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If you put fandom-related comments on Crane Wives songs I hope you know we’re enemies
Tongues and Teeth is not about your Minecraft SMP tounges and Teeth is about the time I broke up with an emotionally abusive ex because I was realizing I was ace and needed to feel like it was okay to be/feel like a monster
(this post is mostly in jest but it gets a little frustrating when you see five different fandoms trying to co-opt your favorite band)
#sorry don't take this seriously enjoy thier music however you want to#I'm just airing out grievances#I think they're music deserves to be seen as more than your favorite fandoms song#And obviously fandom usually carried more weight and stuff but idk#crane wives#it feels like emotionally invalidating ig? its kind of silly but still#there's these songs that create so much catharsis and anger and emotion and all you see in the comments are fandom jokes#again don't take this seriously if this is how you enjoy art don't let me stop you#also they love the fandom engagement they like engagement period so don't stop on account of me#the crane wives
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I deeply love the epic musical but I have one big and unfortunately pretty central issue with it, and it's that it often seems to conflate kindness and stupidity.
odysseus' mistake wasn't sparing ("sparing") polyphemus, it was going into a cave full of food when he knew something was off about it from the beginning, and then giving the cyclops his real name when he had already won. it wouldn't have mattered that polyphemus was still alive if odysseus had just stuck to his brilliant original plan. polyphemus had to live long enough to move away from the exit that he was blocking, and going back to kill him once he was awake would have been incredibly dangerous, and hard to justify when he'd already so easily killed 7 (14?) men. mercy didn't have all that much to do with it, even though odysseus, athena, poseidon, the crew - the narrative itself at times - all later insist that's what doomed odysseus.
still, the lesson odysseus somehow learns from that is that he needs to be ruthless (which he already clearly is! he might hate it, he might wish he didn't have to be, but he is, at the end of the day, ruthless enough to murder a baby). but when it actually comes down to a choice between mercy and ruthlessness (and not just... a test of whether he can keep his mouth shut), mercy does a lot more for him than ruthlessness.
he's at his most callous in scylla's lair, and how does that work out? he makes the crossing, sure, but his crew attacks him, knocks him out, and takes the opportunity to do the most insanely idiotic thing they possibly could have, which ultimately sends them to their death, and odysseus to 7 years of suffering.
in contrast, odysseus gets help from circe. he chooses to go back for his men, he chooses not to lead with violence, he chooses to appeal to her mercy, and she ultimately chooses to be merciful herself. that's the only time odysseus and his crew aren't worse off having stopped somewhere. and it's not because odysseus was ruthless, it's not because he put his emotions aside, it's not even because he tricked anyone into anything - it's because he was unselfish and honest (but not completely stupid! he didn't provoke her, he used the moly well, etc.), and was met with kindness.
the implicit false equivalence between kindness and stupidity is even more jarring once you get to the wisdom saga, because athena is learning the exact opposite lesson. she's much kinder to telemachus even though he never seems as promising a "warrior of the mind", she sounds downright nostalgic telling him about odysseus, she admits she hasn't been sleeping well since she and odysseus fought.
she chooses to help odysseus not because she can use him for her own glory, but because he's her friend after all, and he's suffering.
and she doesn't win the god games by being ruthless (as in, cruel to her opponents) but by being smart. you could argue she's manipulating them, but I think she's just trying to find what would sway them, and she's not dishonest or mean about any of it. she can be smart without necessarily being ruthless!
there are still two sagas left, so maybe odysseus won't finish the story thinking he has to be the monster every time everywhere if he wants to win (though considering the snippets and tracklist... yeah I'm gonna doubt that). either way, I know I'll love it. I just don't love the casual way wit and callousness get conflated throughout what we've seen of the musical so far.
