#I'm sure i forgot a bunch of people who might want to play

[little-pup-pip]

thanks for the tags @bunnipawbs-agere and @nostalgiclittlespace!

Last Song: A Message From The Fairies from the Bluey soundtrack!!

Favorite Color: Red!

Currently watching: A Markiplier video

Last Movie: Gonjiam: Haunted Asylum (one of the best horror movies I've ever seen)!!

Currently Reading: The Book of Bill!

Sweet, Spicy, or Savory: 100% Sweet!

Relationship: Taken (shout-out to my partner)!!

Current Obsession: Rite Here Rite Now!!

Last googled: Moth in French

Currently working on: A collection of six portraits

@the-baby-pirate @tinyowlet @emile-hides @dino-boyo-agere @starry-agere @snowfadings @fangsnpaws aaaaa I'm tired and can't think of others sorry! Anyone who wants to join in can!!

Nine people I want to get to know better

Tysm @444rockstargf for the tag!!

Last song: In the air tonight- Phil Collins

Favorite Color: Forest green

Currently Watching: Supernatural

Last movie: Fallen (1998)

Currently Reading: Carrie by Stephen King and a Dean Winchester fic called As it Was on Wattpad

Sweet, Spicy, or Savory?: Spicy 100%

Relationship: Single as FUCK

Current Obsession: Scripting for/thinking about my drs (specifically all my ones for Rory Characters and my Dean Winchester dr)

Last googled: Dean Winchesters birthday (notice a pattern??)

Currently working on: A request from a very dear friend +lots of fic ideas

Tags (sorry if you’ve already been tagged, no pressure <3): @kappasbbgirl @iiheartsai @facingreailitysgravity @angelsanarchy @wildathevrt @svgarcaine @strawberrybyers @violetshazard @k1mdr4cul4

[pixiesfz]

Hayley Raso x reader

plot: you go to watch your girlfriend play Ireland in the world cup even though your ex is in the Ireland team

warnings: swearing, soccer injuries

You woke up this morning in such a happy mood to watch your girlfriend play in the World Cup but it soon left when you remembered who she was playing.

Caitlin warned you with an eyebrow raise when you said you were going to the game last night at dinner and you know Caitlin knows your ex-girlfriend and current girlfriend enough that it might not end well.

All the partners of Matilda's players were staying at a nice hotel near the stadium and you were laid out between your sheets, seeing peoples predictions of the game and waiting for Hayley to text you where she's playing.

"Why do you want to know where she's playing, she is always the defender" Kristie Mewis, Sam's girlfriend said from the other bed

"I just hoped that maybe Tony put her as a defender this game" you said, your voice thinning as you tried to lie

"You can admit you don't want Katie and Hayley to play the ball together" Kristie deadpanned as you turned your head "I forgot that's how I first met you" You groaned and Kristie smiled

"Don't worry you guys were broken up for almost a year before you and Hayley first even talked, you are fine" she stated and you nodded.

It was not fine.

Your face was hurting from how many times your face scrunched up from a tackle from Katie or Hayley.

The whole game was very physical and you were just waiting for someone to come off in tears. You did make eye contact with Katie before the match so she knew where you were sitting, looking back to you every now and then.

Hayley did not like that at all.

"You got a staring problem McCabe?" she asked and she crossed her head "I just remember a pretty face when I see one" she shrugged and Hayley watched the ball "ex pretty face" she corrected

"You calling y/n ugly, wow I might go tell her after the game, I'm sure she'll be happy we haven't been alone together for a while" she smirked as she saw the Australian head practically whip around at her comment.

"Just saying, I miss her screaming my name at games, and at other places" Katie shrugged and licked her lips, looking back to you once again.

Hayley's plays became more angry and you were sure she was about to get a yellow card any second. You couldn't count how many times the two girls were at each other and you were sinking down in your seat each time.

You knew Katie was only looking at you to get on the Australians nerve and it was working so you sent Katie a glare which she just sent her tongue out too, something she knew you used to find attractive when you were together.

When the ball next comes to your girlfriend she passes it off near her defenders leg, next thing you knew Katie was on her back on the ground and Hayler was trying to defend herself to the referee who crossed her head and pulled out the yellow card.

You shook your head in annoyance knowing that Katie was very proud of herself as she watched your current girlfriend walk off the field and to the bunch.

After the game that Australia won, you didn't run to your girlfriend which you usually do instead you slowly walked until Hayley saw you, her head hung low as she realized you were either about to tease her or yell at her.

She took advantage of your slowness as when you passed some of the Ireland players she ran up and kissed you which you laughed at "Stop being jealous" you told her which she rolled her eyes at.

"Hey the Rasotude is for the umpires, not for me" you pointed at her

"I was just reminding someone who's going to be in your bed tonight"

[pineappleciders]

hey!! i saw that ur writing reqs were open and i was wondering if u could write (platonic) hcs of the main 4 finding out their friend, reader, is trans ftm?

++reader transitioned before meeting the main 4 and is afraid of revealing it to them, worried that their relationship as friends might change somehow or they might not even see him as a guy anymore

take your time!! i love ur writing btw !!!!!!

sp main 4 finding out reader is trans ftm

A/N: thank you so much!!! i can do a mtf or nb vers for anyone who wants it :) i'm sorry if anything is offensive or anything!!!

TRIGGER WARNING: some transphobia on cartmans part (i know this sounds bad but jsut read it😭) and probably some talk about dingalings and hoohas (very briefly)

stan marsh

he's curious about it!! like he'll ask a bunch of questions about how you found out and what it means and stuff

he honestly probably doesn't know a lot about it before u explain it to him. like he knows people are transgender but he never learned about gender dysphoria or why people transition

he might ask a few,, personal questions. he genuinely doesn't mean to be rude or weird he's just curious !! will stop and apologize if you are uncomfortable

"seriously, you don't look like you were born a girl. i never would've been able to tell."

it might make him question his own gender??? like he might talk to you about it sometimes and he explains it as 'not really feeling like either a boy or a girl'

other than that he doesn't really care, like he doesn't treat you any differently. honestly he probably forgets it if anything😭😭 like in the T.M.I. episode he asks why you aren't lining up to get ur wiener measured and then he's like oh yeah oops i forgot💀

kyle broflovski

"oh. really? like, actually? huh."

he's honestly just confused as you've never said anything about it before. he might ask why you didn't tell him but when you explain he understands and tells you he wouldn't view you differently no matter what

"i mean, i think it's stupid that some people deliberately go out of their way to misgender people. like, you've been a boy and i've always seen you as a boy, so why would i purposefully make you feel bad? that's just stupid!"

he appreciates if you teach him a bit more about it, 'cause he doesn't know a whole lot

i feel like he'd purposefully do more,, boyish things with you???? like he invites you to play football or play video games more or like idk. do boy things.

