#LITERALLY GOT ME HAPPY STIMMING SO HARD IM SHAKING

[cassyapper]

can i like give you phsyical cold cash or something

I guess my duty is to continuously do art of wwm/ta now. Anyway wdym this isn’t what happened in the fic

Im sorry Cass for these monstrosities I couldn’t stop laughing making these my humour is broken

(Walk With Me / Try Again fic by @cassthecringe )

[thefandom-casserole]

Episode Ten- Dads Don’t Do Other Dads Dirty

My relisten notes

DadFact: Glenn Close Trio is the Jazz-mix Christmas cover band!!!! Betrayal >:c

Aww after Morgan died I’m betting Nick was alone for Christmas every. single. year. That’s sad

DadFact: Darryl was on DILFs of Disney Land (got his 15 minutes of fame) (Dad. Is. Little. Fat.)

DadFact: Henry’s second favorite drink is ROOM TEMPERATURE water

DadFact: Ron’s middle name is ‘F’

DaddyFact: Anthony recommends RPG (The Witch’s Gambit) things if you wanna get into rp games but dnd seems like a lot

AHHH PAEDEN’S INTRODUCTION SOON IM SO FUCKING EXCITED YOU HAVE NO IDEA IM SO STOKED HE’S MY FAVORITE CHARACTER IN THE WHOLE SERIES IM SO EXCITED AHHHHH

Paeden

Paeden

Paeden

Ahhhhhhh

Thank you Ben. 

UNFORTUNATE FOSTER CHILDREN

:D :D :D :D

I love how most of these kids are using magic but Paeden literally NEVER uses magic except for his final scene

I’m stimming so hard I missed Paeden so much

Gunan Duckworth is 13

Paeden is 8

“He fights with vigor of someone who’s trying to get back at someone who’s died” OH GOODNESS

EYE OF THE TIGER 

HE HAS THE EYE OF THE TIGER

GOD HES MY FAVORITE CHARACTER I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

Darryl you will love him later, you get your dad and you get your second son!!!!!!!!

“Would it impress you?” Nick 💔 

PAEDEN AND NICK (I miss Nickolas FOSTER and Paeden’s dynamic)

Nick did Taekwondo 

“It has been several hours since we’ve had a kid death” People (me) need to do more angst involving the UFC and Paeden

I LOVE PAEDEN SO MUCH THIS IS INSANE IM SO UNWELL ABOUT HIM OMG OMG IM SO INSANE

AHHHH HIS FIRST INTERACTION OKAY OKAY I CAN BE NORMAL *starts shaking whoever is reading this and gets louder* I CAN BE NORMAL

GAHAJSJSJDJNDKDK

In real life it has been five minutes

I cannot be normal

“Sorry Paeden that this is the character I used your name for” IF I WAS PAEDEN I WOULD BE SO HAPPY. PAEDEN. WHOEVER YOU ARE. YOU ARE MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITE PERSON EVER IM SO SORRY YOU’VE NOW GOT AN AUTISTIC ATTACHED TO YOU. I OWE YOU A WOOKIE LIFE DEBT LIKE CERN

Glenn is offering an eight year old to join his drug empire 💀 

🎵The eye of the tiger 🎵 

“You have a plus seven in persuasion!?” Just wait. It gets worse (better)

“I don’t like to fight before a fight, put them away” Paeden you actually have the best quotes

Henry’s kids WOULD love the UFC. We needed more Paeden-Twins interactions 

I took a break and now I’m listening on the bus next to my busmate. Oh boy

Awwww poor Gunnar

Still hate him he’s still a jerk with Paeden

AGAHJSJDJ I ADORE PAEDEN GOOD GOD

My ultimate favorite character ever !!!!!!! 

I STILL ADORE PAEDEN AND NICK/NICHOLAS DYNAMIC THEY ARE SO SIBLING CODED

PAEDEN IMMEDIATELY JOINING THEIR CREW HE REALLY IS THE GUY EVER

Oooh Henry’s going off on Glenn

Party of eight? Henry, Glenn, Darryl, Ron, Nick, Paeden, and Cern…? Hmmm. (I’m joking I’m joking)

Glenn canonically goes to a therapist!!!!!!!!!!!

Wellllll Glenn betting on children gets us Paeden which is evennnnn betttttter

“I feel statements” 

These things actually work so poorly. It ends up in hilarious fights 

NICK KNOWS THAT THEY HAVE TO EAT GRANT’S SKIN OMG

What was he thinking at that moment?

“Dad I’m sorry!” NICK NO OMG I LOVE NICK SO MUCH

“CHECK PLEASE” best ending ever

[sarai-the-furry]

Just a simple sketch/doodle, hope it’s alright (thought your character is cute).

_______________________________________________ tumblr was being stupid and wouldnt let me edit THEN post so i had to post THEN edit BUT OH MY GOD THIS IS SO FUCKING AMAZINF OH MY GOD I LOVE HOW YOU DREW HEATWAVE AND SILVERFROST AWAWEAWAWAWFKJDBKHSBIHFSBGHDBJF I WAS CHECKING MY INBOX ON MY PHONE AND I SAW THIS AND I HAVE NEVER RAN SO FAST TO MY LAPTOP TO POST SOMETHING HOLY YOU HAVE MADE MY DAY AWABHESFKJGAJDBF I AM LITERALLY SHAKING WITH EXCITEMENT AND JOY I WASNT EXPECTING THIS mobile tumblr is stupid sometimes and wont show me any asks or submissions in my notification box, forcing me to go to the settings and check my inbox there to see any asks or submissions. i have ZERO clue to how long ago you submitted this and im SO SO SO SORRY if it has been a while since you sent it hdskgkhbshksfdhfbsh

[adhddarling]

auctober huge post

hello, i have decided to speed run doing the auctober thingy because i am bored and need to do something. so, let's get down to it.

STIMS omg where do i start. i fucking love stimming. my main stims i do with my hands. flapping, moving my hands in fists, doing crab claws, tippy tappy fingers, touching nice textures, doing a surfer dude hand thing and shaking my hand, etc. most of my stimming is done using my body, but i also love visual stims! i'm very picky about what visual stims i like, though.

