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Hi Ruby! Do you have any recs for leon/chris? Kinda in a reading stump right now 😔🫶🩵 -🐚
Hiii! And I get you, I have barely read anything related to Leon these last few weeks since nothing has caught my attention, but !!! I can recommend you some of my favorite fics here.
For Chris I only have one which is Blizzard by @lightning-hawke . I really really love it!
For Leon I have just two (For now). I tried to keep it as *tame* as possible since I don't really know what you like in fics but these ones are definitely my favorites!
Lord knows it would be the first time by @kianely lives rent free in my head! I don't know if they are still active but all of their works are top tier for me.
I also really like @leonw4nter fics. If I had to choose I would say I love you without wax. Forever yours, Leon is definitely my favorite. If you're in the mood to cry, give it a chance.
#— ࣪ ⊹ �� ruby's askbox#I have many more but I get shy ok bear with me#I'm just tagging mutuals in this one lol#But they're so talented so I'd recommend you to read all of their works#: ・ 。. 🐚 anon
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@xylo-phone @artchixs @reqfi
@pinkramiel @sadmages @art-in-progressosoup
@sketchmre @nessa-rpgs @hpkn
@the-mighty-glow-cloud @yarrow-leaf @st-rbiter
i hope i got all the names and urls right.... also if you don't follow my art blog you are probably mutuals with my main blog @ dirt-juice.... and if not then i have made a mistake 💀 sorry
#hi mutuals i never (/barely) talk to.....🧍♀️ (sweating)#i'm number one oc fan 🫡 i love all these guys...#mutuals if you wanna talk ocs........... hmu...... anytime..#hmm anyway i hope this is ok i know haven't really talked to some of you 💀 so i hope i'm not acting overly familiar#unrelated but writing just 'matt' for matt marja felt so weird ?? mr marja...#adding to the mallow tag like i said i would lol#also cain is so hard to draw for some reason....#btw sorry if we're mutuals and i didn't get to you 😔#edit: i hope the tagging works i had to space it out like that to get more than the first 4 blogs to be tagged ?? weird.
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i want to delete my twitter account so fucking bad
#i grew my following off of anime stuff and now i'm into completely different stuff and i feel like posting about it -#will alienate my audience way too much#(if you wanna know - these days i hardly even watch one anime a year)#i wanna post about the fuckin saw movies and postal and weird video games and metalocalypse and music i like#and i want to post about my ocs without it feeling like i'm speaking gibberish to a crowd#but none of my followrs GIVE A FUCK#also i find it impossible to make friends on twt 😭😭😭😭 i have like 5 mutuals i'd consider friends#but alas i have too many industry pro followrs to just deactivate#and 40k followers is invaluable as someone whose only form of income rn is comms#tumblr has similar problems but at least i can talk about my ocs properly cuz of tagging#i don't like how monetized my account has become it feels so fucking disingenuous#it's just retweet retweet retweet post art retweet retweet#if twitter went under it'd be a blessing in disguise for me#oh well. suffering from success i guess#maybe one day i'll move accounts and KILL STARRYSHARKS ONCE AND FOR ALL#this is all 13 yr old me's fault#sorry for ranting/venting ig??? on main lol
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at this point I'm starting to feel like I could graduate, get into residency, complete a superspecialisation program and have a whole ass career by the time Sarah Janet announces ACOTAR 5
#I've beem out of loop with the acotar fandom for quite a while#i really thought I'd missed something but apparently not 💀#sjm please give this fandom info on who th next couple is I fear things might get worse on here 💀💀💀#i just went to a tag and omg how is the ship discourse EXACTLY where it was 2 years ago I'm akfjakfjajfjkakckancj 😭😭#acotar#a court of thorns and roses#i just want to know if it's#gwynriel#because they're kinda the one big reason I am still here lol 💀💀#or even if it's#elucien#then at least I can read it and have a good time with my mutuals who have been elucien girlies for as long as I have known them#anyway yeah#sarah j maas
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[Start ID. A drawing of @mieczmaszyna 's character Izzy. In the words of its creator, Izzy is a humanoid robot with a white chassis, oval head, black headset, square green glasses, claws, and a tail resembling a cable plug. Ai wears a cowboy hat, vest decorated by a star and bottle cap, pants with tassels, spurred boots, and a red bandanna. He's viewed from the side, kicking up one leg and holding both arms out in front of itself to shoot finger guns, looking excited and rather jaunty. The background is a dull yellow-green, muddied by the warm reddish tone of the drawing, and in paler green are the words "BANG BANG!!" by ais arms. End ID]
robot cowboy!!!