he doesn't do it to single you out, he just really wants to make sure you feel like you fit in with the rest of the guys, so he's always inviting you to meetings with the dudes and treating you like a brother

eric cartman

i feel like there are a lot of different ways this could go, but mainly i feel like he's never actually going to view you as a girl?? if that makes sense

like he'll make fun of you and probably tease you (similar the whole sand in kyles vagina thing and calling him ms. broflovski and shit yk??) but no matter how much he tries to crack transphobic jokes he still sees you as a guy

he honestly might be a little uncomfortable at first because he feels like you're 'a spy for the girls'. but he quickly gets a stern talking-to from kyle and at least doesn't voice that opinion anymore

either way as much as he hates it he still sees you as a dude, if anything it just makes him uncomfortable to think about ur (or anyones) sex so he just goes with the flow. literally dress up as anything and he'll treat you like it. he doesn't want to put that much effort into caring

so yeah he makes fun of you and misgenders you but not in a genuine way. he can try but he still views u as one of the guys so he just accepts it and moves on. again he doesn't care enough to dwell on it

kenny mccormick

he might ask a few questions like stan but he genuinely on god fr doesn't care. it literally does not affect his view on you at all

he doesn't necessarily fully understand what being trans means but he doesn't really need to to understand that u are what u are. like if ur happy being a dude then be a dude he doesn't get what's so hard to grasp for some people

kenny isn't really one for labels. he also hasn't really explored his gender and stuff and honestly?? he doesn't plan on it. it just doesn't matter to him, he's fine with just living his life (when he's actually alive and living it)

even if he does have a few erm personal questions he keeps them to himself. he knows it could be a touchy subject and he really just thinks that whatever you were born as isn't any of his business

he will defend u whenever you face harassment from certain people, like he honestly just tells them that it's not their business and to fuck off. he mostly jumps in because he knows it probably hurts to hear stuff like that and tries to tell you that it doesn't matter what other people think, all that matters is that ur happy in your skin :)

[stellar--void]

As someone who's never read the locked tomb series and only really knows about it through memes the people I follow reblog, here's my best guess at what's going on (although from the sounds of it I'm not sure anyone who reads it knows what's going on either):

There's a girl named Harrow, presumably because it sounds like marrow and she has a special interest in skeletons. She's a necromancer apparently and she hates this. What an inconvenience.

There's another one named Gideon who's like, a jock? Hates teenagers. She's like 18

Gideon hates Harrow because she won't cannibalize her. Or potentially because she's supposed to cannibalize her. We'll call it mixed feelings.

They are walking around an abandoned spaceship with unclear intent. The spaceship might be haunted? Or maybe the main characters are haunting it. Those teens are covered in bones so they might be dead. Or they might just be freaky like that idk that's their business

There's also someone named God. Unclear if it's supposed to be literally God or if it's just some guy Named God but people seem to not like him very much

He's a memelord (ba-dum-tsss)

I think he's supposed to be like a space emperor or something. He's just like sitting in a room all day with a corpse?

The corpse is Earth's human-sona. You do you girl

At some point Harrow has to cut someone arm off and they're kind of into it

You do you girl

Harrow is being haunted by the Earth's human-sona's ghost

They're like. Trying to undermine the space monarchy? And this leads somehow to Harrow having to eat Gideon, which she is not happy about

The emperor is now sitting in a room with two corpses. Gideon lives in Harrow's brain?

Everyone is playing the world's worst game of musical chairs but the chairs are corpses and they are brain ghosts and the music is reality collapsing

Most of them are doing this because they are dead (ouch!) and want to inconvenience eachother. But at least one group is doing this because they're polyamorous. It's not going well

One of them is named Pilates Sex or something

Gideon is still just lying on the floor

I know at some point Harrow makes Bone Soup and feeds it to someone and reanimates it so they die of Bone Explosion and I think that's metal as fuck but I'm not sure why she did that

There's a new ghost with amnesia, and she's just like. Some kid.

Everyone's like 'well where the fuck did you come from'

She's called Nona. There's also someone called Nonagesimus and I'm not sure if Nona is short for that or if it's just a coincidence

Nona can speak every language but read none of them, and she deeply doesn't care about any of this. They keep trying to rope her into their drama and she just keeps doing her own thing

Harrow might be dead. Nona might be past Harrow???

Nona has died.

I forgot about that fuckass sword. I don't know what that's about let's ignore that

Anyways I think basically since Earth is dead a bunch of people are trying to get to her to revive her but Memelord cleverly hid her slightly behind his throne.

Everyone knows she's there, she's clearly just lying there, but she's behind him and they can't get to her without having to shuffle awkwardly around him in front of everyone and it would be embarrassing

They're trying to get him to leave the chair. He won't leave the chair. Gideon is still just like. There.

Some other people are trying to stop the others from bringing earth back because they're pretty sure if she comes back she'll be Pissed

Like she's going to murder them worse than anyone's ever been murdered.

You do you girl

[realjem]

now dear jem why r u so angry this year over your wrapped

You see, beloved mutual, the truth of the matter is that they are pulling shit out of their ass for no reason!

Not the whole thing, for me at least, but it's specifically the sections where it tells you a month and a "phase" you had for that month that's just... wrong to me.

gonna put this under a read-more cause it might get long hold up: (it definitely got Long)

okay. yeah. hi. My top 5 songs/artists were all pretty much in order, i can verify this since i have my spotify connected to Lastfm (tracks your listens/"scrobbles" onto its own website for easily checking what you listen to the most etc etc).

(I almost forgot before this, but I must mention that a few servers I'm in have music bots that scrobble tracks listened through vc. Some of the numbers will not count on Spotify due to this, but most of my time listening was via Spotify. It changes the rankings, but not by much.)

The "Top Songs 2024" playlist is where it starts to fall apart a bit. I set up my Lastfm to show me my tracks in top listening order from Jan. 1st to Oct. 31st (about the time it collects Spotify Wrapped data)

Aaaand... my top 10, everything past the 2nd song, is out of order. I give this some leeway due to the aforementioned vc scrobbles.

(i have to splice together the Spotify screenshots since the tracks are way larger)

You see that large bulk of songs from the same album? Why does it just... not count after the 5th one? The other 4 show up separated by 3 tracks each?????

(bonus lastfm 5-21 for extra comparison)

Actually, I'm noticing now too, EVERY track from the same album has that same 3-song buffer (notice the Halloween IV tracks also being buffered above)... but why? My best guess is so that you can listen to it w/o shuffle and not get bombarded with everything from the same album at once, but I personally feel like it removes the whole point of a "Top 100" playlist, no?

Anyways... onto the "Month Phase" things.

Hey Spotify. I didn't listen to Teddy Hyde on your broken app until July? Did you just cram it in there since it kinda fits the arbitrary aesthetic? For what purpose?

What? What? What? What? It takes me 18 other artists with WAY higher numbers to even get to Da Vinci's Notebook, and that's just for April. There are a myriad of other choices it could have gone for here, but I suppose it just really wanted to play Enormous Penis in my wrapped this year. Great

Okay sure whatever man. My Weirdcore Scratch Indietronica moment. Just ignore the top 3 artists, who are all queer people. Cool. Yeah man.

