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#tyz gif tag#gigi murin#elizabeth rose bloodflame#hololive#hololive justice#holojustice#gif#flash warning#possible eyestrain#PULL ON THE EXPOSED NERVE ENDING YOU KNOW YOU WANT TOOOOOO#kek......#yes im starting mmmmy chuuba blog off wwwwith dummmb gifs#wwwwhat about it!#i swwwwear if tummmmblr fucks up mmmmy gifs
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Been sort of curious as of late mostly because I’m genuinely surprised by the amount of followers I have atm O-O;
(it’s not a crazy amount btw, just a lot more than what I expected from this small little blog of mine)
Hence this poll lol~
I have these categories since most of my art posts/reblogs here are under these fandoms.
Sure, a couple are from also other fandoms too like Ace Attorney, Genshin Impact, and Baldur’s Gate 3. But those are only a small fraction of them in total kek. =v=;
#gonna mostly tag this so it’s easier for me to find in my blog#there’s gonna be some poor strangers seeing this poll out of context kek#random thoughts#my polls#tumblr polls#random polls#random#random things#project sekai#pjsk#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#persona 5#p5#marigolds#marigolds by colbub
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you people need to get better at recognising when op/a reblog of a post is an obvious far right freak on this site
#this post prompted by seeing the word 'kek' setting off alarm bells#immediately sus of anyone using chan language that's clearly not part of a bit#learn how they talk#learn what urls they tend to make#learn what pfps they use#take a cursory glance of their blog if you're not sure#it keeps happening
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kevin likes bugs
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Yes but does he really have a choice in that matter?/lh
I imagine since he's a fucking NERD he liked bugs and all biological marvels as a kid, studying them and probably always looking forward to whenever he could go down to the basement and look at all the different insect books.
But I imagine if there is any life down there, in the basement of course, it probably isn't as glamorous and wonderous as it was in the textbooks, constantly getting bitten and such.
Rats too whatever he lives in a !!! A !!! DIRT SHACK TONIGHT!!!
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#egg kevins house#egg kevin's house#ekh#roblox#egg kevins house roblox#jar mod#🫙mod#ask blog#anon ask#i cant believe i typed all of that up from the words “Kevin likes bugs”#he does he does like bugs#i also think he would hate grasshoppers#and also...billbugs#KEK!
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hola mutuals my time away from tumblr (i reduced the app screen time from like . 2h to 15-30mins a day) has been wonderful and i don’t feel burnt out abt my ships anymore and just because i feel like it i will say that selfship tumblr feels like some kingdom but with 3 rulers (big blogs . possible / most likely that there’s more than three tho) who are somehow loved by everyone and i really wonder how that works because mostly and with only one exception those are such big assholes how can one even like them .
#one thinks he’s the ruler of the world and should get off his high horse#the other begs for attention (why does every big blog do that )#and the 3rd one is just a sweet soul minding their business being a blessing to the community#why am i saying this ? cuz it’s my blog and i feel like it :kek:#will i drop names ? NO .#will i dm names ? NO .#alright that’s the complaint of the day ✌️🐸#୧ ‧₊˚ 🦝 ⋅ ☆; buck.txt
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I'm so special I got put on the sys carrd 🫀wahoo👊🏻👊🏻👊🏻
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;-- guys plz like this post or send me a dm so i can know who i owe replies to bc after not doing replies for a hot minute, i lose track of them
#;ooc#:^)#thinking of doing some replies after im done with noctis' modern verse#which should be today#before hiatusing my replies again to work on prompto's modern verse#give a mini break in between bc oof#writing mini one-shots is like writing replies to myself kek#but so far i like the pace im going at#but i do wanna get some replies out before i start my next mini reply “hiatus”#need to make sure people know im a rp blog dkdnwownow
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RAGH HANG ON IVE HAD A SONIC SIZE INTEREST IN DP FOR LIKE A YEAR AND A HALF AND I DIDNT KNOW YOU WATCHED IT ???? jumpscared by your art in the best way im real happy rn. that is my guy rright there
yess!!! me and my little bro just have the last two episodes to get to but it's a fun watch
i kept all my yapping to discord dms but mannnnn . not remotely interested in fandom spaces rn but someone NEEDS to body horror this kid show and i guessss it'll have to be me
#ask#evil plotting idk. can anyone hear me#thinking about the two seconds where he bleeds ectoplasm . i firmly believe that he straight up died for a minute and he's#not quite human anymore no matter what form he's in#i keep watching kid shows and going. kek. how can i make this lame and sad#and then my cousin comes over for horror movie lockdown and im like. kek. how can i make this joyous and whimsical#but. yeah. feel free to talk about it with me if you want!!!! recently i've been tunnel visioned on the circus gothica thing#danny phantom#<- for blog sorting
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"...Maybe I wasn't meant to have a partner. Maybe as a celestial being means I shouldn't have one."
"...Should we tell her?"
"Nah! It's funnier if we don't"
"Fair enough"
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If ya didn't know we're a set of queer twins that have an affinity for oddities, guro, weirdos, and beautiful bastards, we don't know what to tell ya.
Happy Pride everyone, embrace your queerness...~
We kinda thought of making up some sort of month-long art challenge for ourselves to draw our queer ocs for June, but we are tired and didn't get around to actually organizing such a thing while quarantining the end of last month, so... Maybe we can at least reblog some of our old queer rrrt for now, and shall see how inspiration strikes...
#those ordonians#not sure many care to read our posts bahaha#truly our blogs are for our enjoyment and connections with friends anyway#but yeah#trans#ace#queer#lgbt#lgbtqia#our rrrrt blog is twinrot-arts if that was hard to figure out#kek kek#we'll see what we can find that we still enjoy to reblog from over there#pride#art#artist#creator#twins#text
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ROLEPLAY HISTORY!
The rules are simple! Post characters you’d like to roleplay as, have roleplayed as, and might bring back. Then tag ten people to do the same (if you can’t think of ten, just write down however many you can and tag that number of people). Please repost, don’t reblog!
