#Ignore the background it is ugly af

[serenhob]

I have half after 3 HOURS

why am i so slow at drawing digitally

I blame my fingers

[covenantofthedeep]

can i call you tonight? ☆

feat. | scaramouche for chiyo bc u asked, just 10 years later summary | seeing scara after a long time :) set in a coffee shop and modern a/n | tfw u havent written in like three months so u forgot ur formatting and also why do u shitpost sm ✨ and also ur formatting is ugly af time to change it but ur too lazy what the fuck sunny. also ps im sorry if this is ooc

scaramouche |

you haven't heard from scaramouche for ages--probably weeks? probably months? honestly, you're trying to forget, you swear, but you really can't. it takes everything in you to not check who it is when the cafe door opens, every single time. 

maybe this time... maybe this time it'll be him, you tell yourself when the bell jingles above the door.

 you used to go to the cafe to work, because at home, it was too loud, crowded with your family. you have your own place now; there's no reason why you stay at the cafe besides the fact that you met him there the very first time.

he had rushed in from the rain, dripping wet, and painfully short, and your heart had jumped. you'd seen him around town, buying various things (he'd taken a clear hankering to unagi chazuke) and walking. you'd watched him as he'd plodded to the cash register, ordering a coffee (black). you hadn't been able to take your eyes off of him as he'd sat down beside you. 

you had scooted your stuff away, which had prompted him to gruffly ask, "is this seat taken?"

"no," you'd replied, closing your laptop and folding your arms over it. "scaramouche, right?"

that had kindled a friendship--and dare you say, even more?--but then one night, he'd left. not a word, not a letter, not anything. just up and left. it had torn a hole in your heart that you tried to fill with too-sweet coffee and running mile after mile, covering stretches of land in the hopes that you'd glimpse his face.

you loathed how you thought about him, how you dreamt up scenarios where he'd walk into the cafe, apologizing for his absence (usually, something had happened to the tsaritsa and he'd had to leave) and sitting down beside you. sometimes, when you hated yourself, you'd imagine him walking in with someone else on his arm.

you lose yourself in your daydream, sipping slowly at your intensely sweet coffee of the day, when someone pulls up a chair across from you. you ignore them and turn up your music, hoping they'll get the hint. can't they tell?? you're lost in your daydream.

three songs play before the other person apparently decides they've had enough and clears their throat. you glance up and a flush washes over your body, background sounds disappearing. your hands tremble a little bit (fucking hell, you want to laugh at yourself) and you can feel a smile tugging at the corners of your lips. you stifle a little laugh. 

you set your tea down, trying to calm your racing heart down, to no avail. he can probably tell how much you'd missed him right on your face. probably it's written right across your forehead: I MISSED YOU SO MUCH I THOUGHT UP AT LEAST 100 SCENARIOS ABOUT YOU COMING BACK.

this is so stupid, you tell yourself, slowly taking off your headphones. "no way," you mutter, "no way you're back."

he spreads his arms out wide, leaning back in his chair, just as he always did. "what can i say? i missed you."

you scoff, but  this time, you can't stop the smile spreading across your face. "i'm mad, just so you know," you tell him, but pull your chair closer to his. "and i have work to do."

"oh," he says. is it just you, or is he a little bit disappointed? huh. maybe he did miss you after all.

"can i call you tonight?" you ask, packing your things up. "i mean--i will. i will call you tonight."

"yes," you hear him call out as you shut the cafe door behind you.

you walk away with a little pep in your step, beaming so wide it hurts your cheeks.

[sessakag]

I remember you mentioning that used to draw, do you have any art you'd be willing to share?

Compared to what I see on tumblr, my drawings are embarrassing, lmao! I get so frustrated that they don't come out better, then my anxiety starts flaring tf up and omg it's a mess.

Ummm, it's been years since I've drawn anything, I do have a few crummy pictures floating around from like 2016 though.

Hopefully they don't blind you with their ugliness 😅

This pic is from something I saw while listening to a creepypasta on youtube (this creature was in the background) and wanted to try my hand at recreating it lol. I was supposed to do some more shading and stuff, but never got around to it, idk where that sketchbook is anymore either.

This one was just a bit of fun at the time. Guess I had mermaids on the brain :P Ignore the remote, lol. I was drawing on my bed. I remember being so proud of that squid tho! He looked really awesome to me. Still looks good but now it sort looks like a penis, lmao. Wtf.

A not so great unfinished Sesshomaru back in my hardcore SessKag days 😅he doesn't have a shirt on because of course tf not 😍

Here's Bulma. I remember being so frustrated with her facial expression. Just couldn't seem to get it right. Also, her head is big af, idk if that was my fuck up or if it really was that big in the anime, lmao.

Also tried my hand at Vegeta but uhhhh, lol, he came out kinda funny. Nailed that devious 'I'm bout to blow yo whole planet up' smirk though, lol. He look like he bout to do some ol' bullshit.

I have a Naruto sketch somewhere but idk where it is. I'll look for it. Don't have one of Hinata though, I think I quit drawing before I got round to it.

[hes1draws]

Tried sth different and I think I liked it

[bananami]

flirting with the bad batch

i promised riyo i would do this so here we are

riyo...i did this bc i’m genuinely afraid you’d k word me if i didn’t <3

(ignore any typos) ok let’s get started :)

HUNTER

he’s witty af

knows exactly what to say to make you nervous

it’s definitely a sixth sense (seventh sense for him?)

it starts off as kind of like a joke until it slowly becomes not a joke

constantly calling you “cyare” and you have no idea what it means and none of the boys will explain it to you

omg so many pet names

this man has never called you by your actual name and if he does you know you’re in trouble

he’s training you in close combat and you best him and it’s the *person a puts knife under person b’s chin and tilts their head up while smirking* trope and he thinks he actually might die on the spot

“yield?” and the he smirks back and just “not a chance, love”

the amount of times the rest of the bad batch have told the two of you to get a room is too many to count

hunter: “i could just kiss you” you: “i could just let you” crosshair: “i could just barf”

BONUS: omega constantly intervening to try and get the two of you together

“hunter told me to tell you that you looked really nice today” “HUNTER WHY DO YOU KEEP STARING AT THEM?” “so how long have you guys been together? oh you’re not together that’s CRAZY because hunter talks about you all the-” “OK OMEGA THANK YOU”

ECHO

sweetheart status

this man has never failed to make you swoon

too good at flirting, like so good that you genuinely fall in love with him more and more every time he opens his mouth

“hi handsome how are you” “better now that i got to see you, gorgeous”

“we’re gonna stop for supplies did you wanna join me?” “a day out, just you and i? sounds like a dream come true beautiful.”

he’s super loud about it too

every time you wear a new outfit he HAS to make a comment about it

“kriff cyare, are you trying to stop my heart?”

he would get mad if people were to say you weren’t there type

“NOT YOUR TYPE? WHAT IS YOUR TYPE THEN? UGLY? HUH?”

he will literally just flatter you with constant words of affirmation

no joke he will compliment you until it’s legit annoying

and when you try are fighting side by side

don’t even get him started

he will not shut up about how strong and amazing you are

flirting back only spurs him on

swears you two are gonna end up together

introduces you as the love of his life to everyone he meets

“echo stop telling people that, we’re not together”

“yet”

WRECKER

would have no idea you’ve even flirting with him

his idea of flirting with you though is just being super nice

like he’ll help you with something and you’d thank him and he’d just get the dumbest little smile on his face and just “hehehe...yeah”

cue crosshair in the background: “wrecker close your mouth you look like an idiot”

“wait you like me why didn't you say anything?”

but seriously wrecker’s love language is acts of service

he doesn’t know how to sound smooth or witty without it coming out as awkward so he takes to doing things for you instead

carrying heavy things for you

picking you up and giving you piggy back rides when your feet get tired from walking

scaring the shit out of people who are mean to you

he won’t admit it but he likes to show off how strong he is to you

it’s actually really adorable

one time he was doing push ups and you jokingly sat on his back and he was determined to keep going and he got up to 100 and wouldn’t stop blushing when you kept going on and on about how impressive it was

CROSSHAIR

you’re both just so mean to each other all the time

seriously people are like do you even like each other

your answers vary depending on the day

“you gonna do something or just sit here looking like an idiot” “isn't that all you ever do Cross?” “di’kut” “bastard”

honestly you don’t think the two of you have ever been even remotely nice to one another

everyone swears that’s cross’s way of flirting but you’re not so sure at the beginning

either way you’re just giving back what he’s throwing at you

whenever one of them brings it up to cross he tells them how ridiculous that is for them to think that

but the other boys will try and flirt with you just to spite him and he just glares at them the entire time

its a very ‘i can be mean to them but you cannot’ type relationship when it comes to other people being mean to the two of you

you’re very protective despite being complete assholes to one another

the boys swear you’ll end up together and everyone thinks they’re insane for saying that

seriously

“you look awful” “how touching”

TECH

completely oblivious

you try and flirt with him and he asks why you’re acting so weird

the others try to explain it to him and he’s just like thats dumb why would they ever flirt with me

no but he wouldn’t believe it

so you’d have to get more and more flirty and even then it doesn’t work out they way you hope it would

“hey tech you look cute in your glasses” “they’re not meant to be cute, they’re meant to be practical. because i can’t see without them.” “that’s not what i- ok just forget it”

the other boys will try and get involved and be like “oh tech don’t they look great today” and tech is just like “they look like that every day”

which to tech is the same as saying yes you do look great and he meant it as like you look great every day but it comes out completely wrong

you figure it out one day though when you shock him by knowing something that he doesn't and he’s just in awe

you go on and on about it explaining it to the group and tech is all of a sudden mega heart eyes

and all of a sudden he’s asking you all of these questions about everything all the time just to hear you talk about things extensively

everyone catches on pretty quick and they're just like jfc finally

[haritonseldonshusband]

Do dune for the meme 🔪

BLORBO (fave character/character i think about the most)

i mean, i think i have to say leto atreides here, right? i think i have to. he's so pretty. he haunts me. i want to be his loyal, beloved, trusted concubine. i want to lick shower water off of him. i want to stare at him all day, and also pet his hair so he can sleep at night. i want to wear dresses that make him stare at me during formal dinners. i want to do his paperwork for him so he can be a little less stressed. i'm in love? i'm in love.

SCRUNKLY (my "baby", character that gives me cuteness aggression, character that is So Shaped)

thufir hawat, no question. little parasol. constant :3 or 3: energy. i want to squeeze him like a stress ball. i would die for him, he would instantly try to resign if i did.

SCRIMBLO BIMBLO (underrated/underappreciated fave)

gurney halleck my beloved????? described as an ugly lump of a man in the book, which is something we literally all, everyone who ever touched dune, have decided independently to make the executive decision to ignore? hot af? bard vibes? face scar? aggression followed by affection bc the aggression is based in concern? i will wed him secretly and he will lay me down on blankets on the floor and say he wishes he could give me more and i will tell him this is all i need from him. also he will hold my hand, that part is non-negotiable.

GLUP SHITTO (obscure fave, character that can appear for 0.2 seconds in the background and i won't shut up about it for a week)

stilgar. old desert uncle. so old. so very old. soon to rejoin the sands. (for anyone who is not my husband reading this, this a long-running joke, don't look at me.) hot? hot. not just because of the desert thing, just. very attractive. 10/10, would let him spit in my mouth and thank him for it, probably.

