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x3no9 · 11 months ago

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Ever start a fic with the entire thing laid out and then suddenly it turns into a crazy beast and smashes everything you built to the ground?

Anyway that is what happened with my newest Call of Duty fic. It got very dark, major character death and shit. And all I wanted was married couples. Curious thing is, one my mates read it and says that the Makarov x Graves dynamic reminds him of the song, "Wrecking Ball", by Sacha Skarbec.

I looked the lyrics up (I refuse to listen to Miley) and then found a gorgeous cover version sung by James Arthur. I was quite blown away. And YES, thanks, Steve it does illustrate it quite well, going with Graves' perspective, but the curious thing is--it can apply a little to both sides. Anyway they aren't broken up though as the song strongly implies. I think I need to go touch some grass, I am going way too hard on this MakaGraves ship.

Here is the fic link if ya want to go insane...

Also.... the lyrics to ponder...

We clawed, we chained our hearts in vain We jumped never asking why We kissed, I fell under your spell. A love no one could deny

Don't you ever say I just walked away I will always want you I can't live a lie, running for my life I will always want you

I came in like a wrecking ball I never hit so hard in love All I wanted was to break your walls All you ever did was wreck me Yeah, you, you wreck me

I put you high up in the sky And now, you're not coming down It slowly turned, you let me burn And now, we're ashes on the ground

Don't you ever say I just walked away I will always want you I can't live a lie, running for my life I will always want you

I came in like a wrecking ball I never hit so hard in love All I wanted was to break your walls All you ever did was wreck me

I came in like a wrecking ball Yeah, I just closed my eyes and swung Left me crashing in a blazing fall All you ever did was wreck me Yeah, you, you wreck me

I never meant to start a war I just wanted you to let me in And instead of using force I guess I should've let you win I never meant to start a war I just wanted you to let me in I guess I should've let you win

Don't you ever say I just walked away I will always want you

I came in like a wrecking ball I never hit so hard in love All I wanted was to break your walls All you ever did was wreck me

I came in like a wrecking ball Yeah, I just closed my eyes and swung Left me crashing in a blazing fall All you ever did was wreck me Yeah, you, you wreck me Yeah, you, you wreck me

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lotus-pear · 6 months ago

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mourning black and the death of ideals

#i haven't moved on from this yet. btw. i'm still here #finally decided to draw the thought i've been ruminating over for days on end bc it's like a parasite eating away my brain #stated this on the initial post i made days ago but there's just smt so gut wrenching and sickening #about how dazai will have worn black exactly twice in his life: once as a member of the mafia and now at kunikida's funeral #a color that initially signified devotion to the mafia and his demon prodigy alias now signifies his grief #him having to wear black again at the funeral of another doomed fatalist who chose his heart over his survival. his own partner.#kunikida's death being so reminiscent of the tragedy that initially caused him to defect and flee #and everything tying together full circle and effectively breaking him #asagiri rly said fuck knkdz it's doppover we lost gang 😭😭😭#why did bro leave that fucking notebook behind #fool. do you know that angst potential you have left me to work with?#love never won in bsd. it lay dead and festering #i don't know how much longer i can keep saying i miss them. i'm going to kill myself if he doesn't come back #i've never wanted something to be death bait so desperately #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #dazai osamu #osamu dazai #kunikidazai #knkdz #kunizai #(??? technically. its implied anyway)#lotus draws

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royalarchivist · 4 days ago

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Tallulah: tio pac and fit are so Perfecta by Miranda coded 🥹💕

Phil: This is Pac and Fit? [Dramatically zooms-in on the fanart and makes them "sing" along to the music]

Chat: he's LITERALLY making a ship amv right now

Tallulah: How things got weird 😞

Make sure to show love to the artist who drew this fanart!

