#I'm talking about PTSD if you couldnt tell

[usagikis]

I think Eri and Mirio both feel their minds going back to the Shie Hassaikai. They have different memories and different reactions, but one thing they share: The pain of losing it all and never understanding why.

In those days, I think they hold each other. Mirio feels like he's protecting Eri, and Eri feels like she's comforting Mirio. Both are right.

[alanshee-keeper-of-realms]

I love your Fiddlesticks nickname hc for Raeda 😭♥️💞 do more Raeda HC if you like!

Ah I'm glad you like it!

It actually ties to another Raeda headcannon Raine doesn't swear, especially around children. Oh Fiddlesticks is very common to hear along with Titan or Fudge it all

Eda is the one to openly swear around the kids, she's got the mindset You do realize they swear outside of adult earshot, just teach em when it's appropriate. She was very proud also in tears laughing when Luz called Emperor Belos, Emperor Bitch Alot in front of her.

Their Palismans are reflections of each other, Owlbert is a lot like Raine and Fiddlesticks is like Eda in temperament,

Fiddlesticks gets into Trouble Constantly while Owlbert prefers to hide in Edas hair or interlocked on their staff

Fiddlesticks and Darius have a love-hate relationship with each other, especially after the violin incident.

Again Eda has given the Fox the nickname Fiddle while Raine occasionally calls Owlbert Bertie,

Raine and Eda Dance through life in general Kitchen they are that couple you can just watch them dance doing anything it's very clear they know each other the move so intricately

Eda may snore, but Raine is much worse. She will wake up, and Raine is splayed out on top of her like a starfish mouth wide open. She doesn't mind it as it actually amuses her,

Raine is horrible with the Camera, as in constantly taking pictures of their family, Eda yells out Nini has the camera to give the Owletts a chance to duck and run, to the Bards playful annoyance. They though took this as a challenge.

Raine talked to Eda and actually had their Bard Coven Mark removed so she could teach them Wild Magic, which they mixed into the Bard Magic to create a new lineage of Wild Bard Magic. As you can probably tell it's a very fluid and chaotic track, it's also made Raine much happier they've learned so much more then changing the chemistry of drinks with the mixing of magical lines.

Eda and Raine co-teach a class once a week on the importance of healthy communication in relationships at the University, not wanting other Witchlings to separate like they did over miscommunication.

They also allow students to approach them with relationship issues. A lot say the pair probably helped to correct a majority of relationships in the youngsters.

Eda and Raine lead the charge of disbanding the Coven system and instead made a council to run the Boiling Isles. So no one would ever have all the power to themselves again.

Eda personally handled Terra Snapdragon, especially after the PTSD she caused with Raine as they couldnt drink any drink without whistling into it for years, it made them sick elsewise,

They are the couple everyone knows. They inspire others to be better to each other.

They had actually talked about kids before so Raine fell easily into the role of Nini to the Owletts as they jokingly call their brood of Adopted kiddos

(Nini a Gender Neutral Term for Parent)

This is just some don't be afraid to ask for more haha

[melodyfsoul1]

LOKI S2 FINALE GLORIOUS PURPOSE

Just spent over an hour crying over the Loki S2 Finale, and still havent recovered, but here I go anyway with my Reaction/ Review

*Loki S2 E6 Spoilers ahead*

Okay so... before watching the episode I wrote down a couple things that I did NOT want to happen/ but knowing myself, and my luck with my characters, figured that was exactly what would happen....

and turns out... I was correct....

Back in Infinty War I feared/ predicted that Loki was gonna die in the first 10 min in a stupid way where he wouldnt be able to show off his powers... and we all know how that turned out...

For this season finale, all I hoped was that Loki, for once wouldnt play the self sacrifical lamb, and find a way where he didnt have to lose Mobius and his new found friends, where he would be not alone...

So.... yeah.... about that....

Now to the Review/ Reaction:

God I was so scared

"Glorious Purpose"

The title alone had me tearing up.... we really came full circle back to S1 E1 and the fact that they started the recap with 2012 Loki too...

1 min 30 in and I'm already pausing, THE INTRO IS BACKWARDS, thar was so cool

So we all knew Loki would have to go back and try to safe everyone

BUT MARVEL DIDNT HAVE TO SHOW US TIMELY DYING OVER AND OVER AGAIN (and in so many angles too....)

Then Loki trying to learn everything OB knows to be prepared to help, but it would take time, makes sense

"CENTURIES LATER"

WHAT?! They really did that, good thing Loki has that long Life span...

The fact that all the characters realizes sth was off with Loki but MOBIUS is the one to stop and talks to him, and Loki telling him to trust him.... my heart

OH MY GOD ITS WORKING?! And Timely survived too? Did not expect that

I have never seen Loki this relieved/ happy but at the same time sad and exhausted before...

But of course its never that "easy"

No matter what, the infinite amount of branches will always detroy the loom, so the moment a timeline branched everything was doomed from he start... Ah yes Marvel and their existential dread...

Loki going back to before Sylvie killed He Who Remains, trying to convince her not to kill him.... and of course she says he has to kill her if he wants to stop her...

God Loki's Emotional Damage....

Of course Loki cant

HWR COULD HAVE STOPPED TIME THAT THE WHOLE TIME!??!! The fact that he figured Loki has gone through this whole scene before and still just watched

He knows about time slipping...

He paved he road

He planned this

Him and Loki had this conversations before

"We die with the dying, we are born with the dead"

That is such a sick quote :0

Its basically Loki vs HWR forever, and Loki knows he will always lose... but still wants to try... kudos to his determination

And of course Loki cant bring himself to trade lives... not Sylvie's, not his friends and not the multiverses...

Loki goes back to the first time he talked to Mobius...NOOOOO not the Throne talk, why does this feel like a final good bye talk.... I HATE IT

Though S1 E1 Mobius having a chat with S2 E6 Loki is such an interesting concept

He wants to find out how they chose who lives and dies... ("Who lives, who dies, who tells your story" huh? Sorry but I had to make that Hamilton reference XD)

"You're not gonna find comfort in the TVA" - Mobius to Loki

BUT HE DID, LOKI DID FIND COMFORT, IN YOU MOBIUS, Im gonna cry ... the TVA was the first place where Loki could just be himself and he found friends there too

Also Mobius might be the only comfort character who actually gives comfort (and isnt just an angsty mess who hasnt had a happy day ever)

Mobius telling the story of a hunter who couldnt kill a kid, which caused more death, loosing sight of the bigger picture

So he is talking about himself right? And of course Renslayer was the Partner

Mobius telling Loki they have to chose a burden and live with it... that it leaves scars.

Theres this sinking feeling again

And the scene SPGAHETTIFIES?! I SWEAR TO GOD MARVEL, NOT AGAIN, STOP GIVING US FANS PTSD THROUGH VISUAL EFFECTS

I dont know what to think of Loki & Sylvie's final talk.... Loki has an idea?

Oh NoNONONONONONO

I FREAKING KNEW HE WAS GONNA GO THE SELF SACRFICE ROUTE BACK FROM EP 1 AND I FIGURED HE WOULD TAKE TIMELY'S PLACE IN EP 5 BUT THIS?!

Cant he ever be happy?! Is there any Loki, in any universe who actually gets to be happy?!

