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when will eppie hawke and fenris meet tavish and astarion? (:
"And anyway, it won't be that bad. One last little Fade rift. We'll barricade it up as best we can, send a message to Skyhold, go home, and—"
One of the craggy footholds crumbles away beneath Hawke's foot, and it's only Fenris's quick hand that saves her from a plummet back down the side of the barren mountain. "Hawke, please."
"Please yourself. I said you didn't have to come."
Fenris throws her a longsuffering look, the flickering green lightning of the rift casting weird shadows over his eyes, but he doesn't let go of her arm until she's got both feet on solid ground again. "Just seal it and let this be done."
"My heart's only desire, lover," Hawke says, smiling, just as another pair of voices rises from the other side of the rift.
"Careful—careful! It shocks like the entire Hells are in there. Where's Gale?"
"Wherever Karlach dropped him, I suppose, with that little sprained ankle of his. No, I see them, they're almost here. Come away, darling. No need to get so dramatically close."
"This, from you?" says the woman, just as she and her fellow voice round the far edge of the rift. "Oh!"
"Well!" Hawke says almost at the same moment. Two of them after all: a short, slim woman with auburn hair pulled back in a low tail, and a tall, lithe man with hair as white as Fenris's and eyes that gleam like rubies. The man has a dagger drawn already, a thin smile playing over his face; the woman's fingers rest on her sheathed rapier, but her gaze is open, friendly. Hawke plants her staff on the rocky ground in as welcoming a gesture as she can manage. "Fancy running into someone like you up here of all places."
"I could say the same," the woman says. The green rift, still hanging between them and stretching a good twenty feet into the sky, gives an ominous rumble. "Our wizard's been fretting about magical disturbances along the city's borders for weeks. He finally traces the source to this location, and here you are at the heart of it. I'd like to believe it's coincidence."
"Alas," Hawke says, "one of my greatest faults is a terrible habit of being around when things begin. Fenris can attest to that better than most." She lays a hand on Fenris's shoulder, but he's stiff as iron, eyes glued to the man's dagger, and he's reached back for the hilt of his greatsword. "I'm Hawke, by the way."
"Call me Tav."
"And I'm Astarion," the man says grandly, accompanied by a wholly unnecessary flourish of his dagger. "We're here to steal the world."
"Save it," Tav says sharply.
"Of course, my dear. Save the world. What did I say?"
Fenris makes a short, disgusted noise, but Hawke's pleased to see he's let go of his own sword. She doesn't think this Astarion is going to kill them—not easily, anyway—and she likes the look of Tav despite herself. Both of them quick on their feet, she thinks, both moving gracefully with an innate, self-assured balance. As Tav steps around the rift Astarion moves with her like water, without even needing to see where she's gone. It reminds her a great deal of Fenris and herself, actually, though Hawke would give an arm to trust her own feet that much.
Fenris, it seems, has come to similar conclusions, and he rolls his shoulders as he releases their tension. Even his voice has lost its nascent fury, which for Fenris is practically friendly in situations like this. "The rift is dangerous. We will guard it until the Inquisitor can seal it permanently. Be on your way."
"Inquisitor?" drawls Astarion with that same, thin-lipped smile. "Sounds like someone from dear Shadowheart's former enclave, don't you think?"
"I don't think they're Sharran," Tav says. "Are you?"
"What a speculative look you've put on," Hawke says, delighted. "I haven't the faintest idea what you're talking about. Unless you'd like me to be Sharran, in which case, I most certainly am and in fact have always been."
Both Fenris and Astarion roll their eyes—hilarious in its own right, but heightened by the clear antipathy still remaining between them. Fenris sighs. "Hawke—"
The rift explodes.
Green lightning shatters over the rocky cliff. The rumble bursts into a deafening roar; the faint breeze that had been dancing around them sweeps up into a hurricane. The air cracks and snaps with a sudden smell of ozone.
Hawke throws her hand over her eyes. She can't see—the wind tears her hair from its bindings and she can't see past the brilliant flashes of blazing green and she can't hear— "Fenris!"
Someone's fingers wrap around hers. She wrenches up her staff, calls for fire—for ice—for anything—but the rift has become a maelstrom and every scrap of magic sucks into the raging whirl before she can shape it. Her boots skid on the stone as she tries to brace against the inexorable pull, pebbles and rocks rattling along every step. She can't—the hand wrapped around hers has seized tight as a vise, but she's slipping anyway, and Maker, she can't—
A man's echoing voice, stripped bare of all artifice, wild with fear: "Tav!"