POOR LITTLE MEOW MEOW (“problematic”/unpopular/controversial/otherwise pathetic fave)

piter de vries. drug addict. stands like a homosexual, also is a homosexual. weighs maybe fifty pounds soaking wet in his little black dress aesthetic. garbage man. gay little trash boy. crumples him up like a wet paper napkin. wraps him up in a rag like a kitten trying to bite me because he is probably trying to bite me. shakes him a little.

HORSE PLINKO (character i would torment for fun, for whatever reason)

duncan idaho. shoves him in the plinko machine. watches him bing around lovingly. i adore him. i want to kiss his face. i want to make him cry. i want to see him angry and frightened. i want to braid his hair and lie against his chest and also climb him like a tree.

EEBY DEEBY (character i would send to superhell)

rabban harkonnen. i was going to say vladimir, but no, rabban deserves it more, and also if you put vladimir in a time out chair and took away his allowance, he'd be easier to deal with. maybe tether him to something so he doesn't daintily float away. anyway, send rabban straight to super hell. murder murder kill death etc.

[olivetreehugger]

SnK Scouts/Veterans as Health Care Workers

Note: features Eren, Mikasa, Armin, Jean, Connie, Sasha, Levi, Erwin and Hange. A part two to my “SnK Warriors as HCWs” post found here. warning: mentions of blood, trauma, gore (it’s healthcare). Also, I know Hange is nb, I headcanon them as female, so I will be using she/her pronouns. 

Eren: this boy is definitely too involved in everything and has too many people depending on him at once to not be a nurse. The kid barely passed the NCLEX but that didn’t stop him from applying to every trauma center within a 25 mile radius of him. He got hired as a night shift trauma ICU nurse  and he frequently picks up shifts in the ER. He wears the cheapest scrubs he can find, often stained with ink in the pockets area. He isn’t a shitty nurse per se but there are tasks that still need to be done at the end of his shift and he gives a crappy report that’s missing too many details. Nurses hate picking up his patients, it’s always a mess. His charting is really spotty and he gets called into the manager’s office all the time to fix it. 

Still, he tries really hard to improve his time management and skills. He wants to be like his friends Mikasa and Reiner, who are the best nurses he knows. He wants to be involved in the traumatic cases and emergencies because he wants to learn as much as he possibly can. He’s really good at wound care, for some reason (hint hint). He’s kinda cocky sometimes too, which can be troublesome when Dr. Galliard is working. People know to steer clear of those two when they’re both  in the ER. Also, Eren always has a black cloud around him; whenever he works it’s gonna be a hella busy day in the hospital. Lots of emergency surgeries, intubations, codes and deaths. He’ll always jump in to help you if your patient is crashing, though, no matter how busy he is. 

Mikasa: she’s a prodigy. She was a straight ‘A’ student in nursing school, got a perfect 75 on the NCLEX and was immediately hired to the trauma ICU after doing a short internship there. She worked night shift for a year but her sleep schedule was so so fucked she started having night terrors, so she switched to day shift. Eren still calls her a traitor for it :/. She keeps trying to get him to switch over but he just hisses at her and threatens to chug a case of Monster energy drinks. She hasn’t given upon him yet, though.

This girl’s work ethic is beyond measure. She comes in exactly at 6:30 am, looks up her patients, takes report, gives a great update to the doctors when they round, and provides impeccable care to her patients. She knows exactly which treatments the doctors will order before they even speak. She’s incredible at inserting IVs--everyone in the hospital knows Mikasa Ackerman can put an 18g in a 90  yr old lady’s arm AND get blood return (just trust me, it’s flipping impossible). She has great skill when it comes to emergency situations and is a big believer in team work. If she notices your patient’s crashing and you don’t know what to do, she’ll calmly coach you and save your patient, too. All before lunch time. 

It doesn’t take Mikasa long to be promoted to charge nurse. When she’s in charge all the reports, paperwork and audits are completed before shift change. She divides the patient assignments really well and is very fair to the new grads. All around she’s an incredible nurse and leader on her unit, but don’t be fooled. If it’s been a rough day, Mikasa will get in her car and sob so loud her throat goes raw. A lot of people depend on her and working in a trauma ICU is really, really demanding. A lot of patients are demanding, rude and busy. She has a lot of trouble with stress management and is thinking of cutting her hours down so she can catch a break. Someone please hug her <3

Armin: for some reason my brain is just SCREAMING respiratory therapist. Like, I imagine this beautiful blond boy in gray scrubs (the color for RT’s in my hospital) going around helping intubate patients, giving nebulizer treatments and doing blood gases. I can just see him huffing and puffing when the attending doctor is overzealous about weaning vent support. -“Why are we changing the patient to pressure support? do you see how tachypneic he is on volume control?”

-“are you gonna put in the order? if not, your patient’s gonna be on PRVC all day, I’m not changing it without an order”

-“Doc, the patient looks like crap and their blood gas looks like death...oh, you still wanna extubate? ok, well I’m gonna leave the ventilator in here just in case. better yet, let me call a pastor in here, too.”

This kid is sassy af and he knows it. He’s smart af too, knows everything there is to know about the lungs and respiratory care. Knows every ventilator mode better than most doctors. Will certainly tell a resident off for ordering the wrong type of inhaler for a patient. He’s so damn intelligent that he even made the ice queen Annie melt like a popsicle. 

 He has no chill when it comes to his patients and even less chill (like -4078875874670) when a doctor gets in his way. For this reason, Armin has recently been toying with the idea of going to PA school so he can have a little more autonomy. He works al over the hospital, usually frequenting the trauma, CV, and medical ICU. The nurses there love him. 

Jean: Jeannie boy. Baby. Sweetie. He’s also a nurse. He is strictly dayshift and trauma. When he first started, he thought he’d do a year in the ICU and then go to CRNA school. He didn’t want to be around sickly patients with hopes and dreams and fears--it was too icky for him. But, over time, he learned that he LOVED trauma. Jean loves the controlled chaos that comes with the ugly, bloody messes that roll in through the ICU’s doors. He always gears up for trauma season (summer time) by bringing Dunkin Donuts iced coffee for everyone on the unit (day and night shift because he’s a supportive king). He gets really good at dealing with arrogant trauma residents and ortho docs who think they’re hot shit. When Jean sees a resident yelling at a nurse, he jumps in and threatens to have their license revoked. He will dig under their skin and page them incessantly throughout the day, too, just to get back at them. Jean is not a fan of lateral violence in the workplace, no sir. 

He always, always makes sure every room is stocked and new bags are hanging for the next shift. He has a thing where if things aren’t properly organized on the unit his brain just spazzes. He’s on the unit council and education committee because he also loves to teach the new grads. He also doubles as charge nurse, when management can’t be there (there can be one or more charge nurses amongst the staff, they usually work different days, though) He and Mikasa work so well together, teaming up to get tasks done, coding patients, running them down to get scanned, etc. People joke they’re the mom and dad of the unit. It makes them both blush <3 (Eren doesn’t like it, lol)

Jean loves to see patients healing from horrendous injuries, he’s constantly cracking jokes with the awake patients to try to make them feel better, and he’s really good at calming anxious family members down. Our boy just makes such good connections with people. He’s the guy you call when your confused patient is one second away from ripping his breathing tube out. He can convince the most restless, agitated patient to chill out. He’s got the voice for it. Also people love his mullet. It looks great. 

Connie: I really didn’t know at first but I feel like Connie would make a great physical therapist. He’s got great energy, he’s funny and I could see him dancing to Earth, Wind & Fire in front of his patients to hype them up for therapy. He’d be very sweet with them 

Sasha: I’m sick and tired of the food jokes, quite honestly. She’s more than that. In my mind, she’s an occupational therapist, helping disabled patients learn to feed, dress and clean themselves again. She works directly with Connie as they round on all their patients in the hospital, they make a great team!  She’s extremely patient and would make a very good nurse, but is unsure of where life is taking her. That is until she meets Niccolo the dietician in the cafeteria, and she falls hard. He encourages her to follow her heart and she does!  

Levi: Hm. This one stumped me. Levi is a bit...cold. It’s not like he has incredible social skills. He’s meticulous and focused and kinda mean? He reminds me of an anesthesiologist, tbh. Like he’ll sedate the shit outta you for surgery, makes sure you don’t die on the table, and then drops you off to the unit as fast as he can. He never takes off his mask while in the hospital and he scrubs maybe four times before surgery. He is very good at medication calculations and knows everything about nerve blocks, intubation, pain medication and sedation. He can look at a person and just KNOW what kind of sedative to give and how much. Your blood pressure will never bottom out while he’s there, he’ll warn the surgeon and immediately get that norepinephrine started.

 If Zeke is the one operating, Levi is on his ass to finish up the surgery ASAP and to not linger, because Zeke takes his time and ignores the tele monitor alarming in the background. After surgery, this 5′2 demon will scream at the 6′ resident about the importance of blood pressure management and sedation in neurosurgical patients. Levi plays no games and he also just really hates Zeke lol

He seems like a jerk but genuinely cares about getting his peeps through surgery. His favorite surgeon to work with is Hange Zoe, because she’s brilliant and fast, but also cognizant of her patient’s hemodynamics. Levi likes taking trauma cases as long as it’s with her. When he drops a patient off to the trauma ICU or goes there to intubate, he makes sure Jean or Mikasa are there because he knows everything is gonna go smoothly. He trusts them a lot. He likes Armin, too and even let him intubate a few times. On his breaks, he’s drinking tea and reading a Williams & Sonoma catalog or scrolling through cleaning Tik Tok lol.

Erwin: This man. This beautiful and hunky beefcake. Omg. I HC him as someone who went to nursing school, became a charge nurse on the trauma unit back in the early 2000′s and fell in love with it. Erwin would eventually fall in love with leadership and educating, too. He went back to school and earned his Doctorate of Nursing Practice (a practice doctorate). He managed the trauma unit for ten years before his brilliant leadership skills and wicked smart brain got him elected as the Director of Trauma Surgery recently. He is the first person with a nursing degree and DNP to ever accomplish this, so it’s very controversial. A lot of toxic doctors threaten to leave the hospital for this (because they’re assholes), but Erwin threatens to fire them in response and it usually shuts them up. 

He often holds lectures in the hospital auditorium. With a mind and voice like his, people are so drawn in by him. He advocates for nursing staff, for reimbursement when continuing their education, better staffing, parking, etc. He makes nice with doctors and gets them to sign petitions for the nurses to get these things. He’s a bit manipulative He’s also a fantastic manager and director, he’s really good at negotiating things. The nurses and residents all love him because he rounds on every ICU frequently, brings food, and asks them how he can help. He can be a bit daunting because of his height and deep voice but once he starts talking to you, you just get sucked in. All around an absolute king. 

Hange: This character reminds me of a trauma surgeon and intensivist (ICU doctor) we have, Dr. Omi. A great surgeon, really really smart, but takes absolutely NO bullshit. She will yell at you if you freeze during intubating. She wants you to recite every step before you take it, otherwise she’ll take the tube from you and do it herself. In surgery, she’s the same way. She wants you to learn, but by her standards. If she asks a question, you better know the answer or fess up right away, she doesn’t like the “uhms” of uncertainty as you try to search for a shitty response. Either you know it or you don’t. And if you don’t, she’ll teach you. Yeah she can be rough around the edges, but she’s got a big heart. She loves her trauma team. She buys them breakfast and gives them funny personalized gifts. One time, she bought an apply tree for Mikasa and brought it to her car at the end of a shift. Mikasa forgot to plant it and it died in her backseat. Hange will sometimes ask, “Mikasa, how’s your apple tree growing?” and Mikasa will lie through her teeth. “It’s growing!” Fess up, Mikasa. Those google search apple trees are starting to look familiar.