#tbf it's not specific to epic I think a lot of stories and even general discourse do that#and it's always possible (likely even) I simply missed or misunderstood something or got fixated on details#anyway I'm talking strictly about the musical the odyssey obviously deals a lot more in pride the gods' will and just#odysseus being a nosy weasel#epic the musical#mine#this started out as airing my grievances and it became an open arms manifesto so quickly :/#I don't even like open arms#this is such a long post 🥲 when will I learn to be concise
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I think we should bring back basic etiquette lessons such as shutting the fuck up when you’re watching a movie in a group that is not exclusively your friend group 🙂
#welcome to another Mick Airs Out Their Grievances and by god is it a VERY long one#prob best if u don't expand the tags#am I being maybe a bit meaner about this than I would be for any other movie? maybe but pac rim is one of my favorite movies of all time#so I think I get a pass on this one.#one of the groups on campus is hosting movie nights & I went to this one bc I've only ever watched pac rim on my laptop and wanted to watch#it on a larger screen. yay yippee I love this movie!#there r maybe 10-ish of us in this room and a three person friend group is sitting on the couch one of whom has seen the movie and two who#have not. okay so far so normal.#and then the movie starts and they won't! stop! fucking! commentating! the whole fucking movie!!! I don't have a problem with doing that#when I'm in just my friend group because I know that I can tell my friend to stop talking or pause the movie or whatnot but not when I'm in#a large group w people I'm not good friends with ffs#and the comments aren't even funny or anything they're all oh this is JUST like in iron widow!! oh they're SO gay and autistic!!! and#they're talking so loud about this that it completely drowns out the movie audio which has already been turned up a few times#like. be considerate!! some of us want to yknow actually listen to what's going on and not whatever bullshit you're saying#I nearly walked out three or four times before I actually wound up doing so#I may have been a bit of a bitch at the end but I don't care. I got up to leave because this was not an enjoyable environment and one of#them offered to turn the movie down if it was too loud. this caught me a bit off guard since I expected them to still be so wrapped up in#their convo and. well. I may have said 'it's not the movie that's too loud' before closing the door#this also reminds me a lot about my issues with online shipping culture and it bleeding through into how we interact with media irl#this is probably heavily influenced by my aromanticism but I'm so sick of people constantly reading romantic relationships into everything#AND placing more importance on those relationships than any other form. I don't mind romance in media. I think if done right it has great#emotional impact on a story but when a movie is running and when other people who may not want to hear it are in the room watching it too#is not the time to be loudly saying 'he's autistic!' 'they're in love!' 'she has a crush on him!'#I have my own interpretations of the movie some of which agree with what they said and some of which don't but that's beside the point of#knowing how to coexist politely in public#anyway. I think they were awful and annoying and they ruined my night out.#I think I'm just so incredibly mad about this because I love the movie and I was looking forward to watching it in a group of people who#found it cool as well while still having some modicum of politeness#I almost wish I had been meaner but that's the extreme annoyance talking I think#hater hour over love u guys bye
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I do think wyll would appreciate hearing about baldur's gate from the other companions. It must be bittersweet- to know that the city continues to go on, day after day, because of your sacrifice. That you can only hear about its soirees and busy streets and its stupid fucking bridge because of your pact and subsequent exile.
Idk, do the companions think about that when they tell him their stories? Maybe shadowheart tells him small little details of parts of the city he wouldn't recognize- how much does she remember of the city? Can one of her few memories be a source of comfort for the both of them? Maybe karlach tries to focus on what they'll do when they do get there- we'll get a pint at your favorite bar! We'll go get food, and see a show, and spend some money on something nice to commemorate your coming back. And astarion reminds him that after 200 years the elfsong is still there, just under new management (and infinitely stickier), so it's still going to be recognizable to wyll, the city is still his. Do they think about how his actions as a 17 yr old boy has altered the course of their lives, even if they didn't realize it at the time?
