#Interpreting Facial Signs
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harmandip Ā· 7 months ago
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"Ayurvedic Face Mapping"
Introduction: Ayurveda, the ancient science of life and wellness, teaches us that our bodies are interconnected systems, with each part reflecting the state of our overall health. One fascinating aspect of Ayurveda is face mapping, a practice that looks at specific areas of the face to gain insights into our health and well-being. By understanding the signals our face sends us, we can identifyā€¦
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maleloli Ā· 1 year ago
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Masking my sensory problems less than before making my whole family worried cuz they interpret my body language in some way when i literaly just needed to come home take off my pants and watch bionicle videos in the dark
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charliesangels2fullthrottle Ā· 2 years ago
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honestly it's been such a long time since I've had a conversation in ASL. I wonder how it would interact with my tics
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myun-saidthoughts Ā· 9 months ago
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šŸ„€ Astrology Observations šŸ„€
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šŸ¦‹ Water house synastry increases or creates co-dependent behaviors
šŸ¦‹ When dealing with 12th house synastry and unrequited love/dismissive behavior from one person (as the planet person or the person who has more Pisces/12H/Neptune influence) often times, they may struggle with over emphasizing "synchronicities."
Example: Their name randomly pops up on your FYP/Twitter or what not and even though they haven't spoken to you in weeks or months even, falling into a dilemma where you tell yourself this is a "sign" to text them or that they are thinking of you may occur.
Example: If you find yourself constantly checking their social media, you might start interpreting their story posts as covert expressions of their feelings for you. In turn, you might even resort to dropping subtle hints on your own social media, hoping they'll notice and reciprocate the attention.
Example: You may accept the fact that this person no longer thinks of you but they could post one (1) vague story, comment, picture, tweet and if that said post could have *any* relation to you, then a part of you (or all of you) may believe that it's confirmation that they like you again or that they are thinking of you again, regardless of outside or external factors that have happened.
Falling into a delusional hole is likely and unless there are consistent clear and prominent signs or words that they are not thinking of you or that they are interested in someone else, a part of you will fixate and wonder if what they are posting is for you, about you or to you.
šŸ¦‹ Virgo Moon criticize's themself harder than they criticize others
šŸ¦‹ Sagittarius Sun + Taurus rising creates a very optimistic, grounding, and stable individual regardless of trauma or hurt. (Needless to say everyone has their breaking point)
šŸ¦‹ Capricorn Moon men with a water rising + have polarized emotional feelings. They become extremely uncomfortable with feelings yet emotions run high and they could have outburts
šŸ¦‹ Capricorn Moon individuals have a very harsh relationship with their mother, either she was cold, dismissive, strict or uncommunicative. A part of their soul felt un-nurtured or cared for in a way that they needed.
šŸ¦‹ Moon square Neptune in a birth chart indicates a mother who struggled(s) with addiction, reality, or with mental health. The tighter the orb the more severe or prominent the mother's behavior was towards the child.
šŸ¦‹ People with natal 4th/8th/12th or have prominent Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces placements that have harsh aspects towards Neptune/Pluto/Chiron/Lilith may prefer intense water house synastry
šŸ¦‹ Sagittarius, Virgo + Aquarius in a birth chart can indicate a highly intellectual and intelligent soul. They may have a gift of photographic memory.
šŸ¦‹ Heavy Libra/Leo/5H placements all give off the same aesthetic in my opinion, very feminine, they attract more than they chase
šŸ¦‹ Mars oppose/conjunct (sometimes square) Moon + Venus synastry creates intense and obvious attraction between one another, you may experience a heightened desire for intimacy with them, possibly leading to an increase in your usual level of sexual expression; especially if you are objectively very attracted to them.
šŸ¦‹ Mars conjunct/oppose ascendant synastry can create jealousy or dislike towards the ascendant person if both parties are the same sex. (Especially if there has been one awkward encounter where Mars's confidence was affected because of Mars's own personal core wounds)
šŸ¦‹ Leo Moon/Venus need their partner to show them off. Their partner has to openly and loudly claim them, not in an annoying or suffocating way but in a way where they feel instantly validated or wanted; to the point where everyone naturally notices
šŸ¦‹ Scorpio/Pisces + Neptune aspecting the MC/ASC) rising's have similar facial features
I've noticed that Scorpio + Neptune aspecting the MC/ASC can creates that emo aesthetic (also heavy Pisces individuals as well can fall into that aesthetic too)
šŸ¦‹ Jupiter in the 8H indicates your family (or others around you, people/partners) has or have had wealth, whether that be from your/their parents, grandparents, and so forth.
šŸ¦‹ Malefic planets like Pluto's or benefic planets like Jupiter placed in the 2H/8H house showcases dealing with an extreme theme when it comes to money; in some point of life
Pluto in the 2H/8H showcases extremities of having money then losing it all, becoming obsessed with money, or receiving high sums of money and becoming careless with it; power trips could occur where you can't be given your money because of higher authorities or officials (2H) or because of family issues with tax documents and trusts (8H) etc. Truly the themes here that can manifest are endless and as always aspects/full natal charts paint the better picture.
šŸ¦‹ 11H Moon individual's give so much to their friendships, it's as if no matter how many times they get burned by someone, their soul still asks and searches for a the kind of friend they are.
(Bonus if they have 12H placements too then the search for authentic, considerate and kind souls feel like a never ending battle that they keep losing too and no matter how many times they feel burned they still keep searching)
šŸ¦‹ Moon conjunct Pluto in a composite chart creates the same intensity as 8th House/Pluto synastry; the relationship can't be light.
šŸ¦‹ 5H synastry increases the chances of partying with one another. You may see them out often or make plans that involve the night life/parties. Childlike fun behaviors can also occur and with one another energies are lifted and there is no negativity.
šŸ¦‹ With past life connections: when you are with them, 1 hour feels like 10 minutes; before you know it 6 hours pass and you don't even realize it.
šŸ¦‹ Heavy Aries placements (especially Sun or rising + chart ruler) tend to prioritize the gym and their body. Working out comes so natural to them.
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moonastro Ā· 8 months ago
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Juno persona chart
the moon in the house
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what is a juno persona chart? looking into juno persona chart gives more detailed insight of how the relationship and marriage overall of you and your spouse will be like. it also describes them in a sense as well. The Greek Goddess Juno is described to rule over love and marriage and hence why the asteroid is looked into for that theme.
the moon rules over emotions, comfort and your most inner feelings. in the juno persona chart, the moon represents emotional connections, intimacy and the nurturing qualities within the marriage.
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reminder: this is my interpretation from observations and first hand experiences, so don't take this to heart.
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moon in 1st house: this placement gives the impression of needing and having the urge to help and nurture their partner. this placement tends to give their other half a very self aware approach to their emotions, this may cause them to share and express it openly in the relationship. they are conscious about their emotions and this is the type to show how they feel on their face- their facial expressions are very strong. deep down this placement takes pride in their ways of dealing with their emotions and how they show it to their partner. since they have very expressive facials they may expect others to know what they are feeling without the need to talk about them. marriage will be full of affirmations about each others pride and existence.
spouse can have natal moon in aries, 1st house, fire sign.
moon in 2nd house: emotional connections are very common with this placement. seeking for financial security withing the relationships can be a priority here. this placement can definitely cause a couple to have good careers and just overall very career focused and determined- very hardworking. this placement calls for attaching themselves very easily to their partner so be careful not to become possessive over each other. another thing with this placement is that they usually feel that they need to work hard in order to allow themselves to rest and have their comfort, and these individuals love their comfort so they will thrive for it. in marriage as a whole, can be good with nurturing each others emotional states and good at making each other feel better. for example if your partner is having a bad day, you will be the first person they'll come to reassure themselves. both parties love to eat and have a good hearty meal together. i feel like it can bring nostalgia when you have food with your other person and it becomes a staple in your every day routine. it can be a simple snack that changes the days mood for this placement. speaking of moods, the mood of the marriage can fluctuate and can sometimes feel out of the blue when the change does happen without any context.
spouse can have their natal moon in taurus, 2nd house, earth sign.
moon in 3rd house: the moon here give attentive tendencies towards the way the couple communicates with each other. they feel each others sudden moves and are sensitive about the comments the other has to say. i feel like talking can be comforting and just sharing how each others day went and what little errands they did that day and overall making one another think about a question can make the other feel better. this placement may like to vary their way of communicating and sharing their interests. talking about each others trips that they took or about school when they were younger can make one another feel excited and comforted and it can be something one another can relate and ask questions about. like why did you do that, how did that happen? and so on. there can be emotions shared when talked about each others life when you were younger and the neighbourhood that you lived at that time, it may hold some emotional memories from that time.
spouse can have their natal moon in gemini, 3rd house, air sign.
moon in 4th house: family dynamics may play a significant role in shaping the individual's approach to relationships. This placement understands and respects their family values and traditions, and may prioritize building a family of their own. Conversely, this placement may also indicate that the individual themselves are nurturing and caring towards their partner. They may naturally take on the role of providing emotional support and creating a comforting environment within the relationship. security within the marriage is important. this placement is very supporting and empathetic for their other half. if their partner is hurt, they are hurt, they feel what they feel very easily and it can be quite consuming.
spouse can have their natal moon in cancer, 4th house, water sign.
moon in 5th house: Individuals with this placement may express their emotions most strongly within romantic relationships. They may seek partners who appreciate their romantic gestures and who provide them with emotional warmth and affection in return. There is often a strong connection between emotional expression and creativity in relationships. These individuals may find fulfillment in creative pursuits with their partners, such as artistic projects or hobbies they enjoy together. The 5th house also relates to children, so individuals with this placement may have a nurturing and protective instinct toward their own children or those of their partner. They may prioritize creating a loving and supportive environment for their family.
spouse can have their natal moon in leo, 5th house, fire sign.
moon in 6th house: Their sense of emotional well-being may be closely tied to the environment in which they work and the people they interact with on a daily basis. This placement also suggests that the individual may seek partners who share similar values regarding work ethic, service, and daily routines. Additionally, the Moon in the 6th house of the Juno persona chart may indicate that the individual's emotional state can be influenced by their health and overall well-being. They may need to maintain a balanced and healthy lifestyle in order to feel emotionally stable and fulfilled. this placement is a healer, their doings are a work of art and the couple instantly heal each others vibe. this placement has lots of compassion, devotion and empathy.
spouse can have their natal moon in virgo, 6th house, earth sign.
moon in 7th house: emotional balance is important to this placement, the couples emotions can be a projection of one another. this can lead to often getting on each others nerves. like the dramatic arguments that married couples have but make up like after 5 minutes that you see in rom coms. there may be lots of reactions and feedback from your partner when you show your emotional side to them. this placement reminds me of when one person starts crying the other starts crying as well, so you feel and experience the same thing together. there is also lots of freedom on expressing your inner feelings to your partner. overall this is a beautiful placement as your partner is the one to find your emotions beautiful and can just find your flaws mesmerising.
spouse can have their natal moon in libra, 7th house, air sign.
moon in 8th house: this placements duty is to keep the stability of the relationship strong. they may feel like there needs to be certain rules and regulations when it comes to emotions between the marriage. however, feelings and emotions are DEEP and STRONG for one another. so big that it can lead to control. both parties can become a therapist for one another, giving advice on problems, listening very attentively and most importantly giving great advice. talking about the occult and eery topics can cause some sort of comfort to each other. also trauma dumping is big for this placement. like sharing the deepest and most secretive occurrences can occur due to each other trusting one another very well and feeling the need to tell the other what they had been storing forever.
spouse can have their natal moon in scorpio, 8th house, water sign.
moon in 9th house: for this placement, travelling and taking time off from society is very healing for this relationship. constantly learning each others way of dealing with emotions and exploring each others ways of dealing with them is something common here. humour can be something that connects both parties especially when one is feeling down, making each other laugh is healing. comedy and mass media can bring comfort to both parties, being goofy and joking around is common for this placement. spirituality and mindfulness can connect the couple and can bring comfort in the relationship. perhaps its a belief or daily ritual that connects both parties.
spouse can have their natal moon in sagittarius, 9th house, fire sign.
moon in 10th house: this placement like to lead when dealing with their partners emotions. they like to control how the other is feeling and how they feel as well, this may manifest one to not express their emotions for no one which creates this poker face persona. this placement can get very stressed and constantly worry about the financial situations in the relationship however, will most likely keep it to themselves and hardly address the situation and figure it by themselves. emotions within the marriage is controlled when in public. however, your other half's achievements and success can make you feel very happy and it may feel like you succeeded as well.
spouse can have their natal moon in capricorn, 10th house, earth sign.
moon in 11th house: this placement may seek independence in their relationship. this placement feels deeply and is empathetic for those around them, this just reminds me of someone attentively and actively listening to you when you share your emotions to them. this is quite a social attached placement so bonding over friends, acquaintances, social media is common with this placement. they feel like they need to have a social life outside their marriage to find balance between the two. each party sees the beauty in each others emotional state and can make them love them even more or be attracted to them mor after seeing their emotional side. sharing aspirations to one another is a positive aspect to this placement as it can lighten up the mood of each other by feeling proud of each other and overall hyping one another up.
spouse can have their natal moon in aquarius, 11th house, air sign.
moon in 12th house: the relationship may strengthen whenever the couple gives one another space and time to themselves. (i see lots of marriages that each has their own rooms in order to give each other enough space to allow themselves to function properly). however, this placement can cause addictions due to being in a negative state while being in the relationship. nevertheless, couples bond better when they are alone and in peace. mentally, it can feel like your partner is not even there at times (they can isolate or just keep their distance from you) and it may keep you second guessing. there is also high expectations that this placement may have of their partner which can cause disappointments.
spouse can have their natal moon in pisces, 12th house, water sign.
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thank you for your time, have a lovely day.
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knuppitalism-with-ue Ā· 4 months ago
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Something that has both fascinated me and frustrated me to no end as of late are the lacrimal crests of allosauroids and other such theropods. No living theropods, to my knowledge, possess such structures. The closest analog I could find were Geese. I'm being driven up a wall trying to figure out what they would have been covered with in life. How would they have been incorporated into the face of the theropod? What display structures could they support? Air sacs, keratin, or caruncles? How pneumatized were they? Were they even for display? Most paleoartists just reconstruct them as odd stones sitting on top of the animals head, or say they were just for shading the eyes, but that can't be it, right? It feels like something is missing.
As a Paleoartist, is there anything you can say on this? Because I don't know nearly enough.
Oh boi, this is a tricky one.
Cranial ornaments come in all kinds of shapes, sizes and surface textures. For Allosaurus it seems likely that they simply had keratin sheets on top of the lacrinal crests, at least that's what the rough surface and striations suggest. However it also seems like air sacs were reaching up from the antorbital fenestra
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This is how I would reconstruct that part of Allosaurus in the moment.
There could have been more though, you can see in this photo of the skull of Big Al II that this animal had large opening behind the lacrinal crests, so there could have been other structures involved.
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Maybe even better to look at is this 3d scan of Arkhane, from Brussels.
This could have been related to theroregulation, more display structures or simply further weight reduction.
There is quite a bit of wiggle room when it comes to the interpretation of dinosaur facial features and there is way too much already published and at the same time too little to put it all into a single blog post.
