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We ran out of food
#Do you see the vision#Happy halloween 🎃#simsam#selfship#simon petrikov#fionna and cake#adventure time#AND they were my favorite chipmunks#Had to make this before I have to wait for another year#Into the unknown I go back to
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Burning Rotten Bridges
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#mianmian#nie mingjue#jin guangyao#JGY is nothing but outwardly calm and carrying on his duties as the chair for the meeting#but in that small pause after Nie Mingjue commemorates Mianmian for leaving...you can feel the tension.#Because Nie Mingjue comes from a place of privilege. He's always been in a position where his legitimacy and political standing-#-were never challenged. He didn't have to fight for respect. He was born into this world respected.#For people like Mianmian and JGY who clawed their way up from the bottom...this is a huge deal.#Truth be told I have a lot of things to say about what it means and feels to be in a position where leaving is messy.#There are times where the situation is bad but to leave means that those years of your life will have been for nothing.#That all the other suffering incurred will be fruitless. So you just *keep going*. Because it *has* to be worth it.#Because going back to what you were before is even more terrifying than the hell you are boiling in.#My concrete example for this is post-grad academia.#Because that cohort will have spent over a decade pursuing a goal and leaving means...well...it means throwing away those years.#It means losing (likely nearly all) your connections. It means going into debt you'll never pay off.#It means putting up with some pretty heinous abuse from your supervisor because what are you suppose to do? Leave?#Leaving is for those with the privilege to have options.#And even if you do have options...#Ultimately we would rather love the pain we know than risk the unknown. Hoping it's worth it one day.#With that mindset established; never say JGY should have just left like Mianmian. He couldn't. This was what he dedicated his life to.#He never had the option. Even if it seemed like he did - no he did not. He never conceived this ending ever happening for himself.
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Insert a deep quote about seeing your grief in everything
#sobs hysterically#I just think about how Charles burried him#and was alone for an unknown period of time after leaving the wapiti#makes me wonder what he did and how he felt#I just wonder what kind of weight that would have on his mental state#of not knowing what happened#and knowing that the last time he saw Arthur was when he told him to go back to beaver hallow#AND ALSO NOT KNOWING WHAT HAPPENED TO THE OTHERS#SCREAMS#charles smith#rdr2 fanart#rdr2#rdr2 charles#charthur#high honor arthur morgan
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Prompt 209
Now Jason was planning on, well, a lot of things, when he came back to Gotham. He had a lot of plans, several of which had to do with the old man and even more that had to do with cleaning up Crime Alley, making it safer and all that.
What he was not planning on was to find some sort of lab in the basement of where he was planning on setting up a safehouse. Nor was he planning on finding several literal children in cages inside said lab. Oh and Lazarus Waters- but children! With muzzles! Being experimented on!
Now he’d like to say he had a plan in what happened next, but if he’s honest everything had gone Green and he didn’t remember what happened next, only that he’s back home with said children and covered in blood. Oh and everything smells of smoke.
… And apparently there’s more of these things dotted around Crime Alley with the rest of these kids, er, siblings? Family? Fright does mean family? Okay kids, he’s not turning into Bruce but you can stay here while he deals with this… however long that takes.
