#I'm just so icked out by it

[ephemeral-happiness-forever]

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[orengejoshi]

Pregnancy as a kink makes me uncomfortable so man am I glad your pregg Flug stuff is explicitly not kink oriented!

yeah I... don't wanna judge anyone... but it's more than that, it's downright terrifying to me. Blame my hormones bc I'm expecting irl but wow... I'm very sensitive and it feels dehumanizing. but ig that is kinda the point of the kink(?)

it's so common in fandoms!

I'm completely vanilla anyway tho, so not surprising.

I've tried to pretend for a super long time that I'm into kink, but most of them are off putting and I consider them intrusive thoughts, not fantasies. I'm kinda fluctuating between sex-repulsed and neutral (aroace) even fictional... ig kink just isn't for me. I tried so hard to get over it. I know some people in my asks/requests are gonna be disappointed but I'm sorry💔

I'm slightly ashamed of how boring I am and I have serious trouble connecting to anyone in fandoms due to this actually🤕 feel like the most NT autistic person ever.

anyway here's a doodle!

[tolerateit]

i'm having feelings about the way mental health has been discussed in this album and tbh none of them are good... as someone who was drawn to taylor's lyricism when i first started listening to her i'm only enjoying this album because i like the music production lol i'm straight up ignoring so many lyrics. not that there aren't any good ones it's just that so many of them are making me feel icky. idk i know it's meant to be raw or whatever but so many lyrics sound so unkind when it comes to dealing with mental health issues specifically. what do you think about it, especially since you're majoring in psychology?

This is such an interesting point, because I've been having several thoughts about the way mental health is being discussed in the fandom rn. Right from swifties giggling at the that one interview where she says "I don't need therapy. I'm sane." (as if therapy is only for someone "insane", whatever that is) and joking about the psych ward, taking the asylum and functional alcoholic lyrics in light and lowkey making fun of someone's addiction is just....disgusting? I think taylor tried to be earnest in her portrayal of her struggles but it's getting lost in translation for me, because some of the lyrics seemed to not only imply that her partner's struggles with depression or addiction were a reason for the relationship to fall apart (which is fine, that happens and is an extremely difficult process for both partners) but also point out how it's their fault for not being able to get over those struggles? I keep reiterating that I still haven't played the album in its entirety so it's possible I'm missing a few facts, but there is a very fine line between expressing your mental health issues through art in a way that is cathartic and important to the artist + inspiring to their audience and cherry picking imagery that you find the most "aesthetic" for your art with little concern over how those who actually experience these issues may perceive it + its actual public reception

[wayfinderships]

The week has already started and I already wish it was over😔

[rolandkaros]

i hate how self-conscious i've become of my writing like i used to publish completely unedited plotless extremely out of character bullshit two times a week and now i work on one (1) piece for three months and hate it the whole way through. idk why i can't convince myself that it's good bc i've been told literally my whole life that i'm a good writer but for some reason now when i read my own writing it feels like listening to nails on a chalkboard.

[merevide]

caved and watched the first 5 episodes of hotd and rn all i gotta say is i wouldn't even wish the fate of being a high ranking offical's daughter/wife in the GoT universe onto my worst enemy godddd

[justalittlebluetiefling]

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[angeltism]

The "joining editblr because it seems super fun and editing looks so awesome to do and it's so neat to create things" to "wanting to be cutesy and talented for attention and fame and making the cutesy talented people to like me" to "burnt out and unable to create" to "I actually kinda hate a lot of people in editblr now and cannot stand even looking at their blogs or posts" journey sure was an interesting one to experience first-hand over the past nearly 2 years

[britneyshakespeare]

what is incredibly annoying about the internet is that someone's argumentative-toned political vent post can circulate to a few hundred or thousand people and be generally agreed with by people seeing their broader point, and then be screenshotted and circulated again by ppl who mostly also saw it the first time around, but it's vituperatively disagreed with while picking apart the original post's wording to imply that the original poster meant something particularly stupid or wrong when what is being attacked is not the actual point.

[transgender-catboy]

Literally on my hands and KNEES!!!

Why can't people make plushies for Peter B too? There's tons of Miguel plushies, I just wanna get one of my guy...

[theirloveisgross]

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[christmassavestheyear]

maybe it's time for me to move on.............

