#Ittri

[orangesavannah]

Something else than just comic pages. I had this very vivid idea in my head and had to get it down on canvas.

[alopex26]

Water babies @orangesavannah

[haowenyang]

you4’re myteeny tiny ittry bitty brotjhehr :(

hi sam

also yyes true :D

[sunb0rn]

gagii?? bigla akong hindi mapakali (not that i can do something about it pa buuut). nakuha ko from grad school yung certificate of completed units ko.

gaaah. parang sobra sobra yung units sa expected ko?? di ko alam san galing mga yun until naisip ko na baka sumobra ako sa enrolled subjects 🫠 so inisa isa ko at parang sumobra nga ako ng core, pero kulang sa specialty?? shutaa?? parang gusto ko umiyak sa pag iisip ng nagastos ko pero kung nakakaluwag luwag lang ako sa buhay masaya ako thinking of the experience/s i gained from those.

pero di pa din tally ehh, 3 units lang sobra ko na core, kulang naman ng 3 sa specialty. ano yung 11 units na sobra??

idk what to feel, really.

well, nung una kong nakita yung units earned parang "shet! konting konti nalang pala (masaya/inspired) pero laking gastos nito kung babalikan ko (anxious, nanghihinayang/clueless)" and then this. HAHAHA.

dumadami na yung nsa listahan kung bakit fail talaga yung pinili ko ipush yung masters kahit na alam kong di ako ready mentally, emotionally, physically at financially just to appease the people around me and even myself, or so i thought. pero the irony pa din talaga that this time of life gave me life, in a way. ittry ko nalang siguro mag focus doon. ✨

[yellow-pikmin-posting]

ittried it. onncce!!!

ddonot eat. thhe tiny necttarshells. bad

tiney. ncter shells? whadto you mean i want to. acvoid them. for optmimal Eatign Experence

[thedevotionaltour]

GOT INTO ALL MY CLASSES AND IT WAS THE FIRST TIME THE WEBSITE WAS FUCKING NICE TO ME EVEN THOUGH ITTRIED TO TELL ME NO YOU CANT GET IN THESE CLASSES. YES I CAN AND YES I DID BITCH!!!!!!!

[loveslby]

Until now hindi ko parin maprocess na niloko mo ako. Pinagkatiwalaan at minahal kita ng buo, para ano? Para baliwalain mo lang lahat ng yon. You are the least person na naisip kong mananakit sakin, Gello. Since that day na nalaman ko, parang araw-araw mo akong pinapatay. Hindi ako makakain, tulog at hinga. Yung exchange namin ng screenshots, sobrang hirap isipin na nakikipagsex ka na pala since feb 2021 sa iba habang ok naman tayo. Hindi ko ma-imagine lahat na nagawa mo yun. Binigay ko naman lahat sayo Gello, alam mo yan. Alam ko hindi ako naging perpektong karelasyon pero hindi yun dahilan para lokohin at ituring mo akong basura. Nung gabing kinompronta kita, hindi na ikaw yung Gello na nakilala at minahal ko mula 2016. Ibang tao na yung kausap ko, arogante, disrespectful, narcissist at walang konsensya. Hindi ko alam anong nangyari sayo. Balik ka ng balik sakin para ano? Para saktan at bawian ako? Sa araw-araw na ginawa ng Diyos. Ikaw lang iniisip ko tuwing lumalabas ako with friends na mas gusto pa kota kasama ang hindi ko alam may iba ka na palang kinakasama, napakaunfair mo. Nakipagbreak ako nung 2020 kasi hindi ako ok, wala akong ibang kausap nun dahil mahal parin kita. 2021 dahil na guilty ako nung kumausap ako ng iba at naisip ko na hindi kita deserve, oo nga hindi pala talaga kita deserve sa ginawa mo sakin. Bumalik ako sayo at sinabing kong mahal mo parin ako at ittry natin ulit. Walang pagmamahal don kasi kung mahal mo talaga ako hindi ka makikipagsex sa iba habang tayo at inofficial mo pa. Napakasingungaling mo. Sa tuwing lumalabas ako kasama friends ko, iniisip kita na mas masaya ako kahit nasa bahay lang tayo. Pero may iba ka na palang kasama. Ibabalik ko lahat sayo ng sinabi mo sakin. Hindi mo alam kung gaano kasakit yung niloko at pinagpalit. Sneaky link mo lang siya Gello, ako kasama mo noon na lumaban sa buhay. 2 years mo lang sya kilala, tayo 6 years na tayong magkakilala. Yung 6 years na yun, none of it was real. And you threw it all away dahil sa ego and pride mo. Emotionally unstable ako and you ruined me. Ikaw lang pala magpapapunta sakin sa psychiatrist dahil sa anxiety at trauma na binigay mo. Araw-araw kong iniisip yung worth ko, na wala pala talaga akong kwenta, hindi ako worth it ipaglaban at kapalit palit ako. Sana masaya ka na. Sana hindi nalang kita nakilala.

