#JULES KNOWS WHY (MAYBE) LOL

[colinoeyebrows]

A random Dark!Hook reaction gif for @cocohook38

[cheriboms]

doctober day 23: nostalgia

fact: doc has a saxophone in his garage in both 1955 and 1985, with seemingly no ties to his scientific pursuits. hypothesis: theres some sentimental reason, maybe he played (plays?) it as a hobby since and/or prior to 1955...? conclusion: they def had at least one jam session

[[ proof of my claims >:0 ]]

[yumeka-sxf]

After what seemed like an eternity, we're finally having another Yor/Garden arc! And even though it's only been one chapter, so many major reveals have already happened...

First off, it's revealed that the SSS has been working with Garden, seemingly giving them undercover jobs on behalf of the prime minister. I always thought that Garden could potentially be one of the SSS's targets, similar to WISE, since both Garden and WISE are doing their own form of shady dealings without government authority. But this reveal completely changes that...now we know that the already corrupt SSS and government have a working relationship with Garden to do their secret dirty work.

This makes my previous thoughts from chapter 114 about a potential Briar sibling reveal even more intense, since now we know that the two organizations work together and intermingle on a somewhat regular basis. It doesn't seem like Wilker knows that Yor is part of Garden, since the assassins' identities are kept a secret, but a chance encounter with Yuri definitely seems more likely now! I wonder if lower ranking SSS members like Yuri know about the boss's dealings with Garden.

We also learn a lot more about Shopkeeper in this chapter. He appears to be someone who treasures the "old ways" of the country. He speaks fondly about the 16th century mansion that Garden has their meetings in and seems exasperated by all the East-West friction happening in the current times. He makes it clear to Wilker that Garden's main purpose is to protect the nation, not do whatever petty job a politician gives them. He rejects a job to interfere with a soccer match against the West, but eagerly takes on Wilker's other job that involves what Shopkeeper calls "imperial lands," and the deer they're told to protect "divine beings." So yeah, it's pretty clear he values tradition and the past culture of the nation, which is a good thing to know about a character who's been shrouded in mystery for so long.

Another thing we learn is that Belle, the seal from chapter 103, also has a connection with the SSS and prime minister. The way Wilker talks about her to Shopkeeper gave me the impression that they had spoke about the topic before, so maybe Garden was involved too? When does the corruption end, lol.

And the other big reveal in this chapter is...new Garden members!

There's Gympie (who appears to be an actual child and my first thought upon seeing him was "I don't remember this kid from among Naruto's classmates" 👀) and Hemlock, who has some kind of antagonism with Yor. Another member, Thistle, is mentioned though doesn't actually appear. It's interesting how all the Garden members' names are related to plants somehow. Guess it makes sense for an organization called "Garden" 😅

By the way, in case anyone is wondering, Hemlock is a man. I wasn't sure at first, but he uses the male pronoun "ore" in the Japanese version.

Also undefeated assassin Yor being afraid of bugs but not a ladybug...guess we all have things we're weak to even if it doesn't always match our skills 😂

Good call here from jules about Mitera being the same place where Damian and friends did their treasure hunting in chapter 104. Could Yor's mission somehow lead to more Anya backstory on top of everything else?!

But out of everything that happened in this chapter, Hemlock intrigues me the most - I wonder why he has such a thing against Yor, and why Shopkeeper had to specifically remind him that they're supposed to protect the deer and not harm them. I look forward to learning what his deal is in the coming chapters. Perhaps some backstory about him and Yor in their early days at Garden? And of course, having Yor do a job with a male coworker who seems to be close to her age, even one who doesn't like her, opens up the potential for jealous Loid maybe? Not likely since I doubt Yor or Hemlock would allow themselves to be seen by anyone on their job...but it's nice to dream 😅 Regardless, I haven't been this excited for the next new chapter in a long time! Cruise Arc 2025, let's go!!!

[lovelyflora21]

I hate everyone else in the world (but you)

Summary: Drunk and in pain, Leon had an affinity for saying things he might not have meant to. Twice he did so. One was able to offer solace and comfort, the other the opposite. 

Pairing: Leon S Kennedy x Fem!Reader

Tags: TW! Alcohol abuse, slight mentions of PTSD, depression. Angst. Hurt. 

A/n: Hello! So this is my first attempt at writing again after such a long ass hiatus and break! This is also my very first (and hopefully not the last) attempt on writing a fic for Leon lol, this one’s gonna be a bit angsty! I wrote this with Vendetta!Leon and DI!Leon in mind, inspired by that one TikTok audio from Euphoria’s Rue and Jules’ scene and her infamous quote with TV Girl’s Not Allowed, playing in the background. 

Hopefully you guys will like this one as much as I like writing it! Enjoy!

Wc: 1.5k

I hate everyone else in the world but you…

Was what Leon had drunkenly told her once. So lost in his drunken stupor that he’d blurted out those words in a brief moment of vulnerability and honesty. He might’ve as well said those three words instead. But it was the truth, and Leon S Kennedy was no liar. He was never good with lies anyways, why try now? And in response, she simply gave him that God-forsaken half smile of hers. Leon remembered vividly, despite being shit-faced drunk, how she simply shook her head then helped him off the couch to clean up. 

I know. She whispered, more like to herself than to him. Then everything else after that was a blur. 

It was sort of a routine. After that particular nightmare of a mission, Leon would drown himself in endless bottles of Jack Daniels or whatever alcoholic beverage he could lay his hands on. He was pretty much banned from the local bar he’d frequented so often, and no for the record, it wasn’t because he’d start up unnecessary shit–no. It was because of how much he’d drunk; to the point that the bartenders and keepers made it a point that they were concerned with the amount of alcohol he’d swallow in one seating. 

Concerned. Leon finds it rather funny and ironic, in a way that; bars made money from selling alcohol to anyone who would be drinking them and yet here he was, getting banned all because they were concerned with him? He was a regular, he didn’t mind burning his money on alcohol! They should have been grateful! He was a regular, a paying one at that and he doesn’t start up shit! They were making money! And yet, he got banned anyway. 

In reality, concerned was an understatement…

So he figured, what the hell right? He’s just gonna find an alternative, buy some from the local bodega or some shit and get shit-faced drunk in the comforts of his somber and dark, shitty apartment. 

The apartment was fine before all this, decorated it minimalistically so he didn’t have too much stuff piling up and it wouldn’t be too much of a hassle for him to look after; but after the–after it happened, he just didn’t care enough to look after the damn place. Hell, he barely looked after himself. Leon was barely even showering. He’d shower once every two or three days, and didn't even care at all if people were giving him weird and funny looks for how disheveled he looked. Leon used to be pretty active and social, he would go for a light jog every morning before work or in the evenings after work, then shower and have dinner or maybe go on dates with her. But now? Now, his routine consisted of waking up in the middle of the day, eat whatever leftover was in the fridge, go back to sleep, wake up again then get so drunk he could barely remember anything then pass out on the couch then wake up with the worst hangover and repeat the same damned thing all over again. Rinse and repeat. Rinse and repeat. 

It wasn’t helping him at all that the DSO was putting him on a temporary break too. He’d honestly much prefer to be sitting on his desk working on reports than rotting and wasting away like this. 

