#Just needed a lil vent

[bohemianblasphemy]

i am absolutely exhausted ))):

i’m working so hard at work and i’ve gotta get through these last two weeks before i finish up, but i am t i r e d.

but on the flip side, i will be having a month long break in september- so i will be trying to write as much as i can before i start my course in person!!!

i am keen but terrified bc of change but i know that it will be worth it :))))

[papapastoral]

It's a one of those days day. my tongue is numb from biting on it, my throat is sore from choking back words, my neck aches from keeping my head down. I am always the strong one, but today I need to curl up with my head in someone's lap and feel taken care of for a change. I am weary, my loves.

[glowstick-knees]

Today is scaring me. I havnt felt this shitty in a hot sec and as a chronically ill person that’s saying something. I have a babysitting gig tomorrow but idk if I can make it. But at the same time, what if I’m overreacting and I’m fine tomorrow? I’ve been wrong before. I don’t want to flake out last minute if it’s just my anxiety. But I feel like shit. Just so tired. All my joints are sore, my ankles and my wrists especially, every time I stand up I get lightheaded, but when I lay down it’s hard to breath. I’m tired man

[gaminegay]

"someone somewhere needs help with something and I'm not there to fix it, this makes me guilty of Bad Person disease" <- stupid thought I really need to stop having

[ineffablefool]

gahhhh the last few weeks I have been starving for fics or art where Aziraphale is clearly, legitimately fat (with adoring attention paid to his physical features which are associated with said fatness) and also clearly, legitimately loved ("desired" would be okay but oh give me cherished, give me treasured and held dear and, again, adored)

and I know that this is one of those things where I should just be the change I want to see in the world, but the last few weeks I have also been [flops face-first onto bed and doesn't move for 45 minutes], so clearly that is not happening

[beevean]

After a whole bunch of nothing, IDW finally gave me meat to chew.

Where do I begin here?

Tangle is scared of what Lanolin might do if she discovers that the hated Phantom Rider is Sonic. On one hand, it's laughable how Tangle could even be remotely concerned: Sonic vs. Lanolin would be like Hydrogen Bomb vs. Coughing Baby. On the other, though, it's very telling that Lanolin has created a climate of terror around her, and her friends are intimidated by her anger that she has expressed multiple times by now.

(in fact, this is the reason I feel nothing at the panel of Lanolin venting her frustration on a punching bad with a furious look on her face. Lanolin's singular emotion is anger and disdain at the whole world. I bet she did the same thing when Tangle played with her paddle ball too much.)

And then Whisper casually admits that she can't trust herself anymore, after the incident with Silver. This girl was a one-woman army so competent even Silver gushed about her, determined enough to pursue Mimic in a revenge quest... and both him and Lanolin reduced her to an insecure, gaslighted wreck who can only rely on Tangle like she's her handler and not her gf. She has become the 🥺 widdle bapygirl who can't do nothing right if Tangle isn't there to hug her and tell her she's not alone 🥺

(btw, shout out to the panel where they hug all happy and wholesome, because yay ship tease)

At this point I think this panel

was a deliberate treat. Because it's beautiful. Look at IDW Sonic doing his only heroic action in the whole comic <3

But man. I didn't even touch on Surge somehow deciding that she has to earn admiration from people, which is proof Stanley is deadset on woobifying her, previous characterization and motivations be damned. (seriously why would she care about deserving admiration, when the general audience is freely giving her all the attention she apparently craves? Who installed morals in her brain?)

But whatever. I just feel bad for Whisper now. Someone save her from this mess.

[owl-bones]

people will say clothes have no gender until they see a guy in a dress and then they can't help but misgender him

[thechurchofsplatterdaysaints]

Getting older and losing your shit is no fucking joke. Called mom today to do my normal monthly reminders (bills on auto-pay, don't write any checks) and discovered that she has lost her last set of checks, had no way to pay rent and didn't bother telling me.

Further upsetting was she assumed she'd walk all over her shithole town doing it herself when she has major mobility issues due to arthritic knees and is physically incapable of the task. I GUESS SHE JUST FORGOT THAT SHE'S IN PAIN EVERY SINGLE DAY.