The wind dies. Not slowly, not gradually; it falls off like someone's upturned a glass over the rocky cliff, and Hawke's ears roar in the sudden silence. The wind is gone, and the rift is gone with it as if it had never been, the thunderous clouds that had been swirling above it already dissipating to glimpses of blue morning sky.
"Andraste preserve me," Hawke says, loud in the quiet, and she looks over to see Tav still crouched against the face of the mountain. One of Tav's hands clutches a dagger she'd wedged deep into a stony crevice; the other is still wrapped tight around Hawke's wrist where she'd pulled her away from the tempest.
No sign of Fenris. No sign of the other one—Astarion. A long white scrape in the stone marks where Fenris's sword had sought and failed to find purchase, disappearing at the precise place where the rift had torn itself open.
Gone. Gone, gone. Her heart hammers in her throat, and she indulges in thirty seconds of agonizing grief before she sets it aside, turns, and pulls Tav to her feet.
"Well," Hawke says at last. "Looks like it's just you and me, then. Ready for an adventure?"
"Yes," Tav says, her grip on Hawke's hand like steel, and her eyes blaze. "You and me. Let's get them back."
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Everything hurts. Everything godsdamned hurts, and Astarion lets out a pained groan as he rolls to his back and drops his arm over his face. His ears ring like bells, and something twinges painfully in his left hip, and the inconvenient sun has decided to blaze right in his face and gods damn it, he'd known they ought to wait for Gale. Wretched wizard and his weak ankles. Wretched Tav and her complete inability—
"Tav," Astarion says, and sits bolt upright.
No Tav. Not even the dark-haired sorcerer with the wide smile. Just that taciturn warrior in leather and half-plate seated on a rock a few feet away, watching Astarion get his bearings, his greatsword slung across his knees and a deeply sour look on his tattooed face. The skies above them are clear and blue as a song.
No Tav. No Hawke. No rift. No plan, and no company besides an irascible stranger with the same sudden look of dawning horror.
"Venhedis."
"Shit."
#quark replies#Anonymous#dragon age#baldur's gate 3#quark writes#oh lord how to tag this#hawke#fenris#tav#astarion#tavstarion#fenris/hawke#then they go on adventures together and make it home again#eppie & tav are in baldur's gate btw & fenris and astarion are in thedas#eppie & tav have a GREAT time and fenris & astarion decidedly do not#but they end up very much respecting each other by the end#also there's a contentious series of scenes where astarion is starving and eventually is forced to explain to fenris#who thinks it's blood magic at first and flatly refuses to help#but eventually does hunt down bandits & boars & such for astarion to feed and once ONLY ONCE in very dire straits does he let astarion#drink from his arm#they never talk about it again but astarion does eventually tell him the story of cazador & fenris in some surprise tells him about danariu#there's a little disgust on both sides after i think#'you managed to get free from your master and you spent ten years RUNNING FROM HIM?'#'you managed to get free from your master and you act like THIS? flippant and cruel and petty and vindictive?'#anyway they kill a bunch of slavers and bond and by the time hawke & tav get with gale for an interplanar portal open they're cool#hawke and tav go to microbreweries and magic shows and tav steals all of hawke's money out of habit like four times
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Keyblade wielders Dick Grayson & Cassandra Cain.
Princess of Heart Tim Drake.
#WHOMST is trying to open the Door to Darkness in Gotham?#let Tim build Gummi ships#instead of going through Disney worlds you're going through other DC heroes' adventures#you get Cassie and Donna instead of Hercules#Kon instead of Peter Pan#you meet Aqualad instead of Ariel etc etc#you might still just straight up get Alice in Wonderland though but instead of the Red Queen#Gotham's Mad Hatter is the stealth boss#DC#Batfam#Kingdom Hearts#Crossover ALL The Things#Dick Grayson#Cassandra Cain#Tim Drake#I just think Tim being the Team Up Guy makes him a good Princess of Heart candidate
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We're going to save your brother.
