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killer-blowmybrain · 8 days ago

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GUYS OMG

I FINALLY

I FINALLY FOUND A NEW ART STYLE TO USE

AND OMG IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL AND

AND THE ART IS SO CRUNCHY AND THE COLORS TOO AND

AAAHEGRGRRGRGRGRW

I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF I CAN'T OH GOD 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

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starkawaiichan · 9 days ago

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YOU KNOW WHAT? SCREW IT! I'M CHANGING IT! THIS IS NOT GOING TO BE HER ALTERNATE OUTFIT. I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH WHY DO I LIKE THIS DESIGN??? I STILL LOVE IT I'M JUST GOING TO CHANGE THE STORY

Nova alternate outfit

I know it's not the most appropriate outfit in Japan but let me have this

Since her name means "beginning," it's kinda funny she has a skull as her... emoji? Pattern? Idk man. The skull just represents the "end", she also has a death sickle as a weapon for Irene sake!

I was going for the 2010s vibe, and then it kinda doesn't work out.

Unfiltered+No background

‼️DO NOT STEAL, RECOLOR, ADJUST, OR USE AS A FACE CLAIM‼️ I WILL BLOCK/REPORT YOU‼️DRAW YOURSELF FOR FUCK SAKE‼️

#help i didn't sleep at all #it's 5 am and I didn't even sleep #playing dandy world byw but that besides the point #my body is tired but my brain ang eyes aren't #fckin misspelling wtf #starkawaiichan rambles

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buttercupshands · 4 months ago

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I started drawing this next day after I finished Act 6

13 or so days and it's finished!

Main things are traditional and Loop's body was edited digitally after

Unedited it looks like this

I've been torn on how to do Loop's body for the entirety of lining, also

A bit sad the main lines are visible only as a wip, most of this thing is literally just a ton of sharp lines

I think it's also my first day of drawing, Loop is just a sketch here (feat. my leg)

I even finished the beans before it so they were a moral support, because if you let me things like this take a year

#fanart #my art #isat #isat fanart #in stars and time #isat loop #loop #traditional art #artists on tumblr #Phew #So anyway this was my way of figuring out my thoughts after finishing the game #I didn't even actually finish it with credits playing at that moment #This type of art is my therapy #And in a way literally how my personality works from big figures to small details of thinking about anything #It's really calming!#I won't tag paper figures but they're here #Like special guests #In any case the funniest thing was showing this to my English teacher and she was like 'wow this looks stressed' or something #Like she immediately looked at the lines and after I showed her my old Flowey drawing like this she was like #'oh it makes sense! This one looks calm but this one is clearly you not feeling good'#Because I was kinda #Like sitting there in the semi-park and feeling sick since morning before I started drawing this and slowly I got better #I already talked about this on my first 'big' isat thing - I needed to think a bit #And not think at the same time just literally letting myself sort stuff out #Like. I fell asleep at 6 am that day and woke up at 10 4 hours of sleep after playing full Act 5 and two hats stuff IS STRESSFUL #SUPER STRESSFUL! Like I felt like I was playing for 4 hours while sleeping #Anyway by the time I finished it aka today I'm feeling way better and I'm literally talking a walk right now #Touching grass as we speak #Anyway phew!#Now to that animatic that's plaguing my mind to draw it nowww

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icewindandboringhorror · 2 months ago