All around Hange loves to work and teach. She is a wonderful trauma surgeon and has saved tons of lives.  

[wags-confessions]

“Sorry to get here with this sad topic but no one can't deny racism. President of Argentina said that : brazilians come from the jungle and mexicans background are the indigenous while argentines came from Europe trying to put them above. Please, do not said the racism is not that hard. You just sound ignorant.”

Don’t want to turn political, but don’t trust that ugly mf. He’s a liar, a cheater, a sexist pig and part of a corrupt political party that killed many people. His ignorance is blatant and he is racist, as many of his party are. (Just so you know, him and many others aligned with him said that the Bolivian president was the faithful representation of the country because he’s not white - many people complained about that). And the nt -and many other athletes-, although they tend to vote for that kind of party, did not want to meet with them after tournaments because they said the “president” would’ve used that to his advantage. The NT might be dumb af, but they were nice for that.

[kingkatsuki]

Someone has started the leaked fic hype and now I’d like to request something— basically someone leaked photos (or videos) of midoriya, iida, and (or if you’re okay with three? If you aren’t I’m okay with only Midoriya and Iida) Denki (his birthday is coming up btw AHHH!!)

Apparently you guys really want some prequels to this too, so I’ll try and get some out for you~

These aren’t as good as the first ones I did, I feel kinda bad. I think I was trying too hard to make them different. (/ω＼)

Midoriya Scrolling through your social media aimlessly, your eyes kept flicking up to the time at the top of your phone. Your boyfriend, Izuku was due home soon and you missed him a lot, annoyed time couldn’t move any quicker. Locking your phone and lying back on your couch you closed your eyes, trying to fall asleep in hopes that by the time you woke up your love would be home. 

An hour later you were woken up by the incessant ‘ping’ of your phone, signalling an incoming notification. Lifting the phone you squinted at the brightness of the phone screen, trying to read the messages that were flying in. Moving to unlock your phone you were distracted by a key jingling inside the lock of your front door and you instantly abandoned your phone, jumping up to greet your boyfriend at the door. 

“Hey, beautiful.” Izuku’s arms tugged you into a tight hug as he buried his face in your neck, inhaling your scent. You murmured a greeting back as you began to press kisses against the side of his face you could reach. Your phone began to ring in the background, but you ignored it in favour of the man in front of you. At the same moment Midoriya’s phone also began to ring and you whined into his skin, begging him to ignore it. 

“It could be important,” he swiped answer on his phone and listened to the call, the happy expression on his face turning to shock.

You raised your eyebrow as you moved back to grab your own phone, curiosity getting the better of you. Unlocking it and looking through the motivations your face went red. 

Photos of you were all over the Internet, intimate images you had intended to be for Izuku’s eyes only. Pictures of you cheekily pulling your shirt up to show your lacy lingerie, mirror pictures of you bending over so your underwear was visible under your skirt. Then you saw the video. You were topless kneeling between Izuku’s knees, looking up at him under half-lidded eyes as you palmed his erection through his boxer-briefs. Your hands shuffled to pull the material down and fist his dick between your fingers.

“Izuku, what the fuck.” His face was just as surprised as your own, the call he received long ended and he was also scrolling through his phone. 

“How did they even get these?” He was blushing furiously at some of the comments. 

‘Who knew Deku had such a big dick?’ 

‘All Might boxers?’

‘Y/N is sexy af, wouldn’t mind her on her knees for me’

You cringed as you continued reading the comments, grumbling as Izuku tried to pull the phone away from you. 

‘Y/N is so ugly, Deku deserves so much better’

“Stop reading the messages, it doesn’t matter what they think.” Izuku pulled you into an embrace as he stroked your back, tears pricking the corners of your eyes. 

“How did they get these photos and videos?” 

“Someone probably hacked one of our phones, we’ll get them all taken down, Baby. Don’t worry-“ He kissed your forehead.

“You can’t get them taken down, Izuku. It’s the Internet” Tears began to fall down your cheeks now as Izuku moved his hands to brush them away.

“It doesn’t change anything, all it means is everyone knows how beautiful my girlfriend is-"

“And how big your dick is,” Izuku blushed at your words.

Iida

Scrolling through the Tweets, you noticed a large majority of the comments were from men, saying how sexy you looked and wishing that they could see more. Your cheeks were pink as you couldn’t help yourself from continuing to read the comments.

‘Look at her tits, I had no idea she was that sexy.’

‘I bet she’s a real freak in the bedroom’

‘100% would smash.’

There was also a fair share of women commenting about how Tenya deserved better and how much of a slut you were. You willed the ground to swallow you whole in this moment. You knew Tenya wasn’t one for social media that often, having only set up his profiles because of his job as a Pro-Hero. You contemplated not saying anything, but you knew he’d find out in his next shift at work or next public interview. 

Walking towards him in the kitchen, you stood beside him, phone in your hands ready to show him everything. 

“Baby, I need to show you something-“ 

“What is it?” Tenya stood beside a boiling kettle as he moved to wrap an arm around your shoulders.

“Um, remember those photos I took for you. When you were away the last time-“

“Yes,” Tenya’s cheeks darkened as he remembered them well, trying to hide how much he enjoyed them.

“Well, I think someone might have hacked my phone because...” You moved to show him your pictures all over Twitter and the comments that were still flooding through. 

“Is this Twitter?” 

“Yes,” you blushed as Iida took your phone from you and began scrolling through the comments, tutting at some of the particularly crude comments. 

“I told you not to send me those photos” Nearly being taken out by his arm moving the phone towards you in a scolding manner.

“But baby,” you pouted, “You said you missed me and I wanted you to feel better.”

Suddenly Iida’s phone began to ping furiously as he pulled it from his pocket, ignoring the now boiled kettle. He moved to open WhatsApp as he read the messages he was receiving from his old class group chat. The comments mostly coming from Kaminari and Mineta, the latter having uploaded the very same pictures of you to the chat so now all your boyfriends classmates had definitely seen you naked. Your cheeks went pink as the group chat continued, Kaminari and Mineta talking boldly about how they couldn’t believe Tenya’s innocent girlfriend was such a freak behind closed doors.

Iida moved his arm from around you to type furiously on his phone, chastising his friends for talking about you in such a way before moving back to Twitter to Tweet about how upset he was that people were treating you in such a bad way, having to send out multiple tweets because he kept hitting the character limit. 

“Honestly, I cant believe people are reacting like this over some illicit photos of you.” 

“Well, not just me...”

“Remember that one time I convinced you to send me a dick pic,”

“Yes, and you said you deleted it straight away?”

“Well, Snapchat deleted it straight away...”

“Y/N,” Iida held the bridge of his nose as he went back to Twitter to look for the image.

“On the bright side, you can’t see your face in your one.” You immediately moved to dodge Iida’s arm as he flew into another rant.

Kaminari

One of your hands was tangled in Kaminari’s hair, fingertips scratching at his scalp as your other hand scrolled through your phone uninterestedly.

“Have you seen this one?” Your eyes glanced towards his phone screen to see another SpongeBob meme and you rolled your eyes.

“Denki, it’s 2019. Can’t you find anything a bit more original, SpongeBob memes are the worst.” Honestly you hated SpongeBob memes and the only thing more annoying than the actual memes were your boyfriends absolute obsession with them.

“Aw, c’mon babe. This ones really funny.” Denki turned to move onto his stomach, continuing to look through his phone as you lay beside him. 

“Yeah, yeah.” You huffed, absentmindedly liking various tweets as you stifled a yawn.

Suddenly moans sounded from Kaminari’s phone, making your hand still in his hair as you raised an eyebrow at him.

“Denki, what are you watching?” 

He turned his phone towards you with a blush as you noticed an all too familiar woman on the screen. You were on your forearms and knees, your head turned slightly towards Denki who was thrusting in and out of you roughly. Denki angled the video up to film you both through a large mirror as he smirked down at you while continuing his rough pace.

“What the fuck, Denki. I thought you said you deleted that!”

“Uh-“

“Delete it now, you jerk!” You snatched the phone off him, moving to minimise the video so you could delete it from his phone, until you realised that it wasn’t a saved file. It was on Twitter.

“Denki, why the fuck did you upload this?!”

“I didn’t, it wasn’t me, I dunno how- Baby, please” He groaned as you moved your arm back in an attempt to launch his phone across the room. 

“Why would you put that on Twitter?” Kaminari managed to wrestle his phone from your hands as he pulled the link down to show you that it wasn’t him that uploaded it.

“So how the fuck did they get the video?” You slapped his chest roughly. 

“They must have hacked my iCloud,” Denki had his arm braced, expecting another impending attack from you.

“You uploaded that to iCloud?! Denki, are you really that stupid? Why didn’t you delete it when I told you to,”

“I was going to, but you looked so sexy under me like that and I just thought-“ He dodged your arm flying towards him, “I could watch it when I missed you when I’m away,” 

You moved back to look at your own phone, searching for the video and seeing the amount of retweets and likes it had received. Scrolling through the comments which were mostly men saying inappropriate things about you and women wishing that they were you in that moment. 

“I hope you’re happy now, Denki. The whole internet has seen me naked.” You turned your phone towards him so he could read the comments that were flying in.

“Some of these guys are assholes, how dare they talk about you like that-“ His fingers stopping on one particular tweet.

“Hey! I’ve become a meme-“ He grinned at you, turning the screen so you could see the image. Someone had print-screened the video when he had grinned into the mirror and they’d photo-shopped a cowboy hat on his head and added the caption ‘Ride it Cowboynari’

“I was wrong, that is the worst meme I have ever seen in my life.” You groaned, snatching your phone back from him to attempt to start your damage control.

Amajiki

‘Critical security alert for your Google Account’

You stopped taking your selfies to pull down the notification on your phone in confusion. 

‘New sign in in United States at 8.02am’

What? You moved to click the link and state that it most definitely wasn’t you, as you went back to taking selfies. Readjusting the lingerie you were currently wearing to try and make your boobs appear larger. Tamaki had been away for work for the past week and you wanted to make sure he had you on his mind. Another notification distracted you from taking selfies as you opened up your Twitter app, this time being surprised with a familiar video you had taken on your phone. Your phone lay on your bedside table as you are perched on top of your boyfriend, Tamaki, riding his dick. 

Someone fucking hacked my phone. 

“Shit,” You groaned, looking at the multiplying comments online. How the hell were you going to tell Tamaki? If he hadn’t found out himself already. Some of the comments were really explicit too, Tamaki was not going to like this. 

You held your phone to your ear as you waited impatiently for Tamaki to pick up, not caring what time it was.

“Baby?” Tamaki answered the phone in confusion, sleep evident in his voice, “is everything okay?”

“Tamaki, Don’t freak out okay?” You held your breath, nervous to say it.

“What’s happened? Are you okay?”

“Um, I’m fine.” You paused, “Someone hacked my phone today.”

“Okay, so just call your bank and block your account until it’s fixed” Tamaki’s voice was tired, obviously not understanding the severity of the situation.

“Um, Babe. They didn’t take my card details. They got into my cloud.”

“Your cloud?”

“Um, my photo storage. The pictures I took for you, the video we made-”

“You’re lying,” you could hear the embarrassment in Tamaki’s voice.

"-They're racking up likes and retweets as we speak"

“That’s so embarrassing,” Tamaki’s voice became muffled and you assumed he’d buried his head in his pillow.