Current Muses:
KnY
Bleach
Soul Eater
Twisted Wonderland
Geto Suguru
Want to Write:
Mimiko (jjk)
Nanako (jjk)
Gojo Satoru (jjk)
Leona Kingscholar (twst)
Arlecchino (Genshin Impact)
One of the Hashira from KnY
Argenti (Honkai Star Rail)
An oc for jjk
Another one of the original Gotei 13 from Bleach
Have Written:
I’ve never really dropped any muses so-
Would Write Again:
Never dropped any muses so-
Tagged by: @rivalsunraveled
Tagging: @thehealerhairpin , @6cular , @hisjudgment , @sorceriii , and anybody else who wants to join!
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“May the tides bring your wave home” //hello!
"And may the shores welcome your return-"
Wait what was a giant metal golem doing here?
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PLS THIS WAS A TRIP AND A HALF
My poor heart, poor poor birdie
BUT THE BOYS UEUEUEUEUEUE
I love them and I love you for writing this, it’s absolutely fantastic 😩😩❤️💖
Now if you’ll excuse me, I’ll be recovering from this for the rest of the day
Fear Not This Night
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Being part of the 141 pack meant you watched out for your boys, always. As their medic, it meant you sometimes flew into danger for them. When someone uses that knowledge against you to separate you from your pack, you pay the price.
Warnings: Blood, treating wounds, medical inaccuracies, shifter biology, shifter dynamics, psychological torture, physical torture, being blinded (hood over head), brief self-harm (pulling feathers). This one is a bit dark so if you would like more in depth warnings, come ask me.
Word count: 7.6k
Harpy eagle f!reader x 141 poly
You soared over the trees, sharp eyes watching for your team. You’d gotten the call that they needed you a few hours prior, so you knew they’d likely moved some from their last coordinates. But you doubted they’d gone far. You weren’t even tired yet, broad wings carrying you and your pack.
Finally, you spotted Soap, in a convenient space between trees. Good man, making your life easier. You didn’t cry out in recognition, because that was dangerous. But you did dive, tucking your wings close and waiting until the last possible moment to pull up, flapping down to land on your pack. It was specially designed to be sturdy enough for you to land on, fortunately.
“There ye are,” Soap murmured, grinning at you and reaching out one hand to stroke the top of your head. You blinked at him, chirping. “C’mon. Someone got a lucky hit on Ghost.”
You hopped off your medic pack, hopping a few steps away before you shifted. “How bad?” you asked, opening up your pack and throwing on clothes. For the chill more than for modesty.
You had no modesty around your boys anymore.
“Price wants ye to check, because Ghost is bein’ an ass.”
“I heard that,” came the grumpy growl from Ghost.
You rolled your eyes and picked up your pack, which looked more like a picnic basket when you carried it this way. “If you’re alive enough to growl, you’re alive enough to behave,” you pointed out. He still had his mask on, but he wasn’t arguing lying down, either. Hmm. Must be feeling worse than you thought.
You settled on your knees next to Ghost, giving him a quick once-over. Bandages had been packed down against his thigh, though you ignored them for the moment. Nothing else looked out of place.
“Anywhere hurting besides the thigh?”
“Took a round to the vest,” he admitted, a little reluctant and a lot grumpy. Probably mostly grumpy that he got hit.
“Just bruised,” Gaz said as he crouched a little to the side of you and behind you, out of the way but ready to assist. “Didn’t even crack a rib.”
“Lucky bastard,” you agreed, shifting your attention down to his thigh. “And this?”
“A graze,” Gaz said. “But it bled a lot, more than normal.”
You hummed acknowledgement, leaning closer. Ghost shifted, and you cooed softly, almost reflexively. He huffed but settled.
The wound wasn’t bad under the bandages, but it was in a tricky spot, just above his knee. You couldn’t see any real reason why it would have bled more than normal except use, which was kind of inevitable. But even so, just to be on the safe side, you smeared it with ointment and rewrapped it.
“How far do you have to go?” You packed up the rest of your supplies after forcing Ghost to drink more water.
“Little ways yet.” Price shrugged, planting his hands on his hips.
“I’m fine to keep going,” Ghost said, because of course he did.
“You finish your water,” you said, poking his hip. “Then we’ll see.”
He huffed, eyes narrowing at you. But he subsided. Mostly because you both knew Price would side with you.
“If you left now?” You raised one eyebrow at Price.
“We’d make it by dawn.”
You puffed out a breath. That was not too bad. Ghost was tough, you knew he could last that long, especially since he’d already been forced to rest (and probably to eat something, knowing the rest of the pack). “I’ll scout ahead,” you said, pushing up to your feet. “Circle back and follow behind, make sure you’re fine.”
“I’ve got your pack,” Gaz offered before you could say anything more. You rolled your eyes at him but didn’t protest. You knew better.
You also knew better than to shift again without eating something, so you ripped open a protein bar and ate it as fast as possible under Price’s approving eye. Tossing your clothes back at Gaz and grinning at his playful huff, you shifted back and took off again.
The route forward to their exfil point was clear and quiet, even to your keen gaze. Turning to circle back, you made sure to check back in on your guys as you flew above them.
No enemies behind, either. They’d done a good job of either killing everyone who’d tried to follow, or losing them. You expected nothing less from them.
Pleased, you made a few big circles just to be sure. Still nothing. No sign of enemies. You took your time following your pack to the exfil point.
True to Price’s prediction, just as the sun broke the horizon the pack made it to exfil. You dove down to join them, landing next to Ghost. Gaz tossed your clothes to you as soon as you shifted, and Ghost shoved water at you.
“You all are mother hens, y’know that?” you grumbled without any heat, grinning, even as you double-checked Gaz’s straps.
“Says the biggest hen of us,” Soap pointed out with a wicked grin.
“Now now, just because my tits are the best–” you started playfully.
“Enough,” Price interrupted, sitting on Gaz’s other side, between him and the opening. Smart man.
You and Soap subsided, though you did both roll your eyes. “Everybody good?” You looked around at them, meeting each gaze squarely for a moment, to make sure none of them were lying. They all tolerated it, well used to you by now. Satisfied that none of your guys were about to keel over, you settled back for the trip back.
Flying in a heli had never been your favorite thing to do. You much preferred to fly on your own. But you had to admit that the heli was faster - you’d tried once to keep up, and couldn’t. Which wasn’t actually surprising, just disappointing.
