#Idk I might be sleep deprived but

[chaserofstarsandtheabyss]

Debating adding “in support of violent kinks” to my bio because I broke my “just block and move on” policy on one silly goofy post and got an absolute gem of a reply

[bigbarabelly]

Not home but something familiar

[altcvnningham]

adler can’t stop holding bell’s face when he kisses them.

and not gently, either, not the caress of a flower petal, delicate and sweet- bell’s barely a rose if not for all their thorns, and he wrings a hand round their jaw like one might wrench out a weed. rid and tossed to the dirt with all the rest. with all the red. with all that makes them wrong. with everything that came before.

if he can’t muzzle his dog, who can?

he bends their head upward in the interrogation chair, thumb dug into their cheek, squeezing the blood from their mouth into a sanguine rivulet between the web of his fingers; he jerks bell’s face toward the evidence board when their empty eyes fix on him a moment too long, enough to unsettle him; he stamps their chin under a hard thumb when he turns them to the light, soft pupils blown wide as he watches the sweet drug take hold; he digs his fingers into their jaw when they bark too loud at their duly master, shaking sense into his dumb mutt’s whistling hole of a head.

when he deigns to let them go, he makes a point to tear his hand away, sharp and spiteful, so even with the sting they still manage to find suffering in the loss. to yearn for the hand they bit back.

so the rest comes violent, too. the rest comes hungry. the rest comes when he wants it, and he wants bell, with such a blind fervour it drives him mad. where better men might leave, kick their losses to the curb and go elsewhere to get their fill, adler digs his heels deeper in the mud, the dirt where he buries all that red he carved out of them. if it’s tenderness he wants, he can take it for himself, and leave them with the hurt. it isn’t stooping to their level if he’s the one with the leash.

he kisses bell like he’s eating them from the inside. one hand squeezed tight around their flushed face, mouth forced open into an o-shaped pucker. he nicks their lip as smirking proof of his callousness, snags it on his sharpest canine. a peck that mocks affection. licks his way inside their mouth like it’s a threat, a proclamation. you let me do this to you. you let me in, bell. let me in, let me in. such a good dog when they do, loll their tongue out pathetic and starving. he drives his thumb inside, hot, wet, forces their mouth open by the hinge of their stiffened jaw- the last laughable vestiges of their reluctance, crumbling into dust fine enough to sift like sand between his fingers. guess science still has its limits, but so do you.

when he’s worked bell’s mouth nice and wide, he flattens their tongue with a thick finger, face clamped between the rest, and while they’re just about learning to make peace with it all- the humiliation, the degradation, submission made sanctification through the eager expectation of praise- he spits inside, and makes them swallow.

[batw1nk]

started fucking myself w 1 vibe on my dick n 1 in my cunt but i realized partway through that i didn’t close my curtains all the way so if someone was at justtttttttt the right spot they could totally see me from the roof next door and yall. smth abt that rlly triggered the exhibitionist in me bc instead of getting up 2 close them all the way i started fucking myself so hard. just thinking abt someone walking by n doing a double take while my fingers r shoving in n out of my cunt. i easily got 4 fingers inside me n usually i can’t do more than 2 when im alone. kept thinking abt them getting hard from watching me and subtly sliding a hand underneath their waistband as my moans were just barely loud enough 2 hear from the other roof. i can usually stay quiet when im getting myself off but the sounds i was making were completely involuntary. i’m not even high this time.

[crows-king]

I've been thinking a bit about how Galinda and Fiyero work as foils(?), and the contrast between their goals, personality, and their relationship to social influence individually change how they navigate their specific social situations.

And why it puzzles me when people judgmentally compare them and what they'd do in "What-If" scenarios as a gotcha to make one seem better/worst. Because in my mind they are similar but not comparable, because they fundamentally have very different personal stakes.

Primarily because of the difference in how they act in an Active (Galinda) vs Passive (Fiyero) approach to social engineering. And also, because one of them in writing is more developed as an individual than the other.

I'LL MOSTLY BE TALKING ABOUT: WICKED MOVIE - PART 1

Galinda is inherently Active. She has wants and desires that she's driven to achieve, and so actively plays the part of the good socialite because it will help her become more popular and to eventually become "Galinda the GoodSorceress". "It's not about aptitude, it's about the way you're viewed", and so on. It’s the one thing she knows she’s good at.

