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“You wouldn’t look at me.”
“I saw plenty.”
“In my eyes.”
“…Does it matter?”
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Bakugo Katsuki, No. 3 Hero in the charts, massive amounts of fan girls, always invited to galas, events, and even award shows along side his peers, but he has never once gotten a dating scandal in his whole career. Has never even looked in a woman’s direction. So you can be certain he won’t change his actions when artist Y/N is invited to sing at a private Christmas Gala hosted for hero’s to celebrate the season and a year well done of duties…right?
Singer, artist, model Y/N, has it all. Looks, wealth, awards, friends, family, and boyfriends.. her music revolves around her relationships and past relationships along with her mental health that she speaks about through her music. She gets asked to gigs almost every day but few are lucky to book her, when her team gets a request for the Christmas Hero Gala which is highly exclusive, she immediately agrees to entertaining the hero’s, excited for the night she doesn’t realize she caught a certain man’s attention in the back of the crowd..
• slow burn - secret pining - romance - bold Y/N, shy Katsuki - vice versa - celebrity!y/n x aged up!katsuki
• following contains, eventual smut, mentions of suicide, alcohol, mental illness, heavy party scenes and probably more !
• 18+ only!! this is your warning
• the rest of the celebrities mentioned in this series i do not take credit for, and the songs mentioned all writing ownership belongs to them! i do not take credit except for this fan fiction!
!! just a friendly reminder this is all fake, simply my imagination placed into writing !!
intro chapter one
furious knocking is heard on bakugo katsuki’s hotel door, with shouts of “katsuki!! katsuki!!” being heard on the other side of the door.
katsuki groaned furiously as he got up and headed for the door, opening it loudly
“what the hell?!”
katsuki opened it to see his best friend, eijiro kirishima standing before him with a star eyed look on him. katsuki sighed and opened the door wider for his red headed friend to walk in.
“this better be good shitty hair, i was about to eat my fuckin’ breakfast.” katsuki spoke with a grumble
“katsuki! you’ll never believe it, guess who’s the performer for the gala?!” eijiro said practically shouting the walls away, his hands in tight fists, barely holding himself together.
a massive sigh was heard from katsuki, “will you PLEASE, for the love of god stop the fuckin’ shoutin’?!” he practically raised his hands in the air with annoyance
eijiro nodded happily, no sign of embarrassment or fear covered his body, his hands just moved in a “guess” motion
katsuki gave him a blank stare before running a hand through his spiky blonde hair. “who is preform—” before he could finish his sentence eijiro already announced the performer,
“Y/N! THE Y/N! like global sensation Y/N?! SHE of all people will be preforming FOR US katsuki!!! can you believe it?! oh my god!!”
katsuki gave him a look of “who the fuck are you talking about” before realization dawned on him, on his face, “oh, the chick who sings ‘NDA’?”
eijiro nodded excitedly, “and therefore i am, your power, when the party’s over-”
“oh yeah, i like when the party’s over”
“male fantasy, i love you- OH my gosh what if she sings i love you? oh ill sob. oh not to mention, illicit affairs, my tears ricochet—”
“eijiro.” katsuki spoke in a harsh tone “we get it, she sings a lot of songs you know.”
eijiro walked towards him and sat down, “see that’s just the thing katsuki, she doesn’t just sing. she’s- hah! she’s an idol, she- she literally defines music, she’s a poet and composer and creates masterpieces using something that comes naturally to her- she- she creates art out of instruments and makes millions out of it-” eijiro reaches for the tv remote. “i mean look she even-”
“oh i’d rather you not go down this rabbit hole of obsession”
“yeah well i’m going to so shut up and eat your pancakes”
katsuki stared down at his plate of buttermilk pancakes and looked offended as eijiro flipped to ‘youtube’ on the hotels tv, seconds later there’s a video playing of Y/N preforming at coachella a year ago, singing her song, ‘idontwannabeyouanymore’ her voice soft and smooth as she sang the words with ease.
“i mean you see how natural it is for her? there are so and i mean so so many singers out there but jesus.. there’s only one of her.” he pointed to the screen and katsuki’s eyes followed to it, the camera panning on her face, her eyes shut, lashes brushing her under eye, her lips close to the microphone, there had to be a fan right above her, her hair flowing around, but yet somehow it didn’t look messy.. like it did but it was a good messy, her eyes opened and a glint of happiness shined in them, her lips curved up into a smile as she harmonized the end, and the whole crowd screamed and emerged into clapping, she looked down at her feet, the air blowing her hair, she looked up and her eyes shined from the blue spotlight creating a glow over her. she mouthed “thank you” before shouting, “THANK YOU COACHELLA!!! I LOVE YOU ALL SO SO MUCH” and the video ended.
