#IM NOT SAYING THAT BE QUIRKY
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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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Is it sad that I spend more time reading about a fake version of me being a teenage girl then I actually spend being a teenage girl?
#I kinda don’t care#back to ao3 I go!#I don’t like people#they stress me out so i pushed everyone way and now I live in my little bubble of lonely#people don’t understand me and I don’t understand them! simple#I’ve been in an autistic burnout for 3 years and I can’t take people talking to me#at this point I honestly don’t remember the last time I even went outside#maybe a month?#WHY CANT PEOPLE SEE IM JUST NOT LIKE THEM?!#IM NOT SAYING THAT BE QUIRKY#I CANT DO THE THINGS IM MEANT TOO#I’m sick of it#I sick of pushing everyone way#I’m sick of not understanding#I’m sick of this fucking burnout!#why can’t i just be normal#wow this got depressing#i am autistic#it sucks#i hate everything
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breaking fucking news: misgendering real people is still bad even if you're doing it to cis people!
#it isnt funny to misgender people to be quirky; actually!#i cant believe i have to say this!#sorry. im mad. please do not ask what prompted this i do not want to get into it.#okay to rb but dont fucking clown this isnt up for debate!#.lyr
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I shall force you to unironically declare that you're 'not like other girls'
#i dont care what pronouns you use you have to say 'im not like other girls' like you mean it#to make it worse you have to add on something like “i hate shopping” or “I read” or 'i'm not a sl*t'#sorry non-girls you're not allowed to make it into a joke with the addendum 'I'm not one' you just have to say it#you get bonus points if you say something about converse or being quirky#(these are bold words coming from a woman wearing converse right now mind you)#read the tags
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Being a perfectionist is actually the worst thing to have happened to me because why am I chronically all or nothing about everything in my life
#Not even saying this in an omg I’m so quirky way like no this is a PROBLEM#Caught myself thinking that maybe while I’m embarking on an intense study camp I should just like#Neglect doing anything that feeds my soul or just ensures I’ll be mentally well enough by the time I take the national test I wanna take#But it’s not just that like I’m all or nothing w EVERYTHING#All or nothing w friends all or nothing w hobbies etc etc#Someone tell that girl things are a spectrum#I don’t mean to gatekeep this but anyone who’s liek “heehee im such a perfectionist!!” while kicking their feet and giggling doesn’t get it#Sure your work pays off when you’re like that but it’s also unsustainable#I’ve burned out so fast before / fallen off the wagon bc I’m not normal about things I undertake#I actually want to know how it feels like to be normal about things
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i’m going to be starting a job soon where it looks like almost all of my coworkers/bosses are going to be cis women and i am…terrified. especially since this is the job i’m going to have to get time off from for top surgery.
if there’s one thing i’ve learned over the almost ten years of my transition, it’s that a situation where i’m the only guy there is one where my gender is guaranteed to not be respected. it really feels like far too many cis women realize they’re alone with a trans man and just see it as an opportunity to act out some sort of power fantasy where they get to stick it to the big bad evil men by taking out their anger on the first man they see without the power to fight back. that or they decide you’re “just one of the girls” and will not hear otherwise, but honestly, given where i’m at in my physical transition, i have a feeling the former is more likely.
there was a time when i felt safer around cis women than around cis men, but now it’s just a different kind of threat.
#a lot of them are also. let’s say a very specific kind of cis woman#because of who this kind of job attracts#as a trans man but also as a disabled and mentally ill person…im not optimistic about how it’s gonna go#i was already deadnamed and misgendered throughout the physical for the job bc their system has no way to handle preferred names or anything#so uh. not looking too great right off the bat and im sure that’s just the beginning#it’s not a job im super jazzed about in general bc it’s in a setting that i have Lots Of Problems With and never wanted to work in#but a bitch needs money so. gotta suck it up and deal with a few months of transphobia ableism and general cognitive dissonance#i love capitalism! it’s so fun and cool and quirky! (said with the most lifeless voice you’ve ever heard)#transandrophobia#transandromisia#transmisandry#virilmisia#virilphobia#anti transmasculinity#transmascphobia#trans men#transmascs
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I love you pastel goths I love you pink and black combinations with things I love you Yami Kawaii I love you fruit bats I love you Jirai Kei I love you kawaii metal I love you bubblegum pop sounding songs with dark and disturbing lyrics I love you cute fanart of horror movie icons I love you people fangirling and squeeing over some gross guy coated in blood I love you quirky anime villains who dress fruity I love you cutesy hot girls in scary 80s heavy metal music videos I love you goth bimbos DO YOU SEE THE POINT IM MAKING HERE
#people who say pastel goths arent real goths can gobble my dingaling#just quirky things#pastel goth#dual kawaii#yass#yamikawaii#jirai kei#kawaii#kawaii metal#juxtaposition#the word im looking for is juxtaposition#damn i just realized that halfway through making this post#cute things#cute horror#cute but creepy#morute
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You guys really need to be kinder to bugs and some of you guys with children really need to teach them empathy for the bugs as well
#sure theyre scary but a lot of them are legitimately so harmless to you#and just waving them off works#or picking them up with a paper and a cup and putting them elsewhere#idk man. im really tired of people being needlessly cruel to them#or acting quirky by saying 'well im gonna kill them anyway i hate them 🤪' congratulations on being insufferable#thunderclap#you really cannot be someone who talks about being gentle and kind and supportive and all that shit if your kindness does not extend#to other creatures. bugs included.