#peridots-art#bots#others' ocs#izzy#mieczmaszyna#gotta admit doing all the shading here was. very fun. insert medic hoo noise#i don't know if people usually read these but @ the intended recipient of this post! if you are!!#i remember first liking your art a year ago (actually only about a week off now lol) when it crossed my dash for the first (/only) time#and then found it again whilst enjoying the funky robot dudes (yesm/p03) and their respective games and I fell in Love with your style#i also was always enthused by the number of my fixations that you also liked! fnv! insc! ultkll! tf2 and hylics which i've never played!#and then there's hk which has been my most prominent special interest for close to two years so. safe to say that was. AWESOME to see#ALSO ALSO!! i think we may be like. mutuals-in-law*2??#by which i mean one of my two closest friends on this site (holly) is mutuals with a cool artist (sodapop)#who i learned by accident that you've sent asks to before. either way it's cool :]#reserving the caption 'robot cowboys my beloved' for the future cause there are too many! victor and p03 and my own guy atoya and now this?#it is a wonderful problem. anyway i'm also looking at P3RI and realizing how many traits they and izzy share by accident lol#think. that should be all the tags (see: incoherent rambling). really like your stuff and have been meaning to draw something for you for#a while just got nervous 👍
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a lil late night reminder: no matter how you choose to run your blog, or how you may write your muse, you have a place here. as long as you're having fun and finding joy through having a roleplay blog, that's all that matters in the end. <3
#💔 ˚₊ · 𝖔𝖚𝖙 𝖔𝖋 𝖈𝖍𝖆𝖗𝖆𝖈𝖙𝖊𝖗 ✗ long lost words whisper slowly to me. ❞#this applies to every rpc on tumblr tbh but it's directed at the sonic one;#it sucks seeing people struggle to fit in here for one reason or the other. x__x#if i'm honest i do not enjoy how i've been treated in this rpc in the past...#it's better this time around thankfully (mainly cause i worked on a lot of my anxiety and self-esteem issues lmao)#trying to be the change i want to see now lol... i feel like people stay in their own bubbles a lot here?#i don't rly have the energy for like; extensively plotted 50+ reblog threads. i imagine Most don't because we got jobs and life and shit.#but it's always good to send in inbox memes. gush/infodump about ur muses with each other when the free time aligns.#low stakes plotting + ship/dynamic discussions just to see what sticks vs. what doesn't.#also dash games... i feel like i Barely see ppl tagging their mutuals in dash games anymore. i will bring this trend back 😤#interacting with mutuals both new & old... etc. etc. etc.#do not shy away from the Community part in rpc... otherwise what's the point lmao.#(unless you're specifically rping with friends/a curated group but that's a different topic)#Anywayz... i've mostly been lurking and sending memes this week & now i'm drowsily rambling JFDKKGDJ.#might do stuff this weekend but i've also been wanting to draw so... 2 be determined lol.
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sooooo... *twirls her hair* how many asks should i send until kuwagami art. jk as well. the real question will be: does it happen often that someone else’s art inspires you? in fandom spaces specifically
well you see it’s like a loyalty card program, every 10 asks or so you get a complimentary kuwagami
just kidding you can just breathe in my direction and I’ll be tempted to draw them. kuwagami blast! (you've caught me on a... just okay art day lol)
(people still like kabedons, right?)
anyway for my actual answer: in terms of direct inspiration, it doesn't really happen much? the last two times i did art directly based on someone else's work is probably this one from this fic, and also that time i drew art of someone else's judgment au. oh! and there's that moriohpsycho art based on this comic! (filthyguts' work is so very. hgngngghh. very good.) nothing else really comes to mind, and when i think of the other things i've been into recently there hasn't been as much opportunity for that to happen...
flex and herds = strong fixation but lmao. almost nobody else made stuff about them. nobody is surprised umineko = surprisingly i don't read much umineko fanfiction? and in terms of illustration, i certainly picked up imagery and indirect inspiration but nothing concrete enough for me to give an example... now that i think about it, i did once draw andromalius from redaction/sunny, but that was years ago, and also mostly because i was acquainted with the writer. ...i don't have that artwork on hand right now death note = didn't really get involved with the fandom + i enjoyed my own ideas well enough! ...i can't recall if i drew long-hair-L art before or after seeing other artists do it. and as for everything else the same kind of reasoning applies. didn't really get involved with the fandom or wasn't really compelled to make art in response to stuff i saw, or i just don't remember anymore.
