#MAKES ME SO MAD THAT I FEEL LIKE IM FAKING THINGS FOR ATTENTION IM NOT IM NOT IM NOT
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no one can say a disorder or neurodivergence cause ill be like "what if you have it." "I DONT I DONT I DON'T I DONT, IM JUST DOING THOSE BEHAVIORS BECAUSE I KNOW ITS A PART OF THAT AND I WANT THE ATTENTION FOR HAVING THAT"
#silly little bear bitches :[#< chat you really gonna wanna block this tag soon lol#lowkey kinda wanna cry#i can not stim in peace no toe walking nothing for me#can i invite a neurotypical person over just to see if im normal or not#MAKES ME SO MAD THAT I FEEL LIKE IM FAKING THINGS FOR ATTENTION IM NOT IM NOT IM NOT
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sometimes my bestfriend is like an angel in disguise istg
#i was justttttt thinking that aw it's so sad that navratri music is playling everywhere and i don't have friends to go with#like last year atleast i had tuition sorta friends but now ive isolated them too it sucks#but i was like well it's okay ill do it when i grow up celebrate every festival i didn't get to in my house because we just never do#and then she calls and she's like let's go this club jahan every year famous hota hai full celebration#and i was like ehh i don't want to i don't even know how to play and ill have to convince dad for raat can't we just#go to a cafe or something dopahar mein uske liye i don't even need permission#and she even agreed but she sounded sad and disappointed about it so i was like well fuck it you want to go club na#and she was like yeahhh so i was like aagh okay and i asked and we're going tomorrow!!!!!#and it's so ridiculous like i just say i don't want to go but it's actually so exciting to go someplace other than a cafe!!!!#and i was complaining to her ki okay ill go but i won't dress up and five mins later me and mumma are making full outfit with dupatta#style decided jewellery she has saved for years that are specifically navratri types and she's like we'll get my blouse altered it's fine#you know being sick has really given me perspective on my parents#im not going to hate my mom anymore i never used to growing up i always thought she was brave but helpless#but a stupid day in 12th i realised when we were talking that technically she COULF get divorced she just#doesn't want to because she'll be alone and she thinks we're growing up and leaving anyway so why should she let go of financial#stability for us. which is wild to me because girl you can't buy anything you want without his permission so i don't understand what's the#point if he's rich or poor but whatever whatever she's been raised this way etc etc#but anyway being sick really made me realise who the real monster is😭 all dad did was shout horribly at me all the time#and was like don't you dare take meds they're fake this is all just junk food stop eating it and you'll be fine. when i was literally#having 103 FEVER.#and mom was the one who was making me different drinks juices cutting up fruits staying with me as i get my blood drawn#checking my fever sote jaagte#like wow i literally wouldn't have gotten better if it wasn't for her and i couldn't believe how attentive and nice she was being#like yes i understand she just thinks this is her duty she's just playing her role a mother a housewife but still#idk i just realized that okay atleast she's good at being a mother dad isn't even that why am i feeling good about him when his love#not even love his politeness is so fucking conditional#and mom healed me even tho i told her about clubbing and drinking lots of alcohol she's kinda against it because she's seen#horrible things in life family yucky men but still she understands ans trusts my sister mostly and know we just do it for fun and she#wasn't even mad!!!!!!! like wow ooay#moms love is actually not conditional for the first time in my life i felt like if i fall maybe she could be there to catch me and dad wld
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Depression/PTSD recovery is wild because you could be doing greater than you've ever been in your life but then one small thing happens that reminds you of "that time" and suddenly all of the past emotions flood back into you and you feel like you're back to being the kid who's crying and shaking in the corner wondering if the people closest to you would be so much happier without you
#im being accused of faking my disabilities again and having them used against me#my mom hasnt talked to me for 2 days because of a shower chair being in the wrong spot#and said i use my adhd as an excuse to be stupid#and then i conftonted my partner about how he broke his promise to call me 3 days in a row#and he was drunk and saying things about how i cant understand how exhausted he is working 12 hr days (valid)#but then started calling me privileged for ''being able to sit at home all day and do nothing''#(he knows that im only stuck in bed on my bad days and that i definitely do not do ''nothing'')#so i asked him to call me back the next day(sunday) when he was sober. he never called me so i had to call him. he was drunk#so i got mad that he couldn't even stay sober for a COUPLE OF HOURS to talk to me#when hes sober hes super understanding and will take my feelings into consideration immediately#but he kept taking me confronting him as an insult and started calling me names like lazy and a crybaby#and this is the person who has always treated me perfect otherwise and does everything he can to make me feel better#and his personality COMPLETELY SWITCHED and he sounded exactly like my abusive exes#i sent him recordings of the call and he sent me 2 messages saying hes sorrh and hes gonna work on his drinking and was gonna call yesterday#then i didnt hear from him again and while he was ignoring my calls he made a post on fb (that he never uses) that he wasn't going to be#talking to anyone for a while because im the only person who cares about him#and i commented and was like hello??? im that one person and you're actively ignoring me?? and he deleted the post????#he didnt even send a message saying he wouldnt be able to call me#he never answered but when i called him today while he was at work he just responded ''cant talk im at work'' and i was like yeah ik but#im trying to get your attention because you wont tell me whats going on#and begged him to call me after work#hes acting like a completely different person now and i have a strong feeling that it's because at the place he works at in texas#they're made to work all day in a 110° warehouse#and with his insomnia and having to be at work between 3-5am he's barely sleeping while doing all of this#so im hoping his behavior is just a symptom of heat exhaustion and lack of sleep#because this isnt like him at all#im begging and begging for his attention and affection the same way i did with my abusive exes and my mom#i dont know what's going on
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rapper!onyankopon.
just some head canons i have.
in my head im imagining a blend of dave and fridayy, where he can sing as well (he got variety!). same universe as my musicproducer!connie fic but reader is not famous here, as opposed to w/ connie’s. (lol i gave her a last name too—davis.) in my mind, im picturing ony from the uk and connie from ny.
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rapper!ony who first pops up on the scene in a music video of his friend connie’s song. he wasn’t featured on the track, but rather just in the background getting hype with everyone else.
but y’all know how the girlies get when a fine black man/woman/person start trending.
rapper!ony who wasn’t shy about his craft, but just wasn’t big on social media. his agent hated it, he loved it. he simply released music, let people know, and then went about his business.
rapper!ony was trending and although he didn’t take this as an opportunity to get in his social media bag, his best friend, musicproducer!connie did!
rapper!ony who goes from a couple thousand people knowing what he does to over a million people screaming his lyrics at they’re phones on tiktok in ONE night.
“bro, you can’t even get mad at me gang!” connie yelled from his shower. ony was sitting outside, accosting his friend for what he did. “you said you didn’t care what happened to the project!”
“but tell me if you gon post it and make it a whole thing, nigga damn!” ony yelled back.
rapper!ony who now has to adjust to his quickly rising popularity. he has yet to know the number of artists looking for a feature; and he doesn’t know that he secretly has some of these industry boys shaking in their boots because where the hell he come from?
no, rapper!ony is too busy focusing on whyyy they’re a million fan edits of him across tiktok and instagram. clips of him from his streams, connie’s videos, and his other friend’s content.
ony groans as connie’s message banner pops up on his phone, the message being a link to a tiktok. when he clicked it, it was a fan edit of him using his song ‘when it comes to you’. “bro, who keeps sending these to you, man?!” ony exclaimed. connie heard it from his room and snickered.
rapper!ony who had to adjust to being the attention at these red carpet events. he usually just walked behind connie and his girl, along with the rest of the entourage but now he is getting stopped for photographs.
there’s nothing like listening to music live. so rapper!ony puts on a fake smile and pushes through the crowded carpet to get inside. he waves to people he’s worked with, artists, and fans who called out to him. all so he can hear some music.
he sees connie holding hands with his girlfriend, both of them making goofy faces at the cameras. he softly smiles at the couple, but before he could make way, connie somehow senses him and turns to him “ony! ven aquí!” damn!
rapper!ony who doesn’t expect much from the awards show. just to go, support connie, and go home. he was nominated,yeah, but he was also in the category with some of the most popular artists right now…so he wasn’t feeling all that confident.
rapper!ony who is shocked as shocked can be when his name is called from the podium for best new artist.
