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me and that pathetic guy who swooned me with his wizardly charms
#when I remembered you can take screenshots I took too many of us smooching 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#thinking of that one scene where you're talking to that lady zero k#and I chose to 'distract her by thinking about my yearning for gale'#and she said some shit like 'you could do better than that pathetic man.....'#ma'am that's why I want him#THE CHIN HOLD KISS GOT ME LIKE 💓💓💓💓💓 ??!?????!!??!!#*why did 'zrell' autocorrect to 'zero k'#I'm sorry but I'm too tired to fix it
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knot happening (part one) — bnha, alpha!bakugou katsuki x f!reader, aged up characters, established relationship, a/b/o dynamics, use of "brat" and "pipsqueak" as pet names, smut in the second part (coming soon), omegaverse!au for the spring fever collab run by @lorelune ! 1.2k words
your new company has some... interesting policies for employee heat cycles. you do your best to find a loophole.
"I can't do it."
"The hell d'ya mean, you can't do it?"
You give your Pro Hero boyfriend and resident alpha A Look. Bakugou Katsuki has the grace to shut his mouth, but he rolls his eyes and drapes a heavy arm over your shoulders, yanking you into him on the faded yellow couch you picked out together years ago.
"This is my first heat at this new job, and it's just... embarrassing. Do you know what they do, Katsuki?"
He raises a sharp blonde eyebrow in invitation.
"They..." your voice drops with horror, "they announce it to the whole company."
"Hah?" Katsuki sits up a little, strong thighs flexing beneath his gym shorts. He came in on the tail end of your mental breakdown, finding you pacing in the living room of your apartment with your hands tugging incessantly on your borrowed shirt. "What the fuck?"
"I know," you wail, "it's ridiculous! The president sends out a company wide email explaining your absence, and the HR team sends you a care basket, and the Sales team sets up a pre-heat drinking party! Do you know what's in the care basket, Katsuki?"
"Do I wanna know?"
"It's filled with sex toys, babe! SEX TOYS! From my company! They're branded!"
A spark lights up in Katsuki's otherwise vaguely concerned expression. "Don't they know you're mated?"
"Yes, of course, that was in my file," you wave him off, still seeing horror images of company branded sex toys floating in your mental vision. "I heard from Sasaki in Accounting that the toys are for when your mate needs a break. Y'know, from fucking."
Katsuki's derisive snort is loud and breaks you out of your personal hellhole. "What kinda fuckin' alpha needs a break when their mate needs 'em?"
"Well, not every alpha is a big strong Pro Hero like you," you point out, poking him on one annoyingly firm bicep. The familiar scent of caramel and smoke fills your nose. "And actually, maybe I should ask if they've got any onaholes for when you're the one in heat. Last time I needed another two days to recover."
"Hah?! There's no fucking way I'll use one of those!"
You peer up at your boyfriend reproachfully. "I like being able to walk, Katsuki."
"You don't need to fuckin' walk if I'm carryin' you everywhere, brat."
"Hmm, we'll see," you say. Katsuki's red eyes flash as you tap your bottom lip with your finger thoughtfully. "There's gotta be a way for me to take a week off work without telling them I'm going into heat."
"There's no way you'll be able to avoid it," Katsuki rumbles, leaning forward to catch your finger with his teeth. He nips at it lightly before leaning down more to capture your lips in a sweet kiss. That, more than anything, finally makes your anxiety simmer down. "You always smell so fucking good before it starts. Everyone's gonna notice."
"You're the only one who can do anything about it, though, so you'll have to keep it in your pants or quit picking me up after work."
"Not happening," Katsuki presses another kiss along your hairline and noses into the strands, sniffing deeply. It tickles, and you laugh, trying halfheartedly to shove him off of you. "What else do they give in these care packages?"
"Actually, besides the super cursed sex toys, they include really good snacks and electrolyte drinks to keep your energy up," you say, "and I'm really glad my company is so open about it all, but it's just so embarrassing!"
Katsuki hums, letting you vent out your worries. You look really pretty like this, dressed in one of his shirts and a pair of pajama shorts, some soft cotton thing that barely covers your perfect ass. He pulls your legs onto his lap and you flop backwards on the couch, moving on from your minor breakdown to sharing a funny story that happened to one of your new coworkers the other day. He had missed hearing about it then, stuck on overtime for a patrol, so he basks in your attention now as the two of you laze around on the couch.