buuuuuuut if we're opening this up to just... pulling ideas from other people? then yeah, all the time, though that kind of goes without saying when you have a creative hobby. ...it's probably going to be hard to come up with examples of this since it's more ambiguous.
there's uhhhhhh... kuwana listens to nickelback which was a @/four-white-trees invention, wasn't it? (EDIT: and @/overdevelopedglasses!) (not tagging in this post so he doesn't feel obligated to read my big ass ask responses 💀) as of writing this, it's not posted but i did end up making kuwagami art based on a nickelback song so. yknow. there's that LMAO
for sawashiro and arakawa, i do sometimes go reference @/todayisafridaynight 's art to help me with my own. ("how did he draw this part of the suit? oh, like that huh? hmm" <- this kind of thing)
and um. i'm not trying to pander to you (at least not this time), but genuinely it's one of the few examples that come to mind at this moment. but when i was writing my first kuwagami fic, i could feel the influence of the ever-changing on my brain... was turning over some of your ideas there...
you remember this? (you even pointed it out in your comment on my fic, and i should've said something then, but whatever i'm saying it now)
that was absolutely because of this
(obligatory poke at anybody else reading this post that you can read passthroughtime's fic here.)
so, um. yeah. not really sure what else to add to that. pretty self evident i think. (i'm always talking about the ever-changing but i don't think i can overstate the impression it left on me at the time)
anyhow there aren't really any other examples off the top of my head! these are all recent examples so they're not so difficult to recall, but there are probably others i've forgotten...
#jitxt#started writing this unsure if i could give many examples and i ended up with more than i expected. nice!#sunny is a very good piece of umineko writing and i should reread it with the author's notes toggled on. and also read redaction#“shouldn't you have read redaction first” n-no. shut up! (besides i think renall said it was fine)#nobody remind me of that 20k note post that's just an uncredited screenshot of sunny. it'll piss me off#as cosmic balance i ought to shill sunny as much as possible#anyway uhhhhhh. the everchanging.#i am awful about receiving compliments (i never know how to respond aside from a rehearsed “thank you”) but i sure am great at giving them!#apologies if i'm laying it on too thick but#1. i am being truthful and#2. i figure it's reparations for all the time i spent as a lurker on the kuwagami ao3 tag#the explosion in my brain when i realised that “the nice person who leaves lots of tags on my kuwagami art”#and “the person who wrote that REALLY FUCKING GOOD FIC” were one and the same. crazy. and now we are mutuals ❤#it is a little funny thinking of when i'd read your and four-white-trees' work before meeting you#real life foreshadowing for me meeting you both....#i still have these discord messages of me telling a friend about both your works#basically: (reading an update to the everchanging) wow that was depressing (reading a joke in four-white-trees' fic) nevermind i'm good now#i ought to reread the everchanging and take detailed notes on all the parts i like#just so you know your impact on my brain lol#kuwana calling yagami a pretty boy and meaning it sincerely oh my GOD. rewired my brain
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it's actually, genuinely, honestly hilarious that in a fandom where popular ships include characters who are biologically related, characters with a 10+ year age gap who met when one was a teenager or even a child, and characters who have tried to kill each other, people hate on a friends-to-lovers ship with a <2 year age gap where the characters have a deep emotional bond and plenty of romantic subtext, because "they're siblings". my brother in the force they are literally not.
