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Minnie sweetheart you are absolutely right in saying that a lot of the behaviour that certain 'fans' exhibit is entitled and crosses boundaries and a lot of them were saying that he was doing the Apprentice role because he agrees with that man...which I mean what even is that?? How can they be fans and have such a wrong idea of who Sebastian is when he's always been authentic in interviews and has made his position on a lot of issues very clear
But from what I've seen...a lot of the discourse came from spaces that are not necessarily Sebastian specific. So a lot of the people commenting were not fans but people who had seen him in the MCU but knew nothing else about him...and he proved them wrong as well last night when he called Tr*mp a hypocrite and basically put his media training aside and said what was on his mind. And don't get me wrong...Sebastian doesn't have to prove anything to anybody, but I'm glad he did it so that people outside the fandom can be aware of his stance as well.
And all this does is show me one shouldn't judge a book by the cover because the Apprentice is clearly a critique of not only *that man* but also as Sebastian has repeatedly mentioned in interviews it shows the dark side of the ambition and the American dream
Oh NO, I totally missed this one! I'm so sorry, lovely! Thanks for sending me this, although I feel like it was a while ago..?
And aahh I see, yes. I can imagine there may have been people out there who just knew *of* Sebastian and who weren't necessarily fans, who were wondering if him being in a movie about trump might mean that he supported him. But at the same time... You'd only have to look into what the movie is about, read a review or two, and you'd know that is very unlikely, right? Assuming something based on limited information is one thing, I guess we all do that sometimes, but to then go online and create discourse and criticise someone (especially an actor), without educating yourself first? That's just silly, imo. I guess it's a nice idea that people will see him criticising trump and immediately know that he's not a supporter, but that would've also been pretty easy to gather with just a little but of googling (or by actually watching the movie first).
But I don't know, maybe I expect too much of people 😉 In any case, I think you're right, there is more to the movie than just trump bashing, and Sebastian has been very articulate about that in his interviews recently! Let's just hope people see that as well 🙏🏻
#sorry#I'm not very articulate myself tonight#I'm very tired and had a long day#I tried lol!#sebastian stan#the apprentice#minnie answers
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Also increasingly aware that a LOT of people "manage" getting through the 40+ hour work week by sleeping less than is healthy and relying on stimulants like coffee and energy drinks to keep them going.
For people who are unwilling or unable to do this...work really does just dominate your life. Like we really should not have to rely on unhealthy practices just to have a social life or keep on top of housework or whatever.
I know I post about this a lot but I'm so TIRED all the time and it's just so depressing that this is how we're expected to spend the one life we have.
#i have to get at least 8 hours of sleep a night to even barely function#with sleep#getting ready for work#commute#cooking#and errands#I typically have maybe 2-3 hours to actually do what i want in a day#and I'm usually too tired to actually do the things i want to do#and that's with a very short commute#if i actually had a long commute I'd basically do nothing but work#i see my friends like once every few weeks or months#because we're all so fucking busy with work and have such little time for socialising#and none of us even have kids or anything!!
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Just a bit of lore relevant vent art (with terrible proportions bc apparently I mess that up horribly when I'm tired ugh. Watch me regret posting this tomorrow. The head size is already driving me mad bc it's too big, and I can feel myself wanting to abort this mission already) of Mourynn just, lying down on top of one of those large elevated Pale Tree roots far above the Grove (and far away from everyone else), and during the time between the early years and before the Personal story. Caithe is gone (Destiny's Edge), Wynne is gone (bc well, y'know...), even Faolain is gone (bc of Caithe in DE), and she's just feeling miserable, lost, and alone. (Her hair is in between her sapling hair and the Zhaitan hair, so it's grown out a bit bc she's depressed, and she's meant to be in the new outfit she designed, but I'm in the process of redesigning it a bit, so I've made a few tentative changes for now. Her collar is now just an extension of her clavicle leaves which can be put up like a collar, or can be draped down over her shoulders or back)
#gw2#sylvari#artgallery#mourynn#mourynn art#I've just been so tired lately bc of work#also just going a bit stir crazy with the silence (lonely; but alas I unfortunately suck at starting convos bc I have nothing interesting t#talk about and work has been draining my social energy; making it even harder :( (I'd rather burn the social energy with friends yknow?)#it's getting a wee bit better; but I haven't had much time or energy to even game while we're in the midst of our busiest season :(#I miss hanging out and chatting with my buds; but the universe insists on keeping us apart :(#just miss having something to look forward to throughout my day. Been trying to fill it with other things; but the depresso is overriding i#Mostly just been me with my thoughts and that is just bad bc I got so many horrors in there lmao.#I wanna at the very least; draw more or game more to distract from it; but work is sapping all my time and energy from it.#but also it's very quiet on my end and it's kicking my overthinking into overdrive so I#Ive just been fighting with my mind lately lmao#hopefully this will all pass soon so I won't obsessively keep thinking about it loll#lol I'd post this in the servers but it's vent art so it feels a bit weird to do; so it's going straight to home video w/o a theater releas#hopefully once work calms down it'll help#(I have so many long shifts makes me so frustrated bc I hate them and I run out of steam half way through)#other than all that I'm doing fine lol. My brain's always been like this; But I usually only get like this during the winter season#(bc of the holidays making everything quiet and also the SAD) so it feels weird having this exact same feeling happen to me in July lol
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Okay I'm kinda talking out my ass/projecting my own autism onto Saiki here but:
Though Saiki is an unreliable narrator and truly loves his friends, I think some of his resentment over hanging out with them is real, and I can understand it.
