#I'm just also a bit concerned about someone using that to find my main blog and causing problems there

[damnaation]

Debating whether or not to port my fics to ao3. Pros: they're safe and easy to find

Cons: Jesus Christ this fandom is full of children who love to harass people for writing ""gross stuff"" and dragging it out into the public eye

[ask-aph-hws-iceland]

[OOC: hello! Paiko here! I just have a few things I'd like to discuss. Now, I do have to make a few disclaimers before I go on. I absolutely do not condone the harassment of anyone regardless of what I may discuss and how it may apply to anyone. I also want to make it known that this doesn't mean anything for my ask blog. I'm not abandoning it. Iceland is here to stay! I also would like to clarify that this doesn't apply to most of the people I've interacted with on this ask blog. Most of you are absolutely wonderful, and (contrarily to my portrayal of Iceland) I am a huge extrovert, so I absolutely love interacting with everyone.

That being said, I've noticed that some of us aren't too familiar with some common unspoken rules of having an ask blog, so I'll try to bring a few up, shall I?

Let's start with something simple.

1)You are not entitled to anyone's character. I'll try to say this as nicely as possible, but you're not playing dolls with your siblings where you can make demands as to how the story should go. Your version of a character is not absolute and people should not have to alter their character to fit your own mold. It is also very sucky to try and force your headcanons onto someone else. If you really dislike someone's character so much, you're more than welcome to find another ask blog.

2) your right to swing your fist ends at the tip of my nose. This one is slightly related to the last one, so it'll be a bit shorter. Do not try to force your chosen course of events onto someone else. Yes, we all love having our characters in strange little scenarios, but if someone isn't cool with that, that's a shame, but it never gives you the right to try and force them into it. Creating an arc in an ask blog community is... Hard. It's hard to get everyone on board. A great example of an arc well done is the meeting arc we had for a bit. That was funny, super sweet and it was actually quite immersive. Everyone had fun, we all caused chaos, it was great. When someone isn't entirely on board, then it gets a little unfortunate. If you want to have a full arc with a fellow ask blog you can communicate over PMs. I know not all of us care to use them, but it can be very helpful in coordinating something like this so there are no issues later on. Especially if said arc deals with any form of rivalry or conflict. Otherwise, you're just attacking someone for no apparent reason.

3) your fellow ask bloggers are not therapists. A bit of character angst can be nice when done right. It can help explore these kinds of issues in a digestible way, but when it's essentially just using mental health issues as a plot point to get the story where you want it, that's when we start having problems. I mentioned this before on my main blog, but trivializing mental health under the guise of representation really does not sit quite right with me and nor should it anyone else. My interpretation of Iceland is a really insecure teen. It plays a lot into his character and he has this self-deprecating humour that can come across as concerning at times. The difference here is that Iceland's character is not seeking help here. His character is meant to be relatable. A lot of us make this sort of joke. When it's just 'oh, this arc isn't going how I wanted it to? That's fine, let me just have the character have some serious mental problems as a result of that!' then I have a huge issue with it. If your character is the type to always complain about their life and walk around with a half empty bottle of booze belligerently yelling about their happenings, it's important that this character is treated as a punchline. Even as someone who has never and will never drink, I can recognise how funny and tension breaking a character like that can be.

4) please respect other people's personal rules. Some of us dislike shipping and whatnot for various reasons. Keep in mind that a lot of the people you interact with are minors. This isn't a dating simulator. I, for example, forbid shipping as Iceland is a minor and I am personally not comfortable with shipping him even if the other character is also a minor. If you're cool with that, fantastic! But not on my blog. This plays into the whole not forcing your storyline on someone else point, but it's important to me that people understand that when someone says they're uncomfortable with something, stay away from that something while interacting with them. I've stated wanting to keep this blog mostly PG. That is a boundary, not a request. I can and will ban anyone who disregards mine or anyone else's rules.

I'm sorry if this post came across as a little harsh. I don't mean to attack anyone. I'm just trying to ensure everyone's safety here. If you see a problem with anything I've said don't be scared to bring anything up. It never hurts to discuss.

Once again, thank you for coming to my yap session.]

[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

Hi Raven!

I’ve read your recent writings for the Fellow blog event (the one where Fellow meets Jamil and the one where Fellow is informed of who exactly was in the NRC Playful Land group) and that’s got me curious.

I know this is mostly speculation, but who do you imagine Fellow’s ex-employer to be such that he would be so casual about the identities of his marks? People like Jack, Ace, and Trey are ordinary and come from ordinary families. I would understand for the likes of Vil and if you stretch it, Cater, who while rich and/or influential (or are the children of such people) can still be considered ‘regular’ rich kids. My point is that sadly I feel it wouldn’t be hard for their kidnapping to be labelled as a tragic disappearance and swept under the rug.

But then concerning others such as Kalim, Leona, the Tweels, Ortho, and such, it would spell much trouble for the kidnappers? As Jamil put it to Fellow, them disappearing isn’t a matter that can simply be hand waved away. I have no doubt that Fellow’s ex-employers aren’t small time crooks and actually have power, but surely that power has its limits in the face of what they would have to deal with. They wouldn’t be incurring the wrath of one force, it would be many. Many forces, I might add, with the power and resources to track them down even through unofficial means. As a side note, Book 6 showed us how Idia was willing to destroy the world for Ortho.

Then again, it could just be Fellow’s hubris getting the better of him such that he has vastly overestimated the capabilities of his ex-employers? He seems to me like someone on the lower rungs (sorry Fellow) of the Playful Land criminal endeavor and wouldn’t be privy to the details or who exactly is involved. I dunno, maybe I’m thinking too much into this. But it would be nice to hear your thoughts on the matter!

[Referencing this post and this post!]

Yes, Fellow is very small fish to fry compared to his employers. We learn in his Playful Dress vignettes that Fellow only took up the Playful Land gig because he happened to find a job posting for it that pays well. It's not likely that he has a lot of say in what goes on if they were looking to hire just about anyone willing to do the dirty work, despite claiming to be the park manager.

While he doesn't seem to know the exact details of who the more influential boys of the group are, he at least knows about their affiliation with THE prestigious Night Raven College (which is partly why he targets them in the first place). However, Fellow does still demonstrate complete assurance that they can get away with their entire operation. I think this is the result of two factors. One is, as you may have suggested, Fellow not knowing much about the inner workings of the organization (and thus having no knowledge of its limits). The other is far scarier (and seems to be more likely to me due to the evidence we have on hand), which hints at a criminal underbelly in Twisted Wonderland that holds even more money and influence than even the Asim family has. The latter is implied, as Fellow brags quite often about his benefactors and even discusses the construction of the park as being the result of many powerful mages. Cater also mentions early in the event that Playful Land has been trending on socials lately, but this also implies that NONE of the people that went missing after going to the park made headlines or drew suspicion to Playful Land. This means that not only do the people behind the park have money, but somehow also the far-reaching power to control literally every bit of information on the web about them. Let's not forget too that they SOMEHOW have the technological capabilities to jam and limit Ortho's capabilities, even though this guy was made by a genius inventor.

Now look, I'm not saying that frightening organizations like this don't exist in real life. To deny that is to be ignorant. What I am saying is that for game like Twst (where several of the main characters are from very crazy wealthy families), it's asking us to do a LOT of suspension of disbelief in order to sell the story. This is just the beginning of my list of gripes with the logic of Playful Land. If you want to read more of my thoughts on the subject, you can check out this post!

[fairyqueentitana]

Let's talk about Marinette

Marinette Dupain Cheng is the main character of The Miraculous Adventures of Ladybug and Chat Noir. As my cousin has recently found this fandom, I rewatched it. I have several issues that I need to address, but we shall start with Marinette's first.

The obsessive behaviour linked to her crush, Adrien Agreste - not many understand how creepy this is. Still, Marinette believes she is so in love with Adrien that she resorts to highly obsessive and stalker-like behaviours. A key example is that she keeps a large copy of his personal schedule, then she has multiple photos of him. Luckily, all these photos seem to be from his modelling or group hangouts. Then there was that sniffing the clothing scene. It was frankly very disturbing. If this is indeed what the creators think is normal behaviour for a girl with a crush, I am worried for the boys their girl's crush on. Then I worry about the young girls who said they relate to her behaviour. Her crush is obsessive and creepy luckily as time goes on I see her following more normal behaviours.