#i'm just saying. out of all the ships in the star war; sabine and ezra have one of the healthiest dynamics#right up there with kanera and bail and breha and obitine and maybe a few others. there are SO few 'problems' with it.#not that those 'problems' make a ship BAD when it's written well or in certain context.#just that out of all the ships to pick on; people choose THIS one?????#the one with character growth and found family and mutual respect??#the one with self-sacrifice and decades-long loyalty and obitine parallels and a jetpack chase scene????#what's there to hate???#and i would add a disclaimer about how if you dont ship them its fine as long as you dont bully but honestly?#i am so so tired of having to qualify my statements.#this is about the targeted hate. this has always been about the targeted hate.#and i don't care if someone loathes something i love as long as they they keep that loathing out of my personal space.#this has been a tag rant. thank you for reading.#btw i'm not being sarcastic about it being hilarious. it genuinely cracks me up to see people get SO hateful over this#for a reason that does not exist#as opposed to several other ships which DO IN FACT HAVE THAT OBJECTION.#like. oh my gosh. are you even listening to yourselves.#if u wanna have the don't-ship-siblings fight then puhLEEZE bring it to someone who ships siblings.#jessica's controversial star wars opinions#sabezra#(don't worry that this post is a vent because i'm getting bullied or anything. im not visible enough for that i guess lol)#it was written in humor not in hurt :)
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#Alright lil blog update. Running the reblogs queue again tonight (yay!). Been procrastinating it for like? four months now?#I'm not going to fix the order anymore in a crazy pattern that only I can see. And like the point as always been#“it's only for myself‚ because I like seeing the posts all ordinately lined up ☺️”. But it does start being a problem when.#It actually blocks me from reblogging alltogether. Or makes me end up with 978 posts in the queue and 15584 in the drafts#(lol) (yeah)#Anyways had to write it down publicly because last time I said “screw it I'm not going to post in order anymore”#I lasted exactly one (1) day#Mmmmmmmmhhhhhhhh#I need to make space in the queue so I've set 20 posts in the night / morning for the time being.#Probably going to tag less because again. the posts are piling up. Sorry everyone#So like... After this string of disappointing (and possibly irrelevant?) updates. Feel free to unfollow me etc. etc.#(Mututals included? I really hold no bad feeling I know I post a lot. I don't care about mutualism if we're friends we're friends)#Have a nice day / night!!!#random rambles#Btw for anyone wondering my previous queue lineup was 4 fanarts / 2 other category posts / 4 fanarts / 2 other category posts etc.#(other category could be like. gifsets together. analysis together. textposts of approximately the same length together etc. )#And fanarts had to be coherent between each other for characters / composition / oftentimes color palette#Anyways. Winning over ocd today 💪💪#(I say as I didn't pick this month specifically because the second half of the year starts together with it. Anyways)#ManBreakingChainsMeme.png#Edit: Just remembered this all started because I accidentally hit shuffle queue two or three weeks ago#When it happened I had a mental breakdown and cried for two hours but looking back. Maybe it was really godsent
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tag game: make a poll of your favourite female characters (no limits - as many or as little as you want) and see which your followers like the most!
tagged by @dekarios
tag you're it! @primordialwhale @futureshieldmaiden @queenflorence @seedystreet @thepreciousthing @zheida
and anyone else who feels like it asldkjfgh
#AAAAAHHHH THIS WAS SO HAAARRDDDD#i wanted to put even more girls but im CAPPED AT 12#CURSE YOU TUMBLR POLL LIMIT#i had a bunch of book girls i wanted to put in there#(but no one reads those books alksjdfgh)#i wanted to put connie too.... and garnet... and peridot.. and lapis.. and rose...#i love all the women in steven universe laskjdfhfgk#i wanted to put some girls from ok ko...#and like half the video games i play#and star trek#and ten million other things#AH WELL#i tried to tag some mutuals i recognize on a semi regular basis#but if u guys hate it just lmk and i won't do that again alksjhdfgk#bc dekarios wants to start tagging ppl in stuff and tag games are fun! so i'm happy to participate#so this /will/ happen again#LOL#alternatively if ur a mutual and ur sad i didnt tag u#u can lmk and i can also do this#i also considered adding my oc for giggles like dekarios did#but the difference is#i dont post about lizard LMAO#only ajax knows about her !#ANYWAY OKAY HAVE FUN BYYYYYEEE
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Hellooo I am currently hyperfixated on something that isn't twomp right now so I haven't drawing anything twomp related in the past couple of days. I have however been drawing a whole bunch of stuff and posting it on my side blog recently so if anybody wants to see what I'm up to over there the @ is in my bio :))
#twomp#im a busy guy what can I say#not gonna do much other tagging bc I just don't wanna#Will probably be a bit inactive for a while lol#posting this bc one of my mutuals already found that fucking account and idk how so I'm adding it to my bio lol#if you see this mutual you know who you are 😠😠/j#anyways byeee ill be back in a while (ngl I have no idea how long this will take)#brainrotting very hard rn so it will be a long time me thinks
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okay i'm sorry mutuals did i miss something in the three and a half hours i was driving is booping just a thing now is it a meme 😭
#i mean i'm all for booping but i'm seeing it from different mutual circles and memes and i don't get it😭#i hate being busy/stressed and missing things ahhhhhh#imma prolly delete this larer/after someone tells me#sometimes the fomo just hits HARD#especially bc i can't really be on tumblr at all during work unless it's on my phone but ts makes it SO hard to use/type on my phone#so i usually don't and then i'm sleepy when i get home and do more work UGH#okay oops didn't mean to start :/// -ing in the tags lol#it's no one's fault but mine but i just miss everyone#aNYWAYS HAHHAHHAH I SAID NOTHING IN THE TAGS
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transphobes suddenly think they become loremastersTM when they have opinions on bridget because they parrot some misconstrued lore but when you ask them how do you block an overhead they’re like i don’t really interact with the community so i don’t know the language :/
No way are people STILL arguing that Bridget isn't trans MONTHS after Daisuke Ishiwatari himself wrote bilingual (trilingual..? do they post the devlogs in Korean..?) statements in clear as hell writing about how she's a trans woman??? Seriously???????
