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ultralightpoe · 1 year ago

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Bigger Than The Whole Sky - Ethan Landry

Authors Note: I have been trying to find any sort of energy to post and get out of bed. Got so close to giving up on life itself and I'm barely back, please bare with me as I try to find my way out of my depression hole I have dug for myself everyone. I know it's been a minute but life has been kicking my ass. Be patient with me - Ultralight

Word Count: 3405

Warnings: thoughts of su!cide, angst, grief.

Apart of my MIDNIGHTS EVENT. (Next Event is Sour by Olivia Rodrigo. Requests closed. Event following yet to be decided)

SOUR EVENT

MAIN MASTERLIST

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No words appear before me in the aftermath

Salt streams out my eyes and into my ears

Every single thing I touch becomes sick with sadness

'Cause it's all over now, all out to sea

It all went numb at some point.

You didn’t know when, and you weren’t really mad about it considering it helped with the stab wounds, but at some point after you found out you just…..lost it…….lost the spark. Every will to survive just vanished like smoke in the wind. You had no strength left.

Police officers snapped in front of your face, desperate to get your statement on the events as medics panicked and tried to get your attention, yelling to each other that you were going into a state of shock as reporters filmed and yelled to get the scoop. You didn’t really think you were going into shock, no, shock was when you go frozen and cold from a traumatic incident.

This…… this was just pure heartbreak.

Ethan……….. Ethan had-

And just like that you were leaning forward to spill your guts as the medic in front of you curses and backs out of the way, tears running down your cheeks hotly as you suck in a sharp breath. You had given absolutely everything to him, you had given EVERYTHING.

And yet you weren’t angry or upset…… you were just numb.

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

You were bigger than the whole sky

You were more than just a short time

And I've got a lot to pine about

I've got a lot to live without

I'm never gonna meet

What could've been, would've been

What should've been you

What could've been, would've been you

That feeling of numbness quickly passed, and you were left with an unending sadness that just made you tired.

The news had already published the story over and over, his face took over your phone every time you opened any form of social media and you had yet to clear out all the photos you had taken during your relationship. There was no escaping it, not that you truly wanted to.

You would never admit that to the others, since they had gone straight to anger.

They just didn’t understand…. You always thought, which would bring a bitter laugh to your lips because what didn’t they understand? Sam had her boyfriend betray her, Tara lost her childhood best friend from it, Sidney fucking prescott had lost so many people to it. It was a tale as old as time. One falls in love, gets betrayed and stabbed and moves on.

But you couldn’t move on, you couldn’t leave him. Ethan had stitched you up when you scrambled your way into his life, broken and torn after losing your brother Wes and your mother last round.

He had saved you.

“-Yes Mindy,” You snap, reaching a hand to cover your face as you pass a group of kids with their phones pointed at you, the overnight bag carried on your shoulder weighing you down a bit as your boots scuffed on the floor. “I have my taser.”

“I just don’t understand why you decided to walk by yourself in the middle of the night.” She scoffs, the sound of doja cat behind her. “You should’ve called me-”

“First off, my roommate brought a boy over, I hadn’t planned on this. Second of all, you realize I can hear your sex playlist in the background, right?” You fake a laugh for her, trying your best not to let her know you were scared because then she would leave Anika and you didn’t want her to do that since she had worked so hard to get this date.

“Just call me when you get there?”

“How about I send you a smiley emoji?”

“If you send me an emoji I will-”

“Oh, I see a 7-11, I’m gonna stop and get your brother a slushie to ease my arrival. Gotta go-” You rush to hang up, ignoring her disapproval and dashing into the light of the gas station.

By the time you make it to Chad’s dorm you are shaking and trying your best not to have a panic attack in the middle of the hallway. Arms full with snacks and slushees as you use your foot to pound on the door.

You prepare a wide smile on your face for when he opens the door, shimmying to ease the tension in your shoulders, doing your best to seem happy.

