#Like a pain in my heart
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Absence of words can hurt as much as hurtful words
Suh as when dad comes home or I come home and he doesn't say a word to me. Not even hi.
Throws me back to when I was a kid and he wouldn't speak to me for weeks at a time except to tell me to shut the door, lock the door, close the fridge, turn off the light etc
#Or am I overblowing things#Life#Words#Makes me feel worthless#Like a pain in my heart#I used to hate dad#I still struggle w it but now it's more mild resentment#And not constant#Echoes of that don't go away#Things from as a kid stay w you#He was depressed I get that but#I was a kid.#What do you think that does to someone
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I don't want to regret the way I lived
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuji itadori#gojo satoru#nobara kugisaki#nanami kento#choso kamo#junpei yoshino#jjk leaks#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#this idea started as a 2 part series . then my braincells decided to spark and supplied 7 PAGES#'did you sleep hina' no#ws looking up mentally stable things like 'who has died in jjk' smh i love my hyperfixation media im sooooo glad so many ppl r DEAD#i *could* have included more ppl but i think this is a good crew. this is a yuuji emotional support crew#also Was gna include his grandpa final panel but i Did Not Want To#he is implied through th dialogue#side note i donot like how i cn see this scenario playing out . ..yuuji this isnt ur stop u r monopoly voice Just Visiting ok >:(#anyway I broke my own heart with this and ik i hyped it up a lot but i hope that its not just me...#hope i did not hype it up fr nothing and no one else finds it devastating :((((( that would b humbling in the worst way#pls ...join the happy party train.......i hate it here i suffered pls :<<<<#also !!!! colours in this !! i cooked i fear . adding th first bit of warm hitting yuuji's face after th first 2 panels....#ive never had that kind of experience while drawing before it was wild . painful ! but wild.#the whole transition from p 2->3 might b the most emotionally moving piece ive ever made to me#not 2 sing my own praises tho i will shut up ! i wil. nap
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his love has no bounds he just doesn’t realize it yet :’V
#twisted wonderland#twst#lilia vanrouge#THEY MAKE ME SSICKKKK#and cry#vanrouge family u will be the closest to my heart#disney twisted wonderland#artists on tumblr#twst lilia#silver twst#silver vanrouge#SILVER…..VANROUGE!#tacc0yak1art#general lilia#book 7 spoilers#book 7#i got the general lilia ssr at 71 pity but instead of drawing him like i always do#i draw pain and angst
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Good morning, Sleepyhead.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#'WWX was asleep for 4 days' is an incorrect factoid.#The average WWX sleeps for 8 hours. The PD-MDZS WWX who was asleep for 40 comics and 4 months is an outlier.#We are back to present day! I have missed drawing them!#Ah...the contrast between how the flashback ended (cold and distrustful) to how wwx wakes up (warm and watched over)...#The gap between the past and present is very important. Not just in this story but in our lives too.#The past can still hurt and it doesn't just go away with time as some say. It is the power of realizing that things have changed.#We can't get the good back. The bad memories have concluded. Those live somewhere else now.#It is hard to realize that you have to live for today and tomorrow. The past is so loud.#For WWX it is realizing that despite the mistrust in the past - He really does have faith that LWJ will be there for him.#It is the reflection of knowing that you changed and will keep changing and that change is good and kind sometimes.#But more importantly...and this I really do mean with all my heart:#It will all end up okay in the end. Even after the worst day. The most painful losses. You will get through it.#What feels like a breaking point is truthfully just another step you have to take. You'll get through it even though it feels like the end.#There are wonderful things you have yet to see. Friends you have yet to meet.#Even if it hurts so badly...one day it just aches. Someday you'll go a few weeks not remembering that it ever hurt.#Oh and because my izutsumi comic revealed many people were in need of hearing this:#You are loved. Right now. You are so loved right now. We just forget to tell each other that.#Go tell the people you love that they matter to you. I'm assigning you homework!!! You are graded on completion.