The fact that Mobius was the first to notice and that him and Sylvie immediately followed Loki, tried to talk him out of it

Loki looking back, saying he finally knows what he wants

MY HEART

LOKI WALKING THROUGH SPACE WITHSTANDING THE RADIATION JUST LIKE THOR WITHSTOOD THE DYING STAR IN INFINITY WAR, THE PARALLELS

THE NEW OUTFIT, THE CAPE, HIS HORNED HELMET, OH MY GOD

It looks like an End of Time Aesthetic Version of his Ragnarok Outfit wih the Cracked Kintsugi helmet

Ngl at first I had no idea if he was using his powers to manually destroy, change or preserve the branches.... or weave them together

Oh and to be clear I was crying during like the whole last 20 min of the episode because that was just too many emotions at once

Also can we talk about how freaking cool looking the shots of Loki with the new Helmet and the branches being his cape, were?!

The throne... Oh god the remains of HWR throne...

LOKI'S GLORIOUS PURPOSE WAS TAKING ON THE BURDEN OF THE THRONE HE NEVER WANTED

*starts violently sobbing*

Poetic, Ironic and Heartbreaking, all at the same time

Like, is it extremely cool to see him use his powers to his full potential? Yes definitely.

Were the cinematics beautiful? Yes of course, it was gorgeous, tho the moment I realized he was making Yggdrasil, I started bawling my eyes out, because "You go Loki, show us what you can do"

But I also felt my heart break because Loki is now at the end if time, chose to have to watch over & protect the multiverse, all alone, forever.... (can he leave that place?)

Like this is the very same Loki, who just, 1 episode ago, admitted that he is terrified of being alone, who just wants to be with his friends. L1130 is a Loki who was actually happy and had friends, a place where he felt safe because he could be himself. And he gave EVERYTHING up to give EVERYONE ELSE a chance at life, a life he might not be able to take part in... he can watch, but we dont know if he can interact with them....

I literally talked about that in my reaction/ review from last episode. Sylvie & Loki are both selfish, which is ironically a very human trait (them being gods and all), but unlike Sylvie, Loki would actually give up everything to safe others, which is exactly what he did.

And I know Comic Loki, God of Stories, wrote himself out if the Narrative as well, out of the Story, to look behind the curtain, have a talk with the beings behind everything, but that Loki also had Verity, he had a friend outside of everything, he had someome to talk to, a friend. Verity is one of my fav characters and I would have loved to see her Comic Version too in the MCU, but I saw B-15's Name was revealed to be Verity Willis, so thats is cool Easter Egg :D

Back to Loki, I honestly cant tell which Loki has it the worst... I always thought the main Loki dying to Thanos had it the worst, but he sth akin to a life and he got the chance to mend his relationship with Thor before he died his heroes' death...

Now L1130, in the worst case, is damned to spent eternity alone, the very thing he is scared of, being without his friends, forced to watch from afar as they live life without him, when all he wanted was to be with them... that is unless he can just leave the place whenever he wants to (if the branches allow it I guess?) But if it turns out that he cant leave that place/ or interact with anyone, without everything going down immediately, then I would argue that this Loki's life is worse than the other's death... and I cant believe Im describing Infinity War Loki's Death as a mercy...

Back to the ep...

AFTER?! Right theres an after

The TVA is still intact, with a new leader ship and everyone working together, B-15, OB, Casey and even Ms Minutes is helping?

Mobius looks so sad doing his job though...

Hes gonna LEAVE?! He wants to experience his own life on the timeline, huh... Loki did promise that to Don... and M is going for it, thats sweet actually

Renslayer got sent to the end of time, Alioth waiting for her, well then

Mobius seeing what his life used to be is so sweet, likes how perfectly imperfect is it

Sylvie visits too?

"Its weird Loki's not around" she says and I start bawling my eyes out again, now thats just salting the wound.... at least they remember him

NOOOOO THE SHOT OF LOKI IN HIS THRONE

He is smiling, but he's crying too

Is there ANY Marvel Movie, or Show where Loki doesnt cry?!?! My freaking heart...

Look I know this ending makes rational sense.... and it was defintely epic, and we finally got Loki at his full potential, and yes, Loki being finally recongnized as one of the most powerful MCU characters is cool.

But personally, on an emotional level, that ending is somewhere between bittersweet and absolutely heart breakingly dreadful, because Loki didnt want this, he didnt want the throne, he only did this to save his friends, he gave up his own happiness and I hate it... I know he is happier knowing his friends have a chance at life and that he chose this, but there wasnt much of an choice with HWR....

I just hope that Loki learning to control time means he can at least visit his friend, pop in from time to time, because if him leaving the throne/ the branches means everything could come crashing down, then thats just sad...

And what does that mean for the teased Loki & Thor Reunion?! WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT?! We didnt even get an end credit scene?!

Anyways, I'm gonna rewatch the season the next couple days and go through some theories and head canons and see whether that will change my opinion on the ending, but we'll see.

[hellsbroadcaster]

I realize I could be compliant and block you, but considering you have multiple other blogs, i really doubt you're going to stop looking. So why bother? I was going to message you directly, but you blocked me again before I could get the chance. And I'm not interested in sending anons.

I guess I am just waiting for you to get bored. because its really being blown out of proportion. and I'm saying this for everyone now, because I do not care what mental health problems you have, what disabilities, it DOES NOT give you the right to be an asshole. It is NOT a free pass to get away saying insensitive things to people and not to expect backlash from it so entitled as shit.

Whatever you are dealing with, it is YOUR responsibility to learn and deal with it. I am not your therapist. I can understand and respect that things get missed, social cues and all that, I have a lot of friends who like me are on the spectrum, ADHD, dyslexic. I have depression, anxiety and PTSD and guess what?? I don't make that everyone's problem. I respect people who can come to me and tell me if I missed the ball on something, or I was being rude or something i said bothered them. because if I dont know, how the fuck am I gonna learn?

Roleplayers are not their characters. WE ARE REAL PEOPLE, with REAL feelings. We have lives, we make mistakes. my issue with you, is you claim to have been straightforward but really you were just rude and tried to blame on it on the fact that you don't understand social cues and its why you come off as rude. but i think you are just rude.

I was really understanding of it before, when we talked. I told you many times, what the real reason behind why I was upset and you ignored it every time and only focused on what I said. I reached out solely to inform you that the way you word things is important and if you said those things to someone else? They would not be as understanding as I was. and i feel like a little bitch for admitting it but it made me cry when i saw your messages.

but yes, i dont expect everyone to be my friend, i wasn't naïve in thinking that we were but it makes people feel a type of way when you use them for information, ask for their help and then when you don't need it anymore you come and say how you didn't ever have intention of writing, or being friends and you're gonna block and move on ( which is laughable considering you haven't). And it made me cry because, in the last year, I have given so much of myself to people I DID consider friends and dropped me the moment i couldnt give them what they wanted anymore.

because the rpc has a big issue in not seeing their roleplay partners as people. they only exist to give them roleplays and that is not right or okay. and you did that shit on my birthday. when I was having fun with my friends, I had to stop and fight back tears until the end when I could finally be alone. and i dont say this for you to care, or feel bad. i dont really give a fuck how you feel at this point.

you were rude and inconsiderate towards me, and you've never once acknowledged your own faults. you lied to me about the real reason you wanted to block me, which is totally fine and respectable. but you could have just said that from the beginning instead of giving me false reasons and therefore me trying to find other ways to make you more comfortable. deny it all you want but that's what a lie is, you were misleading. and the moment I started to give you what you were giving me, which is disrespect, you ran away. which is why I am writing this now. because I know you won't stop. I know you won't confront me. if I bothered you so much the realistic thing to do would be to keep me blocked. but you cant? because I know internally its a you problem and actually has nothing to do with me. which is why I can be so calm and indifferent about it.

why I dont spend my days thinking about you, or talking about you. or bothering to try and look at your blogs cuz i dont care what you do or say about me or whatever else. its why i wont block you, because i dont need to do or anything actually. you're torturing yourself at this point. this will be the last thing I say on it though. i hope you figure your shit out. maybe go back to therapy and learn a little more to be better.