But then she caught wind of this. This revelation. That the great, brave and strong Leon S Kennedy; the renowned agent that helped rescue the President’s Daughter and formed the DSO, has now become lessened to that of a drunk alcoholic. So jaded and bitter with the loss of his–no, no, he became jaded after, after…after it happened. That he resorted to alcohol rather than face his issues head on. Rather than see a shrink and work on it.

So the first time she came back around, it wasn’t easy. To have her, his muse, his flower, the only innocent and untouched being in his life, sees him this messed up and broken. He lashed out at her at first, then he broke down. For the first time. For the first time in what felt like forever, he was finally able to cry. 

It’s okay, cry it out, let it all out. I’m here. Nothing’s gonna hurt you. I’m not letting you go. I got you. 

Then he looked into her eyes and said it. 

I hate everyone else in the world but you…

And the rest was history.

Then it was another new routine for him. She was always there, looking after him…looking after the place. Made sure he was eating, made sure he’d get cleaned up, made sure he was sleeping properly. 

But he still couldn’t get over his drinking problems. Not anytime soon it seems…

Other people would have already abandoned him by now. Said it was all in vain, said he’d destroy her before he could ever get better. But she, she never gave up on him. 

Until one night…

Leon had promised her, for a day, he wouldn’t touch anything that has alcohol in it and he’d finally go to therapy. It was paid and provided for by the DSO, as they should be. But he didn’t…

He never attended that one session (or the sessions before and after, she should’ve known better), instead that afternoon he went to the nearest bodega and got himself bottles of Jack Daniels. Then he went back home and got shit-faced drunk. Again. Like always. 

And when she came over later in the evening, after she got off work; she was furious. More disappointed than furious, really. To find out that he didn’t go to therapy and he was drunk.

Then it was some back and forth arguing and Leon said some things he didn’t mean to. 

Typical of a drunk, how typical of Leon.

See, the thing is, she was one to believe that; whatever came out from someone’s mouth whenever they were drunk meant that it was the raw and most unfiltered truth they wish they could’ve said out loud sober.

So when Leon said, “What is this now, you think you could nurse me back to the old Leon?! You thought out of all the people in this whole goddamn world, you could be the one to save me from being, from being this?! I tell you what sweetheart, you never cared about me, what you do have is a savior complex!” 

It had been even uncharacteristic of Leon to say those things. And out of all the people he knew, towards her, too. 

Cruel would be an understatement. 

Leon wished he had stopped at that. Wished he had stopped and apologized to her after, but nope. He didn’t. Instead, when he saw her tear-filled eyes and her pursed lips, he went and sprinkle some salt on her wound. 

“What now, you gonna cry and run away? Gonna cut me off too like how you cut off your other friends and exes? Right, you do. Because that’s what you always do! Run away and cut off everyone whoever said an ounce of truth to you, not wronged you–no, the truth!”

Then there was silence, save for his hard and heavy breathing that filled the space. 

Leon remembers and forgets a lot of things. This is one that he’d hate to remember and unable to forget.

He remembered the way she stepped back, looked into his eyes and said it. 

I hate you. 

Then she disappeared from his apartment and disappeared from his life as well, after making it clear that she was done.

He tried reaching out to her, that very same night. Then the days that followed after, the weeks after. After Colorado. After New York. 

She disappeared. Just like that. 

So Leon gave up on looking for her. 

And after a year, he thought he’d already forgotten about her completely. Thought he’d moved on.

He thought, after going to therapy, talking to his friends more and avoiding alcohol as much as possible; he’d finally move past that night. Move past her.

But it seemed he was wrong. 

So when Leon was strolling down the streets of San Francisco during his free time, before his supposed mission–and he thought he’d heard a familiar voice, he couldn’t help but to look towards the source of that angelic voice. Could it be…?

And there she was. Gorgeous as always. Beautiful and bright, warm like the morning’s first ray of sunshine. A basket of flowers and groceries hung on her elbow. 

So she did move away. That’d explain a lot. 

Leon’s body had a mind of its own, approaching her before he could even process everything. 

Hey there.

And suddenly everything came flooding back to him.

I hate everyone else in the world but you

But you, you who I’ve hurt so much more than anyone else in the world. 

You who didn’t deserve the pain I had inflicted upon you. It was unfair. And I am so so so sorry. Wish I could take it all back. You didn’t deserve it. And then there was silence between him and her. Two birds, once of the same feather; and now? Now on opposite ends.

[sdmnpact]

˗ˏˋHow Harry met Y/N ˎˊ˗

Part 3

Friday [9:27 am] ~

I just got out of the shower and now I have to find an outfit to wear for my day with Harry. I'm not sure whether it's a date or just a hangout. We just met so if it's a date, okay but if it's just to hangout then maybe he just wants to get to know me more...

~~~

I put on my jacket on and rubbed Leroy's head as he rubbed himself on my leg. My phone pinged and I checked who it was

Jules: [10:58] Are you with him yet? How's it going?

Y/N: [10:59] ITS BARELY 11!! He hasn't arrived yet 😭

Jules: [10:59] well I just wanted to check in just in case, make sure to wear protection!! Give me all the details afterward!!

Y/N: [11:00] Jules!! I'm not gonna put on on the first date! I'm not even sure if this is a date. Like I told you, he's a fine ass man but maybe he just wants to be friends first...

Jules: [11:02] girl you're hot as fuck, he is definitely taking you out on a date

Y/N: [11:03] ahh you're making me nervous!! I lowkey hopes it's a date but we'll see 👀

I got another text..

Harry:[11:04] Hey y/n, I'm here but I think im on the wrong floor? I'm on the 3rd floor...

I laughed a bit since I live on the 1st floor, so he had to have passed my flat to go upstairs.

Y/N: [11:05] I live on the 1st floor, just come down and I'll come out lol

He said okay and I gave Leroy a little pat on the head then walked out the door, grabbing my bag. I looked towards the lift as it began to open. Quickly my eyes were met with a pair of blue eyes. I think his eyes are super pretty, like a crystal clear blue ocean. He had on a black hoodie, shorts of course, and some sneakers.

"So what do you have planned today?" I asked as we walked out of the building. It was a pretty nice day today. The sky was very blue and there were a couple clouds but the sun was shining brightly. "It's a surprise." He said smiling at me. Am I going to get murdered? We got into an Uber that he had waiting in front and went in silence to the location. Maybe I'm overreacting but why is he being so weird about this.

We finally arrived outside of an apple picking orchard. I feel like my face lit up when I saw it because Harry let out a little giggle after looking at me. We got out of the car and he led me towards the entrance. "I booked an apple picking session for us since I knew you liked botanical stuff." He said with the cutest smile. "How do you know what I like?" I asked in a questioning joking kind of way. "I have to admit, I asked Tom about you and what your interests were then he told me about your youtube videos which I may have binged..." I laughed but also put my hands in my face, embarrassed that this cute guy just watched my cringe videos.

"Oh god, what videos did you watch? Please do not tell me you watched my old ones." I've been doing this youtube stuff since I was in my early 20s and I know that past me was so annoying and weird. "Oh yeah I watched like a mix of old and new ones" He said with a little laugh (the little laugh he always does). "Well either way, that was very considerate and I love doing this stuff!" I said gesturing towards the orchard.

We made our way inside the actual orchard and we're provided with a large bag and basket. We began walking side by side down the trail. This is such a sweet thing to do, like he went out of his way to choose and find something I like!! What kind of guy would do that unless he wants to date you? To be fair, I did a similar thing by watching a couple of his videos which now I know he loves golf and weird stuff so that's good for future reference.

We walked towards a section that had good looking apples. We had some fun picking apples, chatting about random things. We talked about ourselves getting to know each other more. He is such a sweet guy who seems so passionate about his interests. I listened to him gush about golf and he listened to me ramble about plants.

"Wanna sit down for a bit?" He asked as we approached a bench. I nodded and we sat down. He looked at me and there was a different look in his eye. It seemed like he wanted to kiss me but didn't. I kind of wish he did. "So what is this?" I asked finally acknowledging the elephant in the room. "What do you mean?" He asked. "Well, you invited me out to an activity after we just met. Is this like a hangout or a date?" I asked getting a spontaneous burst of courage but immediately feeling shy after.

"What do you want it to be?" He asked. I thought for a second. What!? What do I want it to be!! I swear this man is so confusing. I actually do want it to be a date but I don't want to seem desperate. I haven't dated in a while and this could be a good relationship but what if he actually does just wanna shag? I don't want to just play around. "A hangout." I said nonchalantly.

I saw some color drain from his cheeks that were a bit rosier 2 seconds ago. Maybe I messed up. "Yeah! It's a hangout! I wanted to get to know you more because you seem like a really cool person." He said smiling at me. After that it got a bit awkward but it quickly blew over after we began talking about literally anything else.