INFO DUMPING im a pain in the arse for this. thank god for my partner who puts up with my constant info dumping. my current interests are the gnostic gospels, and ancient christian religion as a whole. my long term SpIns have been greek mythology, the victorian era and anatomy.

COLLECTIONS i collect books, stationery, and crystals! i love all of them so much. i kinda have an issue with stationery, particularly pens, because my dyspraxia makes my handwriting terrible so i much prefer to type- however, i keep buying pens i don't need!

ANIMAL FRIENDS i love dogs, when i'm not overstimulated. i prefer stuffed animals to real ones, though. cats make me happy, because of their general chill-ness, and they're much more palatable when i'm having a hard time as they require less attention and are less stimulating.

MUSIC my biggest obsession is music. i love most genres, i love all different types of music. i usually hyperfixate on a song that i then listen to for days, and then move onto a new one when the previous one stops being stimulating. the only time i don't want to listen to music is literally only when i'm having a meltdown.

STIM TOYS stim toys are awesome! i love fidget cubes and tangles, but like chewellery the most.

HYPERFOCUS god, the stuff i've got done when i'm hyperfocused. i did all of my studying for my a level exams (british exams for the last year of school before university aged 18 ish) in about a week, and i hyperfocused SO FUCKING HARD. i forgot to eat, forgot to drink, didn't sleep much, just worked. i do not endorse this behaviour, i was horribly burnt out after. however, hyperfocus can be a superpower! i've had some of my best creative ideas when i'm hyperfocusing.

DIVERSE i think it's really important that the autistic community, and more widely the neurodiverse community, is more inclusive of poc who are autistic. there's a serious problem with the whitewashing of autism, partially down to media representation and also due to misdiagnosis of autistic people of colour with other disorders.

COMFORT FOOD bread <33 chicken nuggets <33 chips <33 pasta <33 rice <33 anything plain and not overwhelming.

SELF-CARE god, self-care is difficult. i procrastinate doing self care all the time, even with basic hygiene. something that helps me is having a sticker chart for when i complete basic self-care tasks like brushing my teeth, showering, etc.

NEURODIVERGENT COMMUNITY there's a lot of problems with the nd community, but also a lot of positive aspects. i find misinformation is a big problem, especially on tiktok- like, sitting with your hand under your chin does not make you autistic (genuinely seen someone say this). however, the spreading of awareness that autism doesn't just present as a white cis straight boy with a genius level IQ and who acts 'robotic', and instead that autism presents itself in lots of different ways, especially in women and AFAB people.

SENSORY EUPHORIA woodpecker. sounds. i can't express to you, how happy this sound makes me.

ALTERNATIVE COMMUNICATION i use sign language when i lose speech, and also write things down. i'm privileged to not lose speech regularly, only when i'm very overwhelmed, and so i only really use these methods of alternative communication when i need to.

VERBAL STIMS i like to copy tiktok sounds, tbh, and famous vines. it's fun. i also say 'beep', buzz like a bee, and make other sounds that would not be considered neurotypical when i'm happy.

AU-DHD i have both autism and adhd, and having both makes it so that for some of my behaviours it is difficult to identify where they come from. what's helped me is learning to accept that it doesn't matter exactly what disorder causes which symptom, but instead learning how to cope with the symptom itself, if that makes sense? having autism and adhd can feel very polarising at times, with two disorders that can feel like they conflict so often, but with proper management life can get easier.

UNMASKING i'm working on this one. as a moderate support needs autistic, to some extent, i can't mask. i can't appear neurotypical all the time. even when i'm masking as hard as i can, people can still notice that there's something different. this has caused me a lot of self hatred and internalised ableism, which is something i'm working with a therapist to undo.

SENSORY PROFILE i flip-flop between being sensory seeking and sensory avoidant. depends on whether i'm under or overstimulated, tbh.

LGBTQ+ i identify as queer, and pansexual as a collective. due to being a system, my gender is all over the place, but i like xenogenders and neopronouns a lot.

ECHOLALIA i used to get in so much trouble for doing this. learning that suppressing my stims like echolalia could lead to an increased risk of burnout has led to a wakeup call for me, and has really helped me to learn to accept who i am and the way i stim.

SPECIAL INTERESTS greek mythology, ancient religion, the victorian era.

COMFORT MEDIA good omens, doctor who, marauders era harry potter (fuck jk tho)

SELF-ADVOCACY unfortunately, being autistic and afab has meant that i've had to really learn to advocate for myself while with medical professionals. it's a difficult journey, and i wish so much love and support to anyone going through the medical system.

DISABLED i identify as disabled, and also Mad. disabled isn't a bad word. there is nothing wrong with disabled people. we exist, we take up space, and we have inherent worth.

OKAY I'M DONE FOR NOW. HAVE A GOOD DAY Y'ALL.

[onecanonlife]

mx angelsdemonsducks i just want to pop in here to tell you thank you for writing thank you for putting your fics out there thank you because heres a list of things i Feel about your fics dude youve inspired me SO MUCH all throughout 2021, starting from:

a) CAREFUL SON ive read and reread this fic so very much it sits at the very top of my most visited fics in ao3 wrapped at 126 and god you have no idea how much this fic . gets to me . it has me in a vice grip its killed me dozens of times before and then its ending gives me a smooch on the head and i come crawling back to it dude. holy shit. chapters 7 (WAA) and 11 (THE FUCK MAN) and then 15 (OH GOD CHAPTER FIFTEEN) and 20 (A

b) THERE WILL BE NO SUCH ENDINGS do you have ANY IDEA how much i love time travel stories and how horribly barren the canon adjacent time travel scene is . Mwah incredible this fic slaps so hard i adore the mystery i adore tommys comedically traumatic past this is the shit and seeing dream in his early stages of villainy is … So Eerie /pos i love it so much holy shit.