The afternoon passes into evening. It's a rare lazy Monday together — your new job lets you have three day weekends in exchange for slightly longer work days, and Katsuki's patrol schedule happened to line up this week. You're digging into a pint of ice cream after polishing off a plate of his delicious (but spicy) curry and rice when it comes up again.
"What're you gonna do about your heat?"
"Well, I was thinking," you slide your spoon into the thick cream and wave it at him, "I'll still need to use my authorized heat cycle time off, since I want to save my vacation and comp time for real uses, so there's no avoiding the company finding out..."
Katsuki raises an eyebrow and accepts the spoonful of ice cream you're dangling in his face. His tongue pokes out to chase a bit of cream lingering on the edge of his lip and he grins, sharp, at the way your eyes track the movement. "But...?"
You have a feeling Katsuki hasn't fully thought through the horrors of corporate sponsored pleasure items, but you have, and the thought of everyone at your new company knowing you'll be getting fucked within an inch of your life makes you want to shrivel up and die. All companies have policies in place to protect time off for heat cycles, as society couldn't function otherwise, but this is the first place you've worked where impending heat cycles are declared company-wide. Normally it's just marked as time off.
"But they don't have to find out until after it starts, right? So as long as I can get through the pre-heat stuff without anyone noticing, I can avoid the cursed care package and company-wide email!"
"Ain't happening," Katsuki says flatly.
"We've been mated for sooo long now, babe," your gaze flicks up to meet his and you pout. Your boyfriend outright snorts when you start batting your eyelashes at him. "Surely you can resist the pre-heat symptoms this one time? I swear I'll get over my company's shenanigans once I see it happen to a few other people. It's really great how supportive they are, but I need some time, that's all."
"Your heat is in like. Two weeks," Katsuki says.
You pout up at him some more.
"During your last heat cycle we broke the mattress frame when I missed your first few pre-heat days."
"Yeah, but that was because you had that mission that went long," you say. If you could just... convince him... "C'mon, babe, this will be different! You're such a strong, powerful alpha — resisting me will be a piece of cake! Unless..." you pause and scoop another bite of ice cream into your mouth, "you're too weak to resist me."
"Are you callin' me weak?" Katsuki narrows his eyes. You wave your spoon casually and shrug.
"I mean... all you've gotta do is ignore my pre-heat. I'm just an itty bitty omega..."
Getting into a staring match with Pro Hero Dynamight is not on anyone's Top Ten Good Ideas list, but you match your boyfriend's red glare steadily.
"Alright, pipsqueak, you're on," Katsuki scoffs. "We'll see who's beggin' for who by the time your heat rolls around."
part two
#tw omegaverse#tw a/b/o#cw a/b/o#cw omegaverse#a/b/o dynamics#bakugou katsuki x reader#bakugou x reader#bnha x reader#bnha x you#mha x reader#mha x you#katsuki x reader#bakugou x you#bnha writing#mha writing#x reader#fuji writes fic#second part coming soon#wanted to share at least this part before the deadline#smut will be in the second part#also i am fully formatting this on mobile#sorry for any mistakes! i'll fix it this weekend#i'm simply too tired to turn on my pc after work
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My attempt at Cybertronian Ratchet. He's just a mix of his TFP/RID15 design with his concept design from the TFP Artbook as a base.
Under here just sketches, the simple gang and the old piece of Orion and Ratchet dancing.
#transformers#tfp#maccadam#optimus prime#orion pax#ratchet#optiratch#I'm too tired to fix the errors sorry#I'm still thinking about how Ratchet would look. Think of this piece as a concept. I might change
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MINHO in ROME 04 [x]
#SHINee#minho#choi minho#minho in rome 4#analook#idk what i'm doing with colouring lately#i annihilated this one 😅 and now i'm too tired to fix it (sorry)#handsome ming deserves better#my.gifs#(unfortuately)
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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Somedays the artblock wins. Somedays inspiration smashes you like a cadillac on a random dashboard recommend. @transformers-synergize your redesigns are so pretty ;^;
#Transformers Fan Continuity#Transformers Synergize#Moonracer#Augh ;0; her design is so pretty and so clever too!#Moonracer is one of my faves she looks SO good#Like a lil templar so I gave her a standard to bear cuz I needed something to balance the legs of the original pose#And then I died on perspective and ended up simplifying it back down -sobs-#I hope the interpretation is to your liking ;^; I don't think I captured the likeness in her face but if I kept fixing it I'd never post#The legs and the 'coat' and the segmentation of her chest and the tire placement and her antenna I'm ;0; I love love love the redesign#Also you have such a fantastic grasp on color theory. The analogous colors with complimentary details and the general shift towards#Orange/Green is so pretty! Such rich soothing colors#I'm sorry some of the shapes are off btw I misread her shoulders entirely and didn't realize until my motivation died again
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3 a.m. television glow
firstprince. pwp, rated e, 1.8k. post canon. hand size kink 🌝
It's three days after the election and Alex and Henry haven't left the house very much.