Just. I dunno. It's rubbing me the wrong way. They never even mention any of the queer artists unless they had to for me. Plus, I've been hearing rumors that they've laid off a bunch of people and let AI generate the whole thing, but take that with some salt as I have no evidence besides a screenshot of a tweet that was sent to me.

All in all, I just feel like it was... incredibly lackluster this year. I think I'm out of things to say by now, but it just sucks so bad. Obviously, alongside the fact that Spotify just sucks as a platform and doesn't pay their users any sort of wage unless they're in the top 1000, but that's a discussion someone else could word way way better than I ever could.

[thaliagrayce]

i've been talking abt my voltron playlists and @iveofficiallygonemad asked to hear them and i want to share with anybody who wants!! i know they're not perfect, i'm working on them & trying to make them better. if you have any recommendations for any of them, let me know!! there's like A Lot and i want to give a lil explanation for most of them, so i'm putting them under the cut ^-^

SO first i have my favorite one <3 it's just. all of them. it's the whole team. it's a mess and it's a bunch of different genres because it's them fighting over the aux cord on a road trip. it's them trying to make each other laugh or annoy each other or play something catchy enough it will infect everyone in the vicinity with brain worms.

Hunk: i'm pretty happy with my Hunk playlist! chill vibes. he strikes me as the kind of guy who listens to calm music to try to find his own calm, and that's what i got here :)

Pidge: this is messier and less cohesive than my usual playlist because frankly i think pidge would have a shit taste in music. all over the board. this is a mix of meme songs and 8-bit covers and vocaloid and stuff that i think pidge would genuinely connect with, and i think pidge listens to all their music on shuffle without any regards for genre or mood because they're a gremlin. nobody gives pidge sole control of the aux.

Coran hears 80's music for the first time and loses his mind. He thinks ABBA is humanity's single greatest achievement.

Lance: i have ideas about where I'm going with this but haven't really settled yet. Lance seems like the kind of boy that loves to dance (is that canon? i forgot) so most of these are Bops That Make You Move in some way or another. he likes to present an upbeat face to the world, so there's no angsting in this playlist! we are clinging to the things that make us happy with both hands until our knuckles turn white!

Keith: i'm gonna be honest. i made him a playlist but i honestly don't think he cares about music very much. it's very important to some people! he's just not one of them! i haven't cracked this playlist open in a while but i'm pretty sure it's full of songs that i think he would conceivably train/work out to.

Shiro: this playlist involves the dumbest headcanon i have for shiro that has just not left me alone since i first thought of it. most of the playlist reflects the fact that he had an emo phase in middle school (that one isn't a headcanon, you just have to look at him to know) but BUT there are a few songs on here that are on here because. little known fact. he also went through a Twilight phase that he told nobody about. (keith knows. keith was there.) he has the entire twilight soundtrack memorized. he moved past the story but the music stays forever. he used to daydream about slow dancing to Flightless Bird, American Mouth. the first time Coran mentions that they have to avoid a place because there's a supermassive black hole there, he has to bite his tongue in order to keep a straight face. do NOT ask me why i believe this so wholeheartedly.

Allura's playlist sucks right now. I think it's because in my heart of hearts i know that, were she on earth today, she would go fucking nuts for taylor swift. i have ambivalent feelings for taylor swift. i cannot do allura justice like this. if you see my vision and have recs as to what might actually fit her, PLEASE.

Klance: i haven't done it yet but i'm gonna go through this and sort it to be a sort of progression of their relationship, starting with the more combative Rivalry songs, then slipping into "oh shit oh shit" songs, then maybe ending on the more lighthearted purely romantic songs <3

(i have two songs in a shallura playlist which does not at all encapsulate how much i'm obsessed with them. the tiny cop inside my head is just constantly screaming at me that i'm going to get yelled at for liking shallura. i am going to kill the cop inside my head.)

[shiftinglover]

How close are the JL as civilians? I'm shifting as one of their kids and I want to ATLEAST have some kind of basis of what my relationship would be like with the JL member beside my parent.

I’m so sorry for the late reply. ♥️

Let’s get things started. Remember, every universe is different. So although these would be how the JL members I know in my world act, this may not be the entirely the same case in your world. And that’s totally okay.

The Justice League in my world consists of:

Batman, Wonder Woman, Superman, The Flash, The Green Arrow, Cyborg, Aquaman, and The Martian Manhunter.

In my world, the JL members are really close. You kind of have to be close with one another, when you literally have to put your life in another hand’s.

You have to spend time with these people, fight with them, share trauma with them. You spend countless late nights with these people. You’re bound to talk to each other at some point. And after a while, you get to know your partners and they become friends.

After several years of doing this, fighting the good fight, working together, helping one another, you’re going to be pretty close with these people. And that exactly applies to the JL members.

As civilians, they act like really old friends with one another. Honestly, after everything they’ve been through together, they’ve learnt to rely on one another. And not just for fighting and for Justice League matters, but as a weird found family.

With that being said, the JL are filled with a bunch of weirdos. I love them all, but they are. These funky little guys all got together cause they wanted to help people, but their weird, abnormal selves were able to build this sense of a makeshift family. They’re not entirely sure how to act as a beings, much less as a family. So they found ways to adapt and become one.

Honestly, especially if your the child/apprentice of a JL member, the way your treated will be different. Kids of the JL members will be treated differently than other kids/superheroes/etc.

Everyone knows those kids are off limits. And will be fiercely protected/a bit spoiled. But at the same time, they will have a much higher expectation of you than others. There is a good bit of pressure on you because of that. And I’m sorry. But I do understand being under that kind of pressure. Your feelings are valid. And please, please, please don’t be afraid to voice your concerns and feelings- like ever, okay?

You will probably call them their aunts and uncles. I do that. “Uncle Bruce”, “Aunt Diana”, “Uncle Barry”, and so on. Expect for “Uncle Barry” or “Uncle Clark”to babysit you when your parent can’t watch you. Expect you to have a loooot of “cousins” (various other kids of JL members; like Nightwing, etc).

Aunt Diana will take you out for ice-cream after every game/event/after school thing you do (the times she’s allowed to pick you up- depends on who’s your parents. She’s a very supportive Aunt.) Uncle Bruce pretty much let’s you go with his kids and do whatever (so long as it’s not too irresponsible or dangerous). Uncle Cyborg will play games and watch movies with you. Uncle Barry plays card and board games with and takes to various places, like the movies or a fun activity. Uncle J’onn will play games and have really fun discussions with you. (Buy him cookies and you can bribe him-) Uncle Oliver is a bit awkward to be totally honest, but he’s nice. He’ll might teach you how to use a bow and arrows but be very strict about it. I never really hung out with my Uncle Arthur, so I’m not entirely sure what to explain for him. I’m sorry. But he was sometimes there at the family dinners/barbecues. He is nice, but I just never really hung out with him, outside of family parties and Justice League matters.

You’ll make really fun and interesting memories. ♥️

Edit: I dead*ss forgot my Uncle Arthur/Aquaman.💀 I included him in this updated version.

[softsky-daily]

6/3/2024

The sky felt extra big today.

