never see him again, he's too busy fixing the questionable workplace) those scientists look properly enriched.

WHAT THE FUCK ARE THINGS IN THE TUBES THEY LOOK LIKE THEY'RE FROM BEN 10 I SWEAR TO GOD THAT LOOKS LIKE SWAMPFIRE.

On that note, why do we never see Veloci's creepy test tube creatures??? His scientists worked hard on The Horrors

The one on the pink test tube looks like the rose from beauty and the beast

Is that a fucking rail track. I think I remember that one featuring in an ep, but I could be wrong. If I'm right then why was the continuity placed here and not on anything else???

"I got into business to swim with the sharks, not be eaten by them"

Me: Oh, you're declining it? Unexpected.

Peter: I'm in!

Me: ???

That bit of dialogue has always thrown me off. Its the clunkiness.

Bye Peter. It was nice to meet you.

"Break into your usual groups". The dinosquad comes together but kinda acts like they've never interacted before.

Max and Roger seem like they've teamed up before tho.

Caruso at 4:21 is barefoot. He has shoes on at 4:26. We know he had no time to put shoes on and off and on because he's barefoot when he leans over and drops his jacket. When he picks it up he has shoes on again.

...why did they all (I understand Caruso getting his jacket and Buzz getting thrown in) go into the water????

Roger says "nah, I ain't getting in" and then not only gets in the water but throws buzz in.

(The fact that Roger throws Buzz in the water which later results in him becoming a Dino is a great angst fic waiting to happen. If Roger hadn't thrown him in, he would still have been living a normal life)

Ms Moynihan shows up and goes " I thought I made it clear no one was to go in the water"

First off, that was never shown on screen and I don't like that

With the context of dinosquad as a whole, this kind of implies she knows Veloci is dumping his nuclear jizz in the water

I guess it could also be because she didn't want wet students on the bus, but still.

Wait. If no one was suppose to go in the water, and there doesn't seem to be an area with tide pools, then Caruso's stupid sushi list is even more useless since fish don't count.

Anyway, MY BABY RUMP!!! BOOBOO! I LOVE YOU BABY! MY BABY!!!

Hnnngg sexy library I wants please I will crawl into my computer just let me at that library I can live with dinosaur shenanigans. (But can I live with redoing high school? No.)

"Young man, if you don't remember, this is a library 😡 "

My brother in christ, what horrors have you been through that you hear a dinosaur roar and conclude that that is the sound a normal teenager makes naturally.

Caruso's jacket gets shredded. He immidiately blames the dry cleaners. Bro, it was whole when you put it in your locker. What

Fiona gets a tail and it sticks out her truck window. My good bitch, how did you not feel the cold air on your tail???

The fact that Buzz waves his arms while playing video games is kinda adorable

The fact that Ms Moynihan showed them what happened telepathically leaves a lot of possibility for her to leave certain things out and show them only what she wants them to see and think.

And besides that, its also kinda fucked up. There are implications here. My brain is a little fried to parse them all, but there are implications. I know it.

Ohhh!! The cave has a light source! That implies that there are two entrances, which solves my age old question of how tf did they get out of that cave.

Oh holy shit. Young Ms Moynihan is HOT

...she looks a lot like Caruso. Hmmm. Formulating THOUGHTS tm

You think that (if the story she tells is actually true and not her lying to hide a bigger truth that she doesn't want them to know about) Ms Moynihan and Veloci gained the ability to transform because of. Idk. Space radiation or something?

Cuz your genes don't just. Mutate. For no reason. This backstory feels fake af. I think she just lied bc she knew her students knew fuck all about biology and would believe anything

Why did ms Moynihan change foreheads. Did she want to be inclusive and touch everyone's forehead or is she afraid their brains can only handle so much... or did they refuse to hold hands like she asked and now she has to switch foreheads?

"You're a vicious Carnivore!"

"I've moved past that but there is one who hasn't: Victor Veloci"

Might be because I'm getting back into twilight, but this gives off major Vegetarian Vampires vs Normal Vampires vibes.

In this case, Ms Moynihan is Dr Carlisle Cullen and Victor Veloci is Aro Volturi.

"What do you believe?"

