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"Jason just needs to see things from his family's perspective and understand how much they love him (despite them never actually communicating or showing him through their actions)" is out. "The batfamily putting a single bit of effort into understanding Jason and reconciling with him on his own terms" is in.
#my dc posting#jason todd#dc#like genuinely i am sooo tired of the first#like yes yes jason is a stupid unstable idiot who misunderstands everything and somehow comes to the most stupid#wrong conclusions ever and he just needs to see things from his family's perspective#and learn how much they loved and missed him when he was dead WHATEVERRR can you shut uppp#cus yknow how many times i've read fic of any of the batfam actually holding jason's opinion as valid or even doing silly lil small things#like 'not horribly invading his privacy' and 'actually respecting his very reasonable boundaries'? VERY rarely.#when will i get to read a fic where jason's extremely valid&understandable complaints and critiques are actually taken to heart and#anyone puts any effort into actually improving themselves and finding a middle ground#but no sorry i forgot. jason's just a fucking idiot who misreads and misunderstands everything his family does bc he's not a goddamn mind#reader who can somehow understand every miniscule twitch of batman's cape#if my dad prioritized my abuser over me i'd be very valid in concluding he might not care for me that much actually </3#i stop being sympathetic to bruce's issues the moment they're used as an excuse for him to mistreat his kids sorryyy#sorry i'm in a pissy mood rn. this isn't directed at any one specific person i'm just annoyed how common this is. it's a whole pattern.#its own genre of jason fic with no warning for it
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Recent life photos
#photo diary#image 1 & 2 - of course these are just cloud images. But a cool pattern of them :0#3 - another word count of game writing... aargh... Still debating about like allowing other people into the game discord or how early#in the process one should do that.. but social things are just so difficult for me lol.. I shall always suffer for my lack of networking an#self promotion skills. 4 - I was forced to get a new phone a few months ago because my beloved phone of like 10 years finally#broke too much. and I always like to go through the emojis and make a little memo with all my favorites. yaay little pictures of things.#5 - I FINALLY finished all the dictionary entries for the game (which has a little dictionary feature in the player's journal to note#any specific terms and keep track of them (like what 'jhevona' or 'avirre'thel' means. or to remember that the world is called Nanyevimi#and the country they're in is Asen. etc. etc.)). There are 75 defined terms so far and it took me a while to do so out of curiosity I put#all the text into a wordcounter thing and lol.. 8000 words isnt that much I guess but the 30 minute reading time is funny to me. 30 minutes#for my little tiny dictionary panel in my quaint little casual visual novel which is not even lore heavy at all. hee hee (though that's mor#like a minute here and there since obv people are not unlocking every term all at once. you complete the dictionary as you talk to people#and hear them mention new concepts over time.).. ANYWAY..#6 - a very soft and beautiful stuffed animal that I did not buy but wanted to at least document their charm.#7 - stimky boye waiting in front of his favorite straw meowring screaming for someone to play with him (he likes to chase the#straw around). 8 - matcha bubble tea my beloved. 9 & 10 & 11 - some cool flowers I saw. also featuring one of my favorites (columbines!)#Anyhow.. as mentioned in the other photo diary post.. I have just been packing and writing mostly.. The evil summer is coming of course#which me and my health issues always dread. Good news though is I finally got my passport in the mail! >:3 huzzah. Now I just need to find#some fellow aromantic asexual living outside the US willing to take one for the team and fake a marriage with me so I can get the#hell out of the country UwU (<joking) (...mostly... as in - definitely NOT my main goal. but if a viable opportunity presented itself I#would of course give it consideration lol). I know that's already highly regulated but I wonder if it's something that will become even mor#locked down as people hunt for any opportunity to flee. People are out here searching for any loophole. Frantically researching their#entire family tree seeing if there's any chance for a citizenship by descent in whatever place will take them. etc. etc. lol#So I wonder if such marriages are a thing that will come up more often. hmm.. ANYWAY..#I have almost all of my stuff packed even though I don't move until another 1-2 months. But that's the point is to have it all sorted early#in the last remaining scraps of ''cooler'' weather so that then I can just relax up until then. I'm going to try doing another scrapbook#/sketchbook this summer as a Mood Boosting effort. Just to find little things to help with the situational political existential dread and#climate woes. So on days it's too hot to function I can just glue little things to pages and doodle lol.. hopefully.. slowly getting things#off my to do list.. I reaaaaaally want to get back to playing games as it's so fun and realxing to me but..rghgh.. 500 other things..