[partnersincrimesuau]

I feel like I really wanna get this off my chest. Look, I don’t hate Connie as a character. She’s perfectly fine and nice enough and I’m perfectly fine with Conniverse as a ship even if I REALLY don’t agree that it’s the best and ONLY true ship for Steven like everyone says it is and that Connie is Steven’s one true soulmate like everyone makes her out to be. With all that being said, I can’t help but feel like Connie became a HUGE Mary Sue ever since late season 2 of Steven Universe.

Okay, since this is gonna be a LOOOONG one, I'm gonna answer them all separately on the same post XDD Also I would advise you not to read this post if you're a Connie fan. There's no outright hate towards her (okay maybe a little bit...) but there sure ain't any love towards her either. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions, remember!!! No hate to other users in the comments, please!!!

I agree with you on some people calling it the "only true ship for Steven"... people who say this about any franchise are people with no imagination XDDD (like, okay, I know that there are some characters from some franchises that I ship ONLY with one other character, but that doesn't mean it's the ONLY valid ship!!!) And also, YES. At first I was reluctant to answer this entire ask series, but I AGREE WITH YOU. Here we go, guys... welcome to the "Connie Is A Mary Sue Ask Series"!!!

2. Yes, a lot more good points! Now that you mention it, I have noticed that she is often "the right one" and is always very mature in what she says. And yeah, she's only a human teenager with a few what, weeks? months? (months at MOST) of experience with swordfighting... and is suddenly considered an expert? It's got me thinking - WHY did the writers make Connie a swordfighter? I mean yeah, it adds flavour to the story... but it still is a very Mary Sue kind of thing.

3. ARRGHHHH I KNOW!!! This is why those few episodes are some of my LEAST favourite episodes in the show - Connie just??? blames him??? She blames him for doing a righteous thing to save his friend, a friend who later gets killed in front of Steven, who is A FOURTEEN YEAR OLD, WHO IS STRANDED ON AN ALIEN PLANET BEING HUNTED BY KILLER ALIENS AND ROBOTS - and when he comes back she's like "We could have done that together wahhh" LIKE BRO!!! HE WAS LITERALLY TRYING TO PROTECT YOU!!!!! AJHDISDISHDI (sorry, I went off there. Carry on.)

4. (Sorry, i couldnt find a part 4 in my inbox...? either a tumblr glitch or a typo... it doesnt matter either way tho, im sure the rest of the ask series works without it ^^) OOOOOHHOHOHOHO ANOTHER GOOD THING TO MENTION!!! SHE NEVER APOLOGISES!!! Legit, Connie does this crappy thing and ruins Steven's life for a couple of weeks and then NEVER apologises about it. Does she have ANY idea how much of his PTSD was caused by her? I bet she doesn't. (Also just gonna quickly mention that Spinel did one crappy thing in one day and then immediately apologised for it, claiming that she knows it caused a lot of damage to their relationship from the beginning. Call me crazy, but I absolutely believe that what Connie did to Steven was WORSE than what Spinel did (specifically TO Steven tho - I mean, Connie didn't try to destroy a planet XDDD)

5. A thing I often say to friends and fans is that Connie was a good character before Season 4, and only before Season 4. "The New Crystal Gems" is a fun episode, and I love watching it, but I cannot STAND Connie at the end of it. Suddenly, Connie is the "mature adult" who orders around the "superpowered children"!!! And YES, i know, Lapis and Peridot were very childish in that episode - but tell me, why do you think they acted that way in that SPECIFIC episode? just to make Connie even more of a Mary Sue? Yep. Anon, you're on to something. (ALSO I KNOW, Lion!! how could you?! You're disrespecting the good name of your voice actor TnT)

6. THE LIST GOES ON, ANON!!! IT GOES ON!!!!!!! (Also ITS TRUE, the protagonist's girlfriend is the "only character who can talk to them"!!!! Writers, come on. The only time this trope works is in How To Train Your Dragon. It doesn't work in Steven Universe.)

7. I think you've basically cemented my dislike for Connie x Steven now. He deserves SO much better than her. And its true, she is "so perfect!!!" Maybe the writers should have paid more attention to Jamie's play. Maybe then they would have realised that Connie has no struggles by Season 5 and 6 and just dissolved into a very unlovable character. (Also can I just say, the first ask from this anon started with "I don't hate Connie, and I'm fine with Connverse..." and then escalated to this XDDD This is iconic, thank you so much)

8. YUP. YUP, YUP, YUP. SHE DIDN'T EVEN KNOW LARS DIED IN STEVEN'S ARMS WHILE HE WAS GONE, AND WE NEVER SEE HER FIND OUT??? If she KNEW, if she KNEW what he went through... gosh damn. Maybe she WOULD have been a better character in Season 5 if Steven just broke down crying about his trauma from that adventure in front of her, and she would have realised how much of an a**hole she had been about it. "Steven you left me behind and gave up to the enemy when you promised we'd be together forever!" "Connie, if I had taken you, you would have been killed. Lars didn't even make it out alive. I gave up to protect you! If I didn't, we wouldn't have been together ever again! But look, I'm back! I'm safe!" "Oh... I'm sorry. You're right." HEY CARTOON NETWORK CAN I BE A WRITER FOR-

And yeah, I think that's the last ask in this series. Thank you, my dear anon, for allowing me to sublimate all my hatred towards Connie in a post like this XDD And I'm sorry for anyone who actually decided to read all this. I hope that maybe some people will now see why I really dislike Connverse, and how in my opinion, it's ten times more toxic than Stevinel ever could be!!!

But of course, remember that everyone has different opinions. You are completely entitled to like Connie as a character, and I have nothing against that. Don't let my opinions override yours!! Love who you want and don't let anyone change that!!!

Thanks Anon, you clearly put a lot of thought in this ^^ I feel like I've just collaborated on a huge project with you, somehow?? XDDD (and i'M SO SORRY THIS IS SUCH A LATE RESPONSE!!!! All of these asks were from mid January - I'm the worst I know)

[randomfandomz]

GET READY FOR A LOT OF HUSK HEADCANNONS

Im not sorry–

Depressed as f*ck so he doesnt have the modivation to take care of himself

He drinks mainly to forget, and to releive stress

Not only that but he H A T E S water(not as much as Baxter does, but he still avoids it like the plauge)

He never showers until he absolutely has to

Like his fur is always matted and alchohol scented

And he thinks licking himself clean like non-demon cats do is absolutely out of the question, it is gross and undignified, he doesnt want to lick himself and water makes his fur feel heavy and cold and he w i l l argue with you about this

He hates having fur. He just hates it. Its hard to take care of and things get stuck in it, it gets caught in things and just hhhh h h h H H - NO

Will straight up refuse to shower until Charlie makes him

Everyone in the hotel knows about shower day

The day when they make Husk take a shower because e w g r o s s o l d m a n -

Baxter somewhat sympathizes with him about his hatred of water

Not like he actually shows it or does anything to help him though- because 1) Bax really doesnt give a flying f*ck, he just wants to do science and this doesnt concern science so he couldnt care less, and 2) He doesnt wanna speak up because s o c i a l a n x i e t y . S o c i a l i n t e r a c t i o n ? N o t h a n k y o u .