c) SILVER LININGS dude . Dude. This one made me ugly cry it has every trope i adore . Dude . Wilbur almost dying thinking hes hated . Wilbur being soft for a child and being a Good Father Figure. Dude. Wilburs very casual self hatred and suicide ideation. Crimeboys. Fundy soot. Holy fucking shit. Apocalypse story. Wilbur whump (we also have a horrifying shortage of this). I was ugly crying when he started hallucinating about fundy and i couldnt stop all the way to the end holy shit youve Got me every story involving the egg plot you write just. Hits different. I fucking adore it

d) FOR THINE IS THE KINGDOM MX ANGELSDEMONSDUCKS THIS FUCKINF FIC HAS BROKEN ME your descriptions of wilburs plight and his Pogtopia Senses destroy me oh my god the running motif about dust and stone and teeth and eyes dude i go nutty i lose my little mind dude holy shit im BEGGING this man to tell somebody dude the foolish scene dude the ghostbur scene dude the revival scene dude the tommy dude th (i am carted away kicking and screaming)

e) EVEN CHILDREN GET OLDER i will be sending you a cease and desist letter (/j) i need monetary compensation for the absolute emotional devastation youve given me holy SHIT this one i can just SEE this one being canon you got their voices and their mannerisms so perfectly down and oh hh h h the “do you prefer ghostbur” talk and the “im not what you want” i will be screaming and crying and wailing for the foreseeable future

f) HOLD ON ONE MORE TIME jesus fuck. Jesus fuck. /pos. List of things that arent okay: THIS. (/j) dude the way you write wilburs fucking relationships ohh h h h h i am No Okay ohhhh rainduo and quirkyduo and crimeboys and fundy soot and Jack Manifold (also known as Thunder1408) (JackManifoldTV) dude. The fucking letters DONT you DARE do that again /j i am in SHAMBLES

mx cat onecanonlife angelsdemonsducks once again i just . I love your fics to no end and i could harp my praises for you forever youre one of the people that inspired me to write and to create and that STILL inspires me to write and to create i just . (Shakes you) . thank you for writing thank you for putting out these gorgeous works holy shit thank you for a sick 2021 in fic. happy new years mx cat i hope 2022 will be just as, if not More kickass for you <3

khio you are going to make me cry look at me i am sobbing there are tears on my keyboard look at what you have done wtf /pos

i don’t even have anything coherent to say i’m just. happy stimming. hands are going brrrrrrrr and bruh you. literally i cried multiple times reading ywc your stuff is so fuckgin good like wth you have inspired me (uno reverse card.png)

you are literally so cool and i hope your 2022 is absolutely amazing

[tacogrande]

BRO DURING DEC 2020 you blessed us with a bill n ted sketch page as per usual and ted was shaking his head i think? and ted asked him why, n there was a whole little comic convo abt what i THINK was about stimming!! and as an autistic bill and ted fan i want to say i got so happy i started stimming in response, your art makes me SO happy dude literally

aw mANN ; ; thank u so much!!!!! im really happy it resonated with u ! the reason behind the lil comic was bc sometimes i have moments where i have these tics that are so hard to contrOL (usually when i have to do something that requires a lot of thinking .. iHAV NO IDEA WHY THIS HAPPENS but it gets in the way of writing or doing certain things HAUWIHSA) , but i was getting really frustrated so i drew the lil comic to kinda feel better/explain my feelings about it hAIUWHAUI

so im really happy it was seen as more positive ; - ;!!

[stimmedtavi]

vibrates

spoilers for season nine nd stuff below the cut ---------------------

HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT?? HELLO???? currently losing my fucking mind i'm literally. HHhhHHhHHhhHHhhhhHh HELLO!?!?!?!?!!?! HELLO!?!?!?!?!?! i'm going fucking NUTS rn holy shit. abt to categorize all of this bcs OHHH MY GOOODDDDD im going nuts rn.

actual gameplay stuff (guns, maps etc) HHH HVHSHV HVHAHV WORLDS EDGE MY BELOVED.... also HELLO OLYMPUS W THE NEW SKY?? i'm so here for it on GOD i literally love the way it looks sm. the infected beat is hitting kinda weird idk how i feel abt that but im excited for the lore that comes with it. aLSO PK ON THE GROUND HELP HELP HELP OH MY GOD. i joined in season 4 and got so used to keeping the pk around w me and then BOOM they took my baby away from me i was so sad ab it bUT NOW SHES BACK WAHHH </3 i'm so happy. i feel like this season is going to be really really nostalgic for me bcs worlds edge nd pk are like.. tiny wraith portals to the past in my mind and it's so nuts. also the boeck bow or however u spell it looks really cool but i also Fear it Deeply bcs it looks very powerful. it can also have multiple hop ups which is fucking nutso?? like hello:?? thats a little scary imo but i'm excited to see it in use!!! also the triple take in care package is lowkey making me sad asf bcs i was semi hoping devotion goes back in since i Hate That Bitch but ehhh i agree semi that triple take belongs there. its kind of a bitchy gun to go up against anyways. this season and its 'meta' or whatever gamer ppl say is gna smack some ass on god.. character stuff (skins, emotes nd valk ofc) CATBOY OCTANE im so ready im so ready omg. i hope crypto gets something lowkey bcs i think he deserves it since i Love him and Care about him. i hope they start feeding lots of legends good stuff this season bcs we need to be dripped tf out for season 10. i will give respawn my soul if it is taken for payment. i also hope we get more dive emotes and perhaps there will be unlockable ground emotes? not sure ab that one since they are so new but im hype af for battlepass this season :D im really really excited for the ground emotes. like i cant even explain how excited i am. i saw the video of them and i genuinely just started yelling at my screen it was pathetic to watch.. anyways the way octane moves and stims and stuff?? since i always play him i never see his passive movements but i just feel so happy watching him stim and stuff bcs im the exact same way with my hands and full body stims. it makes me feel a lot more comfortable with the way i am and how i work. i feel like it's ok to stim nd stuff and thats how it should be!! i feel really happy rn pls vsjnv im trying so hard to sound normal. alos cryptos?? ground emotes?? im literally shaking and crying. the rare one is really cute dont get me wrong but the one where he uses his drone as a sword literally has me in tears. it's so nice looking and we don't get to see crypto's more playful side very often and then boom... he's using hack as a sword and i am in tears on my bedroom floor. his LEGENDARY THOUGH??? literally shook me to my core i was like oh my god oh m ym g od o??!?!?!?/ crypto is a huge romantic cc for me and i use crypto gamer bf funny haha as a joke quite often but like ?? he looks?? so cute?? like he finally looks like he's more comfortable in his skin. i find a lot of the time he seems to be full of discomfort and just very paranoid but in these emotes we see a softer side of him and it makes me really happy. i just can't stop thinking about these ground emotes man.. they mean so much to me. the other ones are v cool too ofc but i wont go into all of them since theres not enough time for me to discuss that lmivnjsdnv. okokok now VALK!! i'm excited to play in squads w her!! i think she and tav would be really good friends and i love her abilities (even tho i kinda think her passive is a bit op) but she seems really fun! i'm excited to try out using her !! general excitement i'm just all around hype for this season. i cant remember the last time i was this excited for a new season... it was probably season 5 tbh. olympus had me excited dont get me wrong but i really havent felt like theres been enough changes in other seasons to get me all riled up like this. so much is being added in (i didnt even cover arenas) and i'm super duper excited to wait 6 hours for the download file to

copy onto my ps4 <3 anaywyas im gna shut up now this is long

[vincent-frankenstein]