I am a person who can readily admit I love my friends, and I do like to socialise, but I need plenty of warning beforehand and time to recuperate afterwards, because socialising takes effort. When I'm invited to do something or hang out with friends, I almost always feel a shadow of resentment about it - even if it's a thing I want to do and with people I like. It still feels like I'm losing out on a day of doing jack-shit. Cancelling on doing jack-shit is still cancelling on plans, even if those plans were just "wake up, write fanfiction, draw pictures, etc." and it throws me off. I feel like I can't enjoy spending time with my friends unless I give myself time to get excited about it, and if it happens too suddenly I find myself shutting down or floating away a bit.
Now, if we look at Saiki, who's friendship with all these people was pretty much built on these kinds of interactions, and add those to his deep-rooted belief that he doesn't deserve friends, that resentment and anxiety must be even more strong. I think the fact that Saiki obviously grows to care for his friends really shows his deep desire for connection, even more so if we go with the interpretation that some of his negative feelings about them are real.
My point with this ramble isn't to say "Saiki really does find the others annoying and therefore doesn't like them" but rather the opposite. On some level, Saiki is "tolerating" being out of his comfort zone, but the fact that he's willing to do this for his friends shows that he really does care about them.
#I fucking FELT that episode where Saiki's friends kept inviting him to do stuff over the holidays until he had no time to himself#I like people and hanging out and stuff but I would still HATE that#“oh no my beautiful summer vacation is being filled up with horrible activities!” I know what u are#this long-ass ramble was inspired by the fact that I just spent a day with my friends after only a day's warning#I love them very much but felt kinda awful the whole time and my brain was like extra slow#and was like “man does Saiki feel like this every time he hangs out with his friends? I'm surprised he isn't even MORE of a grump”#but yeah I think it probably gets a bit easier for him once walking home with the others and getting ramen becomes a routine#the annoyance is 100% real at first and then after a while he's sorta lying to himself but is still tired by the others#that's my headcanon#pendragon theories#does that count as a theory?#saiki k#saiki kusuo
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#yesterday i had this moment where i cried so much and so hard in a way i haven't cried in so long#it was a moment of pure soul crushing grief. it was like i had lost my dog already. i felt like i was never gonna see her again#(she's still here. tired and sick and currently sleeping. being very loved. still here.)#i was talking to my mom and sister a couple of hours ago and they said they had a moment like that too yesterday#and i think for me that was an extremely difficult but necessary moment of acceptance#in that crying i let go of my fear and denial and fully accepted that there is no getting better this time. she will be gone soon.#and god animals are so very sensitive aren't they? because it's like my other two dogs know too.#it's like thay had that moment of acceptance as well. they were so quiet yesterday. they didn't eat all day.#it's unbearably painful. i'm extremely sad and my heart is shattered. but i'm glad that i'm at peace#no dog has ever been as happy and as loved as she has been her entire life. i'm sure of it. and me and my family are going to be okay.
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I've got a dumb question for all you.