Of course, she also likes the attention and validation, but her charms doesn't come as naturally as she wants others, and probably herself, to believe. (I love that quote Ariana said somewhere about how "Galinda sees herself as a graceful swan, when she's actually a very stiff, but still beautiful swan", or something of that sort). She's insecure that she’ll lose people's favour and thus her most important asset, so she continually appeals to them. It's an act that she simultaneously enjoys doing for the most part, but also traps her from ever being truly close to anybody for fear of being known and not meeting expectations and losing that adoration. Until Elphaba that is.

Because of her drive to fulfill her dreams and to keep her best asset, and personal desperate need for validation, she has a much more obvious internal conflicts when she has to choose between Elphaba/the moral good vs keeping with the good graces of authority and/or the public. She's more prone to being influenced by others, and many of her choices become a calculated risk. She’s often times selfish and chooses her own desires, but it’s what makes her such an interesting and very human character. The struggle she balances when she’s forced to choose for better or worse.

In contrast

Fiyero is Passive. Dancing Through Life is literally him telling others that being lazy and not thinking is the best way to cope and enjoy life by ignoring problems. He is discontent with his life, but doesn't really acknowledge it until Elphaba reads him. Much like Galinda he is also playing a part, but it's not as tightly controlled as Galinda because he doesn't have an end goal for it.

Of course, while he probably doesn't want to lose his princely privileges. His passive "brainless" approach doesn't really put him in risky situations that would put him in conflict leading to losing things he cares about, because he really doesn't have a lot to lose. (Which is a byproduct of the fact he is primarily written as a love interest side character without much of an arc or motives outside his love triangle relationship to Elphaba and Galinda).

What confounds me is when people compare them and judge what their choices would be in if they were placed in pivotal moments, because we never really see them in situations with similar stakes.

For example, the Lion Cub scene. Most people interpret this scene as an act of braverism and heroics by Fiyero. And in some part it is, he's spurred on to save the cub, and he and Elphaba do. But it's telling that he only does this after everyone is asleep and there are virtually no risks. Any present social or physical conflicts that could arise? POOF! Gone. The worst that could probably be done to them is being punished, or even kicked out, if they’re discovered afterwards. Which Fiyero is not new to and doesn't really care about, and while maybe uncertain for Elphaba, is also unlikely because she's Morrible's irreplaceable pupil.

Some people use this scene as evidence that under his facade, Fiyero is secretly valiant like Elphaba thinks so. But I think in actuality tells the opposite. It reveals that Fiyero does care about the Animals, yes. But, the fact he only acts when prompted and there are no longer any present risks initially makes him seem less brave than Elphaba, and even Galinda. Because it contrasts with the Ozdust dance scene between the girls. Where Galinda had to make an active choice to do the risky and brave thing as an apology for hurting Elphaba, and offer to truly connect with her in front of everyone with the possibility of social out casting. She has an obvious internal conflict and risk assessment where she ends up picking the moral good over her personal comfort and social appeal. I'm genuinely curious on what kind of choices Elphaba, Galinda, and Fiyero might have done in that situation if they weren't given the perfect out by the magic poppies.

Would Galinda have helped in with the lion cub if she were awake? Probably, but who knows? Because in the narrative, Galinda isn't really put in a situation where she could choose good without being watched or without someone breathing down her neck. The prospect of being punished and kicked out from Shiz would also be most plausible and ruinous for Galinda. Morrible would definitely use it as an excuse to kick her out, or at the very least punish her, if she could, and it could throw away her only chance of achieving her dream of becoming a sorceress. She would have probably joined them in the end, though. If only to make sure they were safe. Compared to Fiyero, she has more conflicts of interests because she has personal aspirations and influence based on her reputation, and thus have more fears and consequences to consider in losing it.

Would Fiyero have joined Elphaba on the broom? Maybe, mostly likely. Because narratively, he’s never given a reason why he shouldn’t. He doesn’t see his worth and his skills intrinsically tied to public influence and opinion. He doesn’t have any wants or wishes he would have to abandon. He’ll have to leave his friends and family, but it’s not shown how close they really are to him outside Feldspar, his Horse friend, and he’s probably joining them anyway. He’s definitely more equipped to survive on the run compared to Glinda. Unlike Glinda, who is proven right in the end to being most useful when she can wield her powerful social influence For Good, Fiyero would probably be most useful as a sidekick to Elphaba. He was always written to be Elphaba’s follower, it’s no surprise. It’s also easier to take risks when you don’t have much to lose. But I think most people would agree that would make a less interesting story.