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Me: rolls my eyes and judges fic writers who talk about how they can't control the characters, the characters control them, and then laugh it off like it's a good and valid way to write
Also me while writing my own fic: Oh shit... did you really just think that, [character]? Daaammmn..... I've never considered that for you before, but it makes so much sense. I love it!
#It's different when I do it okay! :P#The characters aren't doing whatever the hell they want in my fic first of all#These realizations happen as I'm drafting and fleshing out the reasons behind their actions that I have already planned#And it leads to some deep and profound moments that sheds light on characterizations that canon took for granted#You know what happens when you let the characters run rampant and you never analyze what you're writing?#You write yet another fic that demonizes characters outside the ship who shouldn't be demonized#Or you write another fic that gets the ship dynamics horribly wrong#and not in a 'we interpret this ship differently' way but in a way that demonstrates some deep internalized biases#These fics come off flat if not outright harmful and whatever good elements you unintentionally write into them does not negate that.#And yes I don't care how skilled you are at writing -- all good elements become an accident if you're not putting thought into#crafting the story#You can't say biases and prejudices that get into the fic are unintentional while still getting credit for the good elements#Fic is for fun yes and yes that means you don't have to edit it and treat it like a novel you want to query before you publish#But if you are putting any effort into your fics at all#-- AND I KNOW MOST OF THESE 'THE CHARACTERS CONTROL ME TEE HEE' AUTHORS ARE PUTTING IN A SHIT TON OF TIME AND EFFORT --#then AT SOME POINT you *have* to extend that effort into planning or editing your fic so you can reel in these biases#You're just being a lazy fuckwit if you don't#Sorry apparently I woke up in a MOOD this morning when I actually went to bed quite pleased#exactly because I discovered something new in Daphne's POV while drafting last night#Whatever. My words are harsh but I stand by it 🤷♀️#I will never accept 'the characters do whatever they want' as a valid writing method outside of creative exercises#For stuff you're expecting other people to read that shit better be edited out and cleaned up#so you're telling the story you actually INTEND to tell#And if you don't have an intention even after completing the first draft#then why the fuck are you bothering with this story at all???#DO BETTER!! PRACTICE AND LEARN TO DO BETTER!!
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good morning!! :3
#hehe so now we're at 76-ish; 81%; and 0%#and i started the archon interlude :3#think i'm gonna finish the quest before i resume exploration tbh#also i played some of wuwa last night#like i think i'm still so behind but I'm gonna start aiming to play it at least once a week#i'll only put like effort into exploration when i need to (or if i wanna sometimes the mood hits you know?)#anyways i need to have those asks answered bc i did not last night#then... my usual desire to write something is here i just dunno who for and what prompt lol#self ship#anyways~ i hope today/tonight is good to you!!! <333#morning rambles
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did in intentionally format the jeno drabble to look like a smut fic only for people to get slapped in the face with bullshit absurdity? absolutely!!!
#i was this close to putting it in the smut tags too HUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA#i just think it's very funny.#mild tangent. but i really absolutely cannot take fanfic smut seriously at all 😭😭😭#no shame to any smut writers im sure a good number of you actually put effort in your fics but GOSH every time some smut#stumbles onto my dash by chance in the rare occasions i scroll here#the descriptions always make me laugh!! 😭😭😭😭#it's a me problem.#but i don't really actively look for smut#i don't actively look for fics in general because i'm a picky reader and a narcissist and everything i wanna read is still trapped in my#very own wip hell HUAHAHAHAHAHAHAH#this is enough yapping#i need to work ewewewew#im just in a very discursive mood rn yapping hours are ON
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i really like my new style, but a part of my brain is telling me it doesn't really count as a style because I'm not actually drawing correctly. I don't draw out the pose or body along with the head, I just draw shoulders under the head and figure it out from there. I don't even bother making the hands look good.
Is it really art if I'm literally just shortcutting through everything?