He better not be turning into Bruce he swears-
#DCxDP#DPxDC#Prompts#Liminal Class#Ghosts are Dragons#Halfa Jason Todd#Not that he knows that#The kids are sticking with him because he registers as Safe#And look they WERE teens but they’re not anymore and they’re TINY and in an UNKNOWN space with only like half their memories#They’re taking what they can get#Jason is very concerned the first time he witnesses them going partially dragon (even if they can’t do a full transformation yet)#He is freaking out way more when he Does fully transform in one of the later labs with no warning thx to one of the scientists shooting#something at him#Now the Bats are scrambling to find out about Hood because this no longer looks like crime lord bullshit#and more like a non-human entity whose offspring has been stolen and is attacking to get them back#Well from what can be seen from the Ecto spikes messing with tech#Jason has no clue how he ended up taking care of 13+ (why do you have so many shadow clones Kwan) children#Jason: Oh god my hoard is children I can never let anyone know#His Merry Men: Okay this is the safest person to leave our kids with and work for he would very much kill for any child#New Goon: Okay but are we gonna talk about the-#Merry Men: No we don't talk about the fact that he turns into a giant dragon and if anyone asks No He Doesn't
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what absolutely floors me is the way "Unknown (Nth)" is the song for Treachery, and yet is more about betraying ourselves rather than being betrayed. hozier says that, when the break-up happened, it felt as though his lover was chewing on his heart while it still beats, but he can only blame himself because entering a relationship is acknowledging the chance it may fail and still going through with it. AND THEN HE SAYS "i'd walk so far just to take the injury of finally knowing you" - meaning he would do it all again with the knowledge of failure because isn't that what he risked in the first place anyway? ,,,"Unknown (Nth)", the weapon that you are-
#if u guys want i will go full dante mode on how this relates to the most DEVASTATING part of inferno#btw ik i posted the article on this ages ago but im back to talk on it again#and how unknown links to eat your young because of it#the unknown > count ugolino > eat your young pipeline goes crazy#if his ( apparent ) new music in march is about inferno...#u guys will have to suffer so much ramblings from me im sorry in advance#hozier's inferno#unreal unearth#unknown/nth#lyric analysis#hozier
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its just funny to me that some bright individuals genuinely think that buck struggling to move on from tommy means something for bt. like buck the clinger? buck who was holding on to the idea of abby returning for MONTHS? buck who asked taylor to move in as a way to securing their relationship before he had to break out the bad news? nah dude he just has a hard time letting people go, tommy ain’t THAT special
#911 spoilers#911 abc#anti bucktommy#im also not saying tommy isnt special btw. im sure buck cares for him a lot for some unknown reason#like i personally dont get it but you do you buck#but i am saying that he has always been known to struggle letting go off people. like buddy has a hard time moving on but it doesn’t mean th#at theyre getting back together ??
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I miss u fnaf fandom I miss people having new interesting stuff to talk about like we did with SB and ruin and a large alive fanart and fanfic community and not ok this game had no comprehensible plot and this games plot was already revealed 2 years ago and its still like 6 months or more until it comes out
#sorry feeling sad about fnaf today 😔#its just like. as someone who was there the day sb dropped how did we get here to this point#went from bucketloads of potential with an engaging new era to boring#never letting any of the interesting main storylines appear on screen for years and years#like man#i thought the in between era with hw2 and the next game that was unknown at the time was the worst era#like the mains and the plot will come back eventually but its been 3 years borderline#the bonnie bully cassies dad tales books to game instead of the other way around 2 releases fully about the mimic stuff is just like#very disheartening#pandas.txt#discourse#went from exciting potential to ok so they just arent going to talk about anything ever again#ggy hints and hw2 candy cadet stories are the only things keeping me going#if they didnt exist id prob be actively giving up on them ever bringing 3 star back#& im not trying to say that bc i like 3 star & they havent been focused on everything is bad#they havent focused or done anything cool with VANNY gregory vanessa freddy ggy any of it#instead random shit like hw2 cassies dad mapbot death possession bonnie bully#like somehow theyve made everything about nothing + the mimic#plz announce the release before the end of the year already bc depending on what it is ill feel so much better#if we get hw2 dlc and it reveals if its about cassie vanny or cassies dad things will change so much
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Introducing the four hors- i mean the four band members that i made to bother Sol
the situation bro is in, i filled some templates below
I found the worldbuilding interesting in the game it kind of remind me of home so i wanted to make other characters to play in different places (i have been silently playing the sims in my head these months).
Cicada is supposed to take the role of the MC and share details of the backstory, the other are just to add drama and experiment with different dynamics. But they are all part of a band called Unknown Infestation. (to clarify those aren't their real names, they are just nicknames, also i have their stage names and real names somewhere else).
thisis a lot im sorry im almost done bear withme a little
the credits of the template are on the image but this is the post
the post it's getting too long i will leave it here;;
#the kid at the back vn#tkatb vn#tkatb oc#tkatb sol#the kid at the back sol#AHORA SI YA VALIO MADRES BANDA#sorry for throwing four guys in your face all of a sudden i feel that is better if i make one post with all of them than posting too much#these are from June or older and have been beating my brain with hammers since then someone tell them to stop#for a second there i thought of pairing them all with Sol at the same time that was a wild thought#but it wouldn't work they are going to kill eachother. anyways. i love the power of friendship#i had to draw Cicada's sprite again because i lost it idk where it is but i didn't want to trace it#watch me not talk about them again#okback to my enclosure 🍖#[UNKNOWN INFESTATION]#the 'four horsemen of the apocalypse' joke it's getting real every second i think more about it. it's over we aren't surviving this#*introduces band members *proceds to not elaborate on the band stuff or their backstories *leaves
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We report: our expert has taken us to see the sunset so that they could point out certain elements in the sky. Not for the first time, we try our best to follow, taking notes, asking questions. Not for the first time, we are glad that they are the expert, and we do the reporting.