“i mean come on!! she’s a fucking legend and in her fucking prime right now, and to even think she’s gonna perform for US?! oh god man i could pass away” ejiro says as he fake swoons and falls onto the hotel couch, his hand on his forehead.
katsuki scoffs as he takes a bite of his pancakes, “yeah, i mean she is good, she’s got a voice that’s for sure-”
ejiro interrupts katsuki immediately, “it’s not just the voice man!! it’s her, she’s from a whole other world! and she’s like the nicest person you’ll ever meet-”
“and have you? have you met her?” katsuki gives him a sarcastic look, ejiro presses his lips met with silence, katsuki sighs as sets his fork down and crosses his arms, “don’t believe everything you see on the internet ejiro.” he said with a serious tone, “not everyone is who they seem to be, i can sniff out who’s a fucking fake from a mile away, i would know” he gives an annoyed look.
ejiro sighs as he gets up and pops a blueberry in his mouth that had been sitting on katsuki’s breakfast plate, “yeah well we will have to wait to meet her so you can “sniff her out” yourself..” ejiro scoffs, “trust me katsuki, she’s the real deal.” he ended with pointing at the tv who had Y/N smiling out into the crowd at coachella, her eyes like glitter.
ejiro said his goodbyes and walked out leaving katsuki by himself and just him staring at the tv screen, his arms still crossed, he mentally slapped himself before pressing the video that would come up next, another performance at coachella from the same year, her hit song, “when the party’s over”. now this one katsuki was familiar with, it was one he found himself listening to a lot in his car, the lyrics were raw he would give her that, and her voice- god if katsuki knew it was something sent out of a dream to become katsuki’s worst nightmare he would have never clicked play.
#katsuki bakugou#mha#mha bakugou#bakugo smut#bakugou katsuki#eventual smut#katsuki bakugo x reader#katsuki bakugo angst#bakugo fluff#katsuku bakugo smut#bakugou x reader#bnha bakugou#katsuki bakugo mha#bakugou x y/n#celebrity#fanfic writing#fanfic#imagines#mha smut#billie eilish#bnha bakugo katsuki#katsuki bakugo imagine#i’ll probably delete this later#idk what else to tag#idk what im doing#enjoy
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have some transmasc reader with the 141 silliness that just popped into my head.
tags/tw: transmasc reader has a backstory, attempts at humour, discussions of the english school system, brief mentions of classism, "cunt" used as a term of endearment.
unedited and written straight into the drafts as per usual.
790ish words of platonic silliness.
you can't remember how the conversation started exactly, it seems that one minute they're all chatting about the football scores (dull, but you make all the right noises in the right places) and then the next they're talking about their experiences at school.
you share a fondly exasperated look with gaz when soap explains his long list of lunch time and after school detentions (how he got away with making that many beakers explode in a chemistry lab you'll never know), you wince when ghost curtly informs soap that he was "too thick" for school (patently untrue from the way you've seen him demolish a crossword), you elbow soap in the ribs when he starts getting carried away taking the piss out of price's a-level in english literature (even if you did grin at the thought of him slogging his way through twelfth night).
and then gaz turns to you.
"come on then, mate. what was school like for you?" he grins, still enjoying the buzz of hearing price recite the famous quote about a man's "greatness".
"it was alright. just school, y'know?" you shrug carelessly feeling relaxed and comfortable.
"aye, but what was it like? we ken yer the only bastard here who had private school education." soap chips in, purposefully making his voice posh and plummy on the last three words.
"shut up, you knob. it wasn't like that." you scoff and elbow soap again, "and i'm not the only bastard here with private school education! gaz went to, fucking what'sitcalled, st paul's!"
"fide et literis." price intones gravely.
there's a pause where everyone looks at price with varying levels of surprise until ghost snorts a laugh.
"pretty sure my school's motto was 'stay out of prison you shit'eads'."
you all laugh boisterously and you spot ghost's eyes crinkle at the corners as his own mouth pulls into a grin behind his mask. you sigh happily and make yourself more comfortable by butting up against soap's arm. you let your mind drift a little until gaz interrupts your thoughts.
"go on then, what school did you go to?"
"hmm?" you blink tiredly, "oh, uh, st helen's and st katharine's."
gaz whistles lowly, impressed.
"bit posh that, mate."
you cringe, suddenly embarrassed, and your ears burn up with mortification.
