#Leaving guilt behind

[thecatholiccrusade]

Forgiven & Free: Leaving Guilt Behind

Have you ever felt the heavy weight of guilt bearing down on your soul, even after confessing your sins and seeking God’s forgiveness? It’s a common struggle for many Catholics – the lingering sense of shame and unworthiness that seems to cling to us, despite our best efforts to move forward in grace. But the truth is, holding onto guilt after repentance may actually be a trap set by the Devil…

[ch0c00n]

sunflower week 1: nightmare

+closeup and bonuses

[runningwithscizzorz]

I feel a deep sense of anger and grief for Palestine. I’m angry at God, at the world powers donating to those who are killing civilians, angry at people looking away and encouraging you to worry about yourself when people can’t even walk down their streets without being attacked. I’m angry that my friend donated, only for it to be stolen and taken by the soldiers abusing Palestine. I’m angry that I can’t do much of anything but tell you to at least CARE about the people being bombed and slaughtered. Please, if you can’t do anything please just CARE about these people and listen to their stories. Hold them in your hearts at the very least. Don’t pretend they don’t exist or just brush it off as “its been going on for centuries, there’s no point in stopping it.” I want to do more, I want to make people care and love those who need it, rather than continue spreading anger and hate.

These are real people I’ve drawn. Keep the people of Palestine in your heart at the very least please.

[inklore]

hi can we just talk about how much finnick protected peeta? like not just in the games but after?!?!! he was the only one to not raise his gun at peeta, who stepped forward and tried to help him. he reassured him it was okay to ask questions when he needed to. he ran lines with him, told him he had this. even when he killed someone on their squad and was going after katniss finnick didn’t become violent with him. just retrained him and tried to calm him down, literally telling peeta i got you. and the line “peeta just tuck in there” I’M SCREAMING

[tls12lessthan3]

i think the thing that appeals to me so much in a yoo joonghyuk being married to seolwha but in some sort of affair with kim dokja scenario is like. kim dokja has this perception of himself as an inherently Bad Thing to happen to a person right. like he is a burden to bear and he brings only bad things to the people who bear it. which is largely untrue of course including in this scenario. but also if their affair gets found out it will kind of nuke yoo joonghyuk's marriage. like kim dokjas love is not life ruining for most people but it is a littllleeee for a married yoo joonghyuk. so this feeds into kim dokjas neuroses and self torments sooo well. here is everything he wants in front of him on a silver platter and he is fucking desperate to sink his teeth in but!! also here is proof of the damage it will cause in the form of lee seolwha smiling and inviting him over for dinner.

so either we get kim dokja and yoo joonghyuk in an awful emotional affair where kim dokja is refusing take that final step but still so so in love with a married man in a way that hurts so bad OR we get a physical affair that kim dokja is terrified of and self flaggelating for and using as proof to himself that he doesn't deserve any love at all because look at what he does with it. and either way you have a yoo joonghyuk who doesn't really understand this and reaches for kim dokja not knowing how much it hurts him because he just loves him. and thats how kim dokja convinces himself that he truly is ruining yoo joonghyuks life and runs away to like. germany or something over it!

[chraustinjesse]

Hero - Champion - Herald

Yarren Mahariel - Fior Hawke - Adhas Lavellan

More versions under the cut

[exgirlfiend]

you ever think about the fact that they stayed in the past for several days longer than they needed to and it’s very much implied that swaine was the one holding them back. bc I do

[sweetteaanddragons]

Boromir is excluded since he was first; Pippin is excluded since he won the first poll.

I am very curious about the people who voted for Sam in the last round given his canonical level of resistance; whoever you vote for, I would love to see your reasons in the tags!

[doodledrawsthings]

Mad At Yi Why Anon - Thanks for explaining! It makes more sense now lol. I never expected them to be grateful for being "saved," I'd just think it's certainly a choice for them to Most Mad at the only guy who wasn't going to let them rot. But if it's a "we need someone to blame" then that makes sense.

Even if he wasn’t gonna let them rot, he WAS gonna take them out with him had his True Ending Sacrifice gone as it had in the game. They don’t know this, this is just extra DoobYi characterization. But he wasn’t expecting to be alive, either tbh.

That said, he takes the public opinion of him and the Sols very seriously and doesn’t blame them even if sometimes the grievances are heavy-handed. This is a Yi who will apologize many times over for the actions of the council, for the failure of the project, for the lies and the lives ruined, both apemen and solarian, and for the individual hurts he’s caused to Kuafu, Goumang, Shaunshuan and Heng. If Eigong and many of the other Sols are not here to share the responsibility, then he will shoulder the blame, as he believes he should. Even if, y’know, everyone who IS glad he didn’t die is telling him to knock it off.

[doublel27]

I said it weeks ago, but loved the confirmation that Moo is the catalyst for Kang dreaming again and opening himself up to go after what he wants.

Kang was more open and honest in this episode with everyone who matters to him than he’s been in any other episode. He was straight forward instead of deflecting in fear.

He owned up to his feelings for Moo with Neth and admitted that it was his mother that was the greatest reason he didn’t want to pursue Moo.

He asked his mother about how his father wooed her, and it lead to a beautiful coming out scene where Kang admitted that he didn’t want to disappoint her or cause her pain again. And his mom was able to affirm that he’s not a disappointment and he hasn’t caused her pain. That she loves him as he is and he deserves to be loved.

And he went and did art outside of his own paints, going back to the place he was tutored.