[ldpdluvr]

one night, freshly turned louis feeds from lestat and he drinks so much that lestat carefully cradles his head in both of his big palms and gently pulls him away from his neck "mon cher, i have no more to give", he doesn't want to stop him but he's feeling faint and hungry again "I will go feed and come back home to you, saint louis"

in response louis looks up at him with big round eyes that hold so much hurt in them, lestat said he would take care of him, so why is he stopping him from feeding from him? he promised that he would give him the world so why can't he give him this? and now he wants to leave louis alone to go hunt..?

lestat obviously isn't privy to louis' thoughts anymore but he can see the glassiness that covers his eyes, he can see the sad frown on his face, he notices the way louis is looking at him but not really seeing him and decides that he won't can't leave him alone in this state

so he gathers louis further into his arms, pulls him onto his lap and holds him throughout the rest of the night, occasionally rubbing a hand down his back as if he's comforting a frightened puppy, and peppers kisses on his forehead, nose and cheeks because louis' makes a cute lil sound every single time that he does

When louis eventually comes back to himself he's a bit embarrassed by his actions and tries to pull away but lestat doesn't let him ofc, he holds him tighter and tells louis how sweet he was for him "louis you never told me just how much you liked my blood" he says, his smile evident in his voice

by the time sunrise comes, they have made their way to the coffin and louis is snuggled up to lestat with his face once again in his neck (this is louis comfort place), lestat has his arms wrapped tightly around him and just like that, completely surrounded by each other they fall into a deep sleep.

[lovedeluxelove]

because i can never just leave an idea alone. here is camboy! jayvik au inspired by my post

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‘Thank you sooo much for a million guys! Never thought we would hit it so fast :) As a special thank you, I’ve decided I’m gonna do any request (within reason) for my next video. Comment below what you guys wanna see me do, and most popular request gets done! If there’s a collab you guys want, a toy you wanna see, or just anything, I’ll do my best to make it happen. Thank you guys so much again!’ 

Jayce took a deep breath and opened the comment section of his post. It had been a week since he sent it out, long enough for a popular response to emerge, but he was sure he already knew what would be at the top. 

He had half expected, when sending this out—half dreaded and half hoped, maybe—that most people were gonna ask that he collab with Mel again. It had been a long while, and though they said they’d remain friends and keep things professional, working together since their breakup was… awkward, to say the least. It didn’t help matter that whenever chat brought her up during any live events, he squirmed in his seat and changed the topic. His chat always did like to see him flustered. But he could never let down the people who had changed his life so much, so he would muster up all the courage he had to reach out to Mel if a collab was what his chat wanted.

What actually ended up happening was something Jayce couldn’t have expected at all. Someone had posted a comment earlier on in the week, probably as a joke saying ‘haha i’d like to see golden boy try to handle somebody like @ machineherald’ and suddenly, the comment caught like wildfire. It was everywhere and everything people were commenting all of a sudden, to the point where people were already making memes about how Jayce was gonna lose his mind working with him. Jayce hardly had to look far to tell that this had indeed become the most popular request by far, and in resignation, decided to pull up this ‘machine herald’s page to see just what he was in for.

Jayce considered himself relatively professional. After two years working as a camboy now, he felt pretty secure in his ability to handle most things he encountered now, compared to the squirmy, shy boy he was when he started. To be fair, Mel deserved most of the credit for that. Mel was another, incredibly popular online personality who had taken him under his wing when he first started, most of his original supporters being her fans who took an interest in him. She added a softness to his online character that drew in a lot more feminine fans for him and he added a masculine edge that drew a lot of his male fans to her as well. It was mutually beneficial, and when they started dating, a lot of people saw it as perfect, looking forward to their couple collabs and cute interactions on each other’s posts. 

A lot of people would make the argument that their content was ‘tame’, but Jayce found no fault in being a perfect standard. It worked for him, and he never felt like he needed to stray outside of that. He had a loyal fanbase of people who liked his usual content, and it made him enough money to support his living. Trying to get your master’s degree was expensive and the research he was conducting even more so.

That being said, Jayce didn’t get flustered by much anymore, and his fanbase had clearly enjoyed teasing him with whatever could still get him to blush. 

That has to be the reason why they’d recommend a page like this.  