Ms Moynihan: "Humans gained dominance because brute force lost out to reason...and love. That's why I parted ways with Veloci long ago."

I smell a Secret. I smell Tea. Spill. I can practically hear tragic dramatic backstory. Was this a "I fell in love story" or a "Veloci didn't care about me" story. Ms Moynihan sounds bitter.

Also, the sheer contempt in her voice when she talks about Victor Veloci. Say what you will about Dinosquad, but it has some pretty good voice acting sometimes.

Max: "I don't want to be a dinosaur"

Ms Moynihan: this is bigger than you, this is about saving the world.

"Can you cure us?"

"Yeah"

Roger: "But I want to stop Victor Veloci :( "

Ms Moynihan mentally: *nevermind, ya'll are too stupid to help me save the world. What was I thinking*

(Genuinely a very confusing arguement. People changed opinions so quickly damn. Not even a line space in between)

"I can't afford all the fancy tech Veloci has" <takes them to her lighthouse filled with huge computers and monitoring equiptment> hmmm. Ms M, I'mma assume you banged some rich bitches in your time and inherited, because no way can you affort a lighthouse on a teacher's salary.

Conclusion: Ms M is loaded.

"The cold forces the Dino DNA to the skin as it seeks warmth" um. That's ominous. It makes the DNA sound like a living parasite. Ugh

Ms Moynihan definitely faked "curing them". She is way too calm about the situation. She was very insistent on them helping her fight Veloci before. And the fact that she could cure literally everything else except for them is sus.

That Megalodon shark was trolling ngl

Veloci sees Fiona as dino: this can only be bc of my experimental dna...or....

That 'or' implies things. Ms Moynihan things.

The fact that Veloci sees the Dinosaurs but not the squad turning into dinosaurs the dinosaurs. Like, by the time Ms Moynihan jammed the feed several transformations have already taken place

Veloci ending with his ominous ass "can't wait to find out more about my new dinosaur friends" is so fun. Love him. Dramatic ass fuck. Ominous. Very sexy.

[sparkling-pink-lemonade]

Got an ignorant hate comment. Felt it deserved it's own post. It's a long one, and technically isn't doing anything productive as I blocked the person. I just like yelling into the void. Mind the tags.

1) You're funny. I'm agnostic, and wasn't even raised christian. It's like an atheist saying "Oh my god" (this can't be real/that's ridiculous) or "God save me" (I'm doomed). "My brother in Christ", what would normally be a term of endearment and familiarity in a christian setting becomes very condescending and 'holier than thou' if said to any non christian (not just jews). Because of that, outside of a christian setting, it's now a term of sarcasm and mockery to point out someone's stupidity and ignorance. So the fact you jumped into a defensive standpoint, calling someone you know nothing about antisemitic over a post that wasn't even directed at you, tells me a lot more about your insecurities.

2) Yes, you're right! It is perfectly reasonable to not WANT people with an involuntary attraction to real life children to INTERACT with your work. But let me lay out a few things. Stop using that word, it does not mean what you think it means. Being attracted to fictional characters depicted as kids in a form of media that is (at least in a non indie setting) designed, and written by a team of adults, fudging up the looks and behaviors of their characters compared to reality to be more appealing to a wide demographic, is not pedophilia. Pedophilia is a mental disorder, where an attraction to children who can't consent is causing direct harm to yourself or those around you in your day to day life. This usually presents itself as crippling distress for the person with the disorder due to their intrusive thoughts, and fear of losing your friends and family should they find out about your disorder. By calling an attraction to fictional character depicted as children "pedophilia" you are doing what's called pedojacketing. Which is a false accusation against someone in attempt to rally others by appealing to their disgust to ruin the life of another person. It causes major harm by both trivializing a serious and often debilitating mental illness into a "voluntary perversion", while also trivializing the seriousness of child predator allegations by equating the sexual abuse of real, breathing children, to that of fictional story that never happened. Most predators aren't even pedophiles, they are attracted to the power imbalance and control, not the kid itself. But that's not what proship is, it's an ideology that people should be allowed to have their own space to enjoy whatever fiction they want without harassment or censorship. And guess what, that doesn't mean we aren't entitled to your space. If our ideology makes you uncomfortable, it's your right to block us and keep us from interacting with your art.