#Kitty mumbles#I'm really flip flopping with my mood and interests lately#Might be the new meds tbh#But idk if what I'm drawing now counts as real art if I'm not putting as much effort into it#Some of my older pieces took actual days of work and frustration#This is quick and fun and I like drawing again#I like my old style too#But I would spend so much time putting it on the page that I'd lose focus halfway through and not wanna finish it#And it looked stiff and lifeless when finalized#This looks way more lively but it's clear that it's not my best work#It's really fun though#I don't know if it's real or just a doodle though
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Arghhh my mood is getting lowww againnn
#increasingly feeling on the verge of crying these past few days#I just get saddd thinking/noticing thingsss#also I say 'low mood' but in retrospect I think I might have come dangerously close to a sort of depression lmao#I'm just putting all my efforts in not getting *that* bad#I will keep believing it's hormones related (will maybe figure it out at this doctor appointment)#my post
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Couldn't possibly fathom being an extrovert. You're telling me there are people who can go through such an extensive day of socialising and feel better from it? It's so, so fucking draining. Wish I could just tell everyone to leave me alone, instead of acting all chipper and buddy-buddy with them like I at all care, let alone enjoy being there.
#dav text#cluster b#'David how do you always have so much energy and are in such a good mood' Simple!#I'm Never in a good mood and my energy is permanently in debt. Hope that helps!#ugh. I suppose it's likely not draining for those who don't need to put conscious effort into it
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February Fitness Frenzy 17/02
Lower Body
Early workout because I'm working early and I know getting in my workout before work is always better than waiting until I get home and then telling myself "I'll do it in a bit" before proceeding to zombie in front of my laptop until midnight.
Started my day with rice and then watched some anatomy videos about muscles on YT (highly recommend this channel! But big old warning it does use real cadavers and organs sooo not for the squeamish among you) before getting started. It's been a hot minute since I studied and wanted to brush up on terminology after seeing a friend asking about metabolism and muscle etc. Watching all that and reminding myself how exercise changes your muscles made me so motivated to give today my all!
I threw in an ab workout as well today because fuck me I need to work on my abs. This one's kinda my go-to for getting back into ab exercises and I since I was feeling motivated I added weights and tried to keep the pace up throughout, making the first plank one with hip dips.
Leg workout was good. Leg circles are a killer honestly 😵 Probably could've added a resistance band for extra butt burn and maybe some light ankle weights. The music with the video was an interesting choice though... why the sad breakup songs 😭 At least I can listen to them now without falling down a huge depression hole.
3 minute warm up + 10 min abs + 15 min legs + 5 min splits stretches.
Mood before: A little reluctant before breakfast but pretty motivated after watching anatomy videos Mood after: Happy with my efforts, ready for the day ahead
Today's warm-up song:
#flight of fitness#fitblr#i really do just need to exercise first thing i ALWAYS feel more motivated and in a better mood for the rest of the day#when i leave it until later i feel like i'm just getting it over with so i put in less effort#also i have to battle with that nagging 'there's something else i should be doing' feeling and can't relax
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Tw. Insecure/bratty/tsundere reader, dark content, noncon, dubcon, obsession, sloppy blowjob, attempted breakup, manipulation, size kink, overstimulation, multiple creampies, cunnilingus, baby trapping, coercion, aftercare
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Thinking about dating an angelic guy.
You always wonder why, out of all the pretty and influential girls chasing after him, he chose you. It doesn't help how of a unit he is. Your typical perfect guy, popular, rich, and body that's comparable to a Greek God... and his voice— how you love his gentle and warm voice, there's just something about it that hypnotize you.
He always compliments you, shower you with affection, and be an absolute sweetheart. It gets you pissy. You don't know why you're always in a foul mood around him, he's not even doing anything that could trigger you. He takes a breath and you're already fuming. Grumbling profanities that he would laugh at wholeheartedly, like you didn't curse his entire being.
You hate how perfect he is. Hate how much you adore him. Hate how much you love him, and inside your mind you always question if he genuinely loves you. Maybe he's just playing with you? Waiting for the day he'd humiliate you, telling how you're too idiotic to even believe someone like him could ever love you.
That's probably why you're always cautious around him, you don't believe him enough to love an average girl like you.