#i think maybe karlach has a throwaway story to tell over the fire one night#and he get the biggest wettest red eye and is like ohhh i remember that restaurant... i'm so glad it's still there :')#and every baldurian is like ah fuck. we have no choice. we have to tell him stories now#it'd be fun for everyone. gale and lae'zel would probably be interested#mayb it'd jog shadowheart's memories. maybe karlach and astarion can air their grievances out about the city to a captive audience LOL#but that would all be an excuse. the real reason to talk abt the city#is so he can be reminded of his home and remind himself he belongs there :)#idk just thinking *kicks can down the road*
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the idea of danny coming to the conclusion that valerie would naturally get along well w his parents only to then see that she actually has more in common w jazz is kinda everything to me rn
#thinking abt that post ursaspecter made awhile back valerie having an aneurysm over the amount lab safety violations maddie and jack have#her airing out her grievances w jazz and being like well it's nice know i'm not alone on that actually#also see the potential for them to be an unstoppable paranormal research duo#and have a mutual desire to study gay middle aged men like bugs aka vlad lol#basically solidarity for girls that everbody including themselves think they're normal but they're not#and are totes repressed and literally a hair away from snapping and just going off the rails#who also happen to be gay#robi rambles
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PSA:
For the love of god do not publicly post screenshots of private messages.
The world is a shitty and inhospitable enough place - we don't need to make internet spaces like that too. I mean they're already like that but we don't need to actively make it worse.
#this post brought to you apropos of nothing#I've seen this shit happen way too many times and it needs to stop - stop airing personal grievances publicly#Please I am fucking begging y'all#and if you do know what I'm talking about - please don't take this as me like taking a side here or blasting either party involved#this is a general statement that I feel like needs to be said#I'm not getting involved in fandom drama ... especially for a fandom I've been halfway out of since like the summer#zero skin in the game aside from just not wanting people to be harassed#you don't need to make every interaction an AITA post
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If you think either or both of these fights were okay or good, go ahead and vote, too! I'd love to hear thoughts on these battles--this is strictly about which was worse overall. Not which you disliked more, but about the quality of the fights. I've got a lot of thoughts on both. Probably won't be able to provide an analysis with screenshots until I get a day off again, though.
#Jujutsu Kaisen#JJK#Spoilers#Jujutsu Kaisen Spoilers#JJK Spoilers#JJK Manga Spoilers#Almost forgot to tag:#JJK 236#Not tagging any characters for this. This post isn't critical of any of the characters. Just the fights.#Polls#Jujutsu Kaisen Polls#JJK Polls#I'm curious on thoughts about how these fights were handled. My experiences as someone versed in Battle Shōnen and action scenes (1/2)#(2/2) may cause me to view fights completely differently.#My opinion is that both fights suck and do massive disservices to almost every character involved.#But it mainly comes down to things like composition; action flow; the crafting of tense situations in battle and resolutions.#Air out your grievances! Or your lack of them. But decide: which fight is worse?#Might post a version with a longer time later.
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y'all, if you don't even like the premise of a fic, never mind its content, and you possess the ability to scroll past it, you should probably just...do that. instead of putting authors on blast for writing a thing you don't agree with.
#like what is your life like if you get you so bent out of shape over something someone wrote about people who are...not real#i scroll past shit that i don't like/doesn't interest me/disagree with literally daily it's not that hard#the only time i've ever gotten this mad at a fic it was for untagged drugging and subsequent non-con#and even then i didn't put the author on blast i was just like - hey this thing exists heads up to anyone who may be triggered by it#you can be mad about things and disagree with things and not be an asshole about it it's really very simple#you're absolutely allowed to not like the content of a fic - be it characterization or plot points or whatever#what's not okay is being really fucking rude to the people who create the content you disagree with#am i just a crotchety fandom old at this point? who knows. i don't care.#also not allowing reblogs because i'm not interested in discourse. i'm airing a grievance and moving on.
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What the mere fact that he used Keiwa's death as a stepping stone to grant his wish, that he literally used the lives of civillians just to get the power to crush all Kamen Riders, used the misery of millions to get his wish not hypocritical to you. O Keiwa's hypocritical alright, I dont think any true Keiwa fan was blind to that, but that's just, the wishes need a sacrifice.