Positive thing: The first day of my week-long class went well, and I finally got my copy of TTYD.

I have a good feeling about this class since I actually learned some new stuff, which I feel like hasn't been the norm lately in my program (how sad is that?). A speaker came today and talked about working with homicide survivor clients and it was very interesting and helpful. Heavy, but that was a given.

I've kinda just been wanting to cocoon in my room all day when I'm not doing school or work stuff. I've been so tired out. I wish there was more time to relax - I feel like I need a whole other year just to recover from this exhaustion, but I don't think that'll be coming anytime soon.

I did play TTYD today. I'm not far yet but I like the lighting changes and it looks really pretty overall. I also realized I forgot a lot of the story (the last Paper Mario game I played was Origami King back in 2020, and before that I replayed the original Paper Mario), so I might actually get some genuine surprises as I play. I can't wait to have Vivian on my team for sure though. She was always my favorite companion.

I also got a little farther in Hades and that was fun too. I'm pretty attached to the bow so I've been using that the whole time and I think I've gotten decent with it. I'm still stuck in Elysium, but it gets easier each run so I'm sure I'll push through soon.

Tomorrow's my long day since I have class all day until 10pm, so I'm just hoping I can sneak a nap and a meal in between at some point. I wonder how people balance all of this without someone else helping or quitting their job. The advice our program gave to us feeling overwhelmed was something like "most grad students quit their job to prioritize their studies so think about doing that" and to that I say, okay what about me who isn't "most grad students"? Screw us I guess. I already literally pay them to be here and that money doesn't come from thin air.

Anyways, I also got a bunch of packages today so opening them was fun. One of them was my Roxas shirt that I'm looking forward to wearing tomorrow. At least that'll be something.

[formallyfreya]

Believe me when I tell you that you can find a new friend anywhere at any age. Seriously.

My D&D group was looking for another person for our campaign and we thought 'hey, you know that guy at the grocery store? The one who told us about that D&D podcast? I wonder if he's in a group. Let's ask'.

He was thrilled to join us but warned us that he was supposed to be moving in a few months. I guess he wanted to make sure we were okay with taking on someone who wasn't going to be there long. We told him he was of course still welcome. The more the merrier!

Now our group is mostly a bunch of mid 30-somethings and we were happy to have someone so young and fresh in our group, me especially, bc as a DM I love seeing what new eyes and thoughts can bring to a campaign. And our newbie had lots of great ideas! We're having a blast!

I almost forgot that he'd be moving away in a few months. Well, after last session, he gave us a clear puzzle that he'd written a note on. I finally put it together and now I'm very emotional. In his note, he thanked us so much for giving him an escape from his stress and mundane life, for giving him friends when he was sure he'd find none. And finished up with saying we are always welcome in his home.

To tell you I cried is an understatement. I can't believe that in the course of a few months we made a great friend and knowing that he felt the same about us, that we had such an impact on him, it truly is uplifting while bittersweet. It was just a simple invite to play a game with us, to help refresh a party and make the game fun again, and now I don't know how the campaign will ever be the same without him.

Soon we'll be going to a Ren Faire, to which we of course invited our newbie. I hope we'll get to make some wonderful memories for us to look back on. The campaign is half over, so I know he won't be able to finish it with us, not when he'll have to do a lot of moving stuff, but I hope we get to stick together for another few sessions after the Ren Faire.

So I guess the moral of the story is, don't be afraid to reach out and take a chance on new people. You might make fast friends with someone and change their lives. They might change yours.

And thanks to our newbie, I just might have to get into online D&D stuff, because I'm gonna miss playing with him.

[howlingday]

The new post with Tai and Raven reminded me of Bojack Horseman’s final dialogue with Diane. Can you do that please?

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Taiyang: (Smoking)

Raven: Oh, back to your old vices, huh?

Taiyang: I, uh, I've been trying to quit.

Raven: Yeah, you're definitely trying, alright.

Taiyang: Don't be shitty.

Raven: ...Haven't seen you in a while. You doing okay?

Taiyang: Yeah, I'm doing okay. Or, well, "Okay".

Raven: Sure.

Taiyang: I've been working my way up to vice headmaster. You know, like Goodbitch was?

Raven: Was that her name?

Taiyang: ...Fair enough. What have you been up to?

Raven: Hm, let's see. I've been listening to New Beacon radio, started a crossword puzzle, and, uh, oh yeah! I'm in prison, so...

Taiyang: Right. I forgot about that.

Raven: I wish I could. Last I heard, the tribe basically scattered with Shay in charge.

Taiyang: The guy Yang punched?

Raven: I know, I know, but hear me out-

Taiyang: You don't gotta explain yourself to me.

Raven: I know you don't care about the tribe, and that we're a bunch of meanies-

Taiyang: Don't tell me what I think-

Raven: It's not like there's anybody else who can take over-

Taiyang: I'm not arguing with you.

Raven: It was just one time with the alicorns-

Taiyang: No, I am not going to help you work out whatever ego trip you have planned. I'm here to have a smoke, nothing more, nothing less. You followed me.

Raven: Because I wanted to see you!

Taiyang: About what? Shay?

Raven: No! About-! I don't know. I just wanted to talk to you, a-and I... I miss talking to you.

Taiyang: (Drags) I wish I had my scroll right now.

Raven: Yeah, I know what you mean. I never know what to do with my hands at parties.

Taiyang: No, I wish I had my scroll so I could play you the last voicemail you left me before you abandoned us. You remember that? The time you left me a voicemail?

Raven: (Heavy breath)

Taiyang: I thought you were dead. You told me you were dead. And everything was going well in my life, and I was happy with Summer, and Yang, and Ruby, and then I woke up one morning and I had this voicemail.

Raven: Look, I... I wasn't thinking-

Taiyang: You were also happy. In your voicemail. You sounded very happy in your voicemail. Or hell, you might have been sardonic, or glibly nihilistic even. Or however you'd describe the emotion you feel that even remotely could be what normal people call happy.

Raven: I'm sorr-

Taiyang: And you were clearly intoxicated, and you were going on and on about hiking. "I'm going hiking!" you said. "Nothing else matters in my life anymore and nobody cares about me, might as well get lost hiking, right?"

Raven: I'm so sorry-

Taiyang: "Call me sometime if you don't want me to go hiking! Otherwise, I'll just assume you don't fucking care about me anymore!"

Raven: ...

Taiyang: ...I honestly thought you were dead. For eight long weeks, I was sobbing myself to sleep next to Summer because I was so sure you were dead. And it was my fault for leaving you. For feeling good about my life. For not worrying. When you left, the last thing you said to my face was that you would be careful. You promised me, but only because I made you promise me that. Probably just me being selfish, right?

Raven: No.

Taiyang: Then why did you call me? You knew I was with Summer!

Raven: I don't know. I was drunk and... and I just finished a raid, and I... I wanted to talk to you.

Taiyang: ...

Raven: ...

Taiyang: When Qrow told me you weren't dead, I was angry. I was relieved, but I was also angry because I let you control me like that. I was really angry at you for a really long time.

