#I'm probably gonna put it on YT later

[azures-grace]

goofy lil Goober/Gore animatic

yes i know you can't marry him but I think it's funny.

[candycryptids]

hewwooo tuesday here's a silly little question for you since your "check it out, frogs!!" blog title always delights me: how do each of your characters feel about frogs? 👀

I *love* Frogs, but how do the blorbeans feel about em...? Well... I had to really think about it TTuTT BUT! Chuu favors mechanical creatures over flesh 'n blood ones, and while her getting to the First is ambiguous and mysterious (being a non-wol, I just try not to think about it too much) She DOES... love the Dwarven Mecha frogs. And. The biggest frog of them all... Formi.... <3 …. So she doesn’t care for frogs much. She has sent Tuesday out frog catching for alchemical ingredients though….

Colette... Doesn't have any feelings this way or that about frogs, really. They're small, they're kinda slimey? but mostly they're just, very small. Except Gigantoads, I suppose, but those are a toad, and decidedly less slimey, by virture of being a toad. The ambivalence remains though! They're not that tricky to fight so long as you know how to wriggle out of their tongue grasp. (I did... take some frog-related Colette pictures tho >:3 I'm just gonna, post em a bit later, since the theme got away from me) Gigantoads make for a decent enough meal so long as you prep the meat right :T the legs are the most edible part yk.

Ishi is much more fond of Poro Roggo's, Matoya's froggy familiars. They're wearing LITTLE HATS ! They wave little canes! They're quite frankly adorable and they have little croaking voices. What's not to enjoy? (And also, there's something really nice about being out in the marshes of Mor Dhona and finding a little frog instead of a Morbol ready to stink bomb you, HAH)

Tuesday shivers when he thinks about frogs (knows the difference between a frog and a toad, still pictures a Gigantoad first, and does not much love being yanked mid-cast from his Ley lines into body slamming range.) Finds just a regular little frog endearing and will get down in the mud and muck to look at it though. Is especially fascinated by frogs that stick to things like leaves and trees and their camouflages uwu He’s the one who likely knows the most about frogs, and would gladly tell you more about them. Probably compares information with Erenville, if they ever meet up in non-life-threatening-situations.

Tangy finds them fun ! If she’s on a walk or a run or an errand and it’s drizzly and she sees a little frog hop across the pathway there’s literally 0 inhibitions in her body that stop her from also hopping or skipping for at least a minute (still on her way, but a frogs leap is so charming. They’re like tiny dragoons! She points this similarity out to Estinien once. Krile laughs, Estinien looks constipated- you know the face.) She also has a weird compulsion to put them into her mouth, though, so if she catches one….. make sure it’s not poisonous. She doesn’t even plan to eat it! They just look like they would fit perfectly in her kitty jaws (she is sometimes correct).

Mochiie had to get used to frog song when he moved to Gridania. The rivers and lakes and greenery abounding let the little critters thrive in a way they don’t particularly on the Steppe. …. He comes around to finding it relaxing and feels uneasy when he doesn’t hear them anymore lmfao. In non-WoL au’s, probably sometimes tasks adventurer’s with catching frogs for alchemical ingredients OR to bring back to the pond he’s been carefully maintaining to encourage the little beepers to live in it. (Btw, his favorite frog singers are the Pobblebonk or Banjo Frog [YT Link], and the Pacific Chorus Frog [YT Link] 🥰)

Levraut…. I’m still not sure. 🤔 I think he’d like them, but he wouldn’t feel strongly about them. He WOULD eat them though. As would Colette and Mochi… I mentioned Tangy liked to stick them in her mouth but actually eating them seems like a waste, since she’s so big and they’re so small. Like eating a blueberry. I can say his favorite frogs would be the Blue Jeans Poison Frog, for their striking jackets of warning colors, and the desert rain frog, whose perfect spherical nature and grumpy face is endearing.

[mysteriouswolf]

ayup

itsa you, Mysterious!

I'm gonna ask you some questions. you! are free to answer all of these questions, or some (or none, but I don't think that's gonna happen). if you don't want to answer a question, that's okay! all I ask is that you put something like n/a where the answer to that question would be :)

idk if I've asked you this, but what's ur favorite life series?

When did you start watching HC, and what season of Life did you start on?

are you into EPIC the musical?

what is your opinion on red velvet cake? I made some today and it looked rly good and also we made cream cheese frosting but the frosting had about a zillion tons of powdered sugar and it looked like my phone and I had done crack together

what is your time zone, if youre amicable to sharing

are you a blob shaped person, a person shaped blob, or a blob shaped blob? (person shaped people do exist, but you and I are Tumblr users. we're not without the blob)

Also do you think I'm a blob shaped person, person shaped blob, or blob shaped blob.

what is your favorite way to eat chicken (if you eat chicken)

do you wear glasses

what is your favorite school subject. opinion on science

what is your favorite time o' day

what is your favorite music album

favorite way to consume potats.

one of your favorite fanfics (if you read fics)

are your nails painted? if so what colors? (my left pointer, middle, and ring fingers are silver. all my other fingers are normal)

did you know that you're loved?

did you know that your hair and nails seem to grow after you die because the rest of your body is decaying faster?

what is your favorite animal?

my brain is currently a string of "chicken chicken chicken chicken chicken" and now it's "chicken chicken chicken chicken" but in Halsey's voice. and also there's a different radio station that's just repeating the last refrain of Guilty As Sin? doesn't go very well with the "chicken chicken chicken CHICKEN"

as I am currently falling asleep on my phone, it is time for me to go to bed

I leave you with one last thing

You are. my fire--

no seriously tho

you're awesome. don't let anyone tell you different :)

signing into orbit,

Royal :)

(I wrote this all last night and apparently never pressed the ask button lol)

ROYALLLL HELLOOOO :3

(also you so know that later at some point you're getting a random list of questions too)

Fav. life series: Definitely Double Life- I'm a Grian main, and usually with life series I also watch Scar, Pearl, Scott, Joel, and now Gem. But I absolutely ADORE literally every pair in that series. I mean, the divorce quartet, Desert Duo, The Ranchers, Boat Boys, SO MUCH ICONIC STUFF HAPPENED THERE AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH.

When did you start watching Hermitcraft? I started watching it at the beginning of season six, watching Grian!! Hermitcraft was the first ever minecraft stuff I ever watched on YT acutally- and I've watched the life series since the very beginning as well.

EPIC the musical? RAHHHH I WILL LISTEN TO IT I PROMISE AKFNEANUIJ. My friends keep begging me and I WILL I just haven't had the time yet- I'm a major Greek mytholgy nerd tho so I will probably like it lol

Red Velvet cake? Uhm- I wouldn't suggest doing crack with your phone, but yeah it's okay. It just tastes the same as chocolate to me, and chocolate's my favorite so I guess it's also my favorite...? I've only had it like twice. Also, I don't like frosting/icing cause Bad Texture™

Time Zone? My time zone is EST :P

I am a person shaped blob. I am not a person. Just blob in a skin suit.

You are also person shaped blob. But like, leaning more on the blob side than person-looking side.

Fav. way to eat chicken? CHIVETTA'S (I love chicken sm)

Glasses? Yea, I do wear glasses! Rn they're blue and black. Fun fact, my eyesight is so bad that I'm *technically* legally blind.

Fav. subject? ELA

Opinion on Science? I enjoy science a lot- espcically doing labs and expirments. And space and rocks. But not like. most of earth science. like weather and plate tectonics and junk. that's boring. I LOVE bio though.

Fav. time of day? Nighttime. Like, right around 10pm-2am specifically. It's so pretty outside, and it's cool out during the summer

Fav. music album? Okay this is hard I CANT CHOOSE JUST ONE- probably the Lemon Boy album by Cavetown, Paramore. By Paramore. (I don't understand why bands name albums after themselves) and rn I've been listening to the album Grief Chapter by Mother Mother until I suck every single bit of dopamine out of it.

Potats? Potats. Love them so much. Best food. So many amazing creations. Probably mashed potats, but I love baked potats too--

Fav. Fanfics? That's also so hard man- my favorite used to be like this Divergent High School AU that was never finished but I would check back every day when I was in 7th grade because I loved it so much, but currently it's either @insomnya777's bfop au or Leave Me Be which was a Grian fanfic THAT WAS SO SAD AND ANGSTY on wattpad (look I started reading fanfic there and its got good stories. dont come at me. i love ao3 too) by Hollie_is_cool

Nails painted? I used to get my nails painted a lot but I would always pick the polish off the day after so I stopped

Did you know that you're loved? I actually think I do. I still struggle with believing it sometimes, but yeah. Yeah, I do. And it's amazing <3

I...also did not know that. That's weird. But also cool.

Fav. animal? WOLFIESSSSSS or FOXIESSSSS!!! Wolves because they're just silly lil guys like foxes but they also represent my personality a lot- and I'm not talking lone wolf. I'm talking about the way wolves actually act. How wolves are pack animals, and need to be looked after but also care for their packs so so much, and have lifelong partners. How wolves are incredibly intelligent and are protective of the ones they love, and how they feel lost when they're alone. It is not a wolf's natural state to be alone.