This flight was not bad. Not too long. Which was good, because you were getting antsy. Ghost had caught a nap on the heli, but you still wanted to make sure he was fine in better conditions than you’d had before.
As soon as the heli landed, you were out, watching Ghost carefully. He wouldn’t accept help, not in front of others, but that didn’t mean you couldn’t check in.
“‘M fine,” he grumbled at you very quietly as you fell into step next to him.
“I’m sure you are,” you agreed. “And I’ll be more sure after I get to look you over.”
Soap leaned closer, waggling his eyebrows. But he didn’t say anything, because he couldn’t. Not here. Not where people could overhear and get the wrong idea.
Simon was fine, as it turned out when you finally got him to medical. Heightened metabolisms were good for some things, after all, and that included faster healing.
But you still bullied all your guys into the nest to take a nap.
“Stop fussing,” Price grumbled, lifting his head to pin you with a look. “And get in here.”
“It is literally my job to fuss,” you grumbled right back, although you did stop messing with the pillows and observed the nest. There was a good spot next to Simon. You carefully stepped over Gaz and Price before you settled down with a soft chirp, nestled between Simon and Price. There. That was better.
Price’s soft huff made you grin to yourself. At least until Simon tucked you under his arm and started scratching your scalp. Then you relaxed into him.
Okay. Maybe you could take a nap too.
One good thing about having pack-only spaces was that you could be with your guys without fear.
Simon had been ordered to stay and rest and finish healing while the other three went on what was supposed to be a quick mission. A day or two all told, is how Price had phrased it. You didn't know the details, didn't need to know the details, but you did know that Simon hated this.
"Relax," you murmured to him soothingly, scratching your fingers against his scalp. "They'll be back soon."
He grumbled wordlessly, one hand curling against your thigh where he was also using it as a pillow.
"Easy, Simon," you murmured, low and soothing. The little bit of grooming helped both of you, you knew. And it was almost all you could do for the moment.
Until you got called to help with exfil.
You hated leaving Simon, knew he'd be all but climbing the walls in his anxiety, but… needs must. He understood.
This time you went without your med pack - supplies would be available after exfil.
You weren't even sure Price had called for you. But the order came from higher up, so off you went to go help.
From high in the air, the battlefield looked bad. You could see bodies still laying where they'd fallen, a visual indication of the path of retreat. It took a little time to find your guys, the three of them huddled together behind a half-burned building. There were no immediate threats, but you could see where enemies had set up to hinder them.
It was not an easy situation, nor an easy fix. You flapped your wings a few times, changing your trajectory.
You needed to give them a distraction, a chance to get out. Most people didn't look up - you could use that, get a good sneak attack or two in. Cause a little chaos in the line.
It would do for now, until you came up with a better plan.
You flew a little higher, using the angle of the sun to help disguise your descent. And then you dove, aiming for one soldier a little apart from the others. He never saw you coming.
But he screamed as your talons ripped through the vulnerable skin of his scalp and neck.
You flapped hard, leaving him to bleed out even as shouts started up around you. You managed to vanish into the sun, flying up high again. You'd be harder to hit that way.
Of course, now they were on alert. Damn. That hadn't quite been enough of a distraction for your guys to get away.
You needed something bigger.
Scanning the ground, you looked for something out of the way to pick up and drop on the enemy line.
It was a good plan, and it even worked.
Until you were flying away. Someone must have been watching, because there was a sharp pain in your wing, enough to make you screech. Your wing faltered and you fell, just able to slow yourself enough that you didn't injure yourself further.
You hit the ground in a flurry of blood and feathers and screeching. Your wing hurt, leaving you unable to fly.
Behind enemy lines.
The first man to lunge at you got your beak to his throat, blood hot as it splashed across your face and chest. Maybe you'd have time to get to safety, maybe you could shift and–
Something heavy fell over your head, completely blocking your vision. You screeched, loud and angry, but more heavy things landed on top of you. Something held your wings firmly down against your sides, the pain sharp enough to make you try to jerk away. But you couldn't, too many hands grabbing you and securing you.
Blind and trapped, you could only feel as you were picked up and moved.
But you weren't dead yet, which was terrifying.
People handed you off between them, and you tried to flap your wings or flex your claws or anything. But movement of any kind resulted in you being squeezed to the point of pain.
With no way to see where you were or how many of them there were, you gave up. Conserved your strength, so you'd have a better chance of escape once you could see again.
An engine rumbled to life, and you got squished in against a body.
"Try anything funny and I will break your wing," a man hissed to you in heavily-accented English. You didn't doubt that he, or someone, would.
So you behaved, because you wouldn't be able to escape if you had a broken wing. You listened to the occasional chatter in Arabic. You tried very hard not to panic.
Sooner than you expected, the car stopped and you were once again handed off. The thing never came off your head, never let you see anything.
But you could hear more people, orders shouted in Arabic, more movement.
Oh this was bad.
Someone carried you somewhere cooler. More movement around you, and for a brief moment you could see as the heavy thing over your head was yanked off - you could see two men in front of you, one of them grinning to show off two empty spaces where teeth should be.
Then darkness again as a hood was secured over your head. You'd never been put in a falconry hood, but you knew immediately that's what it was, just from the feel of the leather and ties around your head. You screeched, trying to flap your wings.
"Enough of that," a sharp voice scolded. You nearly startled to realize it sounded like a woman. There was another flurry of Arabic, orders it sounded like, and then hands grasped your right wing, the one with the bullet hole. Big hands held you in place, wing extended, other wing pinned to your side.
You had no idea what they were doing until you heard the snip, snip, snip. You screeched, enraged and despairing and agonized. But they didn't stop, and there was nothing you could do.
"There." The woman sounded far too smug, too pleased. "Now you can be my bird." She laughed, low and throaty and sadistic.
You shivered, tucking your wings in as tight as you could, shifting restlessly from foot to foot. Bells jingled as you moved and you froze in horror.
Hood and jesses. They were treating you like a falconry bird.
If you could, you might have thrown up. As it was, you made a tiny distressed noise.
