#I'm just tired
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Don't worry I know he is those things. However, the concept spoke to me
#ffxiv#thancred waters#2024#my art#sorry for only posting gag doodles I am working on real stuff sometimes#I'm just tired
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Life so bad I'll go drink Gotham's water.
I just didn't have enough sleep.
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still thinking about being accused of a fat kink on my art blog like. it's not the first time it's happened, and it's always ALWAYS been because i dared to draw fat people in a non-demeaning way.
whether i draw them suggestively or i do not, i am still asked "why do you draw [character] fat? do you have a fat kink?" and it's so odd. even if i wasn't fat myself, drawing fat people is not weird. hell, even having a fat kink is one of the tamest kinks you can possibly have, bordering on the very common behaviour of simply finding people attractive.
you shouldn't need to be fat to find fat folk attractive. you shouldn't need to be fat to draw fat people. drawing fat people, loving fat people, is what i'd consider, the bare fucking minimum.
and for fuck's sake, stop using fat kink as a fucking gotcha for people who dare to draw fat characters. people do have fat kinks and they're absolutely fine.
#baffy talks#fatphobia tw#ok to reblog#not blog related#i'm just tired#if this was the first time this has happened sure#but it's not#i always get asked this when i draw fat ppl in a way that isn't insulting to them
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So the newest trend I'm noticing on tiktok is that cooking videos (the types that are just shots of food being cooked, especially boxed lunch type food) have started to plaster on the caption 'making a survival meal for my husband's 12 hour night shift' or something to that effect
and like
damn. like the aesthetic isn't even upper class trad wife old money whatever anymore, it's trad wife married to an exploited coal miner???? like i know you all don't have partners that work 10 or 12 hour shifts, but at the same time what's the point of talking about it or commenting, because you'll immediately get hit with "it's not that deep, it's not that serious, it's just a caption and a trend"
but also... at what point can we actually acknowledge that it is that deep. it is that serious.
you have to be a clean girl, old money, mob wife, tradwife, make nara smith food from scratch in a ballgown with a baby on your arm, tripod all set up so you can film yourself, make sure to look perfect and beautiful and thin and white with a big bright toothpaste-commercial mormon smile and have that no-makeup makeup/hair look that takes an hour to achieve, post how you're cooking for your husband's 12 hour night shift at the business factory, pretend you're not either the main breadwinner with your video revenue or trying to be because that doesn't fit in the tradwife recession aesthetic and it's just not that deep
or you could go the other route and be an 'OF girl', make videos about how you tried to fuck a hundred guys in one day, bounce in a bikini for jack doherty or any given tate wannabe you can find who'll pimp you out and make even more money when he goes on podcasts demeaning you for it, because what other option is there, but it's really not that deep, it's empowering isn't it? it's her own choice, she can just quit, it's easy money and views right? she's a boss babe, it's not that serious
girl dinner, because girls can't cook for themselves. girl math, those silly girls can't count, they just be shopping! do you have a pink girlie job or a blue girlie job? haha just the feminine urge to Create! i'm just a girl!
your body is an Aesthetic to be consumed, whether directly through public sex work or indirectly through the 'old fashioned values' schtick. your mind? no one has any need for that. you're just a girl.
most of the world is being drowned in fascism that is in huge parts focused on rolling back women's rights, but it's not that deep. you can just be a tradwife or bounce for the boys. it's not that deep. it's not that deep.
#long post#i realize i'm not saying anything new here#i'm just tired#i'm not a woman but i do have to live as one by government decree and it's rough lately
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I think what bugs me the most about what happened today other than the fact that I was the one getting vagued is the fact that the conversation got warped into one that is about morality and not simply theorizing on The Ravens and how The Nest works
my original post essentially said two things:
The Ravens are victims and to erase that because they don't fit the model of the perfect victim and some have even become abusers erases all nuance from that portion of Jean and Kevin's lives and the surrounding discussion
Cults are weird. I grew up in one. And it is very easy to manipulated by one and to feel trapped and to also be completely in the dark about what is happening in a cult even when you're in the heart of it
I did not say anyone had to forgive the Ravens (they're fictional characters. fake people. that wasn't even on my mind) or that any of them are by any means good people. i also didn't say that they were all oblivious or that there weren't some of them that were abusive. I also never made this a conversation about morality and whether or not the Ravens are good or bad people for staying in a cult.
For some reason that got warped into what we are currently discussing and involved some highly insensitive language surrounding cult victims including things being said like it's not crazy to expect people to walk away from things like scholarships, financial security, or career security if it means being complacent in abuse and that it's "just basic morals".