Time has started to lose it's meaning in a way it hasn't since high school summer vacation. It's a nice feeling, the way it's melting slowly like wax. Sleeping in until early afternoon has caught up to them, but neither of them mind. Together and apart has been their only way to track time for too long for that.
Despite the fact that it's three in the morning, they've just finished lunch. Or some meal that doesn't have a name.
Henry is curled up in Alex's arms, his head in his lap. He's watching the television, and Alex is watching him.
Alex looks down and smiles. He loves the way Henry rests his head on his wrists, the way he wriggles and taps his foot. A fondness that feels like it might break his rib cage open spreads throughout his chest. On the screen Julia Roberts is asking Hugh Grant to love her, and no matter how romantic that is, Henry will never have to ask.
READ ON AO3
#yay!#rwrb#rwrbsource#red white and royal blue#rwrb fic#firstprince#firstprince fic#alex x henry#iuserzoe#userninz#firstprinced#chrissiewatts#usersteen#uhhh if i made typos i will fix them later bc i'm too tired rn dhsjms but i THINK i caught them all#uhhhh who else wants to be tagged in fic idk#sorry for saying uhh so much my brain is fried
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Sorry to be a bother about it yet again, but what's your fluffiest kitten knight Max au idea right now? :)
first of all you're never a bother. second of all, a sort of continuation from this. I'm sorry it's taken me this long to get to it, but lately I've been really struggling with writing anything at all.
Daniel watches Max jump down from the windowsill and thinks about how scared he had been about the possibility of never getting to have any of this.
Their life is different now than it used to be. There are no more barracks, no more rounds, no more endless meeting with the King for Max, no more eating in the mass hall, no more missions.
This morning Daniel woke up with a kitten curled up next to his hip, all buried under the blankets, and the sun just barely painting the clouds pink. He had breakfast that he cooked himself, feet intertwined with Max's under their own table, the firewood Max chopped in the fireplace, and the blanket Daniel had been gifted by a neighbor in his lap. They had drank the milk of Mildred, their goat, sweeten with honey. They had talked about their plans for the day, about Max's latest commission at the carpenter's shop where he had been working.
There had been not a single word about duty, about swords, about training.
Daniel loved it so much.
Obviously, it hadn't been all easy, to get to this point. It had taken time, and effort to do it: leaving the guards, waiting for Max to be able to leave himself, his position a little harder to let go, finding a house they could afford, learning to live in such a different way than they were used to.
There had been fights, and moments when Daniel had felt guilty about asking Max to come with him, moments when they had regretted it, moments when they had wondered, in quiet whispers under the sheets, if maybe it wouldn't be best to see if they could go back, try again.
There had been days when Max had stormed out of the house slamming the door behind him. Days when Daniel had refused to talk to him. Days when they had sat at the table, counting their savings, wondering what food they could afford while they looked for yet another job.
It had been hard.
And then one day, Daniel had woken up and realised that he was happy.
He had looked around him and had seen the life he wanted, with the person he loved the most, and he had thought it was all worth it.
And days like this, when he gets to see Max in his kitten form jump around the house without having to worry that someone will walk in, free to be in any shape he feels more comfortable in without fear, he believes it more than ever.
He watches Max jump on the windowsill again, then down, then up again. He's not sure if he's trying to do something, trying to catch something Daniel can't see, or if he's just doing it for the sake of it, but he can see Max is happy, and it makes him smile too.
As he's watching, Max jumps down again, the sun catching on his fur and his swishing tail, then runs towards Daniel, not slowing down before jumping up in his lap and bumping his head against his chest.
"Hi, baby," Daniel greets him with a chuckle, dropping the sock he hasn't been fixing for at least five minutes to card his fingers through Max's soft fur instead.