#mario movie#mario movie spoilers#super mario bros#super mario bros movie#super mario bros movie spoilers#princess peach#mareach#cherrysip edits#I FEEL LIKE THIS MOMENT DID NOT GET THE ATTENTION AND APPRECIATION IT DESERVED ON HERE#man i could write you an essay about this#i do think that the 'i'm not afraid! i'll do anything for my brother' line actually ISN'T said during this scene - it's probably earlier#but that this line IS in the right place (peach's mouth movements match)#which means that scene is going to break me because it just seems like a very vulnerable sweet moment between them#where peach and mario get to talk about the situation they're in and their fears and how big the stakes are for both of them#peach fighting to protect her kingdom and her subjects - the immense pressure on her to stop bowser because of her role as a leader#and mario desperately trying to save his brother - not knowing if luigi is ok or not and not being able to keep him safe is so painful#i think that's why mario doesn't have his hat on - the adventure is starting to weigh on him and he opens up to peach for the first time#about him and luigi and their closeness and how he CAN'T lose his brother he CAN'T let him down when he needs him more than ever#and peach reassures him and it means the world. even in this quick clip there's something a little sad about his face#but also there's relief and gratefulness to her for saying that. they're the absolute sweetest :) :) :)#i could be off base but that really does seem like the vibe of this scene from what we've seen and i am ALL ABOUT IT
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undersea arc. undersea arc. when. undersea arc when.
#my post#please. please. please. on my hands and knees BEGGINGGGG#maybe if gill didnt get donjon'd theydve gone#bcus it was like. that was when they were like 'its too dangerous out here we need to get ollie home Now.'#but if theyd just gone to the feywild. put on a funny show. fought the doctor. and then gone back to liquidis?#ollie wouldve gone 'just oneee more adventure pleaseee :( pleaseeeeeee :(' and chip wouldve caved and well. well. opens the map.#yeah the undersea capitol is actually pretty close to liquidis#they couldve gone. they couldve gone#I NEED THINGS TO BE NOT DIRE. I NEED THINGS TO BE SILLY AGAIN#although if they go to the undersea its automatically going to be dire anyways.#goddd i want an undersea arc i want gillion to see the REAL elders again#yknow how in ep 53 chip and gill sorta stood in the back and shouted encouragement to jay but ultimately let her handle the situation when#it came to her dad. i think confronting the elders will go much the same way#guh. god i want them to go to the undersea i luterally think about this all the fucking time#going to warn the elders about the navy and the black sea spreading and the nameless prince.#wwhat if gill could show them the room he grew up in. what if they go there and its bare empty. what if they scrubbed all evidence gill eve#existed.#alternate also evil version. what if they somehow ran into gills parents. and he doesnt recognize them but they recognize him#more because of the coral crown than anything else#guh. idk man i just desperately want them to go to the undersea
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the never stop blowing up vhs is where cute twinks go to get harmed
#not art#nsbu spoilers#kirk blade.... johnny manhattan..... maybe tenuously cosmo chase#also genuinely I Love that vic ethanol is showing himself to be bit of a dick#and kingskin conversely First Actual Communication With The Player is like. idk I just work here#(I am vibrating in my seat abt liv bloodlust. shes experiencing a bit of emotional consequence. hope she powers thru it and#becomes even worse)#I also love that g13 and jack manhattan are both like. gone#I know in adventuring party they're charting it to shape up as like. usha also slowly losing herself to the work like g13 did#and them becoming one entity entirely in the sense that their selves stop mattering in the face of their hacker capacity#(also called the Forum Moderator Dilemma)#but I also like to think that g13 handed it back to usha cleanly in the second episode with that one interaction#and is now fully unplugged from everything. left the movie. man is Sleeping#we all agree that paula ate jack manhattan tho I think it's fine to assume that#and! the way russell has been like. fully going whole hog full tilt into helping other people and moving the plot along#while Suggesting That Doing Self Reflection And Learning Lessons From This World Might Help to Other People#like I love that. 1/lieutenant syndrome but also 2/extremely transfem coded#like past the ''ohh I have realisationd I'm coming to'' stage. far past. man is bored with thinking abt genders#not new realisation to him! had that thought two decades ago. not motivated enough by anything to change anything#I think I just love the scenario of like magical mystical journey in a fantasy world clearly designed to make you contemplate ur gender#and ur like oh no what? we did that years ago. whats up#deeply interested tho. open up russell we wanna see whats up with u#dang is perfect no note 10/10 more important than anything else he is genre aware and savvy and that truly is all he needs here#the ''let's make it fun'' scene he does with liv is SO good I love him. Im so scared the vhs will snatch him away. hes too genre perfect
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interesting that some ppl think that osha going dark side was too fast or didn't make sense when i thought it was pretty clear she was heading that direction from episode one 💀
