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Hello, I hope you're having a wonderful day so far! 𖡼𖤣𖥧𖡼𓋼𖤣𖥧𓋼𓍊
May i ask the following questions from the Fan Fic Writer Asks:
4. How many WIPs do you have right now?
10. Is there a fic that got a different response than you were expecting?
18. What’s one of your favorite lines you’ve written in a fic?
20. What’s a favorite title for a fic you’ve written?
⋆⁺₊⋆ ☀︎ ⋆⁺₊⋆ Happy new year ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☀︎ ⋆⁺₊⋆
Alrighty!
4. How many WIPs do you have right now?
I actually looked this up a week ago and the total right now is 24. But that includes some fics that I haven't actually started writing yet. And some are just ideas I want to write but might have to abandon once my sense catches up with me. I guess we'll see?
Either way, it's definitely more projects than I would want, which is why I hope to finish some of them during 2025. Especially since some of the old ones only have one or two chapters left. Or are oneshots I just didn't finish. Like, how hard can it be?
So that's definitely a goal for this year. I want to finish at least five of my current WIPs, preferably more.
10. Is there a fic that got a different response than you were expecting?
A couple, yeah. One is The Hat Hypothesis which I figured would just be another one of my appreciated yet still not overly popular The Losers fics but, somehow, it ended up being one of my most appreciated ones? Which is by no means a bad thing! I just didn't expect it, nor do I know why so many people like it more than the others. But, at the same time, that's not for me to know or decide xD
Another is Who Holds the Devil which... well, I didn't really know what I expected with that one but I know for a fact that it wasn't what I got. I was terrified before I started posting it and was kind of hoping to just quietly push it out there without anyone noticing and be done with it. But, uh, that obviously didn't happen. Not just the part where I thought it would go more or less unnoticed, but also how much time and effort I would devote to it. I definitely didn't expect it to become as big as it is now, both in terms of its popularity and its length.
And, to balance things out a bit, Losing You (Is My Supervillain Origin Story) is a fic I expected to be more popular than it ended up being. The premise is a little clumsy, admittedly, but people tend to like a little darkness and, at the time I wrote it, it was the darkest I had chosen to write Bucky. But maybe the depiction of grief scared people off? Or the flimsy plot? Who knows? xD Either way, it remains one of my least popular Winteriron fics (by quite a margin) and I'm still not sure why. But there you go!
18. What's one of your favourite lines you've written in a fic?
There are, obviously, quite a lot of them considering the sheer number of sentences I've written. Many I don't even remember anymore. But one that's always stood out to me is from You Only Live Twice, said by Fury to Tony:
"You might have forgotten how to live in this world, but I'm willing to bet that you still want to save it."
It makes a lot more sense within context, but I always felt that it was a very Fury thing to say and, well, pretty poetic? I think that fic has a lot of banger sentences, in fact.
20. What's a favourite title for a fic you've written?
Again, I have more than one since it's just very difficult to pick. But my top choices are:
Who Holds the Devil - For how utterly perfect it is. Not just because it's a quote from Faust — which is one of the sources of inspiration for the drama — but also because it poses a question that is the basis for the entire fic, even if we all already know the answer. Because it's Ga On, of course. Ga On holds the devil.
Until Death Do Us Unite - Because I like a good wordplay or a twist on an established expression. And this one just felt so obvious considering the drama, the characters, and the premise of the fic. Moon Jo and Jong Woo will be together forever indeed. It doesn't matter that one of them is clinically dead.
Losing You (Is My Supervillain Origin Story) - I just felt very clever when I came up with it, I guess? I like how descriptive it is and the fact that even if the fic could just have been called "Losing You" the sentence within the parenthesis reveals a lot about what the story is actually going to be about.
Hyperborean - Because sometimes I like to be very concise and, in this case, it made perfect sense to just name the fic "it be FECKIN' cold" because, I mean, yeah. It's hella cold xD
These four also neatly sum up my most popular ways of naming a fic. That's to say a) steal a quote from someone else, b) cheekily twist an existing expression to fit my needs, c) a sentence followed by another sentence in a parenthesis that builds on the first one in the most pretentious way possible, and d) the most bluntly obvious and unimaginative — yet descriptive — title in the history of titles.