#reports#reports from unknown places#digital art#illustration#sky#weather#artists on tumblr#image description in alt#clouds#sunset#here's a fun one again!#cumulus humilis#stratocumulus#cumulonimbus#supplementary features:#incus#mamma#i'm finding my footing with the tagging#i might have to go back to earlier ones to sort them out at some point#i think all this might prove useful in the future!#for clouds sleuthing purposes 🔎
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Surprise!🎉 Here I am back at it again making fanart for fics instead of finishing my own projects lmao
This is for @obsidiancreates cute and awesome rottmnt and TMNT 2012 crossover fic 'Out of the Shadows and into the Neon'!! U can read it right here!
Go read it go go go!! It's got turtle tots and found family and silly moments and sad times and everything. Go read it!! Shoo shoo it's good I prommy
#tmnt crossover#eueueue this is such a cute fic#tmnt 2012#rottmnt#the babies#the son boys🥺#im in a constant state of 🥺😭 and 👁️👁️ with this fic#OBSIDIAN I HOPE U LIKE IT!!#I LOVE UR FIC!!#unknown if i will make anymore Art for it my projects r really catching up to me LMAO#but dont hold me on any of that my hands make me a liar lol#i stared at SO many rottmnt references to get the rise fam right#why r they so hard to draw😭 especially splinter#lost several night 2 the ratman#tried changing my style too but alas it made my brain hurt#i had to go back and add stuff to this to make my brain stop screaming#slsksks#ill never let u go🌹(me to texture brushes)#rottmnt mikey#rottmnt leo#rottmnt casey jr#rottmnt splinter#turtle tots#splatter scribbles
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carlos' eyes in the meeting room........ carlos' eyes at the hospital..... at the IC room..... his guts are boiling with hot rage!!! this very stubborn hope. it's in the clench of his jaw since the funeral. the lump in his throat that he swallows back every time because that's how the gut-wrenching vestige of murder that hasn't received its justice yet feels like."i see it now. the eyes.." because that's the glimpse of the resolute unswerving gabriel in him that echos 'if there are tears to weep we do it when the time comes, not before'. you grief but you don't get defeated when there is still work to do in order to rest in that grief. and GODDD carlos is so righteously resolved about getting there. i want him so so bad to solve the case. finally bring that retribution and avenge his family and himself. he's been in the waxing and waning throes for too long he only deserves the purgation and finality of it more than anything!!!!!
because no way all of this relentless endeavour and sharp stubborn wit would culminate to anything but cracking it. even storytelling wise that would be disheartening not to bring it to its desired ends. because imagine. all this time carlos was so right about the rangers from the start. then he looped in. was kept so close under their wing. and then he now realises that he wasn't really truly '''stuck''' but he was trapped and misled instead and it's all tumbling down now over their heads and he's seeing through the cracks. finally the darkness makes sense and he can move in action through the pinnacle and into the resolution!!!