#ah well#holly talks bs#the acolyte#the acolyte spoilers#yes she had a lot of faith in the jedi and what they represent#but her whole hang up is that she Failed at Being A Jedi#specifically because she can't let go of her anger and grief and fear they show and talk about this several times#even in ep3 young osha is afraid and also yearning for more out of her life#she attaches that yearning to the jedi obvs because they immediately represent freedom and adventure to her#and then she fails at jedi'ing because that's not what being a jedi is about and also she can't control her emotions only repress#and then the catalyst for allllll that breaking open is sol's betrayal and realising that all her resentment and anger at mae was misplaced#and then she goes with qimir because he is freedom that's the thesis statement of his character so far#and that's the thing she's always truly wanted and this is the first time since she was eight she's able to fully self actualise#and excercise her agency fully#because even tho she DID want to be a jedi sol and co ultimately prevented her for actually making that choice!#just my thoughts i thought the throughline of her character (and mae's!) was pretty well laid out and then realised in the finale imo
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having swap au thoughts. *slaps roof of claus* there's so much mental illness in this guy. im gonna blow up everyone in the room and then myself
#what if you felt unbearable guilt because your brother went missing in the two seconds you were separated#and you feel like there mustve been Something you couldve done to prevent it#if only you had stuck together. if only you hadnt let him tag along on your basically-a-suicide-mission in the first place#but none of those things happened so you go through three years blaming yourself#continuing to search for him because maybe hes still out there. and maybe exhausting yourself on an aimless search is a way you can atone#and then you're pulled into this big destiny adventure so your searching is put on the back burner#you're so busy doing important things and meeting new friends and there are points in your adventure where your heart feels lighter#and maybe you open up just a little about the crushing guilt you feel. and your new friends say it wasnt your fault#maybe you start accepting that your brother is really gone but you have to keep living your life#saving your brother was a far out dream but saving the world is something you have the power to do#so you try your best. so you dont fuck up this time#your guilt becomes the fuel keeping you going#and then at the end of your journey#you find out one of the biggest obstacles on your journey#the human chimera that you felt kinda horrified at and a little bad for even as you fought them#is your brother you've been mourning and agonizing over not being able to save#so um. The Guilt is even worse now#now he doesnt just feel responsible for his death. he Now feels responsible for him becoming this Creature Thing under porkys control#and in a lucas dies scenario. hoogh i cant imagine how claus would feel after that.......#however the thing that spurred this post was thinking about the lucas lives postgame scenario (it just got a bit out of hand lol) so.#your brother is alive and back home again and youre so unbelievably glad#but the guilt still creeps up every time you see how much hes Changed. physically and mentally#you had just started to accept the fact youd have to live without your brother but somehow having him back is almost just as painful#things cant just go back to how they were before. youll never be the exact same happy family as you used to be#its strange adjusting to having lucas back and its strange trying not to step on each others toes with their trauma#you cant help but be clingy because you couldnt bear it if he disappeared again under your watch#but nobody wants to be watched all the time especially when youre recovering from your brainwashed identity as an army commander#FUCK I REACHED THE TAG LIMIT I WANTED TO RAMBLE MORE AUGH. THEY MAKE ME SO ILL. i swear its not all angst theres some lightheartedness in it#mother 3 swap au#mothfics
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I am working from the airbnb today while my mom & sister take the baby out on various beach adventures + ice cream/cheese factory tours. i made them send me pictures and WAHHHH. i love that little baby and i love seeing my family love him. i feel like in the first month or so of his life i spent a lot of time feeling sad about the fact that i didn't have a partner who was equally invested in our baby and was there to witness and share all the little memories with me. i am really enjoying being a solo parent and have no regrets about my choice, but i worried it would feel lonely to love him on my own and not have someone to share that love with. but in the months since i have just been so struck by how much our family structure feels more open to the world instead of closed-off in a traditional nuclear family type of way. obviously both types of families have things to recommend them! like, there are lots of good things about a two-parent household and having a larger extended family where you have two sets of grandparents, aunts and uncles, cousins, etc. but having a one-parent, one-extended family household also has its own beautiful advantages. he gets to spend so much more time with my parents and my sister especially - both because i want it that way and because i have to rely more on my family for help since there's only one of me. i don't have a partner whose schedule or preferences need to be taken into account, so we can join my mom and sister on a spur-of-the-moment vacation. i also don't have a partner who can be responsible for the baby while i'm doing work on vacation, so my mom and sister got to take him out for a whole day of sightseeing and adventures with just them there. idk i'm not sure i'm articulating this well but i think there's a joyful flexibility and openness to this family structure that i wasn't anticipating and that i think/hope will really enrich his experience of the world. he gets to have all these alloparents who love him and know him well and have real responsibility for him. it's beautiful!
