#I've learnt how to draw when i was like 7 for 2 years

[stachesainzcore]

Guys yk what I sketched Danny Ric😭. I'll post one day if I get confidence.

[minakotreat]

I know i listed this account as being my miscellaneous art account, but the truth of the matter is that i'm so embarrassingly obsessed with judgment I didn't have the heart to be posting it all over my main account. this stupid guy is actually taking over my BRAIN!

curse you yagamer for having such good games

i learnt about judgment a few years back when I saw a trailer on JE randomly during some game awards I think?? I could totally be wrong but I had some knowledge about yakuza so this intrigued me a lot. It wasn't enough that I actively sought it out though. Then some months ago I remember the game because I had been playing infinite wealth, only to my horror that everywhere I looked, judgment wasn't on pc!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I only have my pc and my bloated battery nintendo switch for entertainment so I was very very sad, because it seemed like such an interesting game. Still, I honestly didn't care enough to continue digging for ways to play it outside of possibly biting the bullet to attempt emulation.

THEN, the huge rgg franchise sale began on steam....... I had just closed my shop to begin shipping out merch I had made so I had a bit of pocket money which I decided to see if I wanted to buy one of the yakuza games. I wasn't too intrigued to buy yakuza 0 because i've already played a bit of it and got bored (despite me loving yakuza 7 & 8) but just out of curiosity.... I decided to see if judgment was on there...... I mean, it wouldn't be since everywhere I looked had said takuya kimura's agency prevented them from uploading it on pc....... right....? and LO AND BEHOLD IT STOOD BEFORE ME.

JUDGMENT????????? IS ON PC???????? AND THE WHOLE BUNDLE WAS ON A HUGE SALE?!?!?!?!??!!

I was thinking hard. Did I really want to spend my money on this? I rarely buy games myself, instead going through the route of ""obtaining"" or watching LPs. I decided to just give it a shot, and decided to buy the full bundle along with the kaito dlc just because it was a good bargain and who knows, I might end up actually liking it.

and so I liked it a little bit.... more........... than a little bit.................

I remember when I finished both games, I just walked around in LJ's premium adventure just with my jaw dropped. These games. Dude. They're more than i could've ever even asked for. I don't know how else to word it

The story, the tension, the characters, the environment, the visuals, dude EVERYTHING. I cried an embarrassing amount, especially during the credit rolls, and it was just fantastic.

so even though to me persona 3 still is my favorite game of all time, judgment takes a very good spot at number 2 which is a feat nonetheless. I'm going to love it to death.

it's been barely two months but I DON'T CARE!!!!! I JUST LOVE BEING PASSIONATE

thanks for reading my stupid babble on my experience with john judge eyes

bonus: all the drawings/screenshots my friends made of me and my downward spiral (i love my friends)

[gglitchshit]

I did it on instagram and I'll do it here too because it's fun and I encourage you to do the same. 😎👍

My fave music discoveries of 2024!

Not necessarily new artists, just me being a slowpoke. I will share the artist, the genre(s), write a bit about them and share a highlight album.

(If anytime I mention "this year" I'm talking about 2024, I just waited till last minute to post this because hey, what if 5 minutes before midnight I discover someone new, you know... spoiler: I didn't though hahah)

In order of discovery as much as I remember, let's GO.

1. Gelka

(downtempo, chillout, electronic)

I love Hungarian music that doesn't have any Hungarian in it. I heard them on the radio and was an instant fave. Listened to them a lot when playing Stardew Valley and when drawing and in... general. Perfect background music that is actually good.

Can't highlight any album mostly because I was listening to their entire discography on loop so I guess uh. Just any of them. Yeag.

2. Agalloch

(atmospheric black/doom/folk metal, post-rock/metal)

The beginning of the year feels like an eternity ago so I'm not sure how I came across them but man I'm glad I did. I'm not good with words but their atmosphere just moves my heart strings in ways unspeakable. The end of Hawthorne Passage never fails to make me tear up.

Highlight album: The Mantle. The album ever. Essential. Beloved.

