#ITS BEEN A YEARRRRR

[daily-tango-doodles]

Day 298: TODAY IS DAILY-TANGO-DOODLES BIRTHDAY >:D 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

[miyku]

[elegyofthemoon]

also did i say i wanted to change my name on main? bc i want to change my name on main --

[roboraindrop]

My brain before going to bed: Grima Grima Grima Grima Grima Grima Grima Grima--

My brain while I'm asleep: .... Fonzie? Fonzie time? Time for the Fonz?

[plasticsandwich]

FINISIHHEDDDDDDDDD ALL MY REPORTS AND ASSIGNMENTS

[mothusband]

haaaate questioning my identity i KNOW labels dont matter and i can do anything i want forever but also i need a neat little box to fit into and not knowing if i can put myself in a certain box or not makes me want to explode

[jam-campasta]

theyre so shaped

saw the discourse about the 2024 cabaret tony performance online, wanted to learn about the context, realized Fegan Floop was on my screen /pos

[moonshynecybin]

expand on your marc/bezz thoughts please callie i want to hear everythinggggg

what a fucking. a/b/o ass podium. truly insane dynamics on display on all fronts UMMMM. so. the only. scenario where i can see anything like this happening in marc’s crazy little hot girl mind. is if he is triangulating his desire for vale through his little protege. like the thesis of this is. alpha bezz juuuuuuust understanding his sexuality here confronted with. the wettest happiest neediest omega the world has ever seen. anyways under the cut she got. LONG ♥️

so. BASICALLY. in my mind palace marc was on heat suppressants off the shits for yearrrrrs until his arm kind of made him go cold turkey because they interfered with his pain meds (giving up control over his heats ANOTHER thing marc hates so bad about it all) and vale shows up in the paddock for the first time since marc left the murderbike to a place where marc is FINALLYYYY catching a whiff of happiness after four miserable years (portimao alsooooo compelling, but marc is now like, EYE think a lot less anxious on the bike) and marc’s biological clock decides he’s safe, realizes his alpha is in proximity (wind changes and his knees feel like jelly), and goes off like five alarm claxon sirens like YOUR DICK APPOINTMENT HAS ARRIVEDDDD. truly marc smells insane he LOOKS insane the wet patches on the racetrack on saturday where allegedly from rain but NEVER rule out that they were actually a result of marc marquez’s wap

but despite every alpha in the paddock being like IS THAT ALLOWED?? marc is like. he is stillllll learning to respect his body still yearning to put everything on the line for another taste of that top step JUST got to a place where he feels like hes adapting to the bike and gaining confidence. he literally got POLE in the SPANISHHH GRAND PRIX, thats an insane carrot on a stick for our little guy who is so wrong in the head <3 and marc has always been a guy who needs to contextualize his suffering as a narrative arc to cope with it all so hes veryyyyyy aware of the sway a weekend like this can have in terms of his confidence! AND his career! and when he crashes in the sprint he looks at his hands and SERIOUSLY considers not going for it (allllll of the injury stuff. again it’s JEREZ. and the body keeps the SCORE !!) but it’s marc and its spainnnnnn, so he spends the night before the race going through his first heat since he was 15 ALONE and feeling absolutely out of his fucking MIND. (valentino rossi inside the same square mile or so as him and he wants to pick up the phone and call him so bad he wants 2 CRY. three fingers deep in himself one of vale's hoodies from 2014 spread out on the bed and it’s not enoughhhh). but the night passes. and its sunday and he's not 100% out of it but! hes insane in the pussy and he actually feels a bit clearer. still smells crazy but less shaky and ALWAYS determined. so he races!!!

AND BEZZ. oh boy. synthesizing the thoughts of many scholars on this topic. bezz is somewhat newly single VERY newly aware of his sexuality AND the kind of alpha that sees a hot omega who is CLEARLY in heat without a partner and feels crazy. dogboy 9000%. what do you MEAN no one is taking care of him?? jennifer lawrence voice. what do you mean. what do you meannnnnn. a service top realizing no one is SERVICING marc and as such becoming wildly horny AND itchy under the collar without being able to name exactly why. base instincts are going CRAZY while pecco is politely ignoring it all.