I think D is the one I use the most often.
Thank you so much for all the questions and a Happy New Year to you too! 💜
Fanfic Writer Asks
#Amethystina Replies#Anonymous#Amethystina Does Ask Games#Fanfic Writer Asks#I really am bad at naming fics sometimes#But I try my best#Except that time I named a fic Fucked If I Know#Because I literally had no idea what to name it#Or what I was doing x'D#So FUCKED IF I KNOW#Also#I really really want to finish my WIPs#I'm very overwhelmed by that number#And not in a good way
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This is how working at a corporate job has made me feel.
#slife#art#tovart#the rigid structure and the way they overwhelm you with metrics and numbers and statistics#I can't deal with it very well#coping with it has been so hard#to be reduced to a number has been the worst for my mental health#I'm looking for another job already#and the nature of the job itself has been... awful#they tell you you're there to help but do everything in their power to prevent you from helping#it's disgusting#i hate capitalism#i hate corporate
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so thanks to @catboyolli I am now a published author........
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........because she made my Olli/Allu advent calendar stories into a physical book!?! 😭


complete with the gorgeous concept art by @kraeuterhexchen !!!!



...and all the other essential information you can find in a physical book, along with a bibliography of my other work 🥹


I don't have a picture of the covers but they're plain pink and I think we can all agree it's a very fitting stylistic choice 🥰
thank you my dearest Luna, I already told you this is among the most incredible gifts I have ever received and @exitemotions can confirm I burst into tears upon realising what I was holding in my hands, so yeah, I’m speechless thank you thank you thank you this is beyond my wildest dreams and you are amazing and I love you to death 💖💕💞💕💗💘💕💞💖💗💕
#i'm still very overwhelmed by this ngl#what do you mean those silly little stories i wrote a year ago are enough to make an actual full-length novel?!#and what do you MEAN it actually looks like a book and i can casually put it on my bookshelf next to my le petit prince collection and- 😭#it even has page numbers!!!!!!!#also. do you guys understand how many embarrassing typos and silly brain farts there are in there#bc i barely proof-read any of those stories gksjfgjfkjf ���😭#sorry for the wobbly pictures i was in a bus lol
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Look who finally grew a back bone after daddy final gave you some attention.
You know what? Fuck you. I've said my piece.
@brucie-wayne-official, @spoiledbutnotawayne, @babs-is-hacking-stuff @cassmeifyoucan, @caint-see-me, @alfred--pennyworth, @gotham-s-nightingale, @arkhambird, @superherokisser
You guys can do whatever you want to them now. I've said what I wanted to say, it's only fair you guys get to take your turn.
#I know a lot of people besides these have helped (and i'm grateful) but these are the ones who expressed exacting revenge the most#(ooc: Duke is very overwhelmed at the sheer number of people who stepped up for him)#dc rp#dcu rp#duke thomas rp#duke discusses#gotham rp#duke answers
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Like.. genuinely, very genuinely.
Where and how to do hunt down events in your city? Like places and groups and activities where people who like the same things as you gather and hang out and do social stuff?
Cause I do follow like.. local game stores, comic shops, book shops, galleries/art programs, concert halls, the 1 gay bar in town, queer group pages, the library, and at least one local zine making group whose events never line up with my schedule except the 1 time it did and i went and it was very awkward for me so idk how good that one would pan out if I kept tryingggg-
And while a lot of these places host events semi-regularly the year a lot don't appeal or apply to me so I'm just at a Bit of a Loss for where to find events where I may connect with other people..
So like if ya'll know of some secret search term of webbed site or what have you IIIIII'm open to suggestions!