And I'm sorry for getting personal on this but as a cult survivor I think that's one of the most upsetting and insensitive things I have heard come from these conversations today.
It doesn't matter what x thing is whether it's money or food or housing or a career. In a cult they use whatever it is you need and make you dependent on them for it. Also with the Ravens in particular keep in mind it wasn't simply being complacent in abuse. They were being abused.
If you have been in a similar situation, if you are grappling with the guilt of leaving a cult or anything like a cult, know that you are not a moral failure for having stayed for as long as you did. You are not moral failure for staying for whatever reason you did. It is not just basic morals when it comes to living in a cult. Morality becomes warped and the concept of what is immoral and moral is something completely different and that is intentional.
It doesn't matter whether you think the Ravens were aware of Riko's abuse or not. Having differing opinions on that is completely okay. What you don't get to do is turn it into a conversation about morality where you then get to insult cult survivors like we're evil people for not walking away at the first red flag because we needed something. Because we were in survival mode and we weren't able to focus on other people.
We still don't have all the details on how the Ravens function or the type of abuse players even outside of the perfect court face other than it was extreme. It's fun to theorize. And it's okay if people disagree. But if you can't be mindful about where your opinion switches from theory to some huge declaration of moral high ground then you've lost the fucking plot.
I would love to talk more about the Ravens and my theories on them. I would love to talk more about how cults work and why I think it's possible they were completely unaware of Riko's abuse. There's a lot of nuance in those conversations and I would love to take the time to treat them with the care they deserve. I'm also still incredibly upset by a lot of the things said today and I can acknowledge that this is a topic that is very personal to me. So this is me opening up that can of worms (again) and I'm more than happy to have those conversations and answer questions but please be patient with me because if it isn't already obvious this is a topic that is incredibly sensitive to me
#idek what i'm saying with this anymore#i'm just tired#aftg#tsc#the sunshine court#all for the game#jean moreau#kevin day#neil josten#riko moriyama#andrew minyard#jeremy knox#david wymack#tetsuji moriyama#thea muldani#edgar allan ravens#palmetto state foxes#aaron minyard#nicky hemmick#matt boyd#allison reynolds#renee walker#dan wilds#tsc spoilers#ish ig#personal.txt
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christians will really be like I love you unconditionally ^_^ as long as you behave how I think you should or as long as I think I can convert you ^_^ just like jesus
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I don't think i ever have said this and genuinely meant this but I wish I were white.
I can pretend I'm not Queer. I can pretend I'm not trans. I can act like I'm not disabled. And hell i can pretend I'm not half native.
I am very visibly black. I can't hide that.
I don't like having to watch people actively vote against my rights for bullshit like "lower taxes." I don't like having to vote not for my policies or interests but for my survival of all things because for some reason in this backwards ass country that is not a secure right of mine but something that back be actively taken away.
I don't like being mocked because i am black and fem presenting. I don't like people believing in fake statistics or studies that dehumanize or degrade me. I don't like having to pick out my clothing based on whether or not people will think i look "threatening" with it on. I don't like constantly looking at cops in fear of what could happen if they get "scared" of me.
I don't like living like this.
I just want to live.
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The Ghibli AI filter is shit for many reasons, but there's one I haven't seen mentioned and keeps bugging me: Why does it turn everyone into Ashitaka or Nausicaa? There are so many different faces in Ghibli films, I mean, look!









Big noses! Long noses! Bagged eyes! Tiny irises! Squared chins! Different head shapes! Wrinkles! But the AI doesn't care, and neither do the people using it. I see friends sharing their AI generated pics, saying "This is how I would look in a Ghibli movie", and I say "No, I know you. You don't look like Howl/Arriety/Marnie. The AI even whitewashed you but you're okay with your default Mii face?! Fine! For the sake of our friendship, I'm just gonna ignore you did this" :|
#uh#fuck ai#fuck ai art#studio ghibli#hayao miyazaki#isao takahata#hiromasa yonebayashi#i'm just tired#my faculty#the so called cultural radio#my cousin's play he produced#everyone with that fuckin filter#makes me wanna scream#AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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Sometimes I don't reply some asks I receive for safekeeping, I have a bunch piled up that are the sweetest things I've received so because I still want to come back and keep reading them again from time to time I just let them hang out on my inbox. I still see everything yall send though, and I appreciate each word and each piece of mind I receive. It's like that weird shelf u always have in your room with all your interests piled up, you always come back to it just to see all the precious memories.