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physically sick over the fact that. In the game’s canon Viktor is doing whatever he can to get rid of his emotions and humanity. and it’s what him and Jayce clash over most. its the center of their entire conflict
but in arcane it’s torn away from him against his will because of Jayce. Because Jayce didn’t care what Viktor became as long as he got his partner back. Hello. Can anyone hear me
#in another life this is exactly what you would’ve wanted. but this isn’t that life and it isn’t what you want#going to THROW UP#their relationship in arcane vs the game already made me insane but oh my GOD#there are benefits to looking into the lore. like heartbreak and PAIN#dani speaks#arcane#arcane league of legends#arcane season 2#arcane season 2 spoilers#jayce talis#arcane jayce#viktor arcane#viktor#jayvik#arcane jayvik#in my heart at least
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mold
#ethan winters#leon kennedy#lethan#resident evil#resident evil village#resident evil fanart#rebhfun#roomate au#based on a convo i had with my friend coffee#ty coffee 🙏#what if ethan suffers from the same side effects eveline did...#like throwing up mold and stuff#and like has heart aches and stuff or kinda like a phantom pain of his heart since miranda ripped it out...#his body is crumbling apart...
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"Old friend... I miss you so much. I'm so sorry."
#genesis rhapsodos#crisis core#final fantasy vii#ff7#dirge of cerberus#angeal hewley#buster sword#aerith's church#post doc Genesis#post doc#ff7doc#ff7dc#yes my heart was *breaking* the entire time I was working on this oh my GOD#if it wasn't clear a recently woken Genesis has stumbled across Aerith's church#and found good ol' buster inside#and he gets very very emotional about Angeal#many regrets#many laments#one day I'll write the damn fic that goes with this#but for now#enjoy the pain#(also crazy realisation but this is my FIRST TIME EVER drawing post-DoC Genesis)#what the hell#it's been like EIGHTEEN YEARS WHAT#also#banorawhite#I FINISHED IT DKFJASDJASK
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Edwin has to bite his lip to smother his laugh, shoulders shaking minutely against tanned skin. The rough sound ratchets up a tick. Purring. The Cat King is purring.
Guys I wrote 2k of toothrotting catwin fluff! Check it out on ao3 💕
tags: edwin/cat king, established relationship, Teen, no archive warnings, kissing/cuddling, purring, excessive use of the words warmth and rumbling, just generally a sweet soft little thing tbh
#catwin#edwin x the cat king#edwin payne#edwin paine#the cat king#thomas the cat king#cat king#catwin fic#ao3 fanfic#fanfiction#dead boy detectives#dbda#fluff#my art#ive been listening to Honeybee by the Head and the Heart on repeat for like 3 days#and ended up writing for the first time in like 11 years#rip#ignore my rushed ass art guys okay i was desperate to finish it lol#my fic
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Alex's cowboy hat appreciation
#red white and royal blue#alex claremont diaz#taylor zakhar perez#rwrb source#rwrbedit#rwrb movie#look i know henry is singing queen#but in my heart he's singing hey cowboy by devon cole#not me being like oh damn a sequel better post some gifs and write some fic#also yes i am still in pain#can someone remove my spine pls
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✨all that matters✨
#whumptober2024#no.15#childhood trauma#painful hug#I did good right?#Star Wars the bad batch#art#my art#sw tbb#tbb crosshair#tbb omega#the bad batch fandom#ugh I will never forget this moment#the whole show building up to it#my heart exploded#like I’ve never had that strong of a reaction to a tv show ever#anyway this was supposed to be like a 30 min sketch for this prompt
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i saw them in the cookbook pages and Immediately thought of this meme:
#barnaby: this is so nice. just me and my buddy whipping up a tasty treat#wally: *having six simultaneous crises*#anyway. huh?#this was a pain to scribble and i Dont Know Why#i had to redraw barnaby's face literally five times#but im trying to Expand my skillset by attempting more backgrounds#or background adjacent things... Props!#im very proud of the counter & flower vase off to the side!#and uh. Filters! those as well. i wanted to make this look somewhat like its aged...#scribble garnish#welcome home#welcome home puppet show#man. these two. squeezes them#halloween update made me love them all the more#name a better pair of best friendsssss you canttttttt#they are Top Tier and i hope they get torn apart one way or another#you see i live for the drama the pain the agony the devastation#i see my favorites and i want them to Hurt.#anyway thinking about them baking together melts my stony heart#theyre bonding 🥺#oh man why is that emoji So Fucking Detailed on my laptop. its scaring me. kill it kill it kill it
