#Just enjoy it

[bodega-catto]

[nonotoff]

May not feel sexual/romantic attraction but that doesn’t mean we don’t exist

[ankarnaofjustice]

Youre the only correct person about fhjy in my eyes thank you

thank you i think so too

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

You did NOT just say that about my girl Annabeth!

[evilcokito]

Mud for Leona? (Palette challenge)🐇

LEONA KINGSCHOLAR x A CURIOUS BUNNY x MUD

Color Palette Challenge from THIS POST! -> Any twst character is allowed

[naranjapetrificada]

This is going to be long so the short version is this:

I convinced my therapist to watch the 🌟Gay Pirate Show🌟 and now I have to confront a previously unidentified and terrifyingly deep emotional wound that could be as transformative to heal as it is terrifying to approach.

My therapist and I have a lot of let's say...demographic things in common that have made this the most successful therapeutic relationship I've ever had, but also that just made me think he might like the show. It's no secret that ofmd has been a deeply moving experience for its viewers, and queer, neurodivergent, and/or people of color have written at length about the special ways it touches us (or doesn't). Those are three categories both he and I fit into and it feels relevant to say that for context.

So yes I thought he might like it, but I also wanted to pick his brain about Big Feelings it was giving me that I hadn't experienced with the same intensity with other media/fandoms. Y'all, he gave me a completely unexpected reading on the show (and its story and its fan works) and why it makes us feel So Much that I haven't seen anywhere before.

When I say Big Feelings, I mean like I've literally had to swear off a couple of pretty innocuous categories on AO3 ("Growing Old Together" and "Domestic Fluff") because they would devastate me in ways that I couldn't attribute to anything specific. Growing Old Together comes with the possibility of death separating them, which is heartbreaking, but that didn't feel like it was the thing that was gutting me. Domestic Fluff could probably be called the most innocuous tag ever, but anything that saw our blorbos settling down and watching the Revenge sail off into the distance was fucking me up as well.

There are plenty of reasons why OFMD makes queer people feel so much, but when I say this was fucking me up I mean like, well, remember when people outside of classical music started learning about appoggiatura? Like intellectually knowing why I was crying but at a loss how intense everything felt. And my therapist (who is as good at analyzing a text as he is at being a therapist) was like "oh, it could be all the grief."

The grief.

The audacity of this motherfucker (affectionate).

It's a romcom! It's a romcom that we were explicitly told would have a happy ending! It's a romcom where the characters will get to sail off into the sunset together like they want and like we want for them! Stede and Ed, after four decades of self-hatred and trauma and fear and isolation, somehow find each other. And one of the sweetest things about their story is that it's a late in life love story, because it's incredibly inspiring for someone to get to experience a part of life they thought wasn't for them. The inescapable fact that their time together will be shorter than any of us would like is sad but not unaccountably sad to me, because of how much joy they'll be able to cram into the time they have left. I could be wrong but I don't think that alone is the source of what's been overwhelming me.

Grief is a constant presence in the world-building and the storytelling because grief is a natural response to well, so many things about being alive. Grieving is some of the hardest shit any of us ever have to do, but it's also so universal and so many of the things that make us uniquely human also make grieving well, maybe not easier, but something we can endure and process through ritual, community, and the example of those we've witnessed grieving their own losses. Many kinds of grief come with narratives that you can accept or reject all or parts of, but the narrative exists.

But have you ever heard of disenfranchised loss? Loss that's not easily labeled or classified or given the time or space or understanding it deserves? Have you experienced a loss like that? Can you imagine how much more difficult it makes the grieving process?

Well what my therapist suggested, the thing that knocked me on my ass hard enough that I had to come have Online Feelings about it, is that eventually, we all have to mourn ourselves. Not necessarily in a "mortality is inevitable" way (that happens to everyone) but in ways that are often unique to people like him and me (black, ND, queer). Even if we work on ourselves, if we grow and heal our trauma and feel at home in our identities and our bodies and build beautiful lives, eventually we will be forced to mourn the selves that we never got to be in the societies in which we live and the selves we once had to become to survive this long.