ADHD sides hcs :3c

self projection time? self projection time

feel free to add ur own hcs onto this im jus usin my own experiences here 

startin w PATTON

emotional regulation? who’s she? patton only knows feeling emotions with Every Single Atom in his body so powerfully he might one day Explode

if he’s happy hes HAPPY!!!!! it’s like his body fills with light and he’s walking 2 feet off the ground and nothing could go wrong — and then whoops, something goes wrong, and wh o o ps, hes crying, whoops —

has a million stuffed animals sitting aLL around the house so he always has something to Squeeze

Squeezing is a good stim dont @ me

he throws his whole body into stimming

flapping, bouncing, jumping, spinning — his body must be moving at all times or he will die 

starting things is. Very very hard for him. executive dysfunction hits DEEP and he’s just,,, paralyzed. he wants to do the thing!!! he really does!!! his brain just Wont Let Him

logan used to get very frustrated with him but then patton like, explained how it felt and a little lightbulb went off in logan’s head

“patton, I think you have adhd.”

“... i’m guessin that doesn’t mean im a-delightful-hip-dad?”

then they did some Research together and put together a plan to help patton work around executive dysfunction and, it works, sometimes

when it doesnt, logan makes hot cocoa and sits with him

AUDITORY. PROCESSING. PROBLEMS.

“Hey, Pat, what’s for dinner?” “huh?” “I said, what’s for —” “meATloaf”

hearing is an uphill struggle so sometimes he just Signs instead but a lot of the time he gets so excited about what he’s trying to say he just dissolves into flapping halfway through the sentence

lots of hyperfixations !!!! so many !!! he cycles through em one after another suuuuper quickly 

he never forgets a hyperfixation, and the mention of ANY old hyperfixations will have him cry-flapping

roman: hey did u know they’re making another phineas and ferb movie -

patton, vibrating intensely and sobbing, .5 seconds away from launching into orbit: theYR E MAKING A WHAT

ROMAN

singing is his absolute FAVORITE STIM

that moment where u reach a point in a song where ur chest just, Swells and u can feel ur voice Vibrating ? yeah

sometimes Does Not warm up beforehand bc ??? he has No Choice but to sing along to certain songs and he cant always control when they come on so his voice sometimes gets Very Raspy from belting without warmups

aside from that twirling and doing Ballet Poses are also very good stims. he stick his leggy out Real Far mmhm

roman: *starts a new project and doesnt finish it* *starts a new project and doesnt finish it* *starts a new project and doesnt finish it* *starts a new project and doesnt finish it *starts a new project and doesnt finish it* *starts a new project and doesnt finish it* *starts a new project and doesnt fin

his room is a MESS and NO he will NOT clean it LOGAN he has a SYSTEM 

he doesnt have a system and the mess stresses him out to no end but he has one (1) braincell and it’s dedicated to Starting Projects And Not Finishing Them so

needs validation to survive

like legit if he doesnt get validation he will DIE 

on the flip side, if he gets any sort of rejection, he will also Die

logan: so I read through your latest script, and the idea is solid. We can definitely work with this. I did notice one oddly structured sentence so I fixed that for you —

roman: so you basically hate it and i should die 

rejection sensitive dysphoria is the one villain he has yet to figure out how to slay

contrary to what u might think, he keeps his hyperfixations Very close to his heart. he doesnt think he would survive it if one of the others were to criticize them

the one exception to this rule: disney. 

you cant look at this boy and tell me hes not hyperfixated on disney i mean did you s E E him in that one ep cmon

he will ramble about disney to anyone who will listen for hours. days, even, if you give him the opportunity. infodumping about disney is like injecting pure sunlight right into his bloodstream; by the end of it he’s glowing

once, after accepting anxiety, virgil and roman ended up in another debate about the Meanings of disney movies, but this time it was friendly, and by the end of it roman had gotten to ramble about each and every one of his favorite movies and he had never been happier

it was the first time virgil ever saw him Flap

they still get together to talk disney sometimes

VIRGIIIIL

virgil: *stims while listening to mcr* *stims while listening to mcr* *stims while listening to mcr* *stims while listening to mcr* *stims while listening to mcr* *stims while listening to mcr* *stims while liste

like roman, Music is virgil’s main stim, but he prefers to just. Move. bouncin his leg and drumming his hands in the air and shaking his head etc etc

it takes. literally foreVER for him to trust the others enough to stim around them. music is his main comfort but, for a Long Time, he wouldnt let himself listen to it when the others were around, just bc he knew he’d want to stim and he couLDNT bc what if he got juDGED

but then one day roman starts singing and patton jumps up and starts spinning and virgils like “???” and logans like “that’s how they stim” and virgils like “!!!!”

he Tappy Leg Real Fast

he also has a string of beads he carries everywhere to twist around his fingers bc bead,,, Good Texture

he struggles with rsd just as badly as roman, but he shows it in a Different Way

roman hurts, but hes an actor. he’s not about to invite more rejection by letting them know how much their words hurt! no no no, he keeps up the bravado until hes back in his room and then he breaks

but virgil. the rsd hits and its like, a physical blow to his chest and he crumples, wilting in on himself, and the world around him just sorta, ebbs away. for virgil, rsd is static

after AA the others start to learn his Signs for when hes feeling Bad™ so whenever he shrinks away they’ll stop the conversation and talk him through his insecurities until he feels better