#i have deeper problems with takes that invalidate how important this is to carlos because it sees that letting go has equal psychological.#moral and emotional outcomes to pursuing justice and you shall be just fine after abandoning it after a certain amount of time as if that's#also not part of your life. it doesn't set right with me at all and I'd like to talk more about#like damn i know it's JUST A SHOW!! but every bit of me aligns with carlos' moral clarity about all of this. how he carries this#responsibility. how he holds himself accountable for the mistake he made when he wasn't seeing clear. how he doesn't back down but#simultaneously lives his life. getting married. being present in his marriage and trying to do better when he needs to (and i also have#issues with the disjointed and often contradictory storytelling here)#I just like to watch a story about justice winning because you didn't soften on injustice. because the path of this compelling instinct has#a price after all. i'll hate it so much if he didn't catch him at the end. or didn't at least reach a satisfying closure. I'll hate the#throwing of all of this into the unknown — to pacify it instead of treating it properly.#especially when that's a show about this exactly — the job!!! — these characters have the authority and the tools that allows them to#accomplish the mission. more or less#carlos reyes#911ls#5x08
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I listen to The Red Gate by 1000 eyes for the hit game signalis and I try not to ugly cry about it
#WHY IS THIS SIGNALIS SONG IN PARTICULAR THE ONE THAT GETS ME#man just. the way it ends abruptly. the thing reaching out to you is cut off from you.#it ends right as the radio screeching starts swelling and to me!!! that is Ariane!!!#she’s calling to you#Elster#in the only way she can now#it’s just so good. it’s got that vibe of exploration and danger#you’re going to pass through into the unknown!!! no turning back you can’t now#you’re being summoned#maybe it’s not that idk I should see when it pops in game#but yeagh#lynx rambles
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The new CG has me in a mood (and the mood is punk goes pop) ʕ≧ᴥ≦ʔ🤘
#hello im back fromt he shadowban realm#back with a vengeance#I know the CG is supposed to be Ray dressed as Unknown.. but#I cant stop thinking about Unknown rocking out all his pent up emotions with music#and he just looks SO COOL#SO PUNK ROCK#I must admit my elder emo came thru a little with this one#I just adore him so much#This was my excuse to do a character study#I stared at so many stock images of dudes with guitars to do this and idk if i learned anything lol#Anyways i would be in the front row begging him for the sweaty shirt right off his back#thinkin bout how hed react if someone threw their bra on stage LOL#also lets not talk about how i got lazy & stopped drawing his jacket & pretend that actually he just got hot & had to take it off#the brainrot is still going strong#saeran choi#mysme saeran#mystic messenger#mysme#mystic messenger unknown#mysmeunknown#my art
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Alright-y, so in case anyone missed it, we've recently gotten some information from Quackity that he's most likely doing some new project, that seems to involve multiple languages, once again. Kinda like QSMP?
Maybe EXACTLY like QSMP…????
Or maybe not
Basically, the way I see it, it is pretty likely that this is QSMP-Related, what with the images that he's been posting recently, with the GODDAMN EYE GUY
However, even if it is QSMP-related, there is something that would need to be addressed
And that's that it's incredibly unlikely we'd be getting QSMP back in the form we knew it as
Honestly, I don't really see many of the Admins returning, Egg or otherwise. Whether it's by their own choice, or the choice of the powers-that-be. And I think we all know that all the Admins, Egg or otherwise, were a huge part of what made QSMP special
In addition to that, there's also a chance that with that sort of outcome, a lot of the Creators wouldn't be coming back either. I could kinda see some of them not returning even if the Admins DO come back. I know a few of them had more sour experiences with QSMP than others did, and I couldn't really blame them for not wanting to give it another shot
So even if this is QSMP, there's a HIGH chance it won't be the same server we knew
But I don't necessarily think that's a bad thing. After all, I'm pretty sure the Eggs weren't initially MEANT to be as big as they were, which means that there HAD to be some plans for other stuff at one point or another
Hopefully…
Now obviously this is ALLL just, as usual, ✧˚⊹SPECULATION~!⊹˚✧
I'm not a psychic, and I don't know jack-all about what's been going on behind the scenes regarding QSMP or anything Quackity-related. I'm just making educated guesses and reminding everyone to temper their expectations, and try not to be too disappointed if this isn't exactly what you were hoping for
Because even if it isn't, I think it could still be something pretty fun, and I'll probably at least give it a chance regardless of whatever it winds up being
(Except maybe Purgatory 3, because I think I had enough of those vibes during my recent Purgatory 1 Re-Watch)
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(Oh who am I kidding I'd probably end up checking out Purgatory 3 at least once I have a problem okay???)
#Personally I'm not sure I could be as invested if certain creators didn't come back#Namely Philza#Do I think for sure he wouldn't return?#Idk#But he didn't show up for the finale for reasons unknown#And that kinda makes me think he isn't likely to join back up#Though I could very easily be wrong#Or have just missed whatever reasoning he gave for not being there#Not to mention a lot of the other creators had their own lore finales#That they'd have to essentially undercut if they wanted to return#And of course there's the treatment that a lot of the (specifically French) Creators got#Like I'm pretty sure Baghera was consistently having troubles for one reason or another#Whether it was because of fans#Or just certain stuff going on in the server#A lot of the other French Creators got a lot of harassment too#With I think Aypierre (or Antoine) leaving twitter just a couple days ago because of it#Not to say it was limited to JUST the French Creators#I know that there was a lot of vitriol for the Portuguese-speaking part of the fandom at one point and that SUCKED to see go down#I guess at the end of the day there's a lot of room for negativity#And there was a lot of negativity in general that could influence how things go from here#But there were some good things too#So I think we just need to make sure to acknowledge both the good and the bad moving forward#If there is a forward from here#Guess we'll see huh??#qsmp
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@vulpixisananimal sifstem art jumpscare!! more specifically i got bored and decided to mess around with sif and mal's outfits.