“F**CK YEAH!” connie yelled, jumping up from his seat along with his girl and the rest of the table—aran, zora, jean, armin, and mikasa.
rapper!ony who walks up on stage with connie who is still screaming from excitement.
“uhhh, i’m not gonna lie, mans weren’t expecting to win still.” ony laughed, running a hand over his fresh waves. the audience laughed with him.
“first i would like to thank God, the most high who has blessed me with this amazing opportunity. i want to thank my people for having my back; connie—this man,” ony pointed behind him to connie, who was full out filming the moment on his phone.
“who told me on a random day when we were cleaning out our college dorm room that if we made a project together we would be the new heartthrobs of the generation. connie i thank you for being you; having my back and working alongside me. my brother for life, that is.” connie screamed, and so did his girlfriend from the audience as the claps poured in.
“and finally, i want to thank my heart in human form. the woman who made all of this possible, y/n davis. she don’t like the attention so im gonna hear bout this name drop when i get home. but babes, i love you, and thank you for being my rib. i owe you the world and more. and to her parents, thank you for my better half. thank you lot again. love!” ony raised his hand with the award, smiling and waving to the crowd and cameras as he walked to the back.
meanwhile, across the country, cuddled up in her bed was y/n, who was watching the award show before going to sleep. she had expressed to ony she wasn’t too sure about going, not liking the cameras and attention. he reassured her it was okay because there wasn’t any way he would be winning with who else was in the category.
so…safe to say when you saw your boyfriend on the stage with the award in his hand, you could not contain your shock and excitement. you jumped out of bed screaming and quickly getting to your phone camera to record the tv. squeals and “yeah baby” was all you could say as he gave connie his thanks.
but then… when you heard him say your name, for everyone around the world to hear, everything just turned to shock as your phone fell from your frozen hands, still recording. you were stunned. he said your name. your government name. on national television.
“ONY!!!”
#🌞🍃spliffymae#ony x black reader#ony x y/n#rapper!ony#music producer connie#au#anime x black!reader#aot x black reader#attack on titan#onyankopon#onyankopon x black!reader#aot
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Hi love!! I hope you’re having a wonderful day, could i possibly request a sirius x fem reader where reader just had an unbelievably long day at work (im projecting uni is kicking my behind) and she comes home so worn out and extra clingy cause she needs extra love and attention from sirius and of course our pretty boy is more than happy to oblige? thank you <333
this is so relatable, thank you for requesting angel, i hope you enjoy!
sirius black x fem!reader, fluff
sirius is trying to watch a film while he waits for you at home.
well, he's trying but he's not very good at focusing on the plot today. he keeps thinking of your voice, your sad and tired tone, your fake words to convince him that you're doing okay and he doesn't need to come get you from work. he keeps staring at the screen of his laptop just to make minutes go faster, his eyes are empty when his mind is full of you.
the sound of your keys unlocking the door makes him jumpy a little, he leaves the laptop on the couch to see you. your bag hangs from your shoulder, your eyes look puffy from what he can see, you don't look steady enough to move one more step. sirius frowns but he's quick to take your bag as you kick your shoes.
"welcome back, lovely." he says, quietly. you give him a worn out smile, sirius helps you with your jacket before he takes you in his arms. your hold isn't nearly as strong as his but you still hug him. he realizes you are almost ready to melt into his arms but you need a little time to do that. he brushes a quick kiss on your hair before he can see your face better.
his warm fingers push your hair back. "are you okay?"
you nod, giving him another smile. "better."
sirius supports you gently to go to the bedroom. you sit on bed as he brings you some comfy clothes. the way your eyes seem so blurry breaks his heart, he wants your spark back. he kneels in front of you and holds your hands, a kiss for each knuckle.
"can i help you change?"
you squeeze his hands. "i want to take a shower first, i think. i feel so messy like this."
he nods, stands up from his spot. "do you want me to come with you?" normally he'd ask the question teasingly, he'd smirk until you go mad but this time he's being cautious.
you nod, shyly. "but i don't think i can stay on my feet for too long."
"i'll hold you." he says. "i'll wash your hair and rub your back a bit under hot water, yeah? how does it sound, gorgeous?"
you smile and pull his face towards yourself with the last piece of strength you have. you kiss him for how sweet he's being, he wants to kiss you longer but you don't feel good enough and he knows.
sirius practically carries you to the shower, he helps you out of your clothes to get you under the hot water. he gets in with you, you lean into his chest as he holds you from your waist, his fingers are drawing circles on your skin. you make a sound that melts his heart, your muscles finally get to relax. sirius holds the back of your head to press your face on his neck. you kiss him and close your eyes, the water takes away all the stress you have from your tough day.
you think you'll fall asleep on your feet, leaning against sirius. he washes your hair and his long fingers rubbing your scalp feels perfect. he rinses the shampoo slowly, massages your shoulders with the rest of the bubbles. he cups your cheeks to see your eyes, finds them unfocused and sleepy. "come on, you lovely thing. you have to wait until we go to bed to sleep, yeah? i'll finish in a minute."
you hum, your head falls on his shoulder as you hold onto him like a koala. "i love you so much."
sirius's laugh echoes in the bathroom. "i know, baby." he says. "i love you, too. just keep your eyes open for me."
you nod, trying to do as he says. he finishes quickly just like he promises and you are out of the shower. you don't even have to move a muscle, sirius does everything for you. he doesn't say anything until he gets you nice and comfy, you feel like your heart will explode out of the amount of love you have for him.
you feel a lot better after a warm shower, you decide, the minutes spent under water clean you up in every way. you can feel the thoughts in your brain still exhaust you, but you can't have everything you want at the same time. for now, being physically clean helps a lot.
you change into the clothes sirius picked for you, one of his t-shirts and one of your little shorts. water drips from your hair and you try to use the towel to keep it a little dry. you sigh when your muscles stretch in a comforting but disturbing way.
sirius comes next to you after he finishes getting dressed himself, he stays behind as he takes the towel from your hands. he gently gathers all your hair in his hand and kisses your neck lovingly. you close your eyes, his lips feel like heaven on your skin. tilting your head back, you lean into him until he gives your another kiss.
"my poor baby." he whispers. you hum, needy for every touch. "let's brush your hair."
he does as he says, his fingers move to untangle your hair. he uses the comb after applying some oil you like, and you feel good enough to turn around when he finishes. he leaves the comb on your nightstand, his arms holding you immediately. you bury your face to his neck, the mixed smell of your shampoo and his cologne fill your senses.
"do you wanna go to bed?" he asks. "or maybe the couch?"
"the bed please." you say. he is quick to lift the covers to help you lay in bed. you can cry when you feel soft mattress under your tired body, a sound leaves your lips when you try to get comfortable.
"are you hungry, sweetheart?" sirius asks.
you shake your head. "i don't feel like eating, siri."
sirius hums, he knows he shouldn't force you. he plans a full breakfast for the morning quickly in his mind. "what about some tea, baby? the one you like that smells like berries?"
you think this option for a second, but even though the thought of a hot cup of tea sounds perfect, you don't feel good enough to sit and drink something. you extend a hand to him, he sits next to you on bed, careful eyes watching your every expression.
"maybe later." you say, a smile forming on your lips to convince him you're okay. "won't you come closer?"
sirius places himself gently in bed, right next to you. he is holding you instantly and you wrap yourself around him. his one hand starts rub your shoulder blades, and the other one goes to your hair. he kisses your head, and once more until he loses a breath.
there are voices in your head, they've been there the entire day. you were begging for some silence at some point when you called sirius but controlling your mind is not so easy. you just bury yourself closer to him like you're hiding from the world and he keeps you there. a slow teardrop falls on his neck from your eyes, your lips form a soft pout.
then the voices stop.
because now there's him talking and only him. his beautiful voice reaches your ears and you calm down easily. "it's okay." he says, his fingers are kind in your hair. "my baby's just tired, but you'll feel better. we'll stay in bed until you feel like yourself again, okay?"
you nod automatically, your lips pressed on his neck but not quite kissing. he kisses you instead, covers your forehead with fond brushes of his lips. "let's try to get some sleep, sweetheart." his voice is low. "close your eyes, pretty girl."
"sirius?"
"hmm?"
"thank you." you whisper before breathing him in and closing your eyes for sleep.