SPOOKY HYPERFIXATIONS ALL THE WAY

went to Halloween Horror Nights one (1) time and now listens to the music on repeat and just. stims for hours

also hes in love with austin gumbam from academy of villains me? self projecting? never 

knows Every Obscure Fact from Every Horror Movie Ever and the urge to infodump is Consntantly at the forefront of his mind but he Never Does

unless someone gives him permission 

virgil: oh? chucky? thats a. cool movie.  did you know that — uh. nvm

logan: no no, go on

virgil, vibrating at a speed that could shatter glass: iF YOU INSIST-

LOGAN,,,,

this bitch is just as bad at Emotional Regulation as patton

hes just better at hiding it

that little stunt w the paper in lntao? he is Constantly .5 seconds away from going apeshitt. that was just A Glimpse into the chaos

he’s just,,,, very very bad at Identifying what he’s feeling. patton hid his feelings from the others, but he still knew what he was feeling, and he knows how to identify emotions

logan, on the other hand? 

logan: passion and anger are both Hot. they must be The Same Thing

patton: i. i mean. not really

logan: goddamnit

or

patton: logan? are you crying?

logan, touching his cheek and finding Tears: hm. tragic. and here i thought i was “happy”

he’d much rather just,,, Not feel but thats not an option bc he still feels things intensely, he just doesnt know What he’s feeling most of the time

quiet stims. he runs his hands along the fabric of his tie, feeling the grooves of the stitches, and readjusts his glasses constantly. if he’s feelin extra wild, he’ll even pull out his rubix cube and solve and re-solve it without even looking

LOTS of obscure hyperfixations

he has so many books on so many different subjects,,,, his room is more of a library than a bedroom and thats just the way he likes it

throwback to that one time he hyperfixated on reptiles and thomas’ little “slimy boy” outburst had him chasing deceit around the mindscape trying to feel his scales “FOR SCIENCE”

memory. problems.

he HATES hates hates hates the fact that things slip his mind so easily. hence, the notebook, and the daily planner, and the deluge of postits hanging around his bedroom

it frustrates him to no end especiaLLY when he forgets important information in front of thomas

patton watches out for the signs of Frustration and brings logan a cup of tea later than day and helps him sort through the Mess of notes on his desk to catalogue the Important Info

just let logan and patton be adhd buds @god bls i beggeth

but when he does remember The Information and thomas praises him? effervescent

logan, after thomas called him cool, kicking down pattons door: I FINALLY KNOW WHAT HAPPINESS TRULY FEELS LIKE

patton: hey! cool your jets there, kiddo!

logan:

patton: :3c

logan, turning around: neveRMIND

patton: nO WAI T-

the day thomas called him cool was the first time he ever Flapped

[ghostheadcanons]

Papas + Copia: Autistic S/O

Anonymous said to ghostheadcanons:

Could you do some fluff with the papas and copia with an autistic s/o? I got told by a friend that I’d never find a boyfriend cause I’m autistic and I need some cheering up after that..! Thank you!

What the hell! Why would someone say something like that? That’s not okay at all!! That would be like someone telling me that no one’s going to want to date me for my ADD. It’s ridiculous!

Anon, listen to me. No matter what’s going on in your life, no matter if you’re neurotypical or not, there will always be someone for you out there. Multiple someones! And just because someone else can’t see that doesn’t mean it’s not true! It’s a big wide world out there. Out of the seven billion people on earth, if you want to find a significant other, there’s bound to be at least one person who thinks you’re their everything. 

That goes for the rest of you out there reading this, too. 

As for writing for an autistic S/O...you’re going to have to bear with me. I’m not autistic myself, but I have a brother who is, and I’ve done my research to the best of my abilities. I don’t mean to offend anyone here with hurtful stereotypes. I don’t know if I’m the best person equipped for the job, but hopefully I did decently enough. 

It needs to be said that none of them would think any less of an S/O with autism. The church is open to everyone--and so are they. 

Papa Nihil: 

Surprisingly, he has somewhat of a grasp on what you’re talking about if you tell him about your autism. His eldest is ‘a little different’, too, but he never held that against him. 

That’s always how he’s phrased it-- ‘a little different’. If you take offense to him referring to you that way, he would apologize and do his best to refer to you properly. 

If you don’t like lots of physical contact, Papa Nihil would abstain from his normal amounts of hugging you and kissing you, and would find different ways to show his affection.

If you only like certain foods, he’s more than happy to prepare them himself for you. No matter how outlandish you might think they are together, he’s always open to making them!

Sister Imperator would want to know more, if you have any triggers, any sensory problems, etc. so she could set you up with proper accommodations.

Nihil would love to hear you talk about your special interests! You can talk for hours on end about them and he’ll listen eagerly. 

"I love watching you light up when you talk, cara mia.”

Papa I:

If you confide to him how you feel, he’s the one out of all of them who is most likely to understand what you’re feeling. 

If you don’t like going out or talking to a lot of people, this man is for you. He’s reclusive, himself, and only has a handful of people who really know him. 

Social rules in different settings are a pain for him to navigate. You never have to worry about offending him by saying the wrong thing or not abiding by Unwritten Social Code #3496. He doesn’t mind one bit. 

Has a youtube account just for stim videos. He has thousands of them arranged neatly into playlists. He’ll send you all the links. 

Never talks down to you. But if you need him to explain something a different way, he’ll do so, in a non-patronizing manner.

“We are all one in Lucifer, lamb. No matter what our difficulties are.”

Papa II:

You have to tell him about your autism. He wants to make this work for you, but he can’t do that if you don’t tell him what things bother you, what gives you trouble, etc.

Is not irritated in the slightest about how you stim, no matter what it is, or if it’s considered ‘annoying’. The most he’ll do is go to another room if he needs to concentrate on his paperwork. 

He doesn’t infantilize you because of your autism. He knows that you’re a fully grown adult who can understand what he’s saying.

At the same time, though, he also keeps your difficulties in mind and will always offer to help if he sees you struggling. 

If you’re forgetful about meds you need to take or a schedule you need to keep, he’ll remind you. “Your pills, caro. Go and take them.”