#chrona.. rambles abt shit#do i sound like i'm high rn??#I'm just tired#today was a long day#augheghhh#sleep sleep#i want to sleep#but I can't bc SOME FUCKER IS PLAYING LOUD MUSIC#bruno. bruno fucking mars.#they're playing bruno mars.
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I feel like this entire fandom got as far as "Dumbledore had a messed up past!" and turned off their brains from there
This drives me so fucking nuts.
Dumbledore WAS attached to an extremist group in his youth-- Grindelwald's "greater good" was an ideal he believed in, it's true.
UNTIL it wasn't any more.
It fucking pisses me off when people write fics about Harry having to deal with "greater good" phase Dumbledore because!!! the whole point is that he saw the error of that way of thinking!!! He deconstructed and decided to avoid positions of political power!!! That's why he refused to be minister, not because he wanted to keep manipulating from the shadows or whatever but literally because he did not trust himself with that much power!!! The existence of the prophecy put him in a deeply strained situation between "I have a duty, a responsibility, as a person with the abilities and experience I have, to do everything in my power to stop Voldemort" vs "I literally do not trust myself in positions of power or responsibility because I have proven to myself in the past that I cannot be trusted." He doesn't want to make it a numbers game! He wants Harry to grow up and live happily ever after, so much so that he nearly destroys all of his own plans in order to achieve that end! Calling Dumbledore manipulative and equating that with him being bad is such a shallow take. Yes, he's manipulative; that doesn't make him evil! If slytherin ambition and slyness can be positive traits why are you intentionally plugging your ears to avoid letting machiavellian manipulation be used for a positive end as well? Is it because you decided in your edgy middle school phase that the Light Side are Secretly Evil and the Dark Side is Tragically Misunderstood and you haven't grown or matured since then? Did you completely miss the part where Dumbledore utterly despises himself with his whole being? Did you miss the part where he made the choices he thought he had to, not because he wanted to but because they were necessary, and even then he couldn't keep from sabotaging himself in the hope that Harry might get just one more happy year, one more happy month with his friends instead of having to fight or die in a war he shouldn't have had to face? Grow the fuck up. Do you want me to get on your level? If you think Dumbledore was "raising Harry like a pig for slaughter" you're agreeing with Professional Racist and Child Abuser Severus Snape. You're agreeing with the guy who quit the KKK not because he didn't agree with them anymore, but because the girl he wanted to be his exception didn't survive her family's honor killing to marry him instead. How's that for a childish argument? Does that get through your thick skull? Does that appeal to your barely pubescent sense of morality? "It's for the greater good" my ass. If your year-5 or -6 Dumbledore is still making Greater Good arguments then you've accidentally transposed him with the teenage version of himself that Rita Skeeter exhumed for clout and controversy. Dumbledore was a highly intelligent cult victim who got out and never trusted his own perception of a situation again but still did his fucking best, okay? get over your authority issues without reasonable solutions, deprogram yourself, deradicalize yourself, and figure out that people are still people no matter their past mistakes and when they're genuinely doing the best they can, especially when they're drowning and alone and trying to make the best of a shitty situation for everyone involved, maybe have like. A single ounce of compassion instead of declaring them wholly evil without possibility of parole.
#rick's rambles#angry rambling#harry potter#dumbledore#pro dumbledore#anti snape#i do have compassion for snape too btw#i just also don't think he was trying to improve and that limits my patience with him#this isn't anything#i'm just tired#the harry potter fandom never grew up they just radicalized#and it's exhausting
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petition to stop calling ai artificial intelligence and start calling it what it actually is- algorithmic intelligence. none of this shit is even remotely fucking close to ai and if we stop fucking pretending it is, 99% of the issues stemming from it would be gone
#i'm just tired#and i hate ai#but it makes me mad bc it has so many benefits#like in science#but noooooooooooo capitalism had to ruin it#ugh#ai#fuck ai#not stargate
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Heyyy I guess I owe you all an apology heh? Well I'm here with something new
Regulus didn't ask for things, he waited and planned but would never ask. He never felt like he had the right to. His parents really didn't care for his opinion and others never really were patient enough, to figure it out on their own.