Jayce scrolled through the page of the Machine Herald, a man who, like his title boasted, seemed to specialize in all kinds of devices. His pinned video was him using a sybian and Jayce had slammed his laptop shut in shock before he’d even fully processed it. He closed his eyes, trying to relax. He was an adult man, he made content like this himself, for crying out loud. Well, he amended, he didn’t make any content like this. He tried to relax, steeling himself as he opened his laptop back up and continued to scroll down the man’s page. Jayce briefly remembers the time Mel brought up butt plugs and Jayce blanched, firmly denying the request. As Jayce scrolled past a video of the man using a device he called a ‘fuck machine’, he couldn’t help but feel as his response to butt plugs was an overreaction. 

His fans wanted him to collab with this guy?

He continued scrolling, starting to feel a bit dizzy. Jayce gulped and looked down at his lap, realizing, oh, he was more interested in this than he thought he’d be. He looked back up at the screen at a suggestive photo of the Machine Herald’s stomach that he had posted between videos, something visible under his skin, distending his belly slightly, with a caption reading ‘guess what toy this is’. Jayce shuddered out a breath and very impressively ignored how hard his dick was getting. It didn’t help that this man was so… attractive. 

He kept his face mostly out of frame, though he didn’t hide it either, sometimes ducking into frame to comment on all his favorite qualities of whatever toy he was using. But more often than not, just the bottom half of his face would be in frame, his plush looking lips opening around a moan, or squishing around the bite of this teeth, or warping around the girth of a toy and—Jayce closed his laptop again, trying to collect his thoughts. He needed to focus. He couldn’t just scroll this man’s page forever, he was—he was doing research! Yes. Research. He should be looking at this man’s collabs, not his solo content. He opened his laptop again, redirecting around his page. He just needed to see if the way this man worked with others was able to mesh with his style. 

The Machine Herald was on the same platform Jayce was, more niche content with less followers at around 500k, but a no less dedicated fanbase. In fact, it seemed like most of the equipment the Herald worked with was fan bought or sponsored. Jayce scrolled onto a video of the Herald standing over a large man strapped down into a chair with leather binds and a gag, dragging a vibrating toy in his hand over the man’s nipples, making him arch in the chair. 

Yep, Jayce could work with that.  

Jayce opened his page back up, navigating to the messaging tab and opening up a conversation with the Machine Herald. 

‘Hi! Some of my followers have brought my attention to your work,’ Jayce typed casually like he hadn’t acquainted himself with the Herald’s work very well within the last hour. ‘I promised them i’d do any of their special requests and they seem to like the idea of us collabing together. Would you be open to that?’   

He waited for a response. While idly browsing his page, of course. Jayce had lost track of time by the time the Herald responded, startled back into reality by the ‘ding!’ of a notification received.

‘You’re cute. Sure’ the Herald had replied.

Jayce had a feeling he was in over his head. He found he didn’t really care.

[lorkai]

Concept I have to post before I feel asleep: NRC hosts a Parents' Day for the students' parents to visit their children and everyone is having a relatively fun day with their siblings, every but you. And so you hid yourself in the only place that nobody has a reason to go; Ramshackle. Thing is there's someone else who also has the same line of thought. Leona Kingscholar.

Leona, who is always second to Farena. Always the second prince, never just Leona. Leona, who efforts doesn't mean anything and nobody really tried to understand him, this Leona, who despite being smug and sarcastic all the time, doesn't want to meet his family.

And you both have an interesting chatting while drinking (whatever you want really but I just got back from my cousin's marriage and wine is a really good choice). By the end of the night you may have found you a new bestie or lovers, or whatever you want y'all to be, he feels seen by you and you have someone you can confide in on your darkest hours. This arrangement couldn't be better for the both of you.

[nanaken330]

(hands shaking) motivate me to finish this WIP pls, DO I CONTINUE THIS OR NOT

*also pls follow me on twitter cuz its so quiet in there my acc is basically a graveyard;;;

*I made this with fem!Oc in mind who's also somewhat related to Gojo so yeah, another white haired girlie with blue eyes BUT MUCH CALMER THAN THAT MENACE (affectionate)

[ij16]

I need to design my Iliad people, and I need help

Odysseus: I have a design, bro looks like he hates me, but oh well

(My Iliad Ody design is different from my EPIC design because they gave different vibes)

Agamenon: Some ideas, I kinda see him as a brunette?