Also not all dinosaurus follow this patters, the cranial crests of oviraptorosaurs show no good indication for keratin crests for example. So it's better to say good bye to cassowary interpretations of these animals and instead cover them in skin and/or inflatable sacs, because these hollow chambers appear to be extensions of the sinuses. (my version of Corythoraptor on the right, Citipati from Wikipedia on the left.)
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And then again in other theropods like Abelisaurs we see very rugose skull tops but without the striations you see on the lacrinals of Allosaurus, potentially indicating large scales. Here my, slightly over the top, interpretation of Skorpiovenator. And even then: within abelisaurus you have stuff like Carnotaurus which shows clear signs of keratin sheets on its horns.
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This all has been complicated in recent years with new methods in bone histology, because as it turns out the internal structure of a bone can tell us stuff about it's outside, that's how we for example found out that Amargosaurus neck spines were no horns and probably conected with soft tissue, or that the osteoderms of notosuchians were covered by skin like in leatherback turtles.
Going back to Allosaurus and other allosauroids. Keratin sheets, scales, air sacs, all these were probably present in these animals, but their exact distribution is still a question of debate.
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Here a paper from a few years back that maps para-nasal sinuses in extent and extinct archosaurus which gives you a little idea how complex their internal anatomy could get
https://anatomypubs.onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/pdfdirect/10.1002/ar.20794
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lynxastrology Ā· 1 year ago
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Intimidating placements ā›“ļøšŸ’„
Disclaimer: These observations are based on my personal interpretations <3
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Mars dominance: These people might face alot of challenges in life but their resilience and their willpower is what makes them powerful. They have a fiery energy to them and are very energetic people. These people never quit when they are faced with a challenge and are very independent. This placement gives off major WARRIOR vibes. The only problem about this placement is controlling anger which might take time but once they master how to channel their anger, These people are immensely powerful and strong both mentally and even physically. Can bless someone with great mental strength.
Aries ascendant/ aries dominance: These people are naturally very assertive. When they set a particular goal, they make sure that they finish it ASAP. These people have low level of patience which can cause some problems in their life but the drive towards their goals is nearly unstoppable. Their confidence and assertiveness is intimidating.
Capricorn mars/MC/rising: These people have absolutely zero tolerance for bullshit. Theyā€™re not bossy, they are the boss. Since they are heavily ruled by saturn, they have this air of authority around them and saturn also indicates karma so if anyone messes with them, karma will hit those people 10 times harder. People naturally see them as someone who is the BOSS and they might look kinda stoic and strict. They have patience but once they lose it, then can be very intimidating and merciless. BOSS BITCH energy FS
8Ā°,20Ā°: Personal planets (venus, MARS, rising) can bless someone with lots of sex appeal (esp if this degree is on the mars/venus). Their aura is just powerful even if they think they are not, people naturally see them as someone who is powerful, resilient and sexually attractive. 8Ā° on the mars can make the mars sign a lil scorpionic šŸ¦‚.
Lilith square ascendant: This is a very intense placement in a birth chart. They evoke strong reactions from people and might have been a victim of bullying during the early years. These people usually get hate for no reason especially from women and its cuz of pure jealousy. One of the most sexiest and intimidating placements to have in a birth chart. Especially women with this placement intimidate alot of men but men also find them to be sexually attractive and seductive. People with this placement get alot of jealousy and hate which can shatter their confidence. Working on themselves and bringing back that confidence will make them very sexy, intimidating and powerful. They might have very intense facial features which look raw and sometimes even scary.
Pluto-sun aspects: These people radiate power and charisma (esp the easy aspects). Sun is all about identity, ego and pluto is about power and transformation. This aspect can make someone very resilient and they can handle pressure quite smartly. I have sun sextile pluto and i can handle pressure pretty well. These people are naturally persuasive and this placement is also kinda scorpionic šŸ¦‚ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„.
Asteriod aura(1488) conjunct mars/MC in aries/scorpio/capricorn: Their aura might be very commanding and authoritative. These people might also viewed as a sex symbol and someone who is intimidating. They might also have a prominent sex appeal which can be viewed as seductive and dangerous (in a sensual way).
10Ā°,8Ā°,22Ā° on the ascendant: Having these degrees on the ascendant means that your first impression to people would be strong and intense. 8Ā° degress on the ascendant can give dark and sharp features to the native. Meanwhile, 10Ā°, 22Ā° (esp 10Ā°) can bless someone with sharp and angular features. People who have this degree on the ascendant literally look like models and they look very seductive as well. These people can capture peopleā€™s attention and make heads turn fr šŸ’‹.
1st house ruler in the 10th house: These people usually are very charismatic and have a big presence to the people around them. They command respect and they naturally get that respect. This placement can be a fame indicator. Everyone knows their name and who they are because they attract popularity so effortlessly. Their career is the most important aspect in their life and they can also be authoritative. These people can also be excellent CEOs, entrepreneurs because they have an energy that intimidates people in a way that everyone respects them. Another BOSS BITCH placement āœØ.
saturn-asc hard aspects: People with this aspect have the āœØbestāœØ bone structure. This placement is kinda similar to capricorn mars. These people have very defined facial features and their face naturally looks kinda stoic. I have this placement and everyone tells me that i have a stoic/ rbf. They have an aura about them that is authoritative and disciplined and these people also have good sex appeal as well. These people usually age like fine wine.
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reasonsforhope Ā· 4 days ago
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"As a Deaf man, Adam Munder has long been advocating for communication rights in a world that chiefly caters to hearing people.Ā 
The Intel software engineer and his wife ā€” who is also Deaf ā€” are often unable to use American Sign Language in daily interactions, instead defaulting to texting on a smartphone or passing a pen and paper back and forth with service workers, teachers, and lawyers.Ā 
It can make simple tasks, like ordering coffee, more complicated than it should be.Ā 
But there are life events that hold greater weight than a cup of coffee.Ā 
Recently, Munder and his wife took their daughter in for a doctorā€™s appointment ā€” and no interpreter was available.Ā 
To their surprise, their doctor said: ā€œItā€™s alright, weā€™ll just have your daughter interpret for you!ā€Ā ...
That day at the doctorā€™s office came at the heels of a thousand frustrating interactions and miscommunications ā€” and Munder is not isolated in his experience.
ā€œWhere I live in Arizona, there are more than 1.1 million individuals with a hearing loss,ā€ Munder said, ā€œand only about 400 licensed interpreters.ā€
In addition to being hard to find, interpreters are expensive. And texting and writing arenā€™t always practical options ā€” they leave out the emotion, detail, and nuance of a spoken conversation.Ā 
ASL is a rich, complex language with its own grammar and culture; a subtle change in speed, direction, facial expression, or gesture can completely change the meaning and tone of a sign.Ā 
ā€œWriting back and forth on paper and pen or using a smartphone to text is not equivalent to American Sign Language,ā€ Munder emphasized. ā€œThe details and nuance that make us human are lost in both our personal and business conversations.ā€
His solution? An AI-powered platform called Omnibridge.Ā 
ā€œMy team has established this bridge between the Deaf world and the hearing world, bringing these worlds together without forcing one to adapt to the other,ā€ Munder said.Ā 
Trained on thousands of signs, Omnibridge is engineered to transcribe spoken English and interpret sign language on screen in seconds...
ā€œOur dream is that the technology will be available to everyone, everywhere,ā€ Munder said. ā€œI feel like three to four years from now, we're going to have an app on a phone. Our team has already started working on a cloud-based product, and we're hoping that will be an easy switch from cloud to mobile to an app.ā€Ā ...
At its heart, Omnibridge is a testament to the positive capabilities of artificial intelligence.Ā "
-via GoodGoodGood, October 25, 2024. More info below the cut!
To test an alpha version of his invention, Munder welcomed TED associate Hasiba Haq on stage.Ā 
ā€œI want to show you how this could have changed my interaction at the doctor appointment, had this been available,ā€ Munder said.Ā 
He went on to explain that the software would generate a bi-directional conversation, in which Munderā€™s signs would appear as blue text and spoken word would appear in gray.Ā 
At first, there was a brief hiccup on the TED stage. Haq, who was standing in as the doctorā€™s office receptionist, spoke ā€” but the screen remained blank.Ā 
ā€œI donā€™t believe this; this is the first time that AI has ever failed,ā€ Munder joked, getting a big laugh from the crowd. ā€œThanks for your patience.ā€
After a quick reboot, they rolled with the punches and tried again.
Haq asked: ā€œHi, howā€™s it going?ā€Ā 
Her words popped up in blue.Ā 
Munder signed in reply: ā€œI am good.ā€Ā 
His response popped up in gray.Ā 
Back and forth, they recreated the scene from the doctorā€™s office. But this time Munder retained his autonomy, and no one suggested a 7-year-old should play interpreter.Ā 
Munderā€™s TED debut and tech demonstration didnā€™t happen overnight ā€” the engineer has been working on Omnibridge for over a decade.Ā 
ā€œIt takes a lot to build something like this,ā€ Munder told Good Good Good in an exclusive interview, communicating with our team in ASL. ā€œIt couldn't just be one or two people. It takes a large team, a lot of resources, millions and millions of dollars to work on a project like this.ā€Ā 
After five years of pitching and research, Intel handpicked Munderā€™s team for a specialty training program. It was through that backing that Omnibridge began to truly take shape...
ā€œOur dream is that the technology will be available to everyone, everywhere,ā€ Munder said. ā€œI feel like three to four years from now, we're going to have an app on a phone. Our team has already started working on a cloud-based product, and we're hoping that will be an easy switch from cloud to mobile to an app.ā€Ā 
In order to achieve that dream ā€” of transposing their technology to a smartphone ā€” Munder and his team have to play a bit of a waiting game. Today, their platform necessitates building the technology on a PC, with an AI engine.Ā 
ā€œA lot of things don't have those AI PC types of chips,ā€ Munder explained. ā€œBut as the technology evolves, we expect that smartphones will start to include AI engines. They'll start to include the capability in processing within smartphones. It will take time for the technology to catch up to it, and it probably won't need the power that we're requiring right now on a PC.ā€Ā 
At its heart, Omnibridge is a testament to the positive capabilities of artificial intelligence.Ā 
But it is more than a transcription service ā€” it allows people to have face-to-face conversations with each other. Thereā€™s a world of difference between passing around a phone or pen and paper and looking someone in the eyes when you speak to them.Ā 
It also allows Deaf people to speak ASL directly, without doing the mental gymnastics of translating their words into English.
ā€œFor me, English is my second language,ā€ Munder told Good Good Good. ā€œSo when I write in English, I have to think: How am I going to adjust the words? How am I going to write it just right so somebody can understand me? It takes me some time and effort, and it's hard for me to express myself actually in doing that. This technology allows someone to be able to express themselves in their native language.ā€Ā 
Ultimately, Munder said that Omnibridge is about ā€œbringing humanity backā€ to these conversations.Ā 
ā€œWeā€™re changing the world through the power of AI, not just revolutionizing technology, but enhancing that human connection,ā€ Munder said at the end of his TED Talk.Ā 
ā€œItā€™s two languages,ā€ he concluded, ā€œsigned and spoken, in one seamless conversation.ā€"
-via GoodGoodGood, October 25, 2024
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sunkissedchld Ā· 6 months ago
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observations are mostly based on charts shared inĀ @d4rkplutoā€™s astrotumblr yearbook discord! thank you to the following people for sharing their charts:
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disclaimer: i interpret charts in whole sign
asteriod aphrodite is code 1388
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āŸ” aries sun could make you relatively confindent in their looks; you could be very passionate and/or dominant in relationships or want to lead your partner in some way
āœ¦Ā  in the 3H could make you quick-witted or smart mouthed
āŸ” aries saturn could cause you to be hyper independent therefore causing potential partners to feel unwanted
āŸ” taurus moons could enjoy being spoiled/pampered while in relationships; acts of service and gift giving could be your love language
āŸ” gemini venus could be attracted to those who are witty, educated/logical, and/or like to debate. you could also like people who are a little unserious and those with large friend groups
āŸ” for gemini mars, arms/hands can be turn ons. you could be a friendly flirt; not necessarily open to making the first move; could enjoy a cat and mouse game or playing hard to get
āŸ” gemini saturn could have issues with communication in relationships - being "too" open or not open enough and/or not taking your partner seriously during times where you need to
āœ¦Ā  in retrograde, you could think too much about your own or your partners actions in the relationship; you could talk yourself into a bad mood which could carry over into the relationship causing insecurities and/or jealousy
āŸ” gemini risings could be seen as friendly, approachable, and smart upon first impression; people could be drawn to your eyes and smile; people could also enjoy hearing you speak
āŸ” cancer saturns could possibly be manipulative in relationships (if underdeveloped); you could put more into relationships than you get out of them or not put in enough effort; you could be overly attatched to your partner
āŸ” leo/aquarius risings/venuses could have the most unique styles fashion wise
āœ¦ for leos, people could try to imitate your style. for aquariuses, you might have your own sub-genre or self-described sense of style that is unique to you
āŸ” leo jupiters could gain fame, confidence, and/or attention from their relationships
āœ¦ heavier emphasis or likelihood if you also have leo degrees
āŸ” leo saturns could have issues with confidence and/or receiving attention while in a relationship; you could want too many affirmations or never accept them when they're given
āŸ” leo venuses/mars could be attracted to those who are confident and/or famous or well-known; also possibly attracted to people who are creative and playful; a partner's back and/or hair could be a turn-on
āŸ” virgo venuses/mars could be attracted to those who are healthy and/or biological displays of health; a partner's stomach or abs could be a turn on; you could prefer when sex is semi-planned and/or could be prone to overextending yourself during sex; you could prefer being a giver rather than a receiver
āœ¦ conversely, i think taurus venuses/mars would be more receivers than givers
āŸ” virgo suns could be seen as "traditional beauties"; you could also be drawn to traditional relationships/relationship dynamics
āœ¦ these ideas of "tradition" would be based on where you are from/your societal norms; there is no one, unified "tradition"
āŸ” libra risings could have facial features that are proportionate to your own face; possibly described as ingeniune/gamine type; skin could often be clear or seen as nice
āŸ” those with libra mars could see your partner's skin/hips/butt/lower back as turn ons and/or their partner touching those areas of your body could turn them on; you could be attracted to those who are charming and considerate; you could like it when you're "wined and dined" so to speak
āŸ” scorpio suns could have an alluring/intense look; your eyes and/or sexual organs could could be seen as attractive; you could want intensity when it comes to romance and sex; you could be into "taboo" relationships; you could possibly be possessive or prone to jealousy in relationships
āŸ” scorpio venuses could be attracted to those who are protective over them; major cravings for intamacy and closeness while in a relationship; "i want to be inside of you"
āœ¦ in retrograde, achieving these wants in a relationship could soothe your personal emotions and repair your own emotional needs
āŸ” scorpio jupiters could have their sex life increased while in a relationships; possibility of going through more transformations (especially intense ones) while in relationships; possibly being more secretive
āŸ” scorpio risings could have an intense gaze; your beauty could be intimidating to some people, but you still manage to draw people in to being fascinated by you
āŸ” capricorn chiron/liliths could detest being in "traditional" relationships or being expected to follow through with "traditional" relationship dynamics; could have a want for a little bit of instability
āŸ” capricorn moons could value stability and successes in relationships; anniversaries and planned dates could bring you comfort
āŸ” capricorn mars could be attracted to those who are older and/or more mature; people with strong bone structures/hair could be turn-ons; could also be attracted to people who are cautious and/or "traditional"
āŸ” aquarius risings make you an eccentric beauty; smile and/or calves could be an attractive point; you could be ahead of fashion trends
āŸ” aquarius chiron/liliths could worry about your relationships being seen as odd or "taboo"
āŸ” those with sun conjunct mercury could entice people with your voice or way of speaking; you could be known as a sweet talker
āŸ” those with a fifth house stellium could be very fertile
āœ¦ having many trines to jupiter could also be an indicator
āŸ” 12H junos could find that marriage transforms them (ie. in capricorn, you could go from being someone who is always wanting to go places or never wanting to settle down to maturing and finally doing so)
āŸ” 8H jupiters could gain money from shared resources in relationships; could also have hyper active sex lives
āŸ” 3H moons could have words of affirmation be your love language
āŸ” those with their ascendant at 5Āŗ could have people who are very sexually attracted to you; you could always gain attention even if you don't always want or notice it
āŸ” 6H moons could value acts of service as your love language
āœ¦ even more so if it's also cancer moon
āŸ” 11H jupiters could find your friend group grows when getting into relationships
āŸ” 1H junos could find that marriage changes people's perception of you; you could also gain/lose weight while in relationships (ie. libra ascendants would likely gain weight; be seen as more playful and/or charming)
āŸ” 5H junos could find marriage makes you more creative; children could be a focal point of the marriage; marriage could also cause you to be more intune with your inner child
āŸ” 4H moons may find that emotional connections in relationships bring you comfort; touch could be your love language
āŸ” 12H moons could long for being in long-term relationships; there could be a want for a "soulmate" or "other half"
āŸ” 2H moons could have gift giving as your love language; doing daily routines with your partner could bring you comfort
āŸ” 2H jupiters could see an increase in their personal money/possessions while in relationships
āŸ” 9H jupiters could gain more knowledge while in relationships; you could also travel more or have more experiences with things or people who are foreign to you
āŸ” 11H moons could value time spent together ; thinking about the future and bringing together friend/family groups could bring you comfort while in relationships
āŸ” 8H saturn/liliths could have an aversion to sharing resources in relationships; having a "what's mine is mine" mentality
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yandere!m.merman x gn.reader
cw: mentions of death, disturbing imagery
as a fish takes refuge inside an oyster, it sees only the chance to hide from the unforgiving water within the calm mollusk, unaware of the true nature of its biology. unfortunately for the fish, the oyster has already activated its unique defense mechanism, encasing the fish as an immortal, precious pearl.