CHICKENCHICKENCHICKENCHICKENCHICKEN

hehe I love how you do the signing into orbit thing it's genuinely so cool akrgjirsdh- also, I want you to know that you're so fucking incredible too, Royal, and I hope you know that you're loved so much too- I was so excited to get home today so I could type a proper response to this lol I love your random questions and just genuine care and love for the people you know. It's amazing :3333

ALSO SIDE NOTE OUR SCHOOL DID THAT TOO WITH THE LIL PLASTIC DUCKS BEFORE??? BUT IN THE CHORUS ROOM?? And our chorus teacher did a complete 180 and made them his lol

[halowritesthings]

i love learning about things a week late through youtube recommendations from random channels i've never seen before

(bad grammar and typos cause i'm shooting my shot as fast as possible so I can get back to Important Adult Stuff(TM))

i suppose i can't really gripe because i'm still largely logged out and wouldn't have heard otherwise so maybe I should take it for what it is

i know i'm a random person who writes as a hobby so I don't necessarily "owe" anything to people online, but y'all have been so sweet to me and I feel it would be unfair to keep dropping off the face of the planet like I have been, plus, I have been stewing over quite a bit of my thoughts these past few months and making a large "get all my thoughts out in a word vomit" post is a good way to A.) sort out my shit and B.) to procrastinate homework

college is BEATING MY ASS and i'm not even at the harder junior/senior year type stuff so even if my writer's block wasn't the worst it's ever been I highly doubt I would be writing anything anyway. i cannot say for certain when I'll be able to get back (it seems the universe is tailored specifically to punch me in the face whenever I have the slightest inclination to do so) but i will say it is always on my mind. i don't ever want to give up writing fully because of how many good things it's brought me but i want to be mature and say that it has taken a backseat in my life.

i still don't regret the things I've created and i will always be thankful for the experiences I've had + the friends I've made (even if we haven't talked in a while :') sorry guys) BUT this situation has just become the nail in the coffin for me in terms of what i want to do with my ds/mp and other adjacent fics. i can't say for certain what I'll go through and orphan/keep or just outright delete (WIPS/unfinished series will probably get deleted is what I've decided so far) so this is a BIG WARNING sign right here and now: if there are any ds/mp fics of mine you are fond of, please go and save them now. even if you think the one you really love is "safe" it's better to be cautious and have it yourself than hope for the best outcome.

now's a good time to mention that i have been feeling similar feelings toward my fl0wer husb4nds fics (gonna come out and be honest: i don't particularly care for sc0tt anymore, sorry) so if you like those you should also search them out. i think a hard majority if not all of them will be orphaned, so they'll still be up, but it never hurts to be able to read something while offline anyway

however, due to the aforementioned Important Adult Stuff(TM), i won't be able to get to the whole Properly deleting/orphaning process for a hot minute. that does not mean you should put off saving my fics because my brain could decide one night that i HAVE to do it IMMEDIATELY, but i can promise that it's not happening tonight (might hold off for at least a week just to give people time to see this post).

TSALP, my pride and joy, is perfectly safe and fine. when i think about whenever ill be able to write again, this series is the First thing to pop up in my mind. i have so many things i want to do with that series (and h3rmitcr4ft as a whole) that make me smile despite all that has happened surrounding mc/yt. someone will need to threaten me with death to make me even consider giving that up. hell, even taking a step back, i can say that i will never fully let go of mc/yt. i straight-up have tickets to go see tommy's america show later this month (send my dad well wishes as he's the one taking me LMAO) .

remember to drink water, take breaks, tell your friends you love them etc. I'm terrible at giving advice since I'm a bonafide mess of a person, but i will say that the best thing you can do for each other is support one another. i've always been a bigger fan of giving support to those who are hurt than trying to go and cause more pain to the people that you can argue "deserve" it. the people you care about are going to be with you much longer than the assholes, so be sure to put more energy into focusing on them than the ones that don't even deserve your scorn.

[gazeopard]

Long-awaited Thoughts on the Part 1 Teasers

Been a while since I posted anything Beastars-related because I've been trying to focus on my own writing as well as on the damn GED. Having ADHD makes everything so slow and cumbersome...

I saw the teaser trailer back in March when it first came out, including the livestream from the Japanese YT channel (I forgot the name lol). Even though I couldn't understand what they were saying, I was excited (and nervous). I've made it no secret in the past and present that I've become very critical of Beastars' later arcs, especially everything post-Season 1 over the past few months.

Looking back on Season 2/post Vol. 6 these past few months got me noticing many things I didn't consider firsthand, or things that just flew by me due to my brain being off and only focusing on the things in front of me, as well as hearing things others on and off of sites like Reddit had noticed that I didn't initially have also gotten me looking back with a more critical eye.

A part of me is hopeful for Season 3. I have hopes that it'll change and salvage enough of the last two arcs into one cohesive finale, fixing all the bad, weird, or questionable writing decisions on Paru's (and I'm sure the publishers) end.

But after Season 2 basically followed the manga almost exactly, even up to the other strange writing decisions that were made that started the downfall of Beastars, I'm wondering if it's even worth it. If it's even worth holding onto hope anymore. And if I'll just be disappointed and let down again.

At the same time, a small part of me just... doesn't really care about Beastars anymore...? At least, at the moment? Partially because of the long wait. And partially because I've been trying to focus more on my own writing for my "Fireborn" books, trying not to fall into the same traps that others have stumbled into, all while taking bits of what I liked, didn't like and/or thought could have been better, and running with them to salvage them enough to be something worthwhile, entertaining, and memorable. 

Also, I have a feeling that, since it'll be a 2-parter, both parts will consist of only 12 episodes... which makes me more nervous than excited. It probably means the Dropout Arc will follow the manga exactly, while Melon's arc will probably follow the manga exactly the way it did, only it'll have tons of fat removed.

I dunno. I mean, the theory was that the final season would have 24 episodes, and 12 + 12 = 24. Though, I was kinda hoping the final season would be just one season with 24 episodes, as it would have probably broken the 12-episode mold. But breaking it in half seems like the better way to go. I don't know. I'm still kinda nervous.

Again, part of me just almost doesn't really care what happens. If it's good, great. If it's bad like the rest of the manga.... eh...?

I guess it's because I'm too jaded now. Idk. I will probably watch only for Melon. Not that that makes much of a difference anyway, considering what a mess he turned out to be in the end of the manga.

This probably also means Haru is still probably going to get treated as more of a prize to be won, again. And Kyuu's probably gonna still be in it and divert attention away from the more important things (Louis and Juno's development as a couple, Legoshi and Haru's relationship development as a future couple, Melon's development as a villain, etc) to put screentime on things that ultimately won't matter again, the narrative is still not going to hold Legoshi or Louis accountable for their actions, Legoshi's still going to hate himself and pull out his own teeth (only for them to magically grow back making the whole thing pointless) and avoid Haru most of the time again, making them getting together feel unearned, and Melon's still probably going to be an inconsistent mess of a villain and his promise with Haru will be dropped after looking like it'll be important... again. 

Or maybe they'll remove the things that didn't work and replace them with ideas that will work and improve it. Hopefully.

But seeing the official trailer four months ago made me more hopeful and curious. I'll still watch it to see anything is different as well. The animation is still gorgeous.

Also, I loved seeing the return of hellhound/demon-eyed Legoshi again! I remember being disappointed that they didn't really bring that back in Season 2 when I saw it, especially during the fight against Riz, but I'm glad they're reviving it here. Seeing him wake up with red eyes after having a dream about Haru where she was replaced by Louis' foot, all while hearing the red deer demand him to eat it, makes me wonder if they're going to give Legoshi some serious and dangerous consequences from consuming Louis' foot last season? Are they going to give give Legoshi a reason to drop out?? I was wondering if maybe his consumption of Louis' foot reawakens his carnivorous instincts and he finds himself wanting to eat Haru, which causes him to drop out? It also makes me wonder if they'll bring more focus to his meat-withdrawal symptoms. After the water fountain accident, his instincts never really came up again in the manga and were more told to us rather than shown. 

The shot of Legoshi and Haru outside also makes me wonder if they're including a scene where Legoshi sees Haru off to college. It'd be cute if they did. So the implications in this teaser showing him struggling again after seemingly overcoming them… really gives me a lot of hope that they're improving the manga.

Also:

Gosha and Yahya look amazing. It makes me excited to see how Melon will look, and it makes me curious to see who Studio Orange got to voice them.

AND we've finally got a date. December. When in December? Who knows. It's better than no date at all.

All in all, I'm still a bit nervous, but am still hopeful.

[thedeluluverse]

TA-DA!!!!

Author’s Note: Was inspired by this screenshot from a reaction video from the YouTube channel “Imagine with Bts”. So, shout out to them for the inspo!

CR: YT channel, Imagine with Bts

Summary: It’s almost the end of September and you’re having a chill weekend with your boyfriend Tae. That is until your insecurities get the best of you… he won’t let them stay for long though don’t worry 😏

Pairing:  artsybf!Tae x oc!Nari.

Rating: 18+

Genre: smut, fluff, established relationship, oneshot, body insecurities

Word Count: 2,201

Warnings: 18+ MINORS DNI  explicit content, oral sex (f. receiving), breast play, unprotected sex and breeding kink (don’t be dumb irl guys), pet names, squirting, clit play, praise kink, neck kissing, shower play.

It is a beautiful day, but neither you nor your boyfriend, Tae, are paying attention. On a rare mutual day off, y'all have opted to sleep in and have a relaxing day enjoying each other's company uninterrupted for once (minus the occasional tending to Yeontan).

Awaking to an unseasonably warm day, you head straight for the shower as you feel disgusting. At the same time, Tae takes Yeontan on a walk and gets his signature strawberry juice ready for you both to enjoy after your shower.

You make it a self-care session, doing all the maintenance you've been putting off lately and your entire skincare routine. This overheats you, of course, so you wander into the kitchen looking for something to drink in nothing but a robe. Hearing the bathroom door open, your boyfriend has fixed you a tall glass of iced strawberry juice for a situation like this!

However, he almost drops the glass while handing it to you because, to him, you are the embodiment of beauty right now. He doesn't want to overwhelm you, though, so he chooses a lighter compliment, "Nari, you look more delicious than my strawberries, woh!". You playfully push his shoulder and shake your head.

Despite doing everything that should've made you agree with him, your insecurities have snuck up again lately. So, your reply was, "Oh, stop it. I feel like I've gained weight lately, and my acne is raring back up.. You're sweet, but don't lie to me, babe…".

He doesn't like that at all, and before you know it, he has you backed up against the kitchen counter, one hand on your hip, the other on your chin, forcing you to focus on his intense chocolate gaze.

