#LIKE I CANT STOP THIBKING ABOUT IT

[syxnewt]

they don't use words

[woodlandscab1n]

i am insane i am insane i am deranged crazy i am crazy. they put me in a room. a room w t4t. the t4t drove me crazy

[mossycakes]

i thibk hannibal is what youd get if you mixed lestat and armand. on a surface level, hannibal fits the three B's: bisexual blonde bitch. he has a fondness for the opera, a hatred for the impolite, european, charming, and of course loved abigail and will completely and with his whole self, even if it didnt immediately appear that way or wasnt reciprocated. on the other hand, his evil js very seductive, he pursuades people to kill in a real loving and gentle way, in the same way that armand convinced daniel in s2ep5 to accept his death, they are both master manipulators and gaslighters, like when hannibal convinced will he was hallucinating gideon, and i cant stop thinking about the similarities between the hannigram fall at the end of s3 and armand throwing lestat from the tower at the end of tvl.

[coeuranxieux]

its midnight rn i cant stop thibking about vince. not even in a gay "i wanna kiss him" way this time i genuinely. cannot stop

this man has no sense of taste and his cooking is numb and loveless

he loves his waiter and decides "if my cooking is loveless surely itll taste better if i add my waiter's loved ones to it that must be how it works"

i doibt this will make sense to anyone bc im tired but man

rody meant SO MUCH to vincent i feel like the fact that he even cooked manon up like that to try and add love to his dishes is so fucking crazy

[allamawla]

the tiktok and xhs situation

I know this is kind of outdated because it happened last week (which is like 10 years in internet time) but I still wanted to say something about the tiktok ban in the US. Although I live in Europe, I thibk it's very interesting to observe this whole situation. Almost every 3-4 years there's this news on a tiktok ban which makes the whole population go crazy. However, I think it's more interesting how it was handled now. As some of you probably noticed, most people went to xiao hong shu (to take revenge on the government? lol). Honestly, I have been using xhs myself for about more than a year now, because I study Chinese Mandarin and it helped me to expose myself to the language more often and to learn some authentic expressions.

In the first days when Americans came to xhs it was relatively normal and even quiet fun, since most people were quite respectful and interested, however this didnt last long and soon many problematic people joined the app which was very saddening to me.

And the more people joined the more annoying it became, I started seeing youtube shorts and insta reels type of brainror, which is usually fine with me, but if I want to see that Im going on youtube and not xhs. Especially those fake pranks were so cringy and annoying, like please, just stop embarassing yourself. It's kind of outrageous that some people started calling themselves "tiktok refugees" I get it, it's a joke, but in my opinion that is just tasteless and rude towards people who actually fled from war and suffered under the horrible conditions while seeking asylum.

At some point it got so bad that xhs wanted to put an internet wall into the app so that people outside of China wouldn't be able to access the app. This would be fatal, especially for Chinese-Americans or Chinese people outside of China in general, since xhs is a social media platform which allows the users to stay in touch with friends and family members and also the latest trends. It would be very sad, and although I dont have direct contacts in China, I know what it's like when you dont have access to people from your cultural background. It can feel very intimidating and disstresful.

Now that tiktok wasnt banned in the US most people didnt stay on xhs and went back. Maybe they saw the app just as a replacement for their internet addiction, but I cant blame them, since I also enjoy scrolling on my phone.

I think its quite funny that when Americans were asked why they go to xhs instead of insta reels or ytb shorts, they said that xhs has nicer people and the atmosphere is more welcoming there. But I wonder, whats the reason for that... No, but its strange for me that some users were racist towards the Chinese users like- hello? youre on their app lmao. Also, why do you go to the app with the more welcoming atmosphere if you then decide to destroy it by being toxic?

I know this doesnt apply to every american user, but if you feel adressd by my words maybe you should think about why thats so...

how do you feel about this whole situation? were you sad or glad that tiktok is being banned?

have a wonderful day

[jamiesgotchu]

i think that after jason left the room, skunk was just like.. flustered smiling and happily flapping their hands to themselves bc THAT just cheered them up so much. but they would never admit it. i cant stop thibking about that fic is there somethibg seriously wrong with me

OUHHH MY GOD I AM . SO INSANE OVER THIS

I'm actually so happy you liked my fic and my ocs and OAHHSJHDJ THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS HEADCANON. I WILL OFFICIALLY BE MAKING IT CANON. RIGHT NOW

I. will be thinking about this. my brain. will be full. tonight

[stop-talking]

ok this isnt a request or anything but i js thought it was a funny coincidence

im in a server and we were talking abt your mike dentist fic and remembered we talked abt derek having a hot doctor fantasy like a month ago lmao, and combined with the mike dentist fic idea i just went feral lmao