The rhythmic push and pull of the tides never failed to lull you into a state of mild stupor. Soft, slightly cool sand cushioned you while a gentle breeze brushed past your cheek and played with your hair. The day was only moderately gloomy, a grey tinted sky hanging over you as the clouds came and went, the sun nowhere to be seen. Still, you almost liked it better like this. The beach was more private, freer without the confines of eyes watching it.
Your calloused feet hopped onto the rocky shore, leaving the inviting sand disturbed as a sign of your presence. The salty ocean scent intensified the closer you came to the evermoving water. You stood atop the tallest rock, attempting to scan the waves at your vantage point, searching for your most curious find.
At last, peeking out from between the waves, did you spot the partially submerged head of your friend. His black eyes were trained on your form, no doubt watching you long before you noticed him.
A grin emerged across your face. "I see you!" you called, motioning for him to come closer as you waded into the water. The eyes disappeared beneath the tide at your request.
You felt him before you could see him, smooth scales wrapping around your leg in a firm hold. He reappeared directly in front of you, inky black eyes mere inches away from your own.
The creature's appearance was a far cry from the mermaids of your childhood, beautiful human women who happened to have a tail as their bottom half. No, he hardly mirrored the sentimental fairytale. You noticed his eyes first, sclera and pupil alike darkened together as they melded into each other- then you noticed his rubbery flesh stretched taunt across his sharp bones, with pale, sallow skin, nearly as grey as a corpse. You initially thought that's what he had been when he simply peered at you from afar, unmoving and unblinking against the rocking sea. He was just humanoid enough to lure concerned passersby like yourself deeper into the water, yet not quite passable as human.
In a closer vicinity, as you are now, you could see small scales dotting his cheeks and neck. Under the right light they appeared as little moons, revealing an opalescent luster that you could only describe as ethereal.
"Hello," you greeted with a wide close-lipped smile. Last time you had bared your teeth at him ended with him misunderstanding your friendliness for a threat. You weren't sure if he could talk, but that didn't stop you from trying to make conversation. You had a feeling he understood you to an extent anyways.
The mercreature tilted his head sideways in response, sleek, wet dark hair falling over his shoulder. An inscrutable expression remained plastered on his features; one you gave up trying to interpret using human facial language.
Silky scales gently tugged you further into the waves towards a rocky mass that stood above the crashing water. The current strengthened, oscillating you to its whims, but the guidance of the unyielding sea creature kept you from being swept away entirely. Although you would consider yourself a strong swimmer, you knew you would never compare to a creature born of the water, one who moved so in tune to the sea that his lithe form became indistinguishable from the tides.
Finally, you reached the rocks, gripping the relatively dry surface for relief from the unrelenting waters. You found a comfortable position on them, resting your upper body while you let your legs dangle. The mercreature remained below, lower half of his face once again concealed under the water, leaving only his unblinking eyes visible. His body underneath the water became obscured even further by the dark ring of hair that floated around him. Those eyes regarded you with scrutinizing intensity that would've resembled a predator, had you thought hard enough about it.
"What a nice view-" you began, but the thought was cut short when your companion pulled himself below the water, disappearing from your sight almost completely, save for the movement in the water that signified a strong tail pushing against it.
Confusion laced your face. The few minutes he had gone was enough to make you worry. Why had he left so abruptly? Surely he would be back? You weren't certain you could swim back to shore on your own. Although you trusted him- in fact, you would even consider him a friend- doubt from his apparent unpredictability lingered. After all, you had no way to reliably communicate, nor were you sure if your opinion of your relationship was mutual.
Your concerns vanished as he broke the surface of the water, swimming towards the rocks with something that gleamed as the light hit it.
He stopped at your feet, lifting the object slowly up to you. If you hadn't known better, you'd say the action seemed almost shy.
A gasp left you as you got a view of it. In his webbed, slender fingers lay a glistering mass of refined pearl, hints of color dancing across it the glossy surface. Distantly, you recalled that the creature's scales were of the same material. It resembled an anatomically correct heart. Never before had you seen a pearl shaped in such a way, nor did you know how it could've been, or why the shape was so accurate, even down to the imprint of the vessels. It was as if the thing had been pulsating. Why was it so accurate?
The beautiful piece was presented to you like a gift, so you had gladly accepted. You collected it from the awaiting hands. The coolness of it nearly burned you as it touched your flesh, the brilliant iridescence of it stealing your attention away from the faint scent of iron permeating the breeze. It distracted you from the bloody teeth of the now grinning merman, sharp rows glinting bright cardinal red. You thought nothing of the diluted red in the dark water, seeping towards your feet. The sinking body below, twisted and stuck eternally in a cry for help, was lost to you as you held the glimmering heart with reverence.
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i love creepy mermaids
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canisalbus Ā· 8 months ago
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Do the ears of your anthros move and convey body language, like irl dogs (ears back = fear or appeasement, etc) ? or is it just out of emotion, not intentionally communicating anything, but like a.. side effect (? idk how to word this) of feeling emotions?
I think it's a little bit of both? They tend to be more instictive (based on emotions) than calculated (deliberately used in nonverbal communication). They're an expressive facial feature like eyes, eyebrows and mouths. A specific ear position isn't restricted to a single emotion. Just like a human smile isn't always a sign of happiness, ears pulled back isn't necessarily a fearful, sad or submissive gesture, you have to interpret their whole face.
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Floppy eared dogs have less range of motion than dogs with upright ears, which can make their faces a little harder to read, but the difference is pretty negligible. This is actually one of the reasons why Vasco is usually more challenging for me to draw, it's like his head is missing an entire layer of expressiveness when he doesn't have big satellite dishes to emote with.
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Kƶnig x fem!Reader
Synopsis: After a long day, Kƶnig offers some much-needed ā€œstress reliefā€. Tags: Title From A Sabrina Carpenter Song, Bed Chem - Sabrina Carpenter, Edging, Not Beta Read, Fem Pronouns For Reader, Bit Of A Size Kink, Porn No Plot, Vibrators, Fingering, Cunnilingus, Kƶnig Lifts His Mask The Tiniest Amount To Eat You Out, Scar Kink(?), Is That Even A Thing, Doggystyle, Safe Sex, German Is A Fun Language, Kissing, Cuddling Author's Note: My four-and-a-half years of German classes are finally coming into use (but Iā€™m nowhere near fluent, so correct my mistakes lol). Also contains descriptions of what I imagine Kƶnig to look like. Everyone is free to their own interpretation. Also I'm like a year too late for this but whatever lol and this one is just pure porn guys, so... do with that what you will Explicit content, minors DNI
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You felt ridiculous.Ā 
Desperate. Anxious. Ridiculous.
Pacing across your small room didnā€™t help, your frenzied state unending. Anxiety hammered your heart, your stomach twisted in knots, and your hands ached from tensing them so much. Your breathing wasnā€™t much better, coming and going in quick huffs of air; you felt like you were going to pass out.Ā 
You were a goddamn soldier, a ruthless mercenary; you shouldnā€™t be acting this way. Youā€™d faced down the worst of humanity and came out victorious; the idea of Kƶnig coming to your room shouldnā€™t render you soā€¦ timid.Ā 
Youā€™re not sure why you took Kƶnig up on his offer for ā€œstress reliefā€. Heā€™d seen how tense you were all day around the base, the reason for that feeling long since forgotten, your words clipped, muscles tensed. It wasnā€™t an unusual emotion for you, but heā€™d never offered his assistance.Ā 
Until today. You werenā€™t quite sure what changed.
A shiver went down your spine when you remembered his voice as he whispered, large frame pressed up close against yours, but not close enough to touch. ā€œLet me help you, Schatz,ā€ heā€™d said, and you were certain if you could see his face, thereā€™d be a smirk on his lips. You wondered if he knew how you felt about him.Ā 
Desperate to be rid of the tension in your body, and desperate for him, youā€™d agreed. It wasnā€™t until youā€™d reached your room that it sunk in, what youā€™d agreed to. It wasnā€™t that you regretted it, far from it, but now your stress levels were even higher than they were before.Ā 
You wouldnā€™t lie and say that you hadnā€™t hoped that something like this would happen. Youā€™d had the biggest crush, which sounded so juvenile for someone like you, on him since the moment youā€™d signed on with KorTac a few years ago.Ā 
And how could you not? He was tall, almost intimidatingly so, with a broad build to match. And the muscles werenā€™t all for show, just as deadly with his body as he was with his weapons out on the field. You remember the first time youā€™d watched him take down someone with his hands, a memory that had ingrained itself into your dirtiest dreams.Ā 
As for the rest of his appearance, you werenā€™t quite sure. Heā€™d never taken off his ā€œmaskā€ (a shirt, youā€™d later come to find out) in front of you, even when on jobs together. You never pried, though, respecting his need for privacy. And besides, you didnā€™t have to see his face to know that he was the most stunning person youā€™d ever met. His eyes, baby blue, yet torturously haunted, were all that you needed to see to confirm that. After years of only seeing them, youā€™d gotten good at reading them like you would facial expressions.Ā 
Too caught up in your thoughts, you nearly tripped as your foot caught on the edge of your bed, a small, dingy thing. A mix of a sigh and groan left you, as well as a soft curse as you shook your hurt foot. Glancing at the small LED clock beside your bed, the time read 9:26.
Kƶnig hadnā€™t given you a time when you asked, only a teasing, ā€œTonight.ā€ Which meant, that at any moment, youā€™d hear him knocking on your door.
Or maybe he wouldnā€™t. Maybe this was all a joke, a cruel one at that. Maybe he knew about your infatuation with him, and this was his response. Deep down, you knew Kƶnig enough to know that he wouldnā€™t do something like that, but your anxiety-riddled brain couldnā€™t think rationally right now.Ā 
Before disappointment could set in, there was a surprisingly gentle knock on the door. But to you, it sounded like two gunshots had just gone off in the room, your ears now ringing in response.Ā 
A soft gasp left you, and you swore your heart stopped. Taking a second to take a deep breath, you fixed your hair as you walked to the door, suddenly worried about your appearance. Your hand shook as you grabbed the handle, time seemingly slowing as you opened the door.
There, just like he said he would be, was Kƶnig, his body damn near filling the entire doorframe, the tiniest bits of light from the hallway sneaking in. He was dressed down, which made sense for the time of day, so it shouldnā€™t have come as such a shock to you to see his bare arms. He mustā€™ve been feeling particularly cruel, to be wearing a tight, black short-sleeve shirt instead of his usual loose long-sleeves. His hands were shoved into the pockets of some black sweatpants, and it almost felt wrong to see him like this.Ā 
And as his eyes widened the tiniest amount, you realized that he, too, had never seen you in loungewear. Wearing a tank top and some sleep shorts, you might as well have been naked with the way his gaze roamed over your body, setting your body alight. A part of you wondered if this was the first time heā€™d looked at you like this, or if your attraction hadnā€™t been as one-sided as you believed.Ā 
You werenā€™t quite sure what to say; you both knew why he was here. So instead of making a fool of yourself by attempting to talk, you took a step back, wordlessly inviting Kƶnig into your room.Ā 
As he stepped in, you watched as his head moved around, taking in his surroundings. Your room wasnā€™t much, but it was a step up from the shared room you had when you first joined. There was a bed, a full size at most, the headboard pressed up against the wall, with standard-issue grey sheets. A nightstand sat beside it, with the LED clock, and a lamp that currently struggled to fight against the darkness of the night as it poured through the lame excuse of a window that resided at the top of the wall. A few other pieces of furniture, a dresser, a desk, and a shelf, were each in their respective spots, leaving not a lot of free room.
So, as Kƶnig walked in, your room felt incredibly small, nearly suffocating. It didnā€™t help that every time you saw Kƶnig your breathing turned labored, which wasnā€™t the best thing to happen to you out on the field. But your years of suppressing your desires had trained you well, able to put on an impression that you were unaffected.Ā 
ā€œDo you want this?ā€
Youā€™d barely heard Kƶnig, your heart thudding too loudly. He had turned to face you, hands still in his pockets, a casual stance. But his eyes told a different story, hooded with lust, and boring into you.Ā 
Swallowing, you failed to notice the way his eyes zeroed in on the action. Nodding your head was the only thing you could do, never feeling so certain bout something in your life. But you were nervous. What if you disappointed him? What if this wrecked what relationship the two of you had? What if this was all still a joke?