Max purrs contentedly, digging his nails into Daniel's clothes to push harder into his hand, but a second later he's jumping down again, running away towards a different corner of the house as Daniel smiles watching him go.
Daniel sometimes thinks back about the first times Max turned in front of him, shy and stiff, scared to fully let himself go to his instincts, and compares it to now, when sometimes Max walks into the door and immediately shifts, dropping his human form like one would a cloak.
Of all the things he loves about their new life, Max's happiness and freedom to be himself is the thing he loves the most. And he knows he'll never stop feeling lucky about being able to witness it.
#kitten knight max au#is this short and clunky? yes. can i fix it? no i'm sorry#hope this is okay anyway <3#if there are typos just close your eyes and pretend im too tired to reread#my writing#maxiel
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Time was at a standstill. Vegas was holding his breath without noticing, and continued to hold it when he did - he was afraid of what would happen if he exhaled loudly enough to draw attention to himself. His gaze was shifting between Pete and the man who was standing before them in the doorway, blocking their entrance. Vegas had never seen him before, but even so, he recognized Pete in him enough to know who he was. A dangerous aura surrounded him. There was an edge to his presence that Vegas would only come across people of certain circles. He was a fighter. A muay khao. Pete's father. Shame coursed through Vegas' body, smearing his skin, settling in his lungs, rendering him speechless. I thought he was dead, he wanted to tell Pete if he could. He wanted to scream at him, I thought you killed him. Pete was the one who broke the stillness. As if awakened by something, he took a half-step back and made a motion with his arms, almost raising them to his chest, but not quite. In an instant, Pete reverted into the pet Vegas had been keeping at the safehouse, bound by handcuffs and afraid of his belt hitting flesh and drawing blood. A lump formed in Vegas' throat. "Have you stopped practicing? Your form is off." The uncanny similarities between Pete and his father appearance-wise didn't mean a thing when it came to their voices. Vegas shivered. Was this what Pete would sound like in a few decades? (Were these the condescending words he'd choose to spew? Was Pete going to embody his father? Was Vegas embodying his?) "What are you doing here?" Pete whispered. "They let me out for a few days, so I came here to collect some money. Imagine my surprise when I found out my offspring left the job someone found him worthy enough of doing to... do what exactly? Yaai didn't want to tell me." He crossed his arms, waiting for an answer. Vegas didn't know what he was allowed to say. If he was allowed to say anything at all. "It's none of your business." "I'd say it very much is my business, as well as yaai's business who was dependent on the money you were making being some rich asshole's human shield." A choked sound scratched Vegas' throat. He didn't like getting reminded of Pete being the main family's bodyguard, even though he stopped being one mere months ago. Especially like this. That was the first time Pete's father stopped looking at his son and turned his head to look at Vegas. For a moment, there seemed to be recognition in his eyes. Did he know who Vegas was? Did he care? A snort came out of his mouth. He leaned on the door. "Oh, I see how it is." He laughed, scratched his neck. "I never expected you to whore yourself out for money. Tell me, is it preferable to the path I carved out for you?" Vegas could sense the disgust in his voice. He could also see it on Pete's face. He was too astonished to share it, but not enough to be unable to speak. "Khun, there has been some misunderstanding-" "Don't bother. I can recognize a faggot when I see one." Pete's movements were too fast for Vegas to stop him. A direct jab to the nose; his father fell like a pack of cards, groaning like a wounded animal. Surprisingly, no blood - Pete held back. Vegas didn't know what to think about that. "That was a pathetic attack, even for you." "Get up." "We're not in the ring, son." Pete growled. Vegas could see his hands trembling as he was keeping them in the air, maintaining an offensive stance. "That never stopped you before." "You were too young to understand what I was doing back then. What I was preparing you for." Pete was silent. "The world isn't kind. It'll fuck you over one way or another." He got up, spat on the ground. "You still haven't learned a thing. You're too old to afford being naive." He turned around, and without sparing a look at Pete again, said: "Now get the fuck out of my house." (For @musictooth, whose posts about Pete's father have reignited my passion for this specific concept and for @wretchedamaranth, whose comments on my writing are always lovely and precious ❤️)