(and lets just completely ignore the fact that they're all going to be scheduled during my working hours anyway and I won't be able to go, I'll breakdown about that one later. I need to delude myself at least a little bit or else I'll Implode)
#monster noises#it's this weird dichotomous fucking personality of mine that i live under the crushing weight of#that means nothing seems like it would be a good time for me#like i'm a huge nerd but I don't play magic or warhammer or read serial comics so a lot of the games and comic shop groups are out#i love art but i'm a comic artist and illustrator so while I'm sure i'd be welcome at fine art stuff#it feels like i'm Not Really going to fit in#most library programming i hear about is either Wicked specific or aimed at children#queer social groups sku much much younger or much much older than me#.... i. will be continuing my rant but I have to stop and acknowledge that i used the wrong version of the word Skew.#i said Sku. which is the number code for a piece of merchandise at work.#and not Skew. the Word. the word that means a slant or angle. s k e w#AH H#anyway#back to my sour grapsing#there's a huge heavy metal scene in my city but it's all black and doom metal and i'm a power+folk+and symphonic metal homosexual#so That doesn't work#and the zine group thing is predominantly markets which I find really really difficult to enagage with social on the customer side#but it's not clear to me how one gets involved on the other side of the table#so like What Do#i still kinda wanna do figure drawing or something at the art place#but i can't imagine that's very social and also i'm Definitely going to get Mondo frustrated and sad and overwhelmed and that will Not help#it will be Embarassing#and like sure yeah maybe i'm the problem and i'm being a huge picky baby about going to these things#but clearly i'm not ready to Address that yet and we are all just going to pretend that the problem#is that I just haven't found the right Event Yet#if that's cool with everyone else
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I don't remember what stuff I downloaded or what settings I disabled but I don't get any of those tumblr notifications 😆
Ooh, that sounds ideal tbh :'D I could get used to following more people if I wasn't constantly reminded how many posts I haven't seen. And my God, I wish I figured out how to get this on my phone - I have ALL notifications off but no matter how many tutorials I go through, I cannot get rid of those tiny little numbers next to the app icons. Not just for Tumblr but for everything, I don't want to see how many unread e-mails I have, how many messages I haven't checked, I want to check all these things on my terms at time of my choosing, will we be ever free from these constant reminders how avoidant we've become due to the hyperconectivity of our time-
#ask#anonymous#okay okay rant over#I'm just very overwhelmed by those tiny little numbers constantly in my face :'D#the first thing I tell people when they add me on Messenger or Whatsapp or anywhere#dude if you need me just text me or call me#straight up good old text message via service provider#I'm terrible with checking online things because I know those numbers will go up#I don't even have internet turned on 99% of the time#I'm off the grid unless I'm at the computer#and even then I don't have messages open all the time#I keep joking that if you need to contact me you have to hunt me down in the forest with a crossbow#and honestly at this point it may even be true :'D
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The secret 10th circle of hell Dante was unaware of at the time is retail
#we have a lot of substitute pharmacists and all of them are like. this is impossible. you guys literally can't work like this#ive just. given up? i care about the patients but doing the work of 3 ppl to make a number go up? i physically cant do it#and it's universal!! we're all fighting!! my coworker started tearing up in front of me today!!#I'm just. every time i get overwhelmed i ask myself. is this mine? and overwhelmingly. the answer is no#i put in all the effort for what? a shoutout in the group chat? i wanna put my effort towards something i actually care about#whatever doesn't get done doesn't get done and it is not my fault. I'm getting fast food and going home to draw and do stuff#i actually care about. god. god. fucking hostile to life itself. anyways. how's everyone doing this evening#no work tomorrow so i get to map out what i wanna do. wanna finish art. maybe start a business if the stars align#glitters or glimmers is the question... leaning towards glimmers; ive grown fond of it#shai speaks#actually might come back to this not as a vent post but as a genuine ''this is what i think the retail circle of hell looks like''#working retail is not a sin but the very existence of retail is 😤
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also, i recently asked my tarot deck about guardian angels and if i have any. and since then, i've been seeing 444 SO MUCH. over the past year or 2, i've noticed seeing 444 more than any other angel number. really seeing it almost exclusively. but! it's ramped up SO much lately. i really don't think it's a coincidence idk. literally as soon as i start digging deeper into spiritualism, death, and the afterlife...i start seeing little signs from the universe everywhere. it's odd.