(i cant send images here so ima js transcribe them lol)

-do you thing he'es described his hot doctor fantasy to anyone, if he did i hope he told a therapist

-to mickey, OR WAIT, to wallace, "get me a doctor for my hangover, but make sure theyre hot" ",,,why mr danforth?" "uhhh uhmm,, bye"

- "mr danforth you have alcohol poisoning you need immediate medical attention" "if theyre not hot i thibk i'd rather just die"

-wallace just has a list of hot doctors at this point

-he had to after derek almost died like 5 times

-its just "hot doctor(emergency" "hot doctor(non life-threatening)" "hot doctor(routine checkup)" "hot doctor(psychiatrist)" (psych is never contacted once), etc

Okay I have quite a few thoughts on this.

First, people talk about my Mike x dentist fic?? 😭 Genuinely I thought yall were gonna think I was deranged for writing that, I wrote it all in a few hours on a whim. Purely self indulgent.

SECOND, DEREK HAVING A THING FOR DOCTORS IS SO FUCKING FUNNY.

LIke, imagine him scheduling his third goddamn prostate exam of the month, and the doctors are all just fucking sick of his bullshit.

So they just keep charging him more and more hoping it'll get him to stop, but of course he's a rich bastard so it doesn't deter him

And he treats every visit like it's a bad porn-o.

"Sure you don't want me to bend over for you?"

"I, uh, I can take my shirt off so you can listen to my heartbeat better."

"Oh, I don't need the hospital gown. I'm not shy. And blue isn't my color anyways. Maybe if you had a green one..."

[basofy]

bringing both jack and shitboy to randoland is such a fucked up thought that ive definitely not pondered over a million times. aknowledging the horrible bond they got or just that they know eachother in canon feels so fucked up.it's kind of a 'you dragged me into this' situation i dont know if thats fitting. both of them say things that contradict stuff in their conversation so i always think about the possible process that went there, jack realizing garths porn isnt what he needs and garth possibly succumbing to a 'if you cant beat them join them' mindset by choosing to draw buddy(he would probably think he can do a better job and add his own touch to it to the point it looks like a weird creature that isnt buddy anymor) (i have many interpretaions of this thing he couldve also lied to intimidate jack but would believing garth make this situation better? no so who gives af) not to mentuon both of them having this deal where they feel left out because of the way things are now jack being left in the dark abt so much stuff he didnt get to know of and thinking hes missing out and garth not being given the attention he wants because others want is stuff that reminds them of women not his ugly deviantart fetish or thats how i see it. i dont thibk they could bond over this similarity though garth would just find a way to make it about himself again but it's so sad. stop projecting onto jack bro just wanted a burger and now hes killing people.you know this conversation sorta feels like a story that had already been told before we just hadnt seen the bits in between am i the only one who thinks that. and then after all that mess they die together, one of them watched the other die in front of them and who knows if they even felt anything

IM RAMBLING AGAIN IGNORE MEEEEEEE

this is from june

[gosminhas]

whenever juliette lewis is on the screen i cant stop thibking about how much she sounds like kafka and jingliu's eng vas

[ssiegfriedsystem]

mini-ramble (ok not really) time: I have about SO MUCH. multiships in Fafner. I think only Fafner has got me multipairing this much; SouKazu, KouKazu, MayaKazu, KanoKazu -- It doesn't stop there because then I also have KouShoko but also ShoMaya and then ALSO KanoMaya. then i have KanoSaku and SakuKen at the same time (and for the more minor cast i have AkiMaya and AkiHiro, and SuiRina + SuiReo but also ReoMika at the same time)

But still, STILLL my heart is forever infatuated to SouKazu. like, this is my ultimate OTP. yes, I may have about too much pairings that involve Kazuki in it but 総一 always takes the crown for me. I'm always emotional over them none of you understand. ok. LOOKKKK these guys are literally the soulmate trope but the difference is that they're...not soulmates. two people loving eachother very much, very clearly meant for one another but in the end they're always torn apart by circumstances they're unable to control and knowing this always punches me in the gut and breaks my ribs. Ow.

Also knkz and kzko are close seconds to kzsou because they make me emotional + thibking of the kzko angst possibilities do make me coil about a little -- I cant stop imagining TBY Kazuki leaning into Kouyou in place of Soushi's absence and Kouyou...can't help but embrace Kazuki because he loves Kazuki. Even though it hurts so much for him knowing that Kazuki essentially crawls into him just because Soushi isn't there. Yes, Kouyou does it because he loves Kazuki, but does Kazuki share the same feelings? Kouyou doesn't know. No one knows. Not even Kazuki himself is sure anymore.

