#and talking outloud to myself
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outer-edges · 2 years ago
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so one of my many inexplicable fic icks for the last of us is whenever there's a fic that just likely completely ignores everything about the finale and just goes along with a whole “happily ever after in jackson” thing.
i've never really been able to pinpoint a specific reason, but i think its because even if you ignore the fact that it is so insane to just remove the entirety of their experience with the fireflies and make them live happily ever after. they just…won’t…like it’s not going to be happily ever after for them because joel IS NOT ellie’s dad, and that’s not an emotional framework she even has. like dad doesn’t mean anything to her. to her, joel is her best friend. joel is family. joel is hers. she’s his. they belong like all that shit riley talked about with her family. but being a daughter and having a father isn’t something ellie even understands to fit herself into. her only experience with quote unquote “fatherhood” is david, and to him that meant disgusting control exerted over her. i think that entire experience probably gave her an extremely complicated relationship with the concept of father's in and of itself. so, even if she has this father-daughter type relationship with joel, that's not how she's ever going to associate him.
so, to her, joel is just joel. she loves him and cares for him deeply and he’s hers and she’s his, but he’s still just joel. he isn’t dad. he won’t ever be dad.
but to him, ellie isn’t just ellie. ellie is daughter.
daughter and dad is a very different dynamic than just inexplicably connected family. joel is going to exert a certain amount of control over her life, the kind that is perfectly healthy for parents to have, but she’s not going to accept it, and that’s going to cause problems for them. because it’ll be different than when they were on the road. then, everything joel did was to keep her safe. then he ordered her to do things like check her six and stay quiet and go hide while he takes care of business.
in jackson, in regular life, it’s going to be different. it’s going to be things like bedtimes and going to school and curfew and shit that ellie will reject because of her previous experience with it (FEDRA, david, etc). like this cognitive dissonance between them is going to cause problems. even though they care about each other just as much, they aren't really on the same page when it comes to what they are to each other.
that’s what they’re going to work through. those are conflicts they would face even if they do get happily ever after. which, that isn't something really see anyone working through, and the absence of it rubs me the wrong way in ways i can't really explain. i think it's because this cognitive dissonance is something that would cause such a big strain on their relationship. even if everything went perfectly fine with the fireflies, or whatever, they still would have interpersonal conflict. it isn’t just ellie’s nightmares that are solved by platonic cuddling. their monsters are much closer to the heart than that.
she’s not his daughter. and he sure as hell ain’t her dad. but they’re going to figure it out anyway.
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lloydfrontera · 3 months ago
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javier, gathering every molecule of subtlety in his entire body and holding onto it for dear life and a deep desire to be trusted: and just so we're clear, i trust you. no matter what you say, no matter how crazy it is or how insane it sounds, i will believe you. you have earned my full trust several times over and i will follow you anywhere you go, in this world or any another. so you can tell me anything. whatever you want. no matter what it is. i will trust and support you. just so you know.
lloyd, absolutely keeping a secret that sounds crazy and/or insane and that has been eating him alive for several years now: what a funny and weird thing to say that does not concern or apply to my situation beyond the most superficial of levels at all. anyway. i'm so glad javier doesn't suspect a thing about me :)
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kazzsk2 · 11 days ago
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Extra doodle i did earlier
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drifting-andromeda · 5 months ago
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I know Atsushi is considered an abandoned child, from what the headmaster indicated. The headmaster also indicated that Atsushi's birth parents were super abusive to him, and I know that's also a popular theory in the fandom, but what if the opposite was true? What if they were super caring and loving towards him and wanted nothing but good things for him? Idk, but being born into a loving family only to have that ripped away for whatever reason while your still an infant is 100x worse to me than being born into abuse and then going to another abusive place.
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skuntank · 3 months ago
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Not to be a total cornball but my heart feels so full of love rn
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heaven-dope · 10 months ago
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its so crazy how popular labru is now like i remember going through the tags and all i saw was kabumisu (this is a good ship. it is excellent, even - just seeing an influx of labru is crazy and a pleasant surprise for me)
i think kabru and laios are both freaks and nobody is wrong to be highlighting this because it is hysterical. but im also like 🥺 i love looking at their growing friendship and how kabru wanted to be laios's friend to understand him and theyre finally getting that!! foils meeting in the middle and appreciating the other!!
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loveriotss · 3 months ago
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me starting new drafts knowing full well that i haven't finished any of my previous ones
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trans-yllz · 11 months ago
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ivycrowned · 1 year ago
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Astarion: *rolling dice sound* Hm. That looks worth checking out.
me: *blind as a bat, had a menu open, frantically searching* WHAT DO YOUR ELF EYES SEE?