You hadn't expected Kƶnig to have moved so that he was right in front of you. Was he always this tall? Towering over you, you felt his fingers, free from their usual gloves, grasp your chin, forcing your eyes onto him. A strangled noise died in your throat at the action, but he felt it, and you watched his eyes crinkle in the corners. He was grinning.Ā 
ā€œUse your words, Schatz.ā€ The endearment, although in a foreign language, made you melt. You werenā€™t entirely sure what it meant, even after hearing it before, but he said it so sweetly that you didnā€™t need to know what it meant to feel its effects.Ā 
Your heart was fluttering now, your brain fighting between feeling anxious and exhilarated. Kƶnig mustā€™ve detected this inner battle of yours, something softening in his gaze. The hand holding your chin moved to your wrist, grabbing it loosely enough so that you could pull away if you wanted to, and he slowly pulled your hand up until it rested on his chest, palm flat against his left pec.Ā 
Once the shock of touching him subsided, you were confused as he watched you expectantly. You went to try to speak but were subsequently silenced by Kƶnig as he shook his head, pressing your hand down harder. It was then you could finally feel beneath your fingertips his heartbeat, much too fast for the casual stance he had earlier.Ā 
He was just as nervous about this as you were.
He let go of your wrist once he saw you felt it, but you didnā€™t pull your hand away, quickly gaining confidence knowing you werenā€™t alone in your nerves. ā€œI want this, Kƶnig.ā€ You were pleasantly surprised to find that your voice was steady, not even the tiniest bit hoarse. Iā€™ve wanted this for a long time.
Pleased, you could also detect the tiniest bit of relief from him, uncertainty playing a part in his nervous behavior. But that was quickly washed away when his authoritative demeanor returned; youā€™re not sure why you expected anything else. In every room he walked into, he demanded respect, to be listened to. Followed. Obeyed. You just never thought that it carried into more intimate moments.Ā 
You certainly werenā€™t complaining. Not when you could feel arousal pool in your gut, a pleasant warmth that flowed through your entire body. Not when every word he spoke made you shiver, his accent thick, voice pitched lower. And now that your nerves had died down, all that was left was excitement, which nearly made you just as jumpy. As he brought his masked face close to yours, you swore your breathing stopped; it almost felt like the anticipation youā€™d feel before a kiss.
But his destination wasnā€™t your lips, although his eyes did flick down to them momentarily. No, he stopped before they could connect, mask and all. Resting his head against yours, which took a bit of bending on his part, you felt two warm hands begin to trail down your body, starting right at your collarbones.Ā 
You watched as his eyes trailed over your face, gauging your reaction. When he was met with nothing but desire and want, his touch grew more certain, yet he didnā€™t pick up the pace. His fingers continued to drag down your body until you wanted to push them down to where you wanted. Something told you that that wouldnā€™t go over well, but you had to admit you were curious to see what his reaction would be.Ā 
You chose to just shift in his grasp instead of trying to force his touch lower, hoping heā€™d get the message. You knew he did when you heard him chuckle, a sound that always made you weak in the knees, now especially. ā€œPatience.ā€Ā 
You could detect the warning well enough, but you couldnā€™t bring yourself to listen to it. ā€œPlease, Kƶnig.ā€ You didnā€™t care if you were begging. All you could think about was how close he was to giving you what you wanted.Ā 
Another chuckle left the Austrian, but this one sounded more cruel. ā€œYou are going to have a long night.ā€
Before you could even think about his words, he was effortlessly sweeping you off your feet, hands having found their way to the back of your thighs. Insticinvly, your legs wrapped around his body, but you knew he didnā€™t need the extra help, and you also knew that he wouldnā€™t drop you. With a surprised laugh, you hung on as Kƶnig carried you over to the bed, eyes never once leaving your face like he was enraptured by it.Ā 
Unfortunately, the walk to the bed was brief, and before you could get comfortable in his arms, he was depositing you onto the bed. So much for not dropping you. It didnā€™t hurt, no, more surprising than anything, the breath briefly getting knocked out of you. The cheaper bed groaned under the weight, rusty springs a godawful symphony of noises, but you paid them no mind.Ā 
Hungry eyes watched you from the foot of the bed as you moved up towards the headboard, back resting against it. Once you were settled, Kƶnig stalked over to the side of the bed, his movements nothing but predatory. Yet oddly enough, you felt safe. You both trusted each other enough to watch over the other while out on the field and so you felt that same trust here. Deep down, you knew that if you were to tell him to stop, he would, no questions asked. Yet you knew you probably wouldnā€™t need him to.Ā 
But he didnā€™t sit down, rather moving to the nightstand beside you. Your dazed state quickly dissipated once he started rummaging inside of it, but you were too late to do anything. With burning cheeks, you watched as he pulled out a pink device, which looked comically small in his hands.Ā 
You wanted nothing more than to bury your face in your hands and pray for your demise, yet you were stuck in place once his attention returned to you. You just knew he had a shit-eating grin on his face, and if you werenā€™t so mortified about him finding the toy, then you wouldā€™ve made some comment to wipe it right off.Ā 
Finally, Kƶnig sat beside you, the vibrator still in his hand. With his other, you felt his touch return to your calf, featherlight, and leisurely making its way to the waistband of your shorts. ā€œYou use this a lot?ā€
ā€œKƶnigā€¦ā€ Your voice wasnā€™t as assertive as youā€™d have liked, coming out more as a breathy whine.Ā 
ā€œAnswer my question.ā€ His hand stopped moving, stopping right at your knee. No matter how you shifted or squirmed, he didnā€™t move.
With a deep sigh, you tried to ignore the embarrassment you felt when you nodded your head. You then remembered his words from earlier. ā€œYes,ā€ was all you said, but that seemed to be enough for him, as he continued his ascent with his fingers.
But his tormenting wasnā€™t done there, as after a few seconds you heard him speak again. ā€œWhat do you think about?ā€ This question came quieter than the first like he was sharing a piece of gossip, not asking you to reveal your deepest fantasies.Ā 
You.Ā 
The word was on the tip of your tongue, yet you couldnā€™t bring yourself to say them, to admit to him. How youā€™d dreamed of moments like this. How youā€™d imagined him touching you, fucking you, devouring you. So much information was on the verge of being spilled, and you were scared of it happening, too many what-ifs floating in your brain to keep track.Ā 
But any attempt of holding back your words disappeared when Kƶnigā€™s hand retracted, and you found the words stuttering out of you, desperate to feel him again. ā€œI think about you, Kƶnigā€¦ā€ You nearly felt out of breath after, your chest heaving for air, your cheeks now on fire.Ā 
Kƶnig, much to your surprise, didnā€™t seem taken aback by your words. Instead, you watched as his eyes darkened even more, which seemed like an impossible feat. ā€œI thought as much,ā€ his voice sounded more like a growl, and you fought the urge to press your thighs together. ā€œAnd what do I do, when you think of me?ā€
Now that the cat was out of the bag, you felt less embarrassed about speaking. You were further encouraged when his hand settled on your thigh, pulling lightly at the hem of your shorts. ā€œIā€¦ Iā€™ve thought of you using toys,ā€ you glanced at his other hand briefly, ā€œyour fingers. Your mouth.ā€ The last one came out more like a whisper; heā€™d have to take his mask off in order for the last one to be true, and you both knew he wasnā€™t doing that.Ā 
By the time you had finished speaking, he had reached your waistband, fingers dipping beneath it to brush against your skin. He hummed like he was truly thinking deeply over your words. ā€œIn that order?ā€ If it was meant to be teasing, you couldnā€™t tell.Ā 
Words died in your throat as you struggled to speak, your newfound confidence nonexistent. Kƶnig, thankfully, took some pity on you, realizing that this was all a bit much. ā€œWould you like me to take care of you?ā€
That you were able to respond to. ā€œPlease.ā€
An appreciative groan reverberated through his broad chest. ā€œSehr gut.ā€ You werenā€™t certain what he was saying, but the infliction sounded like a praise, and your body responded as it would if it had been spoken in a language you knew.
You expected him to continue speaking, so imagine your surprise when in one strong tug, he tore your shorts off your body, before throwing them somewhere in the room. You heard an audible gasp from him when he saw you were completely bare underneath, completely exposed to him. You watched his hands flex from where they hung in the air, momentarily taken aback, his restraint pulled tight.Ā 
He recovered quickly, blue eyes obscured by black irises now staring at you. ā€œNo underwear?ā€ It was a redundant question, yet he asked anyway, wanting you to admit to it. Sheepishly, you nodded, your reward being a low chuckle. ā€œGott, you are trying to kill me.ā€
That was the last thing he said before he was settling at the end of your bed, right where your feet sat. His unoccupied hand grabbed your ankle, pulling your legs apart so that he could settle between them. With both thighs resting on his shoulders, you could no longer close your legs, unless you wanted to suffocate the man between them. You doubt he would complain, though.Ā 
His face was inches from your center, and you could feel the heat radiating from him with each breath he took. His eyes had left your face, now drinking in the sight before him, and you could tell he was pleased with what he saw. Quite pleased, if the groan he let out told you anything.Ā 
ā€œSo wet already,ā€ he murmured as if he was surprised. You had little time to feel any sort of embarrassment, before two wide fingers ran through your folds, collecting the arousal there. You watched, then, as he brought his fingers below his mask, and you were able to fill in the details as his eyes fell shut with a hum of appreciation.Ā 
Very much distracted, youā€™d momentarily forgotten about the device in his other hand until the unmistakable buzzing noise filled the air. Your breathing was labored as you waited for his next move, where he would touch you next. You, luckily, did not have to wait long to find out, as those two fingers returned, this time working to spread you open. His eyes finally shot up to yours, his desire evident, and there was an unspoken question in the gesture. More?
You would take all that he could give you, greedily. If he gave you scraps, you would take scraps with a thankful smile. If he gave you a goddamn meal, then you would savor every moment, every drop. With a shaky smile, you gave him a nod, not needing to use your words this time.Ā 
The first graze of the toy over your clit made you jump, eliciting an amused shake of Kƶnigā€™s head. ā€œRelax, Schatz.ā€
And you tried. Taking a deep breath, you went through the breathing exercises you were taught when you first enlisted. Either it was thinking about the breathing exercises, or the exercises themselves, but you found yourself relaxing a bit, your muscles not as wound up as they once were.Ā 
So when Kƶnig once again pressed the vibrator against the bundle of nerves, you still jolted. Not out of shock, but because of the pleasure that action brought. And instead of pulling away like last time, he kept his hand in place, making you squirm.Ā 
Soft whines and gasps of air were heard from you, hands fisting the sheets beside you. You wanted to hold on to him, but you were worried that once you grabbed on, you wouldnā€™t want to let go. ā€œKƶnigā€¦ā€ you moaned, trying to express just how good he was making you feel. Every nerve in your body tingled, that unmistakable tightness growing in your abdomen. You werenā€™t close, but you didnā€™t think it would take long with how worked up youā€™d been waiting for him.Ā 
The hand holding you open ascended, your back arching into his touch as he dragged his fingers over your stomach, your ribs, before encapsulating one of your breasts in a large, warm hand. ā€œDu bist so schƶn,ā€ he murmured, a glint of something in his eye. It quickly turned mischievous, though, when you just nodded along, his words meaning nothing to you. ā€œDu hast keine Idee, was ich sage.ā€
When you neither confirmed nor denied his observation, he laughed, much to your confusion, but you were too caught up in your pleasure to care much. ā€œOh, Schatz.ā€ It almost sounded patronizing, something that shouldnā€™t have gotten you as worked up as it did. Another plea of his name tore from your lips, the pressure in you building and building.Ā 
Glancing down between your legs, you were surprised to find his eyes already on you. A squeeze of his hand had you keening, Kƶnig making a noise that almost seemed proud. ā€œSo responsive. Nur fĆ¼r mich.ā€
What could you do besides nod? Even if you could understand him, you doubted youā€™d be able to process his words. And besides, hearing him speak his native tongue was always a treat, so hearing him like this was melting you, another thing setting your body alight. Your thighs were beginning to shake, something that did not go unnoticed by the man between them.Ā 
ā€œKƶnigā€¦ fuck, just a lilā€™ moreā€¦ā€ You failed to see the plan he was formulating, your eyes screwed shut as pleasure overtook you. That tension was becoming unbearable now, and just on the verge of snapping. Your hips rocked and twisted, your fingers cramping with how hard you were gripping the sheets. You were on the edge, just teetering. All you needed was a little push, and-
The sound of silence was deafening as Kƶnig turned the toy off, setting it on the bed beside you. Your eyes flew open, nowhere near expecting him to pull away just as you were about to cum. It wouldā€™ve been embarrassing, the frustrated noise you let out, but all you could think and feel was your waning orgasm. You went to try and finish yourself, but a strong hand caught your wrist before you could move.Ā 
ā€œKƶnigā€¦ā€ you warned, pleaded. Like sand, you could feel your release escaping through your fingers. ā€œY-You said you would help me relax.ā€
ā€œYou are distracted, nein?ā€Ā 
It was true, your mind was far from the stresses of the day. But a new stress was building, one that was being caused by him. ā€œKƶnig-ā€
ā€œLay back down.ā€
You hadnā€™t even realized youā€™d sat up, and with a sigh, you sunk back against the pillows, hoping he didnā€™t see the way your cheeks darkened at the way he commanded you. You could feel yourself continue to come down from that delicious high, body still strung tight like a string on a violin. Kƶnig played you so well, that you doubted it would take long for you to reach that precipice again. But would he give you what you wanted, or continue to dangle it above your head, just out of reach? You both loved and hated the game he was playing, but your patience was bound to run out eventually.Ā 
He settled in between your legs again, both hands empty this time. A few minutes passed, Kƶnig lazily tracing his fingers across your bare legs and stomach, truly letting the embers of your previous orgasm burn out.
After what felt like an eternity, he began to drag his touch inward, making you gasp lightly. Like he did before, you felt him pass his fingers through you. The stimulation was almost too much, but it was the best thing youā€™d ever felt, a soft whine leaving you. That whine turned into a moan when he pressed a digit into you, aided by your arousal.Ā 
He wasted no time in working his finger in and out of you, setting a slow yet intense pace. Your previous decision to not hold on to him quickly fell apart, desperately reaching down to him. There was a second of surprise before he gave you his other hand, your fingers immediately locking with his. It was a startling difference, the innocent gesture of handholding versus the way he was making you see stars with every crook of his fingers.Ā 
His fingers were wide, much wider than yours, so the stretch burned when he added a second. He gave you a moment to adjust before moving, murmuring soft words of praise. ā€œGutes MƤdchen,ā€ he purred. ā€œGott, look at you, taking me so well.ā€ Each word was enunciated with a thrust of his fingers, pulling noises from you you didnā€™t even know were possible.Ā 
As amazing as his fingers felt, you need more. Wanted more. Glancing down at Kƶnig, you gave him as wide eyes as you could, and he seemed to get the message. ā€œYou want more?ā€ Upon your fervent nodding, he shook his head teasingly. ā€œSo greedy.ā€
For a moment, you were convinced that he wasnā€™t going to fulfill your request. That was until he pulled his hand away from yours, reaching for the base of his mask. Your heart damn near stopped when you realized what he was doing, and with a shocked gasp, you shut your eyes, unsure if he wanted you to see.Ā 
You felt him pause, the rustling of fabric ceasing, before his voice rang out. ā€œLook at me.ā€ For the first time since youā€™d met him, youā€™d heard his voice clearly, not muffled by his mask.Ā 
Cautiously, you opened your eyes, still partially convinced that this was a test of sorts. All of those worries disappeared when your eyes landed on him. His mask wasnā€™t fully off, not like you expected, and a part of you was relieved. You donā€™t think you were ready for that.Ā 
Instead, it was pulled up just past his mouth, revealing most of his lower face, and any image youā€™d created of him in your mind was immediately forgotten, replaced with the sight in front of you. He had a wider jaw, with a decent amount of stubble adorning his cheeks. His lips were full, the top smaller than the bottom, and pulled into a small smile that made your stomach erupt into butterflies. He was, without a doubt, one of the most handsome men youā€™d ever laid eyes on, and this was only a part of his face.