Menelaus: Redhead, I have a young Menelaus design, not older Menelaus tho

Diomedes: I have no clue, but I need him to be my coolest looking design for some reason

Achilles: I don't know, blonde guy? That's basically what pops up in brain

Patroclus: Idea- inspiration from @justvea18 's Patroclus, but maybe with a ponytail or long hair?

I think I might be taking the term "long haired Achaeans" a little too literally? All of the people listed above have somewhat long hair for my designs

This is what I have so far :/

[why-the-heck-not]

truly my best brain time is in the middle of the night caffeine & sugar rush. I think I just understood math, like some part of the general pattern of math if that makes sense. something clicked somewhere in my brain and I felt it

[m0thlegs]

maybe the real Viktor arcane season 2 character arc were the friends we made along the way

[thatdiabolicalfeminist]

Humans are very much a social species. We look to each other without even always noticing, for cues about how to interpret the world around us.

Unfortunately this often leads to people thinking stuff just isn't that serious because if it were, the people around me would be taking it seriously!

But the people around you do not always have the best view of the situation, and they can be wrong.

Some things you have to decide for yourself whether they're worth being concerned about, or worth acting on.

[disastrousduckss]

FCK IT ONCE AGAIN, I CAN'T- DROPPING THESE HERE SNSNSNSNSMSK

[moodyseal]

I got too deep into the Schema Theory while writing the paper for one of my exams and it got me thinking about Apollo's coping mechanisms yk

Basically the gist of this theory is that, in the eventuality that their primary needs are not satisfied during their formative years, a child might develop a bunch of different behavioural schemes in their adult life (which are too many to be listed here oh my god) that are a direct reflection of how the parent failed them during childhood

For example, one of these schemes is emotional deprivation, which is a person's tendency to emotionally distance themselves from other people due to the fact that they believe they won't be able to comfort them, and it's a scheme that's formed due to the guardian not satisfying the child's emotional needs. Basically it's formed through a "If my parent couldn't do it, then how could others?" sort of mentality

Another one, which I believe is very relevant here, is the sense of failure, which originates due to the guardian's immensely overbearing nature and the continuous dissatisfaction with the child's efforts. As an adult, the child in question believes that they're inept at everything, even if evidence points to the contrary, because of the fundamental belief that they hold that they're a failure

(Does it remind you of anyone?)

Now, these schemes tend to go hand in hand with modes, which are essentially coping mechanisms that the person uses to deal with whatever life throws at them and whatever negative emotion these schemes bring on. One of these modes is the *squints* scheme overcompensation? Anyway what it says on the article I got the info from is that basically people who use this coping mechanism tend to do the opposite of what their behavioural scheme tells them to do. If they're ashamed, they put down others. If they feel like a failure, they boast. (Again. Who does this sound like.)

AT FIRST it seems like a good coping mechanism but it's actually not, because the overcompensation leads to this vicious cycle where the more a person overcompensates, the more the scheme worsens. In Apollo's case, the scheme we're examining here is his sense of failure; in his overcompensation mode, to avoid feeling incompetent he tries to constantly put himself in the spotlight, drawing attention to his talents. However, he does it in such a ridiculous way (perhaps actually in some form of self-sabotage?) that the people around him insult those talents, call him a failure, and thus worsen his feeling of worthlessness.

(This might be tied to the punitive scheme as well, maybe? Considering how keen Zeus was on punishment, Apollo might've developed this scheme as a result, though over the centuries it could've shifted its focus from everyone to just him idk. The change between "I'm punishing everything and everyone for being so stupid, even my own son + this Ptolemaic god who breathed wrong in my direction" to "Actually I'm chill" seems pretty suspicious to me tbh)

ANYWAY all of this is to say that everything he does is so intrinsically tied to the damage Zeus did to him that it hurts. All his behaviours all his coping mechanisms. Everything

The arrogance is not just a façade he built over the years to hide his feeling of unhappiness and guilt!! It's quite literally an abuse response!!!!

And yeah maybe Leto was the one who spent the most time with him and Artemis and who took the most care of them so technically she should be considered his figure of attachment instead of Zeus but then again. How much time did Apollo spend beside her compared to the time he spent at Zeus' side, after the twins became Olympians? What do a few moments with her in a year do against entire centuries with him?

Leto's influence never really mattered. He was doomed since the beginning

[puppetmaster13u]

I just wanted to draw Batgirl Barbara with some Oracle vibes, like an inbetween stage of sorts.

Au is by @phoenixcatch7 and you need to check them out if you haven't <3