#i also have a theory which is i think that people feel much more invested in a baby when they have real responsibility for them#and get to like hold them and take care of them and take them places without their parent(s) there#because then it's not like#oh i'm holding the baby as a favor to mom while mom does something#it's like oh we are on a little adventure together and we can bond and figure out who we are to each other#so i am also trying to seek out opportunities to like#leave him in the care of others even just for brief periods - not just babysitting but like idk#the other day i had to drive from the park to M&A's house but they were walking back#and so he just went on the 15-20 min walk with them while i drove#and got to spend time hanging out with them without me there#idk! lots of thoughts.#i think my brother who is parenting in a much more traditional family structure#is kind of bound by more traditional parenting norms as a result - like they don't really like to leave him with other people#or let other people hold him or go places with him on their own unless there's no other option#but idk i think there's a freedom to being like#i can't be everywhere at once and i don't have the capacity to be both parents to him#so i can open things up to more people and reap the benefits of him having lots of experiences with other people#and more experience with other people's caretaking styles too#(of course i also cried that he was seeing the ocean for the first time in his life without me. but like that's par for the course.)#parenting tag#baby tag
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Quietly shutting the door of Grandpa's room behind him, Sollybot took a look inside his bag. His horn was inside, along with some snacky paper, some regular paper (not snacks), a fresh box of crayons, and his new stuffed animal. He also took a couple of books- one with a bunch of short stories that usually had fairies or evil queens in them, and the other about a boy who goes on an adventure but winds up on a ship full of pie rats. Grandpa hadn't finished reading that one to him yet but he could re-read it up to the part they left off at least. That seemed like enough to travel on. Beeping out a chipper tune, Sollybot headed to the door and stopped. No. There was one more thing. Grandpa had taught him how to fire the gun. He taught him how to aim steady and shoot carefully and to never fire unless he knew what he was shooting at and only if he had to. This isn't a toy, son, he'd said. This can hurt people or animals very badly, and you could hurt yourself or people you don't mean to if you don't know what you're doing. But you might run into a situation where you have to use it someday. Making a sound akin to a robotic 'gulp!', Sollybot took the shotgun with him too, clipping it onto his back. And so, with one backward glance, the little Sollybot with no name took his first steps out of Upward and into the wide world beyond.
#let's go on an adventure!#his books are Grimm's Fairy Tales and Treasure Island#open to anybody!#Especially other TF2 robots!
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curse of strahd is crazy i almost just chewed a hole in my wall bc i thought too hard about doru
#cos#curse of strahd#teddie be quiet!#hes so sun bleached flies ethel cain#Yeah. god loves you but not enough to save you#yeah. but i always knew that in the end no one was coming to save me#so i just prayed#and i keep praying#and praying#and praying :(#I FORGIVE IT ALL AS IT COMES BACK TO ME!!!#dancing with the windows open. i cant let go when somethings broken :(#imagine being turned into a vampire and being starved for a year bc your father loves you too much#and a group of adventurers comes along. and they promise to save you. and they kill you.#because you are the villain now and this is what mercy is now#anywya. guys did you know he haunts my campaign
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“My ear is burning, my ear is burning.”
“Well if you would hold still—,”
“You’re taking forever.”
“It’s a process! Here, wipe off your ear.”
“Gross, is this your sock? I’m starting to think you don’t know what you’re doing.”
“I don’t. I told you that. It’s not my fault you didn’t think to download a tutorial before we went to space where there’s no YouTube. Either use the sock or suffer the chemical burns. I don’t care anymore.”
“Ah-ha! So at one point you cared.”
Peter stutters into silence. He’s 90% sure Harley is just bickering to fill the silence, as they do, but that 10% is compelling in its insistence that Harley isn’t going to gloss over Tony’s spilling of the beans for forever. At some point he’s going to want answers. Or rather, to let Peter down easy into the garbage compactor of ‘I’m flattered but I don’t think of you that way.’
HELLO??? Past Sarah where is the rest?????
#and how come i can't write good anymore???#let him down easy into the garbage compactor of ‘I’m flattered but I don’t think of you that way.’ <- GOLD#this is from one of those writing prompts i asked for back in (((april))) and for some reason i decided should be a 5 + 1 -_-#it'll happen#eventually probably#do you ever write a line so good you just like... you're done. you can't beat that.#every time i open this draft i'm like oh i can't top that it's done i guess#fuck it i'm going to write some mediocre lines and see what happens#maybe the rest of the fic will happen to me#parkner#parley#peter parker#harley keener#adventures with hair dye and feelings. In Space!#hold on is that the title now?