But get this, consuming and interacting are two completely different things. Consuming means you've looked at a piece of art, you watched a video, read a piece of literature, or played a video game. The moment you post something to the public, and not somewhere with restricted access, you forfeit all right to decide who can consume your media. AO3 is a public website, even if you choose the lovely option of only showing your work to people who are logged in (which anyone can get an account), you can't then decide who is allowed to view your work. When you post media publicly, it is impossible to discern every single person who has consumed your work. At best a site may have a "views" counter, or in AO3's case, hits, but it will always remain anonymous. As such, if you don't like the idea of a proshipper consuming your work, congrats, you will never have to know.

Interacting however means that you've consumed a piece of media, and are now making a public display about your consumption where the creator can see it, that individualizes them from the rest of the crowd. A comment, a post, if the media has a non-anonymous "like" function, or non-anonymous subscription/follow function. Most people are sane, and don't go out of their way to do background checks on every single person that interacted with their work. But if it comes to your attention that someone who makes your uncomfortable is interacting with your work where you can see it, then you have the tools to make it so you'll never be able to see or hear from them again. They will still be able to consume your public work, but now you've curated your personal experience.

But if you're so paranoid and disgusted by the idea that someone you find icky or gross might be able to consume your content without your consent, then you have to take responsibility for your own experiencing it and revoke your consent from the wider public by removing your content from a public platform.

This person was deluding themself into believing that consumption was the same thing as interaction and that the existence of a dni means it was the public's responsibility to regulate their online experience for them, and was getting upset at the realization that they can't regulate a public space the same way as a private one, and that people they don't like will be able to see their public work even if they will never know about it.

[redditreceipts]

i hope that whatever you write on here makes your life easier in some way. i don't know how, i just hope it does some good to someone somewhere. a lot of people are struggling right now, a lot of people are angry, and i know you're trying your best to make the world a better, safer place

it's strange how much kinship i feel with GCs on here. you're all screaming for safety, support for the next generation, an end to the oppression, an end to the patriarchy

we might be fighting on opposite sides- we've probably both seen some very different, very hard things. we've both a lot to the ways we have to live. i wish we could get along. i wish it didn't have to be this way

i won't argue that i'm a man despite my biology- not here anyway, there's no point, it won't achieve anything- but i hope you can find more friends like me and understand us better. we're not liars. we don't want to cause danger. i would beg you to listen to us but i understand that you can't.

i understand that you only hate trans women because a lot of men are total pieces of shit and don't care about anyone else. there's no point telling you that most trans women aren't bad. they're not good either. people just do what they do, both good and bad. nobody's perfect, and there are bad people in every area of society. Not all women are good. Goodness and womanhood are two different things.

i hope that your life gets better, and that your world gets bigger, and friendlier, and easier to be in.

-a trans brother

Hey :) thanks for the kind words, but don't you see how you sound kinda like one of these performatively compassionate preachers talking to atheists? something like "hey. I know that you've had it hard. Now it's difficult for you to let Jesus into your heart. You've turned your back to God because people have hurt you. I understand that. But some day, I hope, you will return to Him, because He has nothing but love for you."

And I also don't know where you get the notion that I don't have any trans friends or that I don't know trans people. I interact with trans people about four times a week. Half of the women I've dated have identified as something other than women. I also use preferred pronouns, as long as the person in question is not a total piece of shit.

It would actually kinda funny if we knew each other in real life, and you think that I'm some kind of super progressive person lmao.

And also, why do you think that saying that manhood or womanhood isn't determined by some nebulous non-falsifiable spiritual bullshit means that I hate trans women? Or that I think that all trans women are bad? Or that all biological females are good? I've literally never said that I think that all trans women are bad people. I just say that they are not women.

I also don't know where you get the notion that I think that trans people are lying. I actually think that the majority of trans-identified people actually believe that they are literally the opposite sex, just as the majority of catholics believe that they are literally recieving the body and the blood of Christ in their sermons. The only problem arises when people start to push their beliefs onto others. Everyone is entitled to their own beliefs, but nobody is entitled to affirmation from the world around them.