[hindimakatulogsagabi]

sinendan ako ng friend ko ng link, hindi ko naman agad makita kasi private group pala yon kaya sinend nya sakin yung screenshot

Ano pinakamasakit na sinabi ng ex mo sayo? mabilis lang ako sumagot ng "Natrigger lang ako" kasi ayoko na din mag isip pa kasi madami lol.

pero inisip ko din talaga kung ano ba yung pinakamasakit na nasabi nya, siguro ayun nga, nung tinanong ko sya kung bakit pa sya bumalik kung iiwan nya din pala ako ulit? ang sagot nya "natrigger lang ako" ang sakit non kasi bumalik sya dahil natrigger lang, may pagmamahal ba dun? hindi ko sure. bumalik sya kasi may nagkagusto sakin iba. ayaw nya ako mapunta sa iba kaya bumalik. pag napunta ako sa iba, mawawala ako sakanya, feeling ko takot sya mag isa. for the longest time ako yung palaging nandito para sakanya eh.

tapos sakto, yung isang friend ko may sinend din sakin na tiktok video, about yung sa mga taong bumabalik. kapag daw minahal mo ng sobra sobra yung tao, and ginawa mo ang lahat para sa taong yun, babalik at babalik sya sayo. babalik sya pero hindi ibig sabihin na gusto ka talagang balikan, minsan they just want the validation na nakukuha sayo, namiss yung atensyon and care na binibigay mo. lalo na pag nakikita nya na nagiging okay kana, don sila bumabalik. kasi maiisip nila na yung dating naghahabol sakanya, masaya na, masaya na hindi na sya parte ng buhay mo, masaya kana na hindi sya kasama, so kelangan nilang icheck kung may access paba sya sa buhay mo, ittry ka iwin back, or may power paba sya over you.

hindi lahat ng bumabalik, gusto ka talagang balikan, confuse din sila na baka natrigger lang yung ego nya kasi hindi kana naghahabol o masaya kana na wala sya o may gusto ka ng iba. if binalikan ka daw and gusto mo pa sya talaga, make them work hard for it, na kelangan nyang iprove na gusto ka nya talaga sa buhay nya. kasi hindi madaling magmove on, hindi madaling mabroken, hindi madaling magsimula ulit, hindi madali ang magbuild ng confidence, ilulugmok ka tapos you will build yourself, pag nakita kang okay kana saka ka babalikan.

hindi din daw lahat ng bumabalik ay itinadhana, minsan its a test from universe if you learned your lesson. kelangan mo magdecide na kapag tinanggap mo sya at maulit lang yung nangyari, kaya mo bang bumangon ulit?

nung napanood ko yung video, saktong sakto talaga sa nangyari sakin. nung binalikan naman ako, hesistant pa din naman ako na tanggapin ng buong buo pero hindi sya nahirapan, tinanggap ko din naman agad. wala eh mahal ko talaga. neto ko lang din naman na realize na oo nga no binalikan ako hindi naman dahil mahal ako, takot lang syang mag isa pag napunta ako sa iba. kaya nung may nakilala syang bago, ganon lang kadaling iwan ako, kung ano ano pa idinahilan. hindi din naman ako binitawan ng biglaan, konti konti hanggat hindi umaamin sakanya yung taong gusto nya.

ewan ko, pano nakakaya ng iba gawin yung sinira mo na yung tao, yung taong walang ginawa kundi mahalin ka tapos nung naging okay na sya, binalikan mo kahit di ka sigurado, para ano, sirain ulit? hindi ba pwedeng maging masaya nalang kasi yung taong sinira mo, sawakas nabuo na ulit. ang selfish no? may mga ganong tao siguro na gusto nila sila lang yung masaya. syempre may kagaya ko ding tanga na tatanggap ng paulit ulit kasi tanga nga. lol.

[ultraheydudemestuff]

St. Augustine Roman Catholic Church (Old Pilgrim Church)

2486 W 14th St,

Cleveland, OH 44113

St. Augustine Parish in Cleveland, Ohio, has had a long and wonderful history. This is a story of a people of faith that began in 1860 and continues to this day. The parish has always been an "immigrant" community. At the very beginning it welcomed the Irish families that had settled in what is now called the Tremont area of Cleveland. Soon it welcomed people of German background, and then the other immigrant communities as they came to Cleveland. St. Augustine Parish was formed in 1860 as part of Ohio City's St. Patrick's Parish—one of the oldest Catholic parishes in the city. Other Tremont churches formed from St. Patrick's include Annunciation Greek Orthodox Church (1871) and St. John Cantius (1899).