Jfc guys. It's hard dealing with an elderly parent who doesn't seem to remember that they're elderly. also who's crazy. also that basically ruined your life by having you but WTF WE'RE IN IT NOW.

*sucking on barrel in the decidedly unsexy way*

Truthfully. It's all good. I'll pay her rent electronically. They have some bs way they wrangle and measure her water usage that can alter rent cost. God forbid she get too much of that delicious Ohio River/East Palestine chemical spill w/out paying her fair share.

Taking a few well-deserved hits and then getting pretty for IN A VIOLENT NATURE and uncontrollable laughter. MMA likely. Drinks definitely. Hits obviously.

Hey! Tomorrow is THE BIG BIRTHDAY GRIND for @skullgrind!! Make sure you fuckers tip your cap to my man or else you'll have to answer to me and NO ONE WANTS THAT.

Funny that he mentioned starting THE GRIND 24 years ago because it was exactly 24 years ago when he & I chewed the same dirt in the shit pit. THE SWARM. MICHIGANFEST 2000. Look at us now. Aww.

[pinayelf]

I love davrin and biyaya so much but I honestly feel kinda lonely enjoying them

[yesloulou]

[dreamdripdistance]

im genuinely amazed at how much ive drawn over the past few months just because of in stars and time, and also like. in my own opinion, the amount ive improved? it pushed me to be more accurate with my anatomy and drafting because i wanna make cool stuff so i cant be lazy lol. it also gave me an excuse to draw subjects that i Like to draw but was too shy to. bc Too Sad. but that doesnt matter when the game thematically supports it LOL

though. i Have forgotten how to colour things HAHAHA

[allowed-to-take-up-space]

Something I've been thinking about a lot is the way my father would critique and stereotype every single person he saw, yet still insist he wasn't judgmental.

We are in the car, my dad driving, me in the passenger seat. I am a child, maybe 11 years old. My father points at the girl standing on the corner, waiting for the light to change. "Yikes. Good thing she's out walking. Looks like she needs it. Bet she's hoping she'll fit into the outfit she's wearing someday."

"Dad, that's not a nice thing to say about someone."

"It's fine. She can't hear me. I would never say something like that to someone's face. You know, MY dad was homophobic and racist, so at least I'm better than that."

Maybe that girl on the corner didn't hear my father. But I did. And I've never forgotten it. Or the time I finally admitted to him - after YEARS of being a suicidal teen - that I was extremely depressed, and he told me I was one of those kids making shit up for attention, because HE had been in a car crash at one point and experienced REAL depression.

And yet I always ponder, now, how I could possibly be so insecure. Why I cannot just accept myself and move forward. Why I look at myself in the mirror with disgust.

It's HIS voice that echoes in my head. It's HIS nasty remarks that I remember. It's HIS judgmental opinions that I have to rid from my brain, every single time they pop up, because I KNOW better.

Even though I haven't spoken to my dad in several years now, the way he treated myself and others invades my mind constantly. His negativity has shaped so much of me - of my LIFE - and last time we DID speak, he still refused to take any accountability for the multitude of ways in which he hurt me (this specific topic not even covering 1/10 of the ways in which he did).

Furthermore, this makes me think about all the people who utter "harmless comments" about others when they don't think someone who might be hurt by that is listening. I've been privy to many conversations that have left me feeling hollow, without the folks making those judgmental comments realizing that what they've said applies to me. And I don't often feel safe enough to stand up for myself.

I wish folks could realize that openly passing heinous judgment on strangers is a gateway to passing judgment on people you care about.

"I would never say something like that to someone's face."

You said it to mine.

[fictionalred]

I love the sport and all but this weekly get together with Certain Friend for badminton is something I'm starting to regret a tiny bit. She's very heavy on the social front. Normally there's always other friends around to deflect her energy, but now it's one day a week of just me. And it's ... taxing.

[kaiserkisser]

today is such a stark contrast to yesterday in how much i fucking hate today (vent/rant in tags bc i forgor to do it on my vent one)

[lyss-butterscotch]

I wish i can force my brain to focus on certain things. I have important things i have to finish but its so easy to get distracted and procrasinate and i end up not being able to focus on either.

[savage-rhi]

Magneta