But when the door swings open it’s not the cocky smile of Chad that greets you rather than the nervous expression of the curly haired kid in one of your classes, staring at you with wide eyes. “C-can I help you?”

“Oh. Sorry. I was- uh- maybe I had the wrong room?” You blush, stepping back to survey the hall for room numbers. “Crap-”

“Who are you looking for? I know everyones rooms.” He offers, leaning out the door to survey the hall himself. “Dylan? Right? He has a lot of girls come in so-”

“Chad. Chad Meeks.” You snap, blush deepening at the Dylan comment.

“OH! Yeah, in here. I’m his roommate.” The kid explains, stepping out of the way and widening the door. He waits a second, staring at you as you stare back wide eyed, the room behind him pitch black. He looks confused for a moment before turning to see what the problem was, jumping a bit when he realizes and twisting for the light switch.

“Sorry- I was sleeping- I wasn’t doing anything else I swear.” He rushes out, shaking his hands. “I am not a creep I swear.”

“You still have the lotion on the shelf-” He whirls to look and you try to stifle your laughter, turning to the bed on the right. “Where is Chad?”

“He went to check on Tara or something. Should be back in like…. soon ?”

“Okay. Cool. I can go to a coffee shop until he gets here then.”

“What? Why would you do that? You can wait here no problem.” He shrugs, moving to sit at his desk. You wait a moment before pushing the slushee out to him.

“Then here. You can have Chad’s slushee.”

“Thanks.” He smiles, grabbing it softly. “You do the econ homework yet?”

“We had homework?” You laugh, moving to grab the homework from him.

Did some bird flap its wings over in Asia?

Did some force take you because I didn't pray?

Every single thing to come has turned into ashes

'Cause it's all over, it's not meant to be

So I'll say words I don't believe

Your court ordered therapist said that you might have relied on him too much, after being broken down from the last incident you had grasped onto the first kind soul you met. She believed that you were trying to fix the trust back, find the nice kind person you once had been.

You believed she was just telling you anything to make you feel better, right before she stamped a red flag on your papers for ‘DANGEROUSLY DEPRESSED’ and prescribing you hundreds of pills that you would dump down the toilet and tell her you were taking. It was a fun game.

But she might have been right about the relying thing. Like walking around with a broken leg, relying on a crutch only for it to break and leave to tumbling down a hill straight into the knife of someone you completely trusted wearing a stupid mask because they were too chicken to face you-

“Y/n!” Chad calls, reaching a hand on your shoulder and squeezing as tightly as he could, which after all the nerve damage and stab wounds wasn’t really much.

“I’m listening!” You rush, snapping to look at your four friends.

“No you weren’t.” He laughs, pulling his hand back and keeping it close to him. “We were deciding dinner and if you were listening you would recommend what you always recommend-”

“Pizza.”

“Oh. My. God.” He groans as Mindy reaches out to hug around your shoulders, pulling you tight.

“Leave my sister alone.”

“I’m your brother.”

“Chadward. Can you please just…..shhhhhh?” You ask, flipping him off. This draws a laugh from your friends and you imitate them, but your laugh isn’t the slightest bit real which leaves you feeling lost. And a bit awkward.

“You okay?” Sam asks, leaning closer to you so no one else hears. You nod, not trusting actual words to come out. She obviously does not believe it but you claim to be thirsty and leave for some water.

“You’re actually telling me that you prefer Star Trek over Star Wars?!” Ethan asks, eyes wide as he walks beside you on the way to Econ, adjusting his shoulder bag so as to not let it fall. “What is wrong with you?”

“More like what is right with me! You really like all that incest crap?”

“Oh…. you are going there?” he gasps and you shrug. “Then what do you think about the Targaryens, huh?”

He laughs when you stop short, thinking your reaction was due to his question, but in reality you had just seen someone design across the yard with a ghostface mask on, the football team laughing at the strangers antics.