But what stuck out to you the most, and would stick out to anyone who saw him, was the large scar that cut upwards on the right side of his upper lip, disappearing under the mask as it continued. The rest of the skin had healed together, except for on his lip, where, similar to a cleft lip but smaller, there was a gap, exposing a sharp canine. It was like his lip was turned up in a constant sneer.
You had no idea how he got that scar, and knowing the job you both did, it was probably quite traumatic. But the scar, alongside the rest of him, had desire churning so strongly in your gut that you nearly felt ill. It felt almost too good to be true, yet here he was, in between your legs, staring at you like you were the best thing on this forsaken planet, his hips grinding against the bed as he pleasured you.Ā 
ā€œHallo, Schatz.ā€ You were entranced by the way his lips moved as he spoke, and he noticed it, a cocky grin now on display. God, the effect that smirk had on you was immediate, his smugness immeasurable when he felt your body react on his fingers. ā€œYou know how to make a man feel good.ā€
You managed to roll your eyes, not wanting to bolster his ego that much, making Kƶnig laugh in response. But his playful mood was quickly replaced by one of pure desire, moving forward until you could feel his warm breath hit your center. His fingers had resumed their motions, that tension once again building in your abdomen. It felt stronger this time like your body was punishing you for not allowing the tension to release last time.Ā 
Not once did his eyes break away from yours, not even as his tongue flicked out to taste you, and you could feel his smile, never once dropping. He did it again, this time nudging your over-sensitive clit, making your hips buck. Letting his mask fall on your body to keep it held up, his now free hand splayed across your lower abdomen, keeping you in place, unable to escape the onslaught of pleasure.Ā 
Even quicker than before, you found yourself careening toward that edge, your nails digging into Kƶnigā€™s arm, likely leaving marks. His name replayed like a chant on your lips with each crook of his fingers, each flick of his tongue, every suck from his lips. You couldnā€™t see him any longer, your head thrown back against the pillows.
ā€œKƶnigā€¦ please.ā€ You almost didnā€™t want to tell him you were close, afraid of him taking your release away from you again. But you figured he didnā€™t need you to tell him to know, with the way your thighs shook and walls fluttered around his fingers. You felt him smirk again, a sense of dread washing over you at its implication. ā€œPlease, Kƶnigā€¦ let me cum.ā€
Forcing your head back down, you watched as he considered your plea, and for a second, you thought you were in the clear. That was until he pulled his mouth away, his lower face glistening, that smirk still there, before the mask fell back down. His fingers pulled away next, groaning when he watched you clench around nothing.
Frustrated was nowhere close to how you felt, tears now prickling your eyes as yet another orgasm was withheld. The torture was delicious, yes, but you were going to lose it if you didnā€™t get to cum soon. Youā€™d wanted this for so long, to fall apart under his ministrations, and you were tired of waiting. Your voice wavered as you whined his name, but there wasnā€™t anything either of you could do now, as you felt that almost high fade away again.Ā 
With a defeated sigh, you let your head hit the pillows again, your legs sliding off Kƶnigā€™s shoulders. You didnā€™t get to relax long, though, before his accented voice hit your ears again, unfortunately muffled. ā€œRoll over.ā€
Without trying to hide your displeasure, you complied, glaring at him as you turned. You hoped he couldnā€™t tell how excited you actually were, fighting back an eager smile. He chuckled from behind you as you settled on your hands and knees, trailing off when he took in the sight before him. ā€œI will ignore that attitude. This time.ā€
As you thought over the implications of this time, you felt Kƶnig stand, followed by the sound of rustling fabric, as well as the crinkle of plastic. Something stirred in you at the fact that he came prepared, meaning he wanted this as much as you did. Youā€™re not sure why you still believed he didnā€™t, but the reassurance was nice, to say the least.Ā 
Glancing over your shoulder, you managed to catch a glimpse of him, the sight making you nearly snap your head back around. Nearly. He had shed his pants, his black shirt rising enough to reveal a pale, muscular abdomen, created from years of intense labor and exercise. He radiated power, and a part of you wondered if that translated into more intimate aspects like his authoritativeness had. Would he be rough with you? Or would he be more ginger, like his touch had been for most of the night; not gentle, but not on the verge of hurting?
You would take either way, as long as it was him doing it.Ā 
ā€œIt is rude to stare.ā€
His tone was teasing, yet it still pulled you out of your shameless ogling. Caught red-handed, an almost sheepish smile appeared on your face. ā€œYou canā€™t blame me when you look like that. Youā€™re a sight, Kƶnig.ā€
For the first time that night, Kƶnig seemed at a loss for words, staring at you like youā€™d grown a second head. If his mask was still pulled up, you figured you would see his lips struggling to form words, and, if you were lucky, a blush creeping up his face. It was a beautiful image in your mind, one that made you smile harder.Ā 
Clearing his throat, Kƶnig shook himself out of whatever daze he had been in, and you pocketed his weakness away for later. Checking you for any last-second hesitations, he let the rest of the clothing on his lower body fall away, effectively shifting the power back into his hands. And despite yourself, a small noise left you at the sight, further stroking his already massive ego.Ā 
As to be expected for someone of his size, he was large, and painfully hard, if the hiss he let out told you anything. He was proportional to his hand as he took himself in it, stroking himself a few times, but you knew youā€™d struggle to hold him in yours. Just like the rest of his body, he was pale, with an almost purple tip that leaked precum.Ā 
Turning your head back around before you lost your nerve, a few seconds passed before you felt the bed creak again, assumedly to put on the condom. One hand pressed between your shoulders, wordlessly pressing your face and chest into the bed. His other hand grabbed your hip, pulling your ass against him, another small noise leaving you when his cock pressed into you. You let him maneuver you as he wished, surprised with how much you were enjoying him taking the lead during this.Ā 
ā€œReady?ā€ His voice sounded relaxed, but the fingers digging into your hips told a different story. Still, the sincerity of his gesture made your heart thrum happily.
ā€œYes.ā€ Youā€™d never been more ready for something.Ā 
A strangled moan tore from your lips as he pressed in, obscured by the mattresses your face was currently being pressed into. Tangling your fingers into the sheets around you, you could do nothing but take him as he sheathed his length into you, inch by inch. Time seemed to slow, your breathing ragged, when it wasnā€™t interrupted by noises of pleasure.Ā 
The pain wasnā€™t as bad as you initially thought it would be, and for a moment you were thankful that Kƶnig had worked you up so much. But that tension returned again, Kƶnig still not fully in you yet. A whimper of his name had him stilling, an almost painful-sounding breath leaving him as he steadied himself, using every ounce of restraint to keep going slowly.Ā 
The words tumbled out of you then, unable to stop yourself. ā€œI-I can take itā€¦ please.ā€
ā€œScheiƟe.ā€ The expletive was not unknown to you, nearly turning smug with the fact you made him lose control again. And just like before, he was quick to put you in your place, any comment dying on your lips when he bottomed out with a sharp thrust of his hips.
You swore you saw stars, unable to make any noise besides a soft oh. Kƶnig, trusting that you were telling the truth, didnā€™t wait to give you time to adjust. He set a brutal pace immediately, hips snapping against yours with a slick noise. You could cum just from this alone, still so worked up, and Kƶnig knew this.
The hands on your body shifted, wrapping around the front of your body and lifting you effortlessly until your back was pressed against his chest. He wasted no time tearing off your shirt, groping and toying with your breasts as he continued to thrust up into you. His voice was like gravel as he spoke, his covered mouth speaking right in your ear. ā€œDu fĆ¼hlst- Gott, mein Schatz.ā€
Even though your brain was hazed with lust, there was one thing that stuck out to you when he spoke. Never before had he added the word ā€œmeinā€ before calling you Schatz. You had no idea what it meant, but it certainly sounded like an English word youā€™d been dying to hear from his lips. Mine.
ā€œYours?ā€ You knew you were probably connecting dots that didnā€™t exist, but the idea of being Kƶnigā€™s was too appealing.Ā 
Kƶnig stuttered in his movements, an absolutely sinful moan being pulled from him, a sound that nearly pushed you over that edge. ā€œSmart girl,ā€ he spoke while regaining his breath. ā€œCum for me, mein MƤdchen.ā€
That was all you needed, reaching your release the hardest youā€™d ever had in your life, the relief you felt immeasurable. Your head threw back to his shoulder, and because your eyes were screwed shut you couldnā€™t see the way he stared at you with awe. Every muscle tensed and then released, causing you to go slack in his arms, your nerves buzzing with pleasure.Ā 
Your ears rang too loudly to hear him groan your name as he felt you cum, and a few more thrusts of his hips was all it took to reach his own end. The sensation of him spasming inside of you rode out your waves of pleasure until it became too much. Kƶnig, thankfully, seemed to realize this, and he pulled out of you, then easing your limp body to the bed carefully.Ā 
Completely blissed out, you didnā€™t feel as Kƶnig got off the bed, nor know how much time passed before he returned. All you knew was that suddenly the blanket was torn out from under you, before covering your bare body.
Even though every muscle in your body didnā€™t want to work, you forced yourself to sit upright and watch the large man, who was currently in the process of getting redressed. ā€œYouā€™re not staying?ā€ You didnā€™t try to hide the obvious disappointment in your words.Ā 
Kƶnig stilled at that, turning to face you slowly. ā€œDo you want me to stay?ā€
ā€œOf course.ā€ The words came out so easily, so honestly, that you nearly startled yourself with your honesty.Ā 
Something like relief sagged his broad shoulders, and before long he was back beside your bed. You let him lay down first, as he did take up more space, before settling yourself in the crook of his arm. Well, it was more like you were half lying on top of him to keep from falling off the bed, but neither of you were complaining. Kƶnig certainly wasnā€™t, his eyes crinkling in a poorly concealed smile.Ā 
A few moments passed in silence, simply savoring the afterglow and the feeling of being in each otherā€™s arms. Then, ā€œAre you relaxed now?ā€
You snorted at that, lifting your head to look at him, shaking your head lightly. Fondly. ā€œI suppose I am,ā€ you agreed. ā€œThough I am gonna be sore tomorrow forā€¦ other reasons.ā€
It was Kƶnigā€™s turn to laugh now, the sound lighter than you expected. ā€œI hope you are not expecting me to apologize. You were the one who asked for it.ā€ You merely shrugged your shoulders in response, knowing he was right, but not wanting to give him the satisfaction of verbally admitting it.Ā 
Every part of your body wanted to lay back down, but you had a different idea as you continued to observe Kƶnig. He tracked every movement of your eyes, and you could see his brow furrow in confusion. Before he could say anything, though, you were speaking, so quietly you wondered if you had merely thought the words.
ā€œCan I kiss you?ā€
And for the second time that night, Kƶnig was at a loss, blinking at you like a deer in the headlights. But it seemed heā€™d already made up his mind, nodding lightly, the mask creasing with every movement of his head.Ā 
Letting the blanket fall off you, you were quick to straddle his abdomen, eliciting a gasp from the Austrian. Tentatively, you let your fingers reach for the hem of the mask, scanning his eyes for any hesitations. When you were met with none, you flashed him a gracious smile, before pulling the cloth up right to his nose, not going further than he had before.Ā 
His hands, which had fallen to his side, now ran up your thighs, before settling on your waist. Blue eyes danced across your face and your body, not able to decide which sight he liked better. You were quick to keep his attention on your mouth, though, as you planted one of your hands on his chest and leaned forward.
Taking your other hand, you let it trail up his neck before settling on his lower jaw, his stubble tickling your hand. He shuddered under your touch, lips parting in a soft gasp. Even with everything the two of you had done tonight, this felt the most intimate.Ā 
When you pressed your lips against his, you couldnā€™t help the smile that tugged yours when he made another audible noise. A part of you wondered how long it had been since heā€™d been kissed, been touched this softly. If heā€™d let you, youā€™d remedy that. Gladly.
You kept the kiss short, but it promised more to come. Setting the mask back down, you pressed one last peck to his covered lips, unable to help yourself, before laying your head on his chest, keeping any comment about his fast heartbeat to yourself. ā€œI hope you know Iā€™ll be getting my revenge,ā€ you said instead, hoping he didnā€™t realize it was just another way of saying you wanted this again.Ā 
ā€œI am looking forward to it, Schatz.ā€
Translations:
Schatz - treasure (term of endearment)
Sehr gut - very good
Gott - God
Du bist so schƶn - you are so beautiful
Du hast keine Idee, was ich sage - you have no idea what I am saying
Nur fĆ¼r mich - only for me
Nein - no
Gutes MƤdchen - good girl
ScheiƟe - shit, fuck
Du fĆ¼hlst- Gott, mein Schatz - you feel- God, my treasure
Mein MƤdchen - my girl
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ferie-anon Ā· 2 years ago
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šŸš Aspects & asteroid observations etc šŸš
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šŸµ I notice people with bella asteroid (695) in sagittarius tend to be known for their bigger figure and curvy for females, as sag rules the booty. Men with this placement could have broader shoulders and look athletic or look fit. Btw the bella asteroid (695) can show you where ur ā€œbeautyā€ is.
šŸµ Bella asteroid in virgo tend to have an ā€œearthlyā€/natural and warm beauty. Their skin could be tanned or just have a warm undertone. They could have big doe eyes, from the ones Iā€™ve seen that has this placement.
Bella asteroid in libra or 7th house may be known for their harmonious facial features.
šŸµ Moon in 9th/sag tend to space out at times I notice, or they donā€™t recall certain details/events at times if they donā€™t remember anything memorable of it.
šŸµ Venus trine neptune falling for morally grey characters? šŸ‘€
šŸµ Nymphe (875) in leo in conjunct the ascendant may have luscious and wavy hair or their hair is ethereal/pretty to others.
šŸµ Jupiter conjunct asc = big chest + booty šŸ‘Æā€ā™€ļø tho Iā€™m sure ppl alrdy know that šŸ§ā€ā™€ļø
Difference between pluto negatively aspecting ascendant vs positively aspecting:
Me having pluto square ascendant and ppl finding it a bit hard to approach irl becuz I look quiet and studious and isolated (pluto square asc ppl are private and keep to themselves)
While my friend has pluto sextile ascendant and people finding her interesting and easy to talk to, cuz shes kinda quiet but also wants to make friends/experience the fullest of life (pluto sextile asc makes them more comfortable and confident in their power and making them magnetic and able to understand others in a deeper and different way).
Also I have another friend who has pluto square asc and ppl think sheā€™s judgy/intimidating or looks to be a critical person at first glance/impression, even tho shes actually chill and friendly. So sometimes they donā€™t approach at first till they find out shes nice actually.
Random moon sign analysis:
šŸµ Interestingly I have two friends with moon in 9th house but they donā€™t act the same. One of them has virgo moon in 9th house at 15 degrees (gemini degree), and the other has gemini moon in 9th house at 19 degrees (libra degree). Both moon signs are in mutable signs and house(while the degrees are different), but I feel the degrees slightly change the way they process and interpret information. The one with the gemini degree in her moon in 9th tend to be a bit ā€œscatteredā€ and have random unusual but creative and funny ideas, whereas my friend with libra degree in her moon in 9th seems to be more calm and just going with the flow with her thinking and balanced with her side and processing what others are saying to add to it. Since libra degree is cardinal energy, so her process of thinking is more direct.