"you are so lovely, do you know that?" he blinks, tightens his arms around you. "no need for that, i'm just trying to take care of my girl."
#sirius black#sirius black x reader#sirius black x you#sirius black x fem!reader#sirius x reader#sirius x you#sirius black imagine#sirius black fluff#sirius black fic#marauders#marauders imagine#marauders fic#marauders fluff
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doodoo fart 🦨 would you still love me if I was bald?
Rintaro doesn’t even get a chance to finish the water his sipping before he spits it back out, choking on it as he laughs aloud in front of his teammates.
The entire team turns to look at him, a brow cocked in confusion while he chuckles amongst himself.
Komori is the first to smile and chuckle himself, “something you’d like to share with the group, Suna?”
He wipes his mouth with the back of his hand before shaking his head, never being one to share your discussions with the group. He has an image, okay, and you being an absolute cracked menace is going to bring that image down one day- this, he’s convinced of.
“The better half’s just funny is all,” he says casually, watching his team begins to chatter once again in the locker room. Komori gives him an unconvinced, yet understanding look before letting him back to his phone where he’s finally able to face your
SENT is there something I need to be prepared for when I get home?
doodoo fart 🦨 depends on how you reply
would you
still love me
if i was bald
SENT I feel like this is a trap.
doodoo fart 🦨 you’re the one who leaves me alone all the time
im bound to fuck around when you’re gone.
Once again, Rintaro laughs to himself before he rises to excuse himself from the crowd. The possibility of you being bald is plenty to excite him and his amusement, wondering if you’ve done something unholy to your poor head.
He thinks you’d be hot with no hair. And wash days would just be such a breeze. Maybe there’s some merit to your potential madness.
He presses the small button to FaceTime you, settling up a small distance from the door- you’ve both been known to say some unsavory things, the last thing you need is to give Washio another reason to retire.
The phone rings once, twice, and a third before you answer, your ugly stunning face filling his screen. To his shame, his eyes immediately dart to the scalp of hair that still adorns your head, and he bites his lip as you cackle a victorious cheer.
He’s been duped by your stupid ass.
“I knew you’d take my bait,” you snicker. He laughs as he’s caught red handed, poking his tongue in the corner of his mouth while you laugh. “You think you’re soooo slick, like you aren’t obsessed with me. You aren’t shit, bro.”
“I’ve been letting you hang out with the twins too much,” he snickers, leaning against the brick wall of the stadium. “Though I would’ve scream-laughed if you answered the phone and was completely bald.” You snort and he cards a massive hand through his sweaty hair, “there a reason you triggered a panic response in me at-“ he pauses and looks at the clock in the corner of his phone “15:44 on a Tuesday?”
“Because you’re cute when you’re panicked,” you hum, and he gives you his signature blank stare before chuckling when you laugh. “I mean it! Your pupils go a little dilated, you card your hair until it’s all fluffy, and you get this adorable blush-“
“I got it, you pay attention to me,” he groans, hand scrubbing down his face. “You’re so embarrassing.”
“You love me so much, man.”
“Shut up-“
“Truly living rent free in that noggin.”
“I’m gonna tell Komori on you.”
“Good, he’ll tell you the same thing,” you snort, and Rintaro shakes his head, grinning, as a sign of waving his white flag. “Go back to practice, booger. I’ll bug you later.”
“Promise?” He says, smiling while you give him a fake gag.
“After that, I don’t know.”
“I’ll take those odds.” He chuckles again before murmuring a soft ‘love you’ and hanging up; he pockets his phone and makes his way back into the arena.
Bald or not, and as much as he hates to confess it, he does adore your stupid ass and the antics that come with it.
Ugh.
#I do love this bitchass#suna rintaro#suna rintaro fluff#suna rintaro x reader#suna rintaro x gn!reader#suna rintaro x reader fluff#suna rintaro imagine#suna rintaro haikyuu#suna#suna fluff#suna x reader#suna x gn!reader#suna x reader fluff#suna imagine#suna haikyuu#haikyuu#haikyuu fluff#haikyuu imagine#haikyuu x reader#haikyuu x reader fluff#haikyuu x gn!reader#haikyuu x gender neutral reader#haikyuu x you#haikyuu x y/n#haikyuu x yn
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Bob headcannon Faking being a man in the easy company then getting discoverd ,and maybe make slightly romantic
Hi hon! This one was super fun :) im steadily working through the requests but I’ve got a huge pile of them haha! Feel free to keep sending me requests though! I love them! More under the cut, cut for length, some light spice and mentions of the female body included, some are platonic and some are not:
Dick Winters:
-Listen, this man clocks it straightaway. He’s practically the leader of Easy Company in Toccoa and he just KNOWS 😂
-That being said, he’s also not gonna confront you about it unless problems arise or you being a woman becomes prevalent. He will, however, keep a closer eye on you and watch your back more. -Becomes your friend genuinely in the hopes that you’ll trust him enough to ask for help when you need it. -The least likely to make a move on you the entire time….but also the one who hides the fact that he has feelings so that you won’t get discovered. -And when you finally actually tell him and he’s not surprised?? He’s just glad that you have someone to talk to and that he can be there for you during all of this. -Probably comes to find you after the war and tells you how he feels
Lewis Nixon:
-Also knows since Toccoa. He’s the intelligence officer and he’s out here side-eying you from day one 👀
-Which means he’s not hovering but he definitely pays attention when you’re mentioned and keeps an eye on whatever you’re up to
-Probably offers you a drink at least once and that’s when information is shared and he’s just like, “yeah?? Tell me something I don’t know lol.” -Also offers to share a foxhole with you and makes sure that you don’t freeze to death. Is actually very soft on you. -Confides in you about his marriage problems and you tell him all about your life back home and what was going on. -Honestly?? It’s giving friends to lovers vibes later down the road. You two would reconnect after some years and fall in love.
Ronald Speirs:
-Finds out on D-Day when you two end up near one another and is not even in the slightest surprised. Because of course you’re here and not back home and suddenly everything makes much more sense. -But because he’s not in Easy, he’s not about to say anything. He does do his best to talk with you when the opportunity presents itself. -Probably actually worries about you during Bastogne and is relieved to be transferred over to Easy so that he can better keep an eye on you/protect you. -You two have a sweet conversation at the church and he promises that he’ll do his best to protect you and keep you from harm. -Honestly, he’s more impressed than anything else and has mad respect for you and what you’re doing. -Won’t admit any feelings until the end of the war though.
Buck Compton:
-Finds out by accident…..in a foxhole….during Bastogne
-It’s a whole mess honestly. There you are just trying to get some things done and he walks in on you and is just 🤯 shooketh tbh
-Treats you like a lady when it’s just the two of you and asks if you’ll share the foxhole so that he can better protect your decency/honor haha. -You two become good friends and he’s real worried about you but then he ends up going to the field hospital after Bill and Joe get hit. -So you write him faithfully the entire rest of the war and you help him get through a lot of his trauma and figure out his feelings. -He has a soft spot for you forever.
Carwood Lipton:
-You know that scene where he gets injured and it’s a whole panic because he’s worried he’s lost a certain appendage? Now imagine that in reverse. -The minute he realizes that you are not, in fact, a man, he’s speechless, befuddled, panicked, and in slight shock
-GIRL WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?!? This poor man has a whole internal panic about it because clearly you need to talk with him and figure some things out. -He really wants to tell Winters about the entire thing but you convince him that it won’t happen again and that you’ve got this
-Big brother Lipton activated; he’s out here being a total helicopter parent and concerned af about your life decisions
-From this point on, you basically have someone at your side 24/7 and who literally adores you in the most platonic way.
Joe Liebgott:
-He accidentally finds out when he sneaks into the showers in Toccoa and finds you there (cue the Spider-Man meme haha)
-Immediately panics and closes his eyes and is just freaking out because why the hell is there a girl here??? -Wants to tell people but is actually very good at keeping the secret. Probably becomes a Lowkey guard-dog in order to better watch your back. The last thing anyone needs is the wrong sorta person finding out that you’re not a man. -Besties who slay with humor….and who have each other’s backs. -Is always willing to share food and blankets and supplies with you. He’s very sweet on you. -Absolutely wants to be with you after the war is over.