“What a jerk.” Ethan sighs when he finally spots it, moving to block your view as you both walk.

It had been 2 weeks since you met Ethan, and ever since he had walked you to and from Econ which you found that you loved more than anything else. During these walks you got to argue over anything and everything nerdish, just easy and happy conversations. Plus you got to stand close to him which was always a plus since you loved how he smelled and his sweaters were always soft on your skin.

“Did you do the homework?” You ask, changing the subject to get your mind off the douchebag in the mask.

“Yes. And you can copy it when we get inside.” He laughs, shuffling past you to open the door quickly, holding it open for you with an easy smile.

“After you, Spock.”

“Oh why thank you Han Solo!” You smile, flipping your hair as you walk past him.

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

You were bigger than the whole sky

You were more than just a short time

And I've got a lot to pine about

You spent your mornings in bed, the sheets tucked around you tightly like a butterfly in the cocoon, staring blankly at your wall. In these moments you could barely muster the energy to lift your head from the pillow, eyes glazed with tears.

What was the point of anything? Why were you here when Ethan was……. Gone. Ethan, the brilliant kind soul that had an amazing future for himself was taken from the world while were wasting space.

You were never as smart as him, not nearly as funny or great. You had no future, which was ironic considering you were the one here……unless.

No.

Don’t think about it, that was rule number one.

But it would make things so much easier.

You wouldn’t do it.

No one would miss you…..

For a second your body melts into the sheets as you think about it, all the possibilities and the freedom it would bring. No more getting out of bed and no more stares from people. No more ghostface -.

But you couldn’t, and you wouldn’t.

So you stand, and force yourself to run a bath, sinking into the heat of it as you close your eyes, leaning back so you are completely submerged. Like the hot water could wash away your past, give you an entirely clean slate.

When your head hits the bottom, hands gripping tightly to the sides of the tub as you listen to your heartbeat under the water, the steady thump of it calming you down a bit while you open your eyes.

And there he is, blurry through the water, leaning over the tub to watch you carefully. Almost as if he were scared……Ethan.

Ethan was here, and he was scared.

Ethan.

“You were so nervous on our first date, remember that? And look at you now.” You tease, hitting Ethan’s shoulder with a twizzler while he fakes swagger, posing for you which leads you to cackle. “He said ‘we’ll take the large popcorn AND the twizzlers.”

“You know it.”

“College boy has moneyyyyyyyyy-” For a moment you imitate throwing cash, making him dance under the imaginary paper, both of you humming out words to a random pop song. “Get it. Get it. Get it.”

“I’m rich…. And you suck!” He snaps, moving to walk off as you gasp.

“And you are no longer getting laid!”

“Wait- wait I didn’t mean it.”

“Too late dork brains.”

“Gimme another chance here. I’ll splurge for a slushee.”

“You should have splurged for the slushee in the first place rich college boy.” You tease, walking past him. “I’m not cheap, you know. One of a kind over here.”

“Don’t I know it.” He blushes, moving forward to pull you close, walking with his arm over your shoulders. “You know I love you right?”

“I know.” You wink, smiling when he laughs at the Star Wars reference. “Now come on, we have a movie to watch.”

“Heck yeah.” He grabs your hand, leading you into the theater, checking behind him every couple of seconds to make sure you were still there and okay. Three months into dating Ethan and you were absolutely in love with the man.

I've got a lot to live without

I'm never gonna meet

What could've been, would've been

What should've been you

“Y/n!” He shouts, muffled by the water, reaching his hands into the water to pull you up. When you break the surface you are gasping and spluttering out, hands clinging onto his sleeves tightly with tears streaming down your face.

“You’re here….” You sob, leaning out of the tub to hug him tightly, your face shoving itself into your shoulder as he wraps himself around you, his sleeves wet against your back while you sob into his shoulder. “I missed you, you ruined my life.”

“I’m sorry, believe me, that wasn’t supposed to happen.”