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#Philza #Tallulah #QSMP #Hideduo #FitPac #FitMC #Pactw #Phil #Pac #Fit #Edited #January 17 2024 #This is SUCH a cute moment #The other version I posted before is nice but it's a bit too long #The music is synced up exactly how it was on stream (in the first clip)#but the pacing is better in this one #I think I've gotten a lot better at making myself make things shorter #as much as it kills me because I love giving additional context for stuff #and a lot of fun moments / little character quirks get lost sometimes #But ultimately the shorter videos are better. Better pacing by far #Anyways. Yes that cat is Gus lmao #Also @ Tallulah's Admin: I Know What You Are #pftt #listen man if you know you know all I'm saying is that song's very associated with a specific KarmaIand ship #Timestamp: ~4h 52m #(Please note that the VOD doesn't have music)#I love how half of chat was like #''What a nice song!''#meanwhile me and my fellow Karmaland viewers were like #''I Know What You Are''

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lil-lemon-snails · 9 months ago

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You find these two in a box in your attic, wyd?

I had a lot of fun scribbling on these guys!! there's a whole lot of texture going on hehe >:3c As always, close ups under cut!

#fnaf #fnaf sb #fnaf security breach #fnaf sun moon #fnaf daycare attendant #dca fandom #fnaf sundrop #fnaf moondrop #fan art #harlequin #clowns #antiques #artists on tumblr #digital art #my art #These are based on a couple of porcelain harlequins I've had since i was kid!! I've wanted to draw the dca in this style for so long ;w;#some of the ones i have have lost their bells over time but i couldn't bring myself to do that to the boys >.<#so they're just in really good condition!!! preserved w love :nods:#harlequin au

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ryllen · 3 months ago

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(whisper back) If one crease decrease from his forehead, i will draw him again ;^)) ~☆

RYLLEN! I KNOW YOU SAID THIS BUT HAVE YOU SEEN THE HALLOWEEN EVENT WHERE A CHILD TOUCHED MALLEUS HORN AND SEBEK GOT MAD FOR HIM. THEN MALLEUS SAID HE WAS OKAY BUT THEN THERE WERE THUNDER AND LIGHTNING EVERYWHERE. 😭

I'm so sorry if you haven't. And I'm so sorry if this was a spoiler but I can't remove the idea of Sebek's surprised worried face as he witnessed Malleus' not so subtle fury. 😭😭😂

I just love to see a worried scared croco 😭 or him beefing with an actual child for touching Malleus horn and making his liege angry HSHSHSHSHS

the conspiracy theory why he got angry with others touching him but not our yuus

#but did we ever touch his horn?#i mean it might suggest that we tug him a bit or such #but did we ever reach for his horn?#maybe he is just super sensitive with that #and nah i don't mind spoiler #that how i've always been feeding myself on the twst fandom #twst #twisted wonderland #malleus draconia #twst yuu #twst mc #sebek zigvolt #trey clover #riddle rosehearts #lost in the book with tim burton's the nightmare before christmas

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flutrberri · 1 year ago

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[kimdokjakimdokjakimdokja]

#omniscient reader's viewpoint #orv #kim dokja #it's been so long since i've posted anything that i forgot about aspect ratios entirely T~T #i've had the sketch for this sitting around in my folder for about a year though so very proud of myself for finishing it ^^#< said last year lol #saw a short about orv movie and lost my mind so i'm now finally releasing this from it's prison :D #maybe i'll finally finish the last 5th of the novel now #my art

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mariyekos · 7 months ago

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One of the things that makes me feel crazy on DMC5 replays is the way V phrases his request to Dante.

He doesn't say "we need your help to stop the demon." He says "A powerful demon is about to resurrect, and we need your help, Dante." The implication seems to be that V needs Dante's help to stop it...but if you've played it before, that's not what he's really asking. V needs Dante's help in order for the resurrection to take place. Because until Urizen is weakened V has no chance of rejoining him, so he needs Dante's help to weaken Urizen so he's primed for merging and bringing about Vergil's resurrection. The "we" V refers to could also absolutely be both V and Urizen in that case, instead of just some general "we" of humanity. So he's not really asking for help to stop the resurrection, but instead to bring it about, hiding the truth in plain sight and careful wording.

The DMC 5 localization can be wonky in some places, but in other places it just shines. "We need your help, Dante." Not to stop it. He never says that. It's to bring about the resurrection itself.