so bez is out of his head but just barelyyyy realizing it. mostly just kind of knows that he wants marc 2 pay attention to him so bad. soso bad. clumsy a little embarrassing. truly WATCH the cooldown room video bezz is constantly asking marc little questions and touching him and trying to get him into the conversation (staring at marc waiting for him to talk and marc does not!) like bezz is going right through pecco (his homoerotic bestie of OUR fiance and straddling in parc ferme fame) to BLAST marc in the face on the podium. he is specifically going to HIM to clink champagne bottles. he is staring at marc in the press conference giving him the up and down like a horny psycho. he is complimenting his riding and licking his lips and touching marc's waist and tracing his lil finger over the part of marc that USED TO BE HURT with the careful tenderness of someone MUCH more familiar with marc than he is lmao. truly. cunt struck. scenting him off IMPOLITELY. friendship ENDED with heterosexuality marc marquez's ass is now my hypothetical best friend. if no one will top him then EYE WILL. behavior!!!

but marc is ATTEMPTING to nobly IGNORE this... aware he's in heat (its burned off a bit, for the time being, after the adrenaline of the race... mellowed out to edgy horniness...) and aware bezz is an alpha and he can SMELL how interested he is and. well the attention is interesting and feels good and the base part of his stomach that likes feeling hot enjoys the way bezz smell is tugging at him BUTTT he's taken!! like not really but he ISSSSS!! so hes ignoring bezz keeping his eyes determinedly on that screen watching the overtake he tried on pecco... but the paddock is tiny and after the race marc decides to go out and celebrate and. hes horny and happy and a lil bit keyed up from vale being there and. as fate would have it. he lands at the same bar that the academy crew is rolling at. and bezz is there and. he comes up to marc. and sort of. clumsily tries to talk to him. buy him a drink. and hes young and hes charming and marc is going to cut him loose as gracefully as he can and fuck off to ride out the rest of his heat in peace but. bezz cracks a joke in his lilting italian accent (marc has a FETISHHH) and marc barks out a jajajaja cackle before he can help it (everyone. says one of the ways bezz is most like vale is his HUMORRR)... and marc is DRUNK and bezz is SWEET and TOUCHING HIM and he smells GOOD and also. when marc closes his eyes he can catch a whiff of VALE on bezz's SKIN... and it curls into his chest and makes something in his heat addled brain settle in a way he's been craving all weekend... lighting him up and holding him down in a way that clutching onto that hoody that doesnt smell like vale anymore three fingers deep in himself didnt... and its justtttt enough to let bezz take him home....

[gayrika]

UGH its so dumb that splatoon 3 has almost been out for a yearrrrr and i havent even gotten 10 golden scales

[losergirlfaye]

Thinking about you - Faye Webster

I NEED TO TELL THIS TO SOMEONE OMG,

lately, well it was around the second week of December to be exact, my close friend sent a 'heyyy Faye : smirk:' and that was so sus and sent another one later but now with a screenshot of a photo of me and someone responding to that photo with 'omg crushie'. obviously wth???? In what day and age would any of her friends like me??? She's the type to be with really cool, smart, and popular people. omg, which one of her friends like me??? I could think of two people, the first being someone taken, and the latter a really cool guy with a past relationship with a goddess. AND LIKE woah, no way cool guy would like me...

THE FOLLOWING DAY HE FOLLOWS ME ON INSTAGRAM. which in all honesty raises my suspicion of him to the highest suspect, because??? why now of all time omg. Days go by with no thought about it because who needs to think about that when you're praying animal crossing!!!

Then I and my friends went out for coffee since it was December and we hadn't hung out in a yearrrrr, we went out and chatted, and then the topic of my admirer came up, omg this was so nerve-racking because I felt like I know who it is, but I don't want to come as too excited!!!!! My other friend, who had no clue who it was started guessing people like crazyyyy, he even mentioned cool guy but said something about being gay or smth idk, and brushed him off! We hadn't hung out after that time because I kept flaking on them huhu/

The second semester started on the first day, I greeted my friend and her classmates one of my friends and cool guy's friend said 'Hey, greet him too' AND POINTED AND HIM OMG. At that point it was so obvious. ofc I consulted another friend of mine in my class and the first thing they asked me was 'Would you accept their confession' woah! crazy! idk if he actually likes me or not!!!