“Actually, people are being really complimentary towards you, Baby. They were surprised how big your di-“

“Stop, Y/N. Just stop.” The embarrassment was becoming too much for him. 

“A lot of people were asking what happens with your quirk when you eat me-“ You teased.

“I’m hanging up right now-“

[halfemptygirlrps-archive]

So after seeing a few tweets and stuff here’s my unpopular opinion about people being mad Arya isn’t gay. Read at your own risk.

Gonna start this off by saying that I am a queer woc before any idiot comes @ me trying to say some garbage about me being straight or having some kind privilege I don’t have.

So I was late on GOT this week and finally watched but before I did I saw a spoiler, Arya had sex with Gendry, blah blah. Now I personally loved them as a ship (creepy, I know) and was all for them meeting again when she was older and falling in love cause even though it was more brotherly when she was young, they pretty much foreshadowed the fuck out of it. So I for one was happy that they are not only canon but that Arya, unlike poor dear Sansa, had a safe, consensual first time with a guy she liked. She was in control too which was great.

Then I saw a BuzzFeed post. Now I am not the type to consider BF to be the leading source of anything but in this article someone was mad Arya wasn’t gay and normal I am all for gay women in fiction/tv/cinema (as this blog and all it’s supercorp/polymarine posts can vouch for) but it never once crossed my mind for Arya to be gay. Brianne, sure, though they nipped that dream in the bud, but not Arya. 

Now I don’t want to attack anyone for being a toxic gay, but what is it about Arya that made people think she was the queer one? It can’t possibly be her masculinity, because that would be totally feeding into men’s ideas that butch women are obvs gay and only girly-girly are straight and all that other “you’re too pretty to be a lesbian” / “ You’re so ugly no guy would want you “ bull that they say, but I can’t help but wonder why. Was it because you just want a queer character on the show? Which I can’t fault even though there have been in the past (and their all dead cept for Yara) but it was just never something that was hinted to.

In my head Arya looking over to the side post-coitus was sadness because she knew this is it, not cause the sex was bad or because she realized she was gay. She could have been disappointed because she didnt’ enjoy sex on a whole, but people still like to erase Asexuality from characters background so I don’t expect that to be a thing to register for anyone yet as they still don’t accept that Daryl Dixon is Ace.

And on the topic of erasure, I once, many years ago, saw a poster furious af that people were shipping Sansa and Loras and said it was erasing his sexuality. So wouldn’t ignoring all this be erasing Arya’s? Like I said, there are toxic gays who are like “ ew straights, that’s not a sexuality” or whatever but it all just rubbed me the wrong way. Now I realize that as a supercorp shipper I can be called out on that who easing thing, but Arya never had an longing stares for a full minute and dreamy sighs at any women on the show. She’s brave and badass , yes, but the way she dresses shouldn’t make people assume anything about her.

All in all I personally, as a queer, don’t think Arya is and think that people should take into account Asexuality more as well as gender nonconforming style.

[thebookishgoddess]

#Project14Lists 2018: Bookish Ships

My first post for the #Project14Lists bookish event is a list of my bookish ships! I know, controversial. Not everyone ships the canon couple, or ships that one character with anyone at all. Nevertheless, we are all here to express our love for books and the couples that our favorite authors have written, not to throw shade or spill the tea on each other’s ships. We are all trash for something, and we must respect each other’s trash (if that makes any sense, haha!)

For today’s list, I will be putting up twelve of my favorite bookish ships and my favorite fanart of them (with credits to the brilliant artists, of course!). There are waaaay too many ships that I love, if I’m being realistic here. But I got lazy after the 12th graphic I had to edit up for this. I’ll be dabbling on my favorite quotes/scenes of the ships and a little reaction to said quote or scene.

Let the fangirling commence!

Cover photo credit: johannathemad

1. Thomas Creswell & Audrey Wadsworth from the Stalking Jack the Ripper series by Kerri Maniscalco

Favorite Quote/Scene: “You are not mine to take.” He brushed his lips against mine. Softly, so softly I might have imagined them there. My eyes fluttered shut. He could persuade me to build a steamship to the moon when he kissed me. We could orbit the stars together. “You are yours to give.” --Hunting Prince Dracula

Are you bloody kidding me with that? Honestly, Thomas and Audrey is on the top ten of my favorite ships of all time simply because of that scene alone. This scene shows how much Thomas values Audrey as his equal and partner despite all the mayhem they went through. Also because Thomas Cresswell is every girl’s #bookboyfriendgoals because he’s suave af. I WILL SHIP IT TO MY GRAVE.

Art by phantomrin

2. Elias Veturius & Laia of Serra from the Ember Quartet by Sabaa Tahir

Favorite Quote/Scene: Laia is curled in a ball on the other, one hand on her armlet, fast asleep. 

"You are my temple", I murmur as I kneel beside her. "You are my priest. You are my prayer. You are my release." --A Torch Against the Night

SHUT THE FRONT DOOR. Do men like Elias Veturius even exist in the 21st Century? Hells no. Well, maybe, but the probability of one existing is about 1 to a million, so there’s that. I have never been so moved by such a simple statement, especially since that mantra is supposed to be Elias’s mantra to like, what was it? His honor in fighting for the Empire? But when he said that to Laia, it’s the same level of honor and I’m just so emotional about that?? What even?? How dare Sabaa?? 

Art by gabriella.bujdoso

11. Draco Malfoy & Astoria Greengrass from the Harry Potter series by J.K. Rowling

Favorite Quote/Scene: DRACO: Which is why you need this [time-turner]. I have been holding onto it, barely resisting using it, even though I would sell my soul for another minute with Astoria.

DRACO: You [speaking to his son, Scorpius] know what I loved most about your mother [Astoria]? She could always help me find light in the darkness. She made the world — my world, anyway — less — what was the word you used — “murky.”  

--Harry Potter and the Cursed Child

CAN WE JUST TALK ABOUT DRACO MALFOY FOR A HOT MINUTE? This man, who firmly believes himself hopeless soon after the Battle of Hogwarts ended, gets the happiest gift of all by having some girl named Astoria Greengrass see the good in him and love him for who he is. If that isn’t the best trope in a ship, I don’t know what is! We know nothing about Astoria other than the fact that she’s some obscure sister of yet another obscure classmate of Draco’s named Daphne. And yet, she seemed one of the most integral characters to me in Cursed Child when Draco said that he resisted using the time-turner to see his dead wife. 

Let’s not forget how when Scorpius time-traveled to a VoldemortWins!AU that Draco still ends up with Astoria. I think that’s what so beautiful about Draco and Astoria. They’re such a minor couple in the background of Hinny and Romione, but they carry so much history we’ve yet to know thanks to their darling cinnamon roll of a son, Scorpius. Anyone who truly knows me is already knowledgeable of the fact that I cry over this ship on a daily basis. And I’m sorry again that I had to cry and make one heck of a long description for this ship because they’re my ultimate fave *ugly sobs*.

Art by blvnk-art

4. Cress Darnell & Carswell Thorne from The Lunar Chronicles by Marissa Meyer

Favorite Quote/Scene:

“Captain?“ “Cress.“ She couldn’t not say it, although she realized he was right. It was sort of scary. Much scarier than it had been the first time she’d told him, out in the desert. It was different now. It was real. "I’m in love with you.” He chuckled. “I should hope so, after all that.” He leaned forward and pressed a kiss against her temple. “And I love you too.” --Winter

FIRST OF ALL, WHAT THE ACTUAL FORK I AM SCREECHING OVER THAT. That scene was probably one of the most memorable scenes I’ve read in the last installment of the Lunar Chronicles. Forget how Levana died and all was well. I cannot help but forget this very scene that sets every other couple in the series apart because of how well-written and developed these two were together. Right now, I am super tempted to re-read the Lunar Chronicles, just for the heck of rereading Cresswell (the ship name) all over again. 

Art by vvivaa

5. Tedros & Agatha from The School for Good and Evil series by Soman Chainani

Favorite Quote/Scene: “But you are my queen. No one but you. And I like seeing you wear it. Because as long as you do, I know you still love me. And given our history of miscommunication, physical cues are helpful.” --The Last Ever After

I absolutely adore Tedros and Agatha. I have been rooting for them since day one of this series and I will never stop (even if Soman highkey tore them apart in Quests for Glory, for shame). They’re probably the most realistic couple to me, if there was a better word for it? Miscommunication definitely happens a lot between these two because Tedros can be pretty dense sometimes and Agatha can be quite arrogant. But I always love how they come together in the end to work it out because that’s what most couples do--they fight, but they don’t lose sight of what’s really important to them. Tedros and Agatha physically embodies those kind of relationships and I am absolutely here for it. Soman needs to stop hurting me after Quests for Glory though because Tedros and Agatha being apart up until Crystal of Time physically hurts me askhjsfkhja.

Art by thevioleteuphonia

6. Nina Zenik & Matthias Helvar from the Six of Crows duology by Leigh Bardugo

Favorite Quote/Scene:

“I am grateful you're alive", he said. "I am grateful that you're beside me. I am grateful that you're eating." 

She rested her head on his shoulder. 

"You're better than waffles, Matthias Helvar." 

A small smile curled the Fjerdan's lips. 

"Let's not say things we don't mean, my love.” --Crooked Kingdom

I AM STILL HIGHKEY MAD FOR WHAT LEIGH DID TO THIS SHIP. I won’t say more, but I will say that this is the most painful ship to have ever sailed and I will never get over it. But also the sweetest and well-crafted because of how much these two characters developed over the course of two books. Granted, Nina and Matthias had their history together before the Dregs, but even without it, Leigh wrote them in a way that makes you believe they really are meant for each other in the end despite all adversity. I’m happy Nina is likely going to get a female love interest in Leigh’s installment on Prince Nikolai’s story, though her being with Matthias will always have a special place in my heart.

Art by nilaffle

7. Lira & Elian Midas from To Kill A Kingdom by Alexandra Christo

Favorite Scene/Quote:

“If you get shot,” Lira says, “I’m going to treat you like you’re incapable of doing the simplest tasks.” 

She cradles her arms around her knees to keep out the cold. 

“See how you like it when I hold out my arm to help you walk, even though you’re not shot in the leg.” 

“I’d be flattered,” I say, “that you would look for an excuse just to hold my hand.” 

“Perhaps I’m just looking for an excuse to shoot you.” --To Kill a Kingdom

I love a good “do I want to kill you or kiss you, it’s interchangeable” trope between couples, and when it comes to Lira and Elian, they pretty much seal the deal on that kind. Lira, the princess siren, is pretty much a cray murderer that takes people’s hearts and Elian is a prince-pirate that’s set to destroy her and kill her for good. I mean, it can’t get any more angst and interesting than that. The way they slowly develop in this standalone is very intriguing because not a lot of authors can pull off a realistic romance fantasy the way Alexandra Christo did. I just absolutely love Lira and Elian, their funny banters and their angst. They’re the kind of ship I would sail forever, really.

Art by silketara

8. Ron Weasley & Hermione Granger from the Harry Potter series by J.K. Rowling

There was a clatter as the basilisk fangs cascaded out of Hermione's arms. Running at Ron, she flung them around his neck and kissed him full on the mouth. Ron threw away the fangs and broomstick he was holding and responded with such enthusiasm that he lifted Hermione off her feet. --Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

CONTROVERSY. But seriously, I absolutely adore and love Ron and Hermione together because of their balance as a couple. There are times where Ron will be street smart and there are times (but most of the time) where Hermione will be book smart. Plus, I definitely think they need each other at times to get off their own high horses because we all know Hermione can be a wee bit intense and Ron can be a wee bit ignorant, but that’s the beauty of them balancing each other out. And that particular favorite scene I just showed proved just how far their relationship as more than friends have come. I practically squealed the first time I read their first kiss scene!

