#I'm not even sure I want to get married
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
All day long I have been oscillating wildly between two feelings: one, feeling like I'm actually pretty okay without a boyfriend/partner for now and even the rest of my life, I'm pretty chill living alone, I'm independent, I'm enjoying myself, not super depressed...and two, feeling desperately alone, that I wish someone could wake up next to me and dote on me, remind me to do the things I need to do and just be there for me in case I needed them to be, without being asked and is it that crazy to want that?
I can do both of those independently. I have in fact experienced them independently. But can my brain just PICK ONE?
#I will say part of this comes from the fact that living alone when you have adhd fucking sucks#I have to depend on myself to remember to do things#and without the structure of a job it is FUCKING AGONIZING#I constantly forget stuff#just zone out#then feel terrible for zoning out#I haven't been writing as much lately because I just feel like no one is interested#I do things for myself and for my own enjoyment#until I can't#and it sucks because I DO like being independent!#I'm not even sure I want to get married#but being alone is so crippling when all you have is your own highly dysfunctional brain#someone send help
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
The basegame wedding dress has a pregnancy morph??
#I can never be positive if something in my game is like. a third-party launcher addition#but this is so funny and I had such a strong hunch#because rushing to have your Sim get married before they give birth is such a thing so many players would do!!#and it would be so funny to pay attention to that detail by having the wedding dress show the bump!!!!#all your sim's wedding photos very obviously giving away the reason for the rushed date HAHA#the dress with the pendant at the back that everyone default replaces off (the one with the knife texture) also has a preg morph#which I know because it's the one your Sims get forced into if they attend a wedding#but it's kind of unusual because pregnant Sims don't have the opportunity to change into formal wear?#like pregnant Sims get new undies pyjamas and swimwear in addition to their maternity outfit#and if you direct a pregnant Sim to change into one of them then it changes them into the appropriate maternity fit instead of their usual#but you can't direct them to change into formal and if you use a hacked option like the shop any-wear rack it uses their usual non morph fi#so it has to be something external like a wedding that triggers them to change into formal. and I have no idea why#does this mean there's a BG suit with a preg morph for men??#or did maxis not think that pregnant male Sims would be quite so desperate to get married#anyway I'm probably the last person to know about this LMAO and I'm sure no one cares bc everyone uses wear-anything mods#but I'm a scrub who still prefers to use the default maternity meshes so this is yuge to me#also if you've never seen this dress b4: in the early game all Sims getting married under an arch used to be forced into the same outfits#actually I can't remember if the men got forced into the same suit or if they just used their regular formal#because most BG formal outfits for men were mostly wedding-appropriate#but at any rate. all women wore the same wedding dress. and it was this .... beauty#and I don't remember with which EP it changed but probably pretty early on they just let Sims use their regular formal wear for weddings#so you could pick their wedding dress yourself#but this dress remained hidden by default (I think?) so ironically it meant you COULDN'T use the wedding dress even if you wanted to#also this is completely off topic but you would also go away for your honeymoon#which meant the Sims getting married would literally get driven away in a limousine and stay off-world for a while#it was kind of cute because it really was like they took a vacation from the player too. got up to their own mischief away from your contro#then with bon voyage they introduced ACTUAL vacations and they turned honeymoons into an actual game mechanic#but again these offworld honeymoons are no longer a possibility#kind of like teens 'going out' with permission got replaced by going out on actual outings/dates even though it was a cute event#wow this note section is long and irrelevant. anyway enjoy picking up your wedding dress from a store called 'It's Not Too Late'
100 notes
·
View notes
Text
Ok I know I'm heavily biased here but like I kinda love that Astarion's romance is one of the few in this type of video game where you basically end up canonically unmarried and childfree in his "good" ending? Just travelling the world??
