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tubbytarchia · 3 months

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I told you I never stop thinking about merpearl

#I want there to be more yuri kiss art. There isnt enough. I guess I have to be the change I want. whaagh #I think Pearl is too awkward and clueless and horrified (because DL) to actually just kiss Gem like this (at least for awhile) but #mermaid pearl is built different. Still clueless though #I am so exhausted and I have much more important things to draw but Im sorry I had yuri in my system and I needed to get it out desperately #gempearl #shiny duo #hermitshipping #tubby art

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0yorixu · 6 months

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etho sketch, don't have time to color cuz then I'll spend hours on it and I won't have time to do my school work that I've been procrastinating on

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inkskinned · 1 year

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he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag #writeblr #it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal #fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho)#healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy #im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage....#1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind #and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes #2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception''#3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.''#idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh #im sure there are people who have this experience normally #but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists #when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band''#edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful #once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large #but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry.#but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes #but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally.#i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes #people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism #but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet .#i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY #and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound.#but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in #i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too.#here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change #was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort)#choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL

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biggest-gaudiest-patronuses · 9 months

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as someone who rarely listens to music, i am unceasingly in wonderment at the emotional connection many humans have to music as a medium. genres & styles & artists and all that jazz --you guys care a lot about this stuff. i sit marveling at the sheer commonplaceness of people feeling an intimate connection to individual songs & albums & musicians. to the point musical preferences are often considered a meaningful part of one's identity as an individual....thats crazy. so much passion...so much fierceness of feeling ...people say "you have to listen to this song" and i listen for 30 seconds and say "neat!" bc it is, it's neat! the chorus is catchy! i might tuck it away to hum to myself later. but for now im putting my earplugs back in returning to the glorious silence that my essence depends on the same way my lungs depend on an oxygen-rich atmosphere. u beset me with fascination

#me listening to a Certified Jam: i get it now! i get why you guys care so much i understand the Feelings #me 60 seconds later when the chorus is over: ok that's plenty let's calm down with a nice quiet breather #yall are out there just constantly Absorbing Sounds huh #just letting your ears rawdog it when you're not surrounding them with Specific Rhythms And Tunes #u have such rich lives. sounds exhausting but im happy for u

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cutie-lumi · 2 months

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Cosmic 💐🌟

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sqlatoon · 1 year

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girls that are sick and in love

#splatoon #pearlina #pearl splatoon #marina splatoon #my art #drew the pearl one when i was sick earlier this year and now im sick again and drew the marina #i am far too exhausted to fix the colors so theyre the same. just imagine it #i know everyone is freaking out about side order. but i am sick and far more important

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year

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Sally is the real neighborhood Rizzler... you all know i'm right...

#she knew what she was doingggggg #she Knew!!!!#'youre going to make me blush' yes poppy i think that was her intention <3 #popstar is A tier ship you cant convince me otherwise #fuck now im tempted to make a For Fun ship tier list.... no im not. the exhaustion is just making me insane #popstar is theeeeeee lesbian pairing tho #fingers crossed im onto something with them #cmon cmon i love being right #i love clocking relationships before they happen its my fav hobby when watching/reading stuff #i know im delusional with laughingstock but Popstar? i! am! so! correct!#probably. maybe. if im Wrong... dont light your torches im just a lil guy #scribble garnish #welcome home #wh popstar #sally starlet #poppy partridge #THAT TABLE SHOT MY WIFE AND ATE MY LEFTOVERS #i rarely scribble objects and the like and its For A Reason #it was fun for like... ten seconds and then it got tedious but i was Committed #although. i will admit.#scribbling the misc items was nice. love me some Stuff and Things

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wis-art · 1 year

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Not a big fan of capitalism

#i do not want to charge people to see my art #i have a job on top of doing this little art blog #every time i show this little project of mine people tell me i better find a way to monetize it to make money off of this #its just very frustrating to constantly have to explain that i want people to just see and cherish my drawings #i dont want to be reliant on making art to make my money i think that'd not work with what im going for #and it would turn art into a deeply frustrating experience i try to constantly optimize to get the most amount of money from #rendering experiments and trying out new artstyles something that could legit put me out of eating food 👍#but really #the job is not good for me i am always do exhausted #it really takes so much effort to draw sometimes

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sosoekov · 2 months

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Ten of Swords

#jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #jjk art #ryomen sukuna #sukuna #my art #I love him but I hate him but I love him but...#gege just stop it gege im so exhausted

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deoidesign · 1 month

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Idk who needs to hear this but time and time again isn't over!!!

Webtoon removed the "time and time again will return!!!" Banner and I don't know why, but it's not over!!! There's still another 1/3 of the comic to go! There's a lot more stuff that I'm working on and it'll be coming back soon!

Please be patient with me, I know it's been a long time... But the stuff I'm making is really good and there's a lot of reasons it's taken this long. I promise I want it back more than anyone.

I'm trying to come back around the end of October. I'm doing my best to get everything ready in time, so no promises, but I'm on track to do so! I'm just one person writing and drawing everything, and my editor was fired so I'm not even getting any notes anymore. It's literally just me. I'm doing my best I promise!