Raven: Are you still angry at me?

Taiyang: No... I don't know. I mean, what good does being angry at you do me?

Raven: I'm sorry.

Taiyang: I wish I could have been the stronge person you thought I was. The person who could save you-

Raven: I never wanted that-

Taiyang: Then why did you always make me feel like it was? I don't know. Maybe it's just our jobs as people to save each other. I... Fuck, I don't know... But... I'm glad you're alive.

Raven: I am, too.

Taiyang: ...

Raven: ...Are you still waiting for Summer?

Taiyang: When I got Ruby's message, I was dating a woman who wanted me to run away to Menagerie with her. Said she had some family there who could keep us safe. To be honest, I thought about it, but then I remembered your voicemail, and I thought, maybe one of you would come back?

Raven: No...

Taiyang: I started feeling awful about myself. I was happy, and I hated myself for that. So I stayed, and she left down to Menagerie. We tried to make it work, but with the towers still down and the coming war, it... it just wasn't worth it anymore.

Raven: So... you broke up with her?

Taiyang: No. She broke up with me. Had the courtesy to come see me one last time before she left again.

Raven: And she found somebody else down there?

Taiyang: Yeah. Besides, it's hot as shit in Menagerie. Why the fuck would anybody think building a settlement down there was ever a fucking good idea. No wonder the White Fang fought back! I'm on the Team White Fang!

Raven: So your girlfriend at the time cheated on you? With another guy?

Taiyang: Yes... and no.

Raven: ...Oh!

Taiyang: Yeah.

Raven: Did you... Did you ever learn to trust your happiness?

Taiyang: No. But I trust my girls.

Raven: I can't really imagine you anywhere but here.

Taiyang: I went to Atlas on vacation last week.

Raven: Did you?

Taiyang: No. I mean, I did, but it was underwater. I was helping out an expedition to find any dust mines not crushed by a 48.25 terraton metropolitan kingdom. Actually, I thought back to our days at Amity, and I thought, "Wow, I was such an idiot, huh?"

Raven: Does he ever come out? That Tai?

Taiyang: ...Sometimes. I felt a little bit of him when I got back home, and I feel him now. Because I'm talking to you.

Raven: But he's not you.

Taiyang: I mean, it's all me. I could tell you, "No, that Tai is dead and gone forever!" But part of me was scared of coming back here. Seeing the girls. Seeing you.

Raven: What'd you think was gonna happen?

Taiyang: I don't know. I'd get retrospective, spiral, question where I am in my life. Maybe kill somebody trying to touch Ruby.

Raven: But that didn't happen, did it?

Taiyang: No, it didn't?

Raven: But was part of you kinda hoping it would?

Taiyang: Mm.

Raven: You ever miss the mess?

Taiyang: I would call it "mess".

Raven: Oh, excuse me. "MIZZ".

Taiyang: I'm glad I came back to Patch. It's not where I was born, or raised, or where I learned who I am, but it's still home, right? I'm glad I met Qrow, even if he does hang around too much.

Raven: Really?

Taiyang: Life's a journey, Raven, and it's never taken alone. There's people who help make you into the person you become. You can be grateful to them, even if they don't stay in your life for as long as you wanted. ...I'm glad I knew you, too.

Raven: Knew?

Taiyang: Mhm.

Raven: Heh. Wouldn't it be funny if tonight was the last time we ever saw each other?

Taiyang: ...

Raven: ...Um, anyway. I, uh, I-

Taiyang: I need to tell you.

Raven: No, no, no. You don't owe me-

Taiyang: No, I need to tell you. Thank you. And... it's going to be okay. And... I'm sorry. And... thank you.

Raven: ...Wait.

Taiyang: Why?

Raven: I know, I know, but just let me tell you a funny story, okay?

Taiyang: I thought I was the funny guy?

Raven: Can I?

Taiyang: Sure. But it better be very funny.

Raven: Uh, I don't want to lie to you, it's only kind of funny. So, uh, we have this movie night in prison, right? And we all vote on what movies we wanna see. But it's all rigged because Tambourine's favorite movie is Rango, so Tambourine gets her girls to vote on Rango every week. Every week, we all watch Rango.

Taiyang: Whose favorite movie is Rango?

Raven: I mean, it's not exactly a bad movie.

Taiyang: But every week?

Raven: That's what I'm saying! So one day, I'm like, "If I have to watch Johnny Depp awkwardly fumble through another rough spot one more time, I'm gonna snap!"

Taiyang: Is... I'm sorry, but is movie night mandatory?

Raven: No.

Taiyang: Then couldn't you just not go?

Raven: What am I, an incel?! Even if it's a kid's movie, it's got charm to it! Sue me!

Taiyang: Okay, okay! Sorry!

Raven: But I know a girl who volunteers in the library, where they keep the DVDs. I make a deal with her; "you get my dessert for a month if Rango goes missing."

Taiyang: Why do I get the feeling this doesn't end well?

Raven: Movie night comes along, and it's time for more Wild West shenanigans, but what's this? The DVD is gone! Whatcdo we do?! Tambourine's all upset, her girls are restless, and I go, "Girls, girls, girls! Why don't we watch Pumpkin Pete Halloween Hijinks? Change of pace. Classic comedy." And then...

Taiyang: And then?

Raven: Prison riot.

Taiyang: Holy shit, really?

Raven: ...I wish it was, but no. Tambourine's now in love with Halloween Hijinks, so now we watch it every week.

Taiyang: Well, you made your own bed on that one, huh?

Raven: Story of my life.

Taiyang: ...

Raven: ...

Taiyang: Heh heh heh... I'm sorry. That sounds awful.

Raven: Eh, what are you gonna do? Life's a bitch, and then you die.

Taiyang: True, but sometimes life's a bitch and you're still alive.

Raven: Yeah.

Taiyang: ...It's a nice night, huh?

Raven: Yeah.

Raven: This is nice.

[llitchilitchi]

i reallyyy like ur oblivion au it seems so cool! im bad at asking questions slbut i wouldove to know more, so use this ask to say things about ur au u havent said yet :D

ohhh gosh you really just gave me all this power

note: if you need to look anything up regarding the lore stuff I'm dropping because you're not familiar with the games, PLEASE go to UESP and support their hard work! alternatively, FudgeMuppet has really good videos that go pretty in depth

->there's a 30 page word document detailing the whole progression of the story and another 20 page document covering the maps for all the travel Dream has to do through the story (I did want to turn this into a full fic but got busy with life)

->Dream is a dark elf, George's mother was Breton, Sapnap is an Imperial, Bad is a wood elf (this might not mean anything to people who never played the game, but yes, everyone had a race assigned. there's a good chance that Karl will be an Argonian)

->Dream has a proper angsty backstory, since the player character in the actual game is up for interpretation and we don't know why they ended up in prison I had to come up with something for Dream. unlike in the game, Dream has been in the Imperial City prison for a couple weeks at the start of the story

->Dream had long hair before, but it got gross in the prison so he chopped it all short and grew it out through the story