Hes literally a cat, so he hates water with a burning passion

Husk's self image is kinda... ehhhhhh- I mean, its not like he really is that bad looking, if anything he looks pretty damn cool, but he honestly finds himself pretty unattractive. "The fur and wings d o n t h e l p "

Doesnt care if you call him old unless youre trying to be offensive; Hes proud of his age and experience

Even though he acts like an old man(well, he kinda is, but-) hes actually younger than Baxter, Mimzy, Alastor, Angel, and Nifty

Only Vaggie and Crymini are younger than him

When Husk first arrived at the hotel he didnt really wanna interact with anyone; New places kind of stress him out, so it took a long time for him to adjust and not snap at every little thing

Dont get me wrong, hes still a pissy alchoholic^tm, but the anger is less serious/genuine and more just because thats how he is

Husk fought in the vietnam war, and he attempted(and failed) suicide multiple times after the war until he was eventually beaten to death outside of a bar

He turned to alchoholism and gambling as a coping mechanism

Husk suffers from PTSD(Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder), along with the obvious alchoholism and gambling addiction

He is very salty/sad that he's a war vet but died in a bar fight, and wouldn't be remembered for his fighting but rather for being beaten to death in a bar while trying to drink away the feelings he had about not being welcomed home because of the way the media portrayed him and his fellow soldiers that fought in Vietnam

Upon learning that Husk is a vietnam war vet(he mentioned it while drunk off his ass- more than usual) one patron who attended the hotel for a short time told him "Welcome home doc!". Husk was surprised, as he had come to terms with the idea that he would never be thanked or welcomed for his services, but he did make sure to be maybe a bit less pissy to that particular guest. He will never forget them. It meant more to him than he would like to admit.

((I can't really think of a better reason as to why Husk would bring it up, but having seen one or two instances of someone saying "welcome home" to Vietnam war vets, I really wanted to add this. The "Welcome home doc" thing was me referencing a specific instance of this ive seen. Im so sorry if I'm wrongly portraying this in anyway, I tried to do enough research first before typing this part out, but I just wanted to point out that I tried my best to be respectful while talking about the subject.))

Moving on- L A S E R P O I N T E R S

One time Angel was just casually messing around with a laser pointer, out of boredom or something

HUSK'S RESPONSE WAS IMMEDIATE

HE WILL CHASE THAT RED DOT TO THE ENDS OF THE GODDAMN EARTH

"That DAMN RED DOT where the FUCK did iT gO!?"

He HATES that he does this, but he really cannot help it

Being a cat demon, and being Husk, his hunt and kill instinct is through the roof(hunt and kill instinct is why cats chase laser pointers btw)

Was VERY pissy for the next few weeks after this incident

Husk will purr involuntarily whenever someone pets him or strokes his fur

He WILL murder anyone who attempts to pet him or make him purr without consent(*COUGH COUGH* ANGEL *COUGH*)

Same goes for the wings DO NOT TOUCH THE WINGS, JUST DONT-

In his room, Husk's bed is literally a mound of blankets and pillows inside a box

Even he needs to get warm and comfortable after a long day

He never lets anyone in his room

Like n e v e r

Angel snuck in one night- Husk's half asleep drunken a*s shoved him out and yelled at him, waking up practically all the hotel staff and a few guests

In his defense, Angel, upon seeing the sleeping Husk, scratched behind his ears. Husk started to purr, but then snapped to somewhat conciousness, and realized what the f*ck was going on-

Yes, Husk is v e r y defensive

Give him a compliment? He wont accept it under any circumstances. He will probably be flustered and claim that the other is either lying or just kissing up to him

"You know you dont have to kiss my a*s to ask me something, right? The fuck do you want?"

Charlie honestly finds his reaction to compliments very sad

Has a kind of "well ya didnt need to point it out" attitude towards insults

Alastor insults him with the worst names in the book? He accepts it and couldnt give less f*cks

Even if its someone either than Alastor insulting him, usually even if he acts offended and p*ssed off, somewhere in his mind he just accepts it

Usually Alastor is the one insulting him, but in a "best friend rights" kind of way

He likes being creative when it comes to colorful language

"Look out to my sea of f*cks, and see how it is barren"

Doesnt have a "soft spot" for kids like Angel, but doesnt mind lessening the swearing a bit and doing a few magic tricks for the occasional child that somehow found their way to the hotel

He HISSES

If Husk is hissing at you you better f*ckin rUN-

He usually refrains from hissing- its part of him rebelling against his cat-like nature, but if he is openly hissing at you it means he is at his wits-end and is honestly P * S S E D .

sERIOUSLY, F*CKING R U N -

Crymini has a blog documenting all the cat-like things Husk does, and she sometimes does the classic "THIS IS A HUSK IN ITS NATURAL HABITAT" or "LETS SEE HOW THE KITTY REACTS TO THIS NEXT THING" bit, and Husk honestly finds it insulting as f*ck

Crymini pranked Husk with a cucumber(you know how cats on the internet are terrified of them) and Husk was actually scared of it, and he ran up a f*cking tree and wouldnt come down for a solid hour, partly put of legitimate fear, and partly out of spite from seeing the slightly guilty look on Crymini's face after the first 20 minutes of him hiding up there

Being a cat demon, alchohol is actually slightly toxic to him, and he is prone to alchohol poisoning. He usually drinks beer, which has low ammount of ethanol(5-7%)[ethanol is what makes alchohol so toxic to cats]

Baxter has a spray bottle to use on Husk if he is being particularly stubborn or bothersome. Charlie sometimes uses her own spray bottle for similar purposes, but she usually says something like "Bad kitty! No!" Along with it to tease him. Husk finds it humiliating and hates when his fur is wet, so surprisingly the spray bottle thing usually works.

He is demi-panromantic and asexual

H A T E S being touched, like under any circumstances

"The last time I voluntarily made physical contact with another being was in 1970 and it was while I was loosing a bar fight. It was also the day I was beaten to death and setenced to hell."

Bonus:

Angel: Hey kitty~! Wanna cuddle~?

Husk: The last time I voluntarily made physical contact with another being was in 1970 and it was while I was loosing a bar fight.

Angel: Oh really? *snickers* And how'd that work out for ya'?

Husk: Well, it was also the day I was beaten to death and put in hell. So I dunno. You tell me.

[warningimmental]

You made your choice. It's not to be a mother so....... Congratulations you're free!!!. Your Wish came true.

Yes this is public so people can see.#TRUTH

***See below as im not repeating again and again.***

My side of life.

P.s

Yeah I'll be fine. I always am in the end.

( Heres what needs to be said and has been said so not to repeat myself. From in PMs )

Sad thing is she knows ill forgive her just like I forgave dad and EVERYONE and EVERYTHING else. I care so no one else has to. I'm the one who picked up the pieces of everything but was tormented daily. She wonders why I was the way I was it was due to parenting and fobbing me off to anyone who would take me.

Anne and Bob should of kept me. They couldn't have kids they could of had me though. (neighbours I adopted as grandparents no blood but love ) My father was a shit most of my life my mother was everyones mother bar mine. They kept me quite with gadgets and as long as I went to school fed and watered job done.

Favourite quote was "it's your fault" and dads was "your making me ill"

Christ for someone who knows everyone elses business she never saw what was happening to her own daughter.

29 years im done. Sick of being a leighton.

I said Stockholm syndrome I loved my captives just happened to be the people I called mum and dad....

I still love them both but what I was "known as normal" was not remotely normal.

Eg. I was appendicitis and born 8 months in mum had no clue and I was "hiding" behind her ribs. It's medically impossible.