[sad-eyed-lady-of-the-paperbacks]

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I pretty much never shut up about Dostoevsky novels, and I can talk for quite a long time about Phantom of the Opera and Les Misérables as well. I will try to tag things consistently, so if you don’t like one of my interests you can and should block that tag! It’s quick, it’s easy, and it’s free!

First thing to know is that I very much welcome any and everyone to come talk to me about the books I'm insane about. Anon is on, DMs are open. Just come scream at me about characters or themes or whatever you want. Also, I don't always check my dash super regularly, so if you want me to see a post, please tag me in it or dm it to me! I won't think it's weird, in fact I'll be delighted, I promise!

If l ever unfollow you, you are absolutely welcome to still interact with me, message me, etc. I never want to hurt anyone’s feelings, I just really try to curate my dash because otherwise it’s overwhelming and I don’t go on there at all.

I'm currently running a read-along/book club of The Brothers Karamazov over at @keepingupwiththekaramazovs.

I post fics on ao3 as sad_eyed_lady.

Here's the current list of fandoms I've written for, but for the most current list just go to ao3 itself:

The Idiot - Fyodor Dostoyevsky (6) Les Misérables - Victor Hugo (5) Le Fantôme de l'Opéra | Phantom of the Opera & Related Fandoms (4) Brat'ya Karamazovy | Brothers Karamazov - Fyodor Dostoyevsky (3) Prestuplenie i nakazanie | Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky (1)

I very much appreciate comments, or if you're shy to comment publicly you're more than welcome to message me here; a few people have done that and it's made my entire life. Almost the entire purpose of fanfic for me is the sharing and community of it all.

I am not much of an artist, but occasionally I attempt to do an art when the fannish fervour strikes me. Appropriately enough, these attempts can be found under the tag #my attempts to do an art.

And finally, since tumblr's search function has become so abysmal that I can no longer find my own meticulously-tagged posts, I'm going to try to catalogue some of my messy analyses so that I can find them again. This will be an on-going wrangling effort on my part.

Dostoevsky, Fyodor, The Brothers Karamazov

Musings on class/position in society as relates to the interaction between Katerina Ivanvona and Grushenka in 1.3.10, and how this lens might shift our view.

Grushenka and active love

Healing the rift in The Brothers Karamazov and Crime and Punishment

How Fyodor and Mitya are different (but both human)

Dostoevsky, Fyodor, Crime and Punishment

Some half-formed thoughts regarding parallels between Raskolnikov and Marius Pontmercy and why I'm so much harder on Marius despite, you know, the axe murders.

It was Sonya's window, maybe?

Why 2002 BBC C&P was wrong especially in the way they handled Lizaveta's murder

On Avdotya Romanovna shooting but not killing

Healing the rift in The Brothers Karamazov and Crime and Punishment

Dostoevsky, Fyodor, The Idiot

On Nastasya Filippovna engineering her role as the doomed victim in a gothic narrative

Nastasya giving Rogozhin the details of the murder

Rogozhin wasn't an unstoppable killer who would have killed her no matter what

Comparing and Contrasting Semyon Parfyonovich (Rogozhin's father) and Totsky

On Myshkin imitating Christ

Rogozhin's childhood

Ramblings on Rogozhin's brother, Semyon Semyonovich

Cycles in the Rogozhin family

“Do you see this bouquet man, this monsieur aux camélias?”

Hugo, Victor, Les Misérables

Subcategory: Éponine Realities of the class dynamics between Marius and Éponine in the Brick as opposed to the musical Not an edgy girl who wants to be edgy Not a morally grey character Future trajectory/P-M involvement

Some half-formed thoughts regarding parallels between Raskolnikov and Marius Pontmercy and why I'm so much harder on Marius despite, you know, the axe murders.