->some of the other ccs that are in the au are Ant, Punz, Techno, Tommy, Tubbo, Phil (and Kristin), Tina, Foolish, Sylvee and Niki. I'm sure I forgot some

->Dream has a tiny bag of flax seeds that he constantly chews on. it drives George crazy

->Dream and George didn't get along at first and would constantly argue

->if you've played the game you would know this, but George was part of a daedric cult

->Dream's an Azura worshipper and a huge supporter of the Reclamations (this is just A Lot of Morrowind lore to unpack)

->Dream and Sapnap both get their hands on legendary weapons that are in the game

->beside the main quest of the game, there's a couple more quests included in the story, one of which is Go Fish. Dream ends up bitten all over by the slaughterfish and George has to heal him while laughing in his face about getting fucked up by a bunch of fish. but they needed the money, so the work was worth it

[mirrorofprinces]

ao3 wrapped ask: 3, 5, 6, 12, 17, 18, 19, 20, 28, 29, 30!

answered 17, 28, 29 <3

3. What work are you most proud of (regardless of kudos/hits)? i thinkkkk i can't stop and look the other way. i knew for sure i wanted to play with infidelity kink (and my original idea was actually for the infidelity to be real lol) but i chickened out and just made it a roleplay, and even clearly tagged it as such, but i'm proud of how i pulled it off in a way that a bunch of people commented saying they forgot or didn't realize it was roleplay hehe. maybe i'll write actual infidelity one day! who knows

5. What work of yours got more feedback than you expected? god, that's gotta be give it to ya like you never had it. i truly didn't expect the response it's gotten because there was already a super popular pornstar AU fic, so i knew my second cake would just be a humble offering in comparison, but i think a lot of people really liked the way i wrote them here where i had fun exploring their personalities outside of mafia canon.

6. Favorite title you used? oh, i hate all my titles, i literally don't think of a title until 30 seconds before posting, and then i end up using whatever song i was listening to while writing...

12. How many WIP’s do you have in your docs for next year? jesus christ. you don't wanna know. it's in the double digits for sure lmao ><

18. The character that gave you the most trouble writing this year? i don't know that it's been one character consistently in my posted fics, but i can admit that the "character" in my rpf WIPs that's been giving me hell is apo. he is so hard to write!

19. What’s one pairing you want to explore next year? i guess i can technically say mileapo since i haven't finished or posted any mileapo fics yet. but another kp ship i want to try is (unpopular opinion alert) vegasporsche. hear me out!! they might suck together in the series, but they have a different dynamic in the novel, and their relationship is more genuine (not FULLY genuine but like, more than in the show lol, like they become friends and vegas develops actual feelings for porsche and everything). but i just don't know if i'll ever actually write them because i would need the perfect idea or AU and it hasn't come to me yet.

20. Which work of yours have you reread the most? probably down like my head on your chest, because i THINK it's my fav la fortissimo fic. i'm just really happy with the scenes i chose to hornify, plus the hallway-semi-public-masturbation bit was a huge turning point for porsche where he was given full control of the situation for once and he still chose to submit. you don't really get this because it's in porsche pov, but from that point on in the series, you notice kinn ends up "playing with porsche's emotions" a lot more (ie. having him drive his twinks home, fucking a lot more escorts, shutting down conversations about their feelings) and that's actually kinn poorly coping with porsche's unwavering trust by trying to prove to himself that he doesn't feel anything for porsche, which we all know is a BIG FAT LIE. but anyways. no one reads into the story this deeply, i know you're all just here for the smut <3

30. Biggest surprise while writing this year? my biggest surprise is that i can write again LMAO. before kp brainrot, i went like a full 2 calendar years without writing anything because i was so uninspired, plus constantly comparing myself to the thousands of better writers in the huge fandom i was in at the time. kp also has incredible writers but it's a much smaller fandom and i feel a lot less self-conscious posting here. i remember in my old fandom, i literally couldn't even tweet about an idea i had that i wanted to write without getting a dozen replies from people saying "there's already a fic like that", which is like, ok, i know none of my ideas were especially original, but getting that response constantly made me feel like my writing just wasn't welcome. oh well. with kp being a new and small fandom, nothing feels "overdone" yet, so i'm having a lot of fun in this playground!

[lucitumb1r]

Have you ever had the torture of seeing your two best friends pine over each other whilst being useless in actually chasing it?

Have you ever had the absolute displeasure of having to do so multiple times??

Because that, dear reader, is my life. And not just this life, no, all of them. I am the eternal wingman, forever to be the third wheel in this unicycle of a circus!

I have two lovely friends, who never reincarnate further than two doors down, and without fail they don't remember all the previous inside jokes we had (Or anything else about our past lives for that matter) and I have to make new ones before they think I'm weird.

And the worst part of it is that I keep having to go through puberty. They'll play like kids throughout ages 3-12, then start crushing on each other, meanwhile I'm trying to answer the teacher's simple question without having my voice crack..

I'm not even entirely sure if they're the same people each time either. Imagine if I'm just stuck in an endless loop of being the sidekick.. Forever the second lead, never the first fiddle.. But that would be worse than just being stuck as the person reminding my Bromeo and Dudeliet of their.. 'LINE!!' Yup, their lines.

In case you're like me, wondering what god decided to punish me for a laugh, I currently have a running theory that it might just be a curse set upon me by a bog witch, why a bog witch? Are bog witches even a thing? Not a clue my dear, but during my first life I once stole a whole bunch of iron from a bog and used it to make a saw to deforest the area around the bog with, so if it had any power, it would have cursed me for sure.

Anyway! I still hold out hope that there's a way to end my madness, strangely enough. I sincerely hope that getting both of those idiots to have a kid might just end my suffering. Considering their most common cause of death so far has been a car crash cause they couldn't stop sucking face.. At anywhere between 23-28.. They haven't been getting very far that's for sure..

I've been going at this for about.. 400 years now? I think? It's hard to tell because back when this started, the date wasn't really on my mind. I honestly have no idea when I was born at first, the harvest was more important then. But I've had two lives since the 90's, cause of a very deadly cruise.. So quite a few!

I should probably keep a dairy of all of my failed attempts, although it'd mostly consist of 'Tried to ditch them at lunch to make them sit together, they ended up using the audio equipment of the school to make a school wide request of my location.. It felt like getting lost in a new grocery store..' or 'Told them both to ask the other what they wanted for dinner, hoping they'd consider each other considerate and nice, we ended up having to cook cause all the places closed down before they agreed who'd get to decide..' or 'Tried to get them to walk in the park, forgot about their allergies.' And all of that..

Speaking of, allergies! I've had the misfortune of being lactose intolerant a few times, not nearly as bad as a lethal gluten allergy, but between the two, lactose felt a lot more like a tease. Overall, don't recommend.

Life is tiring when it's lived between two idiots..

Two lovers have reincarnated throughout history, destined to find each other and fall in love all over again. There’s also this third guy that reincarnates alongside them… we don’t really know what he does.