Just admit that you like the villain and we'll be done here. He's a good villainous character, but you are here glorifying his actions as if he didnt kill any innocents, caused property damage, terrorized a whole city.
It would be hypocritical if Michinaga was ever trying to claim he's better than the other Riders or something like that for what he's done, but he's not. He's never once claimed he's better than them, he literally agrees hes done the same shit he's angry at them for because it's how he knew how to get his way in the end when Beroba calls him out on it.
And I do like villains, but A. I'm not here glorifying anything first off considering this is fictional and none of it is real, and B. Michinaga isn't even a villain anymore. This isn't about moralizing what I like in Kamen Rider, that wasn't the point here. And I also never said that Michinaga didn't do shit wrong, because he clearly does and I'd be a liar to claim otherwise. What I was getting at in my post was how people seem to miss his Actual motives behind things because I like him for his depth and like to talk about characters I like because of those things. The only reason I even made my post in the first place is because I was tired of going into Michinaga's tag and seeing people either misunderstand or just be weird about people liking him, so I wrote my own post about what I felt about him.
#i'm also literally a keiwa fan I'm only critiquing him because I Like Him Too and dont like people making him out to be totally innocent-#-when he isnt. that does a disservice to understanding his character as a whole#again this was just a post for me airing my grievances on a character i enjoy on my own blog#ask#answered
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Small pet peeve of mine that shouldn't bother me as much as it does: charr players with adverbs in their warband name.
#Skye says stuff#granted some may be titles or stuff like that. totally fair and they are neat. but when it's obvious it irks me irrationally :')#also fair that not everyone researches lore accurate names nor knows english well enough. but I'm still gonna kick a small rock over this :#for the record: charr only use nouns and verbs and adjectives. technically all singular.#yes I know Aurelia uses plural but that comes with a lore explanation (thanks to a certain Tribune who wanted to fuck with bureaucracy)#ignore me airing out minor bs grievances like this. serious ones are taking up all the space :')#not aimed at anyone in particular! just me running into likely-newbies in-game and feeling irked by bs because of the horrors
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Would like to preface this by agreeing with OP-- we are well past the time of pretending that every piece of classic literature is written by a white man. I'd even hazard a step further and say that it's time to dispense with the excuse that white writers are the only ones assigned in English classes.
For one, the Jewish identities of many prominent USAmerican writers tend to get swept aside when dismissing the classics as 'written by a bunch of white guys'. Isaac Asimov, Ira Levin, Arthur Miller, and J.D. Salinger are all commonly read in high school English courses, and they were all Jewish-American.
For another, I can only attest to my own experience; however, I attended a different high school every year until I graduated, and Things Fall Apart by Chinua Achebe was assigned no less than three times across those schools. One of those instances was smack dab in the middle of the bible belt, in a school that didn't have enough funding to replace the doors to their bathroom stalls. That being established, I'd like to change tacks
A mutual rightly pointed out that even within America there are a wealth of classics written by people of color. Furthermore, the modern literary scene would be unidentifiable without their contributions and influences.
Could you imagine modern literature without the Harlem Renaissance? Without Langston Hughes? Nella Larson? Or what about the influences, the knock-on effects of it? Imagine modern literature without Maya Angelou. James Baldwin. Ralph Ellison. Lorraine Hansberry.
Imagine modern literature without Magical Realism. Without Isabelle Allende. Gabriel García Márquez. Toni Morrison.
Fortunately, we do not have to. In any case, it would be an impossible feat, even before we move into considering how inextricable the literary traditions of Indigenous storytellers are from American art as a whole.