And that mourning is a kind of disenfranchised loss, with no clear path forward. Obviously this conversation happened within the context of everything my therapist knows about me as an individual, but I thought certain things might resonate with other fans as well so I wanted to talk about it. The story of this bizarre little man and his remarkable second act and his lovely little found family and his incredibly beautiful love story (that we've been guaranteed will end happily) is still haunted by the specific kind of grief that comes from learning what's possible, and regretting that you didn't know it was possible sooner.

And does anybody have more delayed milestones, later-in-life discoveries, and/or need to invent places for themselves than those of us on the social fringes? Than those of us in societies unequipped for (or actively hostile to) the ways we exist and the things we need to survive and thrive? Than those of us who have to create our own narratives or be saddled with inaccurate or harmful narratives created by others, or even no narrative at all?

And narrative is so much. Narrative is everything. Narrative is the story we tell ourselves and each other and that literally shapes our reality. So those story beats where we discover something better than what came before are inherently stories with loss and will require mourning, because we mourn loss.

Even when the story has a happy ending. Especially when the story has a happy ending for someone who never thought they would be allowed to have one.

I mean just like, FUCKING HELL. I can't blame anyone for this but myself. I know my therapist. I know how insightful he can be. I did this to myself and now I have to live with it. But my god is it a massive mountain I'm about to have to climb now. My therapist and I have always found it helpful to discuss media that makes me Feel Things (see all the trauma work that came from Life is Strange) but if you had told me that I'd be looking into this new dark cave of unprocessed shit thanks to what I thought was just gonna be a harmless little gay pirate show starring fucking Murray from Flight of the Concords I would probably just have assumed you were in the middle of having a stroke and taken off to get you the medical attention you desperately needed.

[nescavaneckdaily]

Hello my dearest loves 🥰🩷... Its me again, 😋 and I just wanted to share this with y'all, just a little 'I hope you have an epic day, and if ya don't, I hope this makes you smile' 🥰🩷

Okayz that's all enjoy 😋

@k-slla @jackles010378 @cevansbaby-dove @cutedisneygrl @impala-dreamer @angelbabyyy99 @hobby27 @deanscherrypie69 @deans-spinster-witch 🩷

[mellonyheart]

[kai-teaarts]

I drew a group picture of some characters of mine! I love how it turned out.

This is one of the sketches, just the one I have saved to my phone rn lol.

And here is the final piece! I may go back and add things or touch it up again but for now it's done lmao.

Characters also belong to @wrathfullightning (sorry for the ping)

[awii-lyn]

Just a few doodles that I made thanks to @dmoondream who told me about the prompt of "The artist and the one who loves his drawings"

[loki-ofasgard]

Thank goodness for Tumblr. I was on Facebook for a hot minute and saw the comments on a Wild Blue Yonder post about the mavity joke. The absolute MISERY, with people whinging about Isaac Newton not being white (like it matters one whit), about the Doctor not being straight (have you even watched a single episode before?), that the episode was terrible etc etc etc. Regular social media is exhausting. I just want to enjoy things I love with other people who love them too, without the constant complaining from 'fans', is that so much to ask? What has happened over the years that not a single new episode of a TV show can come out without the comments on every post about it being flooded with hate and misery?

[meggie-artist]

Meet the artist!!

(drawing made on April 7..)

Yes.. I should have done this a long time ago..

Well, I finally (probably already 2 months ago) downloaded Tumblr because this application interested me this year... I will draw drawings, sketches and sometimes gore drawings here.. (I will warn about my gore drawings..)

[janesurlife]

Bro the comments are hilarious 🤣🤣

[xyleiploxx]

Emperor Maximus in a playboy, bunnyboy, and a bunnysuit.

This is not original you'll know who's original of bunnysuit art.

Idk I'm lazy to put names of the original.

[eunicethestarvingartist]

i was having a random burst