~~~

Time flew by so fast and we had filled our bag quite quickly. By the time we finished, it was 2:23. Three hours have passed! It's so easy to talk with him and it honestly did not feel like 3 hours. I don't think we were even picking apples for most of the time, we had sat and talked for such a long time. I also took a couple pictures to share on insta. I think they turned out quite cute. It will be a cute memory of our day together.

We got into another Uber on our way to Nando's since we were both super hungry. Once we arrived, we got a table and ordered our food. We sat there talking and eating for another hour and a half. "You know what!" He said suddenly after we stopped chatting for a couple of seconds. "I don't want to hang out with you." He said. Is this because I said I don't want to date him.

"This WAS a date, I do want to get to know you better but I also hope we can start something, if you want." He admitted. I am so glad he said that. "Really? A guy who goes out of his way to please a girl with her interests doesn't just want to hang out?" I faked gasped. He smiled knowing that I lowkey knew what he was on about this whole time. I wasn't going to say I wanted this to be a date but if he does then I'm not complaining.

"So what does this mean then?" I asked. "Well do you wanna do this again soon?" He asked. I made him think I was debating it for a while making him chuckle. "I would love to" I said as I saw his shoulders drop with relief. "Great!" He said happily. Maybe this will be a good thing...

[sophaeros]

love your blog, if possible could I get an Albert and Jules lore dump? I read your other post but I am hungry for more context (and sources)

omg hii glad u like it here !! 😋 umm ok i can try to do like a rough little timeline w notable moments maybe? whatever comes to mind lol

in err 1991 i believe when julian was 13 he got sent to that one swiss boarding school to curb his alcoholism (did not work clearly) and two years later when julian was 15, 13 year-old albert also arrived. julian stayed for two years and albert stayed for six months. julian had this to say about their meeting SNIFFLES. theyre never beating the soulmate allegations i fear

How did you become friends at first? Julian: Two of us arrived in a private school in Switzerland. I felt I had nothing in common with the others. They were so different from people I knew in New York, they were obsessed by clothes Haut Couture. I missed New York so much, it’s really a part of my soul. Meeting Albert was a relief. At last, someone with whom I could talk. There was immediately something, a feeling of complementarity. We talked a lot of music, of our band plans. We gave ourselves 2 years to create a band or to bury this dream. After 2 years, we gave ourselves 2 more years, (laugh).

— the strokes for les inrockuptibles, march 2002 (x)

after albert moved back to la he and julian lost touch until 1998 when albert moved to new york at 18 to go to film school and find himself or whatever. and of course they have the most red string of fate ass second meeting oh my god it makes my stomach hurt. I COULD LITERALLY SEE HIM FROM MY WINDOW. why arent they in a stupid hallmark movie romcom COME ON

“When I first came to New York,” marvels Hammond, resplendent in red and black winklepickers, “the way things happened to me, it was like there was someone… doing it. I moved into my apartment, it was directly across the street from where Julian worked. Like, what are the odds? I could literally see him from my window.”

— albert hammond jr for q magazine, april 2002 (x)

and so albert becomes the final member of the band, completing the set ❤️ (the talk, 2013)

Albert, did you have to try out to be in The Strokes? Yeah. I remember when I met everyone. I met Julian first, then Nikolai, got really drunk one night, and then I went to go try out, even though Julian told me later that in his mind I was already in the band. How come? I was an okay player, I could play chords and stuff, but I looked awesome. (Laughs) I just looked like there was only one thing I could do: be in a band.

albert and julian lived together for seven years from 1998 to 2005 when julian got married, they had two apartments together and the first one is the most well known, it's the dumbbell shaped one. idk about the layout of the second unforch

ehhh scrubbing ahead a bit. julian wasn't there for albert's intervention in 2009 because he was on his solo tour

but happily in 2013 we get albert releasing his comeback ep through julian's label cult records (and then he leaves cult records in 2015. c'est la vie.) (nme september 2013)

“I’d been talking to Julian about wanting to release something on his label since he started it,” Hammond Jr explains. “He was like, ‘Let’s put out a song’. So I went, ‘Alright, I’ll start working with Gus [Oberg] and maybe after we do a few songs there’ll be one that’s fun in there.’ I sent him the first, ‘Cooker Ship’, and he was floored. I got an email back with a million ‘yes’-es on it!”

speaking of which. i've posted this before but SIGHHHH (the talk 2013) that song is for his fucking then-gf justyna. (well, most likely. i dont think hes ever outright stated who he wrote it for but the mv is pretty domestic (for the most part......) and theres a bit where theyre kinda dancing in the living room which is one of the things albert told an interviewer he and justyna did a lot → vice june 2015 but of course i suppose you never know)

Kind of like The Strokes’ song “You Only Live Once”… Julian wrote that. I’m in the band, but I still take his lyrics like a fan would. You always relate lyrics to yourself, and I even do that with him even though he is one of my friends and we lived together when he was writing it. God knows what they were truly about. But it came full circle when he was over listening to “St. Justice” from my new solo EP. It was really cute, he was like, “Is this lyric about me?” And I was like, “…no, man.” It really wasn’t, but it was a good circle because I’ve felt that way about so many of his lyrics. When we got in the band, Julian had such a vision, he was just a strong writer, so the first three records are all his.

and then there's. whatever the fuck is up with one way trigger. i'll make a post about that swear

ending this post here i think bc otherwise i'm never gonna post this SORRY. i'll try to think of more but the tragedy of julian/albert is that it's actually really hard to find fuel for them. unlike milex where they're apparently physically incapable of not being all over and waxing poetic about each other. but then what you Do get is kinda crazy. such is life

[alexandia03]

✨share something you are working on that makes you happy or you’re proud of✨

thank you to @essjaywrites and @siobhanbooks for tagging me

Because I have so many WIPs atm and no clue which one will get posted next... here are some snippets from the ones I kept thinking about while I was cleaning the house lol

GAWG

“Because he's done it before. You asked him if he were a knight yesterday and you were pretty close. He's a hero, the real deal.” And the cocky bastard would never let me forget saying all this – not that I would ever say all this to his face, the fucking peacock. “And he's given us his word, Jules. In all the years I've known him he never broke his promise to me once.”  Well, he did promise to save me a piece of cake at Xaden's 6th birthday and other such small misdeeds, but that doesn't exactly reflect well on the image I am trying to paint for him to reassure our niece. 