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Recent images I suppose ~

#First one is THE LONG series of GEESE that fly by!!! my aforementioned friends... Or I think I referenced them in tags of some post #days ago. and how I love watching them. See how many there are? And multiple of these will go by. It's like hundreds of them.#Then just the sky because I love the sky. My hair looking ridiculous as it always does when I brush it out of the four big braids I always #keep it in to keep it out of the way lol. I just find it silly how small it can be all braided up and then as soon as it is Released and #combed then it poofs into some sort of swamp dwelling wizard style.#Then... a daily word count... have been so busy the past week that I sadly haven't written much but I'm WORKING on it. Still on the blasted #'odd jobs' tasks sections which were SUPPOSED to be very quick and short. but.. alas.. Though I am on basically the last one. You go work #for one of the enchanting specialists in the city (very important in society since a majority of people cannot do that type of magic) and #basically he just works so much he has no time for a social life so he hires random people to sit with him in the afternoons doing menial #tasks. You show up thinking you'll help with some Important Job or something but hes just like 'no... peel this apple for me.. :)' lol #Edit note: arrgh just had to fish a slippery avocado pit out of a narrow garbage disposal drain with a chopstick. felt like some #sort of taskmaster challenge or something.. gods... I know some people just reach into them. I guess maybe #my hand would fit?? but... erm... scary. what about Sharp Things in there or something.. also Sludge of some sort perhaps.#ANWYAY.. interruption... I got up to go to the kitchen in the middle of typing my tags... lol..#Next image is SLEEPING boye.. And then PIGEONS!!!!!!!!!! my beloveds...#Oh then the giant evil hole in my bathroom ceiling which is STILL not fixed and the repair people still have to come back again.. BUT they #did have this terrible industrial dehumidifier thing they put in the bathroom and just left here for like 5 days and it was like a noisy #hairdryer going at all times and raised the heat in the bathroom from 65F to 76F in like two hours so.. I'm glad at least at their #last arrival they've finally taken it away.... the Noise Beast... silence in my house at last...#though I am still plagued by Mysterious Hole.. the plastic wrap rustles sometimes when I'm in there.... go away...#Ah. Then a delightful little lemon poppyseed muffin someone didn't want and then gave to me. Which was interesting since I haven't #had one in soooo long even though its like a very Classic Flavor.. I do quite like them though now that I've had one again. :0c #Lastly.. mushrooms. I think it's the mushroom season here. Everywhere you go outside there's some new manner of fungus #having popped up from nowhere. I like the variety of all their little shapes. These in particular have an interesting wispy curled layers #sort of look to them. Almost like a shaggy hairstyle that's curled up at the ends or something. They seem neat to draw perhaps.#Okay.. that is all.. I still have literally like 2 costumes and 12 outfits and I think 1 sculpture? to post.. but I am so busy this is #what I can manage for now I suppose lol... quick pictures that don't really take any sorting or cropping or editing lol #photo diary

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front-facing-pokemon · 2 years ago

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#mega swampert #NOW they're angry! what about? i dunno‚ but they're gonna tell you!#this mega is definitely *cool*—it actually introduces a significant difference. turns swampert into a big tank guy #which i think is badass‚ even if i wouldn't really take it over regular swampert‚ personally. it really changes the look and vibe #and i'm a bigger fan of the more lanky regular swampert‚ honestly #i'm running on three and a half hours of sleep i'm Desperately trying to come up with something interesting to say here #my bedroom has two big-ass windows in it that let in sunlight so it always wakes me up at like 9 AM sharp #and i went to bed at like 5 PM last night. didn't even fall asleep until like 6. so i'm a little bit wrecked this morning but y'know #this isn't the place to talk about that. this is a place to talk about mega swampert. and here that is!!!

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insufferablemod · 4 months ago

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#Ruining the semi normal sleep schedule I'd managed 2 keep going for like a week cus of paranoia 😎#This is ofcthe one time I'm like Actually fucking sleepy #I shocked myself earlier n am in a spiral about the whole “even a semi small shock can fuck up ur heart hours or days later” thing #Which idk if thats unreasonable paranoia or like normal n smart #The internet is 50/50 on it lol #Mom says im being paranoid. Called a like phone nurse about it who said it'd be smart 2 get it checked just 2 be safe #But it's late and doesn't feel serious enough for the er?#Also the er is hell. U just sit there for Hours waiting n then get looked at for 5 minutes told n2 wait even more n then told 2 just go hom #So I am just kinda... existing.. until stuff opens n I can hopefully see a doctor about it or something:)#And cus I was already feeling kinda sick Before the shock I can't be sure if I actually have any symptoms of something worrying #AAAAND my anxiety about the whole thing is making me over analyze every heartbeat or muscle twitch #N tricking my brain into believing shit that's not real #I wanna nap so bad but my brain won't let meee #Ok ramble is done... I just needed 2 get this out of my system somewhere...#Can u believe I use 2 think I didn't have anxiety?? I was all Oh yeah I'm Super chill 😎 while sirens played in my head 24/7 #rambles

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seaofreverie · 22 days ago

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In the middle of writing important things

#i'm almost done with writing this yes it's going to end up 20 pages long there's nothing i can do about it #also i'm not actually going to transcribe song lyrics in this i don't even know ehy i wrote these down #i might have spent the last about 6 hours mostly sitting at the laptop motionlessly and trying to think and typing at record speed #so my cognitive skills might be temporarily completely unavailable at this moment #going to sleep past 4 am and having 5 hours of sleep today probably didn't help #and i was already doing so good at finally improving my fucked sleep schedule well rip #doing it all at once and nothing else might be the only way i can ever manage to finish anything ever unfortunately #goosepost

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taruruchi · 2 months ago

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I'm afraid prime yapping time for me is beyond 12 am 😭😭 Sorry to followers who are awake during the hours I'm most alive bc once I start yapping I cannot seem to stop