You can bet if anybody even looks at you funny for acting ‘weird’ that Papa II is going to come over and literally destroy them. 

Will always reassure you if you’re anxious about yourself/your abilities/etc. 

“You are not broken, caro. You process things differently is all. And I do not love you in spite of that, or because of that. I love you, for you.”

Papa III:

At first he probably wouldn’t understand all that well. But he would do his research and come back to you with questions about all kinds of things. Does going out all the time bother you? Do you have social anxiety? Are there surfaces you don’t like?

Like his brother, he’s willing to learn, and to help if you want it!

If you quote a line you like from a movie/game/book out of absolutely nowhere, you can bet that Papa III is going to quote the response right back at you. He always gets your references. The two of you have a blast quoting lines back and forth at eachother. 

If social situations are difficult for you, Papa III is willing to explain a lot of the unwritten rules if you want him to, especially beforehand. These sorts of things can be tricky sometimes, even for him! 

If he has to explain a romantic metaphor he made, he wouldn’t be irritated that you didn’t ‘get it.’ Some of his romantic metaphors are, in fact, very stupid.

He’ll help keep you on schedule, since it took him a very long time to learn how to do it himself. He has problems focusing on things, and sometimes you have to shake him once or twice to get his attention. If you’re the same way, he would always be patient with you. 

Also like his brother, if anybody gives you shit for the way you act, he’s going to come over and cuss them out. 

“Forget them. They don’t matter. What do they know about anything? Of course common horses wouldn’t know what they’re looking at when they see a unicorn. You are one of a kind, tesoro. And I love you.”

Cardinal Copia:

Aside from Papa I, he’s the other one who’s most likely to understand your struggles if you confide in him. 

He has a lot of difficulties in close social interactions, so he can teach you some of the tips and tricks he’s picked up over the centuries if you struggle with those, too. 

If you want to stim by petting his rats’ fur, he’s more than happy to let you! 

On the other hand, if you don’t like the feeling of his rats on you, or their fur, he’ll be sure to let them know so they’ll stay off and away from you. 

He’s very adamant about his schedule, and he’ll try to get you set in a routine you’re comfortable with, if you want his help. 

He’s the type to remember everything you’ve said about your special interests, and look into them himself to see if he can get interested too. Who knows? You might have got him hooked on something new! 

Knows painfully well what it’s like to be a social outcast. Growing up in Italy, he related more to his pet rats than the other children, and even now, he still feels the same way. 

“It can be very hard, topolino. I know that more than anyone. But we’ll get through it together, you and I. Ti amo.”

[againstshame]

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This is a bit embarrassing but eh this is the place to say it, no? Well here goes! Maybe others will be able to relate. I am self diagnosed autistic and I’m understanding bit by bit a few things about myself that did not make much sense. One of those things which i literally JUST started to understand was how i handle being happy.

I have always been told i over react to alot of things. One of the things i never understood was when people said i was easily amused or getting too excited about things. Basically, i get so happy and excited about things that it feels like i might explode! I ahve to do something or i may well go crazy! So i would jump up and down, smile this goofy wide smile, clap my hands, shake my hands, get loud, just anything really! 

And someone i knew in middle though highschool said i was very easily amused. I didn’t really get that. Do they mean i am too excitable? Is my reaction too strong? Are you supposed to not feel so happy when little things happen or when you think about your favorite thing? I pretty much thought that if others felt the same way that i did when they got happy, they MUST be not showing it and that you were supposed to just. Not show how you REALLY feel when you get extra happy. 

So thats what i did! I tried really hard to ignore that feeling in my chest when i got super excited. I didn’t want people to call me overly excitable or easily amused, because that means i am childish and annoying (obviously it doesnt!). And really, it wasn’t the best idea. In fact jt was a TERRIBLE idea! Suppressing my happy stims feels horrible. And i would not have even known they were happy stims if i didn’t know i was autistic. It feels like trying to hold your breath. It hurts! It’s like shoving that big ball of happy energy into a tiny cup and putting that cup into a small box and ignoring it. It takes alot of energy.

I remember many times people silently judging me over how happy i get. Sometimes i just don’t even know im doing it and it just happens. One thing i remember vividly is when in school i got happy about…i dont even know it was middle school. And i do this cartoonish walk. I bob from side to side, on my tip toes (arms flapping or clapping sometimes). And someone staring me down and laughing at me. I never did it again until about last year or the year before. Not because i intentionally thought about doing it, but because i got happy and that’s what’s i did without even thinking. 

When out in public or in the car with family or with people i dont trust, i have to sit very very still. Because i am almost always listening to music, i usually end up getting that happy feeling. As a kid, i had more practice in sitting still and ignoring that feeling. But as an adult? I can hardly do it. It’s far too painful these days (like a physical hurting or aching. Maybe “painful” isn’t quite the right word but I’m not sure how else to put it. Highly discomfortable? Sure.). I usually end up rocking very slightly and squeezing my hands, something i didnt even realize i did until my sister jokingly pointed it out to my parents (that was very embarrassing). 

Just the other day i had seen a bunch of birds in a puddle (it was raining super hard so alot of birds were about). It made me so happy the entire day! I had started doing this thing i do with my hands: i close them really tight into a fist and open them back up like im want a high five. I do this quickly with my hands up towards my chest while on my tip toes. I was doing this while looking at the birds and saying something (probably something along the lines of “look at the birds ooh look they are taking a bath” but i kept repeating it the whole day hahah.) and turned around to see the customers at work staring straight at me. It was so embarrassing. 

Part of me really wishes i would just be excited like everyone else. So that i didn’t have to constantly monitor my body language. So that i could just see something, smile about it and move on like everyone else. Why do i have to put so much energy into staying still when i get happy so i don’t embarrass myself? How does no one else get so happy that they want to burst and jump around and flail? Why do little things like rain, the leaves on a tree, a good song, thinking about my favorite games, nice color palettes, good food, bright lights and just other insignificant things make me so incredibly excited? 

No one else seems to care about the little circles the rain makes when they hit the ground. The way a song on the radio has a similar chord progressions to a song of one of my favorite games. How the plastic packaging on certain items has a sound that tastes like chocolate. So why do i? 