We do not have to imagine a world without Leslie Marmon Silko. Simon J. Ortiz. Vine Deloria Jr. Ryan RedCorn. Thomas King
The world of American literature is not a small white box! There is such a vast and varied world of writing to explore! We are all in conversation with one another. The world outside is beautiful, the world around us is beautiful, and our neighbors and relatives and friends and ancestors have stories and experiences to share! Absolutely reach beyond the literature of your country, your continent, but don't forget how many different people and communities are around you, trying to hold a conversation with you, every day.
kills me that "every single classic out there is written by white people" is such a common take. are the literary traditions of other countries a fucking joke to you? come on. go read the journey to the west or something I beg
#not addressing this to you op i'm p sure this fits within your general ethos#i just needed to get some things out#airing grievances: lit#long post#ah when posting last night i accidentally cut out the bit where i made the distinction between the united states and America#but to clarify southern and central american authors are in constant conversation with north american authors#hence why i brought up chilean and columbian authors in this context#i'd originally wanted to also talk about joy kogawa and other canadian authors but it was late and i am not as familiar with their work#forgive me
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If one more man I meet in this lifetime calls me shy I'm going to go straight genocidal
#I'm still mad about the other day#I just have so many frustrations about how everything went down#Also what bullshit is it that both me and my partner in the program ended up crying on the same day for diff reasons#It's extra ridiculous because if either of us tried to speak up about what happened we'd be told that we can't take constructive criticism#Which is bullshit because that wasn't what that was#What was said about my partner was underhanded and petty while mine was all based in assumptions made about my character#By ppl who don't even know me#And it's extra frustrating for me because half of what pisses me off was my partner essentially offering me up for slaughter#Not in a deliberate way but as a side effect of exactly what the petty person had said about them#So I couldn't air that grievance because the wound was still new and it just wasn't the time to be like 'yknow maybe we could talk less'#I think this week what normally would've been a strength for the both of us just really played off each other in a horrendous way#To where we presented as total opposites and the extremes at that#And the question my partner asked that got me in deep shit wasn't even a bad question or out of line#It was just the wrong person to ask and bad timing#Cause any other day I would've shrugged those words off but it was CONSTANT at that facility#Plus the fact that the person giving the criticism had no right to speak on the matter given he spent no time with us#God that meeting felt like it went on forever and I just wanted it to be over quickly#Just another time that really highlights the difference in personality and thought process between me and my partner#I don't think it's worth my time to try and convince others that I'm different from what they believe#Because in the end their opinion of me doesn't matter only what i think of myself#But he on the other hand wants to give others the best chance to redeem themselves and rid themselves of ignorance#Which is all well and dandy but if someone is clearly not listening or open to learning then I'm not gonna waste my time with that#But he doesn't seem to have that same cutoff and just keeps going#And it's just damn uncomfortable for me and really blew up in my face this time#Ugh I'll never be over it#But I did promise myself that I wouldn't cry about that kind of thing again and I feel ridiculous for crying about it in the first place#I guess it was just too much at the time and I hit my breaking point#Terrible end to that visit#You couldn't pay me a million dollars to work at that plant#Most of those ppl are bastards but there were a few really good ppl that I'm gonna miss
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MAGNETIC — PARK SUNGHOON
SYNOPSIS. sunghoon had been stressed for weeks due to their comeback, and an argument with you makes him say really hurtful things, whether they were true or not. but at the end of the day, he knows you love him, and thats really all that matters to sunghoon.
pairing. idol!sunghoon x f!reader wc. 0.4k tw. kissing , slight angst , hoon and reader are fighting genre. fluff ( CATALOGUE )
the tension between you and sunghoon had been building for days. sunghoon barely spent time with you anymore. he was always at work, practicing for his new comeback, and when he was home, he was asleep.
of course, this was not sunghoon's fault at all. it's just that recently your schedules weren't aligning, and you'd rather be occupied than stay home waiting for your boyfriend, so you signed up for more work hours.
this arrangement led to the two of you being able to meet only once or twice in two weeks; you saw sunghoon less often, and you talked to him even lesser.
sunghoon wasn't stupid. he could tell something was wrong. his girlfriend had stopped responding to his messages, and this past month she had seemed off, but whenever he asked her about it, she brushed him off.
it started with a simple misunderstanding, as most arguments do. sunghoon had made a passing comment that struck a nerve, and before you knew it, the two of you were exchanging harsh words, each one stinging more than the last.