#this poll came to me in a vision#which is to say i had a long day after a night of not enough sleep and I'm very tired and silly atm#and if you saw this post just a moment ago no you didn't cuz I forgot to change the poll run time#fairy's tales#I'm very tired
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being an adult is all fun and games until i have to take my cat to the vet for urinary inflammation and myself to the dentist for a massive cavity and infection in the same fucking day 🙃🙃🙃
i'm so tired
#at least he doesn't have a blockage#i cried so much this morning i was so worried#but he should be okay#they gave me pain meds for him and also gave him a shot to help the inflammation at the vet so#also my face hurts#and i need a root canal#but it's gonna be $3600 total and i don't have insurance#and it's only $600 or so total to get it pulled#but i don't wanna lose my tooth#but i'm pretty sure i've had issues with this tooth before so like#idk it might be easier to just pull it#anyways i'm fucking tired#it was a very long day#and very expensive 😭😭#(although god bless my friend for being moral support and helping me cover the vet bill)#i'm gonna eat dinner and take my antibiotics for my face infection#and then i'm going to go the fuck to bed bc i have to bus across the city for work tomorrow#fml#when it rains it fucking pours man#feel like a hurricane is hitting my life rn#fuck#personal rambles#ignore this#not stargate
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I'M GOING TO CALL MYSELF OUT BEFORE ANYONE ELSE CAN
How fucking telling is it that for the most part I don't care about The Dragon Prince bc it was always my sister's interest, not mine, I was just roped into watching it, BUT the four parts of it I do care about are:
1) The lesbians
2) The honestly kinda toxic relationship that is the embodiment of "Your hands are scarred with murder and yet I trust them completely"
3) The character who destroyed and betrayed herself for nothing in hopes of saving whatever remained of her family
4) The dead child whose death influenced the fate of the world
#in order: jamaya. clauderry. claudia. leola#nothing else matters idgaf#I've been a diehard jamaya shipper since 2019 lmao don't test me#and a clauderry shipper for two seconds but the scene where he washes the grime off her and cuts her hair and makes her a prosthetic leg#that my sister told me to look up is making me very very soft for them#I declared Claudia my favourite character nearly 5 years ago and no one has ever compared#she's like if we saw azula actively get corrupted. hits right in the daddy issues#and leola... I have not watched any scenes with her bc I already cry enough these days#but she really reminds me of lien-hua narrative wise and I'm chewing glass over it#fun fact when I started to say 'leola reminds me of-' out loud my sister said#'if you're going to name some random oc from the mess you've made of lok canon I'm literally never speaking to you again'#'.... okay then it doesn't matter who she reminds me of'#children who couldn't have been saved. whose deaths seem inconsequential. but the entire world would've been different had they lived#screaming crying throwing up etc etc#okay this is getting long as fuck and I'm tired of typing
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Magenta 😟
#I've had cognitive impairment from covid before but not to where i feel intellectually dumb when i write#my college papers and my writing projects dont sound like “me��� as of late#its very bare bones and doesn't have the descriptiveness or humanity i normally give#like i see the scenes or what i want to say in my head#but what i type aint matching up#and yeah i naturally get into slumps like that but this is like that slump x 9000#I'm kinda scared this round might've given me brain damage#havent been feeling all the way like myself#but i also know too that covid takes a while to heal from and of course theres long covid shit which ive dealt with before#im just frustrated guys#i feel like within the last 3 to 4 months i finally healed from my last bout of rona#and i get it again and im back to square one#i just want to write and feel okay with it and not feel so stuck just trying to come up with a basic sentence#seriously even writing basic shit is hard right now#it took me a week to get 5 pages on duality#and im used to churning out at least 10 pages on my projects at minimum every couple days to a week#man give me chronic pain anyday but don't take away my mind and the freedom that comes with that#sorry guys im feeling sad#i know i gotta give myself time but im impatient#i hate how right before i caught covid again i was gonna get my flu shot and an updated covid vax#wish i could've avoided this crud#having weird chest shit too#was a heart thing now its gerd now its potentially back to a heart thing#im tired#i need a hug#i love you 🫂💙#magenta is my vent word
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Failed a social interaction 0 injured 1 killed (me)
#Today has been so long 😭😭😭 I've been out the whole day studying and when I came back I spent more than one hour to cook my probably gone–#bad chicken (and rice and spinach) and then I couldn't even eat it because it was my turn to clean the kitchen at the dorm (which is the–#third following day I'm doing) (worth mentioning I'm running on 5 hours of sleep)#And I was goofing around with my friends but while doing so I. made fun of the landlord. And then one friend told me “hey girl he's right–#outside” and like 😭😭😭😭😭😭 I hope I die painfully. I need to be back next year and he already makes my life hard enough and hhhhhhhhhhh#I wasn't even like. Serious. It was just to joke around with my friends I don't have anything against him (except for the things I do)#hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#And now I feel so embarrassed I have no appetite at all + the chicken (which I had to bring home through one hour walk in summer which–#probably wasn't good for it. And then froze one day past the expiration day) (I really need to get better eating habits) I had been–#preparing despite taking one hour to cook it I got the firing wrong and now it's all hard and honestly not very good and like 😭😭😭#Look at what you did to the (frankly already diseased) chicken#I feel so betrayed by everything 😭😭😭 Can life get a little easier#I'm mostly kidding I'm doing okay. I just need to rant because I CAN'T GET OVER THE LANDLORD THING MAN HOW DO I FORGET ABOUT IT.#This kind of things always haunts me for at least three days so 😭😭😭#I'm dead tired but I really wanted to answer asks today so. Probably doing so between today and tomorrow#Rant over sending lots of l love 💞💞#random rambles#In my defense it's not my fault I'm too poor to throw the chicken away 😪😪 I haven't eaten since forever#It's also not my fault I can't afford a new non sticking pan so I have to stick (ah) to the probably toxic one#It is very much my fault for messing up the chicken cooking temperature tho lol
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so hypothetically if my house has been broken into and my bedroom is a crime scene can i still like......... sleep in it.