Like it's honestly the millennial dream lmfaoo cannot believe i chose what would undoubtedly be my favorite option, first try
#also love that he's basically atheist like ok thanks you made the man exactly coded to be my type#and the humor and beautiful curly hair is very much something my IRL partner has too so like... how can i resist#anyways not sure a lot of people relate cause i think a lot of people want that fairytale romance#even tho wyll is right there yall#but i love me an unconventional or nontraditional one!!#i'm TIRED of being married with children as the endgame pls let's not do it#also a lot of people seem into him being a dad and im like... how? why? where in canon did he ever lmfao#more power to ya if you dig it but i just dont see it being in character#like in DAI i loved cullen and my inquisitor getting married and having a dog#and they seem the type to wants kids one day. but Tav & Astarion? lol no#i just think it's neat#is this a hot take? i have no idea but i don't see it mentioned a lot as a new fan tbh#pls do not come at me you can enjoy whatever you like#i haven't seen the ascended stuff so idk if being his 'consort' is like being his bride#but i feel like overall it's not and the vibe isn't all that different in this sense#except that you're hosting evil parties instead of travelling :/#Astarion#bg3 spoilers#baldur's gate 3#baldur's gate 3 spoilers#bg3#also YEA he's nice to Arabella but you can tolerate certain kids without wanting one or being 'good parent' material#case in point: me lmfao#OKAY update i saw the AA stuff and yeah you're kind of implied vamp married and he does mention spawn as children 😫#but he also says in banter he won't make any other spawn??? so what is it dude#anyway that's also clearly the “bad” route and he doesn't seem as happy as unascended#who feels “truly free”#and if you're durge I'm pretty sure its even worse to consider having kids?? lol#but i digress#pk plays bg3
116 notes
·
View notes
Text
What if Withers was the one to officiate the marriage between Astarion and Lorelei? I'm guessing it'd be either of them (or Karlach, feels like something she would do) annoying him into doing it.
It's not even his job? Well, it's too bad! He should've thought that when he kept them all alive! Now he's gonna be the grandpa Withers to everyone!
#Cursed bed thoughts#I'm not even sure if I want them to get married#But I would if I could write a very unhappy withers doing the ceremony#bg3#astarion#baldur's gate 3#astarion ancunin#bg3 astarion#baldur's gate 3 astarion#astarion x tav#tavstarion#mywriting#Withers#bg3 withers
23 notes
·
View notes
Text
Sometimes I think of RuiEd angst and like Ed talking to the MC about Rui like:
"If I were a woman, I would've loved him by myself for a really long time."
IN FUCKING SHAMBLES.
Imagine Ed falling in love with someone, a human, after his previous human lover died. Vowing to himself that he would never love again, never go through the short-lived love ever again, then Rui comes into the picture and it's like spring has come.
(bonus if it's unrequited.)
#istha rambles#tokyo debunker#i can't take this anymore#i like writing Rui angst but Ed's suffering#i'm not okay.#HE DOESN'T EVEN HAVE TO BE A WOMAN BUT LIKE RUI AND HIS “I'm not into men.”#sure man keep lying through your teeth#AND THIS MAN KEEPS pushing MC to potentially marry one of his dorm mates in one of his affinity#but bro you sure you don't want to marry instead?#He's the “I don't want to ruin what we have even though the feelings are getting too much to hide.”#istha thoughts
20 notes
·
View notes
Text
The pressure around getting married sucks
#T#I don't want to do it!#But it's only gonna get worse#Can't wait to be older so I can be considered a lost cause#and people only lament how I never got married behind my back instead of telling me to my face that I need to get married NOW#I'm not even against the idea of marrying a man it's just not a goal of mine#If it's in Allah's plan that's great but it sure as heck ain't in mine
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
currently obsessed with everyone's reactions after kristen blurts out that she wants to marry tracker (who she's presumably only been dating for a few months)
#we can all sit here and laugh at kristen sure#but i'm a lesbian. i've looked at wedding venues while in the like. first month of dating someone. i'm not above it#and i dont even know if i WANT to get married in general#there's just some fatal lesbian urge that grips ya sometimes what can i say#kristen applebees#tracker o'shaughnessey#fantasy high sophomore year#fantasy high#fabians expression is maybe my favorite#he looks like he just got punched in the gut
26 notes
·
View notes
Text
nothing like seeing people still saying jon/ygritte was an abusive rship in my *recommended* posts in the year of the lord 2024 anyway I had missed instant blocking people just scrolling the dashboard
#is2g of all the actually abusive rships in that series that's the hill you wanna die on#i mean it was a correctly tagged post so i'm not even touching it i just blocked op and left#but the brainrot is real just say you don't vibe with that ship and go#instead of making stuff up#it's not even a book vs show thing god it's one of the 3 things that show did right#how is 'the guy who according to your customs whom you obviously like#put a move on you and then supposedly betrayed his faction to follow you#and then you realize that he's a sweet summer child so you cover for him and WAIT FOR HIM TO BE READY TO BANG YOU#and then you find out he really likes giving you head#before getting heartbroken because you found out he LIED to you and never defected at all'#HER FORCING HIM TO DO ANYTHING JESUS#like it was even his pov the man actually fucking wanted to stay there bc they didn't gaf about bastards being a thing#HE LITERALLY WOUDL HAVE TAKEN A LEGITIMIZATION IF HE COULD MARRY HER#and she wasn't dead#but yeah sure abusive relationship#i'm tired your honor i'm tired#queue of the beam#i'm putting this on queue while i go back to work but j e s u s
17 notes
·
View notes
Note
It's Pride Month! How would Pep and the others celebrate?