Donald Malarkey:
-Again, total accident that he finds out?? He goes to collect laundry after D-Day and finds you with some stained red clothing that you’re trying to clean. It’s an oof moment. -At first, the girl math is not mathing and he’s confused. -But he has sisters and automatically becomes a safe place for you to go to and someone who you can rely on or talk to. -He’s a great foxhole partner and someone easy to talk to. He wants to hear about why you wanted to be a paratrooper and is a great help with helping you act like a guy. -Relies on you a ton during Bastogne and afterwards….appreciates your support and values your friendship. -And yes, he has a tiny crush on you haha.
Eugene Roe:
-Figured it out pretty quickly, a la menstrual cycle 👀 but also isn’t getting paid enough to confront you about it?? -So if you come to him and talk to him about the issues, then you two will be good friends. He drinks respect women juice in plenty so there’s no problems there. -The bestie vibes are immaculate and he simply adores you. You might be the person to get him to talk most. -He’s always the one who patches you up or helps you with what you need. And when you offer to share your foxhole with him, he’s a little bit of a blushing mess. -Has had a crush on you for most of the time he’s known you and does have a few small pet names in French. -You two probably start a secret relationship and are engaged before you even get back to the states. And yes, everyone is baffled haha.
Bill Guarnere:
-Super in love from day 1 he found out you were a girl? A girl who can handle herself and keep up with the men? Now that’s impressive. -Also found out by accident and it’s because he saw the blood in your sheets and was *le gasp*
-Is very good at keeping the secret and tries to push you to keep going and encourages you to accomplish the things that are hard. -He’s a great support system and an even better guard dog haha. -Is super respectful and doesn’t make a single move on you….so babe, you gotta kiss him first in that snowy foxhole. -Write to him after he gets injured….you may just come out of the war with a husband haha.
Joe Toye:
-Finds out accidentally when trying to help you with an injury and immediately just feels guilty for being mean to you lol
-Honestly? This man will never breathe a word of your secret. He’s a great alibi for feminine issues and will back you up with whatever lies you need haha. -Is very sweet on you but also treats you like one of the guys?? He’s a weird mix of trying to help you feel like yourself and your alter-ego
-Always offers to share or help you with whatever you need
-Probably shares a foxhole with you and tried to keep spirits up in any way he can. -Fully intends to marry you if the both of you make it through the war.
George Luz:
-Cannot keep the secret for the life of him….or do you thought?? -He finds out accidentally once you guys get to Hagenau and you sneak out to the showers way later than everyone else 👀
-He’s the pikachu meme truly….just shocked and doesn’t know how to treat you then?? He’s going to need a learning curve to figure out how this works. -Is honestly a ride or die bestie for you at this point and wants to hear ALL the tea about how and why you did it. -Falls in love with you super easily and asks if you’ll write him when you get home
-Surprises you once you’re home and asks you out on a date :)
#band of brothers asks#band of brothers x reader#band of brothers imagines#band of brothers headcanons#easy company#dick winters headcanons#dick winters imagines#dick winters x reader#dick winters#lewis nixon imagines#lewis nixon headcanons#lewis nixon x reader#lewis nixon#ronald speirs x reader#ron speirs#ronald speirs#buck compton x reader#buck compton#carwood lipton x reader#carwood lipton#joe liebgott#joe toye#bill guarnere#eugene roe#donald malarkey#george luz
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i am so so sorry for the sheer amount of headcanons i'm making you crank out, HOWEVER... i am so curious as to if you have any headcanons for nina and natalie as a duo. i love the way you perceive them and write them it genuinely makes me so happy
i had to doodle them . ok. lets go..
nat was one of the first people nina met from jeff, since she and jeff lived in the barn together.
nina thought nat was a lesbian when they first met . that is literally the only reason why she wasnt mad jeff was living with a woman.
although nina was like, one of the ONLY people to notice toby/nat tension and was sooo heartbroken when she realized they were never getting together..... but then was relieved they didnt get together when she got over jeff because 'well i can't be the only single one!'
again, natalie grew up with 0 girl friends, only hung out with her brother and boys. even after meeting the creeps, theyre still mostly guys. so she's just kinda really awkward and weird around girls. not in a like, 'oh girls r so annoying' way but like... she just doesnt know how to fit in. she just feels so different in the worst possible way and always has.
and nina is very girly, outgoing, touchy, friendly, cute, etc. so it was very like UMMM?!? idk. natalie kept snapping at her, assuming she was fake and weird and just trying to get something from nat, but nina was so persistent and just. friendly. it started making natalie feel warm.
nina's presence started to heal natalies inner little girl. she had it stolen from her time and time again, from her dad, her brother, her peers - the operator, too.
so the two are eventually actual friends. they'll text and play mobile phone games together. sometimes they'll just sit on call and nina will be talking her head off while nat does her own thing at home. one time nat was at tobys cabin and nina was talking about toby on speaker and toby walked in and was like 'hey nina' .... nina almost threw up she was so embarrassed.
nina loves visiting nats bar because everyone is always talking to nina and giving her attention and buying her drinks, and at first nat was irritated but it kinda got nat some better tips since the customers started realizing ninas her friend. so nat was pleased. LOL
nat was never the type to go shopping, but she'll follow nina around and sit while nina tries on clothes and carry around all her bags that she buys LOL... ninas made jokes about nat being boyfriend material and nat just flatout says smth about how nina should get over jeff cuz he would never.
nat is friends with jeff but she's oddly comfortable just telling nina that he's a piece of shit. and ninas always like NOOO U DONT GET IT U DONT SEE WHAT I DO and nats always just .. not... impressed..
nina's always inviting nat out to try new foods. nat grew up just eating bread and noodles with butter half the time so it's fun. nina always tries to pay bc 'well i invited you!!!'. sometimes toby tags along but he feels a way abt going in public places..
nina rarely visits jack cuz she has no reason to, but nat is friends with him so sometimes nina pops in and she's always like ^_^ HELLO TALL MYSTERIOUS SLIGHTLY MONSTEROUS MAN... <3... nat smacks the back of her head cuz she's being dumb and drooling over a bunch of rando freaks. ... . ok i love nina and she owes jeff nothing but she is def not loyal LOLLLL AND SHE HAS THE RIGHT TO FAWN OVER EVERYONE she's a fangirl at heart.
they watch a ton of shows together. nina got nat into horror kdrama stuff, but they have to watch in dub cuz nat cant read the subtitles fast enough . . . at first nina cringed but now she doesnt care.
nat's painted/drawn nina several times, and nina almost cries everytime. she's put the drawings up on her wall before but anytime nat's at her apartment, she takes it down bc 'i dont want my art on ur wall stop it' LOL... kinda rude but whatevs.
ugh theyre just so fucking cute guys im sorry i love them . holds them. brushes their hair.
#asks#creeped#natalie ouellette#clockwork creepypasta#creepypasta clockwork#creepypasta#creepypasta headcanons#nina the killer#nina hopkins#nina the killer headcanons#clockwork headcanons#sweetart#creepypasta art#creepypasta fanart
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I offer this while we work on requests😔🤲
LETS talk about ghost + spanking, im brain rotting on him and i need him to put me over his lap sewww bad …
he’s being kind of playful with the threat, “keep acting like this and i’ll haveta bend you over my lap.” and it’s playful and funny and he says it with a chuckle but of course you take it as a challenge. and when he’s finally had it and decides it’s time to make good on his threat he has you cornered. he’s not really mad, he’s not angry at all, and he doesn’t think you need a punishment, but if you agreed to it why wouldn’t he spank you? seems like a wasted opportunity to him.
and so he does. back in the barracks or some hidden away private room, he’s sat with you bent over his thick thighs. it’s just the two of you, and as he caresses your still very clothed back side he says “now imagine if the others were here to see this? how embarrassing..” his fingers push between the back of your thighs and his thumb slips up the curve of your ass. his fingers cup your cunt gently through your pants and he’s so gentle when he rubs up and down in such a soothing way, it gives you whiplash when his hand suddenly smacks your ass.
“…bet you’d love it, huh?” he asks and another smack lands. the impact is jarring but it doesn’t hurt, it just makes you jump. you’ve never done this with ghost, you don’t know how he likes to do it or how harsh he might usually be but you know he’s experienced. he’s so confident and sure of himself, every thing he does is backed with intimidating confidence. his big hand strikes again, consistent in where it lands and how hard it is with the first two.