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He can't believe he's dating the cutest in the world. Everytime you scowl, show that adorable pout, he just wants to squish your cheeks together and kiss you plenty. Like a little kitty hissing when you sneer curses at him.
It's adorable really.
You'd say you didn't want to go to the movies he chose. Yet, you arrived earlier than expected, wearing a hint of makeup in that cute dress of yours. Makes him want to crush you. You put in the effort, took the time, even gave him the watch he'd been talking about—his favorite.
He really loves you. Really really loves you but why are you acting like he doesn't? He's confused. Hasn't he done enough to show you, tell how much he adores you? It makes him sad. Don't you know how much he's holding back? There's only so much he could take, you know. He could just take you everytime you run that cute foul mouth of you, shove his cock to make you shut up. But he's so patient with you because he loves you.
So don't push him too much, ok? Or else you might not like it when he finally show you his desire.
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"You're late," you grumble, sending him a glare. Your arms are crossed, and your foot taps impatiently on the ground.
He chuckles, a soft, knowing smile playing on his lips. "I arrived just on time, sweetie," he says, stepping closer. "You're just too excited for our date, no?" His voice is teasing, but his eyes are warm, sparkling with affection.
You huff in response, but you can feel the corners of your mouth betraying you, tugging into a smile. He notices and takes your hand, his thumb brushing lightly over your knuckles.
"You're just so cute, you know? I really wanna crush— ow!" He hiss slightly as you swat his arm. He pouts a little, "You're strong, you're gonna leave a bruise."
You roll your eyes— as if that's gonna happen. Huffing you tug on his hand, "Let's go. I'm starving."
He smiles, looking at your back, "Ok, sweetie~."
Ah, you really are so cute.
He can't wait to fuck you.
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"Why're you not eating, sweetie? Is the food not to your liking?"
Your appetite was gone the moment that waitress flirted with him, leaving you empty and bitter. This always happen. You're sick of it, sick of being jealous and feeling shitty for not looking like his girlfriend. Are you really worthless by his side? Do people not see you as his companion?
"Sweetie?"
You didn't want to lash out on him so you remained silent. Too bitter to talk. Even the food turned bitter, leaving you more upset.
He's such an idiot. But you're more of an idiot for being triggered by that stupid waitress, too much of a wuss to tell her he's taken, that he's yours. You're the idiot.
"I don't wanna eat anymore," you bitterly muttered, your face covered by the shadows of your hair, hiding that frown you wore he always seems to love on you.
He gets a sick twisted feeling in his guts, watching how jealous you get whenever some worthless wench tries to get his attention. It satisfies his urge, his sick thoughts hidden by his angelic face. You really love him, don't you? His lips curving into a sweet smile, eyes twinkling with desires. If only you know how much he gets off with you being jealous, you'd never doubted your pretty little self.
So… why are you saying such stupid things?
“Let’s break up.”
“Hm?”
“I said…” You take a breath, steadying your voice. “Let’s break up.”
For a moment, his smile wavers. Just a fraction. His right eye twitches ever so slightly, a crack in the carefully crafted mask he wears. But then, like a master of illusions, he recovers, his sweet facade sliding back into place, though something darker lingers beneath the surface.
“Now, now,” he says, his voice dripping with a saccharine softness that makes the hairs on your neck stand on end. “What’s the matter?” His tone is gentle, almost soothing, but there’s a sharp edge to it—a venomous undercurrent that cuts through the air.
You don’t answer immediately, your chest tightening under his unblinking stare. It’s as if he’s waiting, watching every little twitch of your expression, trying to peel you apart without lifting a finger.
“I just think…” you start, your voice faltering as his head tilts slightly, his smile remaining unnervingly intact. “I-I think we’re not… good for each other anymore.”
His smile widens, but it doesn’t reach his eyes. Instead, his gaze sharpens, a predator sizing up its prey. He takes a step closer, the air between you growing heavy. “Not good for each other?” he repeats, feigning confusion. “Sweetheart, where’s this nonsense coming from? Didn’t we promise forever?”
The sweetness in his tone sends a chill down your spine, but you hold your ground. “Forever shouldn’t feel like this,” you say, trying to steady your trembling hands.