While I always thought that kzkn is like super duper cute. I really like them. I love how Kazuki is also the first one that softened Kanon's heart, even if it was so slightly, and taught her so, so much things about opening up and being true to herself. It always breaks me knowing Kanon's words in FotFFw never reached Kazuki waauuughhhhh im dead ok. asma found dead in the beach cause of death: Fafner in the Azure -Dead Aggressor-

[sonny-whorezik]

its uh . yyeah . i dont want to have to go through all my photos and label them "hidden" and go trough my house to put all reminders in a box . im too tired . i work in three hours . ill likely never hear their voice again and all i have is the memory of them crying and a voicemail i can't delete. maybe one day i will , but i can't any time soon. im so in denial pf this being finite im convinced i just have to wait a little bit longer. i dont think um . i dont thibk they want that . if i had known in november that would be the last time we'd see each other , i hm . i didnt know that would be it. i dont know what's prompting me to say all this in a public post i guess i just have no one to go to. i think their name and number is still on the safety plan i had to make. they were never my whole life but they were the majority of it , what i had to remember and love and the only aspect of the future i looked forward to . february will be hard , we were supposed to see each other next in feburary . last feburary was our first time seeing each other after a break apart and 5 months , a reunion and an opportunity to start over . im instinctively so hopeful about them in my life and i dont know how to stop that , and i need to or else february will just hurt even more . i wrote them a song for christmas i wanted to record . a poem out of cut up words from a book because that made them cry when i did it for their 22nd birthday.

them telling me there was nothing i could've done differently hurts even more because i dont have an opportunity to change or prove anything, this is just what they need . when we first started dating they sent a song with lyrics saying "we'll still be best friends when all turns to dust," and now they have been severed from my life on their terms , and i wont fight this if it means their quality of life improves ; that's all ive ever wanted for them was a good life . i never wanted them to find that solely in me , but i had hoped i couldve helped . i cant go back to sleep . im so tired . at least i had my moment with the sharks i guess

[findursoulmateorfindyourself]

stop hating this is the hate

we live in a cruel world

life is cruel its injuste

u have no reason to be where u r while no obe has a readon to be where thry are and yet its like that

there is good and bad in everyone

watch morr mpvies they help you help yourself

stop feeling sorry for urself STOP feeling sorry for yourself this life is a gift and a gift is not always something to be happy about its not something to be seizing its just there as long as its there abd people will hate you for saying this people will judge you and people will mke you accountable.

The way you life live is affecting others in a big and in a snall picture

u still are looking and you always lose track bc u still are not looking for yourself and thats okay. You are hard to urself but not in a way you should b; u look around too much. u seek so much affirmation from the outside

but it must come from your heart ur looking ur finding inshallah one day ur still looking but do it while not maling the u the focus of the world u r from ur own perceiption maybe but its the life of otherd that make it thst life and u don’t have to always find urself in it. that us narcistic and you shall not be. shall never be shall never become

u should sffirm urself if you cant i ubderstand bc i am in ur head as well there is a lot like every human a mot sone cN express some find way sone doed nor mstter but in a way to lesnr to grow to enjoy to expeeience to humble to reflect THATS it THATS it u know this is it

please remind urself even if you will thibk ird mesningledd and srupid in a month its precious and to be able to sir here and writr that down is prexious and is life

the life you don’t want to have for reasons that are vain and narcistic but maybe iitd ok its how u think

of course I thibk about gaza pf course I think about witnessing something uncomparable since I am born I gree up in a coubtry with a so cslled valie system thst now I‘ve lost it. But wsnting to not be anymore because u feel conplicit how you despote of everything u have learned in school u behave you werre dure ro be different. @a good human@ I gues ur not bit u need to surcice thereforebyou need to remind jrdelf whsr u beed flmor itt.

[ghostboyhood]

SPOILERS!!! genuinely dont read if u plan on watching or dont know the ending..

oughhh i love young jake gyllenhaal and heath ledger <3

this movie might confirm that i have a thing for cowboys... i suspected it but we'll see ig

good lord its so green and pretty where they are

theres so many sheep holy shit

i love their voice sm omg.. the way jake gyllenhaal talks is so like... unique ?? idk

carving a horse outta wood, sick as fuck

i cant get over how beautiful it is oh my god.. id give anything to live some were like that

in love w this movie already honestly nd im only 17 minutes in.. the atmosphere, the way its filmed, the characters.. its very like.. peaceful??? not the word but its nice, its real

i love jake gyllenhaals outfit

PLEASE I LOVE THEM!!!omgharmonica

damn that bitch is gutted poor sheep 😭

dude being naked w just cowboy boots on is fucking sick as hell

NO THE WAY HE GRABS ONTO HIS ARM WHEN HE KNEELS DOWN PLEAJDJWJDJSBfuck dude ognsjajdn

YAYAYDHDJ

NO THEM CHASING EACJOTHER JS SO SWEET STOP IT

Bitch why is he watching them...