How she deals with the Lila Rossi Problem - What concerns me about her situation with Lila is that she does not inform her parents at all. I understand not telling Ms.Bustier as the woman is an enabler and push-over. However, it seems to indicate that Marinette's relationship with her parents is not as perfect as once portrayed. Hiding her status as Ladybug and the guardian might be the reason, but in a way it isolates her. The high-road advice from Adrien that she follows is also infuriating and how her friends basically ignore her telling them the truth due to their belief she is jealous. Marinette has no clear support, and it shows how hard it is for her. Her friends believing Lila over her is the first true introduction to betrayal. Yet she does not grow much from it, showing that Marinette herself is holding on with a lot of hope in them but not vice versa.

Her relationship with Luka - We get a chance to see her in a proper relationship. However, it's coloured by her acceptance of Adrien being with Kagami and the fact she is growing as a person. Luka seems to be a great person for her and she acknowledges this,however, is ruined by her responsibilities as Ladybug. She eventually has to say goodbye to Luka when he leaves Paris for both her and Chat Noir's sake. Marinette is always going to be tied to Adrien even when she moves on, which is annoying. It allows her no growth.

Her relationship with Chat Noir - I understand they are teens and occasionally will make decisions using only their emotions and later regret it. However, I find Chat Noir/Adrien's assistance to be with Ladybug even when she turns him down a bit uncomfortable. He has not crossed any boundaries, but he seems to have no concept of well understanding that he needs to stop. Marinette often does keep up the banter, but she is very clear that she and Chat are not a couple. Even when he is with Kagami, he still hits on her and I'm uncomfortable with that. Marinette has a problem actually saying no and I'm starting to notice it.

Just because you like someone does not mean you do everything they say - Adrien tells her not to expose Lila, and she holds back. He tells her he is disappointed about the farewell Chloe party and she immediately wilts. She changes herself and her opinions to cater to him. It is something a lot of us can relate to but also realise was wrong. How many of you can say that she should have explained to him why his advice and lecture were wrong?

Why tell Alya her identity? - I get she was stressed and felt like she was drowning but Alya was one of the persons that encouraged her obsessive crush, runs a blog hoping to reveal her superhero identity and who so easily believed Lila over Marinette. Best friend or not, she had other options like her parents or even Luka (before he found out and left) An anon recently assumed that I disliked the show based on my criticisms of Marinette but I don't. All good characters need flaws without flaws a perfect character is boring. However, there are some things I feel compelled to comment on. Marinette is a teenager going through it, but every time she shows growth and takes several steps forward, the creators pull her eight steps back. Marinette deserves true growth that shows aka take a hint from the fandom we are screaming at this point.

[hfjonewiki]

Hi! I hope this isn't a strange thing to ask but could you tell me more about ii-critical? I'm writing a research paper on the ii community and I wanna gain more insight to what that part of the fandom was all about.

My main questions are: Why did it exist? Why were you apart of it? What were the posts like? What was the biggest drama? Hell, what platform was it even on??

I wasn't that deep in the OSC when it was up and running (only really got into the community in ~2018) so a lot of community context from that era is lost on me. If you have any other object show oldhead insight for ii you wanna share, please do! I find fandom fascinating and would love to here more stories.

hoooo boy...... cracks knuckles. i went over it a little bit in a previous post but i'll try and give more info this time

(also this should go without saying but please don't try and seek out anyone mentioned or involved its been like 6-7 years since all this happened. also most of us were mentally unstable teenagers hence the. everything)

ii-critical originated as a tumblr blog created by someone named mira (i have no idea if they still go by mira or what their pronouns are now. i'm just gonna stick to they/them for convenience) as a way for them to discuss their criticisms towards the show's writing. the blog was created in mid-to-late 2017, during a time period where "(media) critical" was becoming a common tag. the trend was started by "su critical", a tag created by steven universe fans to discuss the show's faults in response to the show being in a rut of making some VERY dubious decisions (i believe it was started around bismuth's introduction, which was heavily criticized at the time for MANY reasons). the "critical" tags were often created for fandoms who tended to be hostile towards criticism of the media they were based around. the inanimate insanity fandom didn't really have that issue, thankfully. and so, the blog "ii-critical" was born.

at the beginning, the posts were about mira going through an episode beat by beat, and pointing out things they both liked and disliked about it. occasionally, there were posts analyzing a specific character. i'm kind of speeding through the "what were the posts like" section because that is by far the LEAST interesting part of the ii-critical mythos

i found the blog very shortly after its creation. it caught me at a good time, because i was at a point where i was becoming disillusioned with the show (episode 11 was the most recent episode at this point, and i really disliked it due to it being at the peak of ii's melodrama era. the show just felt miserable to watch. s2e11 sucking butt is still an opinion i stand by today Lolzor). mira and i started talking and i was brought on as the blog's other moderator, and i wrote my own analysis posts.

the blog was decently successful and didn't actually get that much hate. most people agreed with our criticisms and were, like, normal about the concept of a thing they liked being flawed. at some point we had a decent amount of followers and made the ill-fated decision to create a discord server for the blog. for added context: at the time of the server's creation, mira was 13, and i was 14. we were NOT old enough to be running a public discord server that at least 50+ people ended up joining.

the server had a lot of problems, mainly in regards to the channels. since we were both at the age where you are hormonal and stupid, we decided to make the nsfw channel accessible to everyone, and didn't even ask for people to include their ages in their intros. a concerning amount of people assumed that mira and i were both adults, or at least older teens until we said otherwise. we also had a blacklist and vent channel, which, word of advice, you should NOT have in a public server. shit gets out of hand SO fast. i vividly remember there being at least one guy who posted in the vent channel on a near-daily basis about pretty serious stuff. trust me when i say that people shared some HORRIFIC information in there. also, we had an emoji that was just a drawing of donut from bfdi with his whole cock and balls hanging out because we thought it was funny. i'm pretty sure there wasn't a "please don't post the donut balls emoji in non-nsfw channels" rule anywhere either.

i could go into more detail about various happenings, but that delves too deeply into interpersonal drama that frankly has no business being shared publicly. one of the most concerning things that happened, however, was this one guy who would come in vc, barely say anything, and fuck around with his gun the whole time. and yes, you could hear it. eventually we got reports of him being predatory towards a younger member of the server, and he was banned. i think that was the first thing that made mira and i go, "oh, we might've fucked up". there was also another incident where somebody was leaking information from inside the server (yet another reason why the vent channel was a HORRIBLE idea), and we banned a bunch of inactive people until eventually realizing somebody had stolen the username and pfp of a real user and impersonated them to stay in the server. this whole ordeal lasted like, two weeks. and again!! we were just BARELY no longer preteens at this point!! and we still thought, yeah, we can handle this. we're super capable. at one point we hired two other moderators (one of whom was 14-15, and the other was an actual adult for once. having an adult moderator led to us FINALLY locking the nsfw channel off to minors, since we had somebody who could moderate it for us), but this was towards the end so most of the damage had already been done

i was removed as a moderator on the blog after a large amount of interpersonal nonsense that, again, i'm not going to get into. it was mainly just because i was spending too much time in the server instead of posting on the blog like i was supposed to. a couple weeks later, i was suddenly banned from the server and mira had blocked me on everything. again, interpersonal nonsense and both of us being mentally unstable, not anyone's business. we reconciled a few months after and both apologized for being dumbasses, so we at least ended things on better terms.

another notable thing is that sometimes, crew members would pop in and out of the server, and they were surprisingly chill about the blog's existence. it was mainly justin and sam from what i remember, and resulted in this legendary image:

i don't remember this bit, but at some point taylor may have responded to one of our posts and was Not Nice about it? again, i don't remember this, take it with a grain of salt. but knowing his history with getting into shit with fans for no reason and how it got to the point where it was cited as a reason he was removed from the team, yeah that tracks

talking about ii-critical is strange, because i don't know where to draw the line between "infamous blog from the early days of the tumblr osc", "stupid pointless infighting between teenagers", and "genuinely horrible decisions and moderation that caused real damage". i'm trying to stick to just the first one and giving info about the last one when necessary. i'm aware a lot of this is gonna paint my past self in a VERY unflattering light, but that's who i was and what i did when i was 14 and i just have to accept that.