#dmc #dmc5 #devil may cry #i will never be over this #the first time i noticed it i just about lost my mind #you see the first time i experienced DMC5 was through watching someone else's playthrough. so the first time i played it myself i already-#-knew the plot. Which means when I got to that scene in my own playthrough I had to basically put down the controller and flail bc #man!!!! man!!!! that phrasing!!!!!!!!!!!#this is also something i've latched onto for characterization of both v and vergil as being good at half truths and wordplay #yeah there's the poetry aspect but v doesn't just do it with poetry. there's the way he phrases it here too #it's not a lie. v does need dante's help.#he just puts it in a way that he knows dante will interpret one way even though he really means it in another #and i love it #man i'm really going to miss v but if they make dmc6 i hope they give vergil some of his characterization/character traits #vergil is a different character technically but they share a base so he can totally have some of those traits!!!!#erurandomness #erubabbles

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blatantprinterpropaganda · 7 days ago

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one who has never had sex in a car apparently!! sorry i'm still stuck on that utterly groundshaking revelation about style

#fjdkfjk. i just imagine style like. 'heyyyy. want to do it? i've been saving myself for the one <3'#and fadel goes 'what the fuck are you talking about. we've fucked in so many ways i've lost track. no shot i was your first.'#and style goes 'oh yeah i believe a person should just have sex for fun if they feel like it. but a first time in a car!! that's special!!'#and then i guess fadel would pull. you know. exactly the face in the screenshot above. essentially #*#the heart killers #the heart killers the series

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hollis-art · 6 months ago

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drove by myself for the first time ever today and it was terrifying but shoutout to the "I'm scared to do it" "Then do it scared" mentality because without it, I probably wouldn't have gotten the nerve to try it out

yes, my first time driving by myself was just me shaking and sweating like the most nervous little dog ever, while repeating the Soft Kitty Warm Kitty song over and over and over again like a broken record, but i still did it.

bravery is not the ability to do something without fear. it's the will to do it in spite of fear. or whatever, i dont remember the full quote or who said it but i think about it a lot

#and yes i practiced the route 4 times with my mom in the car before doing it myself #getting lost while driving alone is a HUGE fear of mine because i have no idea what i'd do and stranger danger is real #do it scared #honestly the best advice i've ever heard #if you're scared to do it. THEN DO IT SCARED!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!

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thecatundertheladder · 4 months ago

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I like desperately need a fic where Rung’s a really good fighter because Primus is war god. Like maybe after he gets his memory back he start’s sparring with like Megatron and Ultra Magnus idk I just need him to be a good fighter.

Like please someone write it 🙏

#Or I might have to resort to drastic measures (writing it myself when I’ve never read the source material)#I've had this in my head for a while but then I saw a post relating to it and my brain went kaboom #idw rung #transformers rung #transformers fanfiction #primus #transformers primus #rung is primus #transformers #maccadam #lost light #cat rambles

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citycrows · 11 months ago

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"Close your eyes."

It felt like when Gojo was fighting Sukuna he only saw Sukuna, but he had to know what their fight was doing to Megumi.

Megumi tried so hard not to lose anyone, only to be let go and he has to convince himself that he doesn't care. Because it's for the greater good.

Now that Yuuji is facing Sukuna his eyes are set on Megumi and it's not fair that after everything that he's given he may not get the one thing he wants because nobody else wants it as much.

Also, I don't see this happening, I don't want it to happen, but it would be interesting to see the way they cursed each other actually trigger. Megumi 'killing Yuuji himself' (as Sukuna) and Megumi 'living a long life' as Sukuna.

#I've lost all hope for a happy ending at this point so once I mourn the canon ending I'll do it myself #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #megumi fushiguro #itadori yuuji #itafushi #fushita #itadori x fushiguro #jjk art #fushiguro megumi #citycrows.art #cw: blood

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tatiejosie · 9 months ago

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i haven't posted in a while because i'm currently under intensive workload and i'm kinda burnt out from it fighting for my life ngl

DONALD!!!!!!!! I am clinging to this man for dear life!!!! I would perform open-heart surgery on myself for this pathetic creature wtf!!!!

I love what they've done with his character in the animated series of Invincible!! Comic Donald is cool in his own way, but his animated counterpart just HITS different. This miserable man earned his sad meow meow status

Second sketch is me trying to decipher his body type because the artstyle clearly doesn't do justice to chubby muscular bodies and clearly, if they want Donald to be muscular, they can't unchonk him. Gotta do the lord's work.

