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Wieiad

1/2 Matcha strawberry scone: 150c

Ghost energy drink: 10c

Apple: 90c

Salad with light Cesar dressing: 150c

Carrots: 40c

Goldfish: 140c

More salad: 150c

Chicken breast: 120c

Total: 900c

Gym: -350c

Total- 550c 🙂‍↕️🙏

Proud of myself today 😚😚

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damn, for some shi I think about all day and all night, I sure don't look like I actually care about it 😶

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im back

hi I haven't updated Tumblr for a bit bc I been depressed asl. I kinda deleted everyone off my Tumblr so there's only a few of u on here (I fw u heavy fr 🩷) Little rant so read if u want if not, goodluck today and remember that one unhealthy food doesn't ruin your day- don't binge. It doesn't have to be all or nothing!!

I've always struggled with consistency- I think I've always been a quitter. When things get hard, I give up. I get so defeated that as a whole I stop trying and even self sabotage. Part of it, for u guys who don't know- I was adopted as a baby from Korea. My parents are white Americans, and they kinda had these stereotypical strict expectations of what kind of child I should be. Smart, innocent, hard working, talented, athletic, and religious. When I turned out to have depression, anxiety, risk taking, impulsive behavior, low self esteem, and other co-occurring disorders they were in disbelief. They took the "tough love" approach trying to fix me. They'd say things like "Your pathetic. You aren't working hard enough. Were so disappointed in you. You never try your best. Your better than this. You're shameful. I didn't raise a quitter. Stop being so sensitive. Stop feeling sorry for yourself you're pathetic." I tried really hard to be perfect as a kid and as I always fell short and suffered with bullying for my weight and ethnicity, I felt I could never be good for anything at all. I stopped trying completely because I felt all I could do right is being a failure. It was easier to disappoint every time because I stopped caring about anything than it was to try my best and never be enough. Now, the habitual habits of laziness and low effort were ingrained in my everyday behavior the last roughly 8 years of my life. I've always wanted to loose fat, and be better than "average." I know I have the potential to be so beautiful and thin. But every time I tried I never stuck with it, and have just resented and hated myself for not changing despite thinking of a skinny body ever minute of the day for the last 8 years. Am I really that pathetic, I have no self control. But lingering on all the could haves and should haves wont do anything. I need to focus on making the change for myself NOW. and making that little girl proud.

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Just binged don’t hmu

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Raw honey and strawberries with tea 🍓☕️

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Isas blog 2025——————————

This is my progress of my 3D. If this content is triggering to you dni. I mainly will post Wieiad, random vents, workouts, recipes, etc. Always looking for moots to help motivate me (b0dy ch3cķs) tips, and advice, so if ur down dm me to add my other socials.

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HW: 169 lbs

LW: 145 lbs

SW: 164 lbs

CW: 156 lbs

GW1: 150 lbs

GW2:140 lbs

GW3: 130lbs

UGW: 120 lbs /54.4 kg

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get to know meee 🍰

I’ve struggled with b1ng3 and M1a for 5 years. Never really lost a substantial amount of weight. 17, almost 18, trying to reach my goals by the time I move out which is all very stressful. I’m 5’7, considered midsize, korean, American, and love the gym. I’m here to support anyone’s recovery, but I don’t like forcing recovery over anybody. I CHOOSE not to recover. I’ve been in EDP recovery, and I made the decision of staying the way I am. The tumblr community has honestly helped and motivated me on my wl journey. Although my page is mainly fitness and meal based, I also love art, baking and cooking, the gym, music, (mac miller, Lana del Rey, Bon Iver, phoebe bridgers, and a lot of oldies) soccer, skiing, fashion, photography, travel, hiking, makeup, 🍃, writing, and scrolling on tumblr for hours 😭