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oh gosh i did it i posted the first chapter of my first jojo fic
just a cute little jotakak modern high school au, because we all need some fluff in our lives :D
#i should definitely be working on my art for the newsies mini bang but this idea would not let go of me and i simply had to write it#my fic#my writing#the future's open wide#tfow#echoposting#jojo's bizarre adventure#jojo no kimyou na bouken#jjba#jjba fanfic#jotakak#noritaro#noriaki kakyoin#jotaro kujo#WAUGH#im so nervous
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My cat was missing for a day and a half and wouldn't come when called and I was so worried he'd gone off somewhere to die (he's 18 and I just found out last week he's at serious risk of a heart attack) and he just showed up mewing at my neighbor's door in the rain.
I am so tremendously relieved. I was really preparing myself for the idea I would never see him again and would never really know what happened. He ate a bit and is now purring next to me and demanding head scratches.
#i scooped him up out of the rain and burst into tears#i was feeling so guilty#because I should have caught this heart thing earlier but I wasn't up to date on vet visits#and I'm going out of town tomorrow and didn't know what I'd do if he was still missing#thank you baby for coming home#cats#big fat tuxedo cat#who is probably a bit underweight now but that's his name on here#don't know why he meows at my neighbors doors#the pet him and talk to him but as far as i know they never let him in#he used to go off on multiday adventures fairly regularly#but hasn't in years#mostly he stays on the patio where he's easy to find and doesn't go down the stairs#I heard meowing and jumped up and RAN to the door#i have thought I'd heard him earlier this morning but he was nowhere in sight when I opened the door#it may have been the garage trucks creaking
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LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOO
#sonic frontiers#sonic the hedgehog#sonic#im legit so excited#multiple playable characters is a Dream in the open zones if they take pages from the adventure games into how they differentiate em#knuckles climbing in zone 2... bruh#also please let there be a cyberspace gauntlet like the egg shuttle#nothing would make me happier#and all free too!!!#fuck me im going crazy#also yeah i should tag this#the one piece is real#bones rattle
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the way i have absolutely no business being the way i am
#horse.txt#vent //#sort of. too high to be sad abt it im in anthropology mode and listening to music that makes me feel sexy so its fine yk#anyway i typed a whole bunch of other tags talking abt how and why i feel this way by going through a few of the events i can remember#from my childhood that Might explain why im so emotionally guarded and struggle to open up anymore.#bc i Wanted to say they all felt dumb and juvenile esp since ive actually like#made peace with most of the ppl who were involved with them#but the Anthropology mode was just tearing it all down as i typed it bc that Is just a ridiculous way to look at it no matter how you cut it#doesn't matter that nobody involved really Meant to deal that kind of harm and i dont need to hate or blame anyone in order to acknowledge#that it still just Happened. like thats a Memory already babe no do overs.#which is kind of just accidental therapy so sick. love that fir me genuinely!#but also yes theres the bitch part of me that still wants to discredit it bc acknowledging that it happened =/= Fixing My Issues#so im still at square one technically. ive just been pacing in circles on it for a while ig#EVEN WORSE that the Scale of my issues is so incredibly mundane compared to so many of the people i seem to meet.#sitting in bed crying abt not having friends for a few days in elementary school when other ppl have jojos bizarre adventure levels of Lore#i know im not technically invalid for feeling the way i do or anything but god. if it doesn't feel fucking Embarrassing to open up about���#its impossible NOT to feel stupid and sensitive for having these first world ass problems. And letting them hold me back#bc ppl not liking me for any reason makes me sooooooooo fucking scared So fucking scared its not even funny 😝#at least. ppl in my Circles. im pretty ok about being assertive with randos#still some work to be done on it but its better than whatevers going on with my personal relationships rn#sincerely to my mutuals and loved ones who see this i swear to GOD i love you so so so fucking much and im so. im trying to figure out this#the stuff thats got me so distant and bad at keeping in touch. its a whole slew of feelings about how i see Myself--not yall#i double pinky promise cross my heart im extremely serious#thank you for being patient with me you mean more to me than im capable of putting into words right now#alright theres a shot of tears in the hollow of my collar bone time to wrap up this post#daily reminder that i love body hair. there's some honesty.#😎😎😎💪💪💪#the Quaritch under the cut is just to make me feel better bc i love him and i think hes so pretty. hes like a security blanket
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“I’ll never believe in treating someone badly based on appearance. Some of my best friends are supposedly sea monsters.”
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