Runner up: Ashes Against the Grain

3. Alcest

(post-black metal, blackgaze/shoegaze)

Came across them around the same time as Agalloch and ougghhhhhh yeag. I'm normal about them (no). First time I've ever cried to music because of how beautiful it is. Yeah. Yeah that's it.

Highlight album: Les Chants de l'Aurore - their newest album is truly one of if not their best but I also love the two previous ones as well.

4. Kamelot

(power metal)

I had Black Halo saved to listen later and I finally got around to it and damn. What an album. Eventually checked other albums too and confirmed that yep, Kamelot is epic.

So yeah, highlight album: The Black Halo

5. Batushka

(black metal)

Secondhand rec from a mutual (hi ardate ty~) when I saw their imagery and heard that they combined lithurgic chants with black metal... Neuron activation!!!! This is what I wanted from Ghost back in 2018 from their looks but didn't deserve lol. I love that they're ambiguous and vague about their stance on their religious themes. Are they satanic? Are they not? ~Who knows.~ From what I've heard they're definitely blasphemous and that's sexy~

Highlight album: Litourgiya god damn album of the century

6. Children of Bodom

(melodic death metal)

I'm VERY late to check them out I know (I'm still a baby metalhead after all) and I don't even remember what brought me to them but I've been doing nothing but listening to them for a month. Or maybe two at this point. My first song of the year 2025 was Hate Me becuase I had it on loop. I'm also learning Silent Night Bodom Night on guitar because I'm normal. RIP Alexi I love you. Highlight album: It's very hard to check out full albums because each song is so good I gotta loop it for 7 business days, so I can only say Follow the Reaper for now!

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Bonus: rediscoveries

1. Avatar

(uhh good luck I think they're melodic death metal and alternative metal? yes metal)

First came across them from Ghost Tumblr community back in the day and knew one (1) song and recognized Johannes anywhere but that's it. But then I saw them live and it flipped a switch in me. New obsession!!! They took over my brain for a few months and became top 2 artist in my wrapped oops (top 1 in youtube recap hehe). Ngl I even started learning swedish because of them. Chat no please don't laugh at me-

Highlight album: can't even choose one damn but Hail the Apocalypse is my most listened one.

2. Ensiferum

(folk metal)

Decided to check out more of them since I only knew one song here too and!!!! Hello??? Why did I sleep on them for so long. Learnt Token of Time entirely on guitar and also started learning Windrider but put it on hold because it's out of my league a tiny bit currently fhsfgshd.

Highlight album: Ensiferum (2001) beloved one of my fav albums ever actually, it's so good.

3. Moonsorrow

(folk metal, black metal)

Listened to them a bit last year but really listened more this year so I count then as rediscovery. Almost went to see them live too but chickened out. :( I absolutely love folk and black metal together, so it was destined I'd fall in love with them eventually.

Highlight album: Jumalten Aika because it has my fav song on it and it was the 666th album I've listened to, like of all time. ^_^

4. Windir

(black metal)

This is more like an album rediscovery than anything but 1184 is still so good what the hell. It is everything I want in black metal. I need to check out the other albums too sometime soon...

[taroris]

I was tagged by @thoseeyeslikefire, thank you!

15 Questions

Answers below the cut:

1. Are you named after anyone?

Nop

2. When is the last time you cried?

Well, I woke up crying yesterday after having one of those vivid dreams. It has been a while since the last one... 🙄

3. Do you have kids?

No, and I plan to stay like this forever

4. Do you use sarcasm?

Not really. I find it hard to use it in regular convos or while joking at all, but somehow it comes natural to me if I'm being mean during arguments, which... is something I'm trying to avoid resorting too at all tbh

5. What is the first thing you notice about people?

Nothing very specific. I'm very bad at reading people.

6. What is your eye colour?

Dark brown

7. Scary Movies or Happy Endings?

Mmh... the only scary movies I like so far are slashers, and yeah happy endings are great but pretty much all the story I end up loving aren't the ones with happy endings. Safer to go with nothing, I guess?

8. Any special talents?

To be honest, my self-esteem is pretty messed up at the moment to consider I have any special talents... I'll pass this question, yeah

9. Where were you born?

Let's say south of Spain, but not quite.