(Happy Pride month!!!
We will get into how the others celebrate pride later, but this would technically be Pep's first pride, and he's still figuring that out!
(Spoiler alert: He'll be queer in some way, bc everyone here is, hehe)
#ooc post#tower didn't really have the concept of sexuality and gender so it is all pretty new to him!#and even before then as Bruno he didn't really know#sure he married a woman but he sure wasn't hetro hehe#she wasn't either but I am getting ahead of myself again!#it's also still march in the story and I need to hurry UP#or I need to be nicer to myself I am doing my best!!!#well I say that but I haven't worked at all today and played cotl instead jdjsdjasd#I'm sorta having a break but once I announce I am having a break#I will want to work again immediately bc my brain is weird like that#so if I don't know I'm having a break I will be having a break and not burn myself out do you understand me?#it is okay if you do not#I got very off topic but yeah!!!#everyone is queer and there is nothing that can be done to stop this!!!
120 notes
·
View notes
Text
I am thinking about marriage a lot for someone my age (and considering I have been dating my partner for two years, known zhim for three)
#i cannot get rid of the thought ever since i dreamed about proposing to neb#no i have not told her about it yet#and i'm not even sure i want to get married at all? not with a big ceremony at least#but i would like to be engaged to him i think
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
oh my fucking godddddd i wish i could come out to my parents
#maddie.txt#alright rant once again folks. u ain't gotta read it lmfao i'm just whining </3#my dad loves talking about when i'll be married and get a husband and how i'm probably gonna find some random guy in college#i just absolutely hate the fact that i'm assumed to be allo but i kinda get it bc like 97% of the population is allo but still#idk. i just makes me really uncomfortable like bro i don't have a type whatsoever even when i do have crushes i never really think of#marriage and even though i'm technically only attracted to men i know full well that he's not gonna accept it#like my dad was just saying how once i get into college/my career i'm gonna find men that 'check all the boxes'#and btw i have told this man many times that i've never had an interest in having a husband or kids but not even 10 minutes ago he just#told me that even though i don't want to get married/have kids that if god 'presents you with a man' that i should take it and get married#whether i want to or not?? what the fuck???? and he said to my younger brother that he should do the same w/ his future wife/gf which is#absolutely insane. (also dad constantly refers to our future spouses as 'mates' which i find weird as fuck) and just that along with the#fact he outright told me sometime last year that (literally his words) women are 'products bought by men' that have#'time limits and expiration dates' and that's why 'men buy them (women) while they're 21‚ 22‚ 23' so. yeah .#that last bit was a side rant but god i just wish i could be confident he could accept i was demi-aroace it would just make things#so much fucking easier and less weird and uncomfortable but it's just sometimes i wonder where the blurred line is between where my#sexuality ends and where the effects of purity culture begin. and maybe throw in some childhood trauma and witnessing domestic violence as#well. i don't know. the only thing that helps is that i felt 'different' even before Shit Got Bad so that's nice.#in conclusion i wish father dearest know that i'm not allo in the slightest and there's a pretty decent chance i may not get married at all#and i'm very sure god's chill w that. bc like i'm still a normal person with hobbies and shit. i'm just some queer bitch who likes coding#and wildlife photography and has a few weird issues to sort out. i'm just an aroace with exceptions my guy. it's not too hard to understand#also sorry to my friends/mutuals who i haven't talked to much lately. i'm terrible at starting convos but i know that i love you like#the moon loves the earth okay? :)
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
I don't think it's going to be a good christmas this year
#like it hasnt been fun the past couple of years for sure#it feels like no one in my family has cared about having me around for Christmas since my abusive mother died#and my wife's family is enormous and extremely close. and i feel like they like me less and less every year#I'm starting to feel conspicuous. like. they've started picking up on the fact that i have nowhere to go on holidays#so I'm always intruding on their celebrations and undeniably bringing the mood down#they love boardgames and i can't participate because anything resembling peer competition makes me panic because of ~childhood trauma~#and my wife of course wants to spend time with her family so she can't spend the holiday babysitting me (and I don't want her to)#and also basically none of them came to my wedding in november.#it's never a day trip for Christmas#it's always a multiday visit where i have to skulk around corners and drink like a fish#but this year is even worse because the stress of getting married means my wife and i have been catatonically stressed since Nov#and im going into this miserable#I'm bringing books and notebooks and a puzzle so i have something to do that isn't look at my phone#but i know it's going to be awful.