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oh HELL no. fuck this shit bruh i’m so SICK OF THE MEGUMI HATE AGENDA
i pride myself on being one of, if not THE biggest megumi defender in a jjk server with over 240k members, and it's one thing to hate in the server and ping me for a debate or argument, but to DM ME IN OWN PERSONAL MESSAGES a warning of your hate agenda idk shit pisses me off tf
rant incoming…
like this is one of my friends in the server (i know, how can u be friends with a megumi hater, it's complicated) and we always keep that shit IN the server. to literally DIRECT MESSAGE ME with some shit like this, like why the FUCK would i ever want to hear about this shit.
just write your stupid hate post and everyone else in the server will ping me about it later. you don't need to come to my dos to tell me about your endless hate agenda, i see that enough in a server of TWO HUNDRED AND FOURTY THOUSAND MEMBERS as is
and man i am ALWAYS down for a good megumi debate, like YES let me pick apart his character and tell you WHY the choices gege made were SO IMPORTANT to his development and the story, but seriously what the FUCK is this?????? this is like literally ASKING me to block you???
it's one thing if there is hate in the server and someone is like "oh time to tag KFM, she'll handle this." it's another to literally want to PROVOKE a response out of me bc man i'm not taking that bait???? go somewhere else with this bruh this is why i stopped messaging in there
like i could literally go ON AND ONNN about why megumi’s character is insanely important and impactful to the story. he is NOT your typical shonen deuteragonist and that is on PURPOSE!!!!! god forbid we have a male character in an action series that shows emotions and relies on them for his motivations and convictions
and it’s always the people who just think that he’s a loser or a bum or he never lives up to his potential that want to purposefully not understand the story or his writing that gege has so carefully crafted for megumi. like HE IS MEANT TO BE AN EMOTIONALLY DRIVEN CHARACTER GUYS THAT DOES NOT MAKE HIM LAME
and it’s one thing to just not vibe with megumi. that’s whatever like i don’t get it but hey he’s not everyone’s cup of tea, but why the FUCK are you hating sooooo much that you feel the need to write an ESSAY about your hatred towards this character UNPROVOKED ??? and why the FUCK are you dm’ing ME about it???? because i’m jjkcord’d number one megumi defender?? that’s in THE JJK SERVER not in our fucking dms. literally get that shit out of here bc i’m SO SICK of the megumi hate.
like at least in the server i can prepare myself and expect to see megumi hate. to MESSAGE ME OUT OF THE BLUE IN MY PERSONAL DMs literally has me seething at 11:40pm on a sunday fucking night.