#tw slur#vegaspete#pete saengtham#snippet#yu is writing#I started writing this today while waiting for my bus to arrive and wrote most of it on public transport <33#(hopefully it doesn't show lol)#there's a lot of context missing here but basically: VP visit yaai and a wild father appears#I didn't have space to include her unfortunately but just imagine her in the background with a sad look on her face#which is mostly fixed on Vegas :))#for no reason at all :))#due to a certain someone who I won't name (😤) I mayyy turn this into a fic? Maybe?#because 1. I did have a similar idea a year or so ago but never did anything with it and 2. this concept NEEDS to be explored more come on#because in my mind Vegas and Pete can't go to yaai's house until/unless Pete's father leaves#all their stuff is in her house#and they only have Vegas' car with which they traveled there#and Bangkok is too far away to go back now in the middle of the night (yes this happens at night time)#so basically what I'm saying is: VP will spend their night in the car :)#I'm sure the combination of an agitated Pete and a tired Vegas who's also equating Pete with his father due to their external similarities#will be a delightful experience for them both#I'm vibrating out of my skin just thinking about it#can I promise I'll write it and put it out there? Hell no#can I still get excited by the prospect of it happening? Hell yes#sorry I'm rambling a little too much over here#I just haven't felt this good writing in MONTHS#thank you for reading and I hope you enjoyed it <3333
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Greeting from our weekend walk
#my art#casual animation#eileen#man this kinda doesn't meet my standards (it low-key sucks) but i'm too tired to fix it sorry xxx
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Good news from @yuletidetreasure everybody!
The tagset is up and includes
莲花楼 | Mysterious Lotus Casebook (TV) (15)
Yun Biqiu (Mysterious Lotus Casebook)
Di Feisheng
Fang Duobing
He Xiaofeng
He Xiaohui
Huli Jing (Mysterious Lotus Casebook)
Jiao Liqiao
Li Lianhua | Li Xiangyi
Liangyi Xianzi
Princess Zhaoling (Mysterious Lotus Casebook)
Qiao Wanmian
Shan Gudao
Shi Shui (Mysterious Lotus Casebook)
Wuyan (Mysterious Lotus Casebook)
Zhan Yunfei
少年歌行 | The Blood of Youth (Live Action TV) (14)
Baili Dongjun (The Blood of Youth)
Jin Xian (The Blood of Youth)
Lei Wujie (The Blood of Youth)
Sikong Changfeng (The Blood of Youth)
Sikong Qianluo (The Blood of Youth)
Xiao Lingchen (The Blood of Youth)
Ye Ruoyi (The Blood of Youth)
Yin Luoxia (The Blood of Youth)
Ji Xue (The Blood of Youth)
Luo Mingxuan (The Blood of Youth)
Tang Lian (The Blood of Youth)
Xiao Chong | Prince Bai
Xiao Se | Xiao Chuhe
Zang Ming (The Blood of Youth)
成化十四年 | The Sleuth of the Ming Dynasty (TV) (8)
Ding Rong
Dong'er (The Sleuth of the Ming Dynasty)
Duo Erla
Jia Kui (The Sleuth of the Ming Dynasty)
Sui Zhou
Tang Fan
Wang Zhi (The Sleuth of the Ming Dynasty)
Wu Yun Bolage
与凤行 | The Legend of Shen Li (TV) (8)
Jin Niangzi (The Legend of Shen Li)
Shang Bei (The Legend of Shen Li)
Shen Li (The Legend of Shen Li)
Shen Muyue (The Legend of Shen Li)
Xing Yun | Xing Zhi (The Legend of Shen Li)
You Lan (The Legend of Shen Li)
Fu Rong (The Legend of Shen Li)
Mo Fang (The Legend of Shen Li)
#yuletide 2024#fanfic#mysterious lotus casebook#the blood of youth#the sleuth of the ming dynasty#the legend of shen li#lbr i only want to write about side characters for TLoSL#sorry it's so long i'm too tired to fix it
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@fdelopera
#moon knight#Moon Knight comics#Marc Spector#Steven Grant#Jake Lockley#I fixed it#Click it it's too small#stupid Tumblr shrinking my hard work#I'm really tired I'm sorry for this#Did I giggle the whole time I made this? Yes#Did I cackle when I figured out Steven was a Macher? also yes
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Fifth redraw: Frank and Margaret
Prev. Next.