It could also be becuz the two moon signs are inherently different in their process since virgo moon is more practical but also tries to retain and have a lot going thru their head, while gemini moonā€™s brains easily access and connect a lot of things in their head at that moment or just intuitively/ gemini moons thinkings are less filled with overthinking as they are not focused on the effects but the "possibilities".
šŸ–‹ļø Mars at 0 degrees would lash out or have a lot of anger in them. If u tick them off or they feel disrespected, their anger can be volatile or hurtful.
šŸ–‹ļø Saturn in 4th house could indicate to a difficult childhood or a family life of feeling disconnected or alone at times. One of my friends has this in her natal chart and her family dynamics is complicated, as she feels distant with her father and step-mom, while her birth mother and grandma lives in another country and she feels closer with them.
šŸ–‹ļø I notice if theres gemini in the big 3 and earth placements in the big 6 together, they may be interested in getting tattoos on their body. For eg. Taurus sun with gemini moon and venus, they may think of getting meaningful word tattoos on their neck. (Eg. Ricky from boys planet has a tattoo on his neck with the word rolemodel on it) meanwhile sung hanbin from boys planet has a word/quote tattoo on his inner part of his arm and he has a sun and moon tattoo around the center of his collarbone/chest (hanbin has a gemini sun pisces moon with taurus venus)
I just notice that if theres gemini and earth placements in there, theyā€™re likely interested in getting tattoos over their upper body, like arm, neck, or back. I think the moon sign can heavily influence where they put the tattoos and wut type of tattoos. Pisces moon may be more visual and may have tattoos of objects that are symbolic to them. Gemini moon may tend to get a quote they find meaningful or a fancy word tattoo. Capricorn moon may have their tattoos around areas of their joints, area wheres theres bone structure to support like the back since capricorn rules the skeletal system.
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deafsignifcantother Ā· 3 months ago
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my husband and I
ā™„ summary:Ā alastor is an amazing husband, but the tone in the house starts to shift when you learn that he is the serial killer you feared. ā™„ relationships:Ā human alastor x deaf gender neutral reader ā™„Ā word count:Ā 1.6k ā™„ warnings:Ā big power dynamic issue, reactive abuse, murder, visualization of deafness and dependency, but they still have cute moments bc they're married and love each other ā™„ a/n:Ā A VERY SHAMELESS REPOST OF A YEARS OLD FIC THAT'S NOWHERE NEAR HAZBIN RELATED LMFAO
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There are so many things running through your mind. You think about the smiles and how they always appear like a cocky smirk. Then, there's the way he laughs, even if it's a short chuckle, he bares his teeth. So many things could have alerted you to his danger. Are you stupid for not detecting it before?
When you think back, you are sure he had tried confessing his hobby (hobby,Ā what a simplistic way to describe it) to you. He had made past comments about how he'd kill people, but you thought it was dramatics, and you had brushed it off.
He knows that you know now. The energy in the house had shiftedā€”from both partiesā€”and became hostile. The hospitality within your home had dissipated alongside the innocent eyes he would give you in the morning.
That night, before he undresses himself to slip into bed, he holds a threatening hand to your neck. He doesn't grab it or tighten his grip, but the implication is there. He signs with one hand,
"Without me, you haveĀ nothing, so don't you ever forget that, darling."
It's true. Your job, friends, the chance of a future being single, the idea of making money without himā€”it's all gone. It has been for a while. Your time in the house is all day, every day, and even if you wanted to leave, you had no car to drive. He keeps you here. It has kept you sane and safe up until now.
"I won't tell anyone." You sign with an empty facial expression. It feels pointless. With him, you feel like a walking corpse, somebody who is already dead.
His hand moves up to your cheek, where he pats you, tilting his head with a smile. "I know."
And after that, he stopped treating you differently. He returned to kissing your face every morning, leaving the house after cooking you breakfast, and doing all the husband-y things he was doing before. The days went on and on, and you were beginning to get used to the dial-back.
But you jump whenever he walks up behind you and places his hands on your hips. He has gotten quieter, sneakier. Is he planning something?
When you're alone in the house, you eye the phone, wondering if, in another life, you could pick it up, call someone, and leave the house without having to worry about what would happen. In a perfect reality, you could talk to the police about everything.
You can't even imagine Alastor in jail.
It would beĀ yourĀ fault if anything happened to him. Would you be able to deal with that?
How could he even hurt someone? You try to imagine yourself doing it, standing in the forest and torturing someone.
It has been you and him for the last couple of years. He was all you needed and all you cared for. You didn't notice that he was stripping you of all your relations, your friends and family, stripping you of your independence and the things that made you human. He gave you enough in return. Your social life is spent with his coworkers while he interprets for you. You go to dinners, ones that his job hosted. You are always flashed as if you are a prized possession.
Maybe that's all you are.
You read his facial expressions even closer now. The furrow of his brow or the dropping of his eyelids always makes your whole body tighten. What will he do if he's mad at you? Will he hurt you?
You try to search in your memory: has he hurt you before? No, you realize. He hasn't. A sadistic twitch in his eye only appears in your romantic life. His hands have a consistent way of touching your body as if he is examining it.
You think about these things while you do the housework, while waiting for him to come home from work. Throughout everything: the fear, the sorrow, the guilt, you continue sticking by him. What else is there to do?
When he comes home from work, he puts his jacket around the shoulders of a chair, stepping close to you. You can feel his bodyā€”his warmth and his touch. He rolls up his sleeves and helps you with dinner without saying a thing. When you look up to him, he doesn't allow his eyes to look at you. A part of that makes your cheeks warm.
That night, he signs, "It's your turn."
You are too busy gazing into his eyes to realize he has taken his turn.
It was when you first moved in with him that you brought, in boxes, your board games. Whenever Alastor would bring company, he would force you to bring them out and be friendly as he played with them. Now, alone with you, he is being competitive. It's cute. And it's the Alastor you have known.
When you move your piece, he eyes it, tilting his head. Your breath stops. There it is again: he's examining you.
"What's work like?" You ask.
"Same as it has been."
You nod your head, glancing at his hands, trying to think of how many lives they must have taken. Does he shoot people? You can imagine that. The thought of him using his bare hands is beyond you; you've never seen him be violent like that. What about knives? His cooking - skilled, far off from clumsyā€¦ he may use knives.
He lifts his chin. His eyes ask the question:Ā what are you thinking about?
There's a vacant space and a lack of words between you. You are chewing the inside of your mouth, grinding your teeth before you raise your hands.
"Do you use knives?"
He straightens his shoulders.
"When?"
"In the forest."
He smiles. The one that looks like a smirk.
"Yes."
You just nod, your cheeks warming. He's a killer. It's true; he admits it and doesn't shy away from the fact. But still, in your head, you can't seem to force yourself to be too worried about it. He hasn't hurt you, not unconsentually, and this thought taunts you like a loaded gun.
What do you have to be scared of?
A lot, you remind yourself. He's the danger: the stranger in your house that you need to be cautious of. Yet, ever since he had been revealed to you, he has done little to further the narrative ofĀ psycho-serial danger. He's still your husband. He's still the one you belong to.
That's why, when he comes home bloody, you shower with him before helping him bandage himself. You're the one who ruffles the towel through his hair and against his shoulders, catching the spare droplets. The two of you hardly even talk to each other as you press bandaids against his skin. You kiss each one.
Your lips touch the skin of his bicep, and then you peck upward, continuing to his neck, where you linger in the space between his cheek and his ear. His hand falls to your thigh, cupping the side of it, and he rubs the skin up and down. He doesn't move it from there, doingĀ nothingĀ salacious, not without your direct intention stated to him. It makes your heart race. At that moment, you forget about everything violent about him. But with those kisses, with the way his lips suck on your skin, you wonder if it is contagious. The violence, the wrath, and the war seeped into your skin like poison. You felt it corrupting you: the innocent front you had began to melt away, and suddenly, you were exposed.
Because when one of his victims enters through the backdoor: yourĀ home, your safety net, you do what youĀ knowĀ Alastor would do if he made it in time. You grab a knife, hiding behind a wall, feeling their footsteps as they step closer. And when they round the corner, you strike them in the face with the back, knocking them down before holding the blade above your head.
You get a good look at their weak body, imagining your kitchen tiles as dirt, a leaf-covered ground, and the walls around you as arrays of trees.
You think about the times Alastor had held you behind him when people tried to talk to you. You think about the times he would protect you from the outside world, the ways he would drive himself insane to make sure you were safe.
He did so much for you, and what have you given him in return? A home filled with paranoia and unnecessary caution? It is unfair to him. You have been lashing out for nothing. So, you decide to gift him this: a new sense of egoā€”a pride that cannot be hidden, developed from a realization.
In this lifetime, you have one beam of hope: him. With those vows, you both swore to stick together. Through sickness and health, through life and death.
He is your husband; this is the house where you will spend the rest of your life.
When Alastor stands in front of the dead body, he places both hands on his hips, tapping his fingers before signing.
"Is the mess for me?"
You are still breathing heavily. He can see it in your eyes, the way they are wide and craved, the way the person's blood still stained your hair and the skin of your cheek. Your serenity is in the dark gloom yonder.
But you argue against him and his assumptions. When he asks if you are okay, you just smile and nod. "It feels good."
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togetherness
matildaā€™s x reader
this oneā€™s a long one so rip
also pls keep sending request lol i need ideas
your a rookie on the squad, struggling to find your footing in a team that you donā€™t think you fit into. what happens when a certain conflict arises between you and one of your teammates?
angst, little bit of fluff, 5k+ words
I couldnā€™t really give you a timeline on when I started to space out, when I started to check out. I knew chronologically it would have had to be a few weeks ago, after the world cup had started, just after my whole life had become a shit storm. It was a process, checking out of your own life, it took time, I think thatā€™s why I couldnā€™t tell you the one moment that I started to, because there wasnā€™t an exact moment. Slowly the days just all start to smudge into one big mess, you canā€™t tell people what day it is anymore or when your last meal was. Which sounds stupid, because those are just mundane things. When you check out of life though those things stop mattering, for me I either sleep obtusely or I donā€™t sleep at all, I donā€™t eat, I forget how to look after myself. I try to be discreet about it for as long as I can, but eventually people catch on, especially when you are playing professional sport, because you are surrounded by doctors and athletes that know the signs of burnout.
At around two weeks, I think, I could tell my team was catching onto my behaviour. I was a mess, I came to breakfast in the morning with puffy red eyes from crying at night, I didnā€™t really talk to anyone unless I had to, I was always tired, I kept to myself a little bit too much. It was a matter of time until I was approached, probably told off for having a shitty attitude. I had predicted that, expected it. What I hadnā€™t expected was to be pretty much cornered in my locker before training by our team captain, Sam Kerr.
As one of the youngest on the team it was safe to say that I was pretty much terrified of our skipper. Not that Sam was a scary person, she was lovely, considerate to a fault. But she was terrifying in a sense that we all knew heading into the world cup she had one ambition and that was to win at home, at all costs. Thatā€™s a little bit intimidating, especially when you know that she is prepared to hand you your ass on a silver platter if you do absolutely anything to jeopardise that ambition.
Iā€™d been sitting in my cubby, lacing my cleats up. Both of my airpods in, hoodie on, tracksuit on, puffer jacket hood on. If I didnā€™t scream unapproachable I donā€™t know what did. Iā€™d been sitting there a little bit too long I think, staring at my shoe lace for a little bit long, long enough for someone to point me out to Sam. Iā€™d gotten the fright of my life when Samā€™s hand had very gently connected with my shoulder. Iā€™d flinched back almost immediately, before turning around and realising where the contact had come from. Sam looked a little bit offended by my sudden reaction to her touch, but the concern left her facial expression fairly quickly.
ā€œAre you okay kid?ā€
I hated that question. Three words that drove me insane. I donā€™t think anyone ever answered that question honestly, because it was so blunt. How were you supposed to honestly answer a person you didnā€™t trust with the answer to the question.
I pulled my airpods out of my ears purely out of respect, even though I could hear Sam perfectly clear.
ā€œFine, Cap.ā€
I thought my words would have been enough of an indicator that I didnā€™t want to talk to her but sheā€™d taken it as an invitation instead to sit down on the bench beside me.
ā€œYou donā€™t look fine.ā€
I bit the inside of my cheek, hard enough to draw blood, and focused on completing the task of lacing up my cleats.
ā€œWell I am.ā€
My answers were short and snappy, closed off. They didnā€™t leave room for imagination or interpretation. I was a blunt person, I spoke bluntly, I reacted to things bluntly. Iā€™d always been that way and I was pretty sure Iā€™d never change.
ā€œDo you want to talk about it? Because Iā€™m here for you.ā€
I gulped and finished tying up my first cleat, moving on to pulling the second one over my sock covered left foot. I always put the left one on first, it had become routine for me, that was how Iā€™d tied them before Iā€™d won my first game and Iā€™d stuck with it, it was a superstition that Iā€™d never been able to break and I didnā€™t see why I should break it now.
ā€œI donā€™t have anything I need to talk to you about.ā€
My voice was betraying me, my voice and my eyes. I knew Sam would pick up on my aversion to looking at her in the eyes. I could blame it on focusing on tying up my shoes but she was also sitting directly above them and every time I lifted my eyes I just happened to focus on the wall behind her instead.
ā€œDoesnā€™t seem that way, Ellie told me that sheā€™s heard you crying in your ensuite at night, she says you donā€™t sleep very much, which I think your under eyes are enough supporting evidence.ā€
I let my eyes drift over to Ellie, she was standing on the complete opposite side of the locker rooms, talking anxiously to Kyra and Hailey. As soon as she looked up and met my eyes I could tell that Samā€™s approach to me had been driven by her, the anxious look in her eyes was enough of a giveaway.
ā€œEllie doesnā€™t know what sheā€™s talking about, the girl talks in her sleep most of the time or sheā€™s on the phone to her girlfriend, I donā€™t think sheā€™d be able to recall my night time activities.ā€
I focused back in on my cleats, knotting them furiously with my hands that I had now realised were shaking.
ā€œShe seemed to have a pretty good idea, weā€™ve all seen youā€™ve been checked out recently. I get if you donā€™t want to talk about it now around the girls. You seem to be having a bad day. So how about you get yourself through training and then you and I have a chat in private?ā€
It was phrased as a question but nothing about how sheā€™d said the words came out as a proposition, it was an order. I would have tried to object but I knew it would be useless, Sam had made her mind up and once Sam had made up her mind there was no changing it.
ā€œSounds good skipper.ā€
My voice was nothing but dripping with sarcasm, it was my only way of pushing out my very clear distaste with the idea of having to talk to Sam after training. As soon as Sam stood up and Iā€™d checked that both of my cleats were on properly I marched right over to Ellie, pulling her away from the conversation she was in and back over to my locker.
ā€œI donā€™t know who the fuck you think you are but telling on me to cap isnā€™t going to get you fucking brownie points with me, we arenā€™t friends Ellie, weā€™re not sleepover buddies. I am working tooth and nail here to be fucking respected and I just got a proper emotional dressing down from Kerr that was pretty much just her telling me that I needed to get my act together. If that doesnā€™t scream out not fucking respected than I donā€™t know what does.ā€
I watched all of the colour drain from Ellieā€™s face as she slowly became far more uncomfortable in the conversation. She wasnā€™t backing down though.
