#I'm really happy we're friends

[vaguely-concerned]

lucanis truly has a near terminal case of burned out golden child syndrome. caterina fucked both of these kids over so incredibly bad with the dynamic she enforced there, with illario being labled the perpetual fuckup kid where lucanis 'could do no (would never be allowed to do) wrong'. the way he admits in the first coffee date scene that the only thing that happened when he showed he could carry the weight of expectation was that more weight was added makes me so sad. you can hear it in caterina's voice in his intro mission that she's incredibly proud of him, but this is clearly a leandra and hawke situation where that pride never translates into relief or resolution or unconditional warmth or understanding or anything that really helps.

[sanasanakun]

Jimithon Mouthwashing is such a good representation of untreated, enabled NPD like it makes me want to squeeze the life out of him. I'm endlessly fascinated when watching him interact with his crew, surroundings, and himself because he's so fucking lost in his own sauce. It's insane. If I'm being real, it makes him my favorite character in the game.

It's a little scary to say, but watching Jimmy is like seeing a mirrored version of myself two years ago before I truly committed to treatment for my NPD. He's like a shadow. The opening line "I hope this hurts," which I believe comes from Jimmy right before the crash, is such a poignant statement. It's a simple line, but I can tell you from experience that the desire to hurt others when in a narcissistic rage is overwhelming. It's such a good line to sum up Jimmy's character in that moment. Luckily, in the real world, I had my friends and family there to catch me when I hit my lowest, even though I'd hurt them so many times. Jimmy probably could've used friends to force him into therapy (cough cough Curly cough cough)

[wonder-and-wildflowers]

I love being aroace, but I desperately need friends who will prioritize me and won't make me their second choice without it turning into them having a crush on me.

Being pushed aside for a romantic partner hurts. Being less of a priority to someome I've known for YEARS than someone they've known for like 3 months is DEVASTATING.

Having a friendship with someone who prioritizies me and puts me first and is intentional about the effort and time they put in is all I want. And call me selfish but I want them to do it without falling in love with me.

I want them to do it platonically. Or alterously.

And you know what? I'm sick of people having crushes on me. I'm sick of friends building an entire relationship with me just to come out and say they only did it cause they wanted to kiss me. Or fuck me. Or both.

And then they get angry because I don't see them that way. They get resentful because they acted like thidls and behaved this way with the intention of is being a romantic investment.

And now I have to deal with the emotional distress of having someone pour so much into me, love me, prioritize me, doing a complete 180. And them resenting me for being upset that their behavior towards me has changed.

Them being resentful that I still expect thier usual behavior, because to me those were stardards for a platonic relationship that they set with me, and to them it was all a ploy to get me to be their girlfriend. They don't want a qpr. Thats never good enough for them.

[silenzahra]

Hey Zahra! I know I haven’t read every fic of yours yet but from the ones I did I thiiink I gotta go with “Biggest Fears”, “Keeping him warm” and “Anything for him”.

Love, love the part in “Anything for him” where Mario brings Luigi back. It was such a heartwarming moment. Also, loooooooove that Mario jumped out of the painting to protect Luigi but also at the end when Luigi realised that Mario was scared that he returned the favour.

That being said, yes, I love protective Mario, so “Keeping him warm” was an obvious choice as well hehe.

“Biggest fears” what can I say? Vulnerable Mario with Luigi comforting him is my absolute jam. The comfort in this one was one of the sweetest I have ever read. I really love it so much.

I’m so glad I got to meet you here and I’m so glad we became friends. I know I’ve said it before, but you are one of the kindest and sweetest people I have ever met.

I love you (platonically)! <3<3<3

OMG Stripet!!! 😭😭😭 YOU'RE SO SWEET WAAAAAAHHH. First of all I'm so sorry for my late reply, but please know that your ask has made me incredibly happy and put the biggest smile on my face 🥹🥹🥹 Thank you SO MUCH, dear friend 🫂🫂🫂

I'm so happy and honored to know that these are your favorite fics of mine!! OMG, I swear reading about yor favorite parts of "Anything for him" has brought back so many memories of the time when I was working on it and how much I LOVED writing precisely those scenes!! 🥹🥹🥹 Mario being so worried about Luigi that his love for him literally made him jump out of the painting despite King Boo's magic, oh gosh, how I ENJOYED writing that 😍😍😍

As well as the entire chapter 3! Awww I'm so glad that you loved the moment of Mario bringing Luigi back so much 🥹🥹🥹 And of course, Luigi would also do anything for Mario, especially seeing him so scared of King Boo which is a personal headcanon of mine (I believe Mario would be at least a little bit scared of King Boo at first, since he couldn't fight him on his own as he didn't have the Poltergust 3000). The title "Anything for him" can be read in both directions and I wanted to make that clear in this fic as both brothers literally do anything to protect each other 🥹❤️💚

Anyways, sorry for the rambling 😅 Your words really brought me back to that time and I love it!! And I'm beyond honored that you love this fic and these specific scenes so so much, dear friend 🥰🥰 Thank you so much for letting me know!! 💖💖💖

Hehe, I'm a big fan of protective Mario as well, so it makes me so happy you also love "Keeping you warm"!! 🥰🥰 This fic has gained so much relevance lately as it's received not just one but two amazing fanarts that I just LOVE so much, and I'm over the moon because it's also one that I just LOVED writing 🥹🥹 I'm so honored and grateful and ELATED that it's among your favorites!! 🫂🫂🫂