It shouldn't make you feel bad about yourself, shouldn't make you anxious, shouldn't make feel... pressured.
For a moment, he says nothing, his eyes boring into yours. Then, his chuckle breaks the tension, soft and low. “Ah, I see,” he murmurs, leaning in just enough for you to feel the weight of his presence. “You’re upset. That’s all. We’ll talk this through, won’t we?”
But his words aren’t a question—they’re a command, wrapped in the guise of concern. And as his smile lingers, you realize leaving might not be as simple as you hoped.
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Why is this happening?
You thought he would accept and move on.
"Mmm, that's it sweetie. Take it deeper." He coaxes, his grip on your hair tightening. He starts to push forward, forcing more of his thick length past your stretched lips.
So why?
Your eyes squeeze shut tighter as he pushes in deeper, your throat convulsing around his invading cock. He throws his head back with a guttural moan.
"That's a good girl. Mhm, your throat feels so good wrapped around my dick." He grunts, starting to set a steady pace. Fucking into your mouth, using your face like a cock sleeve.
It was gross. He never did that to you.
Lewd, wet sounds fill the office as he picks up speed, his heavy balls slapping against your chin with each rough thrust. Drool escapes the seal of your lips, dripping down your chin and onto your messed up clothes.
He looks down, taking in the debauched sight of you on your knees, choking on his cock. His dick is spit-shined and glistening, streaked with their drool. Shit. The sight makes him thrust harder, faster, chasing his pleasure.
"Look at me," He demands breathlessly, wanting to see the tears and desperation in their eyes as he uses their mouth ruthlessly. He's close, so fucking close already from the intense, vice-like grip of your inexperienced throat. He grunts and curses, slamming forward one last time before pulling out abruptly.
Thick ropes of cum paint your face and hair, marking you as his. Some of it even lands in your eyes, making them sting and water.
"You're so pretty... You look so pretty covered in my cum," he whispers lovingly, smearing the head of his cock across your messy face, pushing the hot seed into their skin like makeup. "The prettiest girl in the world."
You were supposed to break up with him...
How did it escalated to this?
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It's not like he's losing a lot... you aren't that special. So why is he acting this way? There are a lot of better options for him, prettier, smarter, and richer girls. Someone who can actually match him, who doesn't embarrass him, worthier to stand beside him.
Why is he fucking you like his life depends on it?
Your eyes already hazy and unfocused, breathing hard as you couldn't count how many times you've already come.
One of his hands snakes up your trembling body, finding a soft breast. He squeezes the supple mound roughly, fingers sinking into the pliant flesh as he kneads and gropes. He finds a pert nipple and pinches it cruelly between his thumb and forefinger, rolling and tugging until it stands stiff and aching in the cool air of the room.
"Hm? Are you already tired? We're just starting," he coo, his hips slamming forward with renewed vigor. He leans down, his mouth finding your neck, sharp teeth sinking into the tender skin. He bites and sucks, determined to leave his mark on you, to claim you as his own. His. He can feel his orgasm building, his heavy balls tightening as he ruts into your abused cunt. The wet, obscene sounds of your coupling fill the room, punctuated by the creaking of the bed and your cries. He's close, so fucking close to filling your cunt with his seed.
"Gonna... hngh... fill this pussy..." He grunts between clenched teeth, slamming home one last time. His cock throbs and pulses as he starts to come, thick ropes of hot cum painting your inner walls. He grinds against them, making sure they take every last drop as he marks your womb with his essence.
Finally, with a last shuddering groan, he collapses on top of you, his softening cock still buried deep inside your tender, cream-filled pussy. He pants harshly against the shell of their ear, his hands still groping and fondling your sensitive body.
"Y-You're an idiot..." You sniffle, "Why me? There's a lot of—."
He cuts you off, "You know, I would never cheat on you, right?" He whispers tenderly, kissing your ears as if assuring. "No matter who comes to me, I would never pay attention to them. Never. You're the only one I want." His other hand comes up to grip your chin, forcing you to meet his intense, burning gaze.
It was the first time you ever heard his voice to be so... vulnerable.
"The only girl I want... So..." You can hear his voice shake, "Don't break up with me, ok?"