“you’ve been such a brat all day, pushin me to this. i warned you. you just had to push me, didn’t you doll?” with every sentence end his palm collides with your clothed bottom. he struck you harder each time, but he retrained himself so carefully. he didn’t want to actually hurt you, not when this was supposed to be playful. ghost didn’t know what you could or couldn’t take yet. it’s why he didn’t ask you to take off your pants and why he didn’t say a single demeaning thing and why he was still being gentle even with your pants as a buffer.
his hand rubs your butt gently as he speaks again. “why’d you decide to push me? couldn’t just be good?” he sounds so patronizing, and if you could see his face right now you’d see the fake, pouty frown that pulled up quickly into a smirk as he grabbed a handful of your ass.
“you wanted my attention that bad?” he winds his hand back and spanks you again. this time you feel a residual sting, it’s only there for a second but it leaves you feeling warm and you press your thighs together.
another smack, to your other cheek and this time when he speaks again the condescending tone is replaced with a serious tone that demands compliance. “answer me, lovely.” it takes you a moment to find your voice, having been so engulfed by the way he spoke and anticipating another smack that you forgot yourself entirely.
“yes..” is all you mumble out, practically inaudible. but that won’t do. “Cant hear you love.” another, harder smack lands and you whimper. it stings in such an embarrassingly good way, that your voice is whiney when you speak again. “yes, I wanted your attention.” it’s so shameful the way you fall to his hand. the way you give whatever you think he wants from you and how there isn’t even a whisper of the brattiness you showed earlier. the grin he wears is one of complete satisfaction, seeing you so compliant so quickly.
ghost rubs your bottom again, hand dipping between your thighs. his thumb comes up the middle of your ass again, and he cups your cunt teasingly. you can’t help the way your thighs push closed against it or how you try to push against him. how quickly his hand slips out from between your warmth. “ah-ah, none of that.”
a finial, harsh smack lands. “in fact..” he helps you up to your feet easily.
when you finally see his face again he’s trying to relax his grin into a smirk. ghost had heavily enjoyed this, as mostly gentle as it was. any amount of intimate moment with you made his heart swell. he was terribly pleased at how much you seemed to trust him to do this with him at all. “I think that’s enough, don’t you?” he pulls you in by your hips and wraps his arms around your waist.
you tilt your head and wonder how to ask about the pressing ache between your legs that drips into your underwear. your hands hold his shirt with loose fists. both ends of you were probably red at this point, between being spanked and the embarrassment of your arousal. “help me..off?” you force yourself to ask, bashful under his gaze. a rushed “please?” is tacked on, hopeful that minding your manners might incline him to help you.
but ghost just smiles and shakes his head. he leans down and kisses the tip of your nose. “‘fraid not, lovely. we’ve got to get back.” it’s hard for him to not sound so smug about it, as apparently he found it amusing to deny you. without another word about it he pulls away and leaves to open the door, holding it open and gesturing for you to follow. that british fuck.
#lynn💌#writing#x reader#cod x reader#cod x you#simon riley x reader#ghost x reader#simon ghost riley#simon riley x you
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Gar and Jason with a Physically Affectionate!Reader
A/N: I was going to do the whole team but I got overwhelmed 🫠 as always I’ll pepper in the fact that I’m brazilian, platonic physical affection is very common here and since it’s not in the US – culturally at least – and these bitches are all emotionally constipated and touch starved, i thought their reactions to casual touches might be ! I also based these headcanons – mostly – on how my friends and I treat each other !
This kinda morphed into a different thing altogether as I wrote it but anyways, Im tagging @pinkchubbiebunnie (i was itching to just send you this undone the whole time) and @trice-divergent (you’re literally watching me type this out – creep – but thank you for helping me with the older Titans, I was struggling)
Garfield Logan:
the most physically affectionate out all of the Titans, and even so that’s not saying much -> they’re all a little touch starved
He’s normally the one who offers up hugs when needed, who initiates it
I feel like only giving/getting hugs when things are bad would condition him a little to only expect that when shitty things are happening
So he’s very confused — but pleasantly so — when reader just offers physical affection when good things happen and sometimes just because
Ranges from simple almost impersonal stuff like “hey good job at training” hi-fives to really sweet tender moments like holding his hand, caressing his face or cuddling for movie nights or when one — or both — of them can’t sleep
Let's assume you’re not yet in a relationship: he’s so flustered ALL. THE. TIME. Always finds excuses to be near you so you’ll be able to touch him, weather that’d be lightly slapping his arm when you’re talking about something you excited about, booping his nose whenever he looks too serious
For PDA I think Gar actually really likes it, as long as it's tasteful, you know?
Like holding hands? Yes! Please hold his hand when going out or during movie nights or just whenever !
Holding onto his arm and/or leaning on him during team meetings or when waiting in line for something? He always gets so giddy when ppl can see how much you like being near him
Hugging/cuddling/cradling his face —> please do! It calms him down, also just feels nice to both be so casually close and feeling wanted in front of other ppl (like you’re not embarrassed or ashamed of him)
Jason Todd:
he honestly looks like he’d bite your hand off if you tried to touch him
Is dealing with that weird period of being touch starved -> loathes being touched x craves physical affection
Would for sure say some awful fuck boy shit if you keep touching his arms to get his attention, I cringe just thinking about it (i crave him)
if you’re not dating, whenever a touch is a little too tender and sweet he’d feel the need to compensate or hide how much it made his heart race with some either mean or flirty bullshit
if you are in a relationship though, i feel like the flirting would get so much worst -> the team hates you – not really – every time another “babe” comes out of his mouth, fake gags can be heard all throughout the Tower
PDA = he’s gross, terrible, disgusting – i must have him – really doesn't care who is/isn't around will be as touchy as he feels like
definitely gets a habit of slapping your ass, its not even a sexual thing – for the most part – but the first time it happens in one of the common areas the room gets deadly silent →I don't know who’d be more mad about it, you or one of the grown adults who have just been subjected to that
Extra - Platonic Team Reactions (i had some of these already written down so why not)
Rachel Roth:
she really likes to give her friends hugs !!
too shy and nervous to make anyone uncomfortable so she rarely goes for it tho : /
I think she’s always cold – like her hands are always a bit cold – so I also think she’d like holding hands, specially if your hands are more warm then not
tired and sleepy always – her powers seem tiring – so can and will just take a nap on your shoulders whenever, it's pretty impressive actually
Conner Kent:
he’s just an overgrown toddler, you honor → feel like once you start with the hi-fives or fist bumps, he gets too used to it to stop or question it
“yes, this pasta definitely requires a fist bump, you're absolutely right”
the embodiment of “if i run and leap at Terry right now he'd definitely catch me in his arms” → you tried this once !! no one managed to get the coffee stains off the carpet after that : D
Miscellaneous:
Kory Anders: not one to initiate physical contact but that doesn't mean she dislikes it; due to her powers, i assume her skin is always warm -> so if you’re cold – like Rachel – she really doesn't mind holding your hand so you feel better
Dick Grayson: awkward dad mode engaged; not used to it at all – thanks Bruce, father of the fucking year – but i can see him resorting to those awkward head pats (Jeff to Annie in Community), starts with him not knowing what to do to it kinda becoming his thing
Hank Hall: definitely the type to give shoulder like taps/slap dad’s do when they are proud of you, completely underestimates his own strength tho → they don't hurt !! but if you're distracted/not expecting you’ll definitely be thrown out of balance a little; other than that I don't see him initiating much, but if you need/ask for a hug he’ll definitely provide !!
Dawn Granger: mom friend ? Mom friend ! Gives the nicest hugs and somehow always knows when you need one; head pats but they're not awkward like when Dick does it
Donna Troy: I don’t think she’s very touchy ! doesn't mind if you need a hug or something, but she’s definitely not one to initiate or seek it
#titans#dc#dc titans#gar logan x reader#jason todd x reader#platonic rachel roth#platonic conner kent#starmum writes#headcannons
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With every step Gradient could feel the constricting pants squeeze and rub at his hip bones. He frantically paced down the halls of the Omega Timeline Marriage Center, occasionally walking with his hands inside the pants’ fabric as to give his sore bones a break. “Where is he…” While searching for Casey, Gradient passed all of the picture frames of past weddings which hung on the red carpeted walls. One of them in particular caught his attention. There appeared to be a picture, more like fanart, of Ink in a rainbow tinted white dress and a deformed Error the destroyer stuffed in an uptight suit, which he had torn holes into. Geno and Reaper, Ink’s dads, Undyne and Alphys… those where definitely real. But this, this one was definitely fake. At least Gradient thought it was. He didn’t remember Ink and Error getting-
Just then Gradient heard a noise echoing from some far off hallway. He knew that careless, janky yell anywhere! “Casey?” Gradient dashed down the hallway, ignoring the biting sores that the pants aggravated with each step. His large tunic dress thing swooshed as Gradient pumped his arms, his fists hidden inside the drooping sleeves. Gradient gained speed. That is, until he found himself flying horizontally with the floor, nose diving into the carpet.