#I don't even feel sleepy that's the issue #I didn't even take a nap or anything today??#I mean. I woke up almost at 11 am but wtv #... WAITTTT #DOES THAT MEAN I GOT MORE THAN 8 HRS OF SLEEP?????#OMG... FOR THE FIRST TIME I FOREVERRRR #GUYS THIS IS A BIG ACHIEVEMENT YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW SCREWED UP MY SLEEP SCHEDULE IS #I've been getting 5 or less hours of sleep for a. while #For most weekdays #So uh 👍👍#☆ taruchi rambles 💬

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elytrafemme · 6 months ago

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my best friend (no. 4, i'll start assigning emojis soon for lore followers) asked me about BPD and i told them i'd talk more about it in person because BPD is the exact overlap of my own lived experience (note: i am not diagnosed but have extensive history with BPD in a secret more confusing way) and my psychological interest. but like now i'm thinking about it and generally speaking i think anything that was a symptom towards BPD i experienced has either grown more mild now that i'm out of an active trauma situation, OR has just become part of what i consider my amorphous CPTSD thing,

but i do like. think about the efforts to avoid perceived/real abandonment. and maybe i've not gone to the lengths some folks might with this but to be honest the more i think back to my own personal history the more i realize that i do in fact repeatedly do insane shit to avoid abandonment 😭

#NEVER beating the abandonment issues allegations #haunted by the time someone tried to break up with me and i told them they could cheat on me with other people so long as they didn't leave #ALSO haunted by the idea of breaking up with my ex causing me so much anxiety i was physically sick and begging then like very soon after #i lost pretty much all interest in my ex 😭 ALSO thinking about getting into my first relationship so that person wouldn't leave #ALSO thinking about being unable to sleep at night knowing that if i don't get a job i will never see my dad again (NOBODY SAID THIS)#also almost ******* ****** because my friends were at an unknown location together so i was convinced they hated me #also feeling ******** at the thought of my favorite professor not liking me as a student. & spending my 1st r acting out so id see them #Um. anyway i don't have BPD but i'm never really beating the allegations for it anyway #mostly because BPD and CPTSD are so similar and you have to wonder if they'd be different diagnoses if we didn't have-#-such a carceral system that stigmatizes BPD and certain kinds of survivors and condemns them to never being treated like humans <-#who said that omg...#when i lay it out it doesn't even really sound like i have abandonment issues because these all seem kind of normal #but i think maybe that's insane. I don't know. kisses u with tongue #i'm able to have healthy friendships now sometimes but some people i am deep seededly convinced will leave and betray me #and i don't really know what distinguishes one person from another but it does kill me inside !#Shout out to best friend no. 2 & no. 5. i text one when i'm episodic so i can get her attention & the other i consistently like.#Will do literally anything for so that they don't leave me

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theendofmybody · 8 months ago

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once again can't sleep because I'm thinking of all the ways the x files could have been a better show. alas

#i will be getting 5 hrs of sleep max tonight :')#I'm just so mad that scully's internal conflict is introduced as her feeling guilt about following her ambitions to work at the FBI #instead of going into medicine like her father wanted. and they did one really good episode about this.#and then decided that her main internal conflict for the rest of the series would be Her Uterus.#like the whole theme of the show is that searching for the truth can make you feel even more uncertain about everything in your life #and i feel like her uncertainty about & commitment to following her ambition despite what authority figures want #would make a lot of sense both for her character and the story. it's crazy that they set all that potential up & then decided to ignore it #another thing that pisses me off is how little characterization Samantha gets. like she's just The Dead Sister.#personally i think it would be really interesting to have her only described thru Mulder's recollection because there's always a bit of #doubt over whether she was really abducted so i think it would make the viewer ask the same question as everyone else in the show--#am i really going to trust this guy? is he a reliable narrator or just crazy?#is he a reliable narrator of his own insanity but not necessarily reality?#auhg I'm so mad. they did such a good job of making interesting and compelling characters and didn't give them the storylines they deserved

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farharbour · 1 year ago

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...i've been playing bg3 all day every single day for almost the last week straight. where am i

#💬#put 80+ hours into this in like 5 days i am insane over it holyyyyyy shit #i just started act 2 this morning <3 #sorry for the absence i didn't even bother to make a queue lol i'm not joking it's been wake up play then sleep #i haven't had work which honestly sucks so badly but i'm having too much fun gaming to really care atm

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tardis--dreams · 2 years ago

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What I always fail to consider when I create my absolutely realistic to-do lists and plans is the fact that I'm just. So so tired