I remember when she was first released and suddenly everyone was N1 turbo master level at Japanese language and culture too lol
"Well Ackshually the 9th reading on this kanji that I looked up just now on Jisho that only shows up in Arcade Ending B in one line invalidates ur point" <- only knows the の hiragana because of memes
#asks#transphobia cw#There were so many people getting 男の子 and 男の娘 mixed up (they have the same readings) and it was very obvious-#-that not a single one of them had any idea what they were on about lol#What was really especially funny about the whole thing were the Americans that were like 'Japanese people are VERY upset about this'#But then all of my Japanese mutuals and their friends and people I found in searches were just like#'Oh cool I love her new design. She's very cute and I hope her playstyle is fun'#Like there were a couple actually Japanese people that were annoyed about it but they definitely seemed like the minority#I saw more Japanese people complaining about the Americans whining about Bridget & spamming tags than any other criticism hahaha#I'm American but the Bridget Event™️ really opened my eyes to just how much (some) Americans think they're the center of the world
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I fucking HATE how the fandom treats m.ine. it's so bad 😭
#ash rambles 💚#so many shitty takes... too much time on twitter ruins a man#i hear one more person call him a crazy obsessive yandere and i think I'm actually gonna lose it#he's either portrayed like that or as one half of a ship#his actual character is lost on so many people because oOoOOoOOooOoO mInE wAs GaY#i dont doubt that he likes men. it's just that I've seen so many people be weird about it-#also. it's not fucking sexy to wanna kill your partner. a bullet between the eyes isn't an act of love.#I saw a tweet today about how m.ine actually wanted to kill k.iryu because he thought d.aigo liked k.iryu romantically#and m.ine only wants d.aigo to himself. and THAT'S why m.ine wanted to kill k.iryu.#let that sink in. 😐.#i hate how the fandom treats him SO MUCH#i will sit in my corner here. and i will kiss m#m.ine. and we will kiss a lot. and things are good. we are happy. we are far away from all of that.#I'm not saying every fan of his is horrible. I've seen a lot of great stuff and content! but holy shit I've seen some horrible stuff too#and it's hard to not feel like I'm doing something wrong by shipping with him. by loving a guy who the world has always hated.#and ofc I'm not! but still! even whenever i rb content of him here I'm always so afraid ajdhajsj#like ah yes this is the day i finally get cancelled on tumblr dot com for (checks notes) ... shipping with y.oshitaka m.ine??#I'm honestly afraid to take him up to being an official f/o ajdhajsb i think he'll stay in crush jail a little while longer..#i hate how the fandom perceives him so much!!!!!!! i also just hate the y.akuza fandom in general lmao#i do also like k.iryu so.. I've seen shit 😐#I'll delete this later but oh boy i am in a mood#and i know this isnt the first time I've blogged about this#and for that i do apologize. but i really do love this guy and despite wanting to look for content of him i always end up finding the most#infuriating shit!#i know he's done fucked up things. he's not a great guy. but! our relationship is built on mutual trust and i will NEVER write any of that#creepy obsessive shit that the stupid fandom always portrays him as doing! he's not going to kill someone for getting too close to me-#I'm just... upset- get behind me honey! I'll shield you!#and by kissing him I'm not brushing over any of the shit he does in the game. yes he beheaded that guy. yeah he slapped that orphan.#but i adore him and omg i hit tag limit... oopsie daisy lol sorry guys 😭 I'm really sorry for always talking abt this#you were beautiful 💸
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hey tuna ^-^ do you have other rare pairs you like ^-^
(I'm giving you the mic to ramble as much as you want hehe ^-^_ 🎤)
hiiiiiiii artsy :3
so I actually sat and thought about this all night and into the morning today to think about this because I really need to get MORE than I already have. because I love to provide <3
recently got on the casual cleosuma train as you know because I really love how cleo and xisuma interact so playfully with each other. and I think cleo cares a lot about their friends in general and the way they show it is sometimes not so obvious/kind of mixed into how they act with people in general. i think it's also what makes cledubs so intriguing, because cleo is just kind of playfully mean to their friends and collects these (often argumentative) guys they can mess with. they're very "yes and" to me. I like the dynamic a lot, and I think cleo wouldn't let xisuma beat himself up at all.**
I don't think it counts but I fell very deeply very quickly into exhels, which I assumed was a lot more popular than I later found out on ao3 LOL. I think all that needs to be said is they should not be with anyone else. their toxic yaoi is there own <3
um. looks around. been getting really into uh. welsno. I'm afraid I'm not allowed to speak much on the topic lest someone bite me but I really like how hypno kind of brings out wels' silly. wels is already a cheerful guy with a pranking streak, but I think when it comes to hypno he's willing to go above and beyond rules lawyer with him, which I loved in season 10 so far. them being neighbors changed me. I think they would gossip with each other.