“Gahhh… Casey?” Gradient pressed himself up to his feet and spun in a dizzy circle. “Casey?” Gradient called again. But the human was nowhere to be seen. Gradient felt something drip down his cheek. He lifted a finger, swiped it, and tasted it. Blood! “Oh no…” Great, he would be greeting the entire wedding hall… and Casey, with a bloody nose. And his hips BURNED. Miserable, Gradient continued full force down the hall, coming to a fork in the hallway.
“Gradient?”
“Casey?” Gradient hollered, trying to find out where his voice was coming from. But who could tell? Gradient took off wildly to the left, just in time to see Casey’s arm disappear behind the corner near the end of the new hallway.
“Casey wait!” Casey disappeared.
“Gray!”
Gradient rounded another corner. But no Casey. “Casey! Just scream!”
“Scream?”
“Yeah, like bloody murder, so I can find you!”
“Huh?”
“SCREAM!”
“OK!”
A scratchy, pre pubescent scream ripped through the carpeted walls. This was Gradiet’s chance. He knew that Casey wouldn’t be able to sustain the scream for long. He barrelled full speed down the hallway, left, right, right. (Imagine this in slow mo.)
He rounded a final corner, finding Casey with his back turned and head lifted to the sky, screeching in strange intervals that sort of resemble Gradient’s own speech patterns.
Gradient got an adrenaline rush at the sight of this gorgeous creature and sprinted towards Casey, who turned around and spread his arms wide open. “Casey!” Gradient launched himself into Casey’s arms, while Casey afterward lifted him into the air, twirling him about.
“Hehe. Whee…”
“Gray, you idiot, where were you?” Casey asked, setting Gradient down. Gradient clung tightly to Casey and buried into his chest. It was quite an odd image, as Gray was at least a foot shorter than his human fiance. Casey wrapped his arms around Gradient, trapping him within a sense of warm comfort. “I’ve been looking for you forever. I couldn’t stand another minute of your m- uh, Ink.” Casey leaned down and kissed Gradient’s forehead, making the skeleton blush like madness. He looked up at Casey with lopsided eyes and a dopey smile stretching across his face.
where’s the grasey wedding, huh? 🤔
ANON IM PICKING U UP AND SPINNING YOU AROUND THIS IS SOOOO SO SO SO CUTE 😭😭😭
CASEY PUTTING HIS SCREAMING TALENT TO USE!! And omg the kiss on the head. Just kill me atp I can’t do this anymore /pos LOL
THANK YOU FOR THE MEAL ANON I LOVE THIS I will look at this for seven hours now
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me sin posting anyway
sins when sicky wicky going in whatever order idk im eepy
Wrath: somehow even more edgier.. rots in his bed most of the time. he doesnt even bother to do anything productive because he finds no point in doing so
he gets mad when people try to make him get out of bed or invade his personal space. he also hates certain medicines and prefers to eat specific foods that he wouldn't eat otherwise ("they're sick foods, why would i eat them if i'm not sick?")
he's not very skilled at taking care of sick people. he just listens to what they want and ask for, and he doesnt try and bug them unless he truly feels like he needs to (ex. if someone is violently coughing their lungs out or throwing up)
Gluttony: he's reduced to a baby. thats it thats the tweet /j
he tries to stay in bed for the most part, but he does also do his regular work out routines and makes his own food. he typically just makes a stew or a salad for himself and only drinks warm things when he's sick. he's the type of guy that you kind of have to force into bed instead of running around and doing stuff
when it comes to taking care of others he coddles them a ton 😭. he makes their food, makes sure they're okay, and stays close so they don't have to go very far to ask for something. he'll encourage them to do some workouts with him but he respects it if they dont want to
Pride (guys pretend its yellow plz): he's dramatic asf but we love him. he complains a lot about his sickness and makes it known that he isn't happy about it in the slightest. unlike wrath he enjoys getting all the extra attention especially if they make him feel superior even while sick
when it comes to taking care of people it's kind of like tough love. he really only takes care of people he truly cares about and even after that it's followed with a "you should be glad i spent time out of my day to take care of you!" but he does take the time to actually make sure you're okay. he feeds you the medicine himself and probably tries to make you feel fancy, even if you're all stuffy and snotty
Envy: oh wow okay
envy's already kind of bad at taking care of himself, so when he's sick it's pretty bad. he has to practically drag himself out of bed to make himself food or to just use the bathroom, and he either forgets to take medication or takes an awkward amount of it. it's safe to say that a caregiver would benefit him, but he hates being a burden to anyone, and he doesn't like feeling vulnerable either
he worries a lot when it comes to taking care of another person while they're sick. he tries not to come off as pushy or annoying as he tries to make them feel better, but sometimes that doesn't work. he's not a great cook but he does follow some recipes for the person so they can at least eat some good food
Greed: ew. anyway
i think greed would probably hate being sick since he feels like nobody actually takes him seriously, which ticks him off because he likes to have power, and a lot of people don't take him seriously in the first place. he doesn't like to come off as weak either
however if he was taking care of someone else i feel like he'd be so overly nice it's uncomfortable. it feels more like a fake kindness than anything, and of course he'd find a way to fuck around with you any chance he could get.
Sloth: sloth is pretty prone to falling sick. he's very similar to envy, not really taking care of himself properly, but he does a lot of sleeping. i think he'd probably end up sleeping more than he already does while hes sick.
he's always kind of in a daze when he's sick. he's honestly in a daze in general but it seems like whenever he's awake he's dissociated or just delirious
he's pretty bad at taking care of people however he does have good intentions. he makes the bed as comfy as he can, but he is pretty lazy so he's probably not the best person to be taking care of someone. he does get the person whatever they want if they ask for it though.
Lust: he tends to be kind of dramatic too, but not as dramatic as pride. he loves self care and making sure that he's healthy, so he reminds himself to take medication and even logs when he takes it so he can measure how much time should pass before he takes another. he likes eating oatmeal and other soups for the most part, and he's likely drinking broth or some hot chocolate.
when he takes care of people he pampers them with everything they could possibly need. he logs everything in a notebook so he knows when the person needs to take more medication, and he's there for comfort and company. he feels pretty alone when he's sick, so he wants to make sure that the person feels happy despite not being in the best shape.
@stanleyvampire14 come get ur food
#:p#should i do more posts like this?#i dunno what else i'd post about but throw some ideas at me i might do it#this took me like 40 mins get me out#my ocs#sins#sick hcs
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at this point I can't tell anymore whether i'm faking shit or my parents are just being horrible. my dad is always making fun of the way i dress because i don't like being feminine. he judges the fact im hairy, tells me that i can't question my gender because i'm still "too young for that". he always judges the way i do things and over explains things to me as if i was 5 even when i tell him to stop doing that. he just always tells me that he's my dad and I can't ever criticize his methods. he just always thinks he's immune to criticism due to being my dad, and yet he always tells me "why are you yelling at me? what did i do wrong?". he always threatens and intimidates me by saying that i will suffer so much in life.he probably thinks im faking adhd because he always tell me that being innatentive has nothing to do with it. i'm so tired.
my mom just thinks she's the person who suffers the most in this world. she's geniunely hurt me so many times before but whenever i tell her to stop doing that she guilttrips me by saying "oh, so i'm the witch? you think your own mom is being shitty to you? is that what you think of me?". and like my dad she refuses to understand my experiences with adhd such as suffering with executive dysfunction and breaking down because I can't make myself do simple tasks. she tells me my anxiety isn't severe even when i'm literally being medicated for it and i'm almost always extremely paranoid that someone's watching me, or overthinking every single small detail causing me to spiral.
recently I've tried to hurt myself to try to get attention from my parents and show them I'm actually struggling. but they always just say that i'm insane and get mad and yell at me. is it bad that i want to be comforted by them in situations like this? /genq. and everytime this happens i blame myself and yell at myself internally which just causes me to have more suicidal urges which just continues this vicious cycle.
but at this point I can't tell if i'm victimizing myself or truly suffering. I've always grown up convinced that i'm a fool, an idiot for struggling with things like this. i bring myself down and exaggerate so much i never give myself the chance to question why something happened and just always asume it's my fault. and i think it always is, really. I don't know. when i was younger i started yelling at myself in the mirror because i was having a meltdown due to not being able to do a homework and afterwards my mom called me to her room and told me to stop putting on the victim's mask and start accepting the blame. i still remember a few months ago when i went downstairs to try to cut myself and yet again my mom started yelling at me and saying something along the lines of "if you want to die ao much, why don't i just kill you?" and backed me to the corner of the room holding a knife. she didn't do anything but i was so horrified, and still am. the only time i truly hurt myself was when i was 10 and i cut my arm. it's the first and only time i ever saw my dad cry.