HOW AM I 40 MINUTES IN

look at them bright blue eyes 😍😍

THE LASSO THEM TUMBLING I CANTSHDHWNAA

DAMN OKAH JESUS NVM 😭😭

no stop "come here im sorry youre okay" AHSHSJSJSJ PELAKDKEJDJWND oh boy im liking this movie too much.. idk how it ends but im pretty sure its NOT good

icant do this literally nothing that horrible is happening yet but im getting like chills involuntarily what

IM GONNA BE SICK STOP THATS NOT FUNNY HIM CRYING NONO

hi michelle williams

AND IF YOU DONT I WILL" IS FUCKING CRAZY

is that a baby

it is oh boy OH MY GOD TWO??

so much blue denim

GET EM HELL YEAH !!!!

hi anne hathaway

that man is QUEER!!!! he is waiting for a MAN

god the shots in this movie are so pretty..

help hes so cute w the kids,, "the what?" "ketchup"

the time skips are fucking w my head jesus christ

AAAAAAAAUSHEHXHSHXJANXBWJZ

NO PLEASE THIS IS SO SWEET HES SK EXCITED THEYRE SO HAPPY

PLEASE BE KISSEDHIM FIRSTBAHSHWJXJSNXNWD

oh boy she saw them...

him holding ennis ☹️

i feel bad for his wife

I STILL HAVE AN HOUR LEFT??? HOW

ough i feel sick he wants to be with him forever so badly.. they both do.. no jack saying how they could go off n shit n what theyd do HES THOUGHT ABOUT THIS ARGHHH

those poor guys what the fuck....

please i love jack so much...

hes gotta be one of my favoritest characters ever i think.. smt about him is so.. idek..

ough them both fighting w their families :(

yeah that... checks out

HELP "i gotcher message about the divorce" HE SOUNDS SO HAPPY LMAOO

please hes so optimistic fuck

NO HES CRHING STOP STOP IM GONNA CRH I CANT

he has a mustache

WOAH honestly fucking hoof for jack hell yeah

help he has that motorized cutter thing like frank has in rocky horror picture show

holy shit oh my god...

ennis needs to chill out i completely understand where hes coming from but hes being so mean 😭😭

HELLO DAVID HAROUR WHY ARE YOU HERE????

jacks got that homo energy about him goddamn they all know

he did not say that he didnt say that oh my hod

"the truth is... sometimes i miss you so much i can hardly stand it"

IM GONNA BLOW MY FUCKINT BRAINS OUT RIGHT NOW STOPSTOPSTOPS DONT SAH THAT ☹️☹️☹️☹️

LIGHTEN UP ON HIM??? DONT SAY THAT DO YK WHT U JS FUCKING DROPPED ON HIM

oh my gof ob gmdt

"i wish i knew how to quit you"

this is the end! im SOBBING WHAG THE FUCK THIS ISNT FAIR jake gyllenhaal dont DO THIS TO ME

HES CRYING STOP HIMTACKCKOKGHSIAJDBSND FUCK

ENNIS HUGGING JACK FROM BEHIND ASHDHEHCJSB

wtf is he eating that looks like absolute shit

no

nonosklno

yourejoking youre actually joking

no that didnt happen that didnt happen no no fuck off no youre joking youre joking please hes not dead he didnt die no

im gonna be sick

wow that house is so fucking white there is NO color

oh my god he never washed that shirt stop

ITS HUNG UP IN HIS CLOSET BY THE PHOTO STIP STOP STOP

i feel dizzy oh my god i cant do this i dont ever wanna watch a movie again 😭

god i thibk that might be top ten movies... jesus christ everyone should go watch brokeback mountain right now i was fucking crying half the movie

im not gonna scale rate it bc i suck at those but man if i did it would be high

might watch brokeback mountain rn

[yellowhearther0]

girls when they are trying their best but their best isnt good enough 😔😔

[humanmorph]

work was actually kinda fun today very productive. i also did something im STILL kicking my own ass about

[honestlyitsjustsam]

“ i realize mages had it worse and had been oppressed their whole life but templars are hurt too s-“