A door shut somewhere nearby, leaving you with the terrible feeling that you were alone.
You tried to pace off the room, but the fucking bells kept breaking your concentration. You could stretch your wings, at least, though the right one hurt. And the way the air moved around your wing was… wrong.
That was all the confirmation you needed, even as you pulled your wings in tight again and huddled in place, shivering. They’d clipped your primaries.
Even if the hood was gone, you wouldn’t be able to fly.
You had no idea how long you stood there, alone in the forced darkness. Time was meaningless as you mentally went in circles. Simon knew you’d gone. There was a chance the other three had seen you or heard the commotion. People knew you were gone.
Someone would come for you.
Or you’d be killed first.
But you didn’t want to die, your pack needed you, you couldn’t leave them, they’d never forgive themselves if you died here–
The door opened hard enough that it slammed into the wall, and you jumped, wings flaring in agitation.
“There’s my pretty bird,” the woman from before cooed, over-sweet and mocking. “Hungry yet?” Her steps were deliberately loud as she approached you. You stiffened, holding yourself tense, but didn’t move. “Now, are you going to cooperate? Be a good bird?”
You didn’t reply, but you figured that lack of fighting would be a response. Because you had no idea where you were, and you held almost no power here. You knew that if you got too uppity, they’d make your life worse. Probably not kill you - they’d had plenty of opportunity to do that, and hadn’t yet.
But you could think of plenty of things they could do to make things worse for you.
The hood was pulled off your head, and you blinked rapidly as you adjusted to the light. The room had no windows and only one door. The artificial light washed everything yellow.
And, most importantly, left you no way to know how long it had been, how long you’d been gone.
The woman in front of you wore khaki and brown, simple clothes that were more functional than fashionable. Brown eyes held yours, a smirk slowly stretching her lips when you refused to look away first. But she didn’t seem to care about a dominance game. She just stepped further into the room, setting down two bowls for you.
Like you were a pet.
Your stomach turned and you stayed very still, head tipped, watching her closely.
“Well? Go on. Eat while you can.” Her grin had stretched into a cruel thing, showing too many teeth.
You shuffle-hopped forward, the bells on the jesses setting off every nerve you had. You hated this. Hated her. But this wouldn’t be forever, you knew it wouldn’t. You needed to eat, needed the fuel to heal and save up for your escape (as soon as you had a decent plan).
So, much as it grated on you, you ate from the bowl, keeping your gaze on her as much as you could. It felt demeaning, dehumanizing.
You felt like some exotic pet. The feeling made your blood boil, made you seethe. But you were careful to do so very quietly, only to yourself.
“Good bird,” she cooed mockingly. “We shall see how long it takes to train you.”
Before you could do more than flare your wings in protest, the hood was shoved back on your head, plunging you into darkness once more. You flapped your wings twice, momentarily off-balance.
The door shut. A lock clicked.
And you were alone again, in darkness and silence.
It was impossible to track how much time had passed. You could hear only occasional muffled sounds beyond your room, had no way to mark the passage of time.
The only breaks from the darkness were for food, always far enough apart that you were hungry, always the woman and one underling. Always demeaning. Always difficult.
You suffered through five meals. Five meals. Each one worse than the last, with more taunting, more mocking. It was harder every time to not just leap at her and rip into her.
But you remained patient, somehow.
The muffled sound of gunfire drew your attention, and you moved back and forth restlessly. It was hard not to get your hopes up, after however many days of being stuck here.
When the gunfire got louder and you heard the muffled shouts outside your door, satisfaction surged. That was probably your pack, coming for you.
And if it wasn’t, well… There was more than one way out of here.
You waited for a lull in the fighting, in the shouting and gunshots and chaos. And then you screeched, as loud as you could.
There. If that was your pack, they’d know it was you. If it was anybody else… You’d deal with that when you could.
The fighting and gunfire got closer, and you backed up slowly, carefully. The jingling of the fucking jesses still grated, but it was easier to ignore with the fighting outside.
There were two shots outside, two thuds. Your heart beat faster and you half-spread your wings, talons clicking against the floor.
“Found her,” came Soap’s voice from the door, and the breath whooshed out of you all at once. “Fuck,” he ground out, as angry as you’d ever heard him. “Okay, ‘s just me, sweets. Ah’m gonna take this off, yeah?” Hands fumbled with the hood for a moment before it was gone, leaving you blinking and near-blinded by the sudden brightness.
And there was Soap, clothes a little bloodied, expression torn between rage and sympathy. He spared a moment to smooth a hand over your head.
“Can ye shift?”
You clicked your beak and awkwardly held out one leg, jingling the jess still attached.
His expression immediately darkened. “Ah’ll burn the whole place,” he swore, rapidly removing one jess, then the other.
Relieved, you immediately shifted back. Your arm ached where the bullet hole had mostly healed, and you knew you probably looked a wreck. You felt a wreck, a little shaky and unsteady. But you were also determined to get the hell out.
“Give me a gun,” you rasped, throat dry.
“Ah donnae have supplies for ye,” Soap murmured apologetically, even as he unclipped his handgun and handed it to you. “Keep close.”
You nodded silently, pushing down everything else. You’d deal with everything else later.
Warm wetness on your feet made you look down as you followed Soap out of the room that had been your prison for however long. Two guards, both dead. Clean shots. Blood had pooled in the hallway. Your upper lip curled and you stepped carefully through the hall, not wanting to slip on anything.
Soap motioned you to wait as you came up to a corner, and he peeked around first. A gunshot had him jerking back.
“Counted eight,” he murmured to you. “Wait here.”
“But–” Your shoulders raised, and if you’d had feathers they would have been floofing out.
“Ye have no vest, no protection,” Soap pointed out, soft but firm. “Jus’ got ye back, sweets. Donnae ask me this.”
And you deflated again. As much as you wanted to kill every bastard in the building yourself, he had a good point. “Okay,” you agreed quietly, grip tightening briefly on your gun. “I’ll wait.”
Soap pressed a quick, hard kiss to your temple before he was gone, picking off one before he even rounded the corner. You could do nothing but listen to the chaos and wait for the all clear to move up.