I can't tell anymore if I'mright or wrong. i am a shitty person and likely am wrong and just want to guilttrip others into feeling bad for me. i can't cry around my parents. i can't cry around myself. i deserve the worst punishment and should kill myself to end my own and my parents' suffering. i'm just a burden and i refuse to address it. but at the same time I don't want to die. should i end it or just continue being shitty and making everything worse? /rhetorical question
i just want to be comforted by my parents when I'm feeling upset. i don't have any friends at school because I don't trust anyone. i want a shoulder to cry on when i'm upset. i want to trust someone. i want to love someone. i want to love myself.
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I know the April Fools episodes are jokes but it's kinda funny to analyze them Earth's nightmare seemed to be her fearing that she's a terrible person that everyone hates, dislikes, or avoids, her forgetting everything again, people not telling her things or keeping secrets from or about her, feeling powerless even to herself, losing Lunar(except for that last bit), being generally confused... And then Sun's, Sun's was all their enemies apologizing for everything they did, fixing whatever they screwed up, and disappearing, or in the case of the Creator dealing with Fazbear since Sun hates that company, and then Moon leaving after being weirded out, even Sun pointed out the sheer absurdity early on, maybe all of these incidents affect him subconsciously even more than he realizes, poor guy just wants some catharsis Earth and Sun telling one another about their weird dreams after the fact is something I could see happening too
ANON WE THINK THE SAME I WAS GONNA START THINKING TOO DEEP but I felt soo stupid but AA IM NOT ALONE!! for Earth- I guess is a mix of feeling guilty she "failed" Lunar- and fears she may be too focus on her family life she may not pay attention to Monty- also something about fearing you "did a terrible thing" and just feeling gaslited even when you know you didnt hits home.. her fear of maybe "being forgetfull and controled" may be the most obvious, yet is still interesting.. as.. for me, she gives me "hero complex" at times, thinking she is meant to be the one fixing ppl (even when I see ppl saying she never asked for this role) maybe because when made, she was mentioned as "the better version" so she goes by that.. ending up feeling both fake, try hard, yet afraid to fail and emotionally stressed out trying to be what ppl expected of her. so then- we see her fears, being seen as a bother, seen as someone to deal with rather than work with.. also, maybe is me, but she does kinda takes too hard her "brother" not wanting her in his date/celebration.. also going on over Solar "hating her" when the dude seems to be neutral with her.. that got me feeling odd, she takes simple soft push as "you hate me" .. no? they dont want you there, yet they still care to ask if you are ok.. what is she on about? (I know, is a nightmare, she is not meant to make much sense, specially as the emotional one she is.. I cant blame her too hard ) NOW SUN~ OHOHOHOHOHHHHHHH oh HE HE DOES SHOW SOO MUCH~ isnt it.. curious? of all the jokes they can make.. is ppl saying sorry ! what they show us? again, I expected actors or bloopers like other channel did! but.. now.. isnt it curous, right after he tells Eclipse to kill himself, he dreams of him saying sorry, sure, is clear Eclipse is not happy nor all sappy. not even wanting to be there with them any longer than BM did.. not saying "I hope im welcome back"-- nothing! Eclipse showed up, say his words, and choose to walk away, Sun is clearly weird out .. yet- clearly hoping to see the lie,, he doesnt, Eclipse lose more than he wins.. so Sun is left to wonder- was it true? he means it? we know Sun feared him. then hated him- has every reason to- yeeeet.. Sun has to know.. he is mad at the shell of how was a enemy. maybe having Eclipse saying sorry is the thing he needs to let go of this anger , just like Lunar did Lunar faced the big bad wolf- only to see a mere AI, broken and lost, lying to itself hoping to gain some sense of control over a life he cant even run away from.. Sun maybe needed to tell itself, via Moon "thats not the man that hurted you, thats the ghost of the past.. let it go" Moon is that side of him telling him to let go, and when things got too wild, his "reason" just had to leave- I feel thats when Sun stayed to yell, feeling too much stress confusion and cringe even (I have more to say but may do a post later on. idk) last joke video was not canon at all, yet this one is clearly tied to canon.. soo.. this has to mean something!! IM NOT LOOKING TOO DEEP YOU ARE ANON!
I hope my ramble isnt too long! but yea. I may explin myself better later on. just- I feel the fact this is DREAM and not an AU means a lot..
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yes, another hcs page I'm sorry I just can't stop 😥
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val alone hc:
he gets bitchy when someone tells him what to do
he can tell a medical emergency is going to happen (serves dog behavior)
he carries things that may help someone with a disability but never medications that need to be prescribed by a doctor ofc (pots, diabetes, seizures, etc.)
he has medical knowledge ( why do i keep bringing this one up)
likes to sharpen his nails
has knifes in his shoes ( why? idk)
sometimes he talks and just can't stop (real)
sometimes talking takes too much energy ( real)
he's a bit sadistic ( only if it's asked of him)
he expects rough touches after soft ones
he shares the most gruesome facts ever ( best ways to get to the heart, how to gut someone or something, etc.) (he and spelldon work well for each other for a reason)
bc we don't know his dad, I'm saying he never existed ( gift from Eros or just pop in his mom's womb one day) ( holy mary that you?)
he's a great hunter ( bat)
I feel like if a kid likes him he lets them hang off of him
he doesn't bite when he's a bat, it's more like making a paper cut with his nails and drinking from it.
human children scare him, they're just so fucking mean T_T
he has a blanket hoodie that covers 70% of his body ( they're so comfy)
his body takes on the temperature of the climate around him ( dead bodies do this) yet he's always on the colder side ( 50-50 chance I'm keeping this hc)
hes a slut for pumpkin pie
Demisexual and intersex? ( all of Eros's creations are intersex in my eyes/ incubus or succubus)
doesn't know how to tie a tie to save his life.
his body doesn't build muscle but he is strong
will eat lemons like people eat oranges
vampires can't gain or lose weight ( or get taller unless it's from a spell or something) he's the same weight and height as when he died (idk where I was going with this....)
he walks away to not punch someone when they make him mad ( idk if I said this or not) (now that im looking back this... this ones stupid)
he stares at people but doesn't realize it
he only writes with the pen/cil between his pointer finger and middle finger ( I do this sometimes and it feels great )
this is an explanation for the height I gave Valentine (5'2), in 800 ad ( yes 800 it's the closest I could find to 410ad leave me alone.) the average height for males was 167cm( 5'4) to 173cm (5'6) and I think he's a little under the percentile for his age group back in ad ( this doesn't make sense does it), so I put him in 5'2-5'3 without heeled shoes on because of this. ( if the height percentiles for 800 ad are wrong let me know I just used Google so idk if it's right or not)
he wears contacts ( is he blind ? We will never know.)
he laughs at people who say pink is only for girls
he took a liking to a human once, and they died. big sad
Don't play hide and seek with him.
he is oblivious when he's around someone he trusts, he doesn't do it on purpose it just kinda happens (for example is paying attention to his surroundings) so there's a bunch of safety stuff on shit so he doesn't hurt himself or brake anything ( this was the explanation for the one hc I made with spelldon)
Don't make bets with this man. he will win every time. ( he's made people go broke bc of how competitive he gets.