A Thénardier turning the tables on Marius's dream

Misc Posts

Master list of all of my The Idiot fics in order

[barrenclan]

i feel like it’s only right to start this one by saying this issue gave me silly warm feelings inside, something i hardly expected from the same comic where the protagonist dug up a skeleton. exactly what i had needed on a warm day

i can’t help but be proud of slugpelt. that one time cleaning with pinepaw and (nightberry?) must have really opened her eyes, and to the point where she realized she should be honest about their father? agh. her starting slow but getting more into the story? you can really see how important cashew was to her before he ditched her.

on that topic, i’m throwing cashew into the paper shredder. or a nut cracker, that might be more fitting. he saw slugpelt as a thing to have fun with!!! he toyed with her feelings bc he thought it was fun!!!!! he never cared about her!!! it came to the point where she thought she could trust him more than the brother she was raised with and i think she had a good relationship with!!! jesus christ!!!! awful kitty!!!!! awful bad kitty!!!!!! i hope he falls into a ditch and becomes one of the skeletons!!

the pinepaw coming out scene, ugggh. how he feels somewhat obligated due to the secret sharing family moment, and his immediate regret and guilt and shame for being ‘different’, and being pulled out of that when his mother comforts him with her muzzle. slugpelt, who hardly interacts with him, comforts him with her muzzle. that scene felt so special because of it, they’re all coming out of their shells and it’s so special. and slugpelt saying how she’s never heard of it before, but that doesn’t matter to her and she doesn’t think he’s weird??? that hit close to home personally which probably aided in my warm fuzzies, but i digress. his family is soo supportive and it makes me so happy, everyone in their own way with asphodelpaw being like “haha yeah the way u look at cormorantpaw makes it obvious hahahaha” and daffodilpaw being all “omg us moment”. i enjoy they all don’t act the same, it really cements how different they all are but how like this they’re still able to come together

it ending with it seems like a crack was sealed? my hEART. i want nothing but the best for this family oh my god. i love these warrior kitties i need them all to grow big and strong and for slugpelt to attend a therapist. actually all of them need a therapist probably

thanks for another good issue!!!! patfw means so much to me this issue is gonna sit in my head for the day

Heheh, this is a comic of both horrors and funtimes! We gotta have a good balance.

YEP that was exactly the moment, from Issue 15! When she realized that she was falling into her mother's patterns due to the neglect she suffered from her partner, and made an effort to turn way from it.

Cashew's a bad little man. I appreciate your righteous anger towards him, it's exactly what he deserves.

I'm so glad you liked the coming out scene, I played around with that one a lot to make sure it felt right! It was also important to me that all of his family members would react in different ways, but in the end they're supportive of him. It makes me really happy that you're enjoying the story. :)

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ok my turn, PLEASE INTERACT IF:

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when i was in girl scouts they took my troop of 3 kids to john's incredible pizza and they were like "make a pizza" so the other kids made pizzas with slightly unorthodox combinations meanwhile i continually stacked layers of cheese and pepperoni and sausage and cheese and pepperoni and sausage and i distinctly remember it being very tall and all the little girls at the table being like "that's so tall that's not going to work" and i just kept making my tower of babel and waiting for god to finally strike me down and there was only one layer of sauce. and my father was desperately trying to stop me but he failed. and when they popped it in the oven it shrank down into a miserable little thing and i was convinced they had swapped out my incredible pizza with someone else's but then i cut it open and i saw my glorious layers of pepperoni and sausage and cheese. and i bit into it and it sucked ass.

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My #1 post of 2022

ok. big spoons or small spoons. [as in silverware]. and if youre autistic or not

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[janeeyreheresy]

The Party at Thornfield

The merry company, as I will call them, depart Leas and arrive at Thornfield. This is where it gets interesting. Rochester makes Jane sit in the drawing room with the guests. Now, refer to my list in the Enter Mr Rochester post, item number 7. She has not seen any of the society, the only people she ever had anything to do with were the teachers and pupils at Lowood and the live-in staff at Thornfield Hall. 

How can she be expected to know how to behave among these people? Also, and this is a crucial point: a governess is an awkward position--higher than the servants, but lower than the family. Rochester must have realised that. And if he didn't, somebody would have no doubt reminded him--Lady Lynn or Lady Ingram, most likely. In fact I wager they probably did, off-page. And were made the villains for it. (The book is written from Jane's POV, so we never see any other characters interacting, unless Jane overhears them.)

The first evening of the merry company's stay, Jane hears Rochester sing for the first time. He's a good singer, with a fine bass voice. This gets her into such an emotional state that she has to, as soon as a chance allows, flee the drawing room in haste, through a side door. She fails to escape him, however. He catches up with her in the hall. Acting like nothing happened, he pesters her with mundane questions, like what she's been doing while he was away.