ā€œI donā€™t know what fucking planet you are on y/n/n but we are just looking out for you. I hear you at night in the bathroom, sobbing and balling your eyes out. That doesnā€™t scream out okay to me. Sam wasnā€™t giving you a dressing down she was asking you if you were fucking okay, something that weā€™ve all wanted to do for a few weeks now, we were just all scared to because we thought you were going to rip our heads off, like you are doing to me right now. I would be lying if I said I wasnā€™t worried about you right now because how youā€™ve been behaving as of late isnā€™t fucking normal and anybody in there right mind would be worried about you.ā€
Ellie and Iā€™s argument had escalated enough that I could tell most of the locker room's attention had fallen to our heated conversation, neither of us were ready to back down though and that much was evident in how strong both of our glares at each other held.
ā€œFuck you, you arenā€™t the person who gets to decide whether or not Iā€™m okay or not. So what if Iā€™ve been keeping to myself? Maybe I needed some down time away from this fucking extroverted team that never gives me a fucking break.ā€
It was a personal dig, one that I had said far too loudly in a crowded room of girls that I actually really loved, it had been like word vomit though, getting thrown out in me and Ellieā€™s fight.
ā€œThatā€™s not fair and you know it, all anybody here has done is be nice to you and youā€™ve been a fucking dick to everyone for the last few weeks, itā€™s not normal. You were so happy at training camp but ever since weā€™ve gotten here youā€™ve lost your shit and itā€™s fucking pathetic because we are your team and family and you should trust us more than anybody else but you donā€™t you donā€™t give two shits about anybody here besides yourself and we can all see it. Itā€™s embarrassing having your represent us in your current condition. Your a wreck. You didnā€™t deserve to be brought up from the under 20ā€™s. Maybe if you spent less time in our bathroom at nighttime crying about how hard your sorry ass life was youā€™d realise there are people and things on earth that are more fucking important than you are.ā€
Ellieā€™s words had taken the air out of my lungs, it wasnā€™t what Iā€™d expected and even her facial expression reflected that she was a little bit taken aback by her own words. They were personal, really personal. I blinked a few times, trying to get a footing in the conversation but I couldnā€™t, because what was I supposed to say to a person accusing me of being a selfish heartless team mate? Me and Ellie stood stock still, just staring at each other, both of us obviously waiting for the other to keep talking but neither of us could.
ā€œEllie Madison Carpenter, out on the field, right now.ā€
Stephā€™s voice echoed against the walls of the changerooms, everyone else was standing completely silent and still in the room. I looked around the locker rooms, aware that literally everyone besides Sam who had left the locker rooms after her talk to me had just heard Ellieā€™s speech. I was too shocked to do anything besides plaster my hand against my mouth and run directly into the bathroom that connected to the change rooms. I did my best to not let any tears fall until Iā€™d locked the disabled bathroom door behind me and Iā€™d slid down onto the floor. Was that actually what the team thought of me? That I was a selfish, useless, coldhearted bitch who was just here for herself? Ellieā€™s words had hurt my heart and soul, because I didnā€™t play for myself, I hadnā€™t ever.
I consciously could hear the frantic knocking on the bathroom door but my subconscious was doing its best to tune it out.
ā€œY/n, open the door, please.ā€
ā€œFucking Ellie, that kid has no fucking filter.ā€
ā€œHow are we supposed to explain to Cap that she locked herself in the bathroom?ā€
ā€œFuck we were supposed to be on the field five minutes ago, Tony is going to have a field day giving us fucking suicide sprints.ā€
Those were a few of the sentences that I made out through the door. They were enough to tell me that I needed to get my shit together, because one thing I couldnā€™t handle on top of the team thinking I was all of those things was the team thinking I was the fucking emotional mess that everyone seemed to think I was. So after letting whatever tears I had left fall, I flushed the toilet, in an attempt to try and disguise the sound of me furiously washing the redness off of my face then I walked towards the door, took a deep breath and unlocked it. Hailey and Macka were both waiting outside and were very clearly surprised by my exit from the bathroom.
ā€œAlanna, donā€™t worry about getting skip, sheā€™s out.ā€
I bit the inside of my mouth again, satisfied with the irony taste of my own blood filling my mouth.
ā€œSorry, just feeling a little bit sick.ā€
It was very clear none of them believed my excuse. I tried to push past them though, trying my hardest to avoid whatever awkward confrontation that I was apparently bound to, because both Ras and Mackenzie stopped me before I could take a step.
ā€œY/n. What Ellie said wasnā€™t true and itā€™s okay for you to feel emotions about that, she let the heat of the moment get to her.ā€
I gulped, swallowing the mixture of blood and sweat that was resonating in my mouth.
ā€œI told you, I feel sick. I donā€™t give a shit what Ellie has to say, sheā€™s very welcome to her own opinions, this is a free country, she has an issue Iā€™d rather her say it to my face.ā€
My words were faulty, untrustworthy, like ice that was slowly cracking.
ā€œYou are allowed to be upset at her for saying that about you, it was mean and she was trying to get to you. Itā€™s okay for you to have emotions about that.ā€
I pursed my lips, I hated confrontation. Confrontation was terrifying.
ā€œI told you I just felt sick, I still do. I need to go talk to Tony, can I leave or am I being held hostage until I talk about emotions that I donā€™t have or feel right now?ā€
Hayley and Mackenzie both looked between each other, trying to think up another plan of attack but clearly not finding anything telepathically between themselves.
ā€œYou are free to go, weā€™re here for you if you need to talk.ā€
I rolled my eyes at the two of them.
ā€œThanks, Iā€™ll keep a mental note next time I need a therapist to talk about my nonexistent selfish feelings with.ā€
The sarcasm rolled off of my tongue too easily as I walked out of the locker rooms and into the tunnel, slowly making my way out onto the field. It was night training, so the ground was cold and the bright white fluorescent lights were blaring down across the pitch. I looked out across the ground, the girls had already started running whatever drills theyā€™d been instructed to start with which led me to ask myself the question of how long had I actually locked myself in that bathroom for?
I made my way straight over to Tony who was looking at me in that way he tended to when he was thinking about something.
ā€œMs y/l/n.ā€
He smiled at me, a little bit too kindly for my liking.
ā€œCoach, Iā€™m feeling a bit sick, I think I might have eaten something funny this morning, probably that granola that looked like it had been sitting out for a little bit to long, I think I should probably just rest for tonight, unless you want a granola vomit mess to deal with.ā€
Tonyā€™s eyes studied me, my body language, silently assessing my every move.
ā€œIt wouldnā€™t have anything to do with what happened between you and Ms Carpenter?ā€
Fuck, that was me exposed. I looked down to my cleats, by default, because I couldnā€™t look into his eyes knowing that he knew I was lying straight to his face.
ā€œShe approached me, told me that sheā€™d said some things to a teammate before coming out for warm ups that she was sorry for, that I should sit her out for a game because of it. Wouldnā€™t tell me who sheā€™d spoken to, which made me think it must have been pretty serious.ā€
I gulped anxiously, fuck. Fuck Ellie for making this whole night a flaming hot pile of shit.
ā€œIt wasnā€™t anything bad, I feel sick, itā€™s got nothing to do with Ellie, Iā€™m a big girl, I can handle my own problems, she shouldnā€™t sit out for a week, we need her.ā€
I let my eyes cross the field, to where Ellie was, her whole complexion had paled dramatically and she looked like sheā€™d just been on a really high rollercoaster.
ā€œWe also need to look out for the safety of our players. I'm going to ask you this once and I want you to tell me the complete truth. Did Ellie personally attack you in the change rooms before training tonight? Donā€™t lie to me, Iā€™ll ask one of your team mates if you do and I donā€™t want to hear that their answers were any different to yours.ā€
I bit down hard on my mouth tissue, there was a part of me that wanted to lie for Ellie, even though it would probably land us in more trouble, there was also a part of me that wanted to hand her in, even though in my eyes she hadnā€™t really done anything wrong, sheā€™d said her peace.
ā€œWe were both giving it to each other, she gave as much as she got. I deserve to sit out a week just as much as she does if weā€™re referencing words said to each other, we were both rude, we got stuck up in the heat of the moment. I promise you, with every bone in my body that it wonā€™t ever happen again, I swear to you.ā€
One thing that my brother told me when we were growing up was how to effectively lie. There was an art to the practice of lying. The first rule was body language, everyone had a tell, it was about identifying yours and then figuring out how to stop it or disguise it. For example, my youngest brother would always tap his left foot when he was lying. Rule number two is eye contact. You need to make some, but not so much that itā€™s creepy. People can tell when you refuse to make eye contact with them, so you need to occasionally. Third is your voice, it needs to be steady, your pitch and tone need to be consistent, one of the easiest tells is a raised voice when you lie. The fourth rule is physical change, this one is probably the hardest, because there isnā€™t anything you can do to stop yourself if you get clammy hands when you are lying, you just have to disguise it. The fifth and final rule is words, you need to use enough that your sentences are coherent but donā€™t over-sell yourself, summarise what needs to be said, instead of reading off a whole backstory.
Iā€™d broken number five and two whilst talking to Tony and I could tell that he was picking up on it. He looked between me and the field before calling over one of my teammates.
ā€œMary, can I have you for a second.ā€
I gulped down the lump that was forming in the back of my throat when Fowler finished off the drill she was doing and ran over to the sideline to stand beside the coach and I.
ā€œWhat can I do for you, coach?ā€
He smiled at her, Iā€™d very quickly noticed that Mary was one of his favourites, rightfully so. She was a hard worker but she was also kind, Matildaā€™s captain material for the future.
ā€œCan you give me a run down of what happened in the lockers before training between Ellie and y/n, from my understanding there was a small altercation, but both of them arenā€™t telling me the whole story and I donā€™t have time for beating around the bush.ā€
I looked at Mary, silently praying for her to downplay it, maybe she hadnā€™t heard much of it. She was the one to pick if you wanted an honest answer, she couldnā€™t lie for the life of her, I knew that much. She bit her lip subtly, thinking thoroughly before she said anything.
ā€œNone of us heard how it started, we all knew that y/n/n was the one to drag Ellie over to her locker after Cap spoke to her. They were arguing, it seemed harmless. Until Ellie was yelling in y/n/nā€™s face.ā€
Tony nodded at her inquisitively, clearly very invested in what she had to say.
ā€œDid you hear what Ms Carpenter was saying to Ms y/l/n?ā€
I gulped, shaking my head as subtly as I could at Mary, this whole encounter was a headache.
ā€œLook, itā€™s not really something Iā€™m comfortable with repeating.ā€
I knew Mary was trying to be helpful but I also knew that statement was going to backfire on her because it made the whole situation sound a lot worse than it was.
ā€œMary, if you donā€™t tell me I will get someone else too, please donā€™t make this any harder than it has to be.ā€
Mary herself gulped anxiously, her eyes frantically darting between Tony and myself. I nodded at her, clearly seeing her distress and just giving her the permission to say her peace, because apparently it was going to get said anyways.
ā€œShe was yelling at y/n/n about how y/n/n was selfish and didnā€™t give a shit about anybody beside herself. I heard her using something about y/n crying in their bathroom at night against her, saying that she was too worried or self obsessed to care about anyone else on the team. I wasnā€™t close enough though to tell you exactly what either of them said. I was on the other side of the room, Steph was the closest, if you want information Iā€™d be asking her, not me.ā€
I could feel my hands shaking in my pockets, this whole situation was giving me anxiety.
ā€œOkay then, thank you, can you go fetch Steph for me, just tell her to come over here.ā€
Mary nodded at coach, before sending me a silent sorry smile before running back out onto the pitch.
Coach pointed to the bench that was on the sidelines a few feet behind us, silently motioning for me to follow him and take a seat down on it.
ā€œBased on what Iā€™ve just been told, I think that Ellie should sit out for a week, her behaviour towards you was unacceptable and she needs to understand there are repercussions for those kinds of situations. Y/n I know that youā€™ve struggled to find your footing in the team, Iā€™ve seen you struggling with your mental health. Iā€™m here for you if you ever need to talk about it or if you need help. If those struggles mean that you need to separate yourself from the team then that is what you do, regardless of the decisions you make you are a valued member on this team and you donā€™t deserve to be verbally assaulted because Ellie has a problem with you.ā€
I pursed my lips, I didnā€™t think Iā€™d been verbally assaulted, if anything Iā€™d started it.
ā€œCoach, I started it with Ellie. She didnā€™t even mean what she said, we need her this week, itā€™s an important game that we canā€™t afford to have her miss. I donā€™t want to be the reason we lose this week just because me and Ellie had a minor altercation, it was nothing.ā€
I couldnā€™t ignore the deep frown on his face, it was a mixture of concern and disappointment and it went straight to my heart.
ā€œCoach? Mary said you need to speak to me?ā€
Both of our heads snapped up at the sudden sound of Stephā€™s voice. She was standing about a foot away from us, her brow furrowed in my direction.
ā€œSteph, yes, Iā€™m just having some trouble understanding the altercation that went down before warm ups with Ms Carpenter and Ms y/l/n. Ms y/l/n is trying to take the whole blame for it and I donā€™t really believe the whole story that sheā€™s giving me, so if you could please give me some insight it would be much appreciated, as I am taking this very seriously.ā€
Stephā€™s eyes went straight to mine, she was my fellow Arsenal team mate, probably the only person on our Matildaā€™s squad who I could actually call my friend. She was frowning at me deeply, trying to study my facial expression.
ā€œY/l/n started it, she pulled Ellie up after having a chat with skipper, but from what I heard she was more just annoyed that Ellie had told skipper about some of her more concerning habits. Ellie was mad about being pulled up on it, typical Ellie fashion she took it to heart and she made it personal. I do recall her calling saying something along the lines of if y/n spent less time in their bathroom at nighttime crying about how ā€˜hardā€™ her sorry ass life was then sheā€™d realise there were people and things on earth that are more fucking important than you she was, Ellie also made a lot of comments about y/n/n being a selfish person who didnā€™t give a shit about any of the people around her. Y/n/n might have technically started it but in her defence she didnā€™t say anything personal or wrong to Ellie, she was just voicing her annoyance about Ellie telling on her to Sam, Ellie was trying to voice her concerns over Y/n/n but it came out wrong and she was trying to make light of a situation that was not hers to talk about in a public space, it was unprofessional and distasteful behaviour from both of them but Ellie was the one who escalated it and made it worse. All y/n really did was tell Ellie to leave her alone and stop pushing, when Ellie did push too far y/n rushed to the bathroom and locked herself in there. Ellieā€™s behaviour was unacceptable to say the least and Iā€™ve told her, Iā€™m sure Sam will as well once I talk to her about it. Iā€™ve told Ellie she has to apologise to y/n/n and that kind of behaviour wonā€™t be tolerated towards anybody let alone her own teammate.ā€
Stephā€™s rundown of the situation was more factual and foolproof then any of the other versions Gustavsson had received and I knew that he was going to believe everything sheā€™d told him.
ā€œOkay, thank you, I really appreciate your transparency on the situation. I made the right call making you interim captain whilst Sam was out. Thatā€™s all I should need for now, feel free to go back to what you were doing, Iā€™ll be out there in a minute.ā€
Once Steph was out of earshot Tony turned to me, clearly a little bit taken aback by all of the information heā€™d just absorbed.