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
doing evil behaviors (looking up different methods of engagement ring sourcing to try to identify the most ethical one)
#as far as i can tell it's 'a vintage ring' followed closely by 'a vintage ring you have melted down into a different ring'#but that means i have to find a vintage ring and vintage [anything] hunting rapidly becomes a task of fractal complexity#that exhausts me until i give up#lab gems ... seem ... fine but i'm not sure how the labor conditions are for workers in them and not making a lot of research progress#'ethically sourced' gold seems nice but is hard to verify effectively and 'ethically sourced' silver might... not exist? unclear#now of course my girlfriend is a biosafety level 3 infectious diseases researcher who handwashes and adds and removes#gloves hundreds of times a day#and so this is going to be a not-actually-very-frequently-worn item#which only makes me feel more evil about it all.#we're‚ like‚ engaged in the sense that we have agreed we want to get married and my whole family knows we're planning on it#we're not engaged in the sense that their family doesn't know we're planning on it and we're not making it public or actually#planning a wedding. so.#acquiring a ring is like the least relevant part of this whole exercise and as mentioned will almost never even be used. so im fixating
19 notes
·
View notes
Text
try as i might, i simply can't make Kyoko and Katsuya's relationship work right in my head. Katsuya was apparently just an intern teacher when they met, so you could say that he was 18-19 at the time (even if it's a stretch bc he's implied to be in his mid twenties), but that still leaves Kyoko 15 going on 16 which is definitely not great. i just don't see how Katsuya would realistically fall in love with Kyoko unless he was a creep, which is obviously not the sort of person he's being portrayed as. it also makes Katsuya's family look a lot more sympathetic for opposing their relationship because uh. that actually is the sort of thing you would realistically have a problem with.
judging from the series' themes, the point of the age gap is likely to show how pursuing a relationship that society disapproves of can isolate the couple and cut off all potential support, thus sticking with the theme of cruelty creating more cruelty, or in this case simply more trauma. Tohru ended up taking on a huge emotional burden because apart from Katsyua's father, no one was around to help Kyoko through her grieving process, to the point that 3 y/o Tohru was literally all that she had.
(it might also be a semi-deconstruction of another shojo trope: the high school protagonist marrying her adult love interest. in this case, being a teenager who marries an adult isn't as easy as overcoming a parent's disapproval. you won't get any support from the rest of the family, especially not extended family, and you'll likely be treated as an outsider for the rest of your time with them. if something happens to rupture your idyllic life (like oh, say, your husband's untimely death), you won't have a safety net and life will get extremely tough. definitely not the triumphant leap into womanhood most teenage girls are dreaming of.)
anyway, i think if i had the opportunity to change one thing about Fruits Basket, i would reconfigure the age gap. the plot-mandated scandal is the biggest issue, but that could've been accomplished just fine by making Kyoko an 18 y/o high school student and Katsuya an 18-20 y/o intern teacher or tutor. still a bit iffy, but at least it's believable that they'd pursue a relationship and doesn't paint Katsuya in an unforgivably bad light. the fact that Katsuya is courting a former student (one who hasn't even officially graduated high school yet) would be enough to make tongues waggle, especially with her delinquent past. no need to make it any squickier than that.