"i got a scholarship, alright?" you mutter, as if that justifies the inherent classism of your education. ghost kicks your ankle and you shoot him a weak smile even as your face feels like it's bursting into flame.
soap makes a confused sound and looks between his phone and your face.
"are ye sure you've got the name of yer school right?" he asks.
"yeah?" you look at him quizzically as his eyebrows draw together forming a crease. you shoot a look at price who holds his hands up in the universal "don't fucking ask me" gesture in response.
"yer positive?" soap questions again sounding baffled.
"...yeah?" you say slowly, feeling just as confused at soap's questions.
there's a pause while soap scrolls through his phone.
"but, it's a girl's school?"
you blink. you blink again. what the hell is he confused about? you look over at ghost who has gone stock still before his shoulders start jerking up and down with silent laughter. you turn to gaz who looks confused before his face clears and his mouth splits into a wide grin.
"how can ye have gone tae a girl's school if yer a boy - a man?"
price groans and hides his face into his hands at soap's question and mutters something about soap being "a proper fucking muppet" to himself. ghost wheezes out a surprisingly breathy laugh.
you blink for a third time before tilting your head back and howling with uncontrollable laughter. your ribs ache and tears collect in the corner of your eyes.
"soap -" you snort, still giggling madly when you go to speak, "did y- did you forget -" you stop to heave in a breath to calm yourself "did you forget i'm trans... again?" you finish, tears streaking their way down your hot face.
soap's face is nearly crimson over his stubble when you turn to face him again, clearly embarrassed as gaz hollers.
"he did! he fucking did! oh my god!"
"how the fuck can you f'get summat like that?" ghost manages to wheeze out before breaking out into laughter again.
"you silly cunt." you say warmly, deeply pleased by the accidental affirmation as you knock your shoulder into soap's affectionately.
soap offers you a lopsided grin in response even as gaz and ghost continue to laugh and price groans.
"i can't believe i know you pricks."
and for some reason that makes you break out into laughter all over again, but this time soap's braying laugh joins in.
#binders and boyfriends#<- it feels disingenuous to use that tag when it's a platonic fic#jm#kg#sr#jp#the quote i'm referring to is of course:#“some are born great / some achieve greatness / and some have greatness thrust upon them”#(it's a dick joke)#transmasc reader
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sugar, spice, everything on ice (hockey au) - camgirl edi!
smut - voyeurism, porn watching, sharing, ambiguous ending; again, this is a non-canon part of sseoi! also ik this scenario is unrealistic but read for the vibes!!!
obsessed with this previous part posted, and can’t stop thinking about how the boys used to chirp at simon for calling his fave cam girl his girl, only for it to end there, anyway.
how johnny was the first to find out when he caught simon listening to your stream like it’s a fucking podcast while he was taping his stick.
it was still too early in the morning for practice, but simon had been out with a minor lower injury and no one was really shocked that he’s the first in the rink when he got his permission from their physio. it was nice to see their A excited to get back on ice because truthfully? they needed him back. the team wasn’t straggling by any means but there’s an obvious difference with simon out which was why johnny found himself just as excited when simon told the group chat the good news, bounding in early for the morning skate too.
there were soft murmurs slipping past the cracked door when he made his way, and johnny pushed through the entrance, expecting maybe someone else with riley — maybe their captain or their coach — but it’s just their A.
and his phone, at full volume and full brightness, showcasing a… porn?
amateur porn, from the looks of it.
“uh?” was all johnny could say.
simon looked up, not even really appearing to be mortified that johnny just walked in on him watching a porn live-stream; the healthy sheen on his face did not even break for an embarrassed blush and, really, johnny started wondering if there was something he was missing.
“hey, mate,” simon greeted, still unaffected and screw it, johnny decided to ignore the wet squelch coming from the phone to reach forward and clap his arms around his friend.
“good to see ye back, man,” johnny said, chuckling. simon rumbled a quiet laugh too, looking pretty pleased and at peace like there’s no raunchy moans rumbling from his speakers—
you know what? fuck it.
“so you pent up in a different way, or?” johnny asked, nodding at the phone.
simon blinked, brows wrinkling in confusion for a second, before clarity washed over him, so obvious that johnny could track the moment he remembered what he had been listening to before johnny walked in.