#idk what all of these little things mean it's honestly overwhelming#but i think at least i have parsed that the people looking over me are fiercely in my support#and that they want me to know that I'm not doing this on my own#ALSO i had a dream recently where??? i was freaking out about dying etc etc#and right before it ended i just said ''please universe. i just need a sign that it's going to be okay#/that im going to see my love again in the afterlife“. and i looked behind me.#and an ENORMOUS rainboe stretched across the sky in that very moment.#i told my death doula that it was probably just my subconscious etc and she was likr#“??? even if it was your subconscious. dont you think that the universe maybe gave you that dream?+#so that you could ask that? and it could show you that things would be okay?“#and i literally just. blue screened. she was so right.#so now ive been looking st things a little deeper than i normally would instead of brushing them off#i need to start meditating on this stuff#chatter#round 2#angel numbers#spirituality#universe
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Considering taking a week off to try and get some energy back
#but i'm not sure if a break will make me worse. hmm..#i have so many projects i want to work on but my brain is just... congested and dull. no inspiration and no new ideas come out#i've been out of school for a few weeks now and i don't think i've relaxed at all. like i'm so exhausted i can barely get up the stairs#not sure exactly what's going on but i'm also dealing with other people's stressors in life rn and it's very overwhelming#i really just want to draw and write now that i have the time but i can't create anything...#hoping that after tonight i'll start to feel better. the build-up waiting for the stressful event is always the worst.#i just wish Things would stop happening? it's relentless and utterly exhausting at this point. i can't even begin to recap.....#being p much the sole supporter of a friend who is going through tragedy after tragedy while i had my own family tragedy and school#at the same time has really been....... not fucking great. in fact i'm very close to getting her bf's number so i can yell at him#to get his ass back over to canada to fucking help his girlfriend during possibly the worst time of her life. he should be here. period.#so i'm going to dinner. i'm going to help her and listen to her unload for the day because i love her. and then i'm going to sleep#for 12 hours
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honestly.
#just me hi#okay so i have this very insistent problem where i can't finish things#can you tell yet? i start a project and then i just get bored or Something#which Sucks!!! i want to finish them!! i Want to be done and to know i can finish things!!!#but i just CAN'T#it happens with projects and with shows and with books and with cleaning too sometimes#it happens when i write and when i'm sitting and when i'm sleeping and when i'm singing and when i'm walking to nowhere#it's just There!! i can't finish it doesn't matter how short or how easy or how wonderful and happy it could make me feel i can't Finish#if it's Hard the sheer number of steps required to even get from here to there overwhelms me. the predicted length of time is just the#finishing blow#i Want to finish i Need to stop the story. but i just caaaaaaaaaan'tttttt#it's a whole joke in the home actually‚ 'oh you've started another story? ha! same as always huh?'#which yes is funny but also i'm so tiiiiiiiired of always starting over#i love it i love building new things but once i have the finished product in my mind there is no allure‚ no appeal to actually finishing th#Real Thing !!#maybe that's why i like art and i can finish pieces‚ because the image is always shifting. it's like liquid#i dunno i'm just kinda frustrated!! years and years and i still can't finish anything :/#maybe one day one day one day#urghhh#//okey uhm. ... :3#i'm going to do a small thing now‚ and i'm Going to finish it#:>
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Apparently Alias Conrad Coldwood is a Brief, Fleeting Friendships sort of guy also which is like
A little relatable
#dama speaks#SORRY when you were doing my line of work the number of close comrades you could have was very limited#So I was never a close friendships guy. I would have a ride or die companion and like. A person that filled a niche anonymously#And that was it#I am kind of juggling more real friendships than I'm used to and it's overwhelming
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a very select portion of personalities trigger my latent tsundere traits.
In reverse of the usual order, this feels all the worse if they are fictional.