Your eyes glaze with tears, your heart tugging at his words. No, it wasn't supposed to end up like this. You made up your mind a few weeks ago, always nagging at the back of your mind. Ending your relationship would be the best for you two—.
He kisses you then, any doubts in your mind disappearing as his mouth claiming theirs in a brutal, dominating kiss. His tongue pushes past your lips, plundering the warm cavern as he grinds his hips forward, rubbing his throbbing erection against your thigh.
Ah, you don't care anymore.
"Don't think anymore, ok? Just let me do it for you."
He starts to rub the broad head of his cock along your slit, coating himself in your combined juices. "Tell you what, sweetheart. I'll be gentle like the usual... for now." He promises darkly, his voice rough with restrained lust. "I'll make this first part nice and slow, nice and easy for you."
"H-Huh?"
With that, he starts to push forward, the thick length of his cock slowly sinking into your tight, clutching heat. He has to fight the urge to slam forward, to bury himself to the hilt in one brutal thrust. But he resists, forcing himself to go slowly, to savor the exquisite feeling of your walls stretching around him.
"Ah, you're still so tight." He grits out through clenched teeth, his fingers flexing against your hips as he fights for control. "Such a perfect cunt."
"Too soon! I'm still... s-sensitive!" You cried out but he starts to move then, his hips rocking in a slow, sensual rhythm as he fucks into you with deep, deliberate strokes. Each thrust pushes him a little deeper, a little harder, until he's finally buried to the hilt inside you. He pauses for a moment, letting you feel the heavy weight of him, the way he's stretching you impossibly full.
"Hehe, sorry can't help it. Does that feel gentle enough for you, sweetie?" He asks, a small smirk playing at the corners of his mouth, yet his angelic face covers it. "Or do you need me to be even more... careful?" He punctuates the word with a sharp thrust of his hips, grinding his pelvis against your clit.
Your brain short circuit by the overstimulation, all you could think about was him, and his big cock, "A-Ah, you— ish... so good~!"
He snarls in feral pleasure as he feels your pussy clench and ripple around his pistoning cock. The way you are moaning and crying out, begging him not to stop... it's the headiest fucking thing he's ever heard. It makes him want to ruin you, to fuck you so hard and so deep that you'll never forget the feeling of his cock splitting you open.
You came in surprise, your eyes rolling in the back of your head, chest heaving, "C-Can't too much..!"
"You can do it," He growls, his voice a dark, distorted rumble. He can feel his own release building, his balls drawing up tight as he fucks into you with wild abandon, "A-ah~ clench this greedy cunt around my dick, dollface. Milk it for all it's worth.
You never saw this side of him before, a more vulgar side to him. Spouting dirty words that's the opposite of his facade. Maybe, you didn't know your boyfriend that well? He was always gentleman to you in bed, always going with your pace and being mindful about his words but now...
"N-No~ I really ah! Can't!" You shake your head frantically, having enough of the sensitivity.
"Yes, you can! You will, sweetie~!"
He buries his face in the crook of her neck, biting and sucking at the sensitive skin as he chases his pleasure. He wants to mark you, to leave his claim all over your body for everyone to see. He wants the whole world to know that you belong to him, that you're his to fuck and fill and love as he sees fit. The thought of another man putting his hand on you makes him mad, you're only his and he isn't afraid to take that way for you to be officially his.
"I'm gonna cum, sweetie." He grits out, his hips slamming forward with sharp, brutal thrusts. "I'm gonna pump this tight little pussy full of my seed, gonna breed this fucking cunt until it's dripping with my cum."
Breed?
He reaches down, his fingers finding your clit and rubbing mercilessly at the sensitive bundle of nerves. "I want to feel you cum on my cock, sweetheart. I want to feel you shake and quake as I fill you with my my child."
Wait...!
His other hand slides up, wrapping around your throat and squeezing lightly. It's enough to make you gasp for air, pulse jumping wildly beneath his touch. It's enough to make you even tighter, body instinctively clenching down around him as he fucks into you with short, vicious thrusts.
Too much!
"Now, sweetie~ cum. Now." He commands, his voice a dark and sinful. And with a final, brutal thrust, he buries himself balls deep inside her and starts to cum. His cock jerks and pulses as he paints your insides with thick ropes of his hot seed, filling you up just like he promised.