Not to mention lived in New York every other year from age of 6 months till I was 13. Dad would take me over and over and over mum came ONCE for my 13th.

I have no memories of New York. It's kind of a huge thing and place to have been wiped out of a memory.

Now im clear-minded im having pseudoseizures because my subconscious doesn't want me to remember what happened.

What mother would let a new born or toddler a child that can't speak fly to the other side of the world to only be with men. My dad and my fucked up uncle who sends stuff to "favourite" niece

I've tried so hard to get better and it's not even my family who acknowledged it.

There's so much you don't know.

She used to have me go in the house before her in case dad had killed himself so id find him first from the ages of 7 onwards. When dad past I went behind the curtain first. So I kept the is see him first. On 29th April 2018

I was always on eggshells she would say people die of lack of breath so EVERY NIGHT id check on mum and dad every hour. She would hold her breath to screw with me. Then say im not dead go to bed.

The house was toxic. For once in my life im actually sane.

She is not who you think she is.

If I've lost my mind it's because my environment sucked. I'm finally out. Sober can think clear and don't harm because I don't have to deal with the toxicity that I dealt with ALL my life.

If I told you everything you wouldn't believe me. Which is fine know one does because but it's true.

Always ask why or what causes someone to go off the rails and self destruct. I never felt safe, I was always told I was a mistake and everything was my fault. As long as I kept the family secrets mum was happy.

Dad was toxic. Mum the same. She wants drama so I finally said enough.

When I say mum knows everything I mean she saw it all and NEVER had it stop or put me safe. I can finally talk now dad is gone. I could write every TRUTH down and write a book. People would wonder how the hell did this girl cope and live to tell. I lived because I care about everything and everyone else. But im done now.

I doubt you'd believe me if im honest. My inbox is full of people defending her and my dad. If only they knew. its been a long time coming but im finally speaking out.

I know people don't understand but I don't want to burden with it. If You like my mum and dad id rather I let you keep the illusion. I know it's out there now that's enough.

If you want to see my life keep reading otherwise STOP HERE.

I'm fine and im safe finally. I just needed more as a child than fear of what should of been my safe place a home.

I don't want us to be strangers to the people who read this and thin sarahs lost it.

I don't want to cause a riff, I just couldn't not say it finally. Mum says always go to counselling but I couldn't. I couldn't tell anyone the truth about dad or mum. Or the truth on why I had to have a very intrusive operation due to assault by 3 at Halloween party. Mum now knows that. Dad was arrested for hitting the wrong lad. Dad and mum would have gone down for murder if I spoke out.

On the other hand there was also my home life in general. I was made to stay quiet about having a revolving door of strangers. Huge boozy parties after a night out. Mum and me being treat like muck on a shoe.

A abusive uncle who would have me and my cusion be "kissing cusions" .Every night when I was 15 to 26 I drank took sleeping pills and hid away in my room self destructive harm anything so not to deal.

I look like wolferrines attacked me because of the arguments or threats. Mum couldnt leave the house quick enough. I gave up on a career to care for my dad but I was always looked down on.

****** golden girl. left was I was guilt tripped saying "your still dads girl you won't leave me" while dad would cry. Every night.

Mum swears I was an appendicitis 8 months in term. I'd be handed to anyone and everyone. Every year or every other from birth id end up in america. Mum would say her holidays where when me and dad would leave. From 6 months old id always go back and forth to New York. I couldnt talk yet "apparently" begged to go with dad.

Mum would say after blazing rows im leaving.

Then just walk out the door. I was left with a highly angry father and confused were mum had gone and if she would come back for me. I'd stay up all night waiting. I'd hide crying and scream in a pillow so not to be to loud so dad didn't shout.

I was told my face doesn't fit. My nick name was ferret face or panda. I would hurt my self so not to hurt others. I wanted and trained to be a counsellor so one to understand what I did wrong and two and most importantly to be there for the people who needed support.

I went to rehab to be identified when found so my parents wouldn't have to. If it wasn't for craig I doubt if be here.

Craig saved my life. Mum has always put others before me or ignored it so it didn't exist.

Important in here (ears) none important (over your head)

I was terrified everyday of my life. I loved and do love my parents it's just I can't stay quite any longer.

Money or game consoles chocolate sweets where hush money. Dad would buy crates of spirits and beer and supple my / his pills so I was always foggy minded.

I'm finally sober clean and harm free my mind is the most composed it ever been.

No one knows what goes on behind closed doors.

Mum is a star and has a heart of gold to others but from age 7 onwards everyone else came first.

I pride my self on protecting, comforting trying to be there and support everyone, hell even risked my life enough times to save some. because I never had it. No one to fight for me protect me.

I wanted parents love encouragement happy I archived or even tried. But it never came.

Even my graduation was ruined.

I wasn't allowed to get a job they made me be sick and have PTSD mum still to this day loves to make me jump. I have terrifying nightmares.

I'd hear conversations no child should hear because they either didn't notice I was there or care. When ***** killed him self when *** did when dad tried and I was left with a random man being told "your dads took to many sweets"

The same man who later tried it on with me sending dirty pictures or dads other "mates" who would try there luck. I gained a shit ton of weight 21 stone so NO guy would come near me because the strangers who would come to the house used to try and feel me up or perv if door was unlocked as I was a kid.

She saw everything but wouldn't believe it. Or me. I phone our ***** one night years ago because she said I could and she yelled at me because she had work. I was silently screaming for help.

It was only at dads funeral she saw and realised and was so genuinely sorry for not believing me the night I phoned.

I wish every single thing I've said and keep telling was a lie but it's not it's 25/26 years of fear.

I'm 29 now. For the first time in my life im not on eggshells. I have a safe home. I can lock the door and not fear.

I wish these were lies I swear!!!!! I do but there not.

Yet NO ONE will even consider it's the TRUTH.

[might-guys-acorn]

I'm thrusting 4 kabuto and kimimaro rn!😔✌ I begging for nsfw/sfw hc or protective yandere bf hc😶 Ur choice and omfg I love your whole blog👀💋

Wasnt sure if you wanted poly or individual, so I went with individual :) also I prefer not to write actual yandere, for PTSD reasons, but I'll happily provide SFW/NSFW for both😘 All my love❤ -🦎

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SFW

Honestly, was in denial when he fell for you

Hes got one master and that certainly isnt his heart

But when he finally comes to terms with it, he does his best to learn how to be a good boyfriend

He takes in every word you say like its the only thing he needs. Hes such a good listener

Will do anything he can to make you happy. Hed pull the moon from the sky and give it to you, just to see you smile.

Has jealousy issues, but tries to overcome them. He needs constant reminders that hes your number one and just because you talk to other people doesnt mean youre interested

Worries about your health all the time. If you so much as sneeze in front of him, he'll dote on you for hours. He doesnt want you to get sick

Loves to hear you talk about things youre passionate about. The way your eyes light up, and you smile so big makes him melt like no other

Once, you stole his glasses and put them on. He stared at you for so long, and when you finally asked if it was because he couldnt seen now, he replied simply with "No youre just the most beautiful thing Ive ever seen."

NSFW

With the way he knows the human body, its easy to imagine how great he's gotta be in bed.

He knows all the right places to make you squirm and he has no issue finding them

Eventually, you begin to think he knows your body better than you do

Pays attention to every sensitive part of you, your collarbone, nipples, clit, g-spot, all of it. If it turns you on, he's there.