My brothers in Christ, WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK SHE'S BEEN DOING??? She's there to do a JOB, you know the same one you're paying her for, she's doesn't have time to fuck around like you, Edward!!! 

He does this despite being clearly aware of her distress. He even comments on it--she's paler than when he last saw her, her eyes look teary, he wonders if she's depressed. Yet, he orders her to sit in the drawing room every evening for the duration of the merry company's stay at Thornfield.

Correct me if I'm wrong, but that is not a part of governess's job description. The duty of a governess is to teach and train the child or children she's in charge of. Sitting in the drawing room with people of a higher social standing is not only not a job, it's also--well, stupid. (Not to mention cruel, in Jane's case. An older governess with more experience in working for this class of people would have handled it much better.) The only way such an order would make sense was if there was something shady going on and you were working for an investigator by observing the scene and the suspects. Rochester gives no reason for his order and Jane doesn't ask. She just goes with it. So much for her sassing him out.

He parts with:

"Now go, and send Sophie for Adèle. Good-night, my—” He stopped, bit his lip, and abruptly left me. 

My what? Why does he not finish the sentence? 

And why is he so afraid of a servant catching them? This is his own house. Even if a passing servant is a concern, there are a hundred ways to deal with it. "Meet me in the garden in five minutes, Jane." Or, better, he could wait till she's in her room, then follow her and knock on the door. "Hi. Me again. I didn't finish. I meant to say, good night my beloved." Add a kiss as a bonus. Also: "Bear with me while this company is here, I couldn't get out of it. I'm negotiating a mega deal with Sir George." Jesus. It's so simple. Talkless of the fact that, if he marries Jane, she will become a mistress of Thornfield and will have to be entertaining this type of people!

Jane, realising her own plainness, compares herself to the beautiful Blanche Ingram, member of the merry company, whom she suspects Rochester wants to marry. He does nothing to dispel this notion, quite the opposite. Deception is old Edward's forte. Take, for example, the time he dresses up as an old gypsy woman, who earns her living by telling fortunes.

[strangefellows]

Sasaki Kojiro, Charles-Henri Sanson, Phantom of the Opera, Lancelot

First impression

Kojiro: Oh I know that name!!! Oh dude he's pretty hot.

Sanson: Who the actual fuck is Sanson, okay I gotta go google that shit right now.

Phantom: YOOOOOOOO HEY ERIK WHAT'S UP MY DUDE YOU'RE REALLY PRETTY IN FATE ACTUALLY, GOOD JOB MY MAN

Lancelot: For Berserkerlot: YOOOOOOOOOOO FUCKING BADASS HOLY SHITTTTTTTTTT / For Saberlot: Oh, so that's what he looks like when he's not having a crazy day, he's cute!

Impression now

Kojiro: Even if he doesn't have much to him, he's still pretty damn cool, let's be real.

Sanson: MY LOVE MY LOVE MY LOVE MY LOVE SALEM SOLD ME ON YOU FOREVER MY FAVORITE ASSASSIN TAKE MY GRAILS My Sanson is 90 okay that should tell you everything.

Phantom: What a FASCINATING version of him, he's very fun. I love his fourth Ascension art.

Lancelot: IDIOT STUPID DUMBASS HIMBO (affectionate) I love this guilt ridden mess of a man who desperately wants to be an Okay Dad he's my favorite of the KOTR Idiot Trio by far.

Favorite moment

Kojiro: LOOK, HIS DUEL WITH MUSASHI AT THE END OF SHIMOUSA FUCKED TEN KINDS OF ASS AND IT NEVER CEASES TO BE GLORIOUS. But also his last duel with Saber in UBW slapped hard.

Sanson: Salem, everything about Salem, but most of all his arc's finale where he saves Lavinia and gets executed, like goddamn son that was incredible.

Phantom: I loved him in Summercamp after we break the spell on him, he's so SWEET and FUSSY when he's having a normal day.

Lancelot: Every single time Mash destroys him and he thanks his daughter for doing it. But also Lancelot vs Agravain in the OVA was absofuckinglutely the most metal thing I have ever seen???? Also like, the big damn heroes in LB6 was golden.