[pa-pa-plasma]

(pick the one that applies most to you & elaborate in the tags/comments if you want)

[outer-edges]

so one of my many inexplicable fic icks for the last of us is whenever there's a fic that just likely completely ignores everything about the finale and just goes along with a whole “happily ever after in jackson” thing.

i've never really been able to pinpoint a specific reason, but i think its because even if you ignore the fact that it is so insane to just remove the entirety of their experience with the fireflies and make them live happily ever after. they just…won’t…like it’s not going to be happily ever after for them because joel IS NOT ellie’s dad, and that’s not an emotional framework she even has. like dad doesn’t mean anything to her. to her, joel is her best friend. joel is family. joel is hers. she’s his. they belong like all that shit riley talked about with her family. but being a daughter and having a father isn’t something ellie even understands to fit herself into. her only experience with quote unquote “fatherhood” is david, and to him that meant disgusting control exerted over her. i think that entire experience probably gave her an extremely complicated relationship with the concept of father's in and of itself. so, even if she has this father-daughter type relationship with joel, that's not how she's ever going to associate him.

so, to her, joel is just joel. she loves him and cares for him deeply and he’s hers and she’s his, but he’s still just joel. he isn’t dad. he won’t ever be dad.

but to him, ellie isn’t just ellie. ellie is daughter.

daughter and dad is a very different dynamic than just inexplicably connected family. joel is going to exert a certain amount of control over her life, the kind that is perfectly healthy for parents to have, but she’s not going to accept it, and that’s going to cause problems for them. because it’ll be different than when they were on the road. then, everything joel did was to keep her safe. then he ordered her to do things like check her six and stay quiet and go hide while he takes care of business.

in jackson, in regular life, it’s going to be different. it’s going to be things like bedtimes and going to school and curfew and shit that ellie will reject because of her previous experience with it (FEDRA, david, etc). like this cognitive dissonance between them is going to cause problems. even though they care about each other just as much, they aren't really on the same page when it comes to what they are to each other.

that’s what they’re going to work through. those are conflicts they would face even if they do get happily ever after. which, that isn't something really see anyone working through, and the absence of it rubs me the wrong way in ways i can't really explain. i think it's because this cognitive dissonance is something that would cause such a big strain on their relationship. even if everything went perfectly fine with the fireflies, or whatever, they still would have interpersonal conflict. it isn’t just ellie’s nightmares that are solved by platonic cuddling. their monsters are much closer to the heart than that.

she’s not his daughter. and he sure as hell ain’t her dad. but they’re going to figure it out anyway.

[non-un-topo]

I am right there with u about the wanting to write dark stuff bestie I feel u

Yeeaahh, like thematically dark and serious fanfiction can be a lot of fun to write and read, if you're into that! I know a lot of people prefer fluff, and that's completely reasonable. There's something cathartic about dark stuff to me. Especially if the canon material is rather dark already, I find it like a sort of refreshing change from a lot of fluff, let's say.

I will always encourage people to write whatever they wish, so long as the dark story in question isn't, y'know, deliberately offensive, exploitative, or racist/phobic in any way. Beta and sensitivity readers also help with catching stuff like this, and therefore are always wonderful to have. I think there are people in every fandom who write dark stuff for the sake of being upsetting or shocking, so to be clear that's not what I mean (nor is it what I think you mean, nonnie) when I say I like to write dark stuff 😅 I just enjoy the violence, fear, grief, anger, etc. It shows up in a lot of my writing and it really helps me get through some stuff.

But yeah, I always say write what you want! Even if only five people read it. (This advice does not apply to me because I have self-esteem issues with my writing lol). I have read some of the most gorgeous fics in the tog fandom that are pretty dark. Not necessarily angsty all the way through, just dealing with serious themes in a way that's very true to canon. This is just me telling a general audience that it's possible to write dark stuff without being offensive and upsetting and exploitative. Give me more canon-typical violence and horror and anger! And of course it's always important to be kind and tag your works correctly!

[vulpixelates]

i am so sad that isuzu/rin wasn't really in the og fruits basket anime that i watched as a kid (as far as i can remember?) bc she legit would have rewired my brain chemistry

like. my little baby gay, goth middle school heart would have been OBSESSED w her on sight. even now i want half of her outfits, like just look at them