After kissing the top of your head, forehead, nose, cheeks, and finally, a quick peck on the lips, he says, "Never think my words are simply words, jagiya. Yes, I'm a nice person, but I'm not a liar. I've seen your body in all sorts of different conditions, and I think you are gorgeous in all of them. I don’t care about weight or perfect skin; your hormones are probably flaring up. I love you no matter what changes your body may undergo".

Tears well up in your eyes, and you jokingly say, "Yeah, but you're biased, heehehe".

He doesn't take kindly to that and isn't sure you are joking, so he flips you onto his shoulder like a feather and tosses you onto the bed. Your eyes widen as he takes off your robe, which is barely covering anything at this point. "Wh-what are you doing, jagi?"

He just smirks as he grabs the restraints and softly ties them around your wrists and ankles. "Um, hello, can you hear me? Wow, just gonna walk away like this?" you shout after him as he disappears into the spare room.

A few minutes later, he returns in only an apron and his boxers, carrying his painting supplies. Your brows knit in confusion as he still hasn't said anything to you, and you feel the first drop of cold paint hit your ankle. "KIM MOTHERFUCKING TAEHYUNG WHAT ARE YOU DOING??!!"

He throws his head back, laughing, and replies, "Sshhh jagiya, the master is at work." Not knowing why that calmed you an immense amount and started a pool between your legs despite not getting an answer.

The strokes become calming, and you almost doze off when you feel the brush graze the area right above your pussy. He is crouched down so your view is reminiscent of when sinful things are happening between your thighs, making you clench around nothing. He notices you looking at him and cocks an eyebrow at your confused look, only murmuring, "Be patient; you'll see soon enough, my love."

The suspense is driving you insane but is also enticing, so you decide to be patient as you are convinced he is just doodling on you, making you wait as he knows you hate waiting for things. He almost caves and discards the paint supplies once he reaches your supple breasts.

He hates seeing you speak badly about your chest and doesn't care if they aren't the most perky set in the world. They belong to you, and that is what makes them perfect. Determined to help you see that, he stays on task.

The contact of the bristles on your already sensitive nipples is enough to bring you to the brink at this point, but you aren't sure what you are up to and don't want to lose a game that you don't know the rules to. So, with every ounce of determination, you hold back…for now.

He makes this even more challenging as he begins tracing your neck and jawline with the bare brush, the light touches giving you layered goosebumps all over.

Following the brush, his tongue traces the same pattern achingly slowly, and then soft kisses follow until they turn into harsh love bites. He then slinks back down your body and finally gives your pussy the attention it has been craving.

His intention to tease you with his tongue doesn’t last long as he tastes how ready you are for him and how sweet you smell and taste after your attentive self-care. He swiftly brings you to the brink of your first climax, then abruptly stops and gets up again.

You are about to scream out in frustration, but the sight of his erection creating a tent in his apron as he scurries off is too comical. He comes back right away with a camera and a mirror. You finally speak up again, "Tae, listen, everything has been great, trust me. Just please talk to me. I'm going crazy over here!".

He chuckles, seeing you beg like he knew you would eventually. "Oh jagiya, you're so cute like this; I want to remember it forever." With that, he takes a series of photos until he is satisfied.

He leans forward, his bulge on your thigh as he kisses the tip of your nose, "Don't worry, pretty, I'm about to unveil the art exhibit.". He stands up and holds the full-length mirror above you, and you instantly feel tears running off your face. Down your entire body, he has written affirmations, adjectives he attributes to you, flowers, stars, strawberries, and the word "perfect" in every language he knows.

He has paid particular attention to the areas you are most self-conscious of, including your tits, thighs, fupa, neck, and arms. Even taking the time to draw intricate vines all over your hands and fingers with flowers, no thorns attempting to show you the beauty he sees every time he looks at you.

Honestly, he has made you into a sincere masterpiece. Your photographer's eye is in awe, and you make a mental note to bug him to show you the pictures he captured earlier! As you are going through everything again, you pause, eyes widening. "Ta-Tae…." "Yes, my sweet, what is it?"

All you can do is point to where you felt the brush above your pussy earlier, "Does that say what I think it does???" He flashes his shy yet lustful smile as he places the mirror down and walks toward you. "If you think it says '내 것,'* you are correct, my star.". *(Mine in Korean).

All you can do is bite down on your bottom lip and look down as you blush even more! Darkly chuckling, he leans forward, placing his knee right up against your entrance as he wraps his hand around your throat while whispering, "You like me claiming you, princess?"

He places his thumb right over your sensitive clit, not moving it, while inserting a finger into your arousal, then tastes it while moaning at how good you taste for him. "Damn my heart, you really like it when I get possessive, don't you?" as he raises an eyebrow.

Your chest is heaving, and you breathily moan out, "Yes, yes, yes, I do. Please fuck me; make me yours, Daddy!". He is shocked, then amused by this new name, "Oh, you cute little thing, you want to make me a daddy? Patience, soon enough, first, I'm going to make you feel good, my perfect muse.".

He keeps his knee in place for you to grind upon like a desperate, aroused creature as he sucks on, flicks, and lightly twists your clit until you gush all over his knee. Not stopping, he moves his knee to slide three fingers into your primed pussy while rubbing swift circles on your ever-sensitive bundle of nerves as he sits on his heels, watching his exhibit come to life. In no time at all, you squirt all over him from how good you are feeling.

As you come down, you start to feel embarrassed, but he assures you that it is sexy and hopes you never hold back for him. You promise not to, and he smiles down at you while encasing your thighs with his and starts undoing the restraints. Giving soft kisses to where they were tied, he places his forehead on yours and says, "It's daddy's turn, princess."

Ridding himself of his apron and boxers in a flash, he rams every inch into you and holds back an immediate climax. He typically isn't one to immediately cum. However, he has been straining against his boxers, staring at your immaculate form for hours now, plus you still being a lake for him has an intense effect.

The whole time he is ramming into you while he either chokes you or gives you his fingers to suck on, he is spewing praise-filled filth, only adding to your orgasm count by the moment. "You like feeling my bulge through your cute belly, my sweet? Want me to fill it full of my cum, make you all glowing and round with our child? Let me hear you scream for jagi.".

With these words and your own imagination, you cum another three times and squirt as you feel him fill you to the brim, his deep voice moaning your name, sending shockwaves to your core.

After a second release into your throbbing cunt, he collapses next to you, gently sweeping your hair out of your face giving you sweet kisses and smiling between them as you are both so elated from the many layers of bliss that just happened.

He calmly carries you to the bathroom, letting you sit in the second bathtub while he prepares a shower for both of you. Typically, you would just cuddle after, but with the smearing of your mixed arousal and paint, you both decide against it.

He stands you up, and you are a bit wobbly still, but you feel secure in his grasp. He lovingly washes your hair, massaging your scalp, and then delicately washes the paint from your body, making you pout a little.

He notices and tilts your head up, "Don't be sad, Nari-a; remember, I took photos for this precise reason." Your eyes instantly light up, and you start attacking him with kisses even more full of love than ever before.

Enjoying it but shocked at the sudden energy shift, he asks, "What was that for, babe?" You cheekily smile and say, "Oh, just for being the best boyfriend I ever thought I'd have." He grins, tears in his eyes with mutual adoration for you, "You bring it out of me, so you should thank yourself, but you're so sweet- wait, what are you doing?"

He exclaims as he sees you squat down, "Oh nothing, daddy, just trying to make you feel good too. Is that a crime?" He chuckles as he runs a hand through his hair and down his neck, "I mean, no, but aren't you tired? You don't have to do this, you know.".

Looking up at him, you lick a broad stripe across his slit and say, "I know. I want to.". He grabs a handful of your hair and says, "Well, what princess wants, she gets." At this, you shift into some sort of otherworldly sex demon, paying the perfect attention and pressure to his balls while your tongue carves murals into his shaft.

It doesn't take long before he empties himself down your throat, making your desire return tenfold. He senses this and pins you up against the cold shower tile and plays with your clit while easing himself into your pussy from behind, teasing your ass with his pinky until you are practically climbing the walls from the 2nd most intense orgasm of the day.

You both exit the shower, light your favorite candle, set the LED lights to a soft orange glow, and cuddle as you wait for the Panda Express to arrive. Barely a word is spoken, but you just bask in the unconditional love and adoration that you have for each other.

Once you've eaten, you just listen to music until he feels you nod off on his chest. Careful not to jostle you, he lays you in the freshly made bed and wraps his arm around your waist as you drift off into the best sleep of your lives, with Yeontan softly snoring in the background.

[writtenjewels]

Hey! So, random idea (not a prompt but if you can use it by all means!) . There's a guy on YT, Niko Ortiz, and his whole thing is comparing things each branch of the us military does and I just watched his 'sleeping with the branches' and it got me thinking.. Imagine Salim and Jason just starting to live together and Salim's constantly surprised by Jason's ability to just.. sleep anywhere, even standing up. And I'm sure Salim's probably no stranger to it but sometimes even he's like "..how?" x)

Salim stifled a yawn as he carefully opened the door. He was getting in late and didn't want to accidentally wake Jason. He stepped in, easing the door closed again, and moving quietly around the couch. But to his surprise he didn't see Jason there. Maybe the other man was out late, too?

He walked a little farther into the house and saw a shape by the bookshelves. It startled him until he drew closer and saw that it was Jason. The former marine was leaning against the shelves with his arms crossed. He was wearing his sleeping clothes: a faded Van Halen T-shirt and boxers.

“Jason,” Salim acknowledged. “You didn't have to stay up for me.” The other didn't answer. Salim leaned in a little and realized that the man's eyes were closed, his head tilted to the side so it was cradled between the bookshelf and the wall.

Is he asleep? Salim wondered. It didn't seem possible. They were both military men and Salim knew what it was like to sleep in unusual places and circumstances but even so, the man was standing up and leaning against a bookshelf! There was no way that was comfortable.