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icewindandboringhorror · 6 months ago
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Apparently I can meet my goal of roughly 400,000 words in 6 months if I just somehow write at least 2,200 words a day ghbjh... Almost 2,500 today... huzzah...
#Definitely not going to be able to stick with it just due to like... being realistic about my energy levels and etc. ESPECIALLY as we#enter the Evil Summer and it becomes hot all the time. But... one can attempt.. at least...#I'm also a very slow writer since I tend to re-read and edit while I write. and only move onto the next section once what I'm writing#seems okay. Which is easy for visual novel type stuff. since ''sections'' of a conversation are more clearly marked (like if you#have a menu option with 5 different dialogue choices. finish the character's response for choice 1 before moving onto 2. etc.)#Especially since when I'm done with a whole quest I always follow it up by playing through it and picking every option and making sure it#actually all works okay and etc. So I am already going to see it all a second time. Then I can go back and reorder a few words or remove#certain sentences that don't sound natural when I read them out loud (I always read it all outloud to myself since it is... just peple#talking.. it should sound like natural dialogue in their voice. etc). But my ''first draft'' is kind of not as first drafty since I pause t#edit a lot as I go along. So it also takes longer probably than it would take other people who I think treat a first draft as more#of a loose guideline or something. AANYWAY...#80F in my bedroom right now again... huzzah... I did end up finishing and recording that sims build video before the heat wave (or is#it really a heat wave if it's just summer..?? lol) came in.. but now... augh.. the editing... plus the costume photos and all else... Much#to do as always.. Often such a long todo list.. a giant scroll hung upon the walls of the evil hermit wizard tower..#Anyhow.. I hope I can finish getting ready for bed early in time to reward myself with a game of tripeaks solitaire whilst I snack on#cheddar cheese and some of those preserved artichokes in a jar. hrgm... I actually have nasturtiums (ultimate best flower) on the#deck again this year but I had to move them all into a corner today because the leaves were getting burnt by the sun lol.. Also am now more#cautiously weaving through social media to ignore all dragon age news. NOT bc of spoilers (I actually love spoilers/literally never play#any game until there's full guides on it I can read to plan my entire playthrough based on knowing exactly what I want to happen lol + mods#and etc.) but just because I'm so busy with my ownprojects I simply do not have the brainspace to dedicate... Yes I love to think#about elves and fictional universe lore. but no.. I pretend I do not see it. Does not exist to me actually. ghgj.. OHH also took som#cool pictures of flowers in the garden section of a store and I wanted to do like.. character designs based on the colors of the flowers o#something. but that might just be another unnecessary project to add to the pile.. I want to commit to the daunting task of dyeing my#hair again some time.. hrm.. this is all of the updates I can think of. As if a bunch of random tags make up for never posting anything for#weeks on end lol.. alas.. too warm to think properly I suppose.. .. I neeeeeed a long lost relative to leave me some million dollar#estate in their will so I can have the resources to move to a colder climate or something ..augh#.. but for now.. I shall toil away in my little wizard tower trying to write 2000 something words a day whilst sweating and such ghbj
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kaibaspuppy · 7 months ago
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I SAW HIM WITH HIS TITS OUT IT'S SO FUCKING OVERRR
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cryptidsandchamomile · 1 year ago
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I'm so tired of masking I feel like I'm gonna tear my skin off
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faultlinescrew · 1 year ago
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^ I can't do this with worm bc canon already does a good enough job so I'm just imagining them doing the most mundane of shit
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got an interview in an hour im near 'n shittin meself here
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shiroselia · 1 year ago
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There is genuinely nothing that makes me happier than a) being know as the dialogue guy among my friends b) teaching people about how to write dialogue because it's my baby and people tend to find it difficult and I LOVE TEACHING PEOPLE MY DIALOGUE TIPS
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sleepytoycollection · 2 years ago
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aside from Scarah I've been de-gluing other dolls as well, and, predictably, it ruined Nefera's tinsel
instead of re-tinseling though I might just leave the old now-white tinsel? it reminds me of her white streak from her boo york doll
or I wonder if you could re color it some how instead of rooting? because I don't really like the tinsel options I've seen for dolls online. it looks very thick and stiff and not a great match to G1 tinsel
worst comes to worst I will pull it out and she'll just have her green and black and it'll look fine I'm sure, I'm just weighing my options.
oh! I wonder if gold thread would work ? it's a little unravel-y but a dab of fabric glue would fix that
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