#when i have to picture them together i either age kyoko up or age katsuya down#there's just no acceptable justification for their relationship otherwise#also their marriage would legally be on shaky ground bc kyoko wasn't 18 yet!#even in the 90s you had to get your parents written permission if you wanted to get married before turning 18#(the legal adult age is 20 but you can get married w/o permission at 18)#and i don't know if kyoko's parents would've gone as far as giving them written consent#even if they were obviously not interested in caring for her anymore#i'm pretty sure the prequel revealed that katsuya's dad officiated the wedding#which wouldn't be considered legal by any means#so yeah. making her 18 would at least cut out that sticky situation#fruits basket#kyoko honda#katsuya honda#tough topics#edited for your convenience#(<-added some clarification and capitalized the names)#sage speaketh
11 notes
·
View notes
Text
why're things so fucked upppppp~
#stayed up too late#did nothing#should've done something#should've been doing uni applications or chemistry#instead spent my time thinking#didn't even get to good thoughts#I'm still anxious on my future#i haven't picked up my anxiety prescription#felt anxious and still didn't#now just stuck#I don't want to do anything because it feels like everything I'm gonna do is like changing something and changing something with my parents#usually for the worse#even talking with my parents#there's also their mood swings where i cannot for the life of me tell when they'll get worse and better#and if better it's usually to manipulate me#oh we bought you yarn now force yourself into these uni choices#or even the ultimate of it#get married#if only they viewed people as humans and not puppets of god#if only they cared about people than their ideals and god and marriage#shove enough money into a dowry and everything's fixed#break your kid into a doll for marriage and it's fine#we don't talk about any of my interests in the kitchen#the only thing we talk about is my education#and like even then we don't agree#my mother judges medication like hell#despite taking medication herself!#but for her it's medicine and for me I'm gonna be a drug addict#she even fucking judges disease#yeah mom thanks I'm sure all the cancer patients appreciate you judging them like an ass
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
i was tagged by @shadowglens and @risingsh0t to make some ocs in this picrew. thank you so much besties, i loved this picrew so much!! <3
vesper moxley (cp2077) • victoria gray (cp2077) joelle knight (fo4) • nina bower (fo4) selene (oblivion) • hiraeth (skyrim)
tagging: @uldwynsovs @arklay @devilbrakers @nuclearstorms @morvaris @girlbosselrond @indorilnerevarine @moiragf @cultistbase @faarkas @steelport @nokstella @reaperkiller @malefiicarum @brujah @calenhads @lightwardens @aelyosos and whoever else wants to do this or that i missed bc i'm terribly forgetful sorry!!
#tag games#warning i accidentally infodumped in the tags i'm sorry ignore me 😔 ckjsdhdskj#made this based on relationships idk why jdksd. victoria is vesper's bestie 4 life & first gf. joelle & nina my fave wlw married couple#and then for the last one. listen. i've resurected a very old oc and i'm still not so sure but i miss skyrim so bad. they idea is that#they are related as in hiraeth is a descent of selene bc i think dragonborn=martin septim's child> family line going forward until we#have our little hiraeth. i never thought of selene & martin having a kid in canon (only stupid ideas of an au) but u know. what if. she#still ends up in the shivering isles tho and becomes sheogorath. hiraeth's bloodline having like an emperor & a daedric prince. OK KING!!#much to think about tbh. not sure if they/she(probably he too. thinking of their gender as therapy for myself) will stick as nord or maybe#wood elf too like selene. or maybe even dunmer?? it makes no sense fjkdfhk IDK. literally i HAVE so much to think for them#also their name came to me bc i read the welsh word Hiraeth that basically means 'a mixture of longing yearning nostalgia homesickness'#+ 'an expression of an empty desire and grief over a past life or place' and with drangonborns i like to push the idea of 'maybe they were#actual dragons in a past life and now human' u know?? so i thought it was sooo fitting. i also like the idea of the more dragon souls#they absorb the more their features turn..dragonesque?? draconic jkfdhfkdsj idk i love them very much (:#(i have no idea how dragon in past life + martin's bloodline can fit but i'm literally only vibing rn)#i want to replay skyrim SO bad but i need someone to hold my hand so tightly as they help me set up mods for this game bc i never played#skyrim with mods (collective gasp) and i have no idea of what to pick ecc especially bc everything..breaks with a snap of fingers so yea ri#SORRY for talking so much i get excited about new things (my oc in this case) so easily..#oc: vesper#oc: victoria#oc: joelle#oc: nina#oc: selene#oc: hiraeth#ALSO FUCK OFF JOELLE IS SOOOOOOOOO CUTE HERE!!!!!!!!!!!
44 notes
·
View notes