" you never listen to me ! " sunghoon's voice was sharp, you could hear the frustration oozing from his voice.
" i do listen, sunghoon, " you shot back, your own voice tinged with irritation, " you never take my opinions seriously ! "
the argument escalated quickly, fueled by the pent-up frustration and unspoken grievances. you both said things you didn't mean, and your words had cut deeper than you'd intended.
you resorted to sitting far from him, on the other end of the couch, refusing to communicate. sunghoon scoffed at your state, " you're always so quiet when it actually matters. you don't even care about us. "
his tone was accusing, and had unknowingly begun to dredge up insecurities you'd tried to bury. suddenly, the argument wasn't just about the disagreement at hand, you could tell that this had been on his mind for a while.
after a few minutes of staring, he was still met with silence from you. sunghoon stormed out of the room, leaving you alone with your thoughts and a sinking feeling in your chest.
hours passed in silence, but the argument hung heavy in the air. you tried to focus on other things, but your mind kept drifting back to sunghoon.
just as you were beginning to retire to the bedroom, the front door creaked open, and there stood your boyfriend, obviously surprised that you were still here.
he sighed, walking over to the kitchen counter behind you, pouring himself a glass of water. " i thought you wanted some space ? " he said, voice laced with annoyance.
you glanced up, you had spent enough time alone. " i don't need space, " you replied softly, voice barely above a whisper. " i need you, hoon. "
for a moment, there was silence, then, without another word, sunghoon crossed the room in quick strides, pulling you into his arms with a surprising tenderness.
" i'm sorry. " you smiled against his chest, as he whispered an apology in response to yours.
#enhypen#enhypen fluff#enhypen angst#park sunghoon#kim sunoo#yang jungwon#lee heeseung#nishimura riki#park jay#sim jaeyun#sunghoon fluff#sunghoon angst#enhypen x reader#enhypen imagines#sunghoon x reader#enhypen smau
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for the fear of falling apart - masterlist
you've always had a picturesque idea of how your life would turn out. finding out that your sister is in love with your boyfriend wasn't part of that picture.
completed series
re: a rewrite of the jeid plotline from season 15 of criminal minds, featuring spencer reid x jareau!reader, goes from 14x15 "truth or dare" through 15x10 "and in the end"
part one
↳ after hearing her gunpoint confession, your sister pressures you into airing your grievances at Rossi's wedding
part two
↳ returning to Everett Lynch's case, you try to redefine normalcy with Spencer and JJ, but Grace Lynch has other plans for you
part three
↳ when it seems like a return to normalcy is impossible, you decide that something has to give, but will it bend or will it break?
part four
↳ you missed the paperwork that said joining the BAU meant having an unstable personal life, and Cat Adams is dedicated to making sure you know nothing is ever private
part five
↳ there's one last chance for everything to fall apart, but this time you aren't at the center of disaster - Spencer is
epilogue
↳ good things come to those who wait, and you're finally getting your happy ending
taglist: i've had a lot of people ask to be tagged and i'm trying my best to keep up with it, but if you'd like to be tagged, you can comment/reblog this post or my inbox and messages are open! please note that this is just a taglist for this series and not an all encompassing jareau!reader taglist.
a/n: okay so here it is, my goal is to have one part up each week. additionally, i'm telling you all right now that the canon timeline does not exist in this series.
all parts and yap sessions relating to this series are tagged with #ffofa on this blog
#spencer reid#spencer reid x reader#spencer reid fanfic#spencer reid x you#spencer reid fanfiction#spencer reid angst#spencer reid fluff#spencer reid fic#spencer reid series#spencer reid imagine#dr spencer reid#criminal minds#spencer reid x y/n#spencer reid x fem!reader#criminal minds angst#criminal minds fluff#jennifer jareau#ffofa#jareau!reader
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Impressions/favourite moments from Ch 9?