#my art#this is how I think theyd present themselves either in person or in headspace. the slouchers <3#sifs outfit is simple; the boots i always give them (but with star laces for funsies); loose sweater; simple pants#the pants are Meant to be jeans but isat doesnt Specifically Have Jeans so. theyre just Pants.#the sweater is slightly looser bc sif doesnt seem like a Form Fitting Clothes kinda guy to me but hes Trying to be more open#on particularly good days theyll roll the sleeves up or wear a sleeveless one methinks#even if everyone Knows abt the self-harm scars its hard to Look at them.#i also associate them being more open with them not wearing an eyepatch. esp bc hes the only one of the three to go without it#for mal (or 'ami' as i like to call it) i wanted smth reminiscent of a mourning outfit bc mal du pays means homesickness#and i picked 'ami' as a nickname bc ami means friend :] at least according to my basic translator. i dont speak french <3#ami's outfit being dark is also reminiscent of the inversion thing its got going on in canon.#ik the veil is starred in the original but i think ami would want the fewest reminders of home. on account of The Issues#(actually if i can come back to sifs laces sif also has issues with reminders of it bc of the memory loss but the shoelaces are His Choice—#—which gives them a form of control over it and they can keep it subtle or undo it if he wants. which makes it easier)#anyway. i put amis hair in an updo and smoothed the hat bc i think ami wants to be Unremarkable. Unknown. so it keeps its silhouette Simple#(it still keeps the pins. theres smth comforting abt them. they shine like stars and theyre not stars and theyre not Home. but theyre You.)#and i kept the long hair i gave loop. dont ask me why its so long when the canon hair is short. maybe their hair kept growing over the loop#OH and i drew ami in a side profile bc Silhouette and also bc i think itd make an effort to keep people away from its blind spot#andddd i think thats about it? plus i actually managed to keep this one within a reasonable timeframe.#if their hair changes lengths/the proportions change between drawings. no they dont 💛 peace and love and body craft#OH AND YOU FINALLY GET TO SEE WHAT I MEAN ABT SIFS BOOTS BC THESE ARE THE BOOTS I GAVE THEM ON MY REGULAR DESIGN ARENT THEY NEAT#i did actually try to give sif a different font but nothing Works for them like the pixel font. i cant explain it.#i think 'ami' would be a nickname that mira gives it. bc. shes Fantasy French. and its a sort of 'youre more than your yearning/loss' thing#me every time i think abt sifstem: yeah they just rotate in my head. nothing major#me every time i talk abt sifstem: oh hey im almost at tag limit again#au Good what can i say
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Okok so I have this request that's technically lip x m!reader x Ian where lip and reader are in a relationship but Ian has had a crush on reader since he started hanging out with lip. And once they officially started dating, Ian was pretty much heart broken about it but reader is oblivious to it so they stay friends. Until the relationship starts to get rocky with them arguing all the time (as canon lip high key sucks at being in relationships) and it eventually leads to Ian comforting reader after a dramatic fight with lip and Ian confesses and maybe they kiss 🫶
Bar Fights and Candle Light
IAN GALLAGHER X MALE READER
Summary: You're flawed, but Ian will scream he loves you for it until he's blue in the face.
Content Warnings: Toxic relationship dynamics, reader has been cheated on, impulsiveness, poor attachment styles, sexual implications
Other Pairings: Lip Gallager x Male Reader
AUTHOR NOTE(S):
Hey Anon I'm ngl it's 4:30 in the morning rn
Much to my misfortune, I woke from my sleep at 2am and had an unbearable urge to finish this so lucky for you 🫶
This starting to look a little like a twilight scene..
Anyway, usual shameless stuff, lip is lip, reader is flawed to a determinate blah blah blah
Hope you enjoy 😛
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Lip Gallagher held the kind of charm that reminded you of drunk bar fights and somehow, simultaneously, roses. The kind of trouble that ends with an eyebrow raise and the kind of kindness that gets you on your knees.