10. What are your hobbies?

I love reading and playing games, mostly on PC. I occasionally write and draw digitally. Lately I'm getting back to do some programming in my free time as well!

11. Do you have any pets?

No :(

12. What Sports do you play/have you played?

Pffff... The only sport I've ever done consistently had been swimming back when I was a kid (up until I was 9 yo). Then I switched to aerobic classes until the teacher and a group of her preferred girls excluded everyone else... Yeah, that happened. I lasted a couple of years, then returned when I was 17-18 and left again because the same teacher and a new group of girls were doing the same bullshit. And I haven't done any sports at all since.

13. How Tall are you?

162cm

14. Favourite subject in school?

I couldn't pick just one. History, physics and technology.

15. Dream Job?

I think there will always be a part of me that wants to know what it is to work at a library or even at a book store, but I think that will never happen. I'm currently working as a developer and software analyst, which is what I studied at uni, and I'm really happy to be able to work in a field I do like a lot. Sometimes I wonder if I should have taken the path of a history teacher... but I recently learnt that I have no patience to teach someone, let alone a group of teenagers... bullet dodged I guess

No pressure tag: @mrslittletall @kayleighwhatever @girlvinland @knighthoneybee @weeb-cheese @darkfirelion

[anxiouslyextroverted]

any hot takes about anything?

I got heaps but the main 2 I've been thinking of currently have been.

I do not like people who tell me that me saying "I have autism" is bad.

I do not like the quote 'practice makes perfect'

So the first one about autism. I got my autism diagnosed at 6 and from that point onwards especially at school, my autism was seen by everyone as just my identity, I was called autistic as an insult on the daily basis and multiple slurs. so the idea that people are trying to say to me that "I'm autistic > I have autism" is weird to me cuz not only have I experienced more ableism from people that have used the "identity first" language, but I also have used these terms interchangeably. Its not that I see autism as a disease, I just used them interchangeably. but I always prefered saying "I have autism" because it makes me feel more comfortable seeing Autism as this extra thing to me rather than just my whole identity because my whole life I've had to convince so many people that no, autism is not just my identity, I have a personality outside of my autism diagnosis ffs. So yeah. Whenever psychologists and people in general saw me as "autistic" that was fine until they made it my entire being. My parents, friends, helper teachers would always say "Oh you're shy right now, thats you being autistic" "oh you're talking a lot its cuz you're autistic" , "You're not introverted, you're autistic." Its fine to use identity first language ofc if it validates you to be proud of autism, but I wish ppl would undestand that there are so many people that are uncomfortable with just being seen as 'autistic' as their identity, when I just can't see autism as my identity. So many times where I've had to tell people all my life "I'm me. My autism BARELY effects me." and im sorry if that is insensitive but its an objective fact for me that my autism does not effect me nearly as much as my helper teachers, friends and family claimed it did. I hope that explains why I just get so annoyed when people try to change my way of seeing it srry. Autism is not who I am. I'm me before my autism. Personality comes first.

And the second one about the practice makes perfect. I have been drawing since I was 7 years old. I drew on the daily basis both digitally and traditionally and I'm 20 now and you'd think I'd be at a pro level since I have been drawing every single day since 7 but no... I'm barely even intermediate. I'm average, I can't even draw angles or perspective and it took me last week to actually know how to draw lighting + lineart. So Practice doesn't always make perfect. What makes you good at things is practicing the right way. My years of drawing never worked out because I am naturally a messy person who can't draw angles and shit like that, I was learning how to draw overall rather than focusing on fundamentals (watching tutorials on how to draw manga chars rather than tutorials on anatomy ect is oof), I treated art like a stim rather than actually focusing like I would dissociate always and not think whilst drawing, memory bad, I have blind optimism which is just seeing things as way better than they really are. It srsly didn't help that so many of my friends learnt how to draw like a pro within 2 WEEKS which was insane to me. So yeah I just hate that quote. I'd ague that even practicing the right way may not even work either, some people just arent born for certain things. Like aphantasia and dyslcalculia seriously impact my ability to draw. Oh and this didn't just happen with drawing but with dancing too, I danced ever since 3 and I should be a pro but I'm not and all my practice amounted to nothing.

so ye theres some takes ig. The 2nd ones less controversial but I just feel so strongly about it cuz im sick of artists in particular getting told "just try" "just draw everyday" "just practice" and fuck it, its how i feel about exposure therapy too. I did performing in front people + public speaking since i was 9 and it never once improved my social anxiety infact I'm pret sure it made it worse. "oh you have social anxiety. just do confident things" bro that doesn't always work for peoplee

[dolldoll5987]

Graduating high school is not worth celebration, it's worth the exact opposite.