#either i am a giant cry baby or there is something wrong with me #(in this house we ignore chronic lack of sleep and other unhealthy lifestyle decisions and questionable dietary choices and habits #that has absolutely nothing to do with my feeling of utter exhaustion #this feeling of malaise is completely beyond my control #no but fr i think i would feel 90% better had i slept 1 more hour last night #idk how i survived the first 3 months of this year where i was getting 3 hours on average #i had at least 4.5 hours last night and i feel like dying lmao #had to lie back down this morning after finishing my preparation for the seminar and doing some yoga because i felt like passing out #but i went to class and it was actually okay today and i didn't faint and i even contributed something #amazing #(i mean we were forced to say something but i did say more than the bare minimum so i think that's an absolute win)#uh anyway i need to work for 2 hours and then study korean and do my homework and realistically that's gonna take 4 hours at least #and i need to prepare for my seminar on Thursday which realistically also takes at least 4-5 hours because I'm so fucking slow #and technically i need to work and catch up with my other 2 courses which would require 2 hours a day #and i need to write my stupid term paper from last semester but i haven't even found a topic yet and i need to prepare my stupid #presentation for one seminar and then start working on the term paper for that as well and then start working on the term paper for my #other seminar and then #I'm just way too overwhelmed lol- idk how people manage life. i feel like a rotten corpse all the time and don't even do anything #i need to clean and do laundry and take out the trash and do the dishes and do laundry and write emails and #i just wanna sleep ahahah #ok I'll stop complaining now. I know how much other people do all the time and my workload is nothing in comparison.#i just like to be dramatic #void screams

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wanderingandfound · 2 years ago

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I should go to bed and maybe I will feel better in the morning but there is a cat asleep on my lap.

#personal #learning to function #I fell asleep playing Disco Elysium last night at like 1:30 AM because my baby sister was supposed to leave at 3:00.#She left closer to 3:30 and I woke up long enough to give her a hug good bye and then brush my teeth/change into my pjs/go to bed instead #of continuing to sleep in the recliner. But even though I was in bed by like 3:47 I didn't fall asleep until after 5:00.#Maybe that's why I feel like trash today!#I just love my precious kitty.

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playingplayer2 · 1 day ago

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getting older means learning more about yourself.

Like how most of your empathy and about... All of your depth perception is intellectualized or how you're actually not an introvert, you're just an asocial-extrovert with insanely high social anxiety and trust issues that run deeper than the Mariana Trench and crippling depression and insomnia with chronic health issues that leave you exhausted day-in-day-out.

It's me. It's just me and my shit

#me #figured out that i didn't have depth perception the way toher people did forever ago #worked my ass off on the empathy thing bc i just. have low empathy period so....#despite being surrounded by introverts my entire life and thinking i was one for years i am in fact not! hello apparent balck sheep #my trust issues and social anxiety are intrinsically linked forever more #my depression is chronic and my ass is flat and definitely not iconic #insomnia and helzth issues since I was very very small #apparently staying up all night bc you just. cant. sleep. and being constantly nauseated and dizzy isn't normal?#especially when it starts before you even turn 5?

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eerilyiridescent · 6 months ago

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i am OBSESSED with secrecy!!!!!!! the commitment to false mystery has ruined my life so bad that i am AFRAID of publicly being myself! i FEAR the "BACKLASH'" of others and what they have to say about their minimal knowledge of my character!!! IT IS insa..ne. i have had one of my longest writing blocks ever ! because of this . but being on ONE (1) unethical indie short film set has rekindled this flame so badly because i cannot STAND incompetence. i have less patience for stupidity than i do for my own irrational fears (that i KNOW are baseless and irrational)

#thesunroom #i am venting im just mad #i was fed pizza and wonderbread tomato lettuce sandwiches for 6 days straight on 14+ hour days #or rather they TRIED to poison me and i went out to get shawarma any chance i got #all this for what??? a potential TIFF selection???#didn't even get paid for it i was fully just doing someone a favor #i didn't learn from the last 5 favors that ended in frustration apparently #i didn't have a paid gig lined up but i could've been at home. sleeping. or getting a wisdom tooth extraction

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silverbastardgoldenfool · 9 months ago

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I am a normal person who has had a normal amount of sleep

#sike I stayed up too late writing #not even my main novel but the first draft I've been chipping away at #doing basically a sentence a night right before bed #but now I guess I'm feeling too inspired overall lol #cos I wrote 3700 words ????? which is more than I've ever written of this novel in one session #this is also a novel that I accept will prob go nowhere and was just meant to keep me writing while I didn't have the capacity for the other #so I though it was safe to keep writing that one at night unlike the main one which I know is too absorbing and will keep me awake #so idk what the fuck happened there lol #it's nice to be writing so effortlessly but babe I need sleep. like how am I meant to make progress on The Novel during the day today #on like 5 hours sleep 😭#I'm meant to be prioritising my fundamental needs atm too lol #like specifically not supposed to be sacrificing sleep or food or rest for creative pursuits so I can keep creativity sustainable longterm #but sometimes the beast just overtakes you ya know. yikes.#you can tell I'm fucking sleep deprived cos I'm babbling lol #writer things

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