As much as you loved him, the man really had no sense of what loyalty was and instead seemed to revert to breaking the hearts of every girl he had ever slept with.
You knew such things well and your ogling from a distance soon became a thorne in your side that you wished to diminish.
You met Lip when he accidentally stumbled upon a gay pride rally. How he'd got there? You weren't entirely sure of those facts even now.
Four months after you'd befriended him and simultaneously, his red-headed brother, when you'd lost your dignity and, later, your boyfriend, Lip had looked at you with, if not genuine empathy, then interest.
"I know what will make you feel better. " He had urged, and you had just rolled your eyes and pressed your face further into the warm pillow.
You had just been cheated on, and nothing Lip could say would be as appealing as lying in the rundown springs of your mattress to inevitably– sink in with them.
However, the things he could do was a different story.
When you, in a half drunken state amongst the alibi a few days later, admitted to what had occurred in your bed the same night your boyfriend dumped you for a woman, of all people, Ian was –for some reason– under the assumption you would've rejected Lip's idea in entirety.
"Wait, " he laughed, his finger prodding the side of your ribcage until you were squirming with a wince, "you–really?"
And he could not believe his ears when you told him the truth of it.
Ian learned two things that night.
One, his brother had more flavoring within him than he otherwise assumed.
And two, no matter how much he tried to shove his affections for you, they only seemed to grow stronger.
Into the next months, however, where it was not entirely shocking, but rather, indescribably insufferable to Ian, you entered a very hot and heavy romance with a rather short and bitter soon-to-be-ending with his brother.
He was doomed.
He knew it from the moment the blush touched your cheeks and not your ears when you spoke of Lip.
And every second of it felt like searing hot daggers plunged and twisted into his stomach.
Ian wanted to resent you but everything you did, be it picking apart the little lies around his brother or, right down to the way your brow pinched in concentration when you played UNO, had Ian just adoring you more.
It was probably unhealthy how quickly he had fallen and you should've noticed the intensity of his stare.
But, nevertheless, your sight was akin to that of a bat.
And Ian cursed you for it.
What he also cursed you for was not understanding his pain.
Falling for the wrong person.
Sure, Lip was charming and deceptively gorgeous but he was as cold and disfigured as a snowman that seemed to melt no matter where he went.
Oh, and how you were the sun that shined down on him.
"You're just-! Fucking-!"
"What, Lip!? I'm fucking what!?"
The unsavory sound of the two of you came to Ian's ears on a Saturday morning.
Like a dog who's been kicked around, Ian reluctantly walks up the stairs with a heavy sigh and a headache already blooming within his skull.
Knowing you and his brother, he braces himself for the worst with a wince.
"For fucks sake!" Lips' voice pitches to an all time high when Ian removes the physical barrier of wood between he and the two of you, the first thing he sees being the redness of his brother's neck, and then the vein popping from it as he yells at you. "You're a real piece of work you know? Fucking selfish. "
"Oh–I'm selfish?"
Ah, and your voice, laced with salt and hurt, such a strange contrast from what he swore to be giggling 5 minutes ago.
"Lip.." he begins to warn, though if anyone catches the genuine concern within him, no one seems to bother notice.
"You are so fucking unbelievable, Lip! You realize what a fucking wreck you are, don't you?”
Ian's head spins with a stutter of thoughts.
He doesn't have the fortitude to beg this to stop nor the confidence to storm away.
His only options, and the ones he decided were best, was to wait until the dust cleared–the chances of things growing civil between the two of you was extremely high, when not fighting, you were an absolute sweetheart, however much you looked tough to be –but never once did Ian try to stop the arguments.
Because inside of him, the part that is far too gone for you, was vindictive and wickedly happy with the idea that you were growing discontented with his brother.
He knew –while guilty over the idea– it wouldn't make you easier to have.
"Youre too fucking clingy, Y/N! I can't breathe around you! I can't even stand to look at you sometimes, fuck!”
The pure, toxic rage spews forth from Lip's lips and Ian winces at the harshness of it.
He hated to see people yell like that.
You, however, were unrelenting as you shouted, like an echo through the house, the vicious noise came to him again.
And as you moved in pace, fists tight and feet steaming for the friction with the floor, Ian was in a comatose-like state and had no trouble tracking the beautiful anger you expelled.
"You fucking asshole!"
You started with a shove that sent Lip halfway across the room. There were tears springing from your eyes and the water glistened like stars.