And gosh, "Biggest fear" has also been getting so much love lately, and again I owe it to the amazing fanart it's gotten 😭😭😭 That one literally made me cry while I was working on it, my friend. I remember needing to take some moments here and there while editing it because I was moved 🥲🥲🥲 So, seriously, knowing that you love it so much and that you find the comfort so sweet here means the entire freaking world to me. I can never thank you enough for your support and love to this fic and it makes me so happy that you enjoyed it so much 🫂🫂🫂

Awwww Stripet 😭😭🫂🫂 I'm also so so glad that we met and became friends!!! Gosh, I'm just so lucky and blessed, and I thank life every day that I met you 🫂🫂🫂 You're so sweet and kind, and I also can't get tired of repeating it over and over again 💖💖💖

Thank you so so SO much for this ask, and for your support, and, just, for being you. I also love you (platonically) very very much!!! 🥹🥹🥹💖💖💖

[torchickentacos]

The pokemon anime subreddit fascinates and frustrates me on equally deep levels

[pastafossa]

Thanks to EVERYONE'S recommendations on my post about How Do I Get A Knitting Circle To Adopt Me - A Woodcarver - Into Their Group, I have discovered:

My local library has a knitting/crochet club that welcomes other crafts, too! I will be attending that tomorrow, so maybe they'll adopt me!

There's a local woodcarving group that has monthly meetups! Granted it meets at a senior center and membership is encouraged which I can't do obviously but I'm going to see if that's like, a hard line or not

There are a couple small, independent craft stores that might have leads on more groups, I'll be trying to hit those up in the next few weeks and see if they have any leads!

My witchy shop used to have crafting meetups, I saw it on old FB events! That will be starting back up again soon, so I can hit that up too!

And here's a tentative one - there were so many others like me who expressed the same sadness of not being able to find a little crafting group where we could all work on our respective crafts and just have fun with crafty friends and learn neat things. So I'm talking to a friend about how complicated it would be to set up a discord server for us, because gd it, I know we all live far apart but if there's a way for all of us to do a craft night together once a month or whatever and become crafty friends, we should be able to do it, along with showing off our interesting things we make in between! So put a pin in this one, since I've only ever used discord, not really run one, but if I can make it work, I'm going to try when I have some time.

[jils-things]

making good progress with the gen 2 arc with my sister! i got super happy seeing gold again be himself 🥺🥺🥺💚💚

[sw33t-l1ttle-b]

To clarify:

The internet is not your personal space. You cannot control what someone else says or posts.

Your own blog is your personal space. You can control who speaks to you, who you engage with, the content you see. You are well within your rights to block anyone you dislike or who makes you uncomfortable, and anyone messaging you from their backup account demanding explanation or calling you rude for blocking them has just proved themselves worthy of you having done so.

[chrisbangs]

i finished thesis, won an award, and have graduated.. hello 👋🥸

[savage-rhi]

Fuschia/Magenta?

[hyunjinz]

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[misscrazyfangirl321]

Okay, so, life update in the tags

[transgender-catboy]

I love my friends so much!

wish I knew how to react when they say they love me back

[mariyekos]

Imagining a scenario where at some point Dante and Lady get married purely for practical purposes (like if she gets hospitalized so Dante can visit/make some decisions) but Lady ends up dating Trish so Dante's like

[havent-thought-of-a-name-lmao]

i started hurting like in the middle of a call w my friends and i'm just like. why would you do that Right Then. why does my shoulder hurt. i've literally been sitting in one spot all fucking day doing nothing that would aggravate my pain. it's making me want to cry. like did i do something?? did something trigger it??? or did my body just go "fuck you" and start this shit?? ughhhh i wanna cry i hate this i hate this fog i wanna just disappear i'm so tired

[pastafossa]

The Glorious TRT Gift

I needed to make this one its own post specifically so I could link it on my TRT masterlist.

One of my highlights of going to the con was finally getting to meet with @wonderlandmind4​, who I’ve been chatting with for ages after bonding over the fic. It was one of those friendships where you finally meet and you feel like you’ve always known each other. There is no awkward period, no ‘um who are you exactly’. Just boom, we’re hugging, we’re chattering, we’re getting kicked out of Panera because we lost track of time while talking and they’re closing, we’re exchanging friendship gifts. And there was one in particular that was very special. If you’ve been around on tumblr, then you may have seen my mentions of her teasing about whatever this TRT gift was. I know she told a couple other people at the con, but when she finally gave it to me, I was just... stunned, and I immediately teared up.

She'd created a funko display of black suit Matt and a custom Funko Jane she'd ordered. It was set above the streets of the Kitchen, complete with beautiful, glittering threads she'd made and attached herself, with the Hell's Kitchen skyline at night as the backdrop.

Jane even has her key necklace, along with her leather jacket! Seriously, the fact that they have not just a red thread, but Matt also has his white thread signifying his love for his city, is just... perfection.

Girl, this is one of the wildest, sweetest, most thoughtful things I've been given and I have repeatedly teared up when proudly showing it to friends and family. My geek friends on my socials are literally losing their minds over it. I literally carried this in the Keanu Jesus tote bag with me every time I left the car on the ride home because I wanted to make sure nothing happened to it. The second I got home, I was rearranging the Matt Murdock shrine so I could set it up front and center. And I've been looking at it and touching it on and off all day, just stunned that someone loved TRT enough to make it. It is absolutely perfect and I love it so, so much. Thank you, thank you, thank you. 😭