i could say sooooo much more, but i’ve said all i really could with megumi’s character and i don’t feel the need to run it all into the ground the way these people do with their endless hate. get your fucking heads out of the fucking echo chamber that you have tunnel-visioned yourself into and learn that not everything in life needs to revolve around hating a fictional fucking character
#i literally cannot EXPRESS how much this pisses me off#like what kind of reply did you fucking want from me????#did you think i’d be ‘oh hahaha i can’t wait to read it!!’???#go fuck yourself#?????#like actually#FUCK OFF#miss me with this fucking bullshit this isn’t even fucking funny#i’m not fucking laughing#no one is fucking laughing#this isn’t cute or funny or quirky or edgy#it’s fucking sad#get the FUCK out of here#jjk#rant#jujutsu kaisen#megumi fushiguro#megumi#SICK OF THE BULLSHIT MEGUMI HATE IM LITERALLY FIGHTING THE URGE TO SAY K Y S#UGHHHHHHHH#tess yaps#tess RANTS
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snuggling w the curtis boys would be such a treat i swear. like i just wanna make them a chocolate cake and snuggle because they deserve a break and i love them
#i’m not weird i swear#im still getting used to tumblr being the quirky website where i can say what i want and not be judged#(you know what i mean)#anyhoo#um#new art idea?#the outsiders#ponyboy curtis#sodapop curtis#darry curtis
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#not finihing this btw but like#still bouncing around the idea of a dating sim thanks to that cosme fanart im still obsessed w so i came up w these.. might keep em idk#weve got the MC still dont have much ab her bc i focused on the others tbh#and shes the inspiration of an abstract artist whod rather die than admit her fave drawings are based on some pretty outfits she saw MC wea#and the way she makes her feel; then shes also the muse of a self appointed poet who yet cant bring herself to write how MCs hair shines li#e the moon and the stars cling onto her coat; and last but not least we have a wannabe musician who just got her first instrument and cant#quite play it let alone make her own music and she wont say it but even tho the lyrics of the songs she practices w never quite match she#always thinks of MC. will i ever make a game ab this? hell no dont have the patience#art#my art#also based the uniforms onthe ones i used to wear... this is a latam school so like. most likely no clubs just quirky kids#DAMN THATS A LOT OF TEXT
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Max Brinly is a woman to me
#and im not saying that in a quirky tumblr blorbo way im being so serious#max and laura is a lesbian relationship to me🤷♀️#the quarry#max brinly
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"We can get through this by working together, reach out to your friends, community is all we have, a social network will be your security in the world, now is the time to lean on others!"
I do agree, and it's scientifically sound (pretty sure there is data about how people with better social networks live longer and etc) but also....augh..... what about the severe social issues, difficulty to leave the house, physical issues which lead to like zero socialization energy a majority of the time, etc. etc. Social support can be a replacement for structural support, but.. I guess I just wish it didn't have to be. Community is extremely difficult to build, even moreso if you're someone who has issues with social cues or group conversations or even just being around others in the first place. And blah, nuance, of course I'm just complaining or maybe being too negative or maybe misunderstanding, but, I hardly have the energy to brush my hair once every 2 months.. how am I supposed to maintain a wide social network and be active in a Community and Join Groups lol... sometimes it kind of feels like "er.. well if thats my only option then...... ruh roh". It's overwhelming
#Kind of like some post I saw a long time ago talking about how even the meanest shittiest most difficult to get along with#elderly people or whaever still deserve to have some sort of systems in place to support them so they're not just relying on the#grace of relatives or etc. who may not be able to deal with them. Not saying that I'm like mean and cruel or anything#but the fact of the matter is in most social situations either I am compromising or the other person is. Not in like an ~`ouuu im so weirdd#nobody willever understand my quirky swagg hee heee~' way but like a.. Just factually the things that make me happy and comfortable#are often incompatible with people. The way I communicate and process things is different from the way other people do and that#is always a barrier. I cannot have ''easy''' interactions. Even with 'understanding' people there is nearly always a significant#amount of effort. You can't walk into a group of people and then be like ''okay you guys all have to wear#masks and you also cant play music too loud and also we should communicate turns of speaking very clearly so group conversations#arent too stressful. and also i need this and that and we have to do this and that and '' etc. etc. You CAN. And some people will#go along with that. but they will ALWAYS secretly resent you for it. You will be the one person they're relieved to not have to be around.#theyre glad when you dont show up since they can go back to doing things however they want and not masking and all these boring#annoying things. OR you can say none of that and just deal with the loud music and the talking and the unmasked people. but then#YOU'RE compromising. and no matter how nice they are it's exhausting to be around and youre just further alienated#while in the presence of people and uncofmrtoabel the whole time.#Which I'm not saying the only form of community is a group setting specificially but just giving that as an example lol#I just wish there were a better option than ''well learn to socialize normally or just suffer then'' . Which I know is not what people are#saying. I guess I just always feel a bit scared when 'community is the answer'. Since its not like 'oh im just socially anxious and need to#get out of my shell~!' or something thats really that remedy-able. It's like.. my mostly unchangeable physical health issues combined#with the mostly unchangable literal way that my brain processes sensory informationand other things means that interacting with#others in a normal and easy way is incredibly difficult and often exhausting especially to maintain in any longform fashion. So then#when it's like ''the answer to staying safe is to maintain longform social connections!! :3 just reach out!!'' then.. ermm... O_O#also I'm not even one of the cutesy shy emotional hermits that's nervous. I'm the Bad Stereotype emotionless robotic cold seeming#looms in the corner of the room type of thing so people have less pity on you in that way. -_- ANYWAY gghj#I need like.. a designated social representative or something.. When I did work in that bookshop forever ago they gave me a#person who basically was just with me to help communicate with others on my behalf and supervise me and stuff. I need that.. Some#more extraverted person I can latch onto and they can maintain the Social Support Network for me and I can just be their +1 to all#of the Social Things and community. I have helpful skills I can contribute to other people and stuff it's just like.. I cant socialize lol#I cook food or something for you.. then you keep me in contact with Community.. a deal. (but then what about when I'm too sick to#contribute? as is often the case. there's not much place for people like me in communities sometimes i fear.. sigh.) ***
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Is the video game really subverting its genre? Are you sure it's not just doing clever things within its genre, because otherwise the game would be boring and unchallenging and say nothing interesting? I'm just saying, it's cool and all that the internet allows horror game fandoms to overflow into eachother, but not EVERY 2 hour video essay needs to be spent breathlessly sucking off the devs. Sometimes a game is just REGULAR difficult and REGULAR high-quality.