The need for a new parish in Tremont arose as people of Irish descent began moving into the neighborhood. In 1896 the Cleveland Catholic Diocese purchased the old Pilgrim Congregational Church, whose congregation had recently moved into a new building at the corner of West 14th Street (Jennings Avenue) and Starkweather Avenue. The “new” St. Augustine had been built in the 1860s in Victorian Gothic style, replacing the original frame church which stood at Tremont Street and Jefferson Avenue.

St. Augustine is an interesting blend of Romanesque and Gothic styles. Its Romanesque features include a corbel table–that is, a line of stone blocks–below the roofline; large gables; and rectangular columns or pilasters. The pointed arches above several of the entrances are more Gothic in design. Later in its history, it welcomed members of the Hispanic community as they, too, came to Cleveland, and to meet the needs of the neighborhood's changing demographics began offering Spanish-language services in the 1970s. The congregation focuses particularly tightly on aiding the homeless and people with disabilities.

As St. Augustine welcomed all of these diverging communities to our parish, ittried to respond by ministering to them spiritually, educationally, and socially. The parish has become a place in which those most in need are honored and served. The parish was especially blessed to become the home to the Catholic Deaf community in 1964. Next, it welcomed members of the Catholic Blind community, and later still, it welcomed persons with mental illness. Later, it was honored to become the home to minister to all persons with disabilities. Persons with disabilities have helped to develop the parish mission and ministry, and has allowed it, for the last fifty-five years, to be place of special welcome to disabled people and their families.

Finally, efforts to respond to many needs of people and the needs of the larger community led to the establishment of the St. Augustine Center. That Center, through its daily meal programs, its holiday celebrations, its provision of clothing, utility and rental assistance, crisis ministry, and advocacy for persons in need, has made it possible for the parish to minister to those most in need. Located at 2486 West 14th Street, built in the 1860s, and sold to the Catholic Diocese in 1894, the building originally known as the Old Pilgrim Church is now the current home of St. Augustine Roman Catholic Church.

[orangesavannah]

Apathy chapter 1.5 continues, because ofc I have to make things tricky for myself.

You can read Apathy both on Tapas and DeviantArt

[alopex26]

Kyrisel my beloved <3 @orangesavannah

[leahjoyusi]

12.02

In hurt we find waysTo resonate with artTrying to make justice for itTrying to find peace In solitude we understandOur emotions, our worthWithout the other’s handWe write them down in paperHoping to make somethingOut of hurt We try to organizeThe feelings all insideA way to communicateTo the worldHoping someone would listenThose from afarBecause those who are nearWould never understand

[sunb0rn]

ittry ko na talaga mag post ng elyu pics bukas kahit wala nalang munang kwento 😭😭 super busy atih niyo

[sunshinelittlethings]

July 24, 2023 - Monday

Hi!

Ano ba ikwekwento ko? Uhm, boring naman ang bakasyon ko ngayon e HAHAHAHAHA wala talaga ako maichika kasi hindi naman ako lumalabas ng bahay, unless kung magsisimba or nagpapasama si Papa sa akin. Ayon lang routine ko sa house e. Hindi ko pa rin tapos yung Alchemy of Souls huhu puro basa lang ginagawa ko dito e.

Oh kahapon, after magsimba e umuwi kami ni Papa aba ang ginawa ko ay naglinis ng buong kwarto ko. Nagulat din ako sa sarili ko kasi hindi naman ako nagfufull general cleaning sa kwarto ko pero boogsh nakapaglinis ako at nilipat ko sa ibang pwesto yung ibang gamit ko sa kwarto. Ang ending naman ay nag oversleep ako kaya tanghali na ako nagising kanina.

Nagpunta din kami ngayon sa patahian kasi kinuha namin yung uniform ko at labgown kasi nagpaburda ako. Ayon lang talaga ang ganap ko sa July at yung hinatid namin sina Mama sa bus terminal kasi umuwi sila sa probinsya, hindi ako sumama e. Ano pa ba? Hmm, inaayos paminsan minsan ang Notion ko pero hindi ko maupuan ng matagal kasi natutuwa sa pagbabasa.

Ayon boring ang buhay ko ngayong bakasyon kaya alaws talaga ako masabi. Sa pasukan naman hindi naman ako sure kung makakapagblog ako lagi pero ittry ko magblog pa rin kahit isang beses sa isang buwan para naman updated kayooo kahit alaws nagbabasa neto HAHAHAHAHA. Safe space ko kasi ang Tumblr and hindi ko rin pinagsasabi ang account ko na to.