He told Moo that Moo’s determination to follow his dreams inspires Kang to not let his die. He opens up to Moo, not only agreeing to date him but to share why he didn’t go to university in the shadow of his fathers death and his mothers disapproval of his art, and that he’s planning to submit his portfolio and pursue his dream.

I don’t think that it’s going to be a fully smooth ride, but I am so glad to see him being honest with all the people in his life today. His truths were so carefully protected by his high walls but he opened the doors to the people who matter.

[hypogryffin]

side-by-side

[pyersiki]

still seeing the red pyramid thing

[sysig]

Now that they can, would they want to spend a lot of time together? (Patreon)

[destinywillowleaf]

look I believe in my heart of hearts that anime!Mira and Volo would get along like a house on fire

hopefully there's gonna be time to get into it during blood curse proper but also they're both more side characters in the grand scheme of things despite v's relevance in a certain someone's life. i'd be more than happy to elaborate though!!

(for the record Mira is like 13 at this point and V uses they/them pronouns)

[nieranddear]

Rereading the dialog that is said during suppressions. Abel specifically says 'Loved Ones' as he speaks about those in the upper layer's demise and their struggle and urging to stop as continuing on is futile. Abram says 'colleagues'. 'Coworkers'. He does refer to them as 'Friends' once as well. But every other dialog is about Carmen or generalizing and saying 'everyone' rather than specifics. It just feels odd a bit to where he uses less strong terms when referring to relations with people and then afterwards only refers to Carmen by name rather than those still existing beside him. Even when it was stated by a facet of A and others (I can only remember Hokma off the top of my head. It may be only him which would make sense) refer to A having seen them as specifically 'Loved Ones'. Which is a far stronger showing and expression of emotion to those around you.

It makes me think of how he, Abram, expressed his desires, the desire to die [see: 'sink'/'sleep' for he explicitly refers to death consistently as slumber and when bringing the dead back 'waking them up'] and stop, in that moment. He constantly brings up, in general terms, self punishment and Carmen. Guilt that is carried with Carmen. Memories of her death, her passing. Of how she left without a smile. Of how she can no longer bask in the warmth of the sun she loved to do so frequently. Yet only of Carmen in name. Never anyone else or specifics of people, generalizations when referring to others and referring to them all inside a group, as a collective. Them and then Carmen. Focused on only that. On the fact he cannot move forward. Urging to just shut the eyes and to simply Sink. To Sleep. To die. It reminds me of when one goes ahead and becomes so interlaced with suffering and grief and despair that one simply stews inside of it, spiraling down further into that single train of thought. Holding onto the image of a dead and deceased one. It feels as if, in a more crude way of saying it as I cannot formulate a different way currrently at the moment, searching of 'justification' and a fitting reason to commit suicide. [I say Justification as what I really mean to say a 'fitting reason', that reason and end seeming to Be the Only way to continue, or lack of continue, at that point to him.] Rather than saying the names or specifics of those around him, of his loved ones still inside those metal boxes, he becomes enveloped in grief and only on Carmen. Abram's mistake which he fixates the most upon. Holds deep guilt for. Blames himself for. Saying he drove her to her death. That he is leaving her behind [I didnt save the exact quote but it was generally that]. When those inside the facility are people he also so clearly values and wished to bring back as well he, at this moment, primarily focuses on Carmen. Even when he does address the others it's in a more brief manner, having two pieces of dialog on the Sephirot specifically and it only relating to his Faults relating to them than the people themself when he speaks of Carmen in a more in depth manner. Perhaps it's still the wish clinging of to not hold trust in anyone. But it feels reminiscent to when a person tries to push themself and gain 'courage' to commit suicide. Of focusing only on the guilt and regret and the mourning of one already gone, who was so near and dear whom he did all of this for in the first place his desire only stemming from her and not the project itself, especially one who also killed herself, to go ahead and die as well. Perhaps it's not even an active thing he does in his mind. It's just become so overbearing that he has now gotten stuck in that never ending loop. Using far more stronger language of the woman dead and gone who he wishes to rejoin than of those currently alive and near to him, making them feel far more distant than they actually are mentally – at least in relations and connections wise. Depression does tend to tear down what one feels towards their loved ones and how they process and view relationships causing for people to exhibit such a thing by feeling distant in a room or alone with a loved one nearby as commonly known – and physically. I'm not saying that's 'totally what it is' or the sort. More of that reading it over again just reminded me of such a thing. Nothing revolutionary but more ramblings to process it all after it ended

[bayofwolves]

i love the tellun i've made up in my head, the reclusive, gentle soul who could never be found by any human, who has no higher standing than his fellows because the great beasts are all equal, who changed his mind about the first devourer war and would have fought alongside the four had he not arrived too late, who was wracked with immeasurable guilt for letting them fall and wandered the wilds of stetriol for 500 years afterwards, who appeared to conor, abeke, meilin and rollan in a sad state of ruin, fur dull, head hanging low, all manner of plants hopelessly tangled in his antlers, with no light left in his eyes. why couldn't the four heroes have encountered a great beast who had fallen from greatness? why couldn't any of these god-like creatures have felt lasting, debilitating shame for their complacency in the deaths of their siblings, for their failure to protect the world they had sworn to? why couldn't tellun have been plagued with guilt so intense he hid himself away until he saw his prophecy fulfilled? why couldn't he have lingered at their gravesite until he laid eyes on them once again, reborn?