#im so frustrated that banner has been gone #and people think the comic is over because of that #which is reasonable to think #but it... idk #its already an uphill battle to try snd retain audience after a hiatus this long #let alone when webtoon is actively building thr expectation that theres no need to come back...#im so frustrated #every day there is something new with them its so exhausting #this isnt even the thing I've been majorly stressed about this is a fresh new frustration #i feel like they're not just being unhelpful #at this point i feel like theyre actively sabotaging my career.#im not allowed to promote my books #i can't make my links too big so no one can find me #people dont even know i have a patreon #i can't make any announcements on the comic #and now people think th whole thing is over and it isnt!#im so ;_;#im so frustrated and demoralized #and people complete reasonably are losing patience and interest #and. ah... it's fine. like genuinely it is fine.#it will come back soon and i am doing a good job #and everyone who sees it's back will be happy with what ive done #cause it's good. its really good...#but. yeah. idk. webtoon has been actively keeping me down since the beginning and im so over them #I've been so mistreated aysudjejjdjdjdj #i just want to finish the series and go ;_;#taking all my power to not **** ******#just gotta power through and get the fuck out #text post #update

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crispyjenkins · 3 months

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i don't know who needs to hear this today but the jedi would not be body-shy

especially during the war. some would be uncomfortable, sure, or even heavily dislike being nude and/or bathing around others, but the point of that is that would be respected as a choice. there is a very large difference between preferring not to be nude around others, for cultural religious or personal reasons, versus being ashamed. nothing you can do can convince me jedi would be ashamed or embarrassed of their or others' bodies.

why. why would the jedi think nudity undignified. why would they turn their noses up at it as unseemly, rather than a choice and preference

#im exhausted alright #wearing layers especially in the more religious way jedi do does not equal SHAME of one's body #some!! species!! dont even!!! wear clothes at all!!!#i dont have the sources to back it up but this is such a western idea specifically a euro- and ameri-centric one #im just so tired of master obi one kenobi COMPLAINING about changing or wearing other clothes than robes in fic #because it's never framed as obi wan being uncomfortable because it's a preference or because it's a cultural/religious thing #it's ALWAYS because hes embarrassed about his body or nudity in general #not being down with nudity for whatever reason does not automatically mean SHAME and it staggers me that people seem to #sincerely think the jedi would enforce or support or legitimise such shame #i know it's probably just authors' implicit or unknown biases but good lord it's exhausting #cj rambles #jedi order #prequel trilogy #pro jedi

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djarinvettel · 1 month

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this is in fact the cause of this users death and rebirth

#I MEAN #IM SORRY #THE BLOOD #THE DIRT #THE VISIBLE PAIN AND EXHAUSTION #THE CURLS #LIKE #HE LOOKS SO GOOD #AND YET SO SAD #I WONT SURVIVE THIS #I JUST WONT #elrond #the rings of power #lotr #elrond peredhel #robert aramayo

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sunlit-mess · 4 months

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noticing in your vents—

is your sister okay too?

We laugh, sure, but we both know we're not ok.

#messyr #vent post #we have separate fams and both of us are the eldest. She mostly stays at mother side and I stay at my father's although dad is never home.#The rest of the members in my father side can put quips here and there to make her feel guilty and she does get guilty mostly about money #I ALSO provide them and HER financial support while also trying to pay for myself. I'm VERY exhausted.#unlike me she's not caged up here- but with a few restrictions still #while im BOUND to my family (father side) and they always target me so that's a pretty neat deal than seeing my sister suffer the same #just thinking of it makes me want to throw up HAHAH #there are times- she does things by action or words that makes me feel like- yknow. she loves me back. that's enough for me

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myokk · 2 months

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the black lake🫶

#love thinking of them just spending sweet moments like this🥹#ok so these were super fast #but the second one especially…like two minute scribble bahahahahahaha #I just had a few more min before sun set after the first and I wanted a continuation😇#Im just pretty exhausted and have no mental energy left bc I did my first tattoo today #and in true myokk style…I was too ambitious and it ended up taking me almost 4 hours🫠🫠🫠#(like it worked out in the end and looked amazing but at the same time WHY DIDNT I DO SOMETHING SIMPLE😤)#tomorrow I’ll work on some more paintings tho bc the eloise one was really fun🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶#and like I said I have a BAJILLION IDEAS !!!!!!!!!!#hogwarts legacy #hogwarts legacy fanart #hphl #hogwarts legacy oc #hogwarts legacy mc #eloise babbit #sebastian sallow #sebastian sallow fanart #hogwarts legacy sebastian #sebastian sallow x mc

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xabarik · 2 months

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feeling shitty, so I got into my art stuff. so pack of my old blockdrey sketches (in case if anything happens I'll be remembered with them in my arms. shame on me.)

#pathologic #мор утопия #andrey stamatin #alexander block #im so exhausted right now and this month and #i just want to look at things what i like

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ca-3 · 2 years

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Since I already drew Persona 5 characters in the Omori style... how about the other way around? 🔄

Headspace Versions 💭

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