So full...
You gasp out, your skin flushed and damp with sweat. The room spins around you, his weight pressing you down into the mattress as you struggle to catch your breath. Body aches all over, especially between your legs. The feeling of his cum painting your insides is strange, unsettling.
Your vision having black spots, your consciousness fading as you hear him murmur promises to you.
"I'll take responsibility whether we have a child or not, we'll get married and have a cute child."
You feel a warm kiss on your forehead.
"I love you. I love you more than anyone else, I only love you."
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i know i just said that but also there's a reasonably sized part of me that wants to quit the liveblog and just finish reading nona without obligations to anyone
#but a bigger part of me really likes liveblogging and wants to put the effort in#I'm just so exhausted.#tiredposting#bad mood posting#I've been carrying around sadness for days and it's not getting out. damn it#i need a tag for my own rambles
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finally setting up my record player after so many years was one of the best things i could've done tbh. i really need to get into the habit of listening to albums again..... such a good feeling
#on the bright side i managed to put together a small collection of vinyls in the past.... 8 years?#so there are quite a few vinyls for me to choose from. but man it's so nice.#it's so cool to simply put on a record and have that run in the background while i'm doing things#without thinking about 'am i in the mood for this song?' bc skipping it would be too much effort anyway#GO LISTEN TO FULL ALBUMS AGAIN PEOPLEEEE#own#the sergeant speaks
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Hi i will treasure this forever!!!!!!!!! <3
first artfight attack! for @the-dye-stained-socialite of marigold my beloved who is totally normal 100% <3 i got carried away but i had fun 😌
veil-less version under the cut bc i rendered the face even though you can't see it, again
#I'm over the moon about this!!!!!!!!! aaaaa i don't have enough words to say how much i love this but!!!! believe me!!!!!!! if i could print#this out and hang it on my wall i would <3#just. OUGH what a beautiful piece!!!!!!#having thei silhouette trapped in the cage background is so incredibly damn clever!!!!!!#the mood and atmosphere are great!!!!!!!!! the horror!!!!!#also the tattering looks so good!!!!!#for me#artfight 2024#perfectly nor.al oc don't worry about it 👍#I'm just so honored by how much effort and polishing you put into this 😭#marigold the captive
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In case of an emergency
Lando Norris x Reader
Summary- where y/n is going to watch Lando race and unexpectedly gets her period and finds out that Lando has an 'In case of an emergency' little bag in his backpack full of everything you need
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"Hey baby", Lando cooed, walking up to you. You were standing in his garage, waiting for Lando to finish free practice "Hi, love", you said, trying to keep your distance from Lando as he was hot and sweaty. As much as you adored him, you weren’t exactly in the mood for a hot, sweaty hug right now.
Lando paused, eyebrows pulling together just slightly. "You okay?" you nodded "I’m just going to the toilet," you whispered quickly, brushing your hand gently over his arm as you turned to leave. As you walked to the nearest bathroom, you had a gut feeling that something wasn't right. By the time you reached the stall and checked, your fears were confirmed. A quiet groan escaped your lips as you stared down, suddenly unsure of what to do. No products, no bag, you hadn’t brought anything because you hadn’t expected this. Of all days.
You sat there for a second, frozen. The panic crept in slowly. You didn’t know many people around the paddock well enough to ask. And Lando, he was in the middle of a race weekend. You didn’t want to bother him with this. It felt silly, even though you knew it wasn’t.
Lando🧡- Hey, you've been in the toilet for a while, you okay?
y/n ❤️- No I'm not okay...I JUST GOT MY PERIOD
You locked your phone, a little embarrassed, already regretting sending the message. But less than a minute later, it buzzed again.
Lando🧡- Don’t move. I’ve got you
About five minutes later, someone entered the Ladies' room "Hey y/n", Lily Oscar's girlfriend called out "Yeah," You answered, slightly panicked. Not really wanting to interact with people while you were going through a crisis, she slid a small bag under the stall "Lando told me to give this to you" Your mouth dropped open slightly as you stared down at the bag on the floor. You reached for it slowly, touched by the gesture, but also slightly mortified that your period situation had now become a whole team effort.