(Reference under the cut)
#mash#m*a*s*h#mash 4077#frank burns#margaret houlihan#traditional art#my art#screencap redraw#The “can't draw mouths slightly open” curse strikes again#I was going to redraw draw a Hawkeye image since he makes up a good chunk of my mash pics#but I can't seem to make him even slightly recognizable#Maybe I'll try again tomorrow#Kind of rushed this one though. sorry#(Whoops just noticed I drew Frank's eyes in different directions)#(Well I guess i'll just leave it like that. I'm too tired to fix it today and I won't care enough to fix it tomorrow)
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#svsss#scum villains self saving system#shang qinghua#how I be feeling these days ahdnfjgkg#I keep stressing about life in general and its seriously bumming me out hajdjg#how nice it would be to not exist#everyday I wake up and do the same things I hate#time hasn't felt real in years and it goes way before covid times#I haven't felt real in most of those years either#Look I'm lucky I'm not like depressed or whatever but frankly this derealization shit is seriously startin to get a little worrying at times#tbf I only really notice it recently so maybe its just a bias#I've been chugging along this way for years all thats changed is my perception of it#but at the same time I really want to do more too#I get I'm a very boring and unreliable person#and I know I just said its my perception of it but like I do genuinely think my social skills my general living just like me mentally ig#I'm kinda deteriorating in my stagnation ig? artistically too but more worrying in my life idbfjg#priorities sorry anyways I also think I do have adhd or something and that rejection thing dhfjgjg I really can't start things anymore#idk I really just feel so clueless in most things now and I'm too scared or too confused or both to start fixing things#like how do I even fix things? what do I even search for in this kind of thing?#Idk I'm just gonna go sleep ig god I'm so tired of everything#I haven't been able to draw I've really lost passion for a lot of things again and everything irritates me#I can't stand my phone sometimes but it's kinda the only thing getting me through it all ha#ngl I wish I were depressed sometimes if only so I'd actually have the balls to do smth but Ik that's just the Metnally Ail part speaking so#chug chug going along#I also have to make wushi before I die. haha#god my life is so empty#what am I even doing#I'm really so tired why can't my life end here already? modern lifespans are too long how am I supposed to keep going on like this?#so pointless and vapid and its just me ? why did it have to be me that was born? couldn't someone else have been here I hate it here so much#I strive for nothing but I have such a long life and so many people to disappoint haha maybe I should go outside more
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and now the part all of you (none of you) have been waiting for! the part where i dump out all the art i've liked instead of reblogged over the years into my dumpster fire of a blog
#kotlc#wanted to save this for last#i can explain. i swear i can#basically i have a thing where i CANNOT reblog art (or anything really. actually) without saying SOMETHING about it in the tags#and sometimes i am just too tired to do that. so i like it. and i go#“yes i will come back to this when i am not tired and i will give it the appreciation it deserves”#and then i never come back to it. lmfao. good job me#anyway fixing that. right now#kotlc art#kotlc fanart#i will be better fanartists i'm so sorry this is an apology
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I fear some of you don’t actually like Agatha and only want lesbians and Rio...
And if you do fine but don’t complain when a show about witches isn’t focusing fully on the romance. Every character needs to be explained and this episode was EXACTLY like WV episode 4. And received the same backlash. It needed to happen and the final dialogue between Agatha and Billy tells us such BEAUTIFUL things about Agatha. How a young child who survived and used their gift should never feel ashamed. She is telling him what she wished to hear and the tears in her eyes of remembering Billy and Wanda in the hex. Just beautiful storytelling and Kathryn’s acting
But ultimately, if there is nothing more than we have been given. I will be livid. Because that IS queerbaiting. To not give us a kiss or showing their backstory etc IS queerbaiting and it would be disgusting. BUT their relationship is the heartfelt whisper behind everything. Every small action, every look, every comment and smile and interaction is beautiful and heartfelt. BUT it is the storyline that will become prominent in the final trio of episodes. It will be and we will get a kiss.
I am personally furious the first kiss of the series about women is between two men. BUT their relationship was not integral to the story. Agatha and Rio’s are. Is that not more important? There will be more. Their relationship is for the latter three because the latter three is pure Agatha. Well Lilia next episode but Agatha is much more there
Anyway welcome back to quick thoughts about Episode 6
The Eastview and Westview flags in Billy’s room were in Agatha’s trial. WHY IT DOESN’T MAKE SENSE. Jac I am calling you a liar and I don't care (I'm kidding Jac you are doing a great job thank you for every Agatha thing)
Lilia putting the sigil on him is SO GOOD. My personal theory is that she saw what would happen if Wanda found him. It would have ruined both of them. It could have been because that amount of power at that age may have hurt him but Agatha has constantly been kind to him. I think it was because she saw a bad future with Wanda finding him. Idk jury is out on this but it’s a fun thing to think about. Why?