#i've had a long day i'm very tired all i want to do is go to sleep#i don't know if the police are coming
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I arrived almost 12 hours ago, I've had two stupidly filling typical French meals, I've done too many loads of laundry than I'd like to admit because dryer, I've been spoiled with and am spoiling myself with coffee, my stress is diminishing, I got to read some great meta, and I'm chilling with Mara (who has numerous sleeping spots involving fuzzy blankets in this temporary repose, one of which being the fluffiest nest ever) while listening to and jamming out to Hugh Laurie leading the show in my ear. In other words, while yesterday was a time, I'm having a pretty darn nice time right now, because even if my back aches, my wrists are happier. Let's see if I can get any writing done on these 4/(5?) hours of sleep I've gotten in the last 48 hours, cause I'm pretty hype.
#[ ooc. ] don't try to make it logical or edit your soul according to the fashion. rather; follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly.#[ i miss using rdj; he used to be my ooc vibe/mood and it still rings true on some level. ]#[ but using the man still now on a kafka blog is odd; but then again-- y'know. ]#[ any way i also realize i make this seem as if i traveled 8 hours or something. i didn't-- i moved 10 mins away or so. /but/. ]#[ i lived in an apartment building where i had to walk up 5 flights of stairs to get to my apartment. and i don't have magnificent lungs. ]#[ so it was always a time. so the move today was /very/ tiring because of how often we had to go up and down those damn things. ]#[ is an elevator a necessity if i'm higher than the like 2nd or 3rd floor? yes. thankfully most have them. ]#[ god. the 'relocation' has actually done miracles for my headspace already. even if i have so much to do ahead of me. ]#[ but i decided i get a few days of repose. so here we go. let's see how long my eyes stay awake for. ]
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Oh little people in my phone, we're really in it now 😔😔
#it's lay on my bed yell into mattress hours#I can't tell if I'm reasonably stressed. over stimulated. or emotionally heightened because of the steroid I am on. but#today has been too many things and I feel.#sooooooo done#so done with everything#it raining and I haven't seen the sun in ages. I have bronchitis and haven't been Not Sick in a whole ass month#I have so many things to get done before Christmas which is IN A WEEK JESUS CHRIST#my CAR isn't drivable which SUCKS and it needs new TIRES and probably very expensive ENGINE REPAIRS and#my dad says he can fix them but I still have to take it into the shop just to make sure we know for sure what the problem is but#the it's already going to be in the shop and HES SICK and also like. busy. and doesn't have time to fix car#and so I might as well just pay out the fucking wazooo for them to fix it#but idk how long that will take#and I'm borrowing my grandmas car which is GREAT! like I'm so grateful to have that as an option but also! I feel BAD because it's her car#and she does actually use it and like. I don't want to take that away from her for too long#because then I feel BURDENSOME#and my mom just told me that one of my relatives just passed away and I didn't know her too well but her mom ALSO died last year like#On Christmas Day like very traumatically and I feel soo soo bad for all my cousins who have basically just had the entire Christmas season#ruined for them because they will have lost their mom AND their grandma around that time#and that HORRIBLE like oh my godddddd#and like#this holiday seasons is feeling very weird and different and worse and not BAD But like many things have changed this year and as someone#who does NOT enjoy little changes in routine and appreciates tradition uh. hehe the lines are blurring and it's stressing me outtttttt#and I got home and I had to pee and I look like shit because I've been running around all day#only to realize I left my keys Inside The House and my roomate had locked the door when he went to the gym and#thankfully the gym is a stones throw away from our house but he wasn't answering his phone#so I had to GO THERE. THROUGH THE RAIN. looking like the amount of tired and done that I am. and walk into the gym that is naturally PACKED#because it's right after work. and do the walk of shame past the v friendly gym owner who I haven't seen in MONTJ because I've been SICK#and haven't been able to work out which i ALSO FEEL GUILTY AND BAD ABOUT and#walked past all the Busy Fit Gym People in my normal person clothes to the very back where my roomate was and stand there while he finishes#his silly little reps to get his keys from him