Plus, have you seen them in Cursed Child? I know hardly anyone considers it canon, but adult Ron and Hermione are the cutest ship to squeal at in that book--which seems to be one of the very few good things that book had ever produced. 

Art by johannathemad

9. Elain Archeron & Lucien Vanserra from the A Court of Thorns and Roses series by Sarah J. Maas

Favorite Scene/Quote: Lucien’s hands slackened at his sides. His voice broke as he whispered to Elain, “You’re my mate.” --A Court of Mist and Fury

Here we go, y’all. Another controversial ship. Let me just say that I want Elain to be happy, and whether it’s with Azriel or Lucien or by herself, I’m totally down for that. I just simply love the idea of Elain and Lucien together because of how actual smol beans they both are. Elain, our sweet flower girl and Seer with Lucien, our soft and loyal Fae--I mean, honestly. If I’m weak for ships that want to kill each other, I’m also weak for ships that have the softest hearts. I think they both have their own struggles and I definitely think they’ll grow from those struggles together. 

We all know what happened in ACOFAS and how Elain pretty much snubbed Lucien, but I still have high hopes for them. Maas has a plethora of novels coming out for the minor characters of the ACOTAR series, and I’m betting Elain and Lucien will get their moment in one of those novels. I haven’t lost hope yet! I mean, I bought magnetic bookmarks of these two, so it’s pretty clear I want these two to be endgame, haha!

Art by embaileyart

10. Nesta Archeron & Cassian from the A Court of Thorns and Roses series by Sarah J. Maas

Favorite Quote/Scene: Cassian grunted in pain, but lifted his bloodied hands - to cup her face. “I have no regrets in my life but this.” His voice shook with every word. “That we did not have time. That I did not have time with you, Nesta.”

She didn’t stop him as he leaned up and kissed her - lightly. As much as he could manage. --A Court of Wings and Ruin

I think the whole, if not all, of the ACOTAR fandom can agree that Nesta and Cassian are endgame through and through. Judging by that intense moment alone as per the scene presented above, I can pretty much say that while they both have a long way to go, the foundation has already been built from there. I mean, come on, people! They were willing to get killed by the King of Hybern if it meant protecting each other. If that isn’t squeal-fangirl factor trying to protect each other from some evil war lord, I don’t know what is!

Art by meabhd

11. America Singer & Maxon Schreave from The Selection series by Kiera Cass

Favorite Quote/Scene: “Break my heart. Break it a thousand times if you like. It was only ever yours to break anyway.” --The One

My high school fangirlish heart is exploding with memories of how much I loved America and Maxon back then, and I still do! This single sentence above said by Maxon says so much about how far he and America have come together through the adversities faced during the Selection and the rebellions that came with it from the people of Illea. Their love story is definitely one for the ages. While it’s your typical poor girl marries rich prince story, they’re definitely worth the remarkable development they’ve have over the course of three beautiful books.

Art by marimari999

12. Arin & Kestrel from the The Winner’s Curse trilogy by Marie Rutkoski

Favorite Quote/Scene: She turned to look at him, and he was already looking at her. 

“I’m going to miss you when I wake up,” she whispered, because she realized that she must have fallen asleep under the sun. Arin was too real for her imagination. He was a dream.

“Don’t wake up,” he said. --The Winner’s Crime

I’m in slight tears because I still remember this scene in the second book. The scene wasn’t actually real, but a dream that Kestrel had after months of being separated from Arin by some messed up duty to her country. Y’all have no idea the struggle these two had before they finally got their happily ever after (they did, just a little heads up for any hopefuls wanting to read the trilogy). This scene definitely gave me a sense of the impending tragedy of them being together (and yes, there’s also a forbidden love trope, sign me tf up, amiright), but it was a momentary bliss to everything that’s been happening during the course of when that scene happened. I absolutely adore Kestrel and Arin, and I’m so mad very few people have read of them or the series ahhhh.

Art by taylordraws

Phew! That was a lot of ships and hunting down for their quotes. Admittedly, I had some trouble with looking for scenes/quotes and that’s actually a perfect opportunity for me to start bookmarking my favorite parts of a book.

Aside from the struggles, though, I’d love to hear some of your favorite bookish ships, whether we ship the same thing or not. It’s always interesting to hear someone else’s point of view of ships, especially ones where our ships contradict. Feel free to sound off in the comments below!

[smoresiesfanfic]

Ok so basically your fic Deliverance gave me feelings and also made me like the members of Akatsuki that I didn't care about that much before, and now I have a plot bunny that won't let me go :[ I really really want to write about them, but I'm not sure I have all of their personalities straight... It's been so long since I watched the show, and again, I didn't pay that much attention to some of them before!

You need help writing Akatsuki members??? Look no further. Here’s a surefire way to write them all:

(Let’s start with my favorite…)(Canon)Hidan: insert random religious babble. Make most of the words offensive. Be loud. When in doubt just throw Jashin praising in the mix. Yell at Kakuzu for being mean. Call people athiest bastards to spice things up. (“Lord Jashin would be proud of me for relishing in this sweet ass death. Hell yeah boi. Fuck you Kakuzu, you old fuck. Fuck you with your detachable dick, you heathen athiest.”) Kakuzu: take your grumpiest thought and multiply it by infinity. Take any positive feeling of emotion and throw it across the ocean. Kakuzu hates you and he DGAF. He likes money. Give him money. He hates Hidan and insults him regularly. But make him do something nice for Hidan to really give his grumpy character depth. (“Hidan I can’t believe you did this you dumb fuck. This is why we can’t trust you. Can you do anything right? I fucking hate you” kakuzu says as he literally sews Hidan new clothing because it’s snowing outside and Hidan is not allowed to get cold and he ripped his shirt for the thousandth time)Kisame: he’s literally the purest soul. Don’t pay attention to the sadistic side. Kisame is literally the offspring of Mr Rogers and Bob Ross. The best way to write kisame is have him mention Itachi no matter what he’s talking about because kisame loves Itachi and I’m fairly certain there’s nothing else he can talk about… That and shark facts. Oh and he totally takes his sword on walks like a dog because he love this sword. (“Hey everyone, so sorry I’m late. I was 17 villages over getting Itachi his favorite dango because I love him- I mean… I love him. No you heard that right. Samehada and I want you to be in our family. Pls love me.”)Itachi: low-key wants to ride that shark dong™ acts like he’s super cool and just chills in the background but actually high key can’t see for shit. He speaks in weird riddles that make him sound deep but he just doesn’t make sense. He just wants to love kisame. But first he needs to avoid all the booby traps deidara set for his blind ass. (“Kisame, we aren’t fish, we’re people. You can’t love me because I have a tragic backstory™ and kishimoto literally hates me so I’ll likely die. But don’t worry because you’ll die too and when you die, they’ll play my theme music to underlying out hella gay partnership. Also. Can you help me? I’m fairly certain deidara strapped explosives to my body”)Deidara: deidara is a teenager so he’s crazy and irrational and he doesn’t know what taxes are but he 100% knows that the mitochondria is the powerhouse of the cell. Deidara is tough because depending on who you are, you ship him with different people. Or you’re like me who ships him with everyone so he my lil ho. So let’s just pretend he’s a ho. So dei is doing his ho thang just tryna bang, doesn’t matter in which way tbh. Deidara is cocky so he likes to talk about himself. He also likes to talk about art so when he talks just insert random realizations of art in whatever he’s doing. Then he blows shit up. Add his tick to random sentences. (Deidara was doing his homework for biology in his bedroom when he realized how artfully structured his spoon was. The one from the bowl of captain crunch he ate 4 days ago but totally left in his bedroom because he’s a teenager and they leave dirty dishes in their room. It’s in their DNA. He learned this from biology. “Katsu” he whispered and blew his desk up. He sighed, realizing his homework was on fire. Now he’s have to fuck his biology teacher for a grade. Again.)Sasori: uhhhhhhh drama drama drama. The best way to write sasori is to ignore him but know he’s lurking in the background. You know how they say that writer’s need to stop thinking their character is 100% of everyone’s attention at all times? Yeah that’s the truth when sasori is in your story because he’s likely spying on them. He knows everything about everyone. He learned several languages so when he gets his nails done at the salon he knows if they’re talking shit about him. I also don’t ship sasori with anyone because I’m not tryna get fucked by literal wood, ya feel me? (Sasori crept in the background undetected. he couldn’t help himself. He had to know. It was brimming with curiosity. What was next to the story? “Oh my god they were roommates.”)Zetsu: ok you tryna write white or black? Whatever. Just throw two completely opposing personalities together and also add in cannibalism and there you go. Also white zetsu loves everyone so he shows up to talk to people but likely kisame is the only one who pays attention to him. Black zetsu likely wouldn’t even give you a ride to see your dying relative in the hospital. He also sucks. (“Wow what a beautiful day to have friends!… What’s that noise?” “Hm? Oh sorry. I was eating” “… Is that my bff Wilbur?” “Yup” “😭” “🤷”)Tobi: do you remember that weird kid in your class that wouldn’t shut the fuck up? Yeah use him as an inspiration and also make him talk in first person and have a good boy kink and for calling people senpai. He also needs to be the most extra person in the room and act like a damn fool. Also, add a tragic backstory and personality disorder. (“Tobi is a good boi, senpai.” That’s it. And that was Canon.)Pein: God complex. Loves himself. Thinks he’s got shit. Strong af. Tries to be stoic but probably 100% cried during each piercing. Konan: the mom friend. She just wants her children to survive but they’re… So dumb. They’re so fucking stupid. Why was this a good idea. Someone please save this poor woman she dies so much.

So anyway, you put that all together and get something like this:

“Can everyone please listen to me.” Konan said, looking around at the clusterfuck anxiously.

“YEAH BABY, FUCK ALL OF YOU BITCHES. ITS TIME TO BE A TRIBUTE FOR MY LORD! KAKUZU I SEE YOUR UGLY FUCKING FACE, IF YOU LOOK AT ME ONE MORE TIME-”

“Don’t lose your head you moron. I’m not even looking at you. I’m thinking how much money I can get for your bounty.”

“Did someone say Itachi???”

“No Kisame. Literally no one said Itachi.” Sasori said with an eye roll. “Stop thinking about Itachi for three goddamn Seconds”

“Tobi is a good boy!”

“How the fuck do we have Tobi and sasori at the same time, hm??”

“Shut up, deidara.” Said kishimoto, probably.

“Did you finish your homework?” Konan asked seriously.

“Of course I did you dick”

“Ok what what did you learn?”

“… The mitochondria is the powerhouse-”

“Ok but you were doing macroeconomics???”

“Katsu! Oh look at that Itachi blew up I gotta go”

“No! ITACHI!”

“DONT WORRY.” Sasori said bravely.

“But he had no chakra left!”

“And with his negative chakra he managed to summon a giant snake and teleport himself away in the knick of time.”

“That seems highly unlikely.” “so does me as the villain but hey, just roll with it” white and black zetsu argued.

Pein looked around the room and nodded firmly.

“I am a god.”

Ok I hope that helped you. In all honesty id love to hear your idea!And if anyone has any questions they’d like answered, let me know!

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My take on yesterday’s Eurovision semifinals under the cut. Spoiler: I found most boring.