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all i have left
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fanart#jjk fanart#fushiguro megumi#itadori yuuji#yuuji#megumi#hhhhhhhhh why angsty mood im hurting my me :((((((#go from megumi angst 2 dumb outfits then HARD pivot back 2 angst#u dont understand th clench in my heart i get drawing th sukuna scars on megumi i genuinely hate it so much#theyre such a Part of yuuji's design tht drawing them on megumi feels so viscerally wrong n it just hammers home that nothing is alright#had to listen 2 the cutesiest music possible while drawing this 2 keep myself sane#miku miku beam th pain away :)#real talk tho like. im really not one to b terribly emotionally affected by my own art. or to draw from my Own emotional state at all rly#i tend 2 keep myself pretty distant#but theres smth abt this one man this one pulls at th kokoro :(#suffering from success ig :/#created an emotionally poignant piece n it hurt. 0/10 wld not recommend. am going back to drawing boys shirtless >:c#gna draw something else so i stop feeling genuine human emotion
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Then employ one of your own superstitions. Wish me luck.
#star trek#trekedit#startrekedit#tos#tosedit#tvedit#sd*#mine*#spones#sponesedit#leonard mccoy#leonard nimoy#bones#spock#deforest kelley#star trek tos#treksource#startrekgifs#are you okay? because i am not#this hurts me so much#absolutely love this pain but my god#whyyyy#he did not tell him. spock just goes on a sui*cide mission and asks bones to wish him luck#and bones does it when spock is not there anymore#have you seen the way spock leaves??? look me in the eyes and tell me he has no feelings#it's not int he gifset cos it would be too long and i already giffed entire scene like 4 y ago#but it;s just so... they are just so - im going insane here#imagine what's happening in spock's mind... and heart . he asked him SPOCK ASKED HIM and bones does it when spock cannot hear him#dammit bones aaaaaaaaaaaaaa tattoo this scene on me i love it
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FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL 👽🥀
#i love dalien so much u guys…#i really DID feel like i was sending my son off to war. move over dnp i want custody.#do i have a parasocial relationship with a sim? well yes. and that is okay <3#gamingmas#dan and phil#dnp#dnpgames#dalien howlter#!!!MY SWEET LAD.#dapg sims#dan howell#phil lester#im so invested in dalien’s high school adventures. i felt real pain in my heart when he went to eat lunch w the principal#DALIEN I WANT NOTHING BUT THE BEST FOR YOU#he would love the cheerard outfit i know this to be true
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armand + :)
#iwtvedit#iwtv#interview with the vampire#armand#iwtv spoilers#iwtv s2#i am like. aware that i am making too many gifsets. and yet i continue#what am i supposed to do - think about something ELSE??? how#anyway fascinated by his smile response to pain. and by fascinated i mean ow my heart
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blasting my two favorite interests into each other because i can
#metal bat#garou#one punch man#opm#batarou#shatters my heart to say this because metal bat is my fave and has my heart but garou is 100 times more fun to draw than him im so sorry#splatoon 3#splatoon#metal bat pain brush user because i couldnt decide if he would be a roller or a brush main and painbrush is the perfect inbetween#originally i was going to give him a dynamo#but a pain brush is lighter and more similar to his bat i feel like#garou gets enperry dualies because hes annoying#LOOOOOOOOOOOL JK SORRY#hes fast and whatevvsss#he can use his water mountain breaking fist thing with his triple splash down#this is for a very niche audience of people who r fans of opm AND splatoon 😭#im sure there will be at least ONE person who is happy about this combination... 😭
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