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So they're completely setting it up for Celina to become Lucy's new roommate right? Which ngl (even though I actually really don't want Tamara to move out bc I love that they live together) I actually don't hate the idea
#ree has thoughts#the rookie spoilers#I've had a long day so i won't be able to write out all my rookie/chenford thoughts tonight like planned#(which is okay bc that means I've had a very good birthday!)#but i did have to say this#although i do have further Thoughts on this whole matter anyway#but that's a job for... later#I'd say tomorrow but I'm actually having my proper birthday celebration in terms of Doing Something tomorrow so if I'm tired today...#but we'll see#i have sorta drafted the posts i wanted to make#they're just not very coherent/well formed#and rn I'm too sad to work on them
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☆ Nathaniel Wilson ☆
I Really Like Nathaniel because the guy embodies Hope and Positivity without forcing it down the gullets of everyone around him.
He looks like he'd be a pleasant individual to actually be around at 7 am. Even before his coffee. [ Sera should be too, she doesn't seem like an unbearable person to be around in La Matinée ( the Morning ) . But still, she is alot grumpier than her other half. ]
With that said. Insert Happy music here. Nujabes or Smth.
Submitted by @mettamorphoses!
Love the way you drew Nate here! such a clean style and serious face :> He's my favorite little quadfocal guy... friendly, polite, and a good conversationalist! You're absolutely right, he's one of the easiest people to get along with. It's almost like he knows exactly what to say to people.
Sera isn't grumpy so much as she is disinterested and dismissive. She heads to work without bothering to make small talk besides a basic "Hello." if she passes you by. Not the worst outcome, really, if silence doesn't bother you.
#submission#yeah. i'm in Tags too. wassup witchu#Aight but seriously i wonder how literally anyone would be like at 7 am.#Deva's tags start here =>#If he's home for the day he will always be a good conversationalist and offer breakfast or coffee on a morning#This is literally so cool#queued post#As for people at 7 am...#Sera is up by 4 AM unless Nate doesn't have work. By 7 she has already had breakfast and gotten ready to work on her projects.#If you catch her it is likely after she returns from a morning flight. She'll be civil but it can easily come off the wrong way. aw.#Nate takes a lot of long shifts that stretch into the night. Due to this he and Sera have very contrasting schedules.#If you see him in the morning it is usually only because of the weekend or whatever other days he takes off. He is a very tired guy#Vincent has a very erratic schedule and he is always out and about doing things that fancy him#He is also a HEAVY sleeper. Nothing can really wake him except for a very specific noise#Said sound makes him wake up in a horrendous mood. Most mornings are thankfully safe from this sort of temper.#It is hard to say what new bizarre thing he will get himself into next. Like doomcrying while hidden on the roof of a religious congregatio#Sonia is not up by 7 AM without a good reason to be. She is down at the kitchen in a bathrobe by 9 to eat some breakfast.#Which made her the unknowing first victim of Vincent's newly founded pyramid scheme#Amon is a late riser since he is still used to his old schedule from his time at the Ricciardi mafia. Sleeps late? wakes late!#If it's a weekday he will always be up at 6 AM regardless of the amount he slept to take Adra to school.#Eric tends to wake up early but often gets caught up in personal projects. He loves music and editing his tracks but it really eats his tim#So Eric will be going to sleep at 4 and see Sera making herself coffee whilst Nate is also coming home from work and crashing on the couch.#Not even Amon heads in that late. Maybe Vincent does though. If he's “Traversing the night.” Like he says he does.#Vince can't see very well at night anymore. And the sun is almost blinding now. But it's nothing to an immortal like him! ha! bow before hi
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someone send me some perverse armand/daniel thoughts so i don't have to come up with them all by myself
#i'm tired of cooking i wanna EAT#i know it's not smutty sunday but feed me pls#i had a very long day i had to go to the bank twice and the dmv#and two grocery stores#and my wife is busy traveling so i'm alone and have to entertain myself#help me dissociate i am begging
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