Healing Our Loud (Quinn POV)

“At least it means we will never be alone again,” I find myself saying. Maybe this is why I actually wanted to become a rider, maybe the lonely kid in me craved the camaraderie and having such a bond – unbreakable and permanent. For as long as I live, I will have someone always in my corner, no matter what.

Healing Out Loud (Garrick POV)

“It’s something I started doing after the Apostasy, in foster care…” She draws a deep breath as she explains this. “I don’t remember how it started, maybe it was because I was feeling lonely or because I missed them… maybe a mix of those reasons and Malek knows what else… but I started talking to Braelyn and mom. I don't know if the dead can hear us or if they stick around in whatever form, but I liked to pretend I could still talk to them. It was usually Braelyn and my mom, but there were nights when I would talk to Derik or my uncle…”

Memento Vivere (Chapter 2 - Rewritten) - also biggest snippet because it deserves it

“You are a lot of things, Imogen. But helpless isn't one of them.” She puts down the jar with salve for burns and looks at me, her brown eyes soft, but shining with that defiant and steely determination that I always see in Braelyn's too. That I wish I had as well. “When you were little… whenever you got scared, you might back away for a second, but you would march right up to whatever was scaring you. You'd stare it down until it went away or until you understood it.”  “I don't remember it like that,” I grumble, lowering my gaze to the ground because the weight of her praise and that look in her eyes… I don't deserve it.  “I do. I remember that day Gerard found you and your friends had broken into the armory and played with real blades when you were… what? Six? He screamed until he was as red as Callan Durran's dragon and he could be heard all the way to the other side of Riorson House,” She reminisces as if it were a funny memory – not like she followed Mr. Tavis's lead with a lecture of her own afterwards. “The boys started bargaining and pleading with him and when he threatened not allowing you all to see each other for a month they were on the verge of tears.” Well, Bodhi actually started crying at that, but I don't interrupt my mom. “But not you. My scrawny six years old was glaring down the second highest ranked general in Tyrrendor the entire time.”

And there is this little side project that is... well, let's just call it Assassin AU

Next to me, Quinn is feeding her falcon, Ishtar, little pieces of meat I have no intention of inquiring about the origin of. She doesn’t even pry her eyes away from the bird as she elbows me in the ribs to get my attention, “They are talking about you,” Quinn whispers, not stopping from preening Ishtar's feathers. She has always been able to pay attention to boring things better than me.  With a sigh, I let myself slide off the high ledge by one of the stained glass windows, our favorite place to watch these meetings from – perfect for observing the entire room without being seen. 

Tagging (no pressure): @xadensbiceps @alltoowellread @tegantales @copperfirebird

[deadbydangit]

Dead by Daylight: Adventures in Texting

I wrote this a while back because I thought it was funny. I hope someone enjoys it.

[The Entity] has started a group: Killers

The Entity: I’ve given you all a phone. We can all keep in contact with each other.

Nightmare: The Hell is this shit?!?

Legion (Frank): looks like a chat room old man

[Legion (Frank)] has changed their name to [Frankie]

Nightmare: Hold up.

[Nightmare] has changed their name to [Freddy]

Freddy: Better.

Trapper: No, we aren’t doing this again.

Nurse: Bloody Hell, again?

Ghostface: Again?

Wraith: We’ve done this before, a long time ago.

Legion (Susie): why did it stop???

[Legion (Susie)] has changed their name to [Sus]

[Ghostface] has changed their name to [BIGDENERGY]

[Trapper]: That answer your question?

Legion (Julie): oh FUCK yeah, this looks fun

[Legion (Julie)] has changed their name to [Jules]

Legion (Joey): wait so, if Danny wasn’t there when the first group chat started, who made it stop them?

[Legion (Joey)] changed their name to [Joey]

Wraith: Herman.

Nurse: He kept trying to experiment on us by sending private messages from other’s phones. He wanted to see us all fight.

Doctor: It worked, didn’t it?

[Doctor] changed their name to [Herman]

Pig: And you wonder why no one likes you

[Pig] has changed their name to [Amanda]

Herman: That’s not what you said last night.

BDENERGY: WHAT?!?!

Amanda: He’s lying.

Freddy: Is Herman a troll?

Frankie: you’re a troll lol

Cannibal: don’t want this…

Trapper: If we’re stuck doing this.

[Trapper] has changed their name to [Evan]

[Nurse] has changed their name to [Sally]

[Wraith] has changed their name to [Philip]

BIGDENERGY: I THOUGHT YOU DIDN’T WANT TO DO THIS! HA, POSERS!

Spirit: I already have a bad feeling about this.

[Spirit] has changed their name to [Rin]

Oni: Rin, what is this contraption?

Plague: Why is it beeping incessantly?

Deathslinger: And how can I make the damned thing stop?

Blight: This device is known as a phone. This instrument allows for communication of voice via electromagnetic radio waves from one end point, being a single beings phone, to another, the other individuals phone. Radio waves are used because they cause significantly less damaging to the body than gamma or X-rays.

[Trickster] has changed their name to [Ji-Woon]

Ji-Woon: Wow! Way to ruin phones freak.

Shape:…

Clown: Is he going to say anything?

Artist: It’s Michael. Probably not.

Pyramid Head: I cannn comuunnicate noww.

Sally: His hands are too big for the buttons. And he probably can’t see what he’s writing.

[Shape] has changed their name to [Michael]

Michael:…

Pyramid Head: Butt Iii can taallllk noow

Twins: Frère and I will be sharing this device. If anyone needs anything from Victor, you have to contact this.

Deathslinger: Is no one gonna tell me how ta’ turn this off?

Hag: You can’t Entity made it so you can’t. I already tried throwing it in the bog.

[Hag] has changed their name to [Lisa]

Lisa: Maybe it will work this time?

Philip: I want to say yes, but I know that isn’t the case.

Rin: Oh, I was messaged by the Entity. Sadako’s phone keeps shorting out, so we’re sharing.

Evan: That makes sense.

Nemesis: mmmyy hands aarree tooo biiigg toooo.

[Hillbilly] has changed their name to [Max]

Max: its back the fun thing is back

Huntress: what happens if the face of this thing gets cracked? i threw it at Dwight.

Sus: OMG you broke it already?!?

Max: why anna why break phone

Oni: What does this OMG mean?

Jules: oh my god

Plague: Do not take the name of the Gods in vain!

Joey: no, that’s what OMG means

Frankie: ugghh old people

[Cenobite] has changed their name to [Pinhead]

Pinhead: I opened the box and found this phone inside. Why and how can I rid myself of it?

Huntress: have i broken this thing?

Pinhead: No Anna, it will still function. You’ll just have a difficult time seeing it.

Joey: Wait, how do you know about phones?

Pinhead: I’m a God, I know all.

Dredge: Speaking of God. Hello everyone. 😉

BIGDENERGY: Did it just use an emoji?

Artist: It knows human language?

Clown: It has hands?

Dredge: No silly. I can type using my powers 😊

Sally: I guess Demogorgon can’t have a phone either. Seems he ate it.

Twins: Did the Entity think it wouldn’t?