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary354

9/8-9/24

sunday - monday

need to sleep soon.

i worked on sawngz today, and read, and watched something super insane. the insane thing was half of the steve coogan jimmy saville tv series. i can't explain why i'm watching it. or i can, actually, i'm fascinated by what coogan must have thought of either being asked or feeling that he could perform that role. the thing is, i expected it to be bad, i'd just see some and have my curiosity sated, but it's as good as a thing like this can be, he plays saville in a way that feels insane, he's really trying his best to express that man as a twisted freak who used people. it doesn't really pull any punches, it seems to be this attempt at like, expressing how miserable and pathetic the people enabling him were, and that there's this huge amount of enabling and blindness people took on so their cash cow wouldn't disappear.

otherwise today has mostly been about sickness, the music stuff i did i think is very good or at least making me happy, the tone in the problem song is way way way better and i think what it needs is just like... well it needs to be quieter, and still more pick sound. i was getting to that and then ableton crashed so i had to go ahead and re-do everything cuz i forgot to save #stupidstupid and stuff. the other thing was figuring out some strange guitar tones for one song and that has me excited about where that one is going to go as i write it out more.

i've also assembled some writing, actually, and sent it to friends, or 2 friends only, it's a bunch of ... non fiction things, not as in "non-fiction" as in "not-fiction", but not necessarily wholly poetry. it's non-sense, probably. i wonder if i'm half hoping they'll dislike it or if they'll like it or what. i just wonder what it would mean for it to be bad, i can't tell i wrote it all in earnest so it's all, what it is, to me. i should have edited maybe but there's some excitement and i'd rather have people guide my editing on this since my ideas with shorter than short-story format things is probably wonky. not that wonky is always bad i suppose. the idea is that this stuff is all together, so i don't know where to stick it or aim for publication with it. it's only 24-ish pages double spaced size 12 font and everything.

the reading i did today, i've started breton's mad love, since i figure i do need to read him, that i'll like it, and so far i do, it's strange, beginning with a 'phantasm', (i quite love that word), he's talented at bringing about images which have a simultaneous dimension, as dreams do , which feels like something he must be capable of to carry out his vision, so i guess it's more like a necessary mechanic almost of his work. his vision feels strange, in ways, knowing him as counter to bataille, i am reading for that, one thing here is his desire to write love and recognize/utilize/affirm common belief, for instance, of types, accumulations of physical traits between lovers and what the beloved would appear to be for any-one lover. this is an interesting passage to me, it brings me in ways to bataille's blue of noon, where this isn't countered so much as... i'm not sure, it feels problematized, i suppose there's a disagreement, it's the tension between two ways he might love in that book, between dirty, between more upright people, people who he wants to drag down in a sense, and dirty who drags him down, in a sense, or they both relent to the fall, hand in hand fucking in a graveyard. i suppose this adoration i heap on here by recalling makes evident which i feel closer to, though i don't think breton is so against that tension, he does seem agitated by anything mystical and does like the way this 'type' seems to dispel what he may imagine are bourgeois notions of what one loves, the succession of lovers, each face recalled a strange sharpening maybe, or each in succession sharpening a sense of some traits, things of that nature. i suppose if i recall i have loved i too may see this, i suppose i've thought this same thing out before, running through all experiences i've had with love. but it goes deeper than physical traits, for breton as well as i of course, still interesting to consider. or i guess in context with the traits, maybe one can think of all these things as odd markings left in some matter, us against space, us against time, scratchings and etchings either way of our desire + the accidents we are/make.

i am not much farther in the book, because by the time i read more after the introduction i was like, my mind feels fried, yet i'm still awake. i'm kind of screwy because i keep sleeping in to stave off the illness.

anyhow, re: the being up too late, being sleepy:

i am sleepy!!

so,

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[rainbow--skies]

Pinned Post Re-do. Again.

About Me

Rainbow

Url used to be @rainbowpie14

Discord is rainbowsk1es but I probably won't accept requests if I can't tell who you are

Any Pronouns

Lesbian

Minor

Christian but normal about it (I post about religion sometimes but it's tagged)

American of Italian and Puerto Rican descent (White, Hispanic + Latina)

Any personal information that's not here I probably won't tell you. I do not post my face.

Tagging

#rainbow's mind 24/7 is most original posts

#rainbow's thoughts on life is reflections on my experiences & people I've met

#rainbow rants is me complaining

#my art and #my writing are for if I get around to making anything I want to share

#reblog is what it says

I tend to use a lot of generic categorization tags for fandoms, ships, characters, art and writing, tutorials, animals, etc.

I use #unreality, #tw blood, and #tw gore where necessary and try to avoid guilt trippy "you must reblog this" posts

If you need other trigger tags just ask but I may say no if I don't think I'll remember. I won't tag caps and swearing for sure I used to but I post way too much of them and will forget

DNI

I'm not doing a whole big list anymore. If you're a bigot, exclusionist, or send people death threats I'll block you because you suck. If you mostly post NSFW I'll block if you try to follow because I keep this blog SFW besides the occasional mild joke. If you're under 13 and admit to it, I'll block you if you try to follow because I want you to have a good childhood and not be on Tumblr. Other than that I think most Tumblr discourse is pointless but if you really want to know where I stand on something, ask.

Sideblogs

@yourfaveislesbian: Putting your favorite characters on the lesbian flag (I tend to post in sporadic bursts)

@magnus-institute-official: Me and @stardustedlyra roleplay an AU of the Magnus Archives (inactive but maybe we'll go back to it someday)

@ask-drtk: Me and a bunch of friends' askblog for characters from a roleplay (not running yet but we'll probably get there eventually)

@sideblog-with-everyone: Trying to get as many Tumblr users on a sideblog as possible. Feel free to join! (I'm not an admin but I figured I'd help promote the effort as I am still on the account)

Fandoms, other hobbies & interests, any random shit I feel like putting in the future, and credits for images under cut. I probably will update that section more some day.

Fandoms & Media-Related Interests

There are varying degrees of activity here. Some of these might just be occasional analysis or gameplay posts, some I also do ship and read fic and stuff in. Sometimes I may post other stuff too if I see something cool for an old/less serious interest I don't follow much or I forgot to update this.

Keeper Of The Lost Cities

Warrior Cats

The Hunger Games

The Magnus Archives

The Magnus Protocol

Witch Hat Atelier

Azumanga Daioh

Sanrio Characters

Yotsuba&! (Still reading)

Akiba Maid War (Still watching)

Dungeon Meshi

The Sims (Especially Sims 4)

Animal Crossing (Especially New Leaf, Happy Home Decorator, and New Horizons)

ClanGen

Roblox (Various games)

Various webcomics, mobile games, and other digital media

A lot of music, but my favorite bands are Paramore and The Crane Wives

If you want to know more about anything on here, characters and ships I like, etc., please ask! If you want to recommend me something, go for it as well! After I finish the two things still in progress on here I probably will start Dungeon Meshi next though.