“oh,” he huffed, shoulders shaking in another burst of quiet chuckles. “y’ve got to see ‘er. fuckin’ beautiful, this one.”
that… was not what johnny expected but he dropped on the cubicle beside simon to peek at his screen. apparently, he glanced at the right time as he watched the way your cunt stretched around the girth of your vibrator, made of glass, and the image you made was so startlingly lewd that johnny couldn’t even help groaning in appreciation too.
simon grins with something akin to pride, like he was telling johnny, “see? what’d i tell you?”
johnny would forget about that day until simon’s blunder of using his public account to blast his feelings for you, his clearly-not-just-pure feelings, made national news. their poor PR and media intern were working overtime to fix simon’s mistake because of course simon did not stop at just retweeting your website’s link while professing how he’s never cum so hard for anyone. no, he had to take it a little farther — he mass liked about fifty posts that you have made in two months time in the span of the three hours since they’ve flown back from tampa.
it was hell; apparently his profile was so thoroughly linked to your own with how active he was within those three hours of liking everything he could, that they suggested he just delete his profile and start anew. johnny doubted he was going to, what with his brand deals and other things, but then you poked back at simon and simon was so enamoured that he just took off the rails and flirted with you publicly.
he was unbelievable. simon was horny and yearning — a weird mix, but one that… worked, apparently, because here you are now, standing before them, all pretty and breathtaking.
johnny can’t even deny that he’s not distracted because, well, because they’ve seen you.
naked.
and getting fucked to the point of snot and tears.
fuck, this was not an easy meet-and-greet.
.
it was difficult to not cross the line when chirping at simon about his new relationship but garrick had been firm with his reminder, staring them down with that downturned tilt of his lips that spoke of no-nonsense. and no one ever wants to disappoint their captain so they steered clear of the obvious, like the fact that they all, at one point, watched your videos because simon just wouldn’t shut up about you. he was damn near close to waxing poetry which would have been cute if, you know, simon did not sound like a pervert who’s clearly whipped for a stranger.
it was funny then. it’s downright petrifying now.
they know more about you than they wished they did, like the fact that your go-to toy when the ejaculating dragon one is in the ‘wash’ is that vibrating dildo that is probably half the girth of johnny’s arm which is to say that it’s fucking thick, but still, you were able to bully all of that in your pussy, whining and mewling, before fucking down on it so hard it was bulging out of the soft pudge of your belly. or how you like having your nipples clamped. or how you have such a thing for oral stuff that you’d deepthroat a dildo while bouncing on another one.
it was a whiplash, going from watching you touch yourself in ways unfathomable to seeing you in front of them, giggling as you and simon share quiet conversations like they’re some sacred things.
fuck.
not even kyle, with his big announcement, could fake normalcy because you were a locker room name. they’ve all recommended different videos to each other — hell, all of them are still in that group chat they made to share links with each other. sure, simon had created it but no one really put it to rest — messages like, “she got anything in [x] cosplay?” or, “saw a short clip of her rubbing her pussy on her washing machine in twitter, does anyone have the full ver?” were getting passed around.
you were the darling girl of the team, and now simon’s got you cuffed.
it was easy to pinpoint the source of tension — the guys want a taste.
johnny stares at you and simon, and the secretive little smiles and heated looks that the two of you are sharing with each other, and realizes that maybe, just maybe, they are allowed it.
#suns#simon ghost riley x reader#task force 141 x reader#simon riley x reader#f!reader#camgirl!reader#simon riley smut#hockey au
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your post makes no sense? all of the identities that you named are NOT cis men??? and quite frankly it feels transphobic for you to consider them that
i'm a trans woman so i'm part of the group i'm commenting on. you do realize that a bigender trans woman who identifies as a trans woman and a cis man is still partially a cis man and that's not transphobic and it doesn't invalidate their trans womanhood, right? you do realize that a transfemme cis man is still a cis man and that doesn't invalidate their femmehood, right? you do realize a transfemme genderfluid person who identifies as a cis man is still partially a cis man and it doesn't invalidate their other genders, right? being bigender doesn't completely erase 1/2 of the identity. being a woman doesn't cancel out being a man. are you seriously saying that because that person has a queer identity means that it totally erases the fact that they are literally also identifying in plain english that they are also a cis man?
immersing yourself in the transfeminine community will help with this drastically. i don't know you or your history, but most of my IRL friends are transfeminine, myself included. there are many of my transfem friends who never want to be considered a man, and that's perfectly fine. however, i would say a good 1/3rd of the trans women i've met have also still identified as a cis gay man on some level. without shame, without it taking away their womanhood. existing alongside each other; parallel. if you meet and befriend a good number of transfeminine people you will find out that a lot of transfems identify as cis men and trans women at the same time. that's not new. many trans women identify as cis gay men and trans women at the same time. like, it's an extremely common thing. bigender means having two genders- one is trans woman, the other is cis man for people who identify this way. this person is a trans woman, a cis man, and a bigender person.