As a senior in high school I get bombarded with questions like what I'm going to do after I graduate, like go to college or get a job. I've been suicidal since I was 11, all I want to do is die, which is what I've been trying to do for the last 7 years. I suppose my last fleeting hope was that after school was done I could finally just relax. Now I'm kinda hit with the pressure to do something else... when I don't want to. I mean, sure, being a productive and contributing member of society is all fine and brilliant when you actually have the will to. For the last 7 years all I've had the motivation to do is try to figure out how and get the courage to kill myself. I don't have the energy to go to school, but do because I have this crippling fear that if I miss just one day I'll fail and have to repeat this year of torture.

I suppose what I'm getting at is if all there is in life is to either get a job or go to school to be able to get a job you want (...depending what it is, I suppose), still labour in a way, all for money just to pay to live — what's the point if you don't want to live? Like, it's all work and payments for something I didn't ask for, and didn't want. Why would I put so much energy into that?

Also, I'd like to make a point to say that when I say there's nothing else in life besides that is hyperbolic in its own right. There are friends, family, hobbies/aspirations, whatever. None of these make me happy. I have few friends and no energy to socialise anyway, my family sucks, and I have no aspirations or hobbies. I mean okay I like reading, writing, drawing, and gaming and have a niche interests in things like criminology, forensics, medicine, science, and other stuff, but not enough to make it into a living. Well, maybe, but I definitely don't have the energy to. I'd need more school, and school is the definition of Hell for me. In a lot of ways it made my depression and eating disorder worst, although I do not blame them entirely for these events. I take blame where I need to. My fault for isolating myself (due to lack of energy to socialise, which isn't my fault, but I still made the choice to do what I did), my fault for resorting to an eating disorder as a desperate distraction and to feel good about myself for once. It's my fault, I get it.

Teachers and other staff ask me if I'm excited to graduate and I'm like. Well. I say yes but it's mixed feelings. It's odd, I hate school and want to get out, but when I do that I have nothing else. I don't have the smarts or motivation for college, and I don't see the point in getting a job to labour away and pay to live when I don't even want to be here anyway. I don't hate learning, I just don't like how schools teach. Maybe I'm pedantic about it, but there have been some teachers that give us easy work loads and easy classwork in itself and still managed to leave me feeling like my time was being used well there because 1) I had fun for once, and 2) I actually remembered what I learnt. I wish more people teach like they do. Now I just feel like a big ball of lost potential because I've had so many people tell me I'm smart and even at genius levels yet I never use it in a good way I always do it to detriment myself.

I don't know. Not everything has a good ending, especially not this. I plan on offing myself after I graduate, which is soon. I won't do it immediately after I graduate, probably.

I just. Ugh. I want to cry. I should be happy about graduating, but I can't be. All I can think about is how everyone else has their lives figured out - going to college, getting a job, whatever, while I'll be by myself with no friends, no life, no potential, and bored out of my mind but with no energy to start something. Even then, nothing interests me socially. I hate social interaction to the point of isolating myself entirely just to avoid it, which is a bad thing to do probably, but socialising causes me pain. I feel so different from everyone else and that I'm too weird and people are only ever nice out of pity or deception.

It seems that when I'm very bored, I get the most suicidal. With nothing to distract me I realise how dull and shallow my life is compared to everyone else's. Everyone else has friends, everyone else has at least some happiness, yet here I am with a chronic 😐 expression to the point people constantly ask what's wrong/if I'm okay when it's only my resting face. It's annoying having to always answer. Like... no, I'm not okay, but for the sake of this conversation, yes. I wish I could just disappear forever.