god where do i start
there's a whole essay to be written about how their dreams were just mirrors of each other because they're too fucking obsessed with each other to imagine life without each other, that Jamil keeps dream-Kalim around in his perfect world when he could have just conjured a life without him, where's he's fucked off forever, or where they never met? Explain to me WHY dream-Jamil is a horrifyingly chipper, overly-friendly parody of himself but still brainwashes Kalim instead of just pouting and saying "noooo kalim dont wake up you're so sexy we're best fwiends haha" which I can't not read as implying this is something he's fine with? has been fine with?? (we got a hint about the conditions of the manifestation of Jamil's signature spell! we've long known Kalim's been sworn to secrecy about it and he takes that promise so seriously that Jade couldn't get it out of him but like!! I still want to know the details!!)
That they had the most ridiculous shonen jump little boy slapfight because they're both SO stunted and they've been together forever but they never got to be normal-ass kids about it and they finally got to air their grievances with each other because they're trapped in a dreamscape where there's no repercussions to finally just throwing hands and calling each other names? That when push comes to shove Jamil still instinctually puts himself in danger and pushes Kalim to safety?
there's an essay to be written but I'm simply too yaoi poisoned to be the one to do it, I'm sorry. My only note is that I think the fight should have devolved into sloppy makeouts.
#jamil viper#kalim al-asim#jamikali#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland jp spoilers#sorry idk what the appropriate spoiler tags are#art tag
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I love the juice bar scene as much as the next person. I especially love the juice bar scene in conjunction with the confession.
And yeah, the "I'm straight" is chekov's gun, and the chemistry between Eddie and father Brian too. I love the meta/spec/headcanons!
That's not what I want to talk about. Instead, I want to talk about how sensitive Father Brian has been to Eddie's needs. He offered Bobby help in the church, face to face, and that worked for Bobby because he's a religious man. Eddie went to confession, and got his grievances aired, but -
we know Eddie's relationship with the church and religion is more complex than Bobby's. It doesn't work.
And then Father Brian runs into Eddie, recognizes him although he probably only saw Eddie through the confessional's grate. He remembers Eddie's name, too. He cares! And I don't think that's a sexual/romantic thing at all - and I don't think it is religious either. Yes, religion is the context within which he works, but it's not the only context.
He's not technically on the job when he sits down at that table; he's away from the protection by the grandiose rituals embedded in going to church, confession, wearing robes. He does it out of personal care, affection for humanity; he fills the role of a social worker, a guidance counselor - and religion is one of his tools but it's clearly not his only tool. It's also his ability to observe, and to listen, and to reflect on things - putting his finger on the sore spot in ways no one else in Eddie's life has done. That takes guts, especially because he knows Eddie's in a vulnerable place.
And he does it not because he's interested in Eddie romantically/sexually - that is not the reciprocity he seeks, nor the reciprocity that fulfills him. He does it because he cares.
The setting certainly helps too. Eddie doesn't feel as intimidated, not like a fish out of water. Only his title marks Father Brian as a religious figure; he uses it to break the ice and mark himself as safe ("I am celibate"), and then finally invokes his position to speak to Eddie's Catholic guilt and get him to do something for himself.
I don't know. It just felt deeply human and caring and I enjoy that a lot, and I love how it all connects back to Eddie first realizing his Catholic guilt in 7x05.
#911#911 meta#911 spoilers#father brian#eddie diaz#this is also not meant to be criticism of people who want to read something else in that relationship#but i actually love it as it is/as its own mini-arc#it feels very satisfying#the kind of religious/secular nudge in the right direction eddie needed#i think for me the way i could imagine father brian returning in eddie's life might be to have eddie return to the church hand in hand with#buck#because that by itself would be poignant - them as two men clearly together in a house of god#and thanking father brian who'd obviously be happy to see it#and yeah i know IRL church vs queerness is A Whole Entire Thing i am not interested in discussing that here in the slightest <3#my meta#meta
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