But Siri did, he always knew just from one look at him. The way his eyes widened a bit and he opened his eyes a bit in adoration. Well at least that's what he did when Regulus was little, as he grew he has gotten better at hiding his expressions and covering them with an ice mask. It wasn't a mask really, more of a shield. If walburga knew about something you liked and therefore it could potentially be a 'distraction' to whatever bullshit she had in mind, she would do everything to get rid of it. Regulus treasured his possessions and hid them. Sirius treasured his and displayed them proudly.
Too many times he had to watch his brother staring at walburga with nothing but absolute hate and disgust, uselessly biting his tears back, as she tore apart his books and photographs, made him burn his records and letters, but both brothers knew, that if they'd cry in front of her, she had won.
The point is that Regulus never wanted anything, it was never his place to want. But Sirius knew, and he gave Regulus everything, far more than Regulus deserved in Regulus's opinion. And even when both of them were freed it was hard for Regulus to pick up anything, without thinking only of its practical use. But for the first time in his life Regulus felt the need, the want and he was so sure, for first time he was certain that this was something he wanted to do.
Sirius was eager to introduce him to his boyfriend, wich really a bit funny bc he talked about Remus so much, and showed his little brother at least dozen of his and their photos, so he felt like he may know Remus than Remus himself just from listening to his brother.
Regulus might act nonchalant about it but he was really grateful that his brother met someone that made him feel good about himself. He himself had find himself two good friend Evan and Barty, but despite that he knew that Sirius was worried about him- but he was okay, they got out of that house and bought their first apartment together, from the money uncle left them when he himself was banned from within the family, Sirius was meeting new people and he was really good at playing electric guitar, and when Remus will eventually move in, Regulus will go. Because he was alright. He will just have to pack his books.
It was snowing and Regulus was nervous. It was silly but what if Remus didn't like him? Would Sirius dislike him too now? He knew that was stupid, he figured out from Sirius's rambling that Remus was really not unlike his owns personality... But still.
It was especially cold today's evening and he could feel his cheeks grow cold and red from the ice crystals constantly brushing against him.He was thankful that Siri was holding his hand,( wich was an odd sentence all together because normally he couldn't stand the feeling of someone even brushing against him,) cuz that atleast kept his hand busy, and it made it easier for the older to move them through the crowd.
Regulus hated crowds, there was no way of avoiding people bumping or pushing him. His skin got prickly and he felt the need to scrub himself clean of the touch. The noise was terrible too, but Sirius always made sure to carry noise cancelling headphones, when in public.
He could tell that they were getting closer because, suddenly Sirius was all but dragging him, towards a pretty green, corner cafe. And oh. OH. it was dimly lit with few fairly lights, and he's expected the cafe to be buzzing but it was actually pleasant not too loud but still some noise. The air was warm and his cheeks flushed from the heat, it also smelled of coffee and cookies.
Regulus could feel himself visibly staring wide starry eyed, and his mouth open in shock but OH. Suddenly he was filled with the urge to know. He tugged on siris coat and Sirius just chuckled in response and finally lead him up front to the counter. There was a tall dirty blonde haired guy with with red half apron tired around his waist, that shyly waved at Regulus, who immediately averted the contact. So it was really happening huh.
Remus
Part 1 cuz I'm about to fall asleep so at least in posting this
#marauders#remus lupin#sirius black#regulus black#books#writing#james potter#wolfstar#jegulus#there will be more#i'm just tired#autist Reggie
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//Okay, mod post time.
Guys, I understand that you may find it funny or amusing, but please understand that there are LIVING people sitting behind the blogs.
I just don't like receiving so many nasty comments, something inappropriate, or questions about the future plot...
Haha, the funniest thing is when I'm asked about something that will happen in the future, do I know? I'm not a Horizons scriptwriter, I can't know everything, I'm just having fun and running an RP account,but in the end now I just feel disrespected, and not only for me, but also for Liko.Please think carefully about what you are writing, I am also a person, I can also feel unpleasant and bad. Thanks.
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I'm sorry i don't know how to help
#I'm just not good at it#i can't even fucjing help myself#personal vent#vent#i'm sorry#i don't know if i'm being helpful or annoying#usually the latter#i just dont know what jm doing#i dont know why i even help if i know I'll just make things worse#i'm just tired#im apathetic#I'm not meant for helping people#i can't feel what others usually do#i can't cry#i don't feel remorse#i don't feel emotions when i should#and vice versa#hhhhh
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augustus and julia dressed up for halloween!

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#the laziest costumes yay#i'm just tired#Halloween#ask#anonymous#night at the museum#natm#parents or bust au#julia the elder#augustus caesar#art#fanart#traditional art
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