Luckily the Italian commentators were silly enough. First of all so many ballads, it seems like every year there are more. And more English, I want to hear different sounds and different songs sung in different languages, most songs are random pop in English instead. How dull. Also the presenters seemed dull. Anyway.

Azerbaijan: Last year’s entry was amazing, this year it wasn’t. Also I thought the refrain said "stronger than cannibals" in the refrain, I don’t want to check the lyrics, it’s more interesting~

Iceland: boring af I'm glad he didn’t qualify

Albania: no idea of what it's about but it's heartfelt, and he sings in his language, I’m glad he made it

Belgium: I liked last year's entry much better, this one's all sexy and alluring and then kinda James Bond-ish? but what's with her dress, I don’t like it. Or her hair.

Czeck Republic: The postcard was hilarious. The song kinda reminds me of last year's moldova but 90s. His look was hilarious too, and so the staging. I like him better than Israel tbh

Lithuania: nice postcard, I'd like to drive that steampunk thing too. She's pretty, not my type tho. Her song is even more boring than iceland. Why the hell did she qualify and not Greece?

Israel: well she is really trashy, so really classic Eurovision, no wonder she’s so popular. I liked her song partly, the creepy voice/sound effects grossed me out. Also it’s obvious why she’s so loved especially on tumblr, and it’s obvious why all those who accused last year’s Francesco Gabbani of cultural appropriation (because they were too dumb or lazy to understand that the song was sarcastically about cultural appropriation) will instead call her queen and ignore her cultural appropriation. Which is not a problem for me, for how I see it none of them did such thing. Anyway I forgot to mention the chicken dance. ok it was fun.

Belarus: I still listen to last year's Naviband song, I didn’t really like this sad guy talking to a rose. But wait, his song is actually good? On tv they just aired a tweet saying that it sounds like a vampire anime opening, I guess that’s why I ended up liking it~

Estonia: omg she's singing in Italian, what a trip. Guess this counts as not singing in English even if it’s not her native language, and being Italian myself I appreciate the tribute, too bad I dislike opera even tho her song has some modern vibe in the background. Also Frozen.

Bulgaria: I liked their song and their post apocalyptic-ish set. Finally some ESC~

FYR Macedonia: ok in Italian Macedonia means fruit salad. Their song is kinda salad-ish too, like 3 different songs mixed up. Didn’t like it.

Croatia: Nope. Also last year most singers wore white, this year it's time for see through black or what

Austria: boring af

Greece: Why didn’t she qualify? Finally a song in a different language, and it was a nice one, and she was dressed like a greek goddess too :( (also idk about the silver hand but it was cool)

Finland: that spinning wheel made the difference I guess, I imagined her as more on the rock side but her set and uniform dancers were dystopic so I liked her a lot

armenia: I appreciated the native language but the song was boring

switzerland: Meh. Reminded me of that “Coyote Ugly” movie, with girls dancing on the bar's counter

Ireland: The song was so boring I almost fell asleep. I don’t even like Ed Sheeran much less this guy. yeah yeah I get it, gay romance, romantic stuff and so on, I still hate it because the song is boring af and GREECE WAS BETTER

Cyprus: uhm I get she was flashy, so very ESC but her song was boring

I didn’t listen to any song other than Italy’s, so it was the first time I heard those showed in the preview. Ugh England seems boring, how is it possible that they have so many good bands, artist and whatever, of every genre existing, but they send to ESC only the boring ones? They really don’t care about it don’t they? Also Spain is so bad I hate them even tho they sing in their language so I wanted to support them...Instead I kinda like Portugal, both the song, the language and the edgy lesbians.

[aznhedge-archive]

Foundational: Never filter the data because you'll reach an unsuitable result. It's never within the interest of the people trying to solve a long-term problems to lie to themselves. If someone is trying to "lie" to you while claiming to want to solve your problems; you need a question their motives and whose interest they truly have in mind.

Hard, uncomfortable discussions has always been a strength of aznidentity. This sub should be wary of tone-policing and watering down certain views and discussions just because some might get offended.: aznidentity

https://www.reddit.com/r/aznidentity/comments/mf8yt7/hard_uncomfortable_discussions_has_always_been_a/

Excellent post:

"This time period is going to be crucial in terms of attempting to finally get some real change going.

IMO, there is always the possibility, the danger of a sub downgrading in quality due to diluting important messages or even culling certain viewpoints altogether because an increasing amount of readers were complaining about them, even when they shouldn't.

I guess I'll get to the point - there has been a lot of new people coming here to see what's up. Welcome. However (and a lot of you are probs aware of this) there's also bound to be more than a few people from different backgrounds popping in with ill intentions that are interested in trying to dictate the narrative, subtly and slowly but surely twisting things here and there, telling people here how we should be allowed or not allowed to do or say this and that.

Let me tell it to you straight:

Yes there are good white people, but there is still an obscene amount of them who casually disrespect or even outright despise Asians, who either refuse to acknowledge their privilege or revel in it, try to co-opt and control Asian subs like the mess at r/ china or r/ korea, who conflate every Asian with muh CCP, ostracize and shun Asians in social and work life yet play all innocent and pretend they're not complicit in this situation. Every now and then, one might even go on a killing spree....

Yes there are good black people who are devoted to solidarity, but there is still an obscene amount of them who violently attack random Asians in the street whose only crime was existing, who taunt and bully Asians, who deflect and stay in denial in every other comments section related to an Asian hate crime, who will never shut up about some Chinese or Korean dudes who were mean to Africans in Asia but stay silent about the riots that harmed Asian businesses and the numerous times that both Africans and black people in America assaulted Asians.

Yes not all AF dating white people are unwoke, yes there are plenty of good Asian women, but there is still an obscene amount of them who publicly put down AM, who openly worship white people on social media, who say AM are the 'weak link' for dubious reasons, who bizarrely blame AM for the sins of extreme white men (see Elliot Rodger or the weird accusations at Andrew Yang), who keep trying to silence this conversation or, frustratingly, denying this problem exists and telling AM who's experienced these toxic people to be a good boy and shut up. Not all AM send nasty PMs to AF but there's tons of articles written about "evil Asian men" at times implicitly suggesting this is a rampant prevalent thing, yet we're not allowed to write articles or make videos about a not-tiny amount of AF who don't stop at rejecting AM but even slander Asian men to non-Asian friends and harass AMXF couples?

The "not all [ ]" argument that people (from various groups and demographics) keep throwing at Asians here and there is borderline patronizing. No one with two brain cells actually thinks every single _____ is anti-Asian, whoever uses and abuses that cliche more often than not is trying to nurse their hurt feelings, trying save their own hide and tone-police or gaslight conversations that need to be had, and (even if unintentionally) essentially covering up for those of their group that harm or contribute to harm against Asians. If your first instinct is to nag and say 'we're not ALL like that, I think you're just seeing things or exaggerating' and not 'I'm sorry, I sympathize for you, I will call those fuckers out when I have the chance', you're not fully or truly sympathetic. It's like the "not all men" stuff when women are trying to talk about sexual assault issues.

If you happen to be offended by any of this, go somewhere else cuz this ain't a safe space buddy!

I hope this sub can,

find a way/ continue to smartly and productively criticize anti-Asian people FROM ANY GROUP, without giving genuine racists/ misogynists/ anti-semites/ homophobes etc. (who are a stark minority, don't give the outside slanderers and detractors the upper hand on this one guys) any more of the leading voice or power than the haters of BTS in the past did

still keep in mind that many POCs are not only racist against Asians, but will also never change their minds, ignore what subs like this say, and continue to be anti-Asian. Preach unity all you want, but when any POC group is making a toxic Asian "joke" or planning to go on some assaulting campaign for shits and giggles, we must not go any easier on them than we do on white people.

You NEED to understand: Asian men in particular have been forced into a unique, unenviable position in society, and as a result, there are still not many spaces like this sub where AM can vent their pent up frustrations about their lot in life and all the prejudices and double standards. Don't take this away from AM too.

still remember that the toxic attributes and widespread impact and ramifications of many (not all) WMAFs is still worth discussing and calling out. Never forget that there is such a thing as a false equivalency, do 👏 not 👏 fall 👏 for the disingenuous types who cherry pick certain AMXFs that are cringeworthy and play 'whataboutism', the types whose main goal is to downplay this ugly phenomenon and brush countless events and stories under the rug out of embarrassment, trying to manipulatively point fingers and say "no YOU'RE the one who needs to explain yourself AM scum!" Taking the heat off of this very real problematic dynamic is exactly what they want. Never be fooled.

One of the best things about this sub has always been its ability to have controversial and 'offensive' conversations about taboo topics (read: black on asian crime) that boba liberals tend to pussy away from. While it's wise to avoid going to the extreme end, and to not completely alienate white people/ black people/ AF/ hapas and so on, the last thing we need, especially in this age when awareness about Asian struggles is more mainstream than ever, is for there to be so much neutering on r/ aznidentity that it ends up looking like r/ AsianAmericanChannel on many fronts."

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Remember // Taehyung imagine

A/N: Enjoy :)

Summary : “ He remembers our dances. With a little recap, he remembers. We’re so happy he still does.” “ Yes I guess, he loves dancing and it’s in his heart so he won’t forget.” “ Y/n, i don’t want to sound mean but dont you think that doesn’t make sense?” “What doesn’t?” “If you’re in his heart right. Why did he forget you?”

Genre: angst, fluff

Words: 3k ( 3,405)

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It was a great year. Popping champagne and kissing when the clock strikes twelve on new year’s eve. Opening presents on Christmas day. Snuggling by the fire on Valentine’s. Blowing candles on each other’s birthday’s.

You celebrate everything together. Everything was perfect.

“ y/n, smileee” Taehyung says while he takes a picture of you by the gardens. He loves to take pictures of everything, especially you. You even get mad at him sometimes because some of the pictures are candid and you think you look ugly af but he always says

“To me you’re the most beautiful person in and out, in person or in a picture. I can never get tired of your smile.“ 

and if you try to fight me in deleting all of the pictures, he always has extras. You got used to it. You’re each others lockscreens. So that, he says

” Every morning will start happily when I see you face “

You just love how he’s always funny. So caring, but he can be scary when he gets jealous you just love him more.

There was a guy that went over to you at the bar while Taehyung went to the restroom. The guy offers you a drink and he’s getting closer every time he says a word, you get uncomfortable. You say ” No-no you see I hav-“ then you just see Taehyung’s hand on the shoulder of the guy.

” Move, it’s my girlfriend you’re talking to”

It feels so good when you have that somebody caring that much about you.

When the both of you fight, both of you will be the coldest person you can find on Earth.

“What is it to you???!” You say “If you dont want to tell me, then fine. It ‘doesn’t’ matter to me anyway. ” He says with a sarcastic tone, walking away going into the room.

For a week you and Taehyung are ignoring each other. Facing opposite directions while sleeping. Until one day, you hear the doorbell. You think who in the world it might be when Taehyung just left for work.

By the door you see one rose laying on the ground. It was blue. You remember telling him that you dont like cliché colored roses. You want something that is rarely found. There’s a note attached to it saying “Go to the patio” you look inside your room and went inside the patio. There’s a box saying “open”. It’s a music box. With a letter saying “ sorry” the music playing is the song he made for you for your fourth anniversary together. You heard the door click. You ran immediately to the door seeing his figure holding a bouquet of roses qirh different colors. You ran and hugged him tight as he whispers in your ears “I’m sorry, I can’t stay mad at you anymore. I love you”

Good times.