“You’re not gonna leave again? Right?!”

“No�� no I’m here.” He whispers, moving to take his shoes off and climb into the tub, pulling you so your back was to his chest and wrapping his arms around you once more, his hoodie just as soft as it always ways and his cheek resting gently on your shoulder.

“You need to focus.” You mumble, not looking up at Ethan as he stares at you. “We have a test.”

“Halloween is coming up.” He scoffs. “What’s the point?”

“Woah, what has been going on with you lately? Are you dying after halloween? Do you turn into a pumpkin when the clock strikes midnight?” You tease, looking up at him finally. “Seriously you keep talking like halloween is the end of it all.”

“I’m just stressed, that’s all.” He shrugs, moving to lay his forehead on your arm while you kiss the top of his head.

“It’s date night tonight, what do you want to do-” Before you could finish the question his phone rings on the table, and he snatches it up when you look to see who is calling.

“I’ll see you later, okay?” He rushes, kissing your cheek and leaving without another word.

What could've been, would've been

What should've been you

(What could've been, would've been)

What could've been, would've been you

(Could've been, would've been)

Silence fills the room as you both sit there, the heat from the bath calming you down as you twist to lay your cheek on the arm he had on the edge of the bath, closing your eyes.

“What’s the plan, Y/n?” He breaks the silence, taking his left hand and rubbing the wet hair off your forehead.

“To sleep here and forget the world.”

“I meant the life plan.”

“Don’t have one.”

“Yes….you do.”

“I plan on-”

“Be serious. Tell me your plan.”

“Do I really need one?”

“With the thought you were having this morning? Yes.”

“How did you know about my thoughts?”

“You have a future you know.” He whispers. “You have an amazing future ahead of you, without me.”

“I don’t think I can make it….”

“You can. I know you can.”

“I just want to sleep…….can you just hum for me? Like you always do?” You cry, reaching up to touch his hoodie.

“I can do that.”

He put you in his hoodie the night you stayed over, snatching it from where you had thrown it on the ground in both your rushes to get to his bed, pulling your arms into the sleeves as he kissed up your arms. His lips graze your collar bone before he kisses up your neck, smiling when you close your eyes.

“Come on, I’ll tuck you in.” He whispers, hugging you close as you both waddle to the bed, shuffling in together until you were both lying down. Your head on his chest as he hummed softly, after a moment you can’t help but laugh when you realize what he is humming.

“Are you humming me the imperial march?”

“No!” He rushes which makes you laugh even more. “It is so not funny-”

“No no no, I loved it. Keep humming keep humming.” You whisper, moving to look up at him with your chin on his chest. “It was great.”

“Anyone ever tell you that you’re gorgeous?” He whispers back, bringing a hand up to rub a thumb across your cheek.

“You….everyday. Like 10 minutes ago when you finished inside m-”

“WOW!” He interrupts, blushing and laughing.

“You’re handsome.” You answer, leaning up to kiss him before laying back down. “Now keep humming.”

“I can do that.”

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

You were bigger than the whole sky

You were more than just a short time

And I've got a lot to pine about

I've got a lot to live without

I'm never gonna meet

What could've been, would've been

What should've been you

When you wake up you are alone, in his sweater and in your pajamas, the bath cold and the sun streaming in. He wasn’t actually here, you realize, he never was. You had managed to sit in a bath fully clothed, and fall asleep.

There is pounding on the door, drawing your attention quickly, making you rush to jump out to answer it.

When you open the front door Sam is standing there, taking one look at your tear streaked face and soaked clothes before she is diving in to grab you in her arms. She holds you tight as you collapse, rocking you slowly as you sob into her chest.

“I’m sorry!”

“It’s okay.”

“He did terrible things to us- and I can’t fucking get it together.”

“You’re doing great. There is no correct way to go about this.”

“I miss him.”

“That’s okay.”

“I wanted a future with him.”