this doesn't make that person a bigender person, and a trans woman only. why do you think it's okay to completely erase that person's male identity? why do you think it's okay to completely ignore someone's manhood for the sake of their other identity? cis manhood isn't "icky". it doesn't get cancelled out by queerness. them partially being a cis man does not invalidate their trans womanhood. wake the fuck up, you're being transmisogynstic as hell right now and it's embarrassing.
a question you must ask yourself: why are you insinuating that it is transphobic to refer to someone correctly? my post specifically referred to trans women who also identify as cis men in their own words. why, in your mind, is this a bad thing? you MUST ask yourself why it's "transphobic" to acknowledge these identities and refer to these individuals correctly. you must ask yourself why you're putting your comfort before someone else's representation. there are transfemme cis men. there are transfeminine genderfluid people who identify as cis men when they are men. there are non binary cis men. why do you think that cis men cannot be queer, or trans? why are you assuming that a trans woman being a cis man at the same time is transphobic? why
this reeks of "woman cannot be man at the same time or else woman get cancelled out"
what is confusing about trans women having multiple genders? what's wrong with a bigender, multigender, genderfluid, genderqueer, genderfuck, gender non conforming, and/or intersex trans woman having a male identity that's also cis? what's wrong with that? how does that erase or "conflict" with the rest of their identity in any capacity?
there are bigender trans men who are cis women and trans men at the same time. there are bigender trans women who are cis men and trans women at the time. literally how does that not make sense. please explain to me how it doesn't make sense. every single person who has told me i'm not making sense hasn't told me why. please explain to me why you proudly and loudly saying that bi/multigender trans women don't exist is okay, but me fighting for people to understand that they do is transphobic.
stop virtue signalling and shoot the cop in your mind dead. in your attempt to look like a hero and earn brownie points all you did was show that you literally don't understand multigender, genderqueer, non binary, and other gender vast experiences. trans women won't magically like you more now because you decided to show everyone that you think it's transphobic to call someone who overtly in their own words identifies as a cis man, a cis man.
cis men aren't the devil. calm down and stop freaking the hell out over the fact that you can in fact be a cis man and a trans woman at the same time. the sun will still rise. the world will keep turning. it's not transphobic to refer to someone by the terms they ask you to use. get over yourself on this one, anon. that's your cross to bear: you are the transphobe. do yourself a favor and look into multigenderism before you decide to comment on trans theory again
you thought yourself into a corner and you can't find your way out.
#asks#answers#bigender#multigender#polygender#transfemme#transfem#transfeminine#trans woman#trans women
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DBDA (fuck it i’m calling it) nightly analysis #20!
tonight’s topic: does edwin understand that monty sees him romantically and when?
in opposition to the beliefs that i’ve seen many have, i think edwin understands the romantic implications that monty has for him from the beginning. he is repressed and likely has lots of guilt for being queer, yes, but he’s not an idiot. he knows that queer people exist, he just can’t accept that he is one. he probably actively avoided thinking about homosexuality in the thirty+ years of his afterlife pre-cannon because “yes, that’s a thing, but not for me.”
he is flustered by tck’s advances, of course, but he doesn’t seem surprised that they worked for him. he is a little ashamed and embarrassed, but i sincerely believe that he knew this about himself in the very v e r y y y far parts of his mind. he knew why the boys at school called him a mary anne, he just refuses to accept that they were right. he refuses to think about it.
when he runs into monty (pun intended) for the first time in E3 and monty flirts with him, he looks taken aback, not because it’s a man flirting with him, but because it’s a man flirting with him. he knows that this is flirting, on paper, and he would be able to recognize this were it someone else, but flirting among men is shameful and even if it weren’t, it is reserved for decidedly Not Him (tm). it is a thing for him to avert his eyes at. he is less than convincing when he tells niko that he doesn’t believe that monty was flirting simply because they’re both boys. he doesn’t believe that. queerness was no longer seen as a crime in the uk in 1967, well before he even escaped hell. gay marriage was legalized in 2013 so he would’ve been there when it became legal. he knows that being gay is a thing, it’s just not a thing that he, specifically, is allowed.
he does not seem all that surprised when niko tells him that two boys can “like-like” each other, because it’s something he already KNOWS. he’s using the fact that he’s from a time where it was illegal to be queer to pretend to be unaware. he cannot be held liable for liking men and cannot be questioned about liking monty if he plays dumb.
the next time they meet, he can understand that monty is flirting- that he took the time out of his day to chart his astrology specifically and is sitting with him to explain it. he knows that this is him expressing romantic interest. this is part of the reason that he’s not taken by much surprise when he asks him out in the next episode. truly, edwin hardly even flusters. he tells him he can’t go out with him because of the case, but reschedules a date for later.