Going back to all those memories feels so painful especially when you’re here sitting beside his hospital bed holding his hand tight hoping he wakes up. You can’t believe it all happened so fast. It was only like yesterday when he told me he’ll never leave me.

I’m sure he won’t. He won’t. He promised.

Hours of sleeping by his side. Days of waiting for him to say that he’s okay, it so long. It’s like im on an endless cycle of repeating days with no changes in his condition.

You feel his hand fidget. Like he’s waking up. You face him immediately, his long eyelashes batting up and down. He’s eyes opening and you’re so happy you can jump.

“ TAEHYUNG! OH MY GOD THANK GOD YOU’RE AWAKE!” you stood up and hugged him from his bed. You don’t hear him say anything. He’s not even hugging you back.

“ Taehyung I’m so worried you mig-” then he pushes you away and catches you off guard. You feel hurt, pain crushing your chest. Why did he push you away? What’s wrong? You think that he’s just adjusting so you go over and say

“ Are you okay babe?” You’re eyes shifting back and forth on his body, face, feet everything making sure nothing’s hurt.

When the only thing you hear him say, “ Who are you?”

Your heart stopped. Everything stopped. You find yourself staring into his eyes hoping he’ll recognize you. You smiled hiding the pain and hoping that he’ll remember.

It’s all because of you. If he didn’t help you in the first place,  he wouldn’t have ended up here in the hospital. It should’ve been you instead. That picture frame doesn’t need to be there anyway. You blame everything to yourself. Looking back at all that happened. How hard he must’ve felt when he fell down the stairs. How much blood there was on the floor, how much crying there was. How much louder you have to shout just for everything to be alright.

You answer:

“ I’m (y/n) you’re girlfriend. You can’t remember me?”

The nurse comes in and checks on him.  Then the doctor tested his memory, even his own name he can’t remember. He excused me outside to tell me what’s his condition is.

It hurts, so much. The past 5 years you’ve been together, felt like he threw it in the trash.

You’re still there by his side. You’re still there through every night his head hurt in the middle of the night. You’re there holding his hand tight. Praying he’ll remember.

The other day:

“ Are you doing well?” You ask while preparing his food. He is looking at his phone. Trying passwords just to open it. You settled the tray beside him and got his phone and opened it for him.

09112 - You’re first anniversary.

“How do you know my password?” He asks. Duh, ofc he told you because jo secrets remember? No, he doesn’t remember.

“ I’m your girlfriend ofcourse I know. You’re really not that private.” You smirk.

He face his phone and looks at the homescreen carefully as if studying math. We have matching homescreens, it was us at the photobooth.

“Is this?” He points at you in the picture then at you.

“ Yea… You took that picture of us because you were so happy that the spot we got was very beautiful. You said you want to capture it because you’re with me…”

He is silent. No reaction at all.

“ I’ll help you remember don’t worry.” You said to break the ice.

“Thanks.” He said not even looking at you. You miss the old Taehyung that likes to smile, to make you smile. The Taehyung that looks at you every moment.

Now the time has come when he can be discharged. You bring him home. As soon as you enter the house, you felt happy. That you’re with him again in the same place. You turn to look at him.

He doesn’t look happy. When he turned to face you he asks “ Where’s my room?”

You walk him to the room saying, “This is our room”.

“ We share the same room?” He says with that tone in his voice like he won’t do this if he gets the chance to do it all over again.

“ Remind me, how many years are we together again?”

“ 5. 5 solid years. Taehyung please remember” you hold his hand. But he lets go saying, “ I’ll try.”

Days are hard. He started working again. It’s been a month already and he’s still not back to normal. I’m sure it takes time. I can wait forever.

You’re also sure that the boys also are having a hard time with Taehyung forgetting everything.

You get a call it’s from Rap Monster.

“ Yes? You called?” You say

“ I have good news.” He says and you hear the other guys, Jungkook and Jin in the background saying “Hello y/n!” repeatedly teasing me.

“ What’s up?“  You ask with the frustration in your voice.

” Taehyung,“

” What why? What happened? Does he remember?“

” Uhmmm let’s just say it like this. He’s adjusting quickly but he’s still not the same. But the other good news is,“

“What???”

“ He remembers our dances. With a little recap, he remembers. We’re so happy he still does.”

“ Yes I guess, he loves dancing and it’s in his heart so he won’t forget.”

“ Y/n, i don’t want to sound mean but dont you think that doesn’t make sense?”

“What doesn’t?”

“If you’re in his heart right. Why did he forget you?”

“ Well-” you’re about to say something when he said

“ Oh practice is going to start soon. I need to go. Talk to you soon with updates again y/n!”

He hangs up. What he said just went right through you. If he did love you, you’re supposed to be in his heart. Then why did he forget?

Hours later, you fell asleep. Then he got home. You woke up and went to see him.

“ Hello, are you tired?” You ask

“ Yes, i need to rest.” He says taking off his coat. You went to help him.

“ It’s okay, I didn’t forget how to take my own coat off. Thanks.” You stopped.

You’re hurt in so many levels right now and the past days. You want him to leap in your arms everytime he gets home. You want him back.

Next day

You wake up with no one beside you, again. The spot where he used to be is now empty. “When will he sleep next to me again?”

This never happens even when you fight. He never lets you sleep alone. But why did he change so much?

You went out to the living room and saw him on the phone. Laughing. The sound you wanted to hear for so long.

He catches a glimpse of you and hangs up on the phone.

He said “ Goodmorning! Are you hungry?” what’s happening?

“ Ye-yea… ” You said and went to the counter to make some coffee.

“ You seem happy. What’s up? Do you remember me now?” You turn to face him holding your mug.

“ Not that. It’s a secret. ” He teased

“ Come on Taehyung.”

He stands up and picks up his coat and said “ I’m going out enjoy the toast I made in the oven. Bye bye!”

He left. “It’s nice seeing Taehyung like that again. ” You thought.

After taking a bath, you went straight to the bookstore. You needed to buy his favorite book, maybe he can remember what’s it about since he always talk about it. He donated his last year at an orphanage for children. 

While finding the section, you get another call from Rap mon. You answer the call while finding the section.

“ Yes? What’s up?” You say looking through the books.

“ Y/n….” He whispers. You feel the mixed emotions filled with sadness, worry, confusion.

“ Why? What happened? Are you okay? Ie Taehyung doing fine?” You ask while shifting through the books hoping it’s not bad news that he’s just joking with the tone of his voice.

“ Guys I can’t do this.” He says in the background frustrated.

“ What do you mean you can’t do?” You say.  You hear the ruffles at the other line as if it was plastic crushing to the phone’s speaker.

“ Hello?” You hear Jimin.

“ Jimin? Hello, what’s happening? What is it that Rap Mon can’t say?” You found the book. It almost took forever you can shout for joy because as you look around it’s the last one.

“ YES!” you shouted to the phone

“ What is it?” Jimin said

“ I found Taehyung’s favorite book!” You said with a smile on your face.

“ That’s… Nice..” he says contradicting his voice.

“ Jimin, what it is by the way?” You say scanning through the pages looking back at when he used to read this and be so hyped. Jimin fell silent. What’s happening???

“Where’s Taehyung is he alright?” You ask.

“He is super alright. But y/n, I’m so so sorry to tell you this. But-” he stopped to catch his breath.

“ Taehyung is with a girl right now. We’re looking the glass of the cafe they’re at.” Once again you feel your heart drop. But you think that it’s just a meeting with someone or something.

“ Maybe it’s just a friend. No need to get all hyped up.” You say

“ It’s at the Coffee Bay…” As soon as you hear Jimin say those words, you begin to remember how you two used to order there always. The way he used to smile at you when you order for him. The way he used to sing along to the song playing at the cafe.

‘Why Taehyung did you bring her there? I thought, you don’t remember?’ you thought.

“ No maybe they’re just in the area. So they’re there.” You try to stay positive. You have to hold on to what you and Taehyung have. You have to believe that he’ll come back.

“ Where are you?” You were so lost you didn’t realize it’s already Jhope talking.

“ Here at the mall near our house why?”

“ We’re there too, that means… They’re here. Can’t you check for yourself? We don’t want you to be sad for too long please y/n…”

“ Alright I’ll be there. I’ll just buy the book. Ok I’ll see you. Bye. ” You say as you search for the counter and immediately paying.

You go to the cafe and they’re outside waiting for you. They’re somewhere where they can’t be seen. You went over. Jungkook immediately pointed to where Taehyung is.

You see his smile. You see him laugh. You see him do those things with the girl he’s with. You turn around to avoid getting hurt, you’ll stay positive you say to yourself.

“ Guys, this is normal. They’re just talking and laughing like normal people. Nothing to be worried about.” You say confidently.

When suga said “ That looks normal to you?” He points to where Taehyung was. You look over.

They’re holding hands. Staring deeply into each others eyes. You feel weak, you drop the book you’re holding. It felt as if your heart came with it. You feel so betrayed.

“ Is this why he was so happy earlier? Being so nice to me?” You say.

“ He remembers how to love, but not to love you y/n. I’m sorry ” Suga said in the background. You felt tears running down your face once again. Rap Mon pulled you into his arms and hugged you. They all joined in creating a barrier from everything, from Taehyung.

You were just crying on Rap Mon’s chest when you hear the softness of his voice.

“Hyung?” He says as soon as he sees Jimin.

JIMIN POV

He’s holding hands with the girl. How can he?

End of POV

He saw the guys, you tell rapmon

“ Please don’t let him see me.” You whisper.

Rap Mon signals the guys to block you while hiding behind him. They are all so good to you.

“ What are you doing here?” Taehyung says

“ No, we should be the one asking you that. What are you doing here, doing that?” Suga said pointing at their holding hands. Suga is a real savage.

“ I was about to tell you guys” he says and you can feel how he is so happy about all of this.

“ Taehyung can we talk?” You hear Jin’s voice. “ Alone?”

When Rapmon said that they’re gone you thank them for everything they did and that you need to go home.

Holding his favorite book in your hands, tears were dripping on the plastic cover.

Jin POV

Taehyung asked the girl to leave and they went somewhere quiet to talk.

“ Why Hyung?” He says

“ Why did you do that?” Jin says facing Taehyung “ Why is there another girl Taehyung?”

Taehyung didn’t answer.

“ You already have y/n…” Jin says “ Have you forgotten how hard she went through all the shit you put her through and you’re just going to replace her?”

“ For the love of God Taehyung! You’re living together? Or what, are you going to leave her today?“  Jin said non stop.

” Hyung, you can’t force feelings.“ He said looking into Jin’s eyes.

” You can’t taehyung, but you’re old enough to make the right decisions.“ Jin says.

” I’m sorry.“ Taehyung said

Jin was about to go but he replied ” Please don’t hurt y/n, she’s been through enough. “ Then he walks away.

End of POV

You are now at home, changed into your oversized sweater and shorts. Cooked dinner for you and Taehyung, if ever he’ll come home.

You sit down alone, and you play your favorite song. Taehyung and RM’s 4o clock.

You sing along, you sing out all the feelings you’ve been wanting to let out for so long. You close your eyes and just tear up with the thought that will haunt you forever.

” Taehyung can’t remember you. It’s impossible to love someone you dont know.“

The song ended. You were so into the song you didn’t notice Taehyung standing by the door looking at you. Slowly clapping his hands and walking towards you.

” You have a good voice. What song was it?“ He asked.

“It’s your song. You and RM composed it for your 4th anniversary as a group”

“ Really? It sounded like me ” he giggles.