When you shoved Lip again, his back hit the wall and while not very strong, was still heavy enough to make an ungodly thump.
Lip grabbed your forearms with a fierceness sure to burn through your bones, though everything within him was shattered, down, down, to the core of his heart.
Yet, all he could do was continue to yell obscenities right back into your face.
That is, until Ian had had enough.
The redhead stepped forward and finally yelled your name, much louder than he usually did.
Which was a bit horrifying and nerve-racking and every negative synonym to such an event.
He had to force himself in between the two of you to push you apart and without thinking, his palm smacked you square on the chest in an attempt to set you aside and there was barely a beat in between your hit to the floor and Lip's hands thrown around his shoulders.
"What the fuck is your problem, man?!" His elder brother seethes and Ian doesn't flinch.
"My problem?" He grinds and before Lip can let the flame singe him more, Ian shoves him off of him like it's nothing. "My fucking problem is the two of you. You can't keep yelling at each other like this, jesus. Grow the fuck up. "
If he hadn't seen the shame fill the space of where you both were only minutes ago, he might not have expected you to hang your head and break out crying.
"Oh, for fucks sake. " Was the exclamation of exasperation Lip gave to you, sighing angrily at the sight of you sobbing.
It made you cry harder, feeling betrayed by even his outburst.
Ian thought his lungs might explode.
"Hey-" Lip tried but when his hand came near you you were quick to smack it away.
Lip had made an attempt to further his explanation but you promptly cut him off with an ear shattering yell.
"Get out! Get the fuck out! I don't want to see you again you fucking piece of shit!"
The fiery look in his dark eyes contrasted awfully to your words of pure, burning red.
Hurt, is what he showed.
Broken, is what he felt.
"Fine. " He dared and your nostrils flared.
The door slammed shut not long after he finished, the sound leaving your eardrums ringing and your mind racing, filled to the brim with all the hatred you could possibly have for a single man.
The last emotion you thought you would have to battle, however, was empathy.
It was quiet.
With the tears still leaking from your face, your palms lifted to press against the spaces of your sockets and you hiccuped pathetically to no one.
No one except Ian who had slowly, after the initial shock had worn off, carefully inched his way across the floor towards you.
Right now, Ian held the kind of charm that reminds you of drunks that carry with them the very essence of a candle lit room and some kind of naiveté that was hard to put a finger on.
The kind of trouble that ends with the tightening of sheets and the kind of kindness that just breaks the dams.
He, unbeknownst to your knowledge, had learned how to treat you for a long time now.
He saw the way the plump of you lips tightened when Lip didn't make it home on time and didn't send word, the way the skin around you eyes grew darker when not sleeping in the same bed and the twitching of your hips when kissed anywhere less than suitable for a child.
From the comfort you sought within yourself and within your friends, to the tears shed all alone in your bathroom, Ian became quite versed in everything that made you, you.
"Hey, " the word comes out as soft as his heart feels and you don't move to acknowledge his presence. The sudden relief that sits beneath your skin has him gaping open with an ache pulling at his heart. "Hey, what did he say?"
You shake, maybe not violently, but enough for Ian's hands to move like magnets toward you.
They rest on the sides of your legs at first because that's where you're tucked, hiding and deserted. All alone in your cave as you try to collect the shattering pieces but all you feel is shame.
When Ian attempts to gather you closer, you fall apart and so he comes together.
"I'm sorry he's such an asshole. " He breathes into the side of your hair, rubbing his thumb along your back.
"He–" You hiccup, your body rising and falling again and again before you could get the sentence out. "He said he wasn't attracted to me. "
Ian thought he should vomit.
Or rip Lips cock clean from his body.
"He lied. " Ian insists and he wonders where that came from but when you sigh it's to shift and press your head down the top of his shoulder. His fingers run along the bones of your spine as he ponders for a moment.
"You're fucking hot, Y/N. " Is the next thing he says, hoping to encourage the confidence, but what takes over Ian when he sees the blush form so fast on your neck, is the absolute need to impress you with his tongue.
"Yeah?" Your tone isn't flirty or surprised, rather, exhausted, in need of someone who's not belittling you.
It's everything Ian is and feels.
You laugh softly next, but it feels sarcastic and cynical.
"Everyones attracted to you. " He tells you then and lets the gentle thumping of his chest bring you to solace. "Even me. "
His statement gives the impression of an abnormality.