You muttered a thanks before opening the bag to find. Pads, tampons, painkillers, even a mini chocolate bar, a hair tie and perfume. You felt your eyes beginning to water as it was the most sweetest thing, once you were all sorted you made your way to the Mclaren unit. You found Lando in his driver’s room, sitting on the edge of the couch with his race suit unzipped halfway and a water bottle in hand. The moment he saw you, his eyes softened.
"Hey," he said gently, getting to his feet. "Feeling better?" You nodded, managing a small smile as you stepped inside. "Much. Thank you." He reached for you instantly, pulling you into a warm, slightly damp hug, but for once, you didn’t mind the sweat. It was Lando. He made everything feel safe, even the most inconvenient kind of chaos.
When you pulled back, he gave you a sheepish grin. "Hey, uh, do you still have the bag Lily gave you?" You raised an eyebrow. "Yeah, why?" He held out his hand. "I wanna put it back in my backpack." You handed it over, curiosity blooming in your chest. "Wait this is yours, I thought it was lilys'?"
Lando nodded, looking almost bashful. "Yeah. I’ve had it for a while now. Started putting it together ages ago after you had that meltdown in Monaco 'cause you forgot tampons and no store was open."
Your heart swelled, but you kept your tone light. "So, You made this for me?"
"Pretty much," he said, unzipping his backpack and tucking the pouch carefully into the front pocket. "It’s not just for you, technically. I mean, yeah mostly you but Lily’s needed it once. One of the mechanics’ girlfriends, too. It’s just a little 'In Case of an Emergency' kit. Someone always ends up needing something at the track. Even Max borrowed a painkiller once."
You blinked. "Max?"
"Headache. Not a period," he added quickly, grinning. You stared at him, mouth slightly open. "You carry this around like, all the time?" He nodded like it was the most casual thing in the world. "Lives in my backpack. Next to my spare gloves and protein bars." He paused, eyes flickering up to yours. "Figured if I can’t fix everything, I can at least be prepared."
You laughed, the sound soft and full of love. "That’s actually one of the sweetest things ever." He glanced at you over his shoulder, zipping up the bag. "You think?" "I know," you said, walking up to him and wrapping your arms around his waist. "Thank you for being an amazing boyfriend" You said kissing lando on the cheek
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#lando norris x reader#lando norris#lando x reader#lando x you#ln4#mclaren#formula 1#formula 1 x reader#f1 x reader#f1#lando norris x female reader#lando norris x you#send in requests
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Not to jump on the self-diagnosis ship, but I am becoming increasingly convinced that I might have a slight mood disorder
#can you have 'just a little bit' of a mood disorder?#I say it in those terms because something is quite clearly wrong#and it bothers me but it never fully reaches a stage that's completely unmanageable#it seems like I can 'keep it in check' at the cost of a perpetual tiredness (again. a 'slight' tiredness)#I say 'increasingly' because I begin to see the cycles it follows?#which. could be partially hormone related#but truly. it feels like I'm putting an unnecessary amount of energy into like. not feeling/appearing terrible#I've already started to avoid decision fatigue whenever possible by delegating the actual choice and being all 'whatever is fine you choose#+ a good chunk of things feel pointless and I have to make an actual effort not to think about that fact?#my post
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OKAY so while making the Save yourself, I'll hold them back lyric comic, it put me in a big Danger Days mood in general (the album which the song is from) and I got the idea to draw the rise turtles as the Killjoys! (For anyone who doesn't know, very simply put they're characters the MCR band members play in the musical videos for the Danger Days album) (Dunno how many of you guys are interested in the Danger Days lore but just so you know I'm absolutely cooking with this!!)
Speaking of the lyric comic - HOLY SHIT guys I am absolutely overwhelmed by all the excitement and support I've gotten in just the last day 😭💕 I'm glad you all like it so much cuz I really put a lot of time and effort into it, it means the world! 💕💕💕💕
Bonus April as Dr Death Defying

#also notice how i drew mikey as kobra kid and kobra kid is played by mikey way so i drew mikey as mikey im so funny#tizel art#my art#tmnt#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt fanart#rottmnt leo#rottmnt raph#rottmnt donnie#rottmnt mikey#rottmnt april#rottmnt casey jones jr#rottmnt future
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