Besides RPGs made over a decade ago, what is the thing supposedly subverting? Clearly not other contemporary indie horror games, because there is clearly a convergent ethos forming of cosmic horror and beginners' traps; that's just what the genre looks like nowadays.
#pathologic#fear and hunger#inscryption#in general I just hate overly reverent video essays; you guys ruined Airbender for me#this is NOT me hating on Pathologic!#Icepick is a good studio; their story is interesting their characters are well written#introducing needs decay mechanics into a first-person adventure game is a good idea; I just wouldn't call it “subversive”#this IS me hating a little bit on Patho fans just because I think hyperbole about the game's difficulty is tedious#and distracts from an equally valid conversation about what you get if you approach the game like a sandbox#I get it the algorithm incentivizes youtubers to talk about every new game like it's a complete departure from what came before#but if everything is special nothing is#and i swear if one more person tries to read me HP Lovecraft's wikipedia page like i was born yesterday im going to scream#Just saying; if fucking with the player's expectations is all it takes to be “subversive” then Stick of Truth is “subverting its genre”#except... no... Stick of Truth is a bog standard RPG just with a quirky tutorial#and creative integration of its off-beat story and mechanics RIGHT??#my point is Patho and F&H aren't actually much different; they still play like RPGs still handle like RPGs#the fact that you die more than you would in COD or Skyrim or whatever doesn't make it the “anti-RPG”#anymore than Seinfeld was the “anti-sitcom”#“subversiveness” is just a basic bitch way to analyze things; and I think “How does the art take ADVANTAGE of its genre?” is better#media criticism
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WATCHED A FEW EPISODES OF THE 2016 PPG REBOOT...........
#jane journals#self insert talk#will excuse me while i- SCREAMS!!!!!!#ITS SOOO DOGSHITTTT#UGGH#ok listen there are SOME things that are OK about it#the voice actresses they chose for the girls arent bad by any means#theyre NOT anything like the og voices but theyre..cute#i like bubbles's voice a lot#but the characterization....leaves a lot to be desired. THAT IS TO SAY EVERYONE IS FUCKING MASSACRED#ESPECIALLY UTONIUM UGGGHHHHHHHHH#IM GONNA FUCKING BLOW UP A CHILDRENS HOSPITAL ITS SO BAD#THEY RUINED MY BEAUTIFUL WIFE#like?? hes a goofball but hes not a DUMBASS???#ugh i did a long vent to my partner about it cause we watched it together and like#hes not a perfect parent by any means. he gets carried away sometimes or maybe doesnt read a situation properly#but he always SAYS the right thing to put the girls at ease because he LOVES them and he does have some wisdom!!#AT THE END OF THE DAY HE IS A GOOD DAD!!!!!!#he wouldnt word vomit some dumb shit that makes blossom insecure and then cover it up with 'oh haha love u bye' LIKE ITS QUIRKY#HE WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THAT#ok im fine now im normal im good#im gonna wash the taste of that out of my fucking mouth and then draw some stuff
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love seeing a mental health and disability advocate immediately turn around and go "haha im so delusional <3" in the same moment
#sarcasm i obviously hate this#i hate that delusional has been turned into some silly quirky thing like no!!!!#like if i tried to describe my delusions to these ppl theyd think im fucking insane#ppl understand why u dont use intrusive thoughts to mean impulsive#so why cant they understand not using delusional when they just me unlikely events#like god#im so fucking tired#-anon#actually delusional#delusional#sysblr#system#plural#plurality#mental illness#not saying who this was originally made about. its not the point the point is ppl using delusion as a silly quirky thing
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