and if it wasn't already clear, tangtho is so near and dear to my heart. yes they are friends. but I think they could also be not just friends. I think redstoners should fall in love, and I think etho and tango match each other's freak very well. there's something between them that just kind of clicks with how they handle intricate redstone projects and how they build, and I feel like they understand how each other's minds work really well. plus etho's obsession with decked out and now he has the minigame curse. telling!
if it counts at all, since it was the only yogs related ship I could think of, shep and myke got me horribly into bangarry (bedgar/angorytom/brryhrry (ben, tom, and harry)) and I'm still here fawning over them. I think they're a criminally underrated trio and there's something wrong with them. they're also only together because shep and myke said so and then brought me along for lore reasons. <3
**kind of partially related to xisuma and co, but I found after watching stress I think her and xisuma kind of sound similar! and I started to run with a sibling theory that i think more people should investigate :3c
OKAY! that unfortunately was all I could think of and is dreadfully lacking in lesbians. please submit to me all of your favorite ships so I may partake in the joy of knowing them. this has been a tunastime PSA.
thanks artsy!!!!!
#THAAAANK YOUUUUU HEHEHEHE#this was very fun to think about <3#anD YOUR TAGS RECENTLY ARE MAKING ME SO EMOTIONAL#the number one sen supporter showing up in my inbox#my wonderful friend and mutual sam artsybook#thank you for this wonderful opportunity#hermitshipping#i'm very biased toward the hermits LOL if you could not tell#text#asks#artsy-book#there's some yogshipping in here#i just need to. start being worse about life series rarepairs
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I'll stop posting wips eventually but it's been five days since I've said anything and I don't want anyone to think I'm dead/dying/stuck in a ditch and withering away, so here's 10% of the reason I disappeared (the duck is stuck in rendering hell) (and my little baby laptop is screaming at me every time I open up this file)
I might still be mostly lurking for a little bit so please be patient with me in the meantime 🙏🙏
#seriously though I'm sorry for just up and disappearing like that#wanna talk to people and interact with them so bad lately but I just can't bring myself to do it#so the best i can manage is blabbing in the tags like always#i don't know wtf is going on but over the past few days I've just felt like i don't deserve to talk to anyone#tried to reblog posts from mutuals several times but something in my head keeps saying;#'yeah they don't actually care for your input at all and you're being a bother for even trying etc etc'#and i know deep down that's probably not true (i hope) but i can't reason it away you know#and i know the best solution to this is to just talk to someone#let it be known that i *did* make an attempt to#i tried texting someone (and succeeded) but i couldn't keep doing it and I'm back at square one (and now feel worse lmao)#i'm not really putting this here for anybody to see it as much as i am for myself#but i know that (hypothetically) this could be seen by a real human so it still kinda feels like I'm reaching out in a way which feels nice#makes me feel less like I'm shriveling up in my own self imposed solitude#so uh hello person who might be reading the tags (there's six of you guys here now which is crazy cause i post nothing but junk here lol)#((but thanks anyway for following and even more thanks for reading this if you did))#i'll make my way around all the posts i missed soon enough don't worry#i'm sorry i'm really not meaning to ignore anybody#i have drafted quite a few posts from moots that i couldn't finish leaving comments on but i have seen them#everyone here is super cool and talented as always <3 whether that be through art or writing or just finding neat posts to share#this wall of text is long enough and i'm very eeby so thank you again for reading this#tldr; not dead and i'll be okay eventually :)#not rb#hey look i didn't post a picture of my dog this time (a crime)#i'll make sure to share one the next time i get a good one
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