“Jason,” he called out, gently putting his hand on the younger man's shoulder and squeezing. “Jason, wake up.” Jason let out a grunt and shifted a little, but remained asleep. “Jason!” Salim squeezed him harder and shook him. This time he got Jason to crack open his eyes.

“What? Oh, Salim.” Jason's eyes opened more and he stood up straight, rubbing his neck. “Hey, you're home.”

“Yes, things ran a little later than expected. Were you waiting for me?”

“Yeah, I wanted to be up when you came home. Guess I dozed off.”

“How did you even sleep like that?” Salim wondered as he followed Jason back over to the couch. “Your neck must be so sore.”

“It ain't that bad,” Jason shrugged. Salim sighed but decided to let the issue go. “How'd your day go?” Jason asked to change the subject.

“One of my coworkers was sick, so I had to fill in for them,” Salim answered. “That's why I came home so late. What about you? What did you do, beside try to imitate a horse?”

“I bought a bed, smart-ass, so I could stop sleepin' on the couch.”

“Oh?” Salim couldn't help the delighted smile that brought him. Sleeping in a bed was a much more permanent thing than on a couch. The smile softened as the implication really sank in. Jason had a bed now and he still fell asleep against the bookshelf, because he was waiting for Salim to come home.

“Anyway, I'm gonna get some real shut-eye now,” Jason announced. “See ya in the morning.”

“Good night,” Salim answered. His heart was beating fast in his chest. He didn't know what to do with all of this just yet.

All that could really sink in at the moment was this: buying a bed for himself made Jason more than a guest in Salim's house. He truly intended to live here. The thought made Salim's smile come back bright and hopeful.

[blapis-blazuli]

I was originally gonna add this to the original post, but I wound up making this its own post. Oops? (Context for everyone else.)

I'm not at all surprised that you don't know who this character is, Disney pretty much never acknowledges the movie he's from. I've been trying to pin down where to start with him, but the more I thought about it, the more I realized that would require me to explain the movie he's from, among other things. I will try to be somewhat coherent, but I make no promises.

So.

In 1995, the same year "Pocahontas" was released, someone pitched the idea for an animated supernatural Western movie where a timid cowboy confronts an undead cattle rustler. The original idea was well-received, so they started working on it. This movie was called "Sweating Bullets."

Except it didn't happen.

Okay, that's not entirely true: what happened was that it went through several changes from its original pitch to the final product. Unlike the detailed account of how "Kingdom of the Sun" eventually became "The Emperor's New Groove," I haven't found as much information as to why this changed so drastically. (Hell, I found out about all this completely by accident.) The best I can find is a mention of the inclusion of a baby longhorn calf named Bullets who wants to be more like a horse, and then sometime later someone else suggested the protagonists be three cows out to save their farm.

So "Sweating Bullets" eventually morphed into "Home on the Range."

*sigh*

When someone claims animation is only for children, this is the kind of film that I imagine they're thinking of. This came out during "Disney's Second Dark Age," and while it's not the worst animated theatrical movie they've made... it ain't good. I'm struggling to think of what exactly about it doesn't work, because there's quite a bit, and the more I try to focus on just one thing to mention the messier my thought process gets. However, unlike some people (coughdougwalkercough), I won't accuse the people behind making this film of not caring or putting no effort into this. I don't think the overall end result is good, but I will not deny that work was put into creating it.

While I'm at it, let's get this out of the way: this movie's reputation as "the 2D film that killed 2D films in the United States" is inaccurate. Disney was already planning on going from 2D to 3D films before this movie was released, and this was a convenient target to pin the blame on. This common misconception probably isn't helped by Disney doing what it does with most of its flops by avoiding mentioning this movie at all ever. (Outside of having it available on Disney Plus? To... I don't know, keep people from pirating one of their critically panned flops?)

I don't have a high opinion of the movie itself, but there is one thing I enjoy about it.

This is Alameda Slim. He's the villain. He's an awful man. I love him.

Slim was set to be the undead antagonist way back when this was "Sweating Bullets," and his backstory was that he died via being trampled to death by a stampeding herd of cattle. However, that changed because someone at Disney deemed it to be "too dark" and that they'd have to show blood should they go with that. (That and it'd give them at least a PG rating... which the final movie ended up getting anyway.) Keep in mind that the original pitch was made a year after the release of "The Lion King," where Mufasa fell off a cliff and was trampled by wildebeests, a similar death that showed little if any blood, so I call bull on that excuse (pun intended).

It's hard for me to determine when they made other changes to his character between the original pitch and the final product because, again, I've not found much info on the production. Given one of the old proposed posters, it seems like one aspect of his character has been there back when it was titled "Sweating Bullets."

Oh, did I mention that his yodeling can hypnotize cattle?

(Here's where I'd usually put a YT video of at least the audio of his villain song, but I don't want to accidentally get any YouTube channels in trouble with Disney. I'll say this: when I mentioned that there was a 2004 movie with more fat jokes about the villain in one song than there were in the entirety of Spider-Man 2? This is the song I meant.)

Fun fact: Slim's villain song required three vocalists - his voice actor for the speaking/singing, one professional yodeler for the higher notes, and another for the lower ones. That might be the single most impressive thing about the movie to me. (Another fun fact: if you listen to this dubbed in another language, odds are likely that the longer yodeling sequence of the song will be from the Latin-Spanish dub done in Mexico, all performed by one man.) Also, the lyricist for his song (and the rest in the movie)? He's the same lyricist for Disney's Tangled. It's crazy to me that Mother Gothel's villain songs were written by the same guy who gave us a yodeling cowboy villain song. (And "Love Never Dies," the sequel to Webber's Phantom of the Opera, but LND is a whole other type of mess.)

As you can probably tell from that alone, Slim is meant to be more of a comedic villain than a serious one, which was a bit of a departure from most other Disney movie villains around that time. That's not to say he can't be threatening, as he's very strong and has a pretty bad temper, a combination you don't want to be on the wrong end of (something his three nephews know all too well). His deal is that he disguises himself and buys up all the land owned by the people whose cattle he's stolen and sold off, his way of getting revenge on all the ranchers who fired him for not appreciating his yodeling talents. This revenge scheme extends to smaller places he's never been to, such as the home of two of the main protagonists.

He ends up getting defeated by a group of farm animals, including three piglets and several baby chickens.

No, I'm not kidding. Like, imagine the scene where Scuttle and those sea creatures mess with Ursula during the wedding in The Little Mermaid, but if she did nothing after Ariel got her voice back. Not a very exciting end for a villain, is it?

Despite his pretty pathetic defeat, there's something about Slim I just can't help but enjoy. I'm upset that Disney squandered the opportunity to add a literal ghost rider to their villain roster, but I still found him to be my favorite thing about the movie.

I think I might like him because he's got a couple things in common with other villains I've become fond of over the years. Ratigan's also a character with an ego who's out to gain power and has a noted temper, though he manages it better than Slim (up until that film's climax, anyway). Slim is also usually considered to be a more silly villain despite being behind some pretty horrible things like driving several people (and a colony of rabbits) out of their homes, which is kinda like how people see Eggman. And if I had a nickel for every time I've gotten attached to a greedy, egotistical, fat but agile, silly but also sorta threatening redheaded villain with the ability to control certain animals in an animated thing that came out in 2004, I'd have two nickels... Which isn't a lot, but it's weird how that also describes The Batman's take on The Penguin, right? Edit: My partner pointed out that he's got a couple things in common with Tamatoa too, namely both being in the "large, silly, and threatening" category as well as both having palette shifts during their villain songs and being a bit flashy. Felt like that was important enough to add here.

Also, Slim rides a bison named Junior. I know the idea behind it was likely "he's too big/fat to ride a normal horse," but considering how bison can be potentially dangerous, I just think that's kinda amazing.

In conclusion:

[numetaljackdog]

what i'm listening to 4/5/2023 (song notes under cut!)

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Laura Les - Haunted: haunted. by laura les.

100 gecs - Dumbest Girl Alive: yeah there's gonna be a fair few new gecs tracks in here. dumbest girl alive is my favorite from 10k, i can't even express how much it just hits every time. i love the riff, i love the lyrics, i love the music video, i love the production, love it love it love it. i also included a minecraft parody i found when searching the video on youtube, you're welcome

Black Flag - Revenge: i've been trying to rediscover my love for some of my favorite hardcore genres, so i took it all the way back to the early days and reconnected with one of my favorite bands. i encountered this song in high school when trying to find clean black flag songs that i could put in a piece i was writing about the history of metal (which the band is not, but hardcore is significant in the history of the genre anyway). it's a great thrash-and-basher and apparently has not been in my playlist until now, which i was unaware of lol

The Beatles - Strawberry Fields Forever: once again i must admit to listening to the beetles.... alas. look it's a really good song, the lead-in to the chorus is fucking amazing, the instrumentation is really interesting and unique, it just washes over you like waves of sound. plus it's goofy as hell

Jaga Jazzist - I Could Have Killed Him In The Sauna: from the INSTANT i heard the intro of this track i was like ohhh that's going in the next WILT. i don't have a ton to say about it, just listen. it's good sounds to chew on. shoutout io

100 gecs - Billy Knows Jamie: i freaked the fuck out when i heard this track, no joke. which is funny, because i'm pretty certain they played this when i saw them last fall, but i didn't have any frame of reference at the time for whether it would sound the same on the record. i just kept thinking "they did this for ME. SPECIFICALLY" because like hello??? i'm the nu metal gecs fan!!! that's like my whole thing!!!! and this literally sounds like limp bizkit half the time!!!!! i honestly kind of wouldn't mind if the breakdown at the end had been a little more restrained, just to preserve the feeling that it's 1999 all over again, but whatever. it cums. it's also about violence and killing, so i even get a little bit of like juggalo vibes almost