ii-critical was just a facet of the tumblr osc circa 2017. a lot of what happened can be traced back to larger issues with the fandom, especially when it came to restrictions on nsfw content. remember, this is pre-tumblr porn ban. i knew an ALARMING amount of people who had nsfw blogs, and even posted nsfw art while they were minors. i don't wanna seem like i'm making excuses for fucking up when it came to moderation and keeping our members safe, but it's important to know that the blog and server were very much a product of a specific point in tumblr history. we saw minors casually posting nsfw on a regular basis and thought, "yeah, it should be fine to have the nsfw channel open to everyone, right?" and like i said, we didn't originally require ages upon introduction. people didn't realize how badly we'd fucked up until the damage had already been done.

i could go on about the dozens of other ways i fucked up, but that would start to dive into the interpersonal side of things. i think i covered everything that actually mattered. i don't plan on talking about ii-critical to this extent again any time soon. everyone who both ran and was part of the blog and server have moved on, i don't wanna keep dragging people back to what's probably a very unpleasant period of their lives.

that said, if prompted, i will talk about the 2012-2014 deviantart era + "dark ages" of the osc AT LENGTH if prompted. i swear i have wisdom beyond the shitty blog i ran with my friends as a teenager. you dont even know about the Ball OC Discourse

[bapydemonprincess]

I’m 24 and I’ve been in this fandom since like 2010 . So not the entire time it’s been around but I was here for its main surge I feel like. And I won’t lie, when I was 10 and a majority of the fandom did ship sebaciel publicly and people made you feel weird for not shipping it, I definitely did engage with it. It was pushed on me as a 10 year old by a majority of the fandom, and I didn’t see anything wrong because I was younger than ciel/same age and I was like “yeah I think Sebastian is cute and I’m the same age as ciel so—“ BUT you know as I got older I’d say even by 14 I had the realization of how gross it was and how I didn’t actually ship it it was just that they were the two main characters in the fandom and that typically main characters are the ones who get shipped and that at that time in the fandom it was impossible to not be faced with ship stuff. And I was groomed by adults in the fandom on this very website. They knew my age and would send me smut and talk to me about myself and flirt and I honestly feel bad that I ever did engage with the ship. I didn’t know any better. But now as an adult when I do see sebaciel stuff I find myself questioning if they’re just young and if they’re going to grow out of it too and I wonder if maybe they’re also having it pushed on them by older fans like I was. I find it concerning because i know what it did to myself and what kind of situations I was put in because of it. I try to avoid the adult ones because unfortunately I think if they haven’t grown out of it and realized the implications of the ship and how it does affect real life I don’t know that they ever will. I hate that this fandom has such a bad label on it. Every person I mention it to is like— “oh the pedophile demon anime?” And it just sickens me. Idk this is kind of just a rant and I wanted to offer my thoughts as someone who has been in the fandom a long time and as someone who was in the fandom as a child even. I’m sorry if this is weird ask to send but I see you posting content about it sometimes and it made me feel safe to share my thoughts

Well I am not personally good at answering these types of asks but I am glad you felt safe to send this to me, specifically, and get it off your chest, it's all good!! 💖 And glad to know you came to realize how bad the ship was at one point, I'm always happy to see that happen once in a while in kuro, because there are so many folks around my age refusing to accept the truth and doubling down on proshipping, and also I notice very recently too trying to cause problems on purpose for antis in their spaces. 😒 It's getting hard out there since the new anime came out, and a lot of those types have attempted to return.. likely from twitter where they ran off to last time they were booted (some quite literally banned hmm I wonder why) from tumblr.

And the worst WORST part knowing proshippers around my age is knowing.. remembering.. the very beginnings of kuro, seeing the early fics on ao3 by those guys, who really started it all, knowing somewhere they're still out there.. some even maybe with kids of their own WHO KNOWS... Ugh.

And I hope new fans, no matter their age really, make sure to be careful esp on here in the main kuro tag, for these proshippers have been constantly- AND VERY BLATANTLY I MIGHT ADD -trying to advertise their blogs and discords as safe spaces for interacting... CLEARLY trying to start/continue the process of grooming that is so well known in fandoms like kuro at this point.

Overall just use block on tumblr recreationally, it's free real estate ✨, stay safe in general, and again don't be afraid whether on fellow anti blogs like mine send messages or if you feel more comfortable make posts of your own on your own blog expressing how you feel, getting it out of your system.

Hope my response was okay (I say because I'm at work at also health-wise a bit out of it so sorry grbhjfkugu) and hope you, anon are currently doing okay now!! Thank you again for sharing your personal experience!!

[the-great-ladyg]

Hey there!

Welcome to my blog, name's Lady G, you can also call me Lady or Gaby, and this is my place for everything I enjoy or I'm interested in like selfshipping, some discourse, fandom and a bit of politics.

I identify as a genderfluid person, so you can use any pronouns when talking to me, I really don't mind.

I enjoy reading and writing, and I hope to start posting about my ideas in here, I'm eager to share my thoughts about my shipps and ideas, but maybe I'll post them in Spanish. I also like to draw and will post my drawings, maybe, I'm not sure.

I'm a selfshipper and also support oc x canon shipps, so this is your safe place for everyone that enjoys this.

I'm cringe, but I'm free.

I really suck at editing and "aesthetic".

Currently accepting anon asks.

You can find my AO3 here.

BYF

- English is not my first language, so I'm sorry for any grammar mistake, sometimes I might use Spanish when I post an opinion when I really get angry about something that I don't want to translate.

- I'm a proshipper/anti-harrassment/anti-censorship, I don't support any policing of art or the idea that kinks or the pixels someone enjoys is evidence of any crime, actions on real people are evidence, not shipping FlowerPunk.

- This is a 18+ blog, so if there's a minor they'll get blocked, and if someone is uncomfortable with this kind of blogs you can unfollow or ignore me.

- This is also a kink friendly blog, I might not share some kinks with other people, but I won't judge them, this is your safe place.

- If someone comes here to cause any problem, is an instant block, I don't want to deal with trolls and people who want to argue over stupid things.

- I don't really mind sharing F/Os with anyone, just don't bring canon x canon shipps or be obnoxious about your selfshipps with them in the way of "I love them more than you/I write/draw them better than you/I understand them better than you/You're loving them the wrong way", I'm kind of possessive in that way and want to avoid toxicity.

DNI

- Minors

- Antishippers, antiselfshippers, safeshippers, anti oc x canon

- Bigots (conservatives, TERFs, SWERFs, LGBTQphobes, islamophobes, racists, etc.)

- ED, SH, radqueer or related blogs

- If you use he/him or they/them pronouns as a way to try to misgender me thinking I'm a cis woman or treat me like a cis man

- Pro Israel/justify what Israel is doing or has been doing all these years

- Pro AMLO/support and/or justify AMLO (current Mexico's president) and his political party's actions/think any of Mexico's presidents since 2000 is the bad guy except AMLO/think AMLO is Mexico's messiah or best president

- If you'll try to lecture me on economic, cultural, social, etc. aspects about Mexico or being a Latin person and you're not Latin (like with all the "Oye Primos" thing), or you get offended in the name of Latins by things that concern us and you're not Latin (like the Mario poncho thing, or the Encanto drama, we Latins didn't get offended with that, but we did get offended with the American response, when they were trying to lecture us on what really offended us)

- Pro contact MAPs/pedos, zoos, necros, etc.

Favorite characters...

This is a section for characters that wouldn't only fit on a category of my F/O list, but also are characters I like a lot over others from their source material, or are just my favorite ones

- Sauron/Mairon/Annatar/many other names from Lord of the Rings

- Daemon Targaryen from House of the Dragon

F/Os list and tags

(there's no specific order, I'll list them in the order I remember them, might add more in the future)

If you wish to interact with any of them feel free to do so, but they can be OoC

Main

- Miguel O'Hara from Spiderverse movies (🩸🕷️)

- Hobie Brown from Spiderverse movies (🎸🕷️)

- Gladiolus Amiticia from Final Fantasy XV (🛡️⚔️)

- Maegor I "The Cruel" Targaryen from A Song of Ice and Fire (🩸🐲)

- Jean-Pierre Polnareff from JoJo's Bizarre Adventure (🥖⚔️)

- Robert Edward O. Speedwagon from JoJo's Bizarre Adventure (🎩👔)

- Syzoth/Reptile from Mortal Kombat games (🦎🥷🏻)

- Fujin from Mortal Kombat games (💨⚔️)

- Tenya Iida from My Hero Academia (🏃🏻‍♂️🟦)

- Brienne of Tarth from A Song of Ice and Fire (🗡️💎)

F/Os I also love

- Mike Zacharius from Attack on Titan (👃⚔️)

- Reiner Braun from Attack on Titan (🏃🏻‍♂️🛡️)