Idea for a story

Kojiro: I NEED to explore this whole 'Kojiro doesn't really exist' thing but also Musashi interactions PLEASE. Let him hang out with his killer his enemy his friend the only reason he exists, only she's not really, she's another version, let's explore that.

Sanson: Good christ I NEED more of exploring his mindset especially reading about his role in the French Revolution.

Phantom: Anything would be fun, he's an interesting one to look at for sure.

Lancelot: KOTR INTERACTIONS!!! I want to explore the Gwen thing, I want to explore the madness, I want to explore his obvious insanely strong Catholic Guilt, but man I want to have him interact with Merlin for REASONS

Unpopular opinion

Kojiro: He's not popular enough to have those unfort lol.

Sanson: SHRUG EMOJI????

Phantom: IDK man these three are pretty minor Servants lol.

Lancelot: LANCELOT DID SOME THINGS WRONG BUT BOINKING GWEN WAS NOT ONE OF THEM

Favorite relationship

Kojiro: Him and Musashi for sure, but he and Artoria had an interesting thing going.

Sanson: Him and Marie for SUUUUUURE, him and Charlotte as well, definitely, considering he historically executed her and her dialogue for him. But also he and Robin had that really fun dynamic going.

Phantom: He doesn't...interact with many people, does he?

Lancelot: ARTORIA. GUENIVERE. THE WHOLE ASS ROUND TABLE. GALAHAD/MASH. THERE'S SO MUCH.

Favorite headcanon

Kojiro: I don't have many headcanons but I like to think he got really easily bored stuck at the gates and did stupid shit to pass the time.

Sanson: He looks tired All The Time, does he sleep god only knows. He's incredibly fussy towards Fujimaru, though, like a big brother. He's the only sane person on the Chaldea Medical Team.

Phantom: He 100000% is aware of the musical and if you sneak up on him you'll possibly catch him humming Music of the Night. DO NOT I REPEAT DO NOT mention The Sequel That Doesn't Exist.

Lancelot: He can speak perfectly fluent French, which terrifies people when they hear it. His accent is a horrible amalgam of British and French and it's almost kinda funny, the French part gets thicker when he gets upset. He's lowkey VERY religious, and he's the only person in Camelot who noticed that Merlin was lowkey terrified of Christian stuff and suspected there was more to it than "oh he's just half demon of course he is".

[weepingseraphstranger]

Rant. Very frustrated.

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Anyone who supports that orange devil Trump can block me. ♡

If you hate my existence that much as a child-free non-heterosexual non-Christian woman who came from a WoC, you're such a disgrace. SUCH a disgrace to humanity.

Do you know how much I was fearing for my future because of every person he brought into office? How much I felt scared to live in this country when abortion was being targeted? How much I feel scared everytime that brain dead hooligan denies that our planet is dying? How much I feel scared that people still support him when he acts like he's had a few drinks and is giving a hand at the most absurd, crappy stand up comedy known to man? He sounds like my narcissistic, abusive father...and y'all eat that shit up??? And then call people who care for things that MATTER sheep? Filthy? Reduce them to nothing but "stupid leftists" and "creepy liberals" (which I can go on about how y'all are the creeps supporting a man who would fuck his daughter and a side that supports child brides, but I digress.)

Especially when I don't even like the democratic side, either, but I know who the lesser of the two evils is. Spoiler: not y'all. Not the side with that alternate reality Annoying Orange with an extra dose of money, narcissism, and lack of compassion. Not the one with people who claim they're holy people but look at a man who is actively a vile person as if he's the second coming of Christ. Cult mentality much?

Do you know how much I'm fearing for not only my future, but my half brother's, my sister's, my mother's and anyone else whose not a straight cis white Christian rich American born man who has so many kids inbreeding is probably unavoidable at that point?

No, you don't because you lack basic empathy and thinking processes to understand. You see a devil incarnate talking like the drunk man at the bar in a small country town who should be medicated and clap your hands like babies watching cocomelon. You guys won't even care if he starts wanting to oppress you and that is so sad.