I kind of wish i didn’t feel so strongly about such stupid, small things. And that it didn’t take so much energy to appear like they dont mean anything, when in fact I just wanna jump up and clap. Why is my happy so overwhelming but everyone else’s is so subdued? I hate it. Maybe everyone feels this way and i am just particularly bad at handling my feelings. I am not sure, but i really hate it.

(I am not sure how to tag this, i will leave it up to the mods.)

[thedappleddragon]

I woke up really warm and cozy because I slept under some extra blankets which was really nice. I made breakfast and offered my sister the other half f the last bagel, but she sounded annoyed and told me she didnt want it in that way that means she was probably saving it for later and was mad at me for eating it, so I left the other half and the cream cheese on the counter for her. instead of the other half of the bagel I toasted some bread and ate that with cream cheese. later I saw the bagel half in the trash which was annoying and wasteful but whatever. I melted just a little bit of chocolate and had strawberries but the glass I melted the chocolate in had a crack, and when I opened the microwave I watched at the crack circled almost all the way around the glass so I cautiously closed the microwave and waited for it to cool off in case it exploded or something and then threw out the glass. while I was watching tiktoks one came up about being a vet tech and putting animals down and I started crying about my cat who is still very much alive and at the foot of my bed. i’ve been thinking about her eventual death and how I'll have to leave her behind when I go to college and I really dont want to. I'm already devastated just thinking about it. I know no-one at my house will appreciate her as much as I do and it just makes me so fuckin sad. it was a short moment and I was able to shake it off but typing this out made me sad again. I spent a lot of time crocheting, and the sweater frog is almost done aside from the eyes. I noticed the hours slipping by as I made my mom some fish, but I let the thought go and crocheted again, remembering all the things I was watching/listening to while working on different parts as I sewed everything together. someone in my friend’s discord posted a crocheted  sweater they has just finished so we talked a little bit and I got so inspired to make my own sweater and became fascinated with he idea for a little bit, researching yarn types and seeing what joann’s had available. until my laptop died. I had some chocolate covered strawberries again because I have a massive sweet tooth apparently and chatted with my dad a little bit. I watched raggedy Ann and Andy; a musical adventure (which I had never seen before) and it was so damn cute and charming and both raggedy’s voices are so damn cute and soothing and gets close to scratching the same itch as the old Care Bears movies but without the nostalgia factor. it was so cute until the camel started hallucinating and the whole animation staff had their coffee pot spiked with acid because WHAT THE FUCK. the greed monster was horrible but the animation was so mesmerizing and gross and reminded me of my mom. honestly the whole middle part of the movie makes NO goddamn sense but it’s still very cute and nice at the bookends. the little girl’s sweater at the start was also very cute and tbh if I was fashionable I would wear it. the “just a rag dolly” song is maybe my favorite? and stuck in my head in a good way. it’s a nice change from various rhythm heaven levels which just reentered my head goddamnit. OH YEAH I ordered a 10 pack of ds styluses a while ago and they finally arrived. they were supposed to be assorted colors but I got all pink lmao. they dont match my white ds but I dont care. I also have a clear case coming eventually that I want to decorate with posca pens :) I played a little bit of Nintendo's and rhythm heaven to test out the styluses and yep they work. but it made me want to repair my touch screen because it’s got some big scratches on it that I just dont like running my stylus over in fear of making it worse. the screen still works totally fine, I just wish it wasn't scratched. I'm so glad that my ds is still in pretty dang good condition, and I want to keep it that way. I might do an all-over general maintenance (I cant think of what the computer version of a makeover Is called asdlkfjsdf not a refurbishment but something else) just to make it last. anyway after watching the movie I went into the bathroom all smiley and singsongy and looked at myself in the mirror and got so happy I stimmed really hard. I'm literally in fucking love with myself im the cutest bitch around im goddamn narcissus and perfect girlfriend material. idk why my self esteem had been skyrocketing lately, but I want to ride this high as long as  can. hating yourself is exhausting and miserable and I dont want to go through that again. anyway m knees hurt and I have too much energy but I want to go to bed anyway goodnight mwah sorry for the long post ALSO IT’S MY FRIEND’S BIRTHDAY NOW :D

[podcastmecaptain]

the stim bin

part of advanced PLACEMENT: an ars PARADOXICA high school au about a gang of queer teen nerds, by @estherroberts​ , @podcastmecaptain , and @lizzieraindrops

all three of the aformentioned dorks are equally responsible for the hijinks found in this post. today as well all three aforementioned dorks are neurodivergent folks writing about neurodivergent folks.

click here for the au masterpost | track #ars placement for updates!

ALSO: things aren’t always showing up in the tags, so your most reliable bet is the aforementioned masterpost.

attention: all contents incredibly neurodivergent

everyone shares those fidget cubes

collectively they have like five

in so many colors

esther also designs a giant version that’s like. the size of a KEYBOARD and with lots more options and Bigger

jack builds it

they call it the stimboard deluxe

anthony has nintendo

sally brings him all her childhood games and watches him hyperfocus

sally and anthony were the first autistic friend each other had and they love sharing weird stuff from their childhoods that nobody else liked

they have a lot of overlap of interests and they spent so long without anyone like them who really got them

and they both feel so safe and loved not only with each other but with the whole gang because everyone’s neurodiv af even if they’re not sure in exactly what way

anthony brings notes everywhere

scribble scribble

Doing The Right Thing, Doing Science For Good is sort of his ruling philosophy

a lot of times it’s really easy to lead him down the wrong path if he thinks it’s Science For Good

he has some problems with gullibility

the pressure stimming is too real

PRESSURE! STIM! HUGS!