- Phoenix Ikki from Saint Seiya (🪽🔥)

- Aries Mu from Saint Seiya (🐏🔨)

- Scorpio Milo from Saint Seiya (🦂🪡)

- Gemini Saga from Saint Seiya (♊🌓)

- Thanatos from Saint Seiya (💀⬛)

- Dende from Dragon Ball (🟢🏔️)

- Raditz from Dragon Ball (🩸👊)

- Supreme Kai from Dragon Ball (💜🔮)

- Broly from Dragon Ball (🐶🥦)

- Mezo Shoji from My Hero Academia (🐙🔵)

- Thomas Hewitt from Texas Chainsaw Massacre movies (2003-2006) (🎭🩸)

- Brahms Heelshire from The Boy (🎭🧸)

- Yautja/ Predator: Scar (☠️⚔️), Feral Predator (☠️🐻), Fugitive Predator (💀🔪) from Predator franchise

- Drax the Destroyer from Guardians of the Galaxy (👊🔪)

- Ragnvaldr/Outlander from Fear and Hunger (🐺🪓)

- Nicholas D. Wolfwood from Trigun (🚬✝️)

- Millions Knives/Nai from Trigun (🪴🔪)

- Takeda Takahashi from Mortal Kombat games (⛓️🟡)

- Erron Black from Mortal Kombat games (🩸🔫)

- Kuai Liang from Mortal Kombat games (❄️🧊 as Sub-Zero) (🦂🔥 as Scorpion)

- Zeffeero/Rain from Mortal Kombat games (🥷🏻💧)

- Alucard from Hellsing (🧛🏻‍♂️🩸)

- Toshikazu Hazamada from JoJo's Bizarre Adventure (🤏🏻🎾)

- Mikitaka Hazekura from JoJo's Bizarre Adventure (👽🍦)

- Rykiel from JoJo's Bizarre Adventure (🧑🏻‍🚀🐄)

- Keicho Nijimura from JoJo's Bizarre Adventure (🪖🏹)

- Firelord Ozai from Avatar: The Last Airbender (☄️🔥)

- Santana from JoJo's Bizarre Adventure (🗿☁️)

- Oingo from JoJo's Bizarre Adventure (🎭🧢)

- Vincent Valentine from Final Fantasy VII (⚰️♦️)

- Glossu "Beast" Rabban Harkonnen from Dune (🦅🩸)

- Chase Young from Xiaolin Showdown (🐉🥣)

- Kevin Levin from Ben 10 series (👽🚘)

- Adam/The Creature from Frankenstein (🪡📚)

- Aegon II Targaryen from House of the Dragon (🐲🟢)

- Cregan Stark from A Song of Ice and Fire (🐺❄️)

- Cooper Howard/The Ghoul from Fallout TV series (☢️🐶)

Platonic F/Os

- Yuga Aoyama from My Hero Academia (✨💎)

- Narancia Ghirga from JoJo's Bizarre Adventure (🍊🛩️)

- Finrod Felagund from Lord of the Rings (🧝🏼‍♂️🎻)

- Lúthien Tinuviel from Lord of the Rings (💃🏻🐺)

Familial F/Os

- Ned Stark from A Song of Ice and Fire (🗡️🐺)

- Aragorn Elessar from Lord of the Rings (👑🗡️)

- Samwise Gamgee from Lord of the Rings (🥔🍳)

[ugh154628]

I didn't want to break the silence for personal reasons but I'm not going to stand for anyone harassing someone else by spreading lies that someone went out of their way to contact me because that isn't the truth. If it causes some backlash, so be it. It's not something I haven't dealt with before. For literally almost six years I have dealt with cyber harassment, stalking, severe smear campaigns, etc. actually. I just hate dealing with it. It's fucking exhausting having to.

Whisper didn't contact me. I contacted quitth3li3s earlier this week after seeing I was being blamed for a situation I knew absolutely nothing about at that point in time. What actually happening was that midokioaki posted a screenshot of messages between them and B claiming that I was messaging the Bad Omens fan basis to incite further harassment on B and that screenshot included the account name quitth3li3s. Mind you, this was after the fact that B accused me of involving myself and messaging these blogs. I had not at this point.

After seeing the screenshot midokioaki posted, I messaged the quitth3li3s account asking what was going on between them and B considering my confusion being randomly involved in this situation by B and Cece (she runs the midokioaki blog, more on this soon). I also asked for clarification about how they knew about the tension between B and I, which they told me was do to other people messaging them that information. At that point my take was that since B posted her FB name to the "anti" account, randoms creeped on it and found out that way since she posted about our drama publically on FB or that someone once closer to B amongst this tumblr fan base (that now isn't on good terms with her) knew about her main account, which is the one she used to post about me on a lot and included screenshots of both our Facebook names. And she included screenshots of my fb name, Cece's fb name, and Cece's tumblr names on that main account too, so it would make sense that people did some pretty simple creeping to find that info to use against B because they interact on tumblr a lot.

Anyhow, I ultimately just irritated that I was being dragged into their drama again for no fucking reason and was curious to why, and why/how a bunch of randoms knew about shit between us and that's why I messaged quitth3li3s, since that account name was in midokioaki's screenshot and being used against me. Again, for no fucking reason. Because some reason Cece and B blame me for every single social media quarrel they encounter and "coincidentally" seen to start themselves anyways. This isn't my first time seeing this scenario since they became friends. Whoever runs the quitth3li3s account gave me an explanation but deactivated shortly after messaging me something concerning that I obviously couldn't respond to, so I messaged Whisper to pass my response regarding that upon seeing that Whisper and that account interacted via reblogs. Then, we conversated for a bit following that considering we related to what we were both going through with with B. That's it. That's all it was. So no, Whisper did not contact me. I contacted them.

To clarify, the account midokioaki is one the 4 accounts being used by Brandi's friend Cece mentioned earlier -someone who has been stalking me for nearly 6 years now- to bully/harass and defame for quite some time now. The stalking and harassment situation started in early 2019 because of Cece's jealous rage influenced by me dating her ex boyfriend for 3.5 years, combined her delusion that her and I were "best friends" and I "betrayed" her, which was a major exaggeration to further support her absolutely psychotic vendetta against me because first of all, I met her THROUGH my ex who I was already friends with, we only hungout when they were together, I hadn't seen her in over a year when he and I started dating (not since they broke up), we were basically just cool on social media and would shoot the shit sometimes, so I had no obligation to consider her in my dating life. And, she also had a boyfriend when him and I started dating who just so happened to be one of HIS old friends, she was not single, she had again been broken up with my ex for a whole ass year at the time, which makes her a hypocrite and again, means there no logical reason to believe she would be so bothered by him and I dating OR that I was obligated to make it all about her. I don't know how "dating" him equated to betrayal and justified her harassing and defaming BOTH of us the entirety of our 3.5 year relationship; namely spreading a rumor that he had assaulted her "over 20 times in her sleep" and that I was a "r**e/abuser supporter" and I was dating her "abuser" to justify her absolutely psychotic behavior toward us; who she is now back together with, engaged to, and they harass me together now...which just goes to show by itself that it OBVIOUSLY a serious lie due to jealous rage on an illness level that she needs to get therapy for. And then my ex told Cece that B and I didn't get along, and linked them up to be friends based on some weird mutual hatred they have for me and now they harass me together. They all 3 do. Long fucking story behind that one and its still continous. I may or may not delve into that details on that story eventually, but if anyone has specific questions about it/wants evidence confirming the truth of certain things - after Brandi and Cece begin smearing for making this post because I know for a fucking fact its going to happen-, please message me before believing words and out of context screenshots by them. These people are professional liars and are really good at playing the victim, especially when the other party hasn't told their full in depth side of the story to relevant parties.