#invincible #invincible show #donald ferguson #easing myself into this just to see if i am Once Again obsessing over the character no one cares about #Cecil's coming btw #Donald is my meow meow but Cecil's cunty twink charm isn't lost on me. I've got Stuff in the works #art #artists on tumblr #god i am so close to losing it i stg life is really hard and im out there venting in a tumblr post

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lotus-pear · 1 year ago

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regret

#literally excuse the shitty anatomy and cell shading i was thinking abt chuuyas reaction to what he'd done and i decided to make it skk #bc skk copium :')#the way i've hated dazai so fucking much but i still cried like a bitch when he died #he's not dead the bsd fandom has this phase like the elevator chapter where we're like ''dazai's not gonna make it he's done for!!''#and then he comes back next chapter like surprise bitches yall thought i was dead lmao #this chapter fucking HURT for skk shippers tho like we rly lost this time around huh #deluding myself into thinking that chuuya used gravity manipulation to slow the bullet #bc we didn't see a bullet hole behind dazais head like when chuuya shot his shoulder even though the bullet to his skull was fired at close #the reason theres a wound is bc the compressed air that was still fired was enough to wound him #and the shock wave that followed caused him to pass out bc of the sudden tension to his head intermingled with the blood loss and poison #we also know dazai can control his heart rate at will so maybe he can drop his pulse to zero for like thirty secs #enough to make fyodor believe he's dead #in the event that all of this is untrue and dazai rly does die the way my entire being will go numb and cold and dead #knowing that fyodor will most likely use dazai's death as a weapon against chuuya effectively chaining him to his side #like bffr chuuya may dislike dazai but that's his partner his reflection the boy that makes him desperately want to be human #dazai is the embodiment of chuuyas humanity and once chuuya loses that tether to his human side he will snap and the facade will shatter #and we will truly see chuuya unhinged with nothing more keeping him bound to his mortal shell #this wasn't the skk reunion we wanted asigiri what the fuck :(#bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #nakahara chuuya #chuuya nakahara #osamu dazai #dazai osamu #skk #soukoku #lotus draws

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mariesbee · 6 days ago

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why can't i enjoy things like a normal person? casually, just a few episodes/chapters here and there, then move on with my life. but no, whatever it is, it worms its way into my brain, consumes my thoughts and it slowly drives me insane. i am unable to think about anything else but the Thing of the week, or month, sometimes year(s) if it gets that bad.

#dc #smallville #henry danger #i never thought i'll be here. like actually. smallville is not a surprise i've always liked heroes. i love supes. marvel and dc and whatnot #by proxy me being lowkey into henry danger shouldn't be such a big surpise. but it is. i'm a little lost even i mean what do i do with THIS #because it's not the kind of hero stories i tend to gravitate to. i first watched the show when it aired (being around 16 years old)#and i remember thinking it was funny. maybe too much. i was laughing my ass off really. and now as an adult i find myself #looking for the things that gave me some modicum of comfort in the past. it so happens that one of those things is this silly wacky series #i know when something has embedded itself into my mind in such a way that a hyperfixation is in the making. but still. it's odd #again i cannot reiterate how strange this hyperfixation is and i can only hope it won't last long #because i cannot stay up any longer thinking of how deeply complex both ray and henry are #the connection between the two and whatever weird bullshit they have going on as individuals is. just too much for me #idk. i'm kind of losing my mind #this whole rambling of unorganized thoughts goes specifically for:#lex luthor #ray manchester #yipyip

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katboykirby · 5 months ago

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Calling it right now that Simeon is gonna become a demon (or he's turned into a demon already)

Not for any particular reason, I just want to throw my guess down on the table and make a prediction before we actually find out what's going on. Putting all my money on demon! Simeon just on the off chance I end up being right.

Bookmark this post.

And if I do end up being right (even though it's unlikely) I can be all really fucking smug about it.

#expect me to come back to this post by the end of NB S3 #I'm either gonna laugh at myself or be the most self-important smug asshole ever just wait #you all heard it here first we're gonna get demon! Simeon #and if not well then I've lost 50 bucks #obey me #obey me nightbringer #omswd #obey me simeon #simeon

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12am-motivation · 10 months ago

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*RISES FROM THE DEAD*

BABE WAKE UP THEY'RE ABOUT TO RELEASE A SIDE CHARACTER UNIT SONG

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