Fiona Apple - To Your Love: this song sounds so sexyyyy like maybe this is out of pocket but when this came on shuffle on a singer-songwriter playlist i was browsing i literally stopped what i was doing and was just like 😳😳😳 it's insane. and like when her voice gets all growly at one point later in the track... anyway haha

Marnie Stern - Prime: found via that coolass video i reblogged a while back oh god let's see if i can find that. holy shit i can't believe that worked. i don't know anything about marnie stern but i should listen to more because prime knocked the wind out of me it's good

100 gecs - The Most Wanted Person In The United States: last gecs track... and it's more rap rock!!! kind of. did you guys catch that cypress hill sample? i sure did!!!! love itttt. plus there's more killing it's so awesome. i've already said most of this stuff to violet (hi violet) but for real i think "got anthony kiedis suckin on my penis" is one of the all-time greatest bars and i'm not joking

DJ Lycox - BILLIE JEAN (DIOR): a lot of music from people on here this month! one of my mutuals (who probably won't read this but if you do. hi :3) posted this track and i really love the original pop smoke song so i was like right what's all this then. it's good. that's what it is then

Bruce Springsteen - Born to Run: i was reading this article about bruce springsteen being a sort of icon for butch womanhood and that had me like wow i am feeling emotions right now. and so i went and listened to some springsteen and you know what he rocks. there's something so desperate and heartbreaking about his songwriting, it hits me in a real way. and i've never even been to new jersey

Ada Rook - 920LONDON: new rook album ooh yeah babey. not my fav record she's ever done but still really fucking good. this song kind of reminds me of everlong, which like. girl who's only ever listened to everlong by the foo fighters listening to her second song: getting a lot of everlong by the foo fighters vibes from this. but still it's about holding each other close and making the most of what we have in our rapidly passing time, plus the riffs are kind of similar in ways that i don't feel like fudging musical terminology to try and describe

Sarah Vaughan - Lullaby Of Birdland: cool jazz can be kind of whatever but y'know i'm a vocals girlie and sarah vaughan honestly probably deserves to be listed up there with the greats. her vocal control is insane, and the way she just drifts from her higher register to the lower and back again is hypnotic. good fucking song plus shows props to charlie parker

May Leitz - gODKILLER: another from tumblr, thanks to user bigbaywindow for directing me towards may leitz ^_^ i have been rocking with several of her songs but this was the first one i listened to and it's really good, the lyrics hit me in a certain way as well that some of you might guess. also while putting together the youtube playlist i discovered that may makes youtube videos including one that i've seen floating around my recommended page a couple of times?? so i guess i'll have to see what's goin on over there

The International Sweethearts Of Rhythm - Vi Vigor: am i like. crazy. i would have SWORN that i put this in a previous WILT but i can find no evidence of that being true. in any case this is a cool kinda bebop-inspired jazz piece by an all-woman jazz ensemble who i wanna listen to more of. there's some really great sax work on here especially, so if you're into that def check this one out

Girls Rituals - Hole/The Used: okay funny story on this one. this was the first song i ever heard from any of devi's projects, it was before i even really knew who black dresses was. this song appeared in my release radar and i was like "who the fuck is this" and i'm convinced it only happened because the title is the names of two bands which i WAS already listening to at the time. and i listened to the song and said "this is really bad, and i don't understand why anyone would listen to this." and then i mostly forgor about it. skip forward to recently - i am obviously a big fan of devi's work and plenty of other projects adjacent to this. i get a big new batch of songs in my playlist (hello again to violet shoutout violet) and this song is in here. i listen to it. it's good :) take that, me from two years ago

The Buggles - The Plastic Age: the mandatory Todd Find™ for this month. i was watching the one hit wonderland episode on these guys and honestly didn't pay attention too closely bc i was busy but this song stuck. you guys know i'm all about that campy futurey cyberpunk-adjacent shit. it would be a stretch to say this fully gets there but it's still a fun song either way

Cage The Elephant - Cigarette Daydreams: lame song honestly but the chorus is super catchy plus there's a story. when i was working my old job there was a supervisor i liked a lot who played a wide range of tunes on shift. sometimes it was chill instrumental stuff, sometimes it was metalcore, and sometimes it was like this sort of radio alternative shit. this song specifically would play a lot, as you can imagine, and at the time it annoyed me, especially because of how catchy it is, it would make me think of work. but now both that supervisor and i have left, and so now it just reminds me of vibing with them and making the most of being on the clock. a cigarette daydream indeed

Jason Segel & Walter - Man Or Muppet: i don't know, man. i've had this song stuck in my head since i was eight years old and one day i randomly thought "i wonder if that's on streaming" and it is

[destinyc1020]

Hey, a kinda long sunday confession here and I'm struggling to phrase this in a way that doesn't make it sound judgemental or insensitive (because I'm really trying not to be), but ever since tcr filming Tom has seemed to age quite a bit. More obvious crow's feet, wrinkles on his face more pronounced, eyes look more tired...and listen, I know it was ultimately his choice to lose weight for the role and it's normal for wrinkles to be more pronounced and skin to sag after weight loss, but I do feel a little bad sometimes. Clearly filming was very intense emotionally (as he has said) but also physically. Of course he is still VERY handsome and attractive, but it does kinda suck to see a role age him this much and a year later even though he definitely looks healthier the crows feet seem to be sticking around (I guess once wrinkles come they can't really go without surgery). Anyway he's rich so i'm hoping he's spending some of it on some good skincare. Again, looks aren't the end all be all I get that, and I'm trying not to be superficial or anything, especially since most of the reason I'm his fan is because of his talent and personality! But sometimes when I see old pics of him during nwh press or uncharted press vs only a few months later during tcr filming the difference is a little alarming. And as much as I hate to say it hollywood obviously is hollywood so there's a lot of stock in appearances (though as a white man he does have it easier in that regard compared to others ofc and other than comments here and there from the general public I doubt it would affect his career). The dedication Tom puts into his roles is impressive but sometimes I do feel a little bad that his skin hasn't bounced back...and maybe it will and just needs time or it's just the normal aging process for a yt man being sped up a bit lol. Maybe this would have happened regardless of tcr who knows. But sometimes in certain lighting it can be a bit jarring - and maybe that's just because I'm so used to him looking younger than his age in his early 20s. Idk. Anyway, at the end of the day he seems like he's happy and content and confident with himself and that's all that matters I just wanted to ramble a bit :)

Wow... This was a long confession Anon! 😅

Well, I'll be honest, at first I was gonna rip into you lol, but I remembered that your ask was a "Confession Sunday" ask, and towards the end it seems like you were coming from a genuine place of concern, so I won't judge. Thanks for being honest Anon, I'm sure that probably wasn't easy to confess. It's sometimes hard to say anything LESS than favorable about our faves who we love. But I don't think anyone should be judged harshly in the fandom for their honest thoughts and feelings, as long as it's not coming from a place of SHADE. I'll just say that I think that we ALL have different genetics, and some skin tones just age quicker than others...that's just a fact of life lol. Tom is a white British man, with a mom who's a Ginger (red head) lol... I mean..... C'mon... 👀 Like, you kind of have to look at where someone is starting off from lol. 😅

Tom has had crows feet/laugh lines since he was even in his teens lol, so I think they're just genetic?? I mean, obviously, they will probably get more pronounced the older he gets, but I just think he's just always had them tbh. 🤷🏾‍♀️ If you look at even his younger photos, you'll see that I'm right.

I DO know that he lost a significant amount of weight for "Cherry", and I know that sometimes that can have an impact on your aging.... There were times when I really was worried about him during that time. 😭 Then, there were claims (not sure if they were true) that he had fainted in public at one point due to the lack of eating for the role. So yea, I was getting a bit worried. 😔 He also lost some weight (although not AS much) for his role in "The Crowded Room", and honestly, I don't think they really needed him to lose weight?? But I guess they wanted his character to look as meek and mild and young as possible? 🤷🏾‍♀️ It seems that role was emotionally exhausting and a bit crazy for him! (I'm just being totally honest when I say that I hope Tom doesn't take anymore roles where he has to DRASTICALLY lose weight again anytime soon. 😔)

I know that stress can definitely age you! I've even seen some of my other faves go through a hard role, or lose weight to play a character, or go through an arduous awards season, and they've looked so tired and worn out through and through...almost like everything just aged them overnight. 😔 So even emotional stresses, drastic weight loss, or a grueling work schedule can really do a number on your body, your skin, etc.

Anyway.... RE: Tom..... I do get your concern Anon, but he seems like he's looking healthy now! 😊 And honestly??? I don't think the crows feet or laugh lines in his face are a BAD thing tbh.... He's looked like a kid for so long lol, that I think it's actually a good thing that he's looking a bit more mature. 😅 JMHO. I think some fans wanna keep Tom in 2017 when they first fell in love with him in Spider-Man HOCO, but ummm...he was only 21 back then! Tom naturally has a young face, so now that he's looking more "grown", I don't think that's a bad thing per se. 🤔

He's still a very handsome man, and he's rich, so if he ever wanted to get botox or something cosmetic to lessen the creases around his eyes, then I'm sure he has MORE than enough money and resources to do so lol. He's a Brit though, so I don't think their actors worry so much cosmetic-wise about how they look like us Americans lol. 😅 I think there's WAY more pressure here in the US/LA area (especially) to look a certain way than there is overseas. Just my personal observation. 🤷🏾‍♀️

Either way, it's everyone's own personal decision on how they wish to take care of their "canvas", and it's always good to remember that it's what's on the INSIDE of a person that matters most!