I don't want advice, I don't want help, I don't even want to make it better. I've been on meds and in therapy from ages 7-15, and it didn't help me at all, even made it worse sometimes. My life was doomed from the beginning, and since late 2019 it's gotten so, so much worse. Please, I just want it to end. When will the malnutrition that I've been experiencing for half a year finally just kill me? When will this all end? I want it to end. I want to die. Please.

[silkastral911]

1. Like uhhhh idk early this year ig

2. Earth and Fire :3

3. I was watching alterhuman stuff last year but I would say I joined it this year

4. My scales are red and green ig (Christmas vibes low key) I'm not sure of any unique features yet.

5. I feel sad when I see dragons as always the villains of like stories and stuff and how they r evil even though a lot I feel aren't

6. Idk about past memories but I get alot of dreams about it and I sometimes feel scaley wings and snout and horns and things.

7. My shifts I just feel body parts that aren't there. I don't really get any others very often

8. Idk my species diet but I'm guessing like omnivore or something

9. I breathe fire and the earth part I do like earth bending lol like from avatar 😭

10. I change sizes constantly but I would say like a tiny bit larger than toothless on the average

11. I looveeee hoarding, I like hosting buttons, coins, shiny stuff, rocks, sticks, crystals, beads, seeds... I forget what else

12. I'm not sure. I mean I wear dragon/dinosaur mask?? As like a way to express myself sometimes.

13. All the time. I want to be a dragon and my in the blue sky :3

14. My habitat is a tall forest of some kind. .? I think I'm not sure I haven't thought about it

15. I'm protective of people I care about and the spot where I eat my lunch

16. Well unfortunately when I discovered alterhumans I landed on like the tiktok/youtube side, however I found tumbkr therians and learnt so much more information that's actually correct and so far I love the tumblr alterhuman community

17. I don't use special vocal cause I struggle with vocabulary already 😭 I'm too tired for that

18. Not that I know of yet... other than like clicking sometimes

19. I recently joined a otherkin community on here however I haven't posted on it yet so they probably don't know I'm on there. I should do that... I'm also on a alterhuman pack in animal jam and they r really cool :3

20. In my cave cause otherwise I'm at work or sports. I never usually have time to be in nature unless at the beach in 40km per hour winds to walk my dog.

21. I got to say httyd but I haven't really discovered alot of dragon stuff yet, I've been meaning to read Fourth Wing though. I really wanna play a game where I can be a dragon though that'll be cool.

22. Not face to face but I've met another dragon person over a zoom meeting thing they were a fire dragon.

23. I still need to educate myself on this stuff but I would say spiritual the most... I'm still discorvering and learning sorry

24. Yaaaa rabbit and tiger therian

25. I recently customised a dinosaur mask however it's furless cause I'm too broke for that and idk how. I have a dragon mask I got from Spotlight 😭💅✨️ that came with wings and a tail, in red colour. I think that's it though

26. Speech, eyes (signals ig), sounds/vocals

27. I've been in like 2 different forms 1 is feral like full dragon another is like a draconian so like a humanised dragon?

28. I know what I look like I just can't draw it or find like any art to describe but this is the closest I can get. Idk who the artist is though. If I find out I will say who it is. Oh wait I the corner it says stablediffusionweb.com so I guess I found it from there.

29. I have no body modifications

30. The only dragonkin that has inspired me would be the one I met on that zoom call I mentioned above somewhere

31. Jeeze this took forever lmao, soz for yapping

Also if I got that thing for the artwork wrong pls let me know I will try to find the creator if I can't I will take the image down cause I won't wanna be stealing art or something idk.

dragonkin ask game

hey there! since this year, the year of the dragon, is getting to its end, i decided to come up with some questions for dragonkin and other draconic beings in the alterhuman and plural community. these can be used for personal use in blogs and are free to use for "draconic question of the week" pings on discord, for example. i will explain the reason for those and what i plan to do with them below the questions after the cut. i hope you will have fun with those.

questions under the cut

1. when did you find out you are a dragon?

2. what kind of dragon are you?

3. when did you join the dragonkin/alterhuman community?

4. what are some unique features of your dragon self? can be related to your body, your powers or your behavior.