he knows this is a date. again, he is not dumb. he knows that monty is and has been sending him major fucking signals this whole time and he is just now choosing to engage back fully.
when they eventually do go on that “walk” and end up at the swingset, he tells monty that they should “stop seeing each other.” this is an interesting choice of words because it is him verbally admitting that this is romantic. to stop seeing each other, you must first BE seeing each other. he knows these interactions to be modern day courting. monty has been actively flirtatious the entire time, but this is the first time he’s verbalizing that this is anything of the sort. he is rejecting him here. he is admitting that they should stop courting because he has been made aware of his feelings for charles and it wouldn’t be right to anyone involved if he were to keep pursuing monty. it wouldn’t be fair to monty because he would be entertaining romance despite being wholly in love with someone else, it wouldn’t be fair to himself because he would be living a lie, and it wouldn’t be fair to charles because he would be blindsided by all of it. he’s surprised that monty kisses him, not because he thinks that monty was just being a Good Pal (tm) this whole time, but because he was actively trying to reject him.
all this to say, my mans knows what gay is, he’s just been forced to pretend that he wasn’t all his life and that happened to stay with him into his afterlife. bro’s repressed and filled with guilt, not unaware.
#erebus psychoanalyzes things nightly!#i love psychoanalyzing everything <3#dead boy detectives#dbda#dbda meta#character analysis#dbda character analysis#analysis#dbda analysis#psychoanalysis#save dead boy detectives#renew dead boy detectives#revive dead boy detectives#edwin payne#monty finch#montwin#media analysis#save dbda#we will save this show#savedeadboydetectives
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His words stung, not quite in a negative way but in an accurate way. Such scarily accurate advice considering nothing was told, but it was common sense after all. It hurt even more to hear it from an unbiased party.
Silence fell between them, only cars driving, horns honking, and the sound of their steps lingered between the two. He was contemplating if it was too soon- but the alternative would be to wait until dinner. Fuck it.
"Yeah, I love my job..." he answered, an impish smile crossing his lips as he let out a defeated sigh. "I love it, I love meeting the people, I love creating things for people and seeing them happy. I'm incredibly blessed..."
But... "It's funny you say that, because it's also kinda why I'm in this place to begin with." He laughed, loosely and highly unconvincing. His eyes were drawn to the side walk as he finally brought himself to speak up. Surely, if this was too much information, Sailor would stop him...right?
"About Six months ago." six months, one week and three days. But who's counting? "I was engaged to probably the most perfect woman to walk this earth." And that was putting it lightly in Andy's eyes.
"She had gorgeous red hair, the most beautiful hazel eyes. She had a bangin' body and the kindest soul. I mean it, she was the sweetest girl I ever met. She was supportive, she had her own business. She's driven ...I admired the hell out of that woman." Clearly, he had been harboring these words for what felt like an eternity. "She didn't need anybody- not a man, no one. She kicked ass. "
Just thinking of that woman was enough to cause him to smile. His eyes were drawn up to the sky and he let out a sigh of almost relief. Relief to get this out of his system. "And we got engaged, and the short version of it- I was too caught up in my own work to pay attention. Ya know, she loved that I had my own thing goin' but I couldn't put it on pause long enough to focus on her. " It was embarrassing to admit, but the truth. If he was to be honest with himself, he was the problem. "She gave me an ultimatum and I tried to hold my end of the bargain... The problem with lovin' a strong woman is she will leave if you don't hold up your end."
He turned his focus back towards his guest and smiled, mocking his own pain. "So now, I'm being dragged out and taught to live a little. And I guess they're hopin' it'll knock some sense into me."
“ I don't mind it much. I've always been the responsible one, y'know ? Got a reputation to protect. The other guys ? Eh, not so much. I'm only a little jealous, really. Bein' that carefree, just doin' whatever ? It's gotta be nice, ” the words flow freely. He's not as guarded as he once was; evident in his body language, the relaxation that falls upon typically tensed shoulders. It's comforting to be around someone who seems to be just as level headed. There's no need for any mask, to play any role for the sake of blending in. He hates to admit it, but being around Andy didn't demand any additional energy. Natural. Effortless. It felt strange to even think it.
Laughter emits from his frame, his head shaking. One too many times did he try to pull off a full working day after a night out, only to spend the duration of the day regretting every choice he made the night prior. “ Yeah, I'm basically useless the day after drinking. That's why I don't do it. That's cool, though. I think I remember you mentionin' the shop. You like what you do ? ” He asks, his gaze fluttering towards Andy.