Tom seems to be doing AWESOME right now! He's given up alcohol/drinking so much, he's mentioned that he's SLEEPING better, he seems ABUNDANTLY HAPPY, he seems to LOVE his life, he's getting a LONG BREAK from working (a whole YEAR off!), he doesn't seem to be smoking anymore lol, and he just seems overall super happy with life! 😃 I'm really happy and just so proud of him honestly. 🥰 He seems to be glowing to me! So, even though you think he looks more 'tired' these days, he actually seems to be in a much better place than he was just a year ago imo. Plus, he's married to dating Zendaya, and I'm sure she has a TON of facial regimens and creams she can help her hubby out with if he needs it lol. 🤭

[jiminsass-istant]

Hello talking about boycott anon here,

i will stay anon longer, i dont want to be doxxed (with the climate and how army is moving rn it is very high probability).

sorry if this is going to be messy and all aroung the place. Hopefully it is gonna make at least some sense to you.

Not sure if you know what fanon means in fanfiction community, but it is when fans think of something/someone and fandom accepts it as the truth that happened even when it was not specifically said in the original media. this is rn i feel like. like i believed in the fanon version of bts, that army (the waters i was floating aroung at least) was presenting bts to be. someone who is believed to have their morals, to hold their ground, to care about the world.

so right now my fanon version of bts is meeting the (maybe) more real version of bts and it hurts. but that is on me letting my perception being clouded by other people views.

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I as person with zero soft power and audience, i can scream into the void about how it is against humanity what is happening right now outside... And nothing happens. On other hand people with enormous influence are sitting it out and nothing happens...only them being used as puppets of consumerism to be able to sell out everything (the bt21 /possible/ collab with mcsht made me laugh ngl, it was not a good laugh tho...)

But at least i dont see them later doing docu ala Miss Americana about the heavy burden of power and responsibility.

In the end what as i individual think of them is not really important on the macro scale, but on my microscale letting go of the fanon version and see what they present themselves as without the interpretation of people loving and believing in them, it is freeing -> to view them as plain and simple entertainment to be consumed and moved on without any real life impact.

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And the reason why i was more disappointed in them than every other idol working with zionists, endorsing things on boycott etc. Cuz the others were for me the mindless consumption entertainment which never had the inclination to be more than being consumed (ie i never thought of them as being pro humanity, only pro income 🤣), which may be shitty on my end to held someone on higher standard than their peers when in the end all kpop/entertainment is pro income. (As music for healing does not exists anymore).

Ps with how mr scrotum braun is moving at this point, im curious what is it is gonna take for american hybe to be put on the bds list...

Ps 2 greetings to skewed!anon

Ps3 if im still alive and around when they announce the world tour and israhell is gonna be one of the stops, im going to have aneurysm from bitter laughing...

I'm so glad you're back! This is gonna be lengthy..

Thanks for explaining what fanon means and now I get it too- what you mean. We perceive them through the way the fandom presents them. Through YT videos and tweets that praise them for each little thing, for their struggle story (which is true, but also a great way to market them).

As these perfect individuals with high morals (and they sure might be! Not negating that possibility). But like Yoongi said - everyone thinks they have the perfect sense of morality and justice. And it applies to armies as well as internet community.

We, as people have always been caught up between politics, been engaged in wars, been victims or have been enablers without much control over it. The genocide in Palestine is the first case ( esp. after october last year) wherein there has been such a widespread awareness - at least among netizens. Even the Ukraine war wasn't this talked about. And this news was bound to affect fandoms at some point.

The root cause has always been politics. And who decides which politicians are in power? Us. The people who select the leaders. Why does Israhel has immense power and is backed by the US? Because that's the kind of leaders they chose. If there are people who need to speak up, it's the local communities, the voters, the changemakers. I appreciate the road rallies and protests across the world to support the Palestinian cause.

Unfortunately, most of the discourses on the internet are useless. Unless the internet is used to gather people, form local communities, gather donors for the cause, all other debate is useless. The BDS list boycott would be so much more effective if it was done on the ground. Imagine a local area boycotting mcd. The franchise would be shutdown- people would hear about it in the nearby areas and get curious.

But what happens when 2000 people from different cities of the world 'like' a post asking for boycott of mcd? Nothing. What happens when a post cancelling a kpop idol over McD gets 10k likes? Umm.. nothing. And this would still be fine if this energy translated to local awareness. But is that happening? I live in a big city and people here still go to starbcks, order mcd, burger king etc etc. All educated folks, all with access to the internet.

Companies will always be pro-income. That's why the only way to get them to divest is to affect their income. Start by shutting down their stores one by one. In my country, if you speak against israhell, some people might jump you or call you crazy because they are straight up islamophobes. That's why all i can do is quietly boycott.

If Hybe makes it to bds list.. I'll say goodbye to being a hard-core army. I'll still enjoy their songs and performances (from official channels) but i won't invest my time and money anymore.

That's why..(coming to your point now lol), it's best to see them as musicians only. Just musicians. What are we even gonna achieve by harassing an active duty soldier? SOLDIER!! A job that they are forced to do, btw. They are not saviours of humanity and they never will be. Their UNICEF campaign was also *business*. Literally to promote their album and massive tour. Yes they cared for the cause, but it was not for funsies or their main goal. It was for longevity as artists. Them donating to BLM was also caring for the cause because it was a massive movement at that time. If they were not in military, i believe they would have even donated to the Palestinian victims if other celebrities were also donating.

Israhell as world tour stop.. wouldn't that be 'love myself' ( as a genocide supporter) to another level? Lol. That would suck so bad..if that happens. But then again..it SHOULDN'T suck so bad because why attach your happiness to the moralities of businessmen?

What Palestine is facing right now is the collective result of Islamophobia propagated by the US around the world for years. Through their news, by calling them terrorists, by inciting other countries, by supporting genocides. This is the result of being complicit. And this goes to all people around the world. You should have chosen your leaders wisely. The reason Israhell is so powerful is because countries have been investing in it, in return for defence resources exchange, using the excuse of "donation to israhell victims of hamas terrorism".

Anyway.. *sigh*

You can DM me, you won't be doxxed chill. Upto you of course.

And I hope you stay happy and healthy:)

[bmpmp3]

Happy mothers day! STOP spending time with your loved ones and READ my posts about music instead <3

So for this week's Cover-Remix Weekend, I'm gonna talk about another oldie: -ERROR by niki!

(I couldn't really do this for the first one super easily, but for these posts I am going to try to point to places to buy these songs (MP3 or CD) if applicable. You're own your own with streaming unless there's a KARENT link or something that compiles everything though: I'm an MP3 freak (as you may have assumed by my username...) and outside of YT and NND videos, streaming means nothing to me. For fellow MP3 freaks, I do recommend OTOTOY specifically: lots of vocal synth music is put on there and its easy to use as an overseas buyer!)

-ERROR! A song that is difficult to google ("-" is a boolean thing that removes excludes terms from results HKJDSHldgkdgfd) but a wonderful tune nonetheless!

The original 2010 version above, and the later Youtube upload below that appears to have different mixing, and maybe tuning too:

You know, it seems this song wasn't super huge when it first came out (we'll talk a bit about its rise later) and its original versions are kind of overshadowed but listening to it again - the original NND upload is quite strong. Obviously the instrumentation and melody is great, I love a good big huge emotional rock ballad. The bit of digital theming (errors and such) is also a classic, you don't see it as often anymore but I'm a sucker for vocal synth music that plays a bit into the virtual aspects of the software. I also quite like niki's use of drums, the sort of marching band sound. But going back to the vocals, even though the NND original is a bit muffled, it kind of works for me! Lily's singing her heart out even as she's being drowned out... AND of course the remade Youtube upload sounds perfect.

My familiarity with niki is moreso through his heavier electronic works, such as WAVE:

and on the same album, GLIDE:

Which are absolute classics for my vocal synth journey, especially the latter! He uses these like, velvety deep synth sounds and really.. heheh.... GLIDES across the track with them and I'm a big fan!

The game can't run on my phone so I don't really know much about Project Sekai, but I do check out the music: earlier this week a commissioned (?) song was released for the game by niki and its really good! 烈火 (Rekka):

Those signature fading-in deep synths make an appearance again! I also like the black-haired girl's vocals, especially in the bridge with her vocalizations combined with the bass synth line underneath. I also am a fan of the lil orange guy's vocals at the beginning of the second verse, a sort of campy articulation that sounds quite nice. Luka sounds very interesting here, I will say: as in... she doesn't sound very much like Luka... BUT um. she still sounds great and um. that might. be because I'm not really a huge Luka fan (is immediately dragged away and shot out back)

JK JK Luka's fine I love her character and design, I love that she is pink and there is. octopus. but unfortunately I tend to find her vocals a bit weak in most songs using her: she might just be hard to mix, because she tends to blend into instrumentals too well for me. BUT I do like her here, she sounds a bit brighter and doesn't get fully eaten by the music which is nice~

TANGENT ABOUT OTHER SONGS and also Luka DONE, BACK TO -ERROR. Speaking of mixing, I think -ERROR might be a really hard song to mix. Most of the covers I'm going to highlight are vocal synths, and I'm realizing that it's probably in part because a human being singing this song is already a challenge (intense high ranged and powerful chorus) but also, I think the mixing will really sneak up on you! The instrumental with the emotional drum work and unrelenting guitars is gorgeous but also it's REALLY hard to keep a voice above instrumentation like this without it either falling under or separating entirely. I wonder if maybe the extra digital edge of a vocal synth voice helps it stand out from the more naturalistic rock backing track...

Anyway, now it's time to talk about this songs rise to fame! While I can't verify it's pre-2012 popularity, it seems what really bumped this song into particularly the English-speaking vocal synth canon was a cover featuring the UTAU voicebank Namine Ritsu by kyaami:

At over 2 million views, getting popular enough to be released on KARENT an entire decade ago, this cover is. well. pretty big! Kyaami also released a remake in 2018 using a different Namine Ritsu voicebank that's nearing 3 million views now:

I think both covers are really, REALLY good obviously, there's this sharpness in the 2012 one using Ritsu's old "kire" style bank (a style of voicebank where lower pitches are recorded softer and higher pitches get gradually more powerful, also called "powerscale") that I really enjoy, and the 2018 has a wonderful clarity in the mix. Both covers have a great emotionality in their vocals, which may be why they nearly have a combined 5 million views!