5. what do you think of the representation of dragons on earth?

6. do you have memories of being a dragon in a past life or concurrent life?

7. what do your shifts look like, if you have any?

8. what does your species' diet?

9. do you have a breath weapon? if yes, which one?

10. do you know your dragon body's size?

11. do you hoard?

12. how does your draconity influence you irl?

13. do you feel species dysphoria sometimes?

14. what did/would your habitat look like?

15. are you territorial? can be a place(s) or other beings.

16. what do you think about the dragonkin/alterhuman community?

17. do you use a special vocabulary related to your draconity?

18. does your species have a special language or alphabet?

19. do you have a pack/clan or are you on your own?

20. where do you spend the most time? outside in nature or in your cave (at home)?

21. what is your favorite dragon media? is it a book series, a show, a video game or something else?

22. have you ever met a dragon like you or similar to you?

23. do you consider your identity spiritual, psychological or something else? do you use these labels at all?

24. do you have any other identities beside being a dragon?

25. do you own any gear (tails, horns, jewelry etc.) related to your draconity?

26. how does your species communicate primarily? do you use speech, sounds/vocals and/or body language?

27. is your dragon self animalistic/feral or sapient?

28. do you have a visual description of yourself or something that looks similar to your dragon body?

29. do you have any body modifications (tattoos, implants etc.)?

30. are there any dragons/other dragonkin who inspire you?

31. free space

the reason i made this ask game is because i will try to answer every one of the questions during the last month of the year of the dragon. this is a sort of "dragonkin ask game/challenge", and you can try it too, if you want.

thank you for taking a look <3

[wistfullinsomniac]

Being an artist online

I kept thinking about my past 6 years being an artist online, nearing 1k followers on twitter and wanted to write some stuff I've learnt in this time. This isn't career advice or anything like that, I'm not some hugely successful BNF, but just some personal art things I would of told myself when I started.

1) The feeling of getting a piece that gets 100s of interactions from strangers is just as good from getting passionate feedback from 10 of your friends. Trying to aim for maximum engagement is exhausting and it's far more rewarding to create for a small group who appreciate you! Keep creating for yourself and a following will start naturally.

2) Popularity as an artist isn't all it's cracked up to be. Almost every artist I've talked to who achieved huge popularity in a fandom also had to deal with intense scrutiny and imposter syndrome. From the outside it might seem like the end goal of creating art, but I don't think it's a healthy one, especially if you rely on it for creative fulfilment. Create primarily for yourself, you deserve it.

3) No matter how far you take your artistic skills, there's always a bigger goal. You will reach a stage in your art you never considered possible, but the feeling of your work not being up to your personal standard never goes away. Your eyes will always be bigger than your stomach. The only way around this is to internalize it and accept your art for what it is and know you're going to improve with each and every work, as long as you try.

4) The only way to solve a problem like being unable to draw hands or backgrounds is to focus and push through with practice! If you have a weak point in your creations, focus on that and do as much of it as possible. Before you know it, that weak point will become your strongest point!

5) Don't consider yourself as working towards a finished, self contained creation, but rather working as a practice towards your future abilities. This will help with creative blocks and even if you end up unsatisfied with a work, you can accept it as just a part of your practice that will help you in the future.

6) Use references and do studies. Seriously, do a bunch! It's the best way to improve and I know its kind of natural as a beginner to attempt drawing something you've never studied before and to have it not work out, making yourself feel like a failure. It's silly looking back on the things I attempted with no study then beat myself up for not getting to look how I wanted. There's no point where you graduate from using references, only when you've internalized enough details to fill the gaps. If you have access to life drawing classes I can't recommend them enough.

7) Don't focus or agonize over your "style", as a lot of new artists often do. Your style develops naturally as you internalize other works and it's better to try to study as many different styles as you can. You can start choosing directions for your style as you go, but keep in mind your personal style is most often invisible to yourself but visible to others. It's nothing to fret over.

8) Similarly, don't let your "style" become a crutch when it can be a tool. Don't shy away from traditional or technical studies, they really aren't as hard as they seem and having a good grasp of the fundamentals will make you far more confident and equipped to push stylization a lot further, rather than just copying the stylizations of other artists who have studied their fundamentals.