A scuff behind you had you whirling, gun up. The woman stood no more than ten paces away, teeth bared, a gun in her hand.
“Well well, is this what pretty birdie looks like when she’s not a birdie?” She laughed, the sound unhinged, divorced from reality. “What a waste.”
“Don’t move.” Your voice didn’t shake. Your hands didn’t shake. But your mind… your mind quailed.
“What’s the matter, birdie? Missing your hood?” Her teeth were bloody, eyes fixed on you as she took a step closer.
You swallowed hard, breath coming faster. If you never saw a hood again it would be too soon.
“We can fix that.” She took another step forward, lifting the gun slowly, as if it was much heavier than it actually was.
You didn’t hesitate. You didn’t blink. You shot her, center mass.
She fell.
“Sweets?” Soap sounded only a little panicky.
“Clear!” You swallowed. Then again. You were a medic, yes, but this was far from the first time you’d killed. You’d hoped this would bring a little peace.
Instead you were simply numb.
“Move up!” Soap called after another minute. You obeyed wordlessly, turning your back on the corpse without another thought.
“How far?” you asked softly, stopping behind him, letting him be your shield again.
“Not much farther.” He glanced back at you, worried. “Ye alright?”
“Fine.” Your answer was short, clipped. Because you couldn’t think about being anything other than fine. “Let’s go.”
Soap hesitated a moment longer, gaze searching your face, before he nodded once, slowly. Then he moved, keeping you behind him. You kept close to him, moving as quietly as possible, ignoring the tackiness of blood drying on your skin.
He had you wait as he cleared one more room, and then the two of you met up with Gaz. Gaz breathed in sharply when he saw you but was quick to tug you to him in a hard hug, the edges of his vest and gear blunt and uncomfortable against your skin. You didn’t care, returning the hug with an edge of desperation.
“Here,” Gaz murmured, pulling spare clothes from one of his pouches. “Couldn’t bring extra gear for you, but this’ll do for now.”
You nodded, pulling the clothes on silently. They didn’t actually help you feel any better, but being with two of your pack did.
“Price and Ghost are almost done,” Gaz told Soap, tucking you between the two so you were protected. “Ready to meet up?”
“Ready.” Soap grinned, brief and vicious. “Ye’ll like this,” he promised you, taking the lead. You followed him, Gaz on your six. The building was quiet now, tension thrumming under your skin. But you kept up, swallowing back your nerves as best you could.
“All set up?” Soap asked as he stepped into a room. You followed, a little more cautious.
“All set,” Price agreed, eyes immediately finding you. A bit of tension leaked from his shoulders and he smiled, just a little. “Ready to get out of here?”
You nodded silently, but didn’t say anything. Which didn’t matter, because Ghost was in front of you in a few long strides, one hand gently cupping your cheek to tip your head.
“Injuries?” he asked softly, gaze sweeping over you.
“Just my arm.” And your feathers, but you couldn’t think about that for longer than a moment or you’d start screaming.
Ghost nodded, pulling you into his side.
“Let’s go,” Price ordered, taking point. The others kept you in the middle between them all the way out.
At a safe distance, the group of you turned. Soap waggled his eyebrows at you, grinning, before he pushed down on a detonator.
The entire building collapsed, shaking apart as explosions ripped through it. It was incredibly cathartic to see. Or, well. It probably was. You were… kind of numb.
“Here.”
You blinked slowly to find Price holding out a water to you. Your hands trembled as you took it, drinking slowly under the watchful gaze of your pack.
“It’s not far to exfil,” Gaz murmured, one hand resting on your shoulder. You leaned into the touch, breath momentarily hitching.
“Okay.” You swallowed hard and took the protein bar Price handed over, eating mechanically. You could barely taste it.
You knew this was bad, but. Not much to be done about it yet.
“You alright to walk the rest of the way?” Price asked, glancing down at your feet.
You blinked. You… couldn’t actually feel any discomfort from your feet, though you knew you should. You were standing barefoot on the ground, and it wasn’t even flat ground. “I’m fine.”
Price eyed you for a moment before he nodded. “Let’s get out of here, then,” he murmured. Contrary to his own words, he leaned in until he could press his forehead to yours, taking a moment to just breathe. Then he pulled back, once again taking point.
You followed, a little slow but moving under your own power. At least you weren’t in pain.
Yet.
The heli was waiting for you when you arrived. You shivered briefly against the wind and hurried in, buckling in with shaking hands. Soap dropped down on one side of you, Gaz on your other side. They both double checked your harness.
The flight back didn’t seem to take any time. You sat upright, tired and numb and cold, but unable to show any of that. You would eventually, you knew. You should probably warn your guys, you knew.
But you couldn’t.
The heli set down with a bump and you jolted. Two pairs of hands steadied you, Gaz and Soap both looking at you with concern.
But nobody said anything as they escorted you to medical.
You answered anything directly asked of you, quiet and stiff. The bullet hole in your arm was deemed mostly healed (it should have been more healed, really, but you hadn’t eaten enough), and otherwise you were dehydrated and bruised, but mostly unharmed.
The problem arose when one of the medics asked you to shift.
“No.” The word was only a whisper but you leaned away, hands curling into fists, muscles pulling taut.
The medic paused, eyeing you carefully. You were known to be more easy-going and cooperative, so this? Was unusual. “If you need privacy–”
“No.” It came out a little stronger this time, even as your gaze darted to the door, heart racing. No. Absolutely not.
The medic slowly leaned back, away from you. But their voice was calm as they called, “Captain?”
Price was in front of you a moment later, taking in your posture in a quick glance. He put one heavy hand on your shoulder, ducking his head to look you in the eyes for a moment. “Easy,” he murmured, frowning a little. “You done here?” He glanced back over his shoulder at the medic.
“She hasn’t shifted yet, so we’re not technically done,” the medic explained.
Price glanced down at you, and you shook your head, jaw clenched so tight your teeth ached. “Another time,” Price grunted, gently tugging you off the exam table.
The medic sighed, exasperated but unwilling to fight. “Fine. Make sure she sleeps,” they ordered, moving out of the way. “And eats.”
Price nodded, letting his hand fall from your shoulder. You tried not to focus on that, tried to focus on following him instead. But it was hard. The touch had been grounding, helpful. Helping to pull you back into yourself.