RALPH’S EXPLANATION! GOOOOOOD this is the thing I keep trying to say. Ralph described it as absolute torture. People were literally asking Wanda to kill them over that. And that was less than two weeks. Agatha has been under it for THREE YEARS. AND I would point to ep 4 where the other two was screaming in pain to the curse and she was able to withstand it. Not only does it show the sadness that she has probably been through so much pain that she can withstand it even without magic BUT ALSO think about how much torture she has felt! She deserves to murder everyone around her. My bby
The outside perspective of the interrogation scene was wonderful. Absolutely hilarious. I think the director said to Kathryn ‘make him break’ and that was where they went
And it is just… again so sad to me. She was forced to make an utter fool of herself but people went along with it and helped her. Its so sweet but so heartbreaking. I love you Agatha
The running scene. She got a cramp because she hasn’t left the house for so long
Billy sits in a chair covered in moons
THE RESEARCH SCENE I LOVED IT I LOVEEEEEED IT. and also remember this is a secondary source. I love this in media. Agatha isn’t a succubus she is a siphon but because this wiki is most likely written by a creep they turn it sexual. I mean she could be but you always have to think about WHO wrote it. Just like the Jolene article. Kathryn probably didn't fuck Dolly Parton’s boyfriend but she did get slapped by her and they ran with it, just like a tabloid would. And ALL THE PHOTOS!!! AHHHHHH I CAN’T WAIT FOR THE PROPER RUN THROUGH OF HER LIFE
On the Jolene point I think it’s a fun easter egg because it’s like Agatha’s perspective of Wanda if the ‘lover’ was magic. Look at these lyrics:
I think Agatha is the singing perspective, Wanda is Jolene and the magic is their lover. It is favouring ‘the younger more perfect’ witch (Agatha is better than everyone don't even, I'm just saying from a jealousy perspective)
AGATHA SURVIVING THE MUD AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AHHHHHHHHHHH
GONNA SCREAM SOME MORE AHHHHHH
The fact she is one of two witches who has NOTHING and yet still survives the death sentence (which isn’t a death sentence but shouldn’t be escapable) shows how utterly incredible she is. She is a survivor which brings me to my next love
THE DUALOGUE I FUCKING LOVED IT
Okay, originally I thought that she would be mad and angry. But this made so much more sense. Her unseriousness is her hiding her anger and annoyance. But fundamentally she is connected because she relates. Wanda was too late. She was fighting so hard and Agatha tried but Billy… he is a child. He is just like her. But was given a gift not a curse like Agatha. But still, Agatha prioritised surviving and living over anything else. And that is what Billy did: survived. And she respects that. So she tells him what SHE WANTED TO HEAR as a child!!! Its so beautiful!!! Honestly utterly beautiful and Kathryn acted her ass off. Fucking Goddess
And some people are going ‘uh she knew from the start. But why did-’ she lied. ‘Why did what Rio said hurt’- she lied. She had a suspicion at the start but as it went in she thought it was Nick. That shattered around Rio’s comment because Rio would know and Agatha trusts that. Agatha trusts her in those moments. But she did think he was nick then or at least her suspicion and hope tilted towards there which is what I think. She is already covered in mud and embarrassed. Of course she is going to go ‘yeah I always knew. Never had a doubt’. Media literacy is dead my god
AND THE WAY SHE TOUCHED HER BROOCH. That proves to me she did geneuinly have the hope that he was nick. At least in the moment she truly realised the tragedy that Wanda got her son back but she never will.
Her unseriousness. Sometimes a bby girl is a 350 year old serial killer witch
I love you Agatha
And remember this is Agatha’s show. But these character’s need to be fleshed out. But by their explanations we get a greater image of Agatha. But every relationship Agatha has is equally important. I want more romance but this was not the episode for it. The latter three will
#thank you for coming to my ted talk#sorry for any errors… I'm too tired to fix it#I hope this doesn’t come across as weird#but some people need to get a grip#to put it lightly#anyway….#AGATHA IS BETTER THAN ANYONE#AGATHA GO AGATHA#agatha all along#KATHRYN HAHN THE GODDESS YOU ARE
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