#I'm not having a good time

[abortpawpatrol]

First playthrough of Disco Elysium:

*fails an 80+% success rate skill roll*

...ok surely just bad luck and won't happen again-

*fails an 80+% success rate skill roll*

haha very funny. ok. this is fine. i found the morale fixing stuff not long ago i'll just hold onto it until if things get dire

*fails an 80+% success rate skill roll*

i have so many quests that i can't even progress, people are mean to me and i can't even succeed at ONE THING??? ...no this is fine. this is fine. i still have the pills or whatever they are.

*fails an 80+% success rate skill roll*

...wait where are my pills I know I picked some up and I DEFINITELY didn't use them-

*fails an 80+% success rate skill roll*

*mental breakdown, game over*

This shit hurts more than therapy ever did actually

[splend-42]

Do you ever feel like you had a purpose to your life, a reason to be here, but you've accomplished it and now you're drifting aimlessly, getting more and more deeply unhappy because you know there's no reason to be here any more but you have to see it through to the end anyway, because suicide is simply not an option because you don't get to opt put of this and it'd be cruel to make the people you love so unhappy, even though you won't be there to witness it, so you just keep on trucking and living and poisoning yourself with late night dark thoughts like these?

Yeah, no, me neither.

[elevenfifths]

i actually really hate not being a whole person a lot. everything feels so disjointed and fucked up on my insides almost constantly (unless i'm dissociating, or my brain has decided to dissociate for me by shoving me into the channel that just has music playing while everyone else drives this shit). and then at the same time the idea of ~*~integrating~*~ or whatever also really freaks me out. like. i don't know that i like whatever is going on but also if it changes then i can't say i'd like that either.

i just want some gotdamn peace and quiet in such a way where the whole of Me is safe and effectively tended to and fulfilled.

its so scary having a safe space to allow (and is encouraged) everyone to start having an actual voice for what feels like the first time. feels like dragging my heels and engaging the ebrake everything therapist asks "does this part i'm speaking to have a name [or pronouns]" because STOP not supposed to tease everyone out into identifiable parts!! ruining the functioning of the system (that also IS NOT working for the record and am why i'm chasing down this particular avenue of therapy rn)!!!

also super fucking eerie doing that shit bc like. parts start talking but iiiiiiii don't always fully remember whats being said and suddenly an hour is up and i'm like. shit. i gotta put everything back together quick to safely go back out into the world.

[natjennie]

teeth hurt so bad it woke me up early. thats probably not a great sign.

[ceruleanterrapin]

All I have to say is "It's that time of year again" and my family starts fortifying the lair

[cherrysfeelings]

🕯 I'm going to have a 10/10 in my Home Support Exam (AD) 🕯

[basic-bamboo]

Laying in bed crying to Contact Redux, what is it, 2015?

[thisishowgalaxiescollide]

Imagine going from having the best power play in the league to the worst and doing nothing about it

[aloeverawrites]

If I was a superhero I'd be called Disorder Man and my superpower would be getting out of bed every morning.

[aceychu53]

Life is good, life is great

(Rant/vent, CW for mentions of breakups and harassment)

I've experienced 3 breakups (one forced) and am now having a hiatus from using my public accounts on Twitter for like 2-3 days until I can get my shit together and stop having mental breakdowns over internet strangers harassing me over something I believe they're looking way too deep into yayayayay anyways I'm gonna draw Thomas characters I like as ponies because art is how I relieve stress

Ignore tags for I am but mad at the world of Twitter dot com

[gaybabything]

Don't mind me just casually sitting through the worst fucking Father's Day brunch of my entire life

[f1-birb]

started editing, had a breakdown, deleted it, retrieved it from the bin, continued having a breakdown, deleted it, faced the carpet, retrieved it, back to having a breakdown

the bon appetit will come.... it has to...

[thunderheadfred]

trying to figure out how we could increase our downpayment if we make an offer on a house like

how many organs do I really need

[cherrysfeelings]

Guess who is about to cry because she can't configure the printer because it doesn't seem to turn on or off? (When will this constant feeling of being usless end?)

[eggsnatcheskneecaps]

Paper if you're going to do that at least give me more crafting target slots ISTFG

[purified-zone]