THEN BOOM another hang-out with friends, I actually made a point to show up since really, I've been flaking on them and I wanted to see them ofc. When me and my friend were alone together she came out to me and said, 'apperently he doesn't like you anymore, so I'm going to say who it is' AND REVEALED WHO IT WAS and the reason he didn't like me was because his grandparents didn't like my dad?? my dads well know, but like?? why would he grandparents know about me??? wth!!

thought about it long and hard, still thinking about it, like the hangout literally happened 3 weeks ago AND I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT!!!

recently we had lunch together - my friends, and he was there to drive us!! omg he sat in front of me and like honestly idk. He also chatted to me about how our parents know each other since his dad and my dad went to the same school, like woah such a small world, but like wth!!! didn't you allegedly say your grandparents don't like my dad, BUT ALSO his father made a point to meet with my dad during his first year in my school!! woah.... okayyyy....

still thinking about it :/// honestly I should give background, I first saw cool guy during our department acquaintance party, he sat with my friend since they were close and honesty to God my first thoughts about him were "Woah he's so cool, I wonder if I could make him like me" Like I was crazyyyy my gosh and he's been at the back of my mind since then, I don't mind him, I think I mind myself more, Hes really cool and really normal, a good student, christ-loving and a decent person. which!!! like I'm not any of those wth! at least I know I'm pretty but with a rotten personality and crazy interest... sometimes I wish I was normal so that maybe I would be right for him...

butttt, I should honestly let go, its been like weeks, and nothing really has happened, but I don't think I can stop thinking about it lol, it would be at the back of my mind as a 'what if' moment, even as a friend I think I would be content haha!!!

thats like, is the reason I made this blog here, its nice to write and reflect on shit.

[jiafeick-merriproduct]

Hello! This is heart anon.

I hope you’re doing well! Please make sure that you take care of yourself; drink water and eat something good for you and all that!

Thank you for reading,

-❤️anon

OMG HIIII HEART ANON!!!! ITS BEEN SO LONG SINCE IVE USED TUMBLR BC OF SOPHOMORE YEARRRRR AND TYSMMMM :D

Made it out alive with all A's and one C in precalc... I HATE PRECALC SO MUCH IT MADE ME HATE MATH EVEN MORE 😭😭 i was good at math but then school said "hell naw" SO THIS MADE MY DAY :D

[lynksease]

I’ve been having relapse dreams all yearrrrr it sucks I think it’s because I have two significant life events happening rn that are stressing me out quite a bit. it was my 3 year anniversary in January too which is actually Insaneeeee because for most of my life my first reaction to any external pains has been to harm myself 😭😭😭 its not like I’ve been 100% Free of self harm either just my method of choice . but thats still very wild to me. anyways I have 5 more weeks of school and then I can have a break from the stressful stuff. yeah

[zreamy]

life has been lifing tbh 😭 I am on winter break rn so it's calm enough but I start uni next week which honestly I am dreadingggg I wish it were longer 😞😞😞😞

BUT IM IN SEM 2 NOW?!? ITS CRAZY TO THINK I WAS TELLING U ABOUT UNI ADMISSIONS AND NOW SEM 2 IS ALR NEAR 😞😞

And also I promised myself I'd write this break but I barely wrote anything or finished any wips 😭 Idk I have been feeling unmotivated to write but I'll be trying to put out some things before I drown in uni work 😞😞 pray for me 🙏😞

hoping everything goes well for you though and sorry for popping up after so long, need to catch up on ur fics as welllll 🙏<3

— 🐳

hello 🐳 happy new yearrrrr 🥳‼️ omg how has your winter break been, did you get up to anything nice? i took so long on this omds ur going back like .. soon SORRY 😖

SEM 2??? time genuinely moves so fast like i remember talking about ur admissions holy shit...... BUT CONGRATS ON GETTING THROUGH SEM 1 💪‼️🥇

hopefully crazy inspo will strike and you'll be in the mood to write soon !!! but also hopefully it strikes before you have to prep for assignments and exams and stuff oh my days.. thoughts and prayers, 🐳, thoughts and prayers !!!

im doing.. okay.. things will work out and i'll be good, they must .. THANK U FOR CHECKING IN I APPRECIATE IT AND ENJOY THE FICS WHENEVER U HAVE TIME !!! good luck for sem 2 u got this 😎🫂

[ankaaz]

el!!!!💌

long time no tumblr how are you???? just checking in on my faves :3

omfg GWEN!!!! HI HELLO!! it's been agessss, so good to hear from you :)