Because you guys are so full of hate towards women, people of colour, trans people, non-heterosexuals, anyone who doesn't follow catholicism or Christianity, people who decide not to have kids, poor people (Although I'm assuming half the people who hang onto Trump's words like they're the plot twist in a soap opera are struggling for money so...not a good look for y'all), science, cats (for some reason. Red flag.) —Wait just animals in general because someone's family does trophy hunting (aka not hunting for the food, m'kay) and Peanut the Squirrel is only an exception to your guys war on animals tbh because you're only using him to further your political smear campaign against the side that probably cares about animals and their environment more, and just about anything that's not real science denying, oppression, absurd conspiracy theories, and uplifting the rich and powerful.

So yes, block me. I'd revel never having to interact with someone like you.

[oliveee-star]

I just went to a haunted house with my family and would like to share some of the best parts as someone who doesn't get scared easily:

While we were waiting in line, a skeleton lady in a red dress came up to us. My brother held me up to her and I stood there while she pretended to cut my neck with a fake knife. Amazing experience btw it was hilarious

Also in line, a girl in a white dress with black ooze coming out of her mouth came up to my sister. She was terrified out of her mind and the performer kept sticking her tongue. We laughed at the way my sister cowered in fear

There were multiple times where a man with a bag over his head chased us with a chainsaw. I was completely out of breath but it was totally awesome nonetheless.

We got photos with a clown statue! It was very cutesy 🎀

I had a very wholesome interaction with a Staff member who had really short blonde hair and super cute glasses. I complimented her hair and she said "awww, thank you! I love your hair!" and that made me feel nice so I just thought I'd share

In the actual house, there was a room that was like the freezers filled with meat—like the ones that have the cow's carcasses hanging from the ceiling right? I forgot what it's called but you get the point. Looked awesome

On multiple occasions did performers pop up out of nowhere, or stand still for a few seconds so we thought it was a statue and then chase after us. It felt oddly nice to see their faces through their masks when I did not react

There were lots of rooms that had creaky bridges, as well as one of those rooms with a bridge that has moving walls all around it so you think you're spinning. Very fun!

Some robotic things that looked like dead, bloody, naked grandmas with strobe lights kept popping out of the walls and at one point I just said, "you really need to work on getting a good skincare routine."

Before you go in there's a family photo place and so we took ours and then got in line. I proceeded to yell at a few teenage girls taking their photos, "BADDIESSSS! POSE FOR ME; ASS FAT SLIM THICK NO TUMMY" and we had a laugh

My sister told one of the performers that his mask was "cute! that makes you look sexy" as a joke and he proceeded to follow her around

I asked a performer if he liked pineapple on pizza and he just shook his head no. My brother shouted "right answer!" and I shouted "WRONG" at the same time and then we just gave each other a really judgemental look

On multiple occasions did I ask performers if I could get their snap, or friend them on roblox. (As a joke, of course.) They all looked at me weird and moved on.

There was a room with a phone that kept ringing and my brother and I both said, in sync, "hullo? hullo hullo?" like Phone Guy from FNaF. T'was quite amusing

There was a room that was supposed to be a run down Chinese restaurant with a distorted audio of someone calling out order number. I proceeded to order egg rolls and I could've SWORN the audio responded to me like "5 egg rolls? Will that be all? Okay that'll be 5.99 at the first window thank you ma'am"

The room right after that had a girl pop out and just continuously scream at us as she writhed on a table. My brother used a British accent and curled up his mustache to be all like, "screaming child! Oh, dear me, where have your parents run off to?"

There was a mirror maze like the Funhouse in It: Chapter Two and I got completely lost 💀

There were also lots of times where I didn't react to the scares that I just complimented the performer's makeup or masks. They mostly responded by doing a sinister laugh or screaming at me, but there was one time a performer looked appreciative for a moment but then looked at me like "oh shit I just broke character"

There was some random photo of Joseph Smith hung on the wall and as a (non-active) member of the church of Jesus Christ of latter day saints I personally thought that was hilarious

Overall, it was a 10/10 experience and I'd totally go back with my friends or something. I loved hearing little kids scream bloody murder. It's called "13th Floor Haunted House" for anyone who wants to go, and you have to be at least thirteen to enter