Spends so much time looking at you, and touching you softly, simply because no body has ever been as perfect as yours

And when both of your bodies are in sync, he marvels in how you make him just as perfect. You love him, he turns you on, so he's gotta be just as good, right?

SFW

He's never really known how love feels, but when you two begin to spend all your time together, and he feels fireworks when he touches your hand, and his chest flutters at the thought of seeing you, he tries to be around you at all times

He's only struck with the thought that he loves you when you lean in and kiss him one day

From that moment on, he's 100% committed to being with you until he's no longer of this world

You make him feel like he's never felt. Your laugh makes the world brighter, your smile is enough to take every pain away

He feels guilty when you tell him you love him though, because he knows how sick he is.

But you find out soon enough about that, and tell him you'll be there every step of the way

Your acceptance and support only makes him love you more

Will curl up with you whenever possible, but loves it most when youre outside, in a field and he can see the way the sunlight highlights your face

Smiles at you whenever he can. He didnt used to smile at all, but you lighten his heart so much that he cant help it. His smile is the most stunning thing youve ever seen

NSFW

Definitely a virgin, so youll be his first

He loves you, so he doesnt feel uncomfortable in any way

Your naked body is even more stunning to him, and he wants to kiss you all over, because every inch of that beauty must be appreciated

Youll have to talk him through most things, because he's never had a reference in his life

But he gets the hang of it pretty quick, and is pretty damn good at it too.

Fully shocked at how amazing it is to be inside you, you really do show him all the good feelings he's never known before

Will tell you that youre a goddess all the time, because in his eyes, no one will live up to the happiness, love, and albeit pleasure youve shown him

[gelatomesomeironqrow]

Thoughts on V7 Ch11 that I can process right now.

James motherf***ing Ironwood. I knew he didn't have alot of aura but he really has the drive and will to keep fighting. I suspect he doesn't have a semblance which makes him even more badass to me. That fight, the way both of them were counting their bullets and not having any more ammo with them. Watts and James have a history and dare I suspect they used to date?

The way Watts said this;

I don't think he was talking about his jealousy over Pietro. I think, if they didn't date, Watts had some one sided feelings for James and like who wouldn't, look at the man. But damn, that line strikes me as the kind someone says to a person that broke their heart, intentional or not.

It makes, Watts going to Salem for the sole reason to attack Atlas, his home, more sense to me. Watts knows how much James cares for Atlas. He knows that by attacking Atlas, he is essentially attacking James. Even in V3, his role was to hack Atlas security. James' line about loyalty being everything, and carrying Watts' suitcase around after dropping him in lava. Perhaps he also still cared for Watts, not romantically, but like those feelings don't just go away after you break up with someone.

Their fight was amazing and beautiful, and James... my poor baby hurt himself and even Watts seemed surprised. Also to note, Watts didn't seem like he was trying to kill James, especially not at the end.

Moving on;

Tyrian. My man. What was that fight? Lmao, I couldn't stop laughing, a normal person doesnt break into hysterical laughter when their aura breaks. But man am I glad you are still alive.

Cinder. Man, she irks me. Purposefully triggering James like that. James was hurting already from Watts, now his PTSD (which I worried would come into play) has led him into a spiral. He is right about everything he said. Team RWBY, they are right to voice their fears and complaints. But James' decision is ultimately correct. They don't have the time to save everyone in Mantle. Their defenses are down. They still have enemies in Atlas with more on the way. They can't afford to waste anymore time. Is it fair? No. But it is the best plan they have right now.

Ruby telling Salem the truth in spite, when she couldn't/wouldn't tell James everything right away. James was right to be angry and upset about that. He gave them so many chances to trust him, and (granted they had had adults in the past who they trusted, betray them) but James was the most trustworthy and yet no one would trust him.

I'm looking forward to RWBY vs the Ace Ops next episode though. Marrow is going to switch sides, he was the only one who seemed to side with RWBY.

Summer. Her mission remains a mystery. Was she acting on Oz's orders or not? Why would she have faced Salem alone?

I felt for Ruby there, which like her not being able to use her silver eyes this volume is interesting to me.

Clover, Qrow, Robyn. The way they were sitting in that truck. Robyn and Qrow sitting together with Clover across from them. If that didn't highlight the divide I don't know what did. Clover will side with James, Clover is all about loyalty and I believe his loyalty lies with James. He wouldn't be James' right hand man if he wasn't loyal. Qrow will side with Ruby because family. Robyn will side with the people of Mantle even if she knows deep down that this is the best solution.

I hope Qrow hightails it to Atlas to speak with James. He remains the only person who could get through to the man.

I'm lowkey upset that we didn't get to see Neo taking Oscar but like it's ironic that that fight is left to our imagination.

Jaune has a bit of a PTSD too. This is the second time he couldnt get through to someone via scroll and the second time one of the members of his team has gone missing.

The next two episodes are going to be intense and I'm still worried for James' safety.

[kitten-liittles]

My story, in poem form

Tw suicide and emotional abuse

No one believed her

No one knew how serious the

Situation was they always said

Whats the big deal

Mental manipulations

Driving her insane with fear

And anger she never felt

So strongly before

He snapped

Day after day

Tip toe tip toeing

Everywhere she goes

Everything she says

Everything she does

Tip toe tip toeing

Forever it seems

No one believed her

when she said

"I'm scared to be alone"

Tip toe tip toeing

For months on end

Months turned into years

Scared and alone

With him

Theres no place to hide

He's stronger than her

He's faster than her

Hes in control

Call 911 her daddy said

How can she if

Her phone isn't in her hands

Her daddy stopped coming home

Her daddy couldnt save her anymore

Her momma was never home

Now shes all alone

With him

Day after day

Tip toe tip toeing

Everywhere she goes

Everything she says

Everything she does

Tip toe tip toeing

Forever it seems

No one believed her

when she said

"I'm scared to be alone"

Tip toe tip toeing

For months on end

Months turned into years

Scared and alone

With him

Years pass along

And down the road

He still scares her

Her momma said she not alone

She got a stepsister

And a stepdad to come home

It doesnt matter

PTSD sinks in along with

Severe anxiety and depression

Go to school

Deal with people everyday

Is the same never ending pain

She doesnt eat

Unless it gets her high

Unless it gets her by

She thinks maybe

It's for her own good

No one ever really would

Care about her anyway

The world would still spin

Day by day

Without her how could

She go so low

You should ask him

Oh wait no don't do that

He'll never speak the truth

Months pass she starts skipping class

She cant handle it no more

Being around people

Is suffocating her

Even her friends couldnt be around

Without her panicking

She sits on the pillar

Away from all of everything

Teachers get worried

They try to talk to her

But she wont speak

She would leave class

And no one would

Notice she felt invisible

One day one month

Until school ends

She planned everything

Over the weekend

She said her goodbyes

But only in her mind

Because she had no one to tell

She noticed everyone ignored her

Her friends, her crush

Passed by without second thoughts

That this would be

her last day

She walked and kept on

Walking towards the water

Each step gets heavier

The thick grass entangles her

The water seems so inviting

Open arms coaxing words

Walk in I'll hold you

Just like you always wanted

To be held and I'll hold you

Until your last breath

One thing two living beings

On her mind stops

Her in her tracks

She looks back

But its not the school

Shes seeing

Shes seeing her two dogs at home

Who would be all alone

Without her love and coming home

They would always miss her

They loved her

And she loved them

The whistle blows

Kids start crowding in

She runs while she cans

Back into the school

One week one hundred calls

Later shes on fluoxitine

She goes back to class

Everyday she talks with her friends

People start to notice her

And how she changed so much

Shes still scared just not

Out of her mind

She still locks her door

Day and night

She meets someone,

But he's online

But no matter that

She thinks she might

Be alright

[emoali]

Talking to him

The text...