Sailor assumes he does, solely because of the close bond he has with the people he works with. Reminds him of all the marines he still considers himself close to, even after all this time. It's only gotten harder now, his focus shifted on his hockey career and appeasing the masses. He yearns for the brotherhood he once shared, and has only been left feeling emptier than he began after his time overseas. “ Hey, sometimes it is good to get out. Get out your head for a bit, but there's gotta have been a good chunk of time between the initial heartbreak and then goin' out. Otherwise, it's more of a detriment than anythin' else. It also ain't healthy to immerse yourself in work like that, either. Distraction never did anybody any real good, I'll tell you that.”
Speaks from experience; his mind distant for a moment. His shoulders shrug, pulling a hand from out of his pocket to card through his hair. “ Whatever it is. It'll pass. What feels like the end of the world one day, is a door opening the next. Easy to say as someone who ain't goin' through it, but I've done my time. I think everyone has. I'm here for you, though. Whether it's Waffle House runs or . . . whatever else. ”
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I have been spending and objectively disturbing amount of time on the war thunder forums...
#Like fucking hell man this is embarrassing#need to get some stats and comparisons for vehicle performance somewhere I guess#They're all a bit... enthusiastic about this though
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MOON 18: Oh Shit She’s Feeling It (pt. 1)
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#warrior cats#clangen#clangen warrior cats#warriors oc#wc#wc oc#jcmoons#oh man that’s embarrassing#I dedicate this to all the angry / embarrassed cries out there……….#I also dedicate this to MC Ride from Death Grips because of course I listen to them#I wonder what kind of mood she will be in back at camp#oh shit I’m feeling it#takyon#hell yeah fuck yeah I feel like killing it#takyonnnn#shout out to everyone who reads my tags to further understand me and are only more confused
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Lmao Zeus & Hades are such bad dads that they think Percy would rob a god for his deadbeat dad who owes Sally 12 years of back pay for child support…
These literal God-Kings sat down and were like hmmm Poisedon hasn’t talked to this child in years to avoid people knowing he ejaculated when he should’ve of evacuated… & has a shitty abusive stepdad now… that child would absolutely Mission Impossible Olympus for him! Let’s kill him :)
Hey dumbasses, my own deadbeat parent can barely get me to text them back, I ain’t stealing shit for them. As a member of Team Deadbeat Parent, that request would’ve caused 12 year old me to cuss out an adult for the first time
#they literally tried to mug a child based on this assumption#the fact your thunderbolt was stealable sounds like a you issue buddy#I’d be too embarrassed to admit to that#hades sent a MINOTAUR after him!!!#what the hell man???#you’re LUCKY no one died!!!#pretty sure even kids who wanted their parents involved in their life would’ve told him to go fuck off#me? i didn’t care#so I wouldn’t probably yelled at them#you don’t even send me a card and you want me to commit a felony for you?#go to hell poisedon#the entire book series I wanted Percy to serve him with child support papers#EVEN AFTER he’s claimed he STILL doesn’t pay child support!!!#sally has to get the money from her murdered husband#low key was rooting for Kronos and the gods to destroy each other#deadbeat dad#mine#pjo#pjo series#hades#Zeus#posideon#percy jackson and the olympians#percy jackon and the olympians#Percy jackson
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got asked to take down the cards he just put up again
#hasegawa hell#technically complete but the proportions are kinda fucked and im not fixing it#so like. do you ever find yourself committing so hard to the “this middle aged man should be drawn like Anime Girl” thing#you attempt to mimick that kind of art style and slowly forget how you used to draw things?#forget your entire ass art style?????#well haha uhhh#not the worst predicament i've had but certainly one of the more embarrassing ones
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getting rid of a pet because your partner doesn’t like them is crazy, i’d dump a mf so fast lmao
#hell to the fuck no B Y E#sorry just seen smthn on tiktok and#what made it more embarrassing is that this girl got rid of her cat for a man#lmAO#u deserve to be clowned on for the rest of your life ngl#that’s like giving up a constant fluffy cloud of happiness for a perpetually wet sock#that probably stinks & doesn’t wash its ass#meanwhile#my cat’s fur smells like fresh laundry and flowers 🌸😌🌸#why would anyone EVER give that up pls be fr#apple babble 🍎#non fandom
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no cuz fr the most unexplainable thing would be how they didn’t reunite sooner like,,, Mine could have been staying away because he wansnt good enough for daigo (in his mind) but still i don’t think he’d stay THAT far away 💀 at most bro is down the street at any given time 😭
reviews are in for Mine Isn't Dead Actually But He Is Emo So
#snap chats#crying at the thoght of mine and daigo reuniting at the grocery#like yk when you go with your mom and she bumps into an old friend and now youre stuck in a five minute cutscene#yeah that. but your Old Friend was your one true love who you thought killed himself#and now you find out he's just working at the bar around the bend 💀💀💀#stop whyd i remind myself of that tiktok where dudes in a coat rack and is like 'dad is this where youve been all this time'#same shit mine's booking it. hes too embarrassed too ashamed#itd be so funny if every 'dead' character did just get kidnapped by the daidoji#thats the funniest shit to come out of gaiden The Daidoji just being an excuse to bring dead bitches back#not that im complaining its 1000% hilarious as hell vjaLKAEKLJ#gonna see kiryu at the daidoji HQ and act like they dont know each ther#a-fucking-pparently since kiryu doesnt even have a memory of mine in y8 💀💀💀#genuinely hilarious how thats so ... like no i dont think ill remember the man who tried to usurp my son who he was in love with#and he destroyed my orphanage before killnig himself right in front of me. and my son. not worth remembering at all#at least the vocational school quizzes remember mine 💀💀
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oh man.