The Entity: I do not think it would eat the phone, no.

Max: aww puppy sick?

BIGDENERGY: That isn’t a dog.

Pinhead: In your world maybe.

Sus: WTF do dogs look like in your world!!!

Oni: What does this WTF mean?

Evan: Oh my God.

Oni: Isn’t that OMG?

[diningchairs]

okay this post had me thinking about how the other guys would react to casamond, soooo. little disclaimer that this is straight up rpf thinking. it’s mainly how i see them when writing or reading fics lol

nikolai: we all know that nikolai and jules are besties, so of course nikolai wants to support his friend but he’s so goddamn tired. he can’t keep up with it most of the time. there’s definitely been times where he takes julian out for a drink after jules is like, “okay. i did it. we’re over” but then contemplates jumping off of a building when julian says, “WERE BACK TOGETHER!!!” the very next morning. and it’s not that he hates albert or anything, they’re still friends, it’s just that now albert is his best friend’s boyfriend, ex, soulmate, mortal enemy, lover, etc. he probably wouldn’t fight it too much though because he still wants his friends to be happy.

nick: why do i feel like nick would be mad because that means he’s not getting the attention he wants in the group. definitely annoyed by them. rolls his eyes. side eyes them. has to hold his tongue from making some snide remark. i feel in my heart that one night he got really drunk though, and told julian something along the lines of, “man i'm really happy for you. actually. good for you.” but doesn’t remember it. “IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU AND YOUR UGLY FUCKING BOYFRIEND.” while nikolai is annoyed for friendship reasons, nick is definitely annoyed for band reasons. “Okay, so you guys said we were meeting at 10. Well, it’s 10 and neither of you are fucking here, either because you're fucking each other or fighting."

fab: oh puppy fab. he would happy for them. definitely invited them on double dates when he was still dating drew. awwwww the thought of all four of them going out is so sweet. i don’t think he’d have negative thoughts really, he just accepts that jules and albert are that type of couple. I always think about the meme that says, "bored af, I wanna ride in the car with a toxic couple to the state fair" when I think about casamond with fab. (I have a whole wip about this). fab + jules/albert also remind me SO MUCH of the friends episodes where joey has the hardest time keeping a secret about monica/chandlers relationship. soooo, i 100% think that he finds out first. maybe walks in on them or something and freaks. but then has to carry that burden around.

[fluffytheocelot]

Yeah Ik it’s not even January anymore SHUT UP-

Anyways-

It’s been a hot minute since I’ve drawn preexisting characters as cats and it was SO FUN getting to stretch my character design muscles again!!

Carmen Week day 7: Classic

The 94 series and Treasures of knowledge are the 2 I’m most familiar with, so those are the ones I picked!

And hoo boy do I have thoughts on both of them lol

Also for the most part across the Carmenverse, Carmen doesn’t seem to want to physically harm anyone, at least not too badly. There’s probably exceptions but that’s my main observation

94 series:

I’ve watched all four seasons (they’re on Tubi in order for free if u haven’t seen em, I think they’re also on YouTube) and in conclusion: Carmen loves her kids detectives lol

*watching Zack and Ivy try to chase after them*

VILE member: Your children are very… Spirited

Carmen: They’re rescues

Seriously Carmen lost her mind when Lee Jordan put em in danger lol. She was *this* close to breaking her own no murder rule lmao

Also I’m pretty sure she’s set it up so that Zack and Ivy will inherit VILE?? Like that was a whole episode lol

Good to see Mama Sandiego carried thru the 2019 series lol.

Treasures of Knowledge:

So I bought the game, and I’ve only played thru a couple of missions, but oh my god why do Carmen and Julia feel like exes. Literally from what I remember a lot of dialogue from Julia is just talking about “oh Carmen liked this. She really believed in this. Carmen used to-“

And Carmen is NO BETTER!! Like, she leaves notes and video messages directly for Jules lol. And they are ridiculously flirty lol.

And it’s been a hot minute since I played it, but I’m pretty sure the opening cutscene of the game has the two of them bantering/flirting??

Anyways these 2 were dating while Carmen was in ACME, she wants to prove something (idk), leaves, asks Jules to go with her but doesn’t. MMM THE ANGST POTENTIALLL. Maybe Carmen starts acting more hostile, trying to get Jules to hate her, hoping that’ll make leaving easier on both of them. It doesn’t.

They still love the other, but each thinks the other hates them.

Lol everything and nothing has changed with these 2 istg

Idk drop an ask if u wanna know more lol, headcannons or cat designs. I have Thoughts on both ‘94 and TOK lol

[arrowheadedbitch]

Alright the time has come to share my final au

For the day, not ever don't worry

Playing a little catchup rn if you couldn't tell

Au where Shawn is Apollo and Lassie is Hyacinth 👀

....Juliet is Cypruses

Except JUST KIDDING haha, because I decided Juliet makes a better Hyacinth and Lassie is a perfect Cyprusususeses whatever the fuck

Gus is Hermes ig

Abigail is Daphne??? 👀👀👀

Ares is Jimmy Nickels ☠️☠️☠️ lol

Haha Henry is Zeus

Victoria is Zephyrus (the west wind) if you keep Lassie as Hyacinth jajdnsmskdjs

I guess since Juliet is Hyacinth, Declan is the west wind instead??? Or we go with the version of the story where Zephyrus wasn't even involved

LINDSAY FROM PSY V PSY IS CASSANDRAAA

"Lindsey lies and everyone believes her, Cassandra tells true prophecies yet no one believes her"-Toast

And she slept with Shawn in a way that kinda parallels Cassandra's betrayal of Apollo

AND APOLLO HAS THE SAME HATE FOR DAD AND LOVE FOR MOM AAAAAAAA

Leto Maddyyyy

Myra as Dionysus

If we keep Lassie as Hyacinth, INSTEAD OF PLAYING DISCUS TOGETHER SHAWN AND LASSIE ARE SHOOTING TOGETHER

This is where I realised that I should switch Jules and Lassie

So Jules gets killed via discus and Lassie begs Shawn to kill him for accidentally killing something sacred 👀👀👀

Cyprus died because he shot something, Lassie would totally go hunting and accidentally shoot the wrong deer

(For those who don't know, Cyprus was a man Apollo loved, he loved him so much he gifted him a sacred deer but Cyprus accidentally shot and killed it while hunting. Unable to live with the guilt, he begged his lover, Apollo, to kill him. So Apollo turned him into a tree, and that's how Cyprus Trees were made)

Its the same strong sense of justice that made him a cop, that made him break Shawn's tape, that gets him killeddd

Justice too strong to let himself get away with shooting the sacred deer Shawn gave himmmmmm

Also Juliet turning into a flower and Lassie turning into a tree just sounds right

~~Juliet died rollerskating instead /j/j/j~~

Juliet dying during a happy day out also feels right

It's like a movie where everything is perfect and then the wife gets hit by a car and now everything sucks

It just...matches

(For those who don't know, Hyacinth was a beautiful prince who fell in love with Apollo, they dated but Zephyrus, the west wind, was also in love with Hyacinth and while Apollo was teaching Hyacinth to play discus, it's like frisby but with a stone discus instead of plastic, Zephyrus decided that if he couldn't have the prince no one could, so he blew a gust of wind to make the discus strike Hyacinth in the head, killing him. Despite being the god of medicine, Apollo couldn't heal his lover, so he turned him into a flower. This is why the Hyacinth flower exists. And to this day, Apollo doesn't know it wasn't his fault that Hyacinth died.)