Your heartbeat halts its rapid state and Ian tries not to flush when the thought of an engagement or invite forms illustrate inside his head; all from an accidental confession.
You, none the wiser, have the audacity to open your eyes and look up at him from beneath your lashes.
When you see him, he seems as though he himself is an extension of a person made of every emotion there is that you haven't learnt how to properly decipher, yet somehow, you felt connected to him for it.
"You're nice. " You say it like there's a small child in front of you, too young to understand you, too old not to want to speak to you.
Your voice is small and the sound it makes is akin to that of a mouse.
While it amazes Ian and has a great hold on his heart, he also knows you've only used the simplest way to describe his softness.
He stares back at you, frozen in a way he can't describe, his heart hammering like he's been told to run a mile and been given nothing but the anticipation of knowing it was, in fact, coming.
When he cups your jaw, the gesture is out of place for two friends, certainly, though your eyes close, serene.
You did not take his statement to heart.
But he meant it with all of his.
As usual, Ian was drowning.
Into another night of contemplating the intricacies of his next move and of the next possible one itself.
Because, without context, it appeared his brother had left him with his ex, sitting alone together, and would probably be fucking the living daylights out of any girl he could get a grasp on.
Lip had a poor source of regulating his emotions.
But so did you.
However, more than just the want to steal you away as his own, Ian felt the need to help you.
The kind of want that hurts like starvation.
‘You okay?’
Was the thing you'd often say to Ian before slipping into bed beside Lip and watching him slink from room to room.
Back and forth in a weird paranoia and an annoying kind of behavior that you couldn't quite put your finger on.
Every time you asked, however, he was adamant on not opening his mouth for anything but a yes.
And you stared at him strangely, the same way you were now.
Again, Ian's lips parted for just one word.
"What?" He asked with a sort of soft laugh that felt like you were a leaf spinning gracefully in the wind across a green, fruitful park.
"You're sort of beautiful. " You told him, without 2nd thought, and Ian jolted.
"Ha. " He laughed –or at least breathed it in a laughing manner, if the strain against his lungs was of any significance– and the warmth was instant.
"Thanks.."
Ian knew.
And you were unaware, but you knew, too.
"He doesn't deserve you, Y/N. "
With every inch of his body aching to scream a declaration, what it resulted in instead was a calm sincerity with an earnest kind of gleam in his eye.
"I know. " You spoke it as a whisper, like it was forbidden and someone would have your head for it. But Ian's reassurance is enough to allow your shoulders to slump as they give out under the weight of the world.
Like Atlas, who caved at the sight of eternity, you feel it too.
Feels as though he were holding up, not the moon, not the stars, not the sun, not the planets, not the earth.
But you.
"Ian. " You said it, ghostly.
A call, something dark and heavy inside of you, the kind of dense which reminds you of death, rising and falling, beckoning you in a way that could only end poorly for yourself and any other life you might choose to cherish.
"Yes.." Ian acknowledged, more a breath against your skin than actual words from his heart.
"Kiss me. "
You didn't allow him the patience for one extra second.
Reaching up, you captured Ians lips with a simple tilt of his head, kissing him like it was the last time you ever would.
There was an odd feeling resonating within you.
One that said, this will most definitely not end well, it was the kind of thing you never seemed to listen to, even before, with the way you treated life like it were the ocean and you were trying to find Atlantis.
Like that, Ian became the kind of addict you held.
It started with the gentle way he kissed, his hands running small tracks down the curve of your cheeks and even smaller ones down the line of your jaw.
"What is this?" He managed to whisper between his lips that began to overtake yours, the glide smooth and succulent.
You don't know the words to respond.
Ian is no fool.
But for you, he resigns the right to be.
And he's kissing you like you're made of sugar and honey and he's been starving in a desert for days. The craving is hard to sate when it's been long fulfilled, the love never gone, the want and desire still constant.
How can this be so wrong? You can't even register the thought because it feels so delicious.
Maybe when one door closes, another opens, but neither was meant to be swung with a latch.
Maybe this is wrong; his conscience tugs, but he doesn't care.
You both ascend, but it's pure teenage stupidity that you enter this together, a high reaching just below the clouds, and you couldn't see past his eyes.
Couldn't see further than the feelings and the affections he gives you; that Lip had somehow left so much that Ian could easily fill up the vacancy.
Fill it so well that, this, all of this, is alright.
Just for now.
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