And if you're curious/to kinda shed light on how bad this has really been, examples of Cece's stalking behaviors include but aren't limited to exploited my lingerie pictures, printing those photos on a coffee mug, searching my personal info online through "tracking" sites (such as my home address, phone number, parent's phones), vaguely threatening to send my photos to my parents to humiliate me, indirect threats involving firearms and physical harm, lies about my ex boyfriend assaulting her "over 20 times in her sleep" to claim I was a r**e/abuse supporter (they got back together after I left him BTW, now engaged, and I have all the proof of her assault accusations on videos, social posts etc. Yet they both completely deny and ignore her defaming both of us like that for over 3 years and actually now harass me together) tracking my IP address/service provider, posting unlawfully videos recorded of me in the privacy of my bedroom -taken by my ex without my permission- having a dissociative panic attack to be used against me ina variety of ways, dressing up as me for Halloween, copying my outfits/social media posts, responding to literally everything I post on social media, etc. And even Brandi and Cece's friends threatening to show up to my place of work due to their slander. Because they live in my area, they have built a more physical coalition against me; putting me on guard in public places and making me feel unsafe on a daily basis. More recently Cece actually tagged ALL of my friends business pages, previous employers, etc. to a Facebook post slandering me; that she edits at least once a week for the past year and half, with detailed lies and the use of out of context screenshots and photos to support them. Although Brandi hasn't explicitly made it apparent that she does (all) the things Cece does, I have quite a bit of proof of her supporting Cece's behavior. Supporting her bullying me, mocking my career dreams, making fun of my clothes, my appearance, doxxing, infiltrating my privacy, projecting, and even the initimate video Cece illegally gained access to and posted to YouTube, which Brandi actually convinced Cece to send that video to her "We hate Amber" group chat and pretty much encouraged her posting it. Oh and I also have a screenshotted post of her implying that she gained access to an old shared album between my ex and I that contained my nudes and threatening to do something with it. I could go on and on about all the shit Cece does. But what really takes the cake is that both Brandi and Cece they project all of their behaviors back onto me and strategically paint me as the villian that they actually are.

I will clarify that in 2019 when Cece first started smearing me on the internet? I got ugly and I won't deny that. I got really ugly at some points and said mean things I'm not proud of before this turned into something beyond basic social media drama. When Cece outted my personal information and mocked it, I sent it back. When my appearance was bashed on, I bashed on Cece's back. When she made fun of me, I made fun of her. It was shameful really and I am 10/10 disappointed in myself for it. It did stop after the first few months of dealing with her when this situation began to transform into something serious and scary. I've grown a lot since it first started, too. That isn't me anymore. It was never even average behavior for me in the first place actually and Cece is really the only one who ever dragged that side out of me in my whole life so far. I actually think she got a kick out of it. Like there's this quote I heard in a TV show that said something like "Psychopaths feel less alone when they get people to do the things that they do" and it makes sense. I think she likes breaking generally kind and empathic people out of character to make herself feel powerful and because she feels less alone with herself when she does. So the way I see it, it was a malfunction of character due to the anger coming from a weird manipulative situation that I had never experienced for. I'm not trying to excuse my behavior necessarily but I just want to make it clear that it wasn't unprovoked. When it first started, I thought bringing myself down to their low level was the right answer and it wasn't. It never really is. And they absolutely hang all of those old posts over my head, most being 4 to 5 or more years old and not nearly as much as how much they've posted over the years to this day, but still worth mentioning. I'm pretty sure 2 twos of trolling after being smeared on social media over dating someone's ex and biting back isn't comparable to maintaining 4 different blogs, a youtube, Facebook, and more to specifically harass one person for OVER half a decade and STILL but whatever helps the bitch sleep at night I guess. I can explain all of that with the necessary screenshots and the dates on them if I need to. And I can definitely say I've never doxxed, made continous violent threats toward, physically stalked, anyone or done anything else like they have. I've really never done anything more than respond, defend myself, and defend my truth. Most of what I have ever posted was content intending to clear up some pretty serious lies they spread.

The midokioaki account: Anything and everything, literally any third party hearsay without valid evidence, out of context "evidence", my selfies, my social media shares...like any and all personal information relative to me is posted by Cece on that midokioaki blog to support her 101 percent false smear campaign about me. A lot of stuff completely unrelated to her. Cece screenshots all of my posts on every single one of my social media accounts within hours or even MINUTES of me posting them whether they have to do with her or not to that midokioaki account. It's sick. It's terrifying. It's fucking insane.

And with that said, please talk to me before believing a God damn word on that train wreck of a blog and/or harassing me over it and please leave everyone alone about contacting me because its not true. I have solid evidence against almost all these accusations being spread about me, and other people. And I was the one who initiated contact with the other people B is harassing on here.

TLDR: Cece made the mistake of posting things to the midokioaki blog used to defame me and I found out what was going on before I talked to anyone here.

[princehendir]

I'm Adrianmode, and I don't think you've talked abt her much on the new blog: PLEASE talk about his demon girlbestie. I love her.

YAYYYYYY Self-interest :) you're right I haven't talked about her yet, that's crazy. Bullet points because I like those. Some fun facts below, organized into a rough timeline:

if you asked her, she would tell you that she's Adrian's childhood best friend. Adrian does not know what the hell she's talking about. She is extremely offended that he doesn't remember his dreams from when he was 10, which is when & where they actually first met.

as far as Adrian's concerned, they've only functionally "known each other" since the family left Lothering, which is when he started acknowledging her as being a discreet Being as opposed to just some vague dream-figure that his brain cooked up. He then also proceeded to ignore her for a whole year after that while he was trying to be a Good Mage who is Not A Maleficar and Doesn't Consort With Demons. That ends when he finally decides that he's more interested in finding out what she can teach him about magic than he is in respectability and making his dad proud of him.

Anyways

Her appearance changes as the game goes on, depending on what it is she wants and what in general is going on, which I know I've mentioned but it's my favorite part of writing her lol. The simplified appearance timeline is that pre-game, she mostly just chooses to present herself like a slightly less sexy default desire demon, and then during that first year in Kirkwall when she's trying to get Adrian to acknowledge her she's mostly trying to mimic the type of girls that he likes to date, because she's used to that getting results, and then after that it gets... Complicated. A couple of times it's commented that she's starting to look a bit like Bethany, but whether that's because she's actually trying to mimic Bethany or if she's trying to look like Adrian-but-a-girl and as a result ends up looking like Bethany is unclear. Definitely, she is trying to look like a Hawke. But in an elf kind of way? It's weird.

Which leads me to something that I haven't talked about much yet:

After she meets Justice for the first time in Night Terrors she gets really obsessed with what him & Anders have going on, and starts trying to talk Adrian into letting her possess him. He turns her down or changes the subject every time she brings it up, like never even considers it, and this becomes a major source of contention in their relationship and also the main aspect of her character arc for the last half of da2. Elaboration in next point.

Basically the thing about her is that it is inherently in her nature to Want Things. That's what she is, a creature that Wants and wants without regard for what is outside of her. And the thing that she wants right now is to crawl inside Adrian's brain and wear his body like a cheap suit, but unfortunately, more specifically, she also wants him to want that too. So she can't directly manipulate him into it, and she can't force the issue either. And it's SO frustrating for her. Because she's never wanted something that she didn't know how to get before, or something that requires inherently the consent and participation of someone else. It's kind of... Destabilizing, for her. It is implied that this internal conflict is altering her nature in some way, similar to how the mage/templar conflict in Kirkwall is altering Justice's.

Also she kind of exclusively refers to Justice as "Vengeance" lol. Unless she thinks he can hear her. She's not suicidal.

Merrill thinks she's really creepy btw. She generally stays out of it, because it's Adrian's business, and he generally stays out of her stuff with Audacity/the Eluvian/etc, but she does make it clear that she doesn't trust this particular spirit, and thinks that Adrian is wayyyyy too intimate with her. Not in a jealousy way, just in a "I'm worried you're in over your head and not taking proper precautions" way.

Self-interest LOVES Merrill though. It thinks she's so neat, and goes out of it's way to encourage Adrian to spend more time with her before they start dating.

(I'm not saying that the possibility of being closer to Merrill is part of what Self-interest finds so appealing about the possibility of possessing Adrian, but I'm not not saying that either)

Primarily though, Self-interest's role in Adrian's life is as a teacher. She teaches him blood magic, she teaches him spirit healing. Things that Adrian's father couldn't or wouldn't teach him. And in the case of healing, tried but gave up on teaching him while he was growing up. It was a big source of conflict in Adrian's relationship with his father that Malcolm felt he was hard/frustrating to teach, that he didn't learn well, that he wasn't a particularly talented mage in general, etc. So the fact that Self-interest is enthusiastic about teaching him, praises him when he does well, and tells him that he has a lot of potential, is a huge part of what is appealing about her to him. Soothes his daddy issues. He's normal.

[purplekoop]

Okay so question:

As I'm posting more and more about War Bots, I wonder if that would warrant getting its own side blog, while this remains as my general personal blog and the hub for smaller projects like Role Requeue.