One of my absolute favourite covers is this piano arrange with MEIKO V3 by Earthy X6:

I'm a big Meiko defender, she's hard to use for those expecting a Miku or a Rin, but I adore her character and design and I think she can sound really beautiful and expressive such as here! Using her V3 expressions for softer parts and powerful sections sounds so so good, I really love it.

And here's a KAITO V1 cover by someone named ミズキ (Mizuki) on NND:

I'm a Meiko defender in general, but I'm especially a Meiko and Kaito V1 defender: honestly I prefer Kaito's V1 sound over his V3 most of the time! A really nice richness and depth that's missing in his later iterations, and for this song specifically the robotic aspects of the engine work in its favour! Very nice cover.

And on a slight detour: for years my absolute favourite cover of this song was, interestingly, this rock arrange English cover as the demo for the UTAU KYE's ARPAsing voicebank by his creator, WinterdrivE:

Now I'm not so sure which I would consider my absolute favourite, I'm almost 26 and I like too many things to choose one!! But it still really is an absolute highlight for me: this is the first time I'd ever heard an arpasing voicebank, and as someone who's still a bit too scared to figure out how English voicebanks work in UTAU I barely understand what's going on BUT man what a first example to hear! At the time this was honestly the best English vocal synth I'd ever heard in general, he sounds fantastic.

The mix is also great, the well placed breaths emphasized and his rich and slight nasal vocals sit nicely within the instrumental without getting drowned out. I also think his vocals just sound really nice singing these lyrics despite some lisping here and there, I dunno, I think it makes him sound like a dude making maybe slightly imperfect but very passionate garage rock, which I feel fits the character well! And in general I tend to like expression and character over perfection in music, as you might be noticing in these posts so far LOL

Speaking of lyrics, the English lyrics by AkiGlancy are really REALLY good. Translating any song from one language to be sung into another is genuinely one of the most difficult things in the world in my opinion, because you really have to mess with cadence and melody if you want it to sound natural: languages just got different things going on! I'm pretty picking with English translyrics, I tend to prefer that people try to get the emphasis sounding natural and the general meaning the same rather than trying to get too literal - localization is an art! But these lyrics are interesting in that they seem quite close to a lot of literal translations floating around, yet they still sound so natural with the emphasis on all the right parts. Really awesome translyrics.

And one more before I go, a human cover! The cover by the utaite Alfakyun!

I was talking about this earlier but I really think this song is like, deceptively hard to sing AND hard to mix. It gets high in those choruses! It's really hard to not get lost in the instrumentation! But Alfakyun does absolutely unreal here: sometimes with this song people either have to forego expressiveness to get more power, or forego power to allow more expressiveness, but she manages to kep both in the chorus. I'm an expressiveness girlie so I tend to value that more but I can appreciate some power here and there and this song really shines with both. A very very good cover.

That's all the covers of -ERROR I wanted to talk about today, thank you and you may go back to your beloved family members again. (bluescreens and all my internal mechanisms overheat and explode)

[pqrachel]

Games I Played in November

I never really plan these out but I always like talking about what I've been playing.

So I already talked about Trackmania, but I really hope to stay top 100 in my state for this season. I've got 18/25 author medals and that's better than I've ever done, but there's still time to maybe get a couple more. (I'm super close on some of them.)

Marvel Snap's been fun too, I've been playing a bit more casually. Like not buying anything with actual money, skipping dailys if I don't feel like playing, stuff like that. And I don't care what anyone says Martyr's so fucking fun and cool. I haven't hit infinite yet, been stuck in high rank 80s playing all sort of different decks. But that's okay it's been fun and that's the whole point of gaming.

As far as new games I finally bought Arkham Knight. That was amazing to play at my own pace instead of having to wait to play it whenever I visited my uncle's house as a teen. I got through basically everything, I'm tracking down the last few Riddler trophies on my own. I probably won't bother with NG+ but there are a lot of post-game stories I want to play which I never got to. I've also been watching a bunch of Arkham series lore vids on YT and that's really put me back in the headspace of playing the Arkham series like I did originally.

Handshakes was a fun free indie speed-game. I got top 100 on the steam leaderboards and that was fun.

Chillquarium is great, the demo was fun and cute but somewhere along the way it turned into a card pack opening simulator but in the best possible way. Like if you've ever wanted to open 1000 pokémon booster packs for no reason other to hunt for a super rare or something that's a super fun game to emulate that feeling.

And also Colostle. Obviously I've been posting my journals for that game on here for two years now so y'all know I love it! But it's been great playing it more frequently again I've got basically two chapters finished in one month, which I haven't done in a while. Really trying to get to the Tundrooms and Kyodaina content. The Colostle Patreon's already getting even more content in the Dungeons and maybe more (I've been off it since I'm not utilizing the new content immediately and I'm gonna buy the books when they come out anyways) and I feel like for as much I like the game I haven't experienced all it has too offer which is weird for me as someone who normally goes for completion, or achievement hunting, etc.

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Daryl Takes Games on YouTube made a video about tackling his backlog and at one point he talks about the importance of writing about games as you finish them to preserve them as a memory for later and that hits home with what I'm doing here with these monthly summaries. That video was beautiful to me as a longtime gamer. I'm gonna take this time to also add games I plan to play in the future. Even if I don't get to them next month, I want to think about games and see how that changes between months.

So yeah, very recent addition to the backlog is Signalis. I've been seeing amazing fanart and it even featured in that video, so once that next goes on sale I'm gonna pick it up.

Rivals 2 looks amazing and I've backed the kickstarter so I hope I get to experience that in some manner once it comes out. Fighting games have dwindled from genres I play since I don't have as active of gamer friends and grinding with someone is the best part, but maybe with rollback and the good online it promises I'll still enjoy that on my own or maybe even find some new gamers to play with.

That video mentioned Sayonara Wild Hearts with a comment that seemed like the ultimate praise: "Every part was my favorite part." Since it's only an hour long I'm just gonna watch a playthrough, but that's totally valid. My fondest memories with Undertale was watching Dodger Leigh (PressHeartToContinue)'s full playthrough of that game, way more than my own playthrough. Even though the grind of beating Sans myself was worth it. Perhaps after watching Sayonara Wild Hearts I'll pick it up but I'm not gonna pressure myself to do that if I don't want to.

Some other games I tried recently but refunded include Dave the Diver (it looks good and was fun but ultimately didn't seem worth it to play the whole thing), Oxenfree 2 (I played the first and love it but this one just didn't hook me and there's no shame in giving a game), Shadows of Doubt (a couple months ago I tried it since it looked like I'd enjoy it after watch GMTK's vid on detective games but ultimately it was too involved and seemed like a chore to play, when I was looking for something else, the figure it out, red string on a cork board yes, the rest of the gameplay no not really), and Word Factori (I think I was just looking for a fun optimization game like Opus Magnum but Word Factori just fell short). In future ones of these I'll make sure to mentioned games I tried as well as played because those can be important when looking back on as well.

And finally, holy crap this post is long, good thing this blog is for me and I'm not trying to impress anyone with my thoughts on these games.

[my-reality-my-rules]

OKAY I was about to give up shifting right? I had been going at it for what, 3 years now, and no dice for a LONNG time. like last night was my deadass deadass last night to shift and if I didn't, I would've fucked off and actually tried dealing with life here then something happened ya know. i was scrolling through yt ya know, as usual, and this super small creator releases a sub. I was probably gonna ignore it but it had a simple title, nothing better to do than shift today, and I was like valid and clicked on it. listened to it, felt a few symptoms but was like, yeah nothing new and continued on demotivated as hell right? well guess what, I didn't listen to any other subliminal that night, didn't affirm, didn't do a method, didn't do shit. just went to sleep a few minutes later and I FUCKIJG SHIFTED AND IM LIKE GIRL????? GIRL?????????

sub is here if you want it but like DAMNN > https://youtu.be/U8Q0-Ino6MU

I was in my dr for 3 fucking weeks bro, dont give up my fellow depressos because if I can do it, so can yall 🤩‼️

[thanks for this ask!]

THIS THIS THIS!!!!!

i haven't tried shifting with the sub you recommended as of yet, but I've had it downloaded already. i might as well put it to good use one of these days lmao.

this is a (super) belated reply, but I'm incredibly glad that you shifted! i suppose miracles happen when we least expect them. from another angle, it slightly(?) looks like some reverse psychology is also at play.

and don't give up indeed—it's hard, yes, but always remember that you didn't make it all this way for nothing. it has to count for something. even if it takes three years or longer for some, never forget that you started your shifting journey for a reason. even if you're stuck in a rut now, it doesn't necessarily mean it's going to be that way forever. it only takes time.

[update: the link's unavailable, so go here instead]

[beeindaclouds]

Being their sibling and having a crush on one of their friends pt. 1 *ೃ✧˚.

Includes: Dream, Georgenotfound, Sapnap, Badboyhalo, Skeppy, Punz × Reader

A.N: I was listening to an old Victorious song, BFB, and that's how I came up with this idea. Also, you are close in age to the person you like in the scenario

❝ Dream ❞

You two are pretty close

You visit him with Drista once in a while

You and Drista also have fun scaring him with forks :D

But in one of your visits little old angel Drista made a little mistake

While you three were just talking, Drista "accidentally" told Dream about your small crush on his friend

"You know Y/N said they like George-"

"Wait- WHAT?"

He wheezed for half an hour

Not in a mocking way but more in a "I can't belive that" way

He later talked to you privately about it, nothing bad, just making sure that it was true and if you wanted some help

If you had to date anyone at least it's someone he knows and trusts

And he WILL make a Heatwaves jokes, you cannot tell me otherwise-

"Does he melt you~?"

"Did you just quote the Heatwaves fanfic?"

"How do you even know about that?!"