“You deserved one.” And when Sam says it there was no malicious hint to it, just a soft understanding smile. “But you deserve a future after him too.”

“I cannot believe we are actually doing this.” You laugh, rushing past your friend to snatch your shoe from the bookshelf, you had no clue how it got there. “Ohmygod! Hurry hurry hurry!”

She laughs, letting you snatch her hand and rush you out the door, both of you running as fast as you can to the train stop.

“Ohmygodohmygodohmygod.” She mumbles, excitement written on her features as you both huddle together on the seat. While she panics you take a second to check your phone, smiling when you see that Sam had sent you the pictures from her wedding you attended months ago, both of you smiling widely.

The lights flicker on the train, and for a moment your heart stops, you take a second to look around……and for as long as it has been you are ashamed to admit you wait to see Ethan on the other side of the train.

But he is not here and you were no longer there.

You were in your future, living bigger than the whole sky just as he would want.

Which meant Taylor Swift of course…….

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digitaltariq · 9 months ago

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Caleb Landry Jones Shines in Offbeat Thriller

Abstract - Caleb Landry Jones shines as Douglas on this offbeat revenge thriller, delivering an electrifying and memorable efficiency. - The movie requires some suspension of disbelief because of its absurdist high quality, nevertheless it affords a contemporary tackle the revenge thriller style. - Luc Besson's DogMan explores themes of struggling and love by the distinctive connection between Douglas and a neighborhood of canines. There’s a sure option to expertise DogMan, visionary Luc Besson’s new thriller. For starters, finest to know Besson. He’s the person who gave us The Fifth Factor and Lucy, and people two movies exist exterior typical cinematic norms. They're as edgy as they're dreamy. DogMan affords one thing comparable. The very best factor to know going into the movie is that it's a bit bonkers from the get-go. With that in thoughts, it shouldn’t section you (a lot) to observe this trippy story of reclamation and the way far one man decides to go to take justice into his personal palms. DogMan wouldn’t be the movie it's, nonetheless, with out Caleb Landry Jones (X-Males: First Class, Get Out, Three Billboards Outdoors Ebbing, Missouri), enjoying the troubled but calculating Douglas, a person who survived an abusive previous and went on to remodel himself into one other form of creature completely. Jones delivers probably the most electrifying performances of the yr. It’s an award-worthy flip, though we doubt most business insiders will see it that manner. Maybe it doesn’t meet typical Oscar requirements. Nevertheless, Emma Stone grabbed the gold for taking part in a much more over-the-top particular person, so Landry deserves some credit score right here. Watch the movie for Landry. Then, savor the nuances. Using flashbacks, the movie tracks Douglas—from the jail interrogation room to childhood and past—revealing his traumatic early years, how the abused boy finally discovered salvation and got here into his personal, and the ballsy manner he sought justice by his reference to canines. Many canines, in reality. In case you recognize avant-garde and edgy movies with quirky protagonists on the middle of the story—and when you've got some endurance to permit this movie to win you over—DogMan is tail-wagging enjoyable. Let’s unpack it.

He Will Survive

DogMan 4/5 Launch DateApril 5, 2024 Runtime114 Minutes Professionals Caleb Landry Jones is implausible, portraying a genuinely memorable character in Douglas Munrow. The distinctive and offbeat story retains the revenge thriller feeling contemporary. Cons The absurdist high quality of the movie requires some suspension of disbelief, which can not land with audiences. The inspiration for DogMan got here partly from an article Luc Besson examine a French household who threw their very own youngster in a cage when he was simply 5. Interested in how that might have an effect on an individual mentally, Besson got down to write and direct DogMan, hoping to expound upon the common themes of struggling and love. Within the case of Douglas Munrow, the love comes from the unusual connection he develops with a neighborhood of canines.