Anyway, ayon lang ang chika kooo. Bye na mga bb!

Song of the Day: Lucid Dream - aespa

[rhheyyy]

What is wrong?

What did I do wrong for you to say that you love me less than before? Is it because you’re already far away from me? Is it because you already achieved one of your goals? Hindi na ba ako kasama? I just want you to be honest. I just want you to share your feelings. And you said, masyado ka kasi makulit. And yun yung reason kaya di mo na alam kung mahal mo pa ako.

Everytime na malayo ka, lagi mo napaparamdam saakin na di ako valued. I don’t even know why am I staying. I feel neglected. I feel like I’m not valued. I want to move on, pero may pinanghahawakan ako. And if hindi na talaga at pinipilit na lang, gusto ko maging honest ka na, ngayon pa lang kasi alam mo, may feelings din ako. Laging rejected yung feelings ko. i just wanted to make you feel na I still love you despite the distance. To make you feel that I am here for you. Pero I sound cringey all the time, sinabihan lang kita na takpan yung legs mo, sabi mo, you’re responsible for what you wear. I get that, I just care for you. Para akong nag bebeg na alam kong wala naman na talaga. Kahit ilang beses ko sabihin na ittry ko wag pansinin ka, may mga questions akong gusto itanong. Gets ko na ikaw lang din gumalaw sa sarili mo kaya anjan ka ngayon. Ayaw mo mang spoonfed. Gets ko, pero sana wag mo ipamuka na wala akong ginagawa. Oo magaling ka, but not everyone is like you that why they are asking for guidance. 

To be honest, di ko alam kung maayos ko pa to, or kung hanggang saan yung panghahawakan ko. Di ko na alam yung emotion ko dapat. Maybe a listener need a listener too. Alam ko madami kang pinag dadaanan and problema sa sarili mong life. Gets ko yun, swear. Pero sana intindihin mo din ako. 

Di ko alam kung hanggang saan tayo, pero kung mag hihiwalay man tayo, next time I will value my worth. I’ll make sure that I will be loved. I will find the right one for me. 

I’m happy for you, really. I’m proud of you 100%. Pero di ko na alam ano dapat kong mafeel. Kung hahayaan ko na lang ba na ganito yung set-up. Hahayaan ko na lang ba na neglected yung feelings ko all the time. Di ko alam kung nafefeel mo yun, pero gets ko, you are on your own. And you are in your love yourself era. I’ll respect that until I’m fully healed and over you. I’ll just go with the flow and see where we are headed. I’ll know when I get there, I’ll move on even if you don’t ask me to. I’ll adjust because I feel like you want me to do that. Maybe I have to understand you as well, right? na ngayon mo lang nakasama family mo for so many many years living without a mom and dad. I do respect that. Pero paano ako? Paano yung nararamdaman ko? Anyways, my heart will eventually get tired. And I know myself. I’ll get over this eventually and will be a burden for me for so many many years, but I can manage. I need to handle everything alone. 

Kaya mo to. Matatapos mo to. Think of yourself and do everything by yourself now. Try not to ask her. Try not to message or update. Maybe she needs space. Or for me to be gone. Soon enough, it will be over. I promise you. It’s okay not to hold on. Wag mo na pahirapan sarili mo. Kaya mo yan, promise.

[iangago]

3/28

Maluwag sa side nila, most of the time tumatabi ako kasi nag eML ako kay Dad. Haha. Taposs, late si babe. Pero yun, tabi padin naman, tabi kami nag lunch, dami kinuha na tapa flakes tapos nuggets baon nya. HAHA. "Walang heart eh" aww 🥹

Tapos dessert ng dessert, so lumabas kami, bili mcdo, as usual, nakaw na mga sandali ulet. Tapos merienda, niretoke ko yung mac&cheese with cheese powder na. Yun, dami niya nakain 🥰

Uwian, nagyaya si Dad uminom sa carpark. Ayorn chika galore tska 3 sanmig apple. Tapos dumating si Shai, kalokang babae yon pakalaki ng dede. Muntik pang makisabay kay babe pauwi 🙄 no no no no 🙅🏻‍♀️

Idk, pero haha. Naging bakodera ako bigla. HAHA. De, syempre gusto ko lang din masolo bf wq. So safe na, tambay uli petpark. Usap. Sabi ko pano kung nag "no" ako sa proposal nya? ittry padin daw some other time. Luh ganun ka gusto na maangkin ako 😮‍💨🫠

"musta baby tellie ko" hays ❤️

May nasabi nanaman tungkol sa pag bakod. Wag babakuran future niya, oo naman sis ipalamon mo pa yan. Nainis lang ako kasi ano kala mo saken walang common sense.

Pero gusto ko tlga yung mabilis siya mag sorry... hays