"Are you kidding me-"

❝ Georgenotfound ❞

He thought you never watched any of his, or his friends, streams

So he was very surprised to walk into your room and hear "I'm gonna switch into a character that isn't fucking dRY-"

"Is that Quackity?"

"What happened to hello? How are you? My name is-"

He sat down to watch the stream with you, it was a cute sibling bond moment

And then

"He's funny, I like him"

"yOu LiKe QuAcKiTy?!"

You two had a talk, but he supports you no matter what

Wouldn't help tho. He barely knows how to flirt, how is he suppose to help you?

But he'll mention you here and there if you wanted to

❝ Sapnap ❞

You were visiting Sapnap in Florida

And the same day you arrived Punz asked your brother if he wanted to hang out and play basket ball a little

He had to take you with them because he couldn't leave you at home with Dream, you literally just arrived

And you weren't really that tired so you happily joined

You and Punz started having a little competition to see who could get more dunks. You two seemed to be in your own little world

Meanwhile Sapnap started noticing the stares, the light touches, the giggles

He came to the conclusion very quickly and for a while he felt a little overprotective

So he called you over with the excuse that "mom called"

"Ok, mom didn't actually call. But be honest with me, do you like Punz?!"

"Ah- well, would you be mad...?"

"No, I trust Punz...it's just surprising I guess"

He supports you, but will still keep an eye out in case something happens. It's not Punz he's scared of, is the overly obsessive "fans" that put him on edge

But if you're happy, he is

Would probably also have a LONG talk with Punz

❝ Badboyhalo ❞

You, Bad and Tommy decided to film a "I spoke to Badboyhalo's sibling" for Tommy's yt channel

Bad left half way through, but warned Tommy to "behave himself"

Sapnap got online at that moment and joined in

You two seemed to get along very well

You also talked after the filming had ended and Tommy went offline to start editing

Bad happened to walk in on you two talking without you noticing

There were flirty remarks coming from the both of you and Bad surely did not miss the dust of pink covering your cheeks and nose

As you closed the call he startled you by singing the "kissing on a tree" song

Also hit you with a "out of all the muffinheads, I'm happy it's Sapnap"

He 100% supports you, obviously

"You know he's technically your nephew, right?"

"I am not part of the Dream SMP BAD-"

❝ Skeppy ❞

You accidentally barged into Skeppy's room as he was recording a video with Bad

So the recording somehow turned into a "Who knows me better, Bad or my sibling"

Instead of talking about Skeppy, you and Bad ended up chatting and actually getting to know each other

Skeppy was literally third wheeling

After you all went offline he asked you what you thought about his friend

You told him that you liked him, not thinking to much into it

And he started teasing you

But the teasing didn't go as planned

"So you like Bad huh? Hehehe"

"Not like that- at least I think so"

"wait yOU ACTUALLY LIKE HIM!??"

If you do end up dating he'd 100% make a "My sibling steals my fiancé" video

❝ Punz ❞

It was normal to see you talk to his friends whenever you were at his house

What was not normal was you texting Dream privately without his knowledge

He, as the brother he is, started questioning you

He almost stole your phone to read your chats, until you reminded him of something called "privacy"

He does question what you like about him tho

"Have you even seen his face?"

"Haha, actually, ehm, we facetimed a few times"

You left him speechless after that

He does support you, don't worry

Part Two

[rnegitsune]

Ok so I thought I'd put together some horror stories from my time as a babymetal fan bc of how drastic the shift in the fandom has been the past year or so. For context I got into babymetal in like june of 2014 (all 3 girls were still underage at the time, I was 22; when I first got into them I thought I would be considered an older fan lmao the naivete, the innocence of new fan me wow I know now I'm not at all in the older half of the fandom esp considering I was born the same decade as su and moa), and I made this blog in I think may of 2015.

I've had people say I should compile men being gross into a post and I just couldn't do that out of fear for my own mental health but this will be pretty close. These are all my experiences with this fandom over the years; I'm definitely missing some but what I do remember should do well to cover most of how this fandom used to be vs now. It's gonna be a lot and tw for men being gross about minors.

Back in my first year or so of this blog I on multiple occasions got dms from men asking to be friends. At the time my bio only said my name and my pronouns. I've always been cautious of dms so I'd ask their age and every single one was considerably older than me. I wouldn't usually answer after that bc no thanks but they would generally try to continue convos til I blocked. The only one I still had was this one

After I put my age in my bio, which was 23 at the time, I never got a dm like that again; take from that what you will. But if you're young please be wary of this hell fandom even now. And if you're an older fan and esp an older male fan reading this, don't dm people trying to be friends. I was over 18 and it still creeped me out to no end.

One of my real first men in this fandom are disgusting moments was a blog back in like 2015 or 2016 who I had some contact with due to common interests; he was a huge yui stan and made bm content. He was like 28 or 29 at the time and I eventually noticed he would tag idols, mostly kpop girls, by their body parts (legs, butt, etc) which is disgusting enough as it is but then I saw him do the same for literal minors, like tzuyu from twice. I messaged him asking what the hell he was doing objectifying women but also actual children and he blocked me lmao. He later unblocked me to let me know that's just how he tagged things and it was my fault he had anxiety and then he blocked me again.

Back before the tumblr purge this fandom was repulsive to a degree I cannot even begin to describe. Someone would reblog something from me, I'd go to their blog and it would be underage jpop idols and japanese p*rn all the way down. I even stumbled upon a man editing underage su into p*rn gifs. Obviously no proof of that but I did go find my initial reaction to it

The number of times I'd get a follow from someone then go to their blog and it would be as mentioned above or their bio would be the most misogynistic trash I'd ever read was staggering. I genuinely considered giving up and deleting this blog so many times bc i felt oberwhelmed and outnumbered by these gross old dudes; and so the fact that this fandom has evolved into a bunch of chaotic wlw?? Amazing, I could cry.

Fun phenomenon of women running bm blogs was men sending messages asking if we liked babymetal. No joke. I think this happened to me two or three times but I spoke w other female creators at the time and it had happened to them as well. My entire blog is babymetal, and yet???

He said the weird guy idk bc he sent some random ass messages vaguely insulting me and when I responded coldly, he acted confused so I said you're some guy idk, hence the above message starting as such. Also that pic and the one up above that has my current pfp bc I just took those screenshots. Like I said I typically blocked weird dms but I guess these passed me by so I still had the messages.

Most people know the sub reddit is the worst and don't need me to tell you but it's a hellscape and I highly recommend avoiding it. A short list of things I've had to see as a result of going there: men discussing at length kano and momoko's appearances and how they look in costume vs in normal clothes. Men discussing at length the hope that the girls would marry men who aren't Japanese, a thread that was from when all 3 girls were underage. They aren't gonna marry you dude they're really not.

The insulting of billie Eilish, a 17 year old at the time, was horrible too. Su and moa got to meet her, something they were extremely excited for, and they posted a pic; the comments were disgusting as you can imagine. The yui rumors were terrible too, fatshaming, slutshaming etc all based on nothing. Some man saying the rumors about yui leaving bc, no joke this was a real rumor, she "got too fat" couldn't be true bc "look at saya." Saya being a barely 18 yo back up dancer who covered the third spot after yui left but before the avengers. Not to mention the upskirt shots from when they were minors, the constant editing of their faces onto explicit photoshoots etc. I remember being a new fan looking for a su pic on google and being horrified at the fact that one of the top suggested results after her name was “bikini;” she was 16 at the time. Also, the uptick in massively creepy posts and messages sent to bm blogs as each girl, but esp moa and yui, approached 18 was disgusting.

Now for some personal nonsense. A big reason why I haven't touched my youtube channel in months is bc I got tired of dealing with the men of this fandom. I poke fun at metal and get told I deserve to die. I say ped*philes and creepy men are gross and get a swarm of middle aged men cursing at me. Had a guy cry about how men are shamed for liking bm and then he turned around and said some gross shit about wlw. Had a guy call me racist for liking a band he also likes (and despite him having no way of knowing my own race) and tell me the babymetal fandom doesn't need my kpop feminist bullshit, which is honestly a great description and I thought about putting it in my yt about lmao. Had a middle aged man unironically say he'd never seen a man be creepy towards bm but fans su and moa's ages calling them hot was creepy. The disillusionment....the level of unawareness is astounding. If you want to see screenshots of some of these comments they are fairly recent in my don't mind me tag; I don't want to see them anymore tho bc they're infuriating so I'm not going to look at them to post here.

Essentially I haven't looked at my channel since may bc men are exhausting and rude and refuse to examine the fandoms they're a part of no matter what. They're told by a woman of the fandom that she's had bad experiences personally and they all start crying about how it's either a lie bc they haven't seen it or unimportant. I did stop reading comments in may and I will never read another one again probably as a result of this shit. Trash men being trash are not worth my time and I refuse to give them anymore of it. I do plan on making more videos tho and let my ~feminist kpop bullshit~ live in their minds rent free.

I will also continue to make fun of metal and the creepy men in this fandom bc it's important and I'm a spiteful asshole who likes disrupting these dudes perfect bubble of a fandom. It genuinely brings me so much joy seeing all the new fans recently (which sidenote if you got into them recently I am kinda curious as to how you found them; I've gotten tons of new followers and considering how inactive they are rn I'm curious). People sending messages about how they finally feel like they belong or that they have a safe space....like I don't even know what to say and I never feel like my responses fully convey how genuinely wonderful that is and how thrilled I am that this is where we're at now and I have had at least some part in it. As this post shows, my experiences have been negative for the most part so the shift recently is such a relief I cannot even begin to explain my gratitude.

So to anyone who read all of this and hasn't disintegrated from the male bullshit, thank you. Keep being yourself and fighting for your place in this fandom, esp if you're a young woman; keep making fun of the creeps and keep making wlw memes!! Babymetal's music is in such a huge way meant for girls and to see more and more finding their way to this previously hellish beyond belief fandom is incredible.