Here's a great moment from the server

Who's selene in this because Hermes doesn't marry

Maybe no selene and Shus is the end goal 🤔

And that wierd guy Myra married is Ariadne lol

So, in closing.

Apollo: Shawn, Hyacinth: Juliet, Cyprus: Lassie, Hermes (and maybe Artemis at the same time? I dunno): Gus, Henry: Zeus, Madeleine: Leto, Dionysus: Myra, Her dead ass husband: Ariadne, (omg that means that Gus kills him if he's Artemis 😭☠️😭☠️😭☠️), Zephyrus: Maybe one of Jule's exes, maybe no one??? (There are alternate versions of the story where Zephyrus wasn't involved and it was wholey Apollo's fault...)

And, side note, a Shawn as Dionysus au would totally fucking slap if any of yall wanna get on that

Bonus points of he still doesn't like the taste of wine despite being the god of wine

Thanks to @thespiritssaidso for having this discussion with me :]

[cigarettesandinevitablebetrayal]

Hey! From the fanfic asks, 4, 6 for Catalyzing with a Breath of Calefaction? And/or 1 and 11 for In Between is Gravity and Bridges Left to Burn? ♥️

Oooh, excellent choices! (Also, man, these titles should be shorter but I'm not gonna shorten them lol)

Catalyzing with a Breath of Calefaction

4: What’s your favorite line of dialogue?

It's hard to pick a single line of dialogue because Catalyzing is written in back and forths. Each line isn't meant to stand on its own, but to rely on the following response to build a sort of network of interaction. It highlights the way Felix and Julian's relationship will develop with time: as an intertwined reliance on each other's strengths.

As such, my favorite dialogue set is probably:

“You can just call me Felix, Detective.”

Mendez gives a little nod, “As you wish. It only feels fair that you call me ‘Julian’ then, Felix.”

Felix shivers a little at the sound of his name in the detective’s accent. He smiles, “That’s hardly a chore.” A sly edge pulls at his lips. "Or maybe 'Jules'? Isn't that what Officer Poname calls you?"

Julian winces, but there's an edge of fondness to the gesture. "If you must."

"Maybe just for special occasions then," Felix concedes.

I particularly like this set because it's a casual establishment of how they interact with each other going forward. There's a lovely sense of give and take, of meeting each other on equal grounds, but also of pushing each other just a little out of their comfort zones while knowing when to stop. It reveals that they will challenge each other while still recognizing their boundaries.

6: What makes this fic special or different from all your other fics?

This will get a little controversial, but I think what's particularly different of this fic vs my other Wayhaven works is that it establishes why traits that often get Felix/Farah/F relegated to the best friend or little sibling role make for good traits in a romantic partner. My Raine fics do fall prey to that a bit, with Raine seeing Felix as a younger sibling figure due to the loss of his own younger brother, but I like juxtaposing that up against Julian's fics, where Felix is shown not as an immature and lackadaisical character incapable of being in a reliable relationship, but as the type of partner who reminds you to slow down and relax from time to time. The type of partner who reminds you to open up and be yourself and share in your troubles.

In Between is Gravity and Bridges Left to Burn

1: What inspired you to write the fic this way?

Honestly? I think both Wayhaven and common characterization of Nate/Nat/N is...too polished. And I get why, I do. It's a romance novel and they have an archetype to follow and the Prince Charming archetype is meant to be flawless and without fault. But I find that to be a touch uninteresting.

Besides, I see a lot of symptoms of paranoia and obsessive tendencies in Nate in the original books that I don't think is touched on a lot. I wanted to bring those aspects to the forefront and play with Nate's need for control and meticulous detail. I experience a lot of those same tendencies in my day to day life and it was nice to reflect on those in fiction while also offering Nate a respectful partner/support system to keep him grounded.

11: What do you like best about this fic?

What I like about this fic is honestly what's already present in the books and why I love A/N as a pairing: the deep trust and understanding built from centuries of working together and relying on each other. I loved bringing to the forefront their ability to read between the lines of what they're saying and get to what they're feeling. I love a relationship with deep and sturdy foundation.

More Fic Questions Here

[superscourge]

Hello! I am back to ramble about random details I have noticed and speculations I have about New Game because I'm that invested. Specifically, I wanna talk about Jules. We know from Archie that he was king. I can't remember if it was of all of Moebius or just the Kingdom of Acorn, but either way, he was a very powerful hedgehog. We also know that Scourge killed him. There are many things we could assume for why and what happened afterwards (like why didn't Scourge take his place and decided to become a gang boy instead if his end goal was to become king eventually anyway?) but I wanna focus on something different for this ask. Jules shows up in Vulture Culture once, accompanying the line "got a guilty conscience" and Scourge with his injured design. His eyes are blacked out but we can see him smirking. All this leads me to speculate a few things:

1. Scourge’s murder of Jules may have been an accident, or at the very least something he regrets now.

2. Jules looming behind Scourge makes me think Jules was probably not the best dad. The most likely option to me is that he was neglectful and emotionally hurtful to Scourge. Makes sense since we're on Moebius after all.

3. Jules and his death are probably important to the story of New Game as a whole since he shows up in Vulture Culture at all. Maybe it's connected to why and how Scourge got injured in the first place. How? I'm not sure yet.

Regardless of if anything I'm speculating here is correct, I'm very interested in seeing how things play out!!

- 💜 Anon

jesus christ you read me like a book LOL..YOU GOT ALL THAT FROM THAT LITTLE SCENE?? DAMN

the one thing i will confirm is that jules (specifically his death) IS important to new game, but specifically the sequel :] theres gonna be a Small Hint to how its important in the first comic but its like. Really Really explained in the second one lol

i am honestly very excited to get to the sequel which is incredibly funny bc im barely even started with the first comic 😭 like girl calm down and finish the first one first.. lol

im so glad youre enjoying the story to the point of this though wahhh it honestly makes me extremely extremely happy ;v; <333 weh

[sixteenhearts]

https://www.tumblr.com/sixteenhearts/773839737261899776/im-the-same-anon-who-talk-a-lot-about-he-wanted?source=share //

i agree with all of the things you've said here!

first thing first, i personally think that grief isn't always about losing someone literally (passing away). you can grief for someone that's gone from your life, while that someone is still very much breathing and alive. you can also grieve for something, that's not in the form of a human, that's also taken or gone from your life.

grief isn't something that's easy to be talked about casually, especially when you lost the closest people to you at such a young age. grief isn't also something that's kind of like "it's just maybe a month then i'll be alright", because i've known people who carry their grieves until their last breath. i understand if charles decided to keep this grief for himself. i understand what this grief has driven charles to.

i have a grief that had happened about half a year ago that still feel fresh (not losing someone, but losing a job that i fought literal blood, sweat, and tears for), and i keep it for myself mostly (i don't even talk about it with my family and my partner) because it's not easy to talk about it.

but also on the other hand, i understand max's anger and doubts for charles after he rejected his proposal. because if i were a man and asked my partner to marry me and then they rejected my proposal, i too would be hurt and literally asked everything about our relationship. i too would doubt about their loyalty.

this is why this fic kind of hits me personally, because i understand from both sides. i understand their feelings; whatever they're feeling is very valid. this is also why i can't take any side, and i actually didn't realize people in the comments are taking sides.

all they need is deep communications, learn to build their trust again, and charles needs an extensive therapy to process his grief healthily. i personally think max's doubt "what if you never won the championship? what would happen next?" should be charles' concern during therapy, and charles should be able to answer that.

i'm happy to see that max starts to understand more of charles' side in this chapter. i'm glad that maman knocked some sense for max lol. i'm just sad that on top of charles' grief for papa and jules, he also has to face the (i hope a very brief) grief of losing max too. it must be hard for him losing someone that's been a very integral part of his life, the sunshine of his life, the one that gives him so much happiness that he forgot about the bad things in his life.

i can see why you love this fic. because it's very different. i can see you challenge yourself exploring something deeper from both max and charles' reactions and feelings. integrating a deep grief into a fiction without making it seem shallow isn't easy, you know. but you've done very well and i applaud you for that!

and thank you for the reminder at the end, mirror! i hope you also take care of yourself.