Associated Finest Arthouse, Avant-Garde Horror Films of All Time In Hollywood, horror tends to be predictable and denigrated. However issues get fascinating when creative freedom and full creativity take the reigns. We first meet Douglas driving a truck with what seems to be a pack of untamed canines within the again. Douglas is in drag—blond wig, tres Marilyn—and we marvel if this movie is a couple of tormented drag performer. Sure and no. (Extra on that later.) Having been stopped by the police, Douglas stays calm, smiling knowingly. When Evelyn (JoJo T. Gibbs), a court-appointed psychologist, begins interrogating Douglas, we be taught extra about him by these classes and the way his robust connections to canines are shaped. Beneath the brutal rule of an abusive father (Clemens Schick), Douglas was locked in a cage of canines and compelled to exist there for years, we assume. His brown-nosing bully of an older brother (Lincoln Powell) isn’t a lot assist, however divine windfall inserts itself into Douglas’s state of affairs, providing an opportunity at freedom. But it surely comes with a worth—mobility. Instantly, in a wheelchair with restricted strolling skills, Douglas realizes who his true family members—and most loyal technique of help—are. Canine. There’s a pleasant absurdist high quality to this movie, and it requires some suspension of perception—or not—when Douglas’ canines reveal simply how fine-tuned they're to their human companion. We “received” it. Whether or not audiences will stays to be seen, nevertheless it’s onerous to disclaim simply how shut our connections to our four-legged buddies can truly be.

A Revenge Thriller With a Twist

DogMan additionally inserts a becoming B story—fortunately not cloying—involving Evelyn, a single mom, who herself has been beneath the watchful eye of an opinionated guardian—albeit far much less harsh than Caleb’s brutal "caregiver." That plot affords the film a way of groundedness and a option to peek into Caleb’s story as Evelyn items collectively how Douglas wound up sitting earlier than her. JoJo T. Gibbs, who shined within the comedy Twenties, is extra critical right here, and her empathy for Douglas additionally permits us to spend money on the character and this story's end result.

Associated 10 Film Protagonists With Uncommon Backstories These distinctive backstories is probably not relatable to everybody, however they've nonetheless gone on to turn out to be among the most beloved characters ever created. Let’s discuss Douglas, we could? In watching Caleb Landry Jones, one remembers Heath Ledger’s fever-dreamy portrayal of The Joker in The Darkish Knight. The whimsy, the figuring out smile, the calm but mysterious eyes—you by no means know what’s about to occur subsequent. Luc Besson presents us with a uncommon, memorable character. As destiny would have it, we be taught that grownup Douglas, in search of work, stumbles right into a gig singing in drag. Music, like canines, was a consolation, in spite of everything, and it’s right here that the movie shifts tonally for a bit as Douglas croons to make a dwelling. Edith Piaf’s La Vie en Rose has by no means been so richly captured or carried out. In the meantime, there are some gritty felony antics occurring on the streets, and Douglas, like Batman maybe, has positioned himself within the “protector” function. Conditions come to a boil, in fact. Criminals reveal themselves. Douglas, nonetheless nursing daddy-issue wounds and thirsty for revenge, takes enjoyment of orchestrating a sequence of outlandish but efficient measures to maintain justice in test. Break-ins, machine weapons, trick doorways, uber-sentient doggies figuring out simply what to do—oh my! It’s like a warped 101 Dalmatians by means of a fallen DC hero. And depraved enjoyable. If… you permit your self to simply float alongside and see the place this surreal story needs to take you. It additionally illuminates how a tragic aftermath in a single's life can play out in absurd twists. Ingenious, offbeat, and buoyed by Caleb Landry Jones’s tour de power efficiency. We must also give these canines credit score, too. They know simply patrol—typically with their jaws locked in your crotch. One can think about the lengths Luc Besson went to with canine trainers and practically 150 canines prancing round. By the appears to be like of it, these canines received down their cues. Backside line: DogMan is devilishly enjoyable, and Caleb Landry Jones instructions the display. DogMan opens in choose theaters on Mar. 29. Read the full article

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