“You should get cleaned up,” Price murmured, heading back towards your quarters. “It’ll help.”
“Yeah.” You couldn’t manage more than that, couldn’t force more out. The numbness was slowly fading, leaving you aching. And tired. So very tired.
Price paused outside your door, studying you. “Do you want someone here?”
You swallowed and forced yourself to nod. You didn’t want to be alone. But you didn’t want anyone looking at you just yet, either.
Price nodded slowly, brow furrowing a little. “I’ll stay,” he rumbled, pushing your door open and ushering you through first. “Get cleaned up, dress down for the evening.”
You nodded wordlessly, slipping past him and grabbing comfortable clothes. You had a bathroom to yourself, something you were extremely grateful for, and you shut the door between yourself and your alpha. And then immediately opened it a crack, because you felt too trapped otherwise.
Hot water felt heavenly, after everything. Getting to scrub your head felt heavenly. Everything else… Well. You definitely overdid it washing yourself, scratching your skin nearly raw in places. You did make yourself bleed again, accidentally breaking open the wound in your arm.
But you finally felt clean enough for the moment and emerged, drying off and wrapping your head in a towel. That would do.
Price was still sitting on your bed when you emerged, phone in hand, though he turned his gaze to you as soon as the door opened. His gaze lingered on your skin, and you knew he was making note of everything. But he didn’t comment.
“Figured we’d go to the pack room,” he said, carefully phrasing it as an option, rather than an order. “Got Gaz and Soap bringing food.”
You nodded. “Food sounds good,” you admitted, walking over to him. You didn’t ask, just plastered yourself to his front, cheek pressed to his chest, inhaling the comforting scent of your alpha. Price hummed softly, one hand cupping the back of your head, his other settling on your back.
“Take as long as you need,” he murmured, low and soothing. “We’ll walk together, hm?”
“Yeah.” You closed your eyes, relaxing into his warmth. Just a minute. You just needed a minute. Price only held you tighter.
You finally pulled back with one last deep breath. “Okay,” you croaked. “Let’s go.”
Price didn’t object, but he did keep you close as the two of you walked to the pack room. Almost nobody was around, which worked out well, because you were starting to use your captain for help staying upright.
No sooner had you stepped into the pack room than you got swarmed. Somehow, you weren’t exactly sure how, they settled you on the couch pressed up against Simon, with Gaz and Soap chattering as they made up plates of food, and Price hovering behind you and Simon.
“Don’t ask,” you murmured to Simon, fairly sure Price could hear too. “Not yet.”
Simon hummed softly, carefully bundling you even closer to his side. “Not yet,” he agreed, about as soft as he ever got.
Gaz and Soap carried the conversation through dinner, both of them settling around you as well until you were entirely enclosed by pack. It should have made you feel better.
It didn’t.
All you could think of were the past eight days. Eight, you discovered when Soap let it slip. Eight days you’d been stuck in that hood and silence but for the jesses, treated like an animal.
It was almost enough to make you sick.
You swallowed down what you could, but ended up leaving food. It was odd - you would have thought you’d be ravenous, after the last days. But you weren’t. You were barely hungry, only ate to try to stave off their concern.
Which didn’t entirely work, from the quick looks and little touches you endured through the evening.
And then you just… settled. Let one of them take your plate when it was obvious you weren’t going to eat more, and relaxed. Simon stayed on one side of you, refusing to move. You leaned more and more into him as your eyes tried to shut, until he simply pulled you in to use his chest as a pillow. You murmured something, half complaint half thanks, and closed your eyes, the soothing sounds of your pack settling around you.
You woke to total darkness.
For a moment you couldn’t breathe, couldn’t move. If you moved you’d hear those damn bells, and there was no point because you couldn’t get anywhere, you were trapped, and your wings– your wings–
“Hey, hey, s’alright love,” Simon murmured urgently, hands patting at you. Which was when you realized you were keening, breath hitching in your chest. You still couldn’t see but you could feel your pack moving around you.
“Get the lights,” Price ordered. “Simon?”
“Not sure.” Simon put one hand over your chest. “You need to breathe.” It wasn’t until he put your hand against his chest, letting you feel the exaggerated inflation of his lungs that you realized he was talking to you.
The lights flipped on, bright and sudden, and you went limp. You were fine. You were in the pack room. You didn’t have a hood on.
“Love?” Simon leaned closer to you, eyes dark and worried.
“‘M okay,” you gasped, blinking a few times, finally settling back into reality. “Just. A minute.”
Simon didn’t move, just breathing in again. You did your best to follow along, nerves still strung taut from waking the way you did. Soap pressed up close to your side, his head resting near your hip. Your fingers curled gently in his hair, scratching lightly at his scalp to help calm yourself. Based on his pleased hum, that’s what he’d wanted in the first place.
“Better?” Price moved carefully closer, doing a quick visual check.
“Yeah.” You licked your lips, very aware of your dry throat now. “Just.” You clenched your jaw. Admitting weakness was never easy, and this was no different. “Couldn’t see.”
Soap lifted his head to look at you. “Sweets,” he started, carefully, like he was feeling for land mines. “Did they keep the hood on ye?”
You swallowed hard. “Except for when they brought me food.”
“Hood?” Gaz asked, handing over a bottle of water to you, expression mostly blank.
“And jesses,” you confirmed before taking a deep drink of water.
“We’ll make sure there’s a light on for you,” Price said, before anyone else could say anything. Which was honestly for the best - you didn’t think you could talk any more about what had happened just yet.
“You should go back to sleep,” you murmured, setting the water bottle down and scratching Soap’s scalp again. “Too early to be up.”
“Hm.” Price tipped his head, looking at you. Then he huffed softly. “Stubborn.”
You only had time to blink before he was settling back in with the rest of you, getting comfortable. The nest was big enough for all of you, because you’d made sure of that, but still.
You didn’t think anyone would manage to get back to sleep, especially with the light on. But they surprised you - Gaz snored gently against Price’s ribs, while Soap used your hip as a pillow. (He always made the oddest choices.) Price didn’t sleep, but he did close his eyes and relax.