#maybe because I am accustomed to acting against impulse with real people#so perhaps I channel away from my worst urges very rapidly with people- fast enough maybe that I rarely need to confront the impulse at all#but with fiction or any kind your reaction to them falls under your own scrutiny more maybe#hmmm you know what else I kind of wonder about too though is that maybe I get this feeling towards men I like more often than women.#I am attracted to more real women than fictional ones and way more fictional men than real ones#and I don't only have the TSundere Response for people I am attracted to— I was kind of tsundere with my cat but she was worse#but I feel like out of the personalities that bring this out in me there is some trend towards male.#women I typically have this overwhelming sense of 'ANYONE would feel this way; looking at her. listening to her'#whereas if i like a guy it's usu. like 'damn I hope I'm not the only one'#so the numbers may be being impacted by multiple sources#there was a very beautiful young woman in my highschool English class that I completely avoided for this reason#you know what's funny I have a horrible softspot bitchy women I pretend not to have#i know too much and won't get involved on any level with a mean person ... but man do I feel so permissive with a beautiful bitch 😂😂#I feel so indulgent to my soul anout things women do sometimes that I would NEVER put up with from a man for a second#and I always suppress this tendency but it is so pervasive#so anyway I'm not tsundere towards women mostly I think it's cute when they are#but boy oh boy am I not in to tsundere behavior in a dude.#this is what 'if you think I'm holding a woman with big brown eyes accountable for Anything you've got another thing coming' means to me#these are only trends not absolutes. I would never hold Tantai Jin accountable for anything so 😂 it's not entirely a gendered thing for me#But the person I think of most is Regina in Once Upon A Time#I was enamored from the moment she walked in as the rigid; bitchy; single-mom 'madam mayor'#oh man but she made me feel crazy. unhinged#and so so willing to let her do anything#i didn't want her to do evil I wanted her redeemed. but I just Loved it when she was a bitch#😍🫣#regarding the tsundere thing; there is a range possible of how much someone brings this to the surface for me#sometimes it's just a little. I still resent it at nearly full price.
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I am Moataz from Gaza, married and have 3 children. We live under war and destruction. I lost my home and now we live in tents where the situation is very difficult. My children cannot bear the intense heat in addition to the spread of diseases and insects. I want to save the lives of my family and escape death. I hope you will help by donating and sharing my page.
https://gofund.me/af3b5cb0
Yes, I've donated what I can!! I hope your fundraiser gets more visibility soon!! 🌻🌻🌻
Background info for anyone looking up Moataz's username to check:
-This fundraiser was reblogged by a reputable blogger, aya-bananya, who is NOT a vetting blog but generally reblogs trustworthy campaigns!!
-Reverse image searches also show that the images are unique, consistent, and clearly not made with AI, and the GFM has multiple unique videos
-There is one person blocked on the original pinned post, but it's literally just one person who solely commented "scam" without proof, questioning, doing any research, just instantly assuming bad faith :(
-I've previously seen some people worrying about fundraisers that use SEK but several vetted fundraisers also use it so it's really not a cause for concern
-The goal may seem high because it's in Swedish Krona, but it's really only a VERY achievable $23,000 USD goal!! It's only at about $300 USD right now though :(
#signal boost#!!!!!!!!!!#I know I'm not a vetter/verifier but I believe you#and I'm sorry vetters aren't responding right now they're very overwhelmed by both numbers and also people being jerks to them :(#my main blog isn't very big but the more people who share the info/do background checks the easier it is to get eyes on it overall!
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MERCH PREVIEW + STORE RELEASE INFO!!!
guess who's store is finally launching soon!!! and with merch that arrived with surprisingly great colours considering i genuinely i have no idea how CMYK conversion works!!!
my online store is all set up and ready to go at bluegiragistore.com, but is so far locked behind a password. On 26th March at 8:25am AEST, I'll be posting the password to the store on Patreon so that patrons can get first pick before any rush. 1 hour later, the store will go public!