Other Interests

Trombone (I've been playing for 6 years)

My own and my friends' OCs

Computer Science

Languages, especially etymology and names

Science, especially biology

Writing

Drawing

Credits

Divider from @sweetparty

[quietwingsinthesky]

Pssst! I sent an ask about this a while back, and I'm not sure if you haven't gotten to it, or the ask got eaten. If you haven't gotten to it, I'm sorry for the repeat ask and I understand, take your time :) But in case it got eaten, I'm curious: what are your fave parts of the star wars franchise? Like, which movie, characters, ships, etc?

alsofjfkfk im not gonna lie, anon, i saw it and went ‘oh cool i’ll answer that in a minute’ and the second i closed my inbox, my lack of object permanence kicked in and i forgot it existed. and then i repeated that process. many, many times.

but i will not allow it to happen again. we’re answering this now, damnit.

okay, see, the thing about me is i am an extremely basic star wars bitch. i have seen all of the movies. i have not read any books or comics. my friend in high school made me watch 1 episode of the mandalorian, and i went ‘haha cool! baby yoda!’ and then never watched more of it. (the fact that i don’t have disney+ contributed to this, but really, if i had tried, i’m sure i could have made do. i did not try.) i tried very very hard at one point to get into the clone wars show, and i remember only that there was some sort of small jabba the hutt and yoda telling some clones that their lives were meaningful in the force or something, so i have no idea how far i made it but probably not very. i have played exactly one game, jedi: fallen order, which my playstation tells me i 100%, but for the life of me, i can’t remember a single thing about it other than ‘robot buddy cute’ and ‘fun 👍’, which either is my incredibly small brain showing off its inability to store information or really doesn’t bode well for the quality of whatever story was in there lmao.

BUT. i love the movies. i’m a stupid sucker for the joy and hope of the original trilogy. i think the prequels are so fun and people are mean to them for no reason, like yes, they’re a mess, but you know how sometimes you look at a product and go ‘oh this is so corporate and soulless that nothing about it is worth seeing with my eyeballs?’ the prequels are not that. people cared about making these movies, and i can always be charmed when i can tell that there was love there, even if it didn’t work as perfectly as it wanted to.

which is probably why i’m so fond of the force awakens despite it all, because watching it feels like everyone there cared so so much about the new potential star wars. i remember watching behind-the-scenes when it first came out and seeing them talk about how they mixed practical and cgi effects for a bunch of the aliens, and i fell in love with finn because his character was basically catnip for me. my traumatized cat who was abducted and brainwashed and raised a soldier and still his heart was too big to be destroyed by the first order. poe was fun for the little screentime he had, and rey was aloof and fierce and hurt underneath it all, and kylo ren had so much fucking potential as the villain and foil for rey & finn that it actually causes me physical pain knowing what happened next. and han was there! until he died! i was heartbroken about it! it was a well-executed death! leia was there, and i could never shake the tragedy that this war she’d fought so hard to win in her youth had never really ended, that now she had to fight it alone again when luke left and han ran away. luke was not there, but this was pre-the last jedi, so i could actually be excited about what he might do when he showed up! the force awakens is a good movie.

the last jedi is a very pretty movie. the rise of skywalker feels like what everyone thinks the prequels are like. i do not watch those movies. i just mentally replace them with the utterly fantastic fic have you heard by peradi and pretend that we did get a stormtrooper rebellion <3 (if you haven’t read it, you should.)

what else, what else. i am incredibly boring when it comes to favorite characters in each trilogy, it’s just The Main Guy. i already talked about finn, but. anakin and luke. my little dudes. anakin has everything ever wrong with him, and i do not blame him for going of the rails. i mean, he did kill a lot of children and help install space facism but have we considered that the jedi were mean to him. and also that palpatine’s been grooming him since he was nine. and also that there is actual literal slavery happening in star wars and the response of everyone around him was to go ‘oh well anakin, guess u gotta let go of the fact that your mother will never be free. and if you can’t, that’s your fault.’ sorry. nope. feeling emotional about how one of the first things baby anakin asks qui-gon when they meet is if qui-gon is here to free them all, because that’s what jedi are supposed to do, they’re supposed to be heroes, and qui-gon tells him they aren’t. and then he does free anakin, and he’s got a fucking lazer sword and magic powers so who the hell would have been able to stop him from at least bringing shmi too, but instead he just takes anakin away. insane choices. george lucas im at your doorstep explain yourself.

and anyone who says they don’t love luke skywalker is a liar. u don’t like luke? luke who wants to see so much more of the universe than his little farm? luke who wants to believe in the force so strongly, his only connection to his father and soon, to obi-wan? luke who blows up the death star because he feels the force so strongly? luke who is such a shining star of hope and goodness and loyalty that han freaking solo turned around and came back to save his ass? and all that just in one movie. luke is so powerfully good, you know? and it had to be that way, the movies just wouldn’t work without him at the core of it. i love him so so much.

ships. well obviously im a c3po/r2d2 stan. as we all know, tragic love story for the ages. im a believer that r2d2 is unmemorywipeable, that trash can is too stubborn to let anything he stores be deleted, so really, we’re looking at the world’s shortest and rudest rebel spy and his overly polite amnesiac husband. im joking but im not.

taking it more seriously, i’m very easily convinced to see main character trios as poly ships. number 1 proponent of padme/anakin/obi-wan over here, a fate sealed by many good fics that i’ve read confirming this. if i may suggest one of my favorites, Queen’s Gambit by bedlamsbard, truly a fantastic star wars au work and it has an incredible podfic by reena_jenkins that inspired me to begin podficcing in the first place. following that, i also love han/leia/luke, in whatever configuration that comes, if it’s just han getting two skywalkers on his arms or if it’s luke and leia also following up on their kiss in empire strikes back. (‘i knew all along’ my ass, girl, either you didn’t or you did and you went straight for the lips alsjfjlssjkf.) From Orbit by gh0strobin is a favorite of mine for them, as well as a bed of daysided gold by lotesse.

and finally, most obviously, i was onboard with finn/poe/rey from day one of the force awakens. the reylos never got me. i was too busy thinking about the main trio kissing. (and i was a ‘rey & ben solo are cousins at least or somethjng’ truther back during force awakens, which for once, meant i had zero interest in shipping them and far more interest in using their possible backstories to explore this fascinating dynamic they had vis a vis the legacy and/or lack of one they inherited, what they were owed as children of legends. and well. i mean, i was kind of right by the end but by god i wish i wasn’t!!!) (and terrible news, i’m realizing that the majority of my post-force awakens reading on ao3 happened before i was bookmarking fics, so i don’t even have recs!!! >:( i need to rectify this immediately. but know that there are many fantastic fics for that trio and you should go looking for them.)

okay, one last round of fic reccing and i’ll leave it be, but there’s some great ones I’d be remiss not to mention. Double Agent Vader is a brilliant Vader character exploration series and it will hurt you and make u love him so so much. The Fires is a Mustafar groundhog day loop that Hurts (and fun fact, was the second fic i ever podficced for myself :( but the files are long gone. still have my first ever podfic though.) And The Force Breathes Once Again is a short and interesting fic about the force being Weird And Fucked Up. And Intertwine is a Padme Lives AU that’s just lovely. so many brilliant fics in this fandom, i swear.