Simon just kept you close, his steady breathing helping your own.
Your pack didn’t quite hover the next few days. They did, however, take rotating shifts making sure someone stayed with you. Simon nudged you into the pack room every night. Gaz had pulled up a nightlight from somewhere, the soft yellow light always left on now. They didn’t let you feel ashamed of it, either, though shame still tried to wiggle into your brain.
Things weren’t okay. Wouldn’t be okay for a while. But they were getting better.
Except for your wings.
You managed not to think about it most of the time, focused on staying human and getting through the worst of the aftereffects. Sure, it wasn’t conventional torture, but it was almost worse.
Things finally came to a head when the rest of the pack shifted, Gaz and Soap racing outside immediately, growling playfully at each other. Ghost followed, more placid, looking at you once over his shoulder.
Price stopped in front of you, the bear easily able to meet your gaze. You knew that if he stood up straight on his hind legs, he’d be much taller than you.
“No.” Your smile was small and tight, pained. “You go. I’m not shifting.”
His head tipped, fuzzy little ears flickering back towards the open door and back to you. He grunted softly and nosed your ribs gently.
“Okay,” you agreed. “I’ll come out for a bit.”
Satisfied, he huffed and went first, lumbering out the door. You followed him, briefly squinting against the light before you adjusted.
Gaz and Soap raced across the open space, occasionally trying to trip each other or jump over each other. Soap even got bold enough to bite Ghost’s tail and run for it, angry cat hot on his tail and gaining fast. Price found a nice sunny spot to watch and make sure they didn’t actually go overboard.
Pretty normal. Except for you. You stood stiff and still, watching them and making no effort to join. It was… too much. It wasn’t their fault, or yours. The only people responsible were dead.
None of them looked when you slipped back inside, as quietly as you could. You had one more thing you needed to do, and you needed some privacy to do it.
Your room was far enough from them that you didn’t worry about being found immediately. You carefully took off your clothes, folding them on your bed. One deep breath. Two.
You could do this. Hell, you’d been doing this since you were a child. Nothing would stop you now.
You shifted between breaths, braced for… something. But nothing happened. You didn’t immediately panic.
Okay. So far so good.
You spread your wings carefully, flapping them a few times. You could just see your reflection in the mirror. Your beak was just as sharp, your crest still upright. Bits of downy feathers stuck up from a lack of preening, but you ignored the vague feeling of wrongness. You had something more important to fix.
Your primaries had all been cut on your right wing. Not just some of them. All of them. It would take months for them to molt on their own. Months of being grounded, being flightless, being useless.
The soft, mournful sound ripped free from your throat, and you flapped again. You could hop, maybe get a bit of air. But you couldn’t fly, not like this.
Unless…
No. No, that was a terrible idea.
Except that it wasn’t, really, a terrible idea. The longer you stood there, head tipped, staring at your clipped feathers in the mirror, the more sense it made.
One last deep breath in and you dipped your head, tipping your wing to make it easier. It took a little shuffling and a little preening to get the right feather in your beak.
The first one came out cleanly, a few drips of blood accompanying it. You dropped the shaft to the floor, not giving yourself time to really feel the pain. You just did it again. And again. And again.
Until the floor was littered with blood and snipped feathers, the red stark on the black and white banded feathers. Your wing burned and ached, throbbing in time with your heart, and your chest heaved with your panting, beak open. You felt almost dizzy with it, mind gone blank.
“Sweets?” The panicked yell made you blink and cheep softly, though you didn’t move yet. Your door was unlocked. “Sweets, I smell blood.” Gaz hit the door a moment later, nearly tumbling inside when the door opened easily. He froze when he spotted you, anguish twisting his features. “Oh, Sweets, what did you do?”
You chirped at him, turning carefully, keeping your right wing flared.
Gaz knelt in front of you, ducking down to examine where you’d pulled out your feathers. “Doesn’t look like you’re still bleeding,” he murmured, almost absently preening your feathers. “But why–?”
You chirped at him and picked up one of the feathers by the shaft, showing him the cut end.
“Cut?” He frowned, gaze darting between you and the small pile of feathers, before realization hit. He swallowed hard, rage like a dark thundercloud. “But why pull them?”
You chirped softly, dropping the feather and hopping closer to him. You were not designed for flat floors, dammit, you were designed for trees!
“Do you wanna shift?” Gaz asked, frowning a little at you.
You shook yourself. Now that you’d shifted, you actually felt a little better. Still kind of awful, because you couldn’t fly, but you didn’t feel quite as raw.
He huffed. “Course not,” he agreed with a wry smile. “Can I help you preen?”
You chirped softly again, ducking your head under his hand. He took it as permission, which it was, and began combing through your feathers gently.
“Gonna have to talk to one of us eventually,” he murmured, hands gentle over your injured wing. “Can’t put it off forever.”
You clicked your beak at him and stretched, gently preening his hair. He huffed but allowed it, muttering something about you being a menace.
Gaz ended up letting you perch on his arm as he walked back to the pack room. Price huffed at your wing, gently pulling it to get a better look.
“Did you do this or did they?” His voice was calm, but you knew your alpha. He was not calm.
You chirped softly, looking to Gaz to answer for you.
“She pulled ‘em, but they were clipped.”
“Ah.” Price blew out a breath, fingers gentle as he checked your secondaries. “Force ‘em to come in sooner?”
You chirped a soft affirmative.
“Gonna need to eat more, then.” The look he gave you told you this was not an argument you would win. So you didn’t fight.
You let them take care of you and fuss (not too much), and you just worked on being better.
It took time, but the worst of the nightmares faded. Pitch black still bothered you but it was manageable, rather than panic attack inducing every time.
Things got better.
Your feathers still hadn’t come in yet, but you could be patient a little while longer. You could feel the itch where they were forming and growing. Good enough.
Your first op was supposed to be an easy one. Well. As easy as anything the 141 took on.
You, Price, and Gaz were clearing one building while Soap and Ghost cleared another. It was… not easy, but routine.
Until you stumbled over one man Gaz missed.
The man was in the back of the room, laying low. You probably wouldn’t have spotted him except a bit of light fell right on a very familiar feather. The black and white banding could, hypothetically, have been from any number of birds.