Then getting home expressing how i feel

I let him know that I was confused and been crying and dealing with it at work and that i talked to my brothers

His reaction was

It sounds like I just don't make you happy anymore and I just want you to be happy

He says he sees the resentment in my face when I look at him...

After a while he asked what i wanted from him? I asked to make this splitting up easier? or to help mend up back together?

He replyed to help Make things better

I said Idk its just a bunch of stuff i need to work out because even when we were both working I think I felt this way

He told me to just relax and that he didnt want me to freak out. He started talking about getting food everything was going pretty well but then I puked the anxiety from everything and not eating all day and crying all day made me sick 😷

I smoked some weed to make me feel better and then I said do you want to know what i want?

Yeah... not food wise... Oh...

I ended up telling him to much...

Told him how I saw resemblances in dwayne Nd how i wanted a justin

How I loved him and hes my bff who i cant imagine my life with out...i started fighting for what i wanted...i told him that i was on a self help journey and i want him to join but if he doesn't I will have to leave him behind.

He then told me that hes dealing with ptsd from Jose our dealer

Says it effects him everyday in dreams ...

With all the saddness he fell asleep quickly I couldnt lay there with all these confusing thoughts... I started to cry on top of him we cuddled a little but then i asked him more questions...how many apps have you been putting in? I put in 4 or 5 why havnt you told me that? It doesnt matter till I get the job. Why dont you work for my dad in his Warehouse? Thats to far...but we want to move to that side of town so really it's right where we want to be right? Yeah but still who knows when we will be able to move...It wouldnt take that long! We would both have good paying jobs...he walks away using the restroom

When he comes back I ask him why he's so quick to dimiss the job...he says its also that he doesnt work with my dad and brother but mostly cuz it to far. I go back to the apartment and he says it expensive to live over on this side of town... I start looking apartments up and he says I'm overwhelming him. All understandable.

As he falls back asleep from the anxiety I start to realize he's holding me back always coming up with reasons why we can't ...I start to fantazise as I get higher about being on my own getting on my feet. Started thinking about what would happen if i needed to find a new job would I go back to time share? Naw to stressful what would i do then i statted stressing a little about what I would do...

And thinking about what it would actually look like to pack stuff up...  

but then some how I came to this conclusion VVV

I want a future with him I want him by my side. I want to travel with him and make memories. I want his brother and my brothers to hang out at family events. I want to grow old with him. I want things to get better.

Im still fighting for this.

He woke up shortly after a quick nap and said hes hungry and i said I was too and that i wanted pizza. He said okay lets go order is in happy attitude. I didnt get up because I was still processing thoughts. He comes back saying hes ordering the pizza on his computer and he wants me to join him and kisses me all over my face my neck we kiss a bunch.... I get up and we order the pizza I'm still thinking about stuff and then i open up netflix. The headliner movie starts playing the trailer and its a scary movie... He looks over and says are you about to watch a movid I say no but this looks good and it felt like we were down to both watch it and eat

[tumblunni]

I have a question that I hope is ok. I have had a suspicion that I might have some form of autism for quite a while now and when you reblog posts that say something along the line of just autism things like the one you just did I have to do a double take because I do all of those things + have them happen to me and am shocked when I see I'm not the only one who does these things especially the really abstract. I don't ever bring it up though in fear that people get upset that I'm "faking"

Oh man, mystery person, that’s pretty heavy!! I know the feeling, it took me a LONG time of self-examination to work out whether I might have autism, and I actually did have to deal with a less-than-optimal response when I tried to talk to someone about it. My doctor outright said ‘but you seem too smart for that’, like.. what the fuck?? So seriously, you need to be prepared to be PERSISTANT. Don’t lose confidence in your decision! Make sure you get to see an actual diagnosis, don’t let them lock you out of it based on dumb stereotypes. Cos seriously, general practitioners going ‘hey this person probably doesnt have this thing that’s completely out of my division, and I wont even let them talk to that division’.. thats just.. GOD I really get frustrated and scared thinking how much more messed up my life would be right now if I’d listened to him and not ever got help for my condition!

So my advice is basically.. even if you don’t want to ‘self-diagnose’, please do ‘self-diagnose’.You need to be abnormally prepared for this, you need to have a list of all your symptoms, you need to learn the terms and have reference to point to in the event of them denying you the ability to talk to an actual psychologist. And you need to be prepared for them even treating you like you cant be autistic if you were capable of doing this!You need to hand-hold your general practitioner through explaining what autism even is, and do whatever the fuck you can so you can get transferred over to someone who actually knows who they’re talking about.Oh and common ‘self-diagnosis’ type stuff can also help a lot in the meantime, because doing research on the subject can lead you to finding new coping methods, finding other people to ask about the subject, and just generally tiding you over until you’re able to get a professional diagnosis and (hopefully) access to things like therapy and local autism community groups.Also, just, in some countries medical care is way less accessable, so I know not eveyrone is even able to get a professional diagnosis at all.

Oh, and an important thing is that autism is a spectrum and there are many different symptoms you can have. it can even be hard to discover your own symptoms, you might find that they manifest in a weird way because you’ve been subconciously trying to hide them or using some form of unhealthy coping method for years. Going undiagnosed into your adult years is really like.. one of the primary causes for autism being REALLY disabling! Dear god my stage of treatment right now is just learning to untangle a bunch of bullshit I’ve done to myself over the years, and re-learn basic life skills and self confidence. I think if i’d been born into an environment with people who actually would have recognised it and cared about getting me help as a kid, i could have grown up without most of my anxiety issues!Another important fact is that adult autism is often co-morbid with anxiety issues, due to the circumstances of being left completely alone to deal with this thing for your entire life with no support. There’s also just a lot of ways certain anxiety disorders (as well as ADHD) can have overlapping symptoms with autism spectrum disorders. A lot of the ‘that feel when’ meme stuff can be relateable to all three of these otherwise quite different disorders. So I’d reccommend looking up info on ADHD, PTSD, generalized anxiety disorder, and related conditions too, and maybe seeing which disorder seems most similar to what you’re experiencing. And don’t be scared if it seems like you might have multiple of them! In real life being ‘all the tokens at once’ is VERY MUCH not ‘unrealistic’, man I really hate those people who’re like ‘hwaaa someone who’s black AND gay AND in a wheelchair? political correctness gone maaaad!’ Seriously, its very VERY possible to have more than one mental illness, especially ones that might have a knock-on effect causing another one. Going undiagnosed and untreated for ANYTHING can lead to developing anxiety and depression, but going undiagnosed for a social disability makes it especially likely to get specifically social anxiety.oh, and randomly for an example I happen to also have prosopagnosia, which means I can’t tell the difference between people’s faces. I literally cannot recognise my best friend if she changes her hairstyle or glasses. This is kinda Double Hell combined with autism, cos its already a challenge for me to judge people’s emotions, lol!