He sits across the table and grabs a plate to eat with you.

“ Taehyung, can’t you remember me?” You say once again.

“ I’m so sorry, I really can’t.”

You bring out the book you bought. You saw the spark he has in his eyes when he sees the book.

“ This, do you remember this?” He immediately snatched it out of your hands. Examining it closely.

“ YES. OMG. I saw this somewhere and I wanted to buy it! I felt like it has a sentimental value to me or something.”

“ Yea it does. It’s about,” you were saying when he joined in and you were in sync.

“ - a boy that wanted to reach his dreams but he fell from the sky. He needs to find a way back”

You were looking intimately into each other. Like…. before..

“ Taehyung can you give me a chance to make you fall in love with me all over again?” You say.

“ I already am.” Taehyung said.

It was the best moment ever.

A/N: Comment if you want a Taehyung POV of this story

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22 July-An Idea of What’s going on in my life

Okay! so i’ve decided to write until i get a response from you guys..or until i get bored.

okay so, it’s been a month since school started..me and Iomhara have been coping well..adjusting to the lamos in our class..well..we arent really adjusting, when the school started me and she used to practise maths sums and study….mostly because of the classes we both had..my teacher gives us a hell of a homework and the math’s one makes really hard tests..my parents take tution tests seriously so i need to study..study hard!

Flashback

Ugh! i am early again!..now i have to wait for some time until someone i know shows up..

A guy entered the door..his name is shaan..a weirdo..his gang was once playing truth or dare and i heard my name being called over..i looked in his direction and saw him pointing at me saying “this is Lara..there the one whose doodling.” and his other friend looking at me..hell that was awkward cause i caught them looking and talking about me and since they were playing truth or dare the were probably talking something like-She’s cute,i’ve a crush on her, given a chance i would go out with her..blah blah blah. not saying that i am THE CHICK but i know they were talking about this stuff cause they were embarrassed when the saw me looking, me being the generous human i am just looked their way for a minute or two and then started doddling again.

so after that incident it was awkward with them..

now its fine..i’ll come to them later

the thing now is he is the second person that enters this god damn classroom after me..its irritating because we just sit there in a really awkward silence.

I was feeling a bit nauseous so i decided to open the windows thats when i noticed the the blue team’s(this team has a real name that is a more reasonable one but can’t disclose it) senior football selections were taking place today..and fuck! thats where he was..shining like literally shining..man he was the first one i put my eyes on like aww..he is just so cute well not cute he is hot af!..we’ll name him footballer. there was also this dashing new head boy he is a goody two shoes..tani had a crush on him in 8th grade for only 6 months that is..he is incredibly cute! like the dream boyfriend..the good one the one who is sweeter than the whole honeydukes together(Harry Potter reference!)..and humble,genreous,gentle, he is every good adjective in the dictionary.but not my type.now guess what?..this guy we’ll call him Lost Teddy Bear(LTB for short - cause he sure looks like one-but in a cuter way),so LTB thought i had a crush on him cause i used to lookout for tani and  he well sometimes..okay! i’ll be honest..many times caught me saying ‘he’s there’,’look he’s coming this way’ and all this shit!

and then he started noticing and ignoring our group..i was doing the same.eventually tani got over him,i told you she is never the commitment type..kine of me but more bold i will get bored if :

i find someone new

something bad happens like he tells me to stop,he has a hardcore crush on someone,etc

or he starts looking ugly

i stop seeing him

gradually i loose interest.

btw that Nilay guy did the pineapple cut..if thats what its called..he looks so weird and i dont like it so interest meter a bit low..

now this teddy bear was also trialing..how many things can you even do eh?..like you are the head boy,so automatically you would be good in academics,you play football,you are the guy most girls would want to date..i can tell that..girls are always trying to flirt with him. the next thing that would happen is i would see him dancing and singing in two voices..like literally are you a super being or something??..plus he has read almost each and every famous book series

The Hunger Games,Maze Runner,Harry Potter,Percy Jackson,and what not

i know this much about him cause well 1.he is famous and 2.his best friend is in my class or was in my class he and GQ were really good friends and this guy had a crush on me,hell! he even waited for me..he waited for 3 years proposed 3 times like boy! i dont like you romantically! sorry but i have frien zoned you! and there is no bloddy thing in this bloddy world that can undo the effect! this guiy you know was really good..sweet and totally into me but no! me being the most stupidest human bring on the planet i friend zoned him!..the thing with me is -i dont like people who like me i want people that have no interest in me,most of the time it is like that.I had literally friend zone each and every datable guy in my class..so back to teddy bear and this teddy is in 12th grade now

so they were trialling..alot of people were there..

now back to my pretty footballer!!..my first reaction when i saw him was fuck

i mean how can someone be that hot!!

and why the hell am i writing in italics..better turn it off...its getting creepy..okay so yeah done..

i was drooling over my babe(technically he is not mine,doesnt even know i exist..) when Arya entered she is a fine gal. nice one to have a chat and talk about boys..well she is like did you see? so many guys are trialling!..and most of them are sooooo hooooot!!!

and i am like i cant see them i am lost in his beauty

“which one?” asked Arya

“the one with the red shirt” i said

“the one that blocked the ball right now?”

“yeah that one”

“he looks hot”

“do you know there is this guy in the green house..i saw him during one of those shitty house meetings..and he is just so cute!!!..and guess what! he is national level boxer and a state level football keeper!!..his personality is so awesome!..we’ll call him boxer” said Arya

“uh-huh nice one!..which grade is he in?” i asked

“11th grade i’ll take you to see him during recess” replied Arya

“righto!”

“hey do you wanna see this footballer guy face to face..they may be coming upstairs for changing!” proposed Arya

“of Course!”

so then we were waiting in the corridor which was filled with students..seniors,juniors,9th graders on the left corridor,11th graders etc on the right one..and then he entered..i swear he’s got abs...and he is so tall so cute..so awesome!..of course he did not notice me,of course he did not bother to turn and say sorry when his sweatfull body..if being more specific then- his shoulder brushed against mine..of course still he does not know that his smile makes my day..of  course he does not know that he is the reason me and Iomhara eat our lunch as fast as we can..ofcourse he wont come out when he is finished with his lunch..of course he wont bother..

i told my friends about this tani and aki said that i was being a low standard bitch who would fall for anyone fair and tall...but this is so not true,pratham is fair and fairly tall...i hate him.i hate him because he is a playboy.If Footballer is a playboy then i won’t be that crazy about him.

And well Iomhara was not that excited about him(this was when she had not seen him)..the same was with aura..the thing is if my friends,whenever i tell them about a guy and they don’t know him that is they have no idea of his appearance, they automatically lose interest. Plus Iomhara had a glimpse of him once and he appeared to her as FAT! like literally he has freakin’ hottie abs for heavens sake!..but then she came around and is like he is okay-okay..aura had the same opinion. but no! he is awesome i dunno what happens when i see him but the way he talks the way he smile the way he walks even though my friends say he is a bit lanky,i dont care!!..its been a month since i have been into him..! and now that i think of it,i shouldn’t waste time on people who don’t even know i exist..but then again he could know i exist,if i talk to him..but he does not even come out during lunch breaks..

anyway this aki has a crush just like mine..but this one he is  a bit different..lets call him Yan, so when i first saw him i was like “girl you deserve better”

and then aki is like i dunno i just feel something when i see him.

like literally! he is skinny, is not even that handsome!..he is even taken!!..i dont think so footballer is in a relationship.

Yan’s a 11th grader,his class is next to mine. so once he was passing by and is asked him his name,very innocently he said “Yan.”

i gotta admit that was kinda cute but still! he is a prefect!!!..anyway after a few days when i saw him again i had the urge to go and say hi so i did he even greeted back though it was with hesitation and Iomhara is like what did you just do,and i am like i wanted to say hi. A few days passed with hi’s and bye’s.Iomahara started doing it too but with a ‘bhaiya’ it means brother. she does this because she wants to make it clear that she is in no way interested in him,as for me i like to keep ‘em confused!..so this hesitation began to slip away and after that he was like ‘yeah i know these girls..so better be good and say hi’

Yesterday was the schools first academic council meeting those are the meeting in which you can complain loads about teachers and the school but no one does that cause the blame would come on you and well i was chosen along with a super smart guy of my class..he looks a bit like jerry from tom and jerry. we arrived a bit early and there was a bit of time left(or we can say our principal arrived a bit late-that bastard! always arrives late and i could not take a last round in the corridor to see my babe-not really my babe he is..)

when i arrived i saw that Yan was also there..our periodic test had just gotten over  and we were as  usual roaming the corridor when i saw Yan,Iomhara said hi to him and he returned it back but when i did,i dunno if it was the hustle bustle in the background or something but he did not notice me.. i felt kinda bad tbh..anyway during this council meeting i was hoping that footballer would represent his class but no! rather a guy who had his face shape showed up! no literally! first of all i am with all the people who just want to complain and then i need to put on my collar button see that my hair look neat and sit up straight because i am sitting in front of the principal,the vice principal,the coordinator and all the head teachers and then this footballer does not show up! anyway i told you before that Teddy Bear is the head boy so automatically he was in the meeting jotting down points next to the pretty head girl and he is so cute! a cutie literally that was the only entertainment for me! though i think he noticed me and then was like ‘this stalker girl! how can she be in this council! i dont think so  she is that good in her studies all she does is crack jokes with that girl group of hers’

and i can tell he and Yan both were dead surprised to see me there. well when my class teacher Eela told me that she had given my name for that i was too,cause i dont come sincere and studious on the first glance..atleast i dont think so i do..

anyway after all those stupid little complaints from people, a guy from 12th grade (the same year as teddy bear) came up he is the academic prefect and gave an awesome speech! like seriously dude you rock!..he was giving us tips on how to study for competitive exams.you know this guy he came 7th out of 5000 people! that too in a really tough exam! and he was keep saying that seniors should be more approachable,juniors should try to seek help from them and all i really liked this point-not with the academic meaning(know what i mean,if you don’t i make it simple for you-footballer is my senior!!!,,so i was thinking about him!) anyway the speech was so awesome! ..man so so so flattered i was!..

anyway his speech ended and then we were allowed to disperse,when i was going towards the exit and looking here and there i caught Yan’s eye and guess what? he smiled,i did not even say hi or make the first move! he genuinely smiled!!! god! if i am able to make friends with him maybe i can set things up for aki!!

and right now i am really irritated on teddy bear like seriously dude! just stop noticing me! i know you do! i feel the awkwardness!

after the meeting when we were dispersing,Iomhara and me were going down the stairs and i saw Teddy Bear talking with the head girl,they are always talking to each other..don’t tell anyone but i kinda ship them

and i can swear in front of the ministry of magic that i saw his eyes flick towards me and then back to he girl!..its bloddy awkward you know!

so thats pretty much and also the gorrila guy sid on which aura had a crush on..aura got over him! like i am so happy!!

and after sometime that animal got in a relationship with a  girl named Ifa. this sid guy is always irritated,irritated by anything..he can even be irritated if you breathe! i wont be surprised if he is irritated by his own breathing..its kind of funny to see him like that!..me and Iomhara like to irritate him! especially me !

So guys-actually i was planning to write on how my day went but i was practically writing this whole day,not this post but setting  up the account and all and i am pretty slow at things so yeah!..anyway this is pretty much about whats going on in my life right now..i will tell you about my summer vacations in a different posts,but for the time being lets keep it this much!

LaraAngel