Thank you!! 💕💕💕

I think it's bound to happen where people pick sides. Sometimes, I do too when I read fics from others. It's just natural. Honestly , it's all fine by me. It's good that there are even engagements to my fics to begin with, that people took the time to leave comments and kudos, and even reach out on tumblr to talk! Really, people like you are our motivation.

Thank you again for going on this journey with me. 💕

[fuckyeahdindjarin]

Hello cowboy friend!!! I’m thinking about time travel today. If you could place Palomino Jack (or another Pedro boy of your choice) in a different time and/or place, where would you place him?

Personally I’d melt for a 40s or 50s cowboy. Or Victorian cowboy. Or future cowboy.

I don’t have a problem, I have a type. LOVE YOU💕

Hello cowboy friend!! Or cowboy fiend? 😏

This is SUCH a fun question that's tickling my brain in all the best ways! So I don't know why, but my head immediately flew across time and space to Jane Austen, so I guess that's Georgian/Regency era (had to google that lol), in the middle of the Scottish highlands!

Imagine the dramatic, wild landscapes, the endless vistas, cowboy Jack in a billowy white shirt and breeches, drenched in the Scottish rain - who cares if it's always dreary when you have that to look at?

I have no idea why cowboy Jack would be in the middle of Scotland at the turn of the 19th century - I mean, were there even Americans emigrating to Scotland in that period? - but he still has that delicious Southern accent. Maybe he's a horse breeder? A stable hand at your family estate?

I'm going to stop while I'm ahead because I CANNOT get sucked down another rabbit hole right now. I'm so on board with your ideas as well - I mean, is there a wrong answer? We can have infinite cowboys in infinite reincarnations that's for sure! Thank you so much for this super fun ask Jules, love you 😘

[jencsi]

1-25 for Finn because you deserve to gush about your favourite. Take as long as you want, or if you don't wanna do all of them then just answer the ones you want to.

*Disclaimer*- I had an absolute blast doing this and yes I know I could have written about all of these without waiting for someone else to ask, but it's much more fun and motivating when someone else thinks of you. :) So thank you. This is a long one. But so worth it.

1. Why do you like or dislike this character?- I like Finn because she reminds me of myself in some ways but in other ways she is the person I wish I could be/the friend I wish I had. She tries to be the best version of herself everyday, even when she might fail. She pushes through even when things do fail because what can you do? She is stronger than me, tougher than me, smarter than me, things I wish I was. She forces herself into the world and makes people pay attention to her but I feel like I am always picked last or not picked at all. She emulates so many qualities that get her into trouble but somehow it all works out for the best. I give up much too easily on things when they don’t go my way. She knows she deserves to be respected and treated where often times I just take BS from people and let it consume me instead of fighting for what I want. She forces others to deal with her instead of being silent. She makes sure she is heard. She also was a good friend to Sara and Morgan and helped Sara grow as a person and be separate from Grissom because Sara is a separate person who deserves happiness even if it wasn’t with him and Finn sort of showed her that its okay to want love but want what you deserve and not wait around for someone else to make the decision. I dislike her because sometimes there were moments where she probably shouldn’t have kept pushing and maybe held her tongue and just let things go but she didn’t and it's more of a second hand embarrassment feeling when she pushes to far but that’s really the only dislike I have for her. 

2. Favorite canon thing about this character?- Desk sitting. Getting into trouble. Getting Russell angry with her only to have him actually care deeply for her. The Jules nickname she hates allegedly but lets him call her that anyways. Sports. Violence. Blood spatter. Having multiple love interests in just a few short seasons. 

3. Least favorite canon thing about this character?- um dying? Lol yeah we know what the OG script said but the final nail in the coffin literally and metaphorically is that she died. 

4. If you could put this character in any other media, be it a book, a movie, anything, what would you put them in?- I think it would be neat to see Finn in a Harry Potter type setting. Mostly because I grew up reading those books and low key she’d make an excellent Ravenclaw or Slytherin. I would also like to see her in the Kinsey Millhone series which was written by Sue Grafton and was a private detective novel series featuring titles like A is for Alibi, B is for Burglar, etc. Kinsey was a great character and since the author died, she made it a legality so none of her work can be made into movies or series but it would be cool to see Finn in that world and the world of Temperance Brennan (book version) by Kathy Reichs. 

5. What's the first song that comes to mind when you think about them?- Brighter Than The Sun by Colbie Caillat because I heard this song on the radio shortly after Finn’s first episode aired and then the team baseball episode aired and I felt that she just radiated during those scenes and it just stuck. I have an entire Finn playlist but this one is the first one I had on there in 2012. 

6. What's something you have in common with this character?- we are both underdogs. CC- Under A Cloud. Finn was not everyone's favorite in the fan group and I understand that and relate to that personally. I’m never a first choice, I’m always left out of so many things, and I have very few positive life experiences because of this. The show didn’t really project these feelings about her onto me, but it was negative fandom experience over the course of 2012-2015. The experiences I have now with fandom are much better but those early moments will always resonate with me. So much unnecessary hate and disregard for no reason. 

7. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you like?- Seeing as I am always shocked to find a fan who likes her, I guess the simplicity of someone saying “Hey Finn is/was cool” is something I like from the fandom. 

8. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise?- *see number 6* Also, on a deeper level, hating Finn because she seemed too much like Catherine or came to replace her is odd when society is always screaming about how we should be lifting women up, putting them all on the same level, not pitting them against each other. You can’t share a quote to me about women supporting women then go and slander one female character just because she took a job opening that someone else just vacated. If we did that in real life, we wouldn’t have jobs. Things like that happen so much in workplace settings. Catherine wanted out. Finn wanted in. It’s a simple thing but got blown way out of proportion by some in the fandom. 

9. Could you be roommates with this character?- unfortunately no. I am too rigid in my routine and organizing and Finn is pure chaos. She's loud. I’m quiet. I’m up early, she's a late sleeper. Just polar opposites. 

10. Could you be best friends with this character?- probably. I would love to have someone like this in my life, someone fun and bright and bubbly who would not forget about me or leave me out of group activities or forget I exist. 

11. Would you date this character?- Yes! She’s fun and silly and full of zest for life and has such a big heart and clearly wants to love and be loved. I would adore this in real life. 