I've been doing really good! I can't remember the last time we talked (memory of a goldfish I apologize) but as far as life updates go here's the snapshots: got a Big Girl Job & enjoying it quite a bit, got a bf yeehaw (we've been going out for like 8 months now and it's still so weird to me lmao), got new rib tatts + my belly button pierced (10/10 recommend it's so fucking cute + self confidence 📈), been traveling a bit, been writing a contemporary novella (slow going but its getting somewhere!!), published my first research manuscript, chopped 15 inches off my hair (I haven't had short hair in yearrrrrs but im vibing hard w/ it), lots of reading (ofc), and signed up for my first half marathon!

but that's enough about me, how are you?? what have you been up to? also happy (early) birthday!!! do you have any fun plans for it?? sending love & good vibes your way!!!

[attex]

ITS BEEN A FUCKING YEARRRRR

i should put myself through torture again and make the third version of my canon iterator puppet designs lineup

[3416]

You’ve mentioned that you find the leafs specifically have a narrative. Could you expand on that?

sorry, this got kind of lonG BUT !!!! THERE IS SO MUCH TO THE LEAFS INDIVIDUALLY AND AS A TEAM.. can’t summarize it all but enjoy a small rant below...

they’re kind of a perpetual underdog in a lot of ways, at least in recent history. every non-fan likes to clown on them for being unable to make it out of the first round of playoffs the past SIX YEARS in a row…like they’re a shoo-in for the actual spot and then… just can’t win a series of games to make it out of the first round. but at this point, it feels like SUCH a mental barrier for them. they have all this star power on their team (savior of the franchise boy from the desert first round first overall 2016 draft pick auston matthews…. magician home grown toronto boy first round 4th overall 2015 pick mitch marner……. first round 8th overall 2014 pick WILLY ((need i say more after his recent performances)) …… veteran captain first round first overall 2009 pick returning to his hometown team and betraying what was supposed to be his career-long position on the islanders for a chance at a cup at home and to play with some promising players john tavares… actually so many members of this team coming to toronto bc it’s dear to them.. some taking huge pay cuts just to be in toronto.. play for a historic team like the leafs with all this talent and promise and belief and fanfare) and everyone thinks they should be able to do it and they just haven’t yet. but it feels inevitable that they will have some playoff success and i want to be on the side of rooting for them when they do bc they’re genuinely just……….. good. and they deserve it big time. like, hockey is such a team sport in so many ways, and your star players can’t just carry everything in order to succeed, so the leafs have dealt with some changes and some tweaking and some not-so-good goaltending but… luck will be on their side eventually (this year, i believe it) and they WILLLLLL get what they deserve and have worked hard for. it literally feels like one of those sports movies when the person or team has to overcome so much that they go on their little redemption and success arc…. like you could make a movie out of the leafs journey… they jsut gotta get the cup first to fully accomplish the storyline.

and like.. not only that and each player’s individual journey to the team.. and the player/player and player/coach dynamics.. but also just. sheldon keefe as the coach… kyle dubas as gm… two men who have a history of trust and working together and succeeding in hockey… elevating themselves to the highest league and having this shared vision for how to operate a team. and it literally WORKS. like the toronto marlies (aka the ahl affiliate team) won the calder cup with them as coach and gm in 2018…. proof that their methods work at the level right below the nhl… it does not get more tried and tested than THAT..… SUCCESS IS SO POSSIBLE and the leafs demonstrate it during regular season time and time again. and sheldon keefe as the coach… following the firing of the old-school-hard-ass mike babcock who was extra tough on his players and employed questionable methods of coaching (don’t get me started on him and mitch…) and wanted this element of like.. inter-team competition almost….. such a stark contrast to keefe’s methods of accountability and belief in each other…. it’s just. POETIC is what it is. the leafs are such a TEAM. like they have fun out there and they enjoy each other and they respect their coach and have great relationships with management… and they manage to do all that in one of the worst media markets in sports ive ever seen like truly lfkldjsfkld toronto media is such a circus about them, like all sports, but the leafs have such solidarity when they talk to the media like… they just seemingly don’t let things get to them and they protect each other and don’t take shit and i just love it.

anyway. LKFJSDKL I HOPE THIS MADE ANY SENSE WHATSOEVER BUT LIKE. success is coming for them as long as they keep plugging along and getting better and more well-rounded. let’s fucking GO leafs.