Big Coats or Lab Coats

fiddling with his glasses

he’s bad at artistic/creative things and just doesn’t get it. he can follow a pattern tho,

polish patterns work for him, especially with tape. he likes taking care of his nails because he’s v tactile, he likes the smooth feeling of the polish and likes tapping his nails

he either gets really anxious or angry about Bad things

breakdowns, breaking things, and weirdly quick recoveries

he could hug people for hours

he usually does if he’s had a panic attack, but other than that acts like he’s fine

canon says sally eats weird and has a disturbing appetite so like,

sally separating EVERY SINGLE FOOD by group and flavor and texture and then like putting one piece of one in her mouth at a time and keeps TALKING CAUSE SHE’S A DORK

other options:

SHREDS EVERYTHING AND EATS IT WITH A STRAW

eats only EXACTLY one quarter of anything at a time and forgets the rest

uses her hands for THINGS SHE SHOULD NOT

burnt things

she love the Cronch

puts things together that should not even touch

jack cries the day he sees her dip pickles in whipped cream and shove a fistful of blue cheese blissfully into her mouth immediately after that

sally’s special interests:

electronics, gadgets, tinkering, SCIENCE, beginning quantum physics, computers

stims by tinkering and uses voice recordings for vocal stims, plays with her hair and bites her nails, spinning, dancing, tapping tools

hands on everything

the dancing is so bad and uses her full body (it’s actually so cute)

is a bad driver bc she either hyperfocuses on the road or she starts TALKING and gets lost in anything BUT driving

sally wears her lab coat everywhere

she plays with the seams, runs the fabric between her fingers, tugs on the corners of it to create pressure on her shoulders

sometimes she spins in a circle just to let the fabric flap behind her like a cape

tags on clothing are EVIL

she takes them out with a seam ripper till there’s no traces

sallys clothes are always a little large and odd bc if they’re not comfy she Dies

no really she’ll end up in a ball somewhere crying because of sensory grossness

she has serious sensory processing issues

sometimes it’s really a Drag but she loves fiddling with things so much and it feels so good and she wouldn’t give it up for the world

she has a watch that sometimes she’ll make clicking noises along with the tick tick tick tick

lots more under the readmore!

sally is the queen of weighted blankets

she always has one readily accessible in case she needs to wrap up in it

the gang Knows this and they’re always asking her to borrow one

like one time esther texts sally like “help me im having sensory issues and i need hugs”

and sally turns up with not one but TWO heavy blankets

(she may have fallen over once or twice trying to carry both of them)

(just these two lil scurrying feet on skinny legs goin patpatpatpat supporting this huge bundle of extra-weighted bedding floating down the hall)

she wraps esther in them and then squeezes her, too

for good measure, sally gets up on her tippie toes and rests her chin on esther’s head

esther, muffled: “i am a burrito now”

sally: “a precious tiny gay burrito”

or, estherrito

bridget puts her in her phone contacts as ‘ettie burrito’

and sally in turn puts her in hers as ‘questherdilla’

also oh my god when will she Stop doing fingerguns with accompanying tongue clicks

sally talks to herself

she has a little wee tape recorder named Diane because Diane

its covered in stickers

she likes to record what she’s doing to organize herself and calm down

and she’ll replay them to process things

sometimes her friends will leave happy messages on there for her

or helen will sing her a little ditty

helen is the world’s best audio stim

her voice is just really soothing

she’ll sing absently and everyone just operates more smoothly for that minute

she likes singing for herself too

humming and tapping her instrument is a soothing habit

helen is very audio/vocal

she likes to play the same song over and over again

bridget has some issues with self image

she also has obsessive tendencies, sometimes related to organization and labeling things

but also related to literature and only being able to talk about whatever she’s into

sometimes it’s easier to quote things from her favorite books instead of replying in her own words

she doesn’t like things that are uneven or unbalanced

objects OR concepts that are unfair or unequal

(except her hair. her hair is badass and she’s okay with that kind of disunity)

esther’s adhd and her big stims are

high heel clicks on the floor when she walks

fancy & feminine clothes that make her feel secure

the ritual of putting on her makeup

pencils (tapping or twirling)

HER RINGS, she has three and she spins spins spins

she likes to rub the shaved side of bridget’s head

and run her fingers through the hair on the other side

she ALWAYS has her father’s old deck of cards with her, she’s shuffled them so many times they’re completely worn down, and no one is allowed to touch them but her

they’re very soft, she has a new pack as well for crisper sound/feeling and everyday use

sometimes she uses card games as lens to make sense of the world

she has a rough time with communication and a rough time with empathy but she’s trying to work on both of those

both come easier with people she’s close to and bridget is helping her some too

it’s easy for her to hyperfocus in class and doing homework, so it took them a while to diagnose her

out of all of them, esther is the best at reminding people to be organized and do self-care (tho she doesn’t always take care of herself)

she spends a lot of her time in her own head, she really values alone time, and she needs to recharge after she spends time around people

even people she loves

jack’s also adhd, had been diagnosed for a while and has almost all of the opposite symptoms as esther (which is another one of the reasons it took them so long to figure out esther)

jack always works better after he moves, if he runs a little or bounces a ball around or is shaking his legs, rocking on his heels

he makes lots of rolling rrr sounds and blows his lips when he’s frustrated

the pencil chewing ended in splinters and the pen chewing ended in ink all over so now he has a little necklace with a chewable shark

the sharks name is Fredrico

his binder is actually kinda helpful because it’s pressure

he screws and unscrews things a lot

actually taking apart and putting back together all machinery is a Big Thing

june is dyslexic

she has cute tinted glasses to help her with studying

sometimes helen reads stuff out loud for her, she doesn’t mind but june hates to ask

for her birthday quentin bought her a five sided highlighter to color code different things

she has some emotional processing issues

it’s easier to feel angry than anything else

& her methods of dealing with anger aren’t super healthy either

quentin is the only one who actually can manage himself

Quentin is a Hydrated Boy

(he has great skin)

quentin always comes across as super chill but that’s actually because he has hella anxiety and works really hard to manage it

penny is autistic and if june and helen are the dad and mom friends and esther is the gay cousin

then sally and anthony are the autistic aunt and uncle who adopt penny as their niece

they can spot one of their own from a mile off and just decided We Gonna Take Her Under Our Big Fluffy Damn Wings

penny is the Flappiest Autistic

big happy arm flaps, upset little hand flaps, her fast excited flaps are literally the best and most joyous thing

she’s always been kinda embarrassed and insecure about it but jack is so supportive

he’s only a moderate flapper but he often flaps with her when she does it

and he calls her his butterfly

this melts her heart and makes her feel happy and not weird and when this happens she is prone to flapping even harder

she calls him her moth

they’re precious fluttery darlings

sometimes when they both get going, sally joins in too and they all spin around the room fluttering in a big flappy tornado

it’s Good