12. What's a headcanon you have for this character?- that she didn’t die. Along with so many others- she originally wanted to be a doctor like her father, she's an only child, her first husband was a cop who was killed on the job and that spiraled her into pursuing police work, he was killed the same night he proposed to her so therefore she wasn’t officially married but she refers to him as a first husband, his case was never solved. She was adopted and raised by her uncle (biological moms brother) and aunt but doesn’t discover it until the Gig Harbor Killer reveals it. She always felt a stronger bond with her father growing up vs her mother and now this all makes sense to her but she never felt unloved. Both her adoptive family have passed on and she has to dig for clues and piece together her life. Her biological mother finds her and has been keeping tabs on her for 50 years but was terrified to reveal the secret since she was only 16 when she gave birth to her and why she gave Finn to her brother and his wife when she was a baby, they could raise her in a more stable environment. 

13. What's an emoji, an emoticon and/or any symbol that reminds you of this character or you think the character would use a lot?- heart eyes, hearts in general, the sun, sunflowers, stars, anything bright and flashy remind me of her. Things she would use alot- the silly face emojis, winking face ones, the sports ones. 

14. Assign a fashion aesthetic to this character.- I would say she is casual when she’s not working, jeans, t-shirts, hoodies, athletic wear. At work, business casual I suppose, she always had leather jackets and sleeveless shirts/blouses. Wish they would have had more opportunities for her to dress up and do undercover assignments and explore being different that way as well. 

15. What's your favorite ship for this character? (Doesn't matter if it's canon or not.)- Finn and Nick send me into another dimension. They both understood the job well, both could relate to each others pains, could fully support each other in a difficult time. I feel like Finn and her lightness would lift Nick out of his darkness (not that people are supposed to save each other in a relationship) but more of helping him be the best version of himself that he could be, not weighed down by his past, he could see her as a light at the end of the tunnel. He could help her relax a bit more and not be so wound up about cases and injustices. Not that she needed to be reeled in but he would give her a reason to stop and think of the consequences of her reckless actions if she had a reason to care about not getting hurt, maybe she would stop. 

16. What's your least favorite ship for this character?- I honestly can’t think of any. Finn gets along with everyone. She bonded well with Greg and had a good time teasing and poking fun at Hodges. 

17. What's a ship for this character you don't hate but it's not your favorite that you're fine with?- I guess Finn with all the random suitors they gave her. Like her Seattle ex Mike, I don’t hate it, but we knew it wasn’t going to be more than one episode's worth of backstory for her and him. Her thing with Shaw wasn’t great either seeing as he led to her death as well as his own but lowkey at least she had some romance before her demise. Moreno wasn’t awful but his partner was a dirty cop who beat the crap out of her in Karma To Burn so that would make things awkward. Finn is shippable with pretty much everyone. 

18. How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?- The dynamic she has with Russell is beautiful. Not even being over dramatic either, what they have is poetic, magic, understanding on a level so deep, respect, care, admiration, chaos. Something so profound and resonating that I can’t even describe it properly but also could write an entire essay on it just screaming about it. Is it love? Is it platonic friendship? Codependency? Mutual? None of these things and yet all of these things at the same time? Spiritual, soulful, stellar, when her lifeforce is drained so is his, when she hurts, he hurts, it's just so *chefs kiss* magnificent. 

19. How about a relationship they have in canon that you don't like?- Nothing that I can think of honestly. Finn didn’t get much of a chance to develop as a character before the show ended. She pretty much vibes well with everyone. 

20. Which other character is the ideal best friend for this character, the amount of screentime they share doesn't matter?- Finn seemed to have alot in common with Henry during season 12, teaching him baseball for the game, talking about fantasy novels, but she also connected well with Morgan and Sara. I think out of all of them, she needed a good girl best friend like Morgan. Morgan seemed more down with the fun and chaos Finn caused and they could laugh and be silly and make jokes and just hang out like normal friends and drink and sing karaoke and just go crazy. 

21. If you're a fic writer and have written for this character, what's your favorite thing to do when you're writing for this character? What's something you don't like?- my favorite thing to do for fics for Finn is let her be loved. Soft affections and comforts and just giving her as much love as I can pour into a fic is my main goal. I do like getting her into trouble and the subsequent “talking to” she gets from Russell. I can’t think of anything I don’t like in writing for her besides not having ideas, going through a dry spell of having zero ideas for her, that’s torture. 

22. If you're a fic reader, what's something you like in fics when it comes to this character? Something you don't like?- I love when people post fics about Finn because they are hard to find in the fandom. I don’t think I have read a Finn fic by another author that I didn’t like. Anyone who makes an effort to expand on a character in a creative setting is top tier, there are no bad fics in my mind.  23. Favorite picture of this character?- Oh man, just one? This is tough. Quite literally any screen shot from her first episode will do.

24. What other character from another fandom of yours that reminds you of them?- Ellie Bishop from NCIS sat on desks for a while and had a very spunky personality. Chris Connor from Becker (also stars Ted Danson) had a similar positive optimistic attitude as Finn (plus curls for days) and her scenes with Becker remind me so much of Russell and Finn but in a late 90’s-early 2000’s comedy setting, it's hilarious if anyone stumbles upon it. 

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now?- First impression was shock because I was going into the rest of season 12 knowing Catherines loss would be prevalent and I wasn’t sure what Finn would be like. First episode with Finn had me hooked. The energy she brought, the playful banter, the anger issues, the back story with Russell, just all of it grabbed me and sucked me in and I felt this strong emotional pull to her after Seeing Red. She even walked with a spring in her step and there was something about that little quirk in just one episode that drew me in to wanting to see more and know more. And as a byproduct of that, I absolutely adore Elisabeth Shue. She made Finn so real and brought so many layers to her. Everything I’ve said about Finn in these 25 questions come from Elisabeth bringing her to life. I would have none of that if anyone else had been cast to be part of the show at that exact moment. Like how lucky did I get? Thank goodness she said yes to it or the casting people picked her or however the process went down. I can’t imagine anyone else as Julie Finlay. I will always carry this character with me (as I have since 2012) as like a little sidekick, a little voice that tells me I can do something, I’ll make it, I’ll keep going for some crazy unknown reason. Finn was Russell’s voice inside his head that guided him that he became dependent on overtime and she’s mine too.

26. FREEBIE QUESTION!!- What hopes did you have for this character?- Back in 2015 when Finn’s fate was left in limbo, of course I was hopeful for her survival. As time went on and the show was officially canceled, I was still left in limbo wondering how they would handle the coma. Then they announced a 2 hour movie, okay no big deal. Then it was announced that Elisabeth wouldn’t be joining that finale movie and I was devastated. Looking back on that time, I think I gained a better understanding as to why. The obvious answer would be, she was busy and couldn’t fulfill the time needed to film any potential Finn scenes. Or the decision to kill Finn was made and she didn’t want to be part of that so she dipped out, fair enough. But I hoped with all my heart and soul that her character would survive and not be tossed aside and forgotten like garbage. Oh it’s just Finn, who cares as long as we get Grissom and Sara and Catherine etc. The disregard hurt as a long time fan of the show, I was torn between being excited for certain things but gutted because, no Finn. Overall I just hoped for respect for her, dignity, a decent conclusion to her story because it mattered too. And once again I found myself feeling as if I didn’t matter because if Finn didn’t matter, then how could I ever expect anyone to think I mattered? That sinking underdog kicked in the gut feeling was too visceral and I don’t think I will ever accept what we got in the end for Finn. She deserved the love she gave, it was greater than most realized.