#🎲#oh i think yesterday i was thinking about pegging benny for like a full hour at work. i was so bored. work feels so long because#it gets dark immediately so i feel trapped in hell for like 7 hours. ANYWAYS. yeah i wanna fuck benny soooo bad sometimes.#>_<.... getting embarrassed. justttt ughhhh i knowww he'd be so sensitive and loud. man. I WISH I COULD DRAW PORN!!! i suck at it#like i just want him to come over and over i wanna make him feel soooo good uughhh i want him to get overwhelmed.#UGHHHH i wish i had a cock i also wanna come in him. i'm sure he'd like it hehe.... god i just wanna fuck him so bad...#maybe tie him up too... ive also considered whether or not i would maybe wanna gag him. probably not.... but hmm#he would still be able to make nice sounds despite the gag of course.... who knowsss.
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I think I got possibly the absolute worst outcome for the tribunal you could possibly get and then slept from 12pm to 7pm
#SEVEN FUCKING PEOPLE DEAD#jesus christ#i dont think it couldve gone worse#im googling two seconds#yep jesus christ the only possible death i didnt get was kourtenar and i dont think i wouldve given a shit if he died#what the hell hiw did i fuck it up so unbelievably fucking bad#i failed some checks i really fucking shouldnt have#jesus this is what i get for being bad at murder mysteries#motherfucker#i actually feel genuinely really awful like sick to my stomach#my teeth started chattering during it i was so hopped up and stresssssed#fuck im tempted to cheese it to try get a better outcome but shit man i dont think i personally could#i have no idea how i could have fixed any of it i fucked up before i even walked into it#god what the fuck#im like genuinely embarrassed and kind of ashamed?#someone said you have to let shanky run how do you do that i genuinely do not remember a decision like that#fuckin cheesecloth brain fucking hell#couldnt have gone worse if ibfuckin tried#motherfucking disco elysium#this is so embarrassing admitting this#the power of friendship DID in fact fail me#well now i have to play the game and not fuck up like an idiot#god i feel so terrible how did i screw things uo so much#admittedly maybe i should be nicer to myself considering i'd maybe gotten 3 hours of sleep yesterday and had been awake for nearly 24 hours#(ive been sleeping weird dont worry about it)#but man i dont think i couldve made it go much better but even 6 deaths is better than 7#sprry for the long tags i am just miserable#i also think im sick? maybe a covid test in my future
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The mortifying ordeal of asking your friends if they want to engage in cringe behavior
#wacky watermelons#like. man. cringe is dead but its always breathing down my neck yk?#i couldn't care less what someone else is doing. but i feel embarrassed to all hell doing shit myself#that's also why im vauging here#the idea of being candid right now makes me off the charts anxious#also just sitting here like#if i don't get a response in 10 min I am deleting the messages and disappearing for the next 3 days#fucking. idk. hmu if you want to know what im doing. its less embarrassing on tumblr but yall have less context
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hey… you know what would have been fantastic…
not being sick my first day in Tucson
…and yet here we are 😬👎
#soz this is tmi but i never get sick and the one time i do in legit……..7 years?#…no exaggeration..pretty sure it’s 7#its…in way way WAY less than ideal circumstances#hooray….#ramblin but not a gamblin man#lmao that my dad didnt realize until he came over and was like ‘u gud?’ and…i was very much not good 😭😂#sorry dad…….#he did give me napkins while i tried not to fucking die from embarrassment so that was very sweet#but also kill me like what the hell
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