The main pro to this is organization: War Bots posts are almost always super long, often have big images, and are for a pretty niche audience at the moment, so for people scrolling through my blog backlog I can imagine they're a bit of a nuisance. While you can easily find every War Bots post just by searching for the tag on my blog, it'd be easier to find stuff on its own separate blog where the Overwatch takes and twitch links and random cute dog videos I find aren't clogging things. I'd also be more willing to tag more specific things, like individual characters, different types of posts, and so on, which could be useful for later organization.

There's also the more subconscious benefit that if I have a dedicated War Bots blog, I'd be more encouraged to post to it regularly. I'd feel awkward if I had the second blog and never used it, so... motivation by avoiding mild embarrassment?

The cons are... a little more numerous.

The main issue is that I'm lazy and have never had a side blog before. While I'm aware Tumblr makes having a side blog relatively easy, it's still more of a hassle than I'm used to.

A more serious issue is that it's less convenient for other people too. If anyone who wants to follow the project wants to keep seeing posts for it, they have to go follow the other blog, which I'd have to advertise here and also would probably cross-promote posts. It also hurts how many people in the future could get their eyes on it, since just by virtue of being a variety blog (granted with a heavy Overwatch lean) more people follow this blog than a new blog dedicated entirely to a project with its own specialized tags that wouldn't get seen by anyone not already aware of it. If I want more people to know about War Bots (which, to be transparent, I do), then it'd be more probable for people to see it on the blog that uses established popular tags like Overwatch.

The last big thing that discourages me from going ahead and making a War Bots sideblog is a little more silly, but is still a concern in my head. So like. If I make a separate blog for War Bots... why don't I make a separate blog for, say... Role Requeue? That's another project with a dedicated sub-audience that might prefer a dedicated blog for it. What about one for my Splatoon OCs? That one definitely could benefit from both urging me to post more about them and also better organization, and I don't think anybody follows this blog currently for the sake of Splatoon content, so it would warrant getting a separate audience there. And those are just the things I actually post about on here, there's way more original projects like War Bots that I have in mind and wanna talk about some day. Obviously those don't warrant blogs now, but what about later? It's kind of just opening pandora's box for someone with so many random projects like me.

I dunno, just things to consider. Right now my current stance is to not make a separate War Bots blog yet, but I want to hear specifically what people think. I'd make it a direct "yes or no" poll but that feels to harsh, so I'd appreciate feedback in the replies or reblogs on this post. I'll make a separate poll in a moment, but that'll be more for fun and vibe checking than any serious decision making.

[prisonguards]

FR!!! Like oh my GOD I didnt even ship smallidarity before likeeeee I was just your average flower husbands fan, and I wanted to stick hard to the whole boundary compliance thing because I was part of dsmp twt for a year and. Well. That should say enough, iykyk. But then Joel just kept obsessing over Jimmy, Jimmy kept simping for Joel, and then the entire thing with the "he's just sooo cuuuute" and "can we just compare the size difference again, its my favorite thing ever" and whatever the fuck fixating on the noise Jimmy made was and it was like. Well. Bro. BRO. THEEEEN the having a CHILD together thing happened and I just fell into shipping them immediately from E2 alone. And now I'm watching E1 and I'm gonna rewatch 100h hardcore because your blog has just made it Worse.

This has been an entire tangent but the tldr is I didn't ship smallidarity until Joel was absolutely unbearable and obvious over just how much the cuteness aggression he gets over Jimmy Gets To Him.

Also I see your tags and I bring you this: in watching E1, am I insane or is the whole "Katherine was his first ally but I am his BEST ally, I will call her a coward and get genuinely angry at her for not going to the lengths I will to protect Jimmy" give off possessiveness. Not possessiveness as in jealousy, ownership, or anything like that but more in the sense that he takes great pride in being the one who takes care of Jimmy best, so to speak and to be the one who protects him when he needs it. This isn't really related at all to what you said but I'm doing my best and it's 6 AM as I write this, I have not slept and I should cut myself off before I spout even more nonsense.

- life series anon

ANON I LUV YOU AUSGEUE. I hope you get some good sleep friend aaueghd

I think that happened to a lot of people :3 smallidarity like was ramping up all season thanks to enemies to lovers being such a popular trope/dynamic but its Exploded in popularity lately and Im so thankful for that!!! whether it be from Joels fawning or their. insanity inducing innuendoes. the more fans the merrier ^—^

IM SO GLAD MY MADNESS HAS GOTTEN U TO WANNA REWATCH 100 HOURS :3c !!! its a comfort series for me for sure. and the episodes with Jimmy in them are. absolutely the best. ep 4 is one of my favorite episodes of anything ever. and if you want more Joel fawning over Jimmys cuteness…

YESSSSSS YES.. I ADORE THEM IN EMP S1!!! their dynamic is so unique there because of how wholly and overwhelmingly soft/positive it is. theyre allies from the start and BEST allies… auuughh.. yesshh Joel gets sooo defensive over Jimmy in s1 its beautiful. how quick he is to go absolutely murder mode for Jimmy. but how quick he is to be soft for him too. SIGGHHHHH. its my dream fr. the possessiveness.. YES.. theyre just SO important to eachother and it drives me crazy. he treats Jimmy so special. the way that he has little rooms for just Jimmy and Lizzie in his palace… the special roles they both hold… his wife and his best friend… there is def such a special connection there. and the possessiveness, Jimmy has so many more allies and close allies than Joel does. Joel just enforcing and affirming his station and specialness to Jimmy every once and a while.. by insulting his other allies augshs.. augh.. I just love them

also, for anyone else mulling over boundaries still; if you want specifics he just said he finds it “a bit weird” and iirc he didnt really say you cant do it. he just doesnt get it cause hes such a wifeguy. if youre concerned you can still tag it properly/keep it out of main tags. but if he was Really upset by it he would Not be encouraging and escalating it, and making the jokes he does, and putting them in his videos, and liking comments people make about them, and the tweets he makes, and and and and… if people are harassing u on behalf of him, they dont really care about what hes comfortable with, they just wanna punch down at someone. I get wanting to be respectful, but Ive also seen it used for such cruelty 💔 so I think the most important thing to keeping everyone, including the creators themselves, happy is to keep things to the right tags and spaces and being kind to yourself and others and blocking what you need and keeping out of peoples business.

[sisterdivinium]

Hi I'm AvMila anon. THANK YOU SO MUCH!! ❤️ AAAAAaaaaahhhhhhh sorry for screaming. But you inaugurating the Ava/Camila tag on ao3 with your own piece is just... It's top 5 one of the sweetest things someone has done for me. You truly looked at my crackship and said why not and went ahead and created the very first entry, and probably the only one lol, but that's so considerate. Thank you truly. I enjoyed it, and I loved DocSuperion's cameo. Jillian finding them cuddling and surely thinking to herself "well, aren't all of us at this house a little (a lot) fruity"

I read your elaboration on the "spam" thing. I get it now, I didn't understand what the issue was at first, but you explained it well. I have had something similar happen in other fandoms, I wasn't much into the main pairing and my ship was also just sort of floating around them as accessories to them. And yeah it's disappointing. It would be good and also kind of authors to mention, hey my main focus will be this ship or these 2 characters, all other tags point to support roles so they won't get much spotlight or development. Thank you again, you're very kind :) I loved what you wrote for my little crazy ship

Hello again!

Oh, I'm very, very happy to know that ficlet was to your liking <3 You're very much welcome.

I'm not exactly popular but hey, who knows, maybe someone else will look at it and get a little idea for a story to tell about Ava and Camila as well -- and perhaps give the tag a little push forward in the process. I hope so!

And, you know, I'd consider something like JC/Miguel more of a crackship than Ava/Cam. To me, only one out of those two pairings could have an internal logic with the correct build-up (although I wouldn't censor anyone willing to make JC/Miguel a thing, LOL. To each their own, but THAT's something I wouldn't touch!) I'm sure the avatrice diehards might disagree with me (and, to be fair, as a Jillian/Suzanne diehard, I'm myself irrationally protective of my OTP and wouldn't be caught near any other pairing that involved either Jillian or Superion -- I, too, have my childish shipping faults :)), but I can see something in there for Ava and Camila, it does makes sense. Even if just for a small little scene like the one I wrote -- why not, you know?

I sometimes wonder if people don't get a bit too attached to longfic. I imagine it has its charms, but as someone who prefers to write smaller but "tighter" stories, fooling around with other ships comes a lot easier. I'm not bound to a leviathan ninety-eight chapter story and can just play with different concepts in each little fic that comes to mind. And it's fun, what can I say? I had a blast writing Ava/Cam for you that day. It's not the greatest thing ever written in the history of English Literature, granted, but then it doesn't have to be which is a good reminder for myself as I struggle with my current doctor superion project... Ahem.