9) Don't shy away from criticism. An experience I've realized I share with a lot of artists in school was receiving a piece of criticism from a teacher or a friend that at the time seemed both cruel and true, making us hate the work and our failure to fix these issues, but the criticism itself was internalized and we improved on these faults in the future, making our work stronger in return. After an experience like this, you begin to seek out criticism a lot easier, because you learn how effective it can be to push yourself further. Can it hurt? Yes, but just like physical exercise it gets easier the more you do it.

10) Burnout isn't a failure or lack of effort on your part, it's a natural and important part of creative improvement. The journey to getting better with your work isn't a straight line, rather it's one with a lot of humps and dips. You will achieve a great work you never considered possible, then languish as the next piece just seems to fail in compassion. During these times it is ESSENTIAL to give yourself a break, take the time to look for new art work to be inspired by and do technical studies as you build up to the next great work. These humps can be almost debilitating the first few times they happen in your practice and I've known a lot of beginner artists who gave up at these points, but once you accept them and no longer treat them as a personal failure, improvement is inevitable! Train and fight! Warriormale!!!

Most importantly in art, have fun with it. Always :)

[the1312daysofchristmas]

What got you into fob? I've seen your posts a lot and I always wonder how some peeps found the boys

ok so we have to start when i was about 6 ish years old, 2006 thereabout, when some show comes on and i see some dude on the screen who has like. eyeliner and straight black bangs and i dont know why but this freaks little me the fuck out and i knew 1 thing and it was that this dude was like an example of a cliche rock and roll guy so i decided right then and there i would NEVER get into alternative music because i did not under any circumstances want to look like that.

so fast forward almost a decade, i have just learnt albums are a thing that exist with maroon 5s overexposed (this is so sad alexa press f) and my best friends and i go to the movies to watch big hero 6 bc i thought itd be fun, and i realised Holy Shit I Love This Movie And Also Want To Be An Engineer, and then the scene plays (you know the scene) and my friend and i turn to each other and agree, this song? a banger. hard as hell. love this shit. and i left the theatre and i couldnt get the song or the movie out of my head so i subsequently watched big hero 6 like 2 more times (very major for me, a person who doesnt really watch movies) and listened to immortals by playing the music video (i use the term loosely) on loop for like 2 days. and then i realised, boy. i sure do like this song and i think its my favourite song and i cant even parse the lyrics. i should listen to some other stuff. so i listened to other stuff off ab/ap, on shuffle, and i loved it a lot and i realised immortals wasnt even my favourite song anymore. so i was like dang, if thats the case i should listen to another album by them (because rememver id just learned albums exist) so i listened to save rock and roll, again on shuffle (because it didnt really occur to me that order mattered yet, one foot in the door) and i realised again, liked this even more than what i last listened to. so then i went to folie a deux, and im not sure if i hit shuffle, because the first thing that played was disloyal order. and i thought for a moment something was wrong, because it was quiet, but then there was the click of what i now know to be billiards balls, and the organs, and patricks voice, and i think i met a god when i heard that. i think that did something to me.

from then on i was hooked. im still hooked, mind you, but i have the benefit of not being 14 now. so everything i did had to be related to fall out boy. hell i could play the 7 degrees of fall out boy if anyone would humour me. i was obsessed. so then, a few months later, my art teacher gave us an assignment to draw facial details, but i didnt feel comfortable asking my friends because i wasnt used to having good ones yet so i thought theyd say no, so i decided, hey. google pictures of fall out boy. so i did, i opened google and searched 'pete wentz' and was looking for good pictures to use as a reference and then i came across the exact picture of him that scared me into avoiding alternative music for my entire life up until that point. i honestly dont know which one it is anymore (i THINK it was him in the full band portrait from ioh?) but i still think that its fucking hilarious that seeing pete wentz kept me from realising im a fan of pete wentz. 6 year old dils would hate my style so much til i explain that ironically our exact philosophy is entailed by those scary rock and roll type people. like to a T i was straight up an anarchist (and kind of a communist too?) without even really understanding what that means. its hilarious.

anyway thats how i became a fall out boy fan.