for people who'd like to prepare beforehand, here are the prices of everything up for sale (in USD):
ALL MONSTER AU CHARMS: $13 each
BOTH SLASHER CHARMS: $13 each
KONIG DOUBLE-SIDED CHARM: $13
SUBTLE GHOSTSOAP CHARM: $12
DARK GHOSTSOAP STANDEE: $25
Please be aware that shipping will be an additional cost to your order and all orders will come with a tracking number! Shipping costs to the US and Europe will likely vary between $13-$16 USD, while Oceania and Asia will vary between $10-$12 USD. I apologise ahead of time for the inconvenience of the shipping costs but I unfortunately can't get around it any other way - I'm just sadly in an inconvenient location to ship from!
in any case, I'm incredibly excited to launch this store in a few days (and also very stressed about it at the same time LMAO). I've intentionally got a limited stock, just so that I'm not immediately overwhelmed by orders as its my first time doing this sort of thing, but be assured that if all goes well, I'll probably be reopening the store again next month with a bigger order and a bit less hassle :)
if you have any questions feel free to leave them in the replies or send them through the inbox and i'll try get to you asap!
#sorry about the ugly watermark on the designs i hope you understand#god the colours really did come out so good though...its such a trip to hold your art in your hands in real life#physical media rocks!!!#merch#giragi art#giragi store
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"The question was posed, "Why do people continue supporting Trump no matter what he does?" A lady named Bev answered it this way: “You all don't get it. I live in Trump country, in the Ozarks in southern Missouri, one of the last places where the KKK still has a relatively strong established presence. They don't give a shit what he does. He's just something to rally around and hate liberals, that's it, period. He absolutely realizes that and plays it up. They love it. He knows they love it. The fact that people act like it's anything other than that proves to them that liberals are idiots, all the more reason for high fives all around. If you keep getting caught up in "why do they not realize this problem" and "how can they still back Trump after this scandal," then you do not understand what the underlying motivating factor of his support is. It's fuck liberals, that's pretty much it. Have you noticed he can do pretty much anything imaginable, and they'll explain some way that rationalizes it that makes zero logical sense? Because they're not even keeping track of any coherent narrative, it's irrelevant. Fuck liberals is the only relevant thing. Trust me; I know firsthand what I'm talking about. That's why they just laugh at it all because you all don't even realize they truly don't give a fuck about whatever the conversation is about. It's just a side mission story that doesn't matter anyway. That's all just trivial details - the economy, health care, whatever. Fuck liberals. Look at the issue with not wearing the masks. I can tell you what that's about. It's about exposing fear. They're playing chicken with nature, and whoever flinches just moved down their internal pecking order, one step closer to being a liberal. You've got to understand the one core value that they hold above all others is hatred for what they consider weakness because that's what they believe strength is, hatred of weakness. And I mean passionate, sadistic hatred. And I'm not exaggerating. Believe me. Sadistic, passionate hatred, and that's what proves they're strong, their passionate hatred for weakness. Sometimes they will lump vulnerability in with weakness. They do that because people tend to start humbling themselves when they're in some compromising or overwhelming circumstance, and to them, that's an obvious sign of weakness. Kindness = weakness. Honesty = weakness. Compromise = weakness. They consider their very existence to be superior in every way to anyone who doesn't hate weakness as much as they do. They consider liberals to be weak people that are inferior, almost a different species, and the fact that liberals are so weak is why they have to unite in large numbers, which they find disgusting, but it's that disgust that is a true expression of their natural superiority. Go ahead and try to have a logical, rational conversation with them. Just keep in mind what I said here and be forewarned.”
From a facebook post, with a lot of comments from people who actually didn't realize it was like this. Yeah, I grew up knowing these kinds of people too and that's exactly how it is.
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#fuck it I'm now using this to catalogue my Lucky Number Slevin observations#this watchthrough I find myself focusing on focal lengths#and this. fucking movie#uses mainly short focal length lenses (unless I'm a total idiot)#which means. wide images. lots of stuff visible#the eye isn't drawn to the people in the image which means you subconsciously don't think about them as much#instead faces are very slightly distorted; making them appear somewhat alien and removed from human connection#you don't think about someone shot like that as someone who has a personal history#this is fascinating#there are tears in my eyes I'm so excited#this movie is so good at hiding in plain sight by making plain sight bigger and weirder and more overwhelming#killer move for something visual
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