As for the "spam" deal, yeah, I thought it had just been miscommunication and you'd know what I meant if I just explained it a little better, so I'm glad that got cleared up as well. I don't think certain corners of the fandom will ever come across this series of posts that took place on my blog this week, so I'm not hopeful that the conversation will reach those it should reach as concerns tagging, but who knows. Fandoms were more organised once, perhaps they might again find it in their hearts to remember we don't all like the same things and that it would be a welcome courtesy to take us into consideration when tagging for alternative ships.

Anyway. Thanks for stopping by again! And let me reiterate how happy I am to know that you enjoyed my humble offering to your ship! <3

[plural-affirmations]

not a request, but i just want to say thank you. i have OSDD-1a and found out fairly recently, i've been in major denial about it even though my mom and partner have been like "no.. that makes sense.. let us help you... it's okay!" and that's just been making me feel even more guilty because i already knew i was schizoaffective and had BPD and already kinda felt like a burden because of that so I've finally gotten around to researching dissociative symptoms more to see how accurate this whole thing actually is... and thank you. at first i was crying and getting angry thinking, no it can't be, how is so much of this so relatable? I can't really be a system can I? and I realized, my main hang up is just as someone who is cephalaconcious (THANK YOU for teaching me that word by the way holy shit) I hate calling myself a system. And I have aphantasia so my innerworld doesn't really feel that complex compared to how other people describe theirs. Which makes me feel even weirder about calling myself a system. I call my splits exactly that, splits, which I feel is accurate for my experience with OSDD-1a. And anything going on in my brain amongst splits I just refer to as headspace, even if it's technically innerworld stuff? I don't know if there's actually a difference. But basically, I want to say thank you for opening my eyes to the fact I need help and it's okay to need it and ask for it, and also I wanted to ask, is referring to them as splits okay? Or is that bad/weird to do? I know some people call them friends and I like that for some of them but I also have a couple protectors (I think I'm using that correctly I'm sorry this is all really new for me) that I'm not very fond of, so friends doesn't work as an umbrella term for me. Thanks for reading this! Sorry for infodumping, this was originally just gonna be a quick thank you.

Hey, no worries at all for the ask length anon! I'm totally ok with long messages :) And I'm so glad you've found our blog meaningful to you! 💙 We truly try our best, even if our posting gets a bit spotty now and then lately, haha.

First of all, I wanted to say, in case no one's told you today... I'm so proud of you! Discovering there's more than one consciousness in your body can be really life-changing and overwhelming, so you're handling it really well from what I can tell!

And, you mentioned terminology concerns, so I'll go over those.

It's ok to not call yourself a system if you don't want to! You can just be "a person with OSDD-1A", if you find that the most fitting for you! Or "plural", or "median" (explanation of median: link), or any number of labels. It's about you are your brain buddies' comfort levels.

"Splits" is totally ok to use, too! Some other words you could use are ones such as headmates, system members, sysmates, friends, alters, and probably others I'm forgetting. We made a whole post about it, I'll link it here: link 2

And, yes! "Headspace" and "innerworld" are typically interchangeable synonyms for most people. You can say either! :)

"Protectors" is probably correct, though you may want to look into the definition of persecutors, too: link 3

I hope this has found you well! Please stay safe, keep in touch if you need absolutely anything else, and happy syscovery!

🖤💜💙💚💛

[entropy-sea-system]

This blog and our sideblogs will be on hiatus/inactive at least for a while.

I think being online may be a bit overwhelming for us, I don't feel like we got much out of it and its so easy for us to leave servers and block people when everything doesn't seem perfect, we don't have any actual attachment to anyone online so it's easy to just leave.

And this time at least w the discord servers I don't even feel very angry or upset, just maybe left out of anxiety and feeling like I need a change in the spaces Im in. I also wonder if in some cases I eventually get tired of a space or people and need to leave, Im not used to stability, and especially have no incentive to stay when I don't have a connection to someone.

I think currently I only feel that stability with my in sys partners, and sometimes Im still not used to that, I haven't cared about people that intensely for that long until having relationships with them.

We see a concerning amount of people hold views we can't agree with, and have been blocking these people as well as just ppl whose posts were not things we were interested in / may have been things we disliked or were triggered or repulsed by. We have blocked so many followers and unfollowed or blocked some ppl we followed because of these things, and its just better for us this way.

We haven't liked being in spaces mainly with minors, but maybe that was just the nature of online aro and apl spaces as of now, and some fandom spaces. But some discord servers geared towards adults seem to imply minors are 'annoying' and I don't agree with that, it feels antithetical to youth liberation and generally just respecting people.

I just prefer interacting with adults personally, and most of the system is this way since we are an adult. I feel like Ive been around minors like for so long (body has younger siblings and we were a minor until like 3-4 years ago) that I'm preferring to be around adults because I want to feel more like Im actually an adult, and don't feel like spaces with more minors are for us.

I think maybe I just got a bit tired of being around the age group of 'my age and younger' for so much of my life its like I don't want a repeat of that. I don't know anyone I really trust outside the system(not a priority to find this either), and I've never had an older adult mentor figure I could trust in my life, and I don't even know if I want that since some older adults may see me as 'like their child' and I'm afamilial. I'm also plato repulsed and it doesn't appeal to me to just hang out with people, I may be more plato repulsed than I thought (extending more into some things seen as friendship) which is really saying something.

This doesn't mean minors and youth are prone to always having views we disagree with (although we understand there are some reasons minors may be less likely to be informed about things or be influenced by the way the world has been, but that goes for any age group and/or culture in different ways) or that adults cannot interact in appropriate ways with minors, its just personal preference. I don't feel like on purpose interacting w minors in online spaces, and I don't even seek online interaction w anyone much to begin with. I think often, we just like talking about our interests and maybe like the attention we may get from people online.

There's nothing else we find positive about it, and the way online spaces can become very invested in discourse is.. irritating and like yeah I do talk about discourse and have opinions on it (not much posting abt on main, but used to a bit more in vent channels or other channels on discord servers) myself it's just maybe I want to avoid it for now since it doesn't seem like a good use of time or energy.

I want to avoid people who very obviously have opposing views to ours or make space for those who do for some topics at least, and I don't want people to target us for not agreeing with them. Frankly, I'm seeing a lot of harmful attitudes from so-called leftists and generally people in the mogai community, especially usamericans.

Anyways, all this is to say we will probably be taking a break from tumblr and discord or at least try it out for a bit, see if it feels better than being online a lot.

(-Rift)

[crazycletuskasady]

Aight so, it's no secret how I feel about this dude. But personally, gimme your thoughts on Cletus Kasady. In depth if you want about the character, if not I don't mind. (I'm more of the man behind the symbiote guy, but Carnage is pretty cool too.) Just curious dude👌🏻

Firstly, thank you for the ask. I always feel giddy whenever someone asks me for my opinions.

When I was having my intense hyperfixation, consuming as much Carnage/Cletus stuff as possible and also causing me to create this blog, I too preferred the redheaded serial killer over the symbiote. I think now though I've grown to appreciate both.

Having red hair myself, I have grown a bias towards others with it, especially since I was bullied and isolated for it so it gives me a sense of comradery? I suppose. In terms of his personality, I would not realistically condone or defend his actions. However, since he is a harmless fictional character, it is a guilty pleasure of mine to indulge in and root for this murder hobo. I suppose he fulfils a sort of power fantasy in that regard. While I acknowledge and sympathise with his background, I believe he is beyond any sort of redemption. Besides, he wouldn't make a fun villain if he stopped being one, and villains are Just That Cool ™.

He's also very charming in his own special way. From what I remember, a lot of people portrayed him as being pretty dumb, like the illiterate kind. I originally never had any affinity for this type of character but now I find it rather endearing and amusing if executed well. He's also got some pretty memorable quips and phrases across different adaptations. As my blog might indicate, the 1994 Spider-Man series version is like my all time favourite. He's very memeable but still threatening as needed.

Unfortunately I've never had the opportunity to read through the comics myself, only seeing what bits and pieces get shared and talked about on the internet. So this gives me limited insight on those story arcs and depictions. Although I am very fond of the relationship he fosters with his symbiote AKA Red (I guess the same can be said for Eddie and Venom. This is another thing I used to be against or disinterested in).