Oh man I’m kinda going offtopic and just rambling every damn fact I know, but I’m just hoping maybe something will be helpful??I really am not an expert on autism, I dont even know any good informative blogs to link you to. I’m just a regular person who happens to have the condition, and I don’t know how to give good advice when i’m still quite often suffering from denial and self hate myself...But I dunno, I just hope it could help to hear my personal experience, and know that you’re not alone.Though now I’m worrying maybe this post is a little intimidating so it might make you feel worse?? Seriously, this is just a worst case scenario thing, hopefully your doctor won’t be as casually gatekeepy as mine was. And I mean, he seemed like a good man who wasnt exactly rude about it and wasnt doing it on purpose. If anything that worries me more, tho, cos he was just politely saying ‘haha no you’re wrong’ to a patient, about a subject he wasnt remotely qualified in, and wouldnt have ever considered reccommending me to a professional if i hadnt kept nagging him about it and come back with a bunch of research and stuff. It felt SO damn cathartic to get that ‘YES, AUTISM’ in the end! Shame I couldnt show it to him and I probably would have had my entire healthcare cut forever if I boasted XDAlso, I was lucky that I had my charity support worker to help me through the stress of the assessment interviews. I hope you have at least one person who’d be able to be there for you and believe you, in times like these. Or, even if you’re like me and you dont’ have any family and stuff, I hope you end up meeting a surprisingly awesome governent worker lady who wears a cool hat and helps you out. Seriously, Amber, you’re a godsend!

So umm.. yeah.. i am REALLY sleep deprived and I am not good at words but i hope some of this helped?? I hope you’re okay, anon!And honestly, reading ‘lol relateable jokes’ type posts on people’s blogs was how I first started suspecting I was autistic, too. I’d grown up buried in so many stereotypes of mentally ill people, I never thought I was one of them until I actually got to read blogs from their perspective. Joke posts obviously aren’t a substitute for a diagnosis, but I think they kinda serve a valuable role in the self acceptance process, yknow? Thank you, joke posts!

[obsessiveloveconfessions]

Okay here is the thing. This blog is not a joke on the yandere trope, and I actually hate the term yandere; I just use it because it's easier for people to understand. And obsessive love disorder is not an accurate representation of this community as well. There are bad ideas surrounding this community such as the idea that we are excessively manipulative; and to clear something up, my Love killed Himself. I'm not being manipulative. I'm not going to lie, I'm very irritated about this, but I'll do my best to respond calmly. This may not be organized for that reason.

If you actually look through this blog you will see that im NOT doing this for aesthetics and I started exhibiting these behaviors before I even knew about the term yandere or even was on the internet. Additionally, I am a male, and somehow my behaviors are still unjustly considered cute and not abusive. This is no a double standard. This account was created specifically for people like me to not be seen as a troupe or aesthetic, and I definitely did not want people to romanticize this. I have diagnosed mental disorders such as schizophrenia, bipolar disorder and depression, PTSD, DID / other dissociative disorders, and I am a very high functioning sociopath. Although I am a sociopath I do NOT want to control my Lover and I am definitely not abusing Him, as He is not affected by my behaviors. Others who do are simply abusive and do not truly love their beloved. I may manipulate or harm others but it only to keep Him safe (such as a situation where He was being abused by people and I had to get them out of His life myself; without murder of course).

Both Obsessive Love Disorder and Yandere are not the correct names for this community. People like us don't exist by chance. Let me tell you:

(trigger warning)

I was raped and continuously abused from the ages of 5-8. The man who helped me out of this situation I grew to love intensely. His name was Jon. The people that abused me were my only friends and around this time, my family started to neglect me as well. So my only reason to go on was Jon. It stayed this way for a while. Then people took Him away from me. I'm still not sure exactly what their reason was, but they made sure He didn't want to talk to me anymore. Now when put in this situation what would you do? Your only reason for living is being taken away from you. I tried resolving it peacefully but to no prevail. So my time without him was miserable. I couldnt hang out with him, so instead I stalked him. By that point it definitely was not my first time doing something like that, and definitely wasnt the last. In fact, that is where these behaviors started to multiply.

Obsessive love disorder does not describe us as we do not want to harm our lovers, and the symptoms don't quite match up. Yandere is not a word to describe us either as that term is too romanticized and has bad connotation. Your perception of us is completely misconstrued and almost offensive. I hope his was enough for you to reconsider your ideas.

Yandere tips- how to tell your lover about your obsessiveness/yandere nature

I don’t suggest doing this in the first place if the relationship hasn’t been more than one year

You shouldn’t tell them something like “I’m a yandere” but you should tell them about what you do because your a yandere.

By that I mean you should tell them the extent of your love, find something that really explains it.

Example

“I would personally slaughter everyone in the world to spend one more second with you. I need you completely to myself because I love you”

From there, they would definitely question this, and from there, you could explain the rest. Don’t worry about scaring them away, because only your “dere” side has probably been out in front of them.

I suggest doing this in a romantic situation.

Remind them that it’s because you love them, not because of any other reason.

Being yandere is crazy because of love, not already crazy, then applying it to love

Although if you don’t like this method, you could tell that you have a confession to make. From there, you could GENTLY explain the way you love him/her.

I would recommend finding some yandere quotes that are practical for a situation like this.

It’s difficult for me to really give advice in this situation because I don’t know anyone who has done this, including myself. Usually, bits of my obsessiveness are shown in situations, and your lover knows but doesn’t say anything. When I (accidentally) confessed to Jon, it was because I was texting him sweet messages throughout the day with a second phone number. I knew where he was 24/7, so when he would do something I didn’t like, I’d text him not so sweet messages about what he was doing. One day, he got me to confess that it was me sending these messages. And by confessing, he knew that it was me who was his stalker for this long. Here’s the messages if it helps:

https://www.evernote.com/shard/s570/sh/d8b7a8da-8a7a-4c36-9009-0757f8038c44/58bc83f965e19d35f367e4d740d72212

Good luck!

ps: don’t bother trying text the number in the messages. He’s dead, so his number is probably out of service by now.

[motivationmatsu]

My counselor told me a I had to go to summer school after i worked hard to get a good grade, and my mom is really emotionally abuse and caused me to have PTSD, and I'm scared to tell her about it. And on the bus ride home, someone threw a used condom at me and everyone laughed at me and called me slut. I came home crying, sobbing uncontrollably and falling on the floor with no strength to get up. I kept staring at the knifes. I wanted to hurt myself. I couldnt. I'm just in pain. Jyushi plz..?

(;w; God Mod Choro’s on the verge on crying right now, people are so fucking cruel!!) 

“Hai!! Jyushimatsu here!! Aaaaa?? I’m so so so so sorry anon!! That’s sounds horrible!! Don’t worry! Jyushimatsu’s here to give you that king sized homerun you deserve!!”

“NUM BER ONE!! DON’T HURT YOURSELF ANON!!! As much as it hurts, please! Don’t hurt yourself!! Sure things haven’t gone entirely well the past few days but please!! Don’t hurt yourself!! Hurting yourself never solves problems, it only makes things worse!!”

“AAAAA Im so sorry your mother is like that!! It sounds absolutely awful to be living like that!! Do you have your father around? How about a grandparent?Oh! A sibling? It’s not good to what your mom has done to youuuuuuu!! Have a talk to a close family member or friend about this and let them know how you feel!! Because they know your mother better, they can help you get some help!!!”

“They threw a condom at you?? Why did they have condoms with them at the first place?? Why are they calling you the slut if they have the condom?? People should really think this through before making such dumb choices!! Im so sorry this world is so cruel! But please!! Tell someone and let someone know that this has happened to you!! If you’d like to contact Mod Choro privately and have a bit of a vent fest, please! Feel free to! Her personal blog is @legitliterallyy So feel free to message her!!! That was absolutely awful and should never have happened so please!! Report this!!”

“Hope that helped!!!! We believe in you anon!!!!”

~ Jyushimatsu

(Again Im so sorry this wasn’t entirely the best!! School is draining ;w;)