has a great poker face
hes related to cupid but doesnt know how
he wears underclothing everyday and night ( he's modest ig) ( ignore my old art bc of this :D)
hes scared of kismet (fate or destiny)
mad val is very rare and the reason is cus he's scary af
has a harder time getting over baby gates even tho he can fly ( he forgets )
his nails and teeth can detract and attract ( like enid's from Wednesday)
can be summoned by a summoning circle
He is part incubus but doesn't do sexual favors cus ew ( 50% vampire, 50% incubus)
He's an enigma
His bat form is a fruit bat :D
He can't eat if somes around him
spelldon alone hc:
he wears alot of snake jewls
can't STAND fake friends
he's got RBF ( resting bitch face)
he judges people by accident and makes a face every time, Val called it the face of judgment ( I can't think of a name for it :()
has a great poker face
gay and demisexual
turns people into animals on purpose
he can be extermly cruel.
likes holding hands
very touchy
him and his sister act like its.giz on tiktok ( i think) ( outside source wow )
they like harassing each other in stupid ways
she has pushed him down the stairs more times than he can count
has actually really soft and gentle with the innocent
he likes to admire val when he zoned out cus he wont get yelled at for staring
He is competitive but not as much as Val
he is full god ( i say he is but idk if his dad was god or not, so fuck it)
he uses his hands and magic more in fights than actual weapons
he finds it amusing that people forget how much monsters are monsters till they get like scared ( no Brittny you can't fix him he eats people.)
he has certain things he lets no one touch, not even val
spelldon is like 6'0-6'3 because hes the son of a goddess ( or two depends) so he got them good-good genes. ( give)
he tigtens jar on purpose cus he forgets that val is also strong and can open anything, so he gets sad when val opens shit he tightens cus he wanted to open it for him ( loser )
somehow always has a book on him, no clue where he puts it.
his hair is in either dreads or twists ( I know dreads are kinda of like twists but they stay that way but idk how that works:,0)
piercings galore (def has snake bites + tongue)
steps over baby gates but sometimes trips
has a pet snake
SPELLTINE:
Val has a garden that has pretty much all of the herbs and funus that spell needs for spells or potions
they can carry each other pretty easly
they both have quite places where they go when they need personal time
spell has a shit ton of piercings ( as i said earlier), val doesn't but he wears more jewelry that can be slipped off ( rings, bracelets, necklaces , etc.)
they make things for eachother
val likes grabbing spell and taking him really high into the air and dropping him and grabbing him before he hits the ground ( with permission and a heads up ofc)
They are smart until they're together then they turn stupid
BC spell can see Kismet and such, he tells very veg ones to Val if he's like extremely panicked
they both get moonstruck
misanthropy. both of them.
they cover the table's sides so the other doesn't hit their head when they get something under them
spell with do anything Val tells him to ( within reason ofc, but he really does always say yes)
val teaches spell how to certain weapons but gets confused why he goes all red
val once got the folded test paper of doom and spell laughed at his face then he got the folded test paper of doom then it was vals turn to laugh at him.
spell keeps a drawing of val on him cus he cant get a photo
they played hide and seek once. spell said never again.
they throw water on each other when stressed ( cold water to the face helps calm someone down cus its cold, google it I cant explain)
val likes to climb up spells shirt while being a bat, it freaks spell out cus he cant find him then boom something ice cold is claiming up his back
olive theory, spell like them val doesn't
picky eater and the one who eats what they give them, spell is the one that eats the stuff val gives him
spell holds vals blood bags to that they warm up, his body temp is high af
parts of them glow in the dark ( eyes, vals body markings, certain pricing of spells glow in the dark, vals nails {dont ask why I've come to this conclusion I just did})
compliments that actually seem more like insults to others
disturbing insults
If they share meals they eat in different rooms
( I'm so sorry this is so long, it was supposed to be three different posts)
#kieran valentine#spelldon cauldronello#spelldon x valentine#valentine x spelldon#spelltine#monster high#monster high headcanons#help i just cant stop with headcannons 😥#i sleep eat and breathe hcs at thisi point#i had to rewrite this bc i lost the draft.#spellling and grammor go brrr#lgbtq#gay men
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BROBROBROBROBROHROHROBROBROBRIBROBROBROBROBROHROBRORHORGRORVORVOTVOSHPSBFPSHAOHSKSK AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
OH MY GOD
EVERYONE NOT BEING THEMSELVES, EVERYONE OBVIOUSLY ACTING BRHIND WALLS AND WITH BUILR UP PERSONALITIES THAT ARE DEFINITELY NOT THEIR OWN.
PEARL FINALLY, FINALLY SAYING ALL THOSE THINGS SHES WANYED TO SAY SINCE SHE FOUND HIM ON HC. SINCE EVO. HER BEING THE ONLY ONE TO REALLY BE HONEST IBSTEAD OF TIPTOEING AROUND EVERYTHING
MUMBO LIGHTELY GOING IBSANE, STILL HAVING THE SAME GRIAN> EVERYTHING MENTALITY EVEN THO GRIAN SAYS THEYRE EX-BESTFRIEBDS
SCAR AND GRIAN KNOWING RACH OTHER TELLS, KNOWING EHAT THR OTHER PERSON IS BASICALLY FEELIBG BUT BEING QUIET ABOUT IT. SCAR BEING AN “OPEN BOOK”, BUT NOT BEING HIMSELF. BEING HIS SALESMEN PERSONALITY. BEING A FAKE PERSONALITY BECAUSE NO ONE REALLY INOWS WHO OR WHAT YRIAN IS ANYMORE. HIM BEING THE ONLY ONE TO ASK AND NOT YELL, BECAUSE HE KNOWS AT LEAST SOMETHING FROM 3D LIFE.
THE PEOPLE ASKING HIM ABOUT HIS PROBLEMS BECAUSE THEYRE MAD BUT BECAUSE THEY DO ALSO CARE. BECAUSE HIS PROBLEMS ARE MOST LITERALLY HURTING EVERYONE (might I add, these are so realistic. Ige had conversations../ kind of like these. and Jesus when I say you write them so realistic it hurts me, I mean it. ohhhh I mean it) I WAIT EVERYDAY FOR THESE CHAOTERS (DW DONT FEEL PRESSURED OR RUSH THEM WAITING IS LOWKEY FUN) BECAUSE GOODBESS GRACIOUS AT EVERY MOMENT IT FEELS LIKE THE TIP OF A BEEDLE IM HOING CRAZY I CANT DO THIS
HIM BEING CALLED, EVEN IF NOT DIRECTLY, A MONSTER. HIM TRYING TO MAKE JUSTIFICATIONS BUT BOT ANSWRRING WHAT THEY REALLY WABT TO KNOW. HIM KNOWINY HR MESSED UP. UUEUEUEUEUUEE WAAAAA CRYING SOBBING WAILING TEARING UP TEARS TEARS TEARS TEARS TBROWINY UP SCREAMING LOUDLY SO LOUDLY
:DDD
gods YEAH i am so glad this is coming across realistically, bc thats been SO very important to me from the start (the hilarity that THIS is what my maximum self indulgence looks like not lost on me). I love portraying these incredibly complex relationships; im truly so glad people have been liking this chapter, because gods i worked my tail off hitting a lot of specific emotional beats in that Pearl and Grian conversation. And with Scar, the way he's compartmentalizing and pulling out that cheerful, salesman persona, is so important to me as well. Its really nice being able to weave different character dynamics and reactions into each chapter, and im so so happy thats being appreciated!!!
I am absolutely LOVING your analysis here btw, ur really nailing down a lot of things i wanted to convey, so im really glad they were noticed!!! :D also djsbdjdjdj im glad you dont mind waiting; this is actually a pretty novel experience for me to keep a longfic going with this much consistent momentum, even if each update is like, a month or two apart, and im having a fantastic time doing it. Its been really fun to write this and see everyone's reactions to it :D and tbh i never expected it to get this much attention, so im absolutely blown away by it being enjoyed so much by so many people!!!
#shouting speaks#asks#hunger au#compliments#SORRY IF THIS DOESNT MAKW SENSE I AM SOOOOO SLEEPYTIRED TODAY#this ask made me smile so wide WAUGH im so happy ppl are liking this story and this chapter#txt
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