I won't lie, I have simped pretty hard for this man before. I can of course understand why others may not like him or if they find my tastes concerning lol. There's just something thrilling about a himbo that has already shed blood and could easily take your life too. I don't really have an "I could fix him" mindset since, again, I think he's well past that point. I guess the main drive is like a sort of morbid curiosity.

Anyway yeah, that's my little ramble and a look into my probably unhealthy mind lmao. Likely haven't got all my thoughts out properly because it's late and it's been a while since I've been deeply invested.

[witch-of-snow-and-stars]

Some Assorted Notes & Musings on How I Read Cards

So @rivthewitch suggested I talk about how I interpret cards for tarot, and I love hearing how other people interpret their cards too, so here are some ways that I read/interpret my cards and some of the rational behind those methods.

🔮 First I think it's a bit important to go over which sources I really used to learn tarot. I primarily learned from the Labyrinthos app and this website (thetarotguide.com) and I've found both to be pretty solid resources if there's anyone wanting recommendations for learning tarot. Some tarot books can be helpful and well done, but I would recommend that after you learn the basic meanings of the cards I'd try to find tarot books that are based on a 'tarot from x perspective' or 'tarot with x focus' for deeper insight. Taking notes about what cards manifest for you is also very helpful (for example, if you notice that the 3 of cups can indicate gossip more often with a certain deck). A lot of good card reading is intuition as well, sometimes things will come to you in the middle of a reading and sometimes you can pick up on unsaid things from the person asking for the reading. The individual art/visual seeds for decks also affect how things are interpreted (I give some detailed examples at the end with pictures).

🔮 Tarot/cartomancy in general is (in my experience) not for telling the future but for getting insight into the present energy/elements in motion. Divination tools give insight, but you should make your own decisions and outcomes can be changed. I don't care if you're getting a reading from the most talented reader in the world, you still need to evaluate a situation/concern and make you're own decisions. I (as a reader) basically take what context I know, the energy surrounding the subject, motivating factors, and the boundaries at play to say "ok this is where everything is and what's going on, X is probably what could happen- do with that what you will". At the end of the day, I'm just someone with some cards and the people involved in the situation I'm reading for are going to know better about what to do about that situation.

🔮 The main way I read cards is drawing cards for what a reading represents and then read those cards in context of the reading topic and what I know of the people in question. I could draw the same 3 cards for different people but those cards would mean different things/have specific nuances based off of the person's question and contexts.

🔮 I don't care what the reading is about (love, career, whatever) just because a reading indicates potential in something doesn't mean you have to pursue it. If a love reading indicates a connection has potential, if you don't want to date someone then you shouldn't. Simple as that. There are probably multiple different relationships or opportunities in your life currently that have some level of potential that you're not pursuing because you're just not interested (and that's perfectly fine). If you really want something, go for it despite a reading and if you don't want something don't feel pressured by a reading to go after it.

🔮 I used to use a lot of spread patterns (even made an outline and put it up on the blog) but I don't really use them often anymore. I'm not against using them obviously and structuring the cards in ways that make reading them easier is beneficial, but I don't tend to need spreads in smaller readings.

🔮 I really prefer to use oracle cards in conjunction with tarot in the bigger readings I do for people because a lot of them are more specialized in terms of topic.

🔮 I also definitely prefer reading for some topics more than others. I also, IMO, tend to do better work with the topics I prefer.

🔮 I really enjoy reading for people I've already established a rapport with, and while I'm not anyone's main reader (that I'm aware of) there are some people online and irl that basically just have to ask and I'll do a big reading for them. Having that rapport with them also allows me to look at cards and make easier connections because I know a bit more about them. Larger readings do tend to be more work for me, but some people are just a pleasure to read for.

🔮 I'm not hugely into the theory of birth cards, but I do tend to keep a lookout for the birth card sets if they show up together in a reading.

🔮 I actually changed how I drew cards a little over a year ago from selecting cards that felt right from the deck to shuffling and taking what one/two cards that jumped from the deck, and from feedback I've gotten and from personal observations I'd say the accuracy of my readings have really improved. I'll also put cards that jumped back into the deck if it doesn't make sense with what I've pulled or am reading for, but if the card jumps again it's kept in the reading. Establishing a relationship and or talking to decks in my experience tends to help (I usually try to at least thank my decks and other divination tools after using them if nothing else).

🔮 I don't typically read gender into most of the face cards or major arcana if the card is meant to represent a person in a reading. The cards representing someone (obviously) tend to reflect either where they are in life or their personal characteristics so most cards could represent anyone. I've had men come up as pages or queens and I show up as a knight or king pretty regularly in readings so🤷. In my experience it usually just comes down to either where they're positioned in life/the reading or their general vibe/presentation.

🔮 I also tend to interpret my 2 tarot decks a bit differently as well, because the visual seeds of my Rider-Waite deck and my Shadowscapes deck are very different (I also use these decks for different topics as well, and I went more into that in this post). But usually (for my decks and their specialties) I let my Shadowscapes deck deal with relationships/spirituality/emotions and my Rider-Waite deck deal with more practical life matters/hobbies/creative pursuits/jobs (my Rider-Waite specifically hates doing romance readings and will be mean about it).

🔮 I've noticed that the 2 of Swords show up in a lot of the love readings I do, but that makes sense in that most of the love readings I do involve deciding whether there will be a relationship going forward or not. The 2 of Swords is often a decision that is permanent though.

🔮 I don't (typically) see Death or the Tower cards as necessarily horrible cards, but I usually interpret them as something that the person I'm reading for may not really like. Abrupt upheaval or a big change is often quite uncomfortable/unpleasant even if the end result is needed. Depending on the context of what I'm reading for, I'd honestly be more worried about a reversed Tower or reversed Death because those can indicate resisting change that is inevitable (and often needed). The Tower collapses because the foundation of what is collapsing is unstable (ie the root of a situation was going to be untenable in the long run and the longer it continues the worse the upheaval will be, it needs to end so good things can happen). Death works the same way, something isn't working and change needs to be allowed to happen so something good can come. None of these things are necessarily pleasant but they're probably going to happen whether you like it or not.

More specific card comparisons and interpretations are below

🔮For an in-depth analysis of how I interpret different visual seeds for the same cards, I'll show 3 pretty prominent examples and then go into how I view each card differently. The 3 cards we're going to be going over is Death, the 8 of Swords, and the Devil (as shown below. The Shadowscapes example pictures come from Stephanie Pui-Mun Law's official Shadowscapes site)

✨So when I look at Death in the Rider-Waite deck I typically see it as a big/fundamental change that's going to come to someone (usually it's a personal change that's going to come no matter how they try to stop it). I don't usually look at that the change Death brings as a pleasant/enjoyable process to go through, but I do usually view the results of that process positively. I also see it as more of an outside force making a change happen when I see Death from that deck. I see Death from the Shadowscapes deck as more of a sign of deep rejuvenating change with the Phoenix symbolism vs. the unrelenting change of horseman Death in Rider-Waite. I have another Death card in an oracle deck, but that Death card applies more to the ending of cycles, but if that card were to pop up in a reading with the tarot Death cards I would see it as more of a cycle-ending event that allows someone to move on over a event of change (though it could be both).

✨With the 8 of Swords I interpret the card as a sign of the querent/subject of the reading being being stuck, but the differences in the card's art indicate differences in how they're stuck. The Rider-Waite art shows the central figure as blindfolded and tied up while they're surrounded by sharp swords (the subject is stuck and can free themselves but they don't have the information/freedom of movement to free themselves safely and so they don't move) vs. the Shadowscapes art that shows the main figure of a swan wrapped in briars (again surrounded by swords) looking up at a flying hummingbird, with the swan struggling to fly but getting more stuck in that struggle. For the Shadowscapes card I see it as the subject of the reading needing to take a step back and understand how they're trapped so they can make plans for how they'll get themselves unstuck.

✨With the Devil card I interpret a lot of differences between my two decks (tbh though neither deck throw the Devil out often so I don't have much experience reading for it). With the Rider-Waite card I can read it as falling back into or developing bad habits/behavior patterns but feeling no control/powerless over the situation vs the Shadowscapes card, which shows someone with access to the key of the chains they're in with the devil flying over them with a heart, in my opinion could involve allowing oneself to fall into bad habits/behavior patterns and not getting yourself out (sort of like if you've known you're falling back into old negative habits/behavior patterns you know aren't good for you but allowing that to happen because those old behaviors are familiar or more comfortable/reassuring).