But you knew.
An angry snarl twisted your lips, and you stepped intentionally into the room, barely remembering to call to Price over your shoulder, gaze locked on your target. Your gun was steady on him.
He watched you right back, one hand reaching for a weapon from a fallen comrade in a way he probably thought was stealthy.
The bullet you planted between him and the weapon disabused him of that notion.
“Where did you get that feather?” you asked, voice low and growly. If you weren’t so focused, it would have startled you to hear how furious you sounded.
He looked up at you and grinned, front two teeth missing. You jerked back, body recalling more vividly than your mind the sudden darkness that had followed that grin.
“Easy,” Price murmured from behind you, just to the side. Close enough to support you and take the shot if you needed, but giving you space to do it yourself.
You breathed in deep. And shot him. For many reasons, including not leaving an enemy alive at your back.
But bending down to pull your feather from his shirt was just for you.
“You broken?” Price watched you, giving you space still. Letting you decide.
You tucked the feather in your vest and smiled. “Not today.” You nudged him, tipping your head to rest against his shoulder for just a moment, before you started walking again. “If we finish up before Soap, he promised he’d buy cookies.”
Price’s chuckle followed you out of the room. Gaz called over comms that the building was clear, and Soap started swearing. He and Gaz went back and forth on the matter of the cookies, easy bickering in the middle of everything else.
You just laughed, knowing your pack had you. Always.
#hih reblog#this was so good omg 😭😭#also I noticed we both have the rebobble tag which is the craziest coincidence kek#had it since I made this blog so I was Spider-Man meme when I saw it lol
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oh my g
youre getting *really* good at this, aren't you? you're just watching me unravel like a kitten plays with a ball of yarn. you know, don't you? i bet i've been found out and you're just prolonging the chase to make me just suffer under your sneakily keen attention to detail.
i can't say i dont like it. im so flustered right now you dont even know.
(detective dirk pony pals LARP session is so real.)
— shy anon
Who knows? ;) the only way you can verify whether that is or is not what I’m doing is by coming out yourself.
Also, new bullet points:
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#dirk.man#shy anon#I think I have a pretty good guess as to your identity#but honestly I’m also a bit anxious to say anything to the blog which I think you run because if I’m wrong#that’d be exceedingly embarrassing#also fuck yeah Pony Pals!! I used to love those books kek
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ur artstyle is actually so fucking shit kek. it makes me so angry every time I see it. go learn some fucking art lessons before you make a blog next time.
FIRST HATE ASK!
Does this mean I’m a Official blog now tehe
#bestie why you keep seeing my stuff#that’s called algorithm :3!#clangen#clangen oc#clangen blog#not a comic#not art#first hate comment! yaaay!#yipeeee
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Mizumachi laughs in tandem, as he was always the sort to laugh along with others, even if he didn’t always know what they were laughing at. Just a team player who wants to join in on the fun!
“I guess so! Thinking uses up a lot of calories.”
Brain food, or whatever they call it, yeah? His body needed a lot of calories for his active lifestyle for one, but it also had to work extra hard in thinking a bunch for classes! There was that extra layer of difficulty because he had to attend classes being taught in another language.
“Hmmm… what am I craving…burgers? I’m good with anything though!”
He thinks about it and feels his mouth watering. He can’t help but crave his go-to convenient meal for whenever you’re super hungry. Burgers. A ton of burgers and fries! It’s a technique he learned a while back, but dipping fries into a shake is a God-tier combination!
“I eat a lot you know? Since you’ve been a good girl, that means it’ll be my treat too! Haha!”
Being the simple sort he was, and some nuances not translating over quite as nicely, he didn’t think much of it, being called a ‘good boy.’ As such, he didn’t see an issue with returning the favor by calling her a ‘good girl’ either. Well, even if he did understand, he wouldn’t have been bothered by it anyways. Guys have perverted conversations with each other from time to time, so it wouldn’t have upset him in any way- but he might have been surprised? That would’ve been the extent of it.
As soon as Mizumachi admits he's hungry, she's quick to burst out laughing with her hand hovering over her mouth... not in a necessarily mean-spirited way, of course, but the way someone would laugh when a comedian managed to land a very brilliant joke. Honestly, it might not have been the funniest thing he could ever have said in this situation, but there was just something so amusing about how they talked so animatedly about food moments prior, only to just now mention grabbing a bite to eat, that made her cheeks naturally elevate upwards as mirth dances through her bespectacled vision.
"All that hypothesizing sure stoked your appetite, huh?" Vivian finally brings herself to remark once she finishes laughing and lowering her hand back down against her side. Granted, it was actually her fault for daring to first broach the topic of which protein they'll forsake in the first place, yet at the same time, she couldn't bring herself to express guilt over making Mizumachi suddenly want food. "But sure! Was there anything you've been particularly craving? Of course, since you've been a very good boy, it'll naturally be my treat!" Vivian proclaims.
Considering this was her, however, she didn't realize right off the bat calling him a 'good boy' had an unfortunately... sexually charged implication; still, she wasn't lying about at least appreciating the fact he had answered her question so earnestly. Why, most probably wouldn't indulge such a chatterbox like her, but Mizumachi didn't seem to mind how loquacious she was, which was definitely what sets him apart from the types she usually disliked engaging with.
#Unladielike#(Vivian03)#RPans#((Muse; Mizumachi))#Mizuqueue#((Yeahh I so felt that. I get easily overwhelmed and drained so I just take it slow and am content with things as they are))#((If I want more stuff I’ll either try to branch out or I’ll find other ways to write out ideas like drabbles))#((I’m not often on this blog so I tend to miss a lot of stuff and that’s the nature of not being main blogs ig kek))#((Sideblogs are nice in that way bc then everything is connected to one blog but it also gets overwhelming quick))#((That is something that I’ve noticed that people do and I’m like you I don’t reblog until I’m caught up or will be soon))#((It’s just my way to ensure I don’t go too crazy but everyone is different))#((I know some people reblog a lot because it is a way for them to gauge if people still care to interact with them))#((I just couldn’t do it myself partially because I’m not so big on memes myself. I’m very picky with them))
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