ā€œYou are going to sit out tonight, call it sickness or whatever you please. I want you to stay and watch though, you should be here and you deserve to be here. Iā€™m going to talk to Ellie after training, and just because you donā€™t seem to want her sitting out Iā€™ll see how remorseful she is and make my roster decision for this weekend based off of that. I know sheā€™s your teammate and you feel like you are taking one for the team by enabling her behaviour towards you and maybe it was a one off, just a heat in the moment thing as you called it. Maybe it wasnā€™t though, Iā€™m not going to take chances. I want you to think about your own actions as well, think about how you could have dealt with that situation more effectively. Once trainingā€™s over you are going to head back to the hotel with the girls and you are going to spend time with them, proper bonding time.ā€
I nodded at coach, I didnā€™t have it in me to argue with him.
ā€œCoach, Iā€™m rooming with her.ā€
It was my main concern, not that Ellie scared me, Iā€™d pretty much ignored her the whole tournament, not that she spent a lot of time in our room anyways, she spent all of her free time until curfew in other teammates rooms.
ā€œTalk to Kerr about it, get her to switch them around, Iā€™m sure itā€™s not that difficult. Switch rooms, relax for the night, get some sleep, be back here tomorrow. I donā€™t care whether or not you feel up to training, just be here. This team is your family and whether or not it feels like it they care a lot about you, they are here to support you if you let them. Sometimes you just need to take the leap of faith.ā€
I nodded at coach. He was a gentle soul, a good one. He reached over to me, offering me a hug and I took it, letting him wrap his arms around my shoulders. It was nice, it didnā€™t last long but it felt nice. Once he was done giving me a hug he stood up and followed Steph out onto the field.
I found myself gravitating to a spot directly on the sideline, where our team manager was stationed. She didnā€™t ask any questions as I sat down on the frosty grass beside her station, I was grateful for that much. I hadnā€™t talked to her much but she seemed lovely and in the very little interactions I had had with her she had gone above and beyond to make me comfortable in whatever we were doing.
I spent my training, sitting on the grass, watching the team as they ran through a few drills and plays before moving into a full scrimmage. I kept my body tucked in, my knees to my chest, my puffer jacket and hoodie wrapped tightly around my legs and torso to pull my knees even further into my chest. It was a blessing that theyā€™d designed waterproof sweatpants, because I would have probably had a cold and wet ass if they hadnā€™t. Somewhere along the way our team manager offered me a packet of gummy bears and I couldnā€™t find it in me to decline her offer, so I snacked on the gelatinous pieces of sugar whilst I watched the training slowly come to an end.
They finished with PKā€™s and then concluded the session. I stayed seated in my little spot, I hoped that no one had spotted me and maybe if I waited for everyone to slip off the field and into the locker rooms I would just be able to hop onto the bus without being detected. My plan pretty much backfired immediately when a certain captain beelined directly towards me, clearly I hadnā€™t gone unnoticed to her. I grimaced as she got closer to my spot, my spot that my head had deemed as a safe spot from the rest of my teammates.
Sam didnā€™t even acknowledge me to begin with, instead turning her attention to our team manager, making pretty common conversation with her. She spoke to her for a few minutes, it was afternoon tea talk, just bullshit. Samā€™s specialty. Eventually when she finished up she looked down at me, an eyebrow raised. She motioned for me to stand up and follow her, so stupidly, like a puppy, I did. My muscles were cold and Iā€™d be lying if I said that getting up from the ground hadnā€™t been a little bit harder than Iā€™d predicted. I managed though and caught up to Sam, following after her as she walked back down the tunnel but instead of turning into the locker rooms we kept walking down the corridor until we came to the video review room. It was pretty much just a conference room, one big room with a bunch of tables and chairs that we used to scout and review our own games. Sam closed the blinds to the room, so no bye passers could see in and turned the lights on.
She seated herself at one of the tables, gesturing for me to do the same, so I did. The first thing Sam did was pull out her phone and start typing something or another before looking up at me.
ā€œSteph told me about what happened between you and Ellie.ā€
I gulped, biting my lip as I tried my hardest to maintain my eye contact with Sam, I wasnā€™t going to break, not again. I watched as Samā€™s finger made its way to her mouth and she bit down on her nail in a questioning kind of way that I couldnā€™t explain even if I tried.
ā€œI started it, I was pissed off at her for ratting on me to you.ā€
My honesty would be appreciated, I knew that Sam valued honesty above anything else.
ā€œI donā€™t really care who started it, I care about togetherness, you know that. This team needs one thing, cohesion. I donā€™t care who started it, I care about who the problem was and in that situation it was Ellie, she said things that she had no business saying, with the intention of hurting you. Thatā€™s enough to tell me that in that situation she was prepared to jeopardise our team just so she could tear down one of our own. Iā€™ve recommended to Tony that she sits out this week. He told me you were apprehensive about it, I wanted to know why.ā€
There was a simple answer, and a more complex answer, a part of me knew which one Sam wanted.
ā€œShort answer, Ellie is a crucial part of our team, we need her. Long answer, I donā€™t think she did anything wrong.ā€
Sam looked up at me, a little bit shocked.
ā€œLook y/n, itā€™s clear there's been a lot on your mind recently. A lot that you clearly arenā€™t prepared to share, and that's okay. I saw on the sideline tonight, you looked like you were mentally in a different place, like you were really worried thinking about something and youā€™ve been like that for a few weeks. I know that you have trust issues, that you are finding it hard to slot into this team because you are scared to be vulnerable. I am here for you, I wonā€™t judge you, I will help you with whatever you need help with, because I can tell there is something and until you do seek out help for it it is only going to destroy you further.ā€
Samā€™s words receded in me, because she was so right that I couldnā€™t even try to deny it.
ā€œAm I a selfish player and teammate?ā€
The words felt so raw coming out of my throat, it was something that Ellie had said that had stuck with me.
ā€œNo, I can honestly tell you you arenā€™t. You play football with so much grace and kindness that sometimes it drives me up the wall watching you help up your opponents who have tripped over. You arenā€™t a selfish person either, you are more reserved, that doesnā€™t make you selfish, it just makes you self aware, there is a big difference.ā€
I nodded at Sam, not sure what else there was for me to do. Her words were full of so much wisdom, so much insight. I still couldnā€™t find it in me to believe them fully though, my self deprecating brain not welcome to accepting any kind of form of praise.
ā€œLook, change is hard. You are young, inexperienced. Staying somewhere that youā€™ve outgrown though is only going to destroy you. I know this is a big jump, I wouldnā€™t have reccomended for you to be here though if I didnā€™t think it was the right fit. You are a world class player, and a genuinely good person. When you smile, it lights up a room. Your laugh is contagious. Itā€™s clear that youā€™ve never been cared for properly, never let yourself. You have a family now though y/n. You have people that you can go to when you are having a bad day, people that are going to love you no matter what. Use that, take advantage of it. A team doesnā€™t function without trust.ā€
There was something about Sams words that told me she actually understood what I was going through, she was dancing on a line of relating to me and giving me advice, the line was a little bit blurred though.
ā€œDo you trust me?ā€
I let Samā€™s words hang in the air for a few seconds, it took me a little while to formulate a reponse.
ā€œI donā€™t trust anyone, not even myself.ā€
Samā€™s eyes, those brown orbs spoke to me, more than any words ever could to me.
ā€œYou donā€™t think people care for you.ā€
ā€œWhy would people care for me?ā€
There was so much insecurity behind the words, years of it all built up.
ā€œI care, Iā€™ll always care. Everyone should have somebody to care for them.ā€
ā€œYou have to care, your my captain.ā€
It was the last bit of defiance leaving my body, the last of my barriers being used.
ā€œPartly, yes. Itā€™s sort of my job. But I save it for the ones who need it and you seem to be in need.ā€
I rolled my eyes, another defence mechanism that I used to deflect, to avoid my emotions.
ā€œI donā€™t need help.ā€
ā€œMaybe not, but when youā€™re born in a burning house you think the whole world is on fire until someone shows you it isnā€™t.ā€
I didnā€™t fully understand her cryptic but I got the general idea.
ā€œYou implying I was born in a burning house?ā€
Samā€™s head tilted, like she wasnā€™t denying my statement but also didnā€™t agree with it fully.
ā€œIā€™m implying that you are here for a reason. That we are all here for different reasons, different driving factors. The difference between you and some of the other girls is that you are letting your past define you, when it doesnā€™t. The best part of being here is that when you are out on the pitch nobody cares about anything else, nobody could care less about whatā€™s happened in your personal life. Use that, use that to be happy, to find your motivation. Trust me? Let me show you that this team isnā€™t just a group of girls, it can be your family if you want it to be.ā€
I looked at Sam flatly trying to figure out how serious she was, when he face didnā€™t falter I realised how serious she was and that scared me a little bit. I didnā€™t know if I was ready for that, ready for a family, ready to feel loved and appreciated. It wasnā€™t soemthing Iā€™d ever really experienced.
ā€œYā€™know that it shouldnā€™t seem remarkable to you that people who love and care for you actually want to treat you well.ā€
Those words were the straw that broke my back. I couldnā€™t help but feel the tears well up in my eyes.
ā€œy/n,ā€ Samā€™s voice drew my eyes up to her own ā€œYou are allowed to cry.ā€
I shook my head at her, bringing the sleeve of my jumper up to my eyes to rub at the tears escaping my eyes.
ā€œIā€™m fine.ā€
ā€œAre you though?ā€
It was the amount of questioning behind her face that threw me off, I knew she didnā€™t believe me but the amount of concern laced into her facial expression hit some place in my heart I didnā€™t know I had.
ā€œYou know that itā€™s okay to not be fine all the time. You are allowed to have feelings, to feel things other than numb. Look, feeling hurts. Life is pain, life is suffering. Being alive hurts, itā€™s horror and it sucks. But you are alive and itā€™s spectacular and brilliant because instead of just living you are alive.ā€
I continued rubbing at my eyes, trying my best to stop any of the tears running down my face.
ā€œIā€™ll think about it cap, I think itā€™s about time for me to head back to the hotel.ā€
Before I could get up and completely leave the room Sam got in her final words.
ā€œThere are poeple around that would miss you y/n/n, people who would be gutted if anything ever happened to you. Just think about that.ā€
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Juno persona chart
fama (408) asteroid in the houses
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what is a juno persona chart? looking into juno persona chart gives more detailed insight of how the relationship and marriage overall of you and your spouse will be like. it also describes them in a sense as well. The Greek Goddess Juno is described to rule over love and marriage and hence why the asteroid is looked into for that theme.
the asteroid fama (408) represent how an individual may find success and fame hence the name. in the juno persona chart, the asteroid fama will indicate how the marriage will bring the individual themes of fame in such as attention, success or recognition.
reminder: this is my interpretation from observations and first hand experiences, so don't take this to heart.
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fama in 1st house: couple may find success and attention from how they express their way, how they approach things and the way that they look ofc. mostly lenient towards the appearance of the couple, depending of the sign of the first house it may play out a bit differently, for example sagittarius may receive attention of how foreign they appear to be together either if its cultural or not.
other things related: arguments, conflict, independence, fast- paced, self-worth, self- made, strength, body, actions, face, facial features, beauty, cars, vehicles, head, scars, battles, defence, scars, burns, opinions.
fama in 2nd house: the couple may get recognition from their generosity to other people. from their voices so for example speaking up about matters going on in the world. may be recognised by the things they own to express their financial value.
other things related: patience, stubbornness, food, cooking, eating, singing, expressive voice, tone of voice, possessions, items owned, shopping, money earned, luxury items.
fama in 3rd house: it may start as a rumour and this placement gets attention from rumours that people make about them, I'm not even kidding this is the placement that is known from others talking about them, true or not.
other things related: communication, internet, social media, high school, high school friends, friends, siblings, neighbourhood, cars, early education, writing, publishing, books, articles, gossip, newsletter, news.
fama in 4th house: couple may get recognition and attention from having a big family. it may not be big but it may also make your family stand out that other people notice. couple may get attention from their heritage and from their homeland, they may also find success if they have a family member who is well known and so the couple may be known from that.
other things related: mother, house, land owned, land received, ancestors, caring nature, being empathetic, emotions, being vulnerable, crying, being upset, having a mental breakdown.
fama in 5th house: couple may get recognition quite easily. may find success in doing hobbies together or hanging out in entertainments events or industries such as dance, music, art, movies and acting.
other things related: laughter, hobbies, kids, romance, s*x life, cheating, flings, partying, clubbing, being wasteful, being dramatic, being loud, talent, stage, public, audience, speech.
fama in 6th house: literally getting noticed from having a busy schedule. others may speculate on maybe the couple having no free time and always on the move. also may get recognised by other people criticising them for example, if in scorpio criticising the couple on how private they are, cancer criticising the couple on how emotionally vulnerable they are and so forth.
other things related: pets, routine, hard work, being critical, being obsessive, being organised, being too strict, labour, ill- health, accidents, bruising, fighting.
fama in 7th house: couple may receive attention from the contracts that they hold, also from their relationship as a couple in general may cause attention. the enemies that the couple may have can give them attention. also the way the couple deal with things can raise awareness.
other things related: law broken, beauty, taste, relationships, enemies, other peoples opinions, other peoples doings, other people being involved, marriage, love, interests, fashion, clothing, make-up, skin care, vlogs.
fama in 8th house: marriage may find success when discussing taboo topics or not being afraid to transform into new versions of themselves whether it be changing habits or changing lifestyles-look at sign for more detail.
other things related: abusiveness, clubbing, spirituality, death, s*xual acts, being obsessive and possessive, tax, money received from other people, money earned, people giving money.
fama in 9th house: the marriage and the couple may get attention by their broad mind lifestyle. this includes all of the themes that may related to religion, spirituality, culture and education. may get attention from their education, like the degrees that they may have, a blog about teaching etc.
other things related: travel, higher education, spirituality, meditation, working on oneself, time of reflection, learning, cultures, languages, expressions, going off from one extreme to the next, in-laws.
fama in 10th house: the couple in the marriage may get recognised from their careers. they may be in a stable, hard working environment or perhaps they spend too much of their time focused on their career. this can also be an indication of the couple working together in the same industry or even having the same job.
other things related: career, money, age, time, public, job, coldness, high rank, being closed off, keeping to oneself, what other people see, rules, strictness, schedule, father.
fama in 11th house: couple may find attention and success in events where there is a gather of people. themes of hosting or even attending may cause the couple to find attention. being unconventional such as kissing in public or things like that can raise attention. not following the norm of society can also give the couple attention.
other things related: groups, social groups, uniqueness, friends, older siblings, internet, social status, recognition, technology, unconventional, breaking rules, not caring, being emotionless, being detached.
fama in 12th house: the couple may get recognition from their ability to be intuitive and empathetic for others. couple may find success in travels, assisting others in their spiritual journey, seeing the beaty in everything. couple may get rewarded for being imaginative and doing the impossible.
other things related: travel, overseas, holiday, hospital, bedroom, sleep, dreams, drugs, alcohol, addiction, mental health, abuse, isolation, being extreme, foreign environments.
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this was a short post but its pretty interesting nonetheless but thank you for reading and have a nice dayy.
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