#I'm allowed to take a bit off

[mrpristineblade]

alrighty, my brain demands rest, so back to the shadows I go

[syrenki]

post depressive episode clarity like what the fuck do you mean they'll never disappear, just fade.

[anatheyma]

good afternoon puppy tumblr! i need to get collared.

[lyxchen]

Feel like I need to defend the people being upset about the non existent Agatha/Rio just a little bit and maybe that's because I'm also a lesbian who really likes them but I feel like the hate towards lesbians is a bit uncalled for or excessive like. Obviously homophobia or just full on blatantly hating on Billy as a character is shitty and I'm not defending that. But the way some people talk about this like "ugh can these annoying lesbians just shut up already?? How dare they be scared that this show might take a turn and take focus away from the sapphic couple?" Cause like that's what it is. Sapphic people are scared or upset about the possibility of the focus being taken off of Agatha and Rio and their relationship completely now that they have introduced a character that is important and will continue to appear in other Marvel media. Because good sapphic representation has been taken away too early or messed with a lot already. I think that if in the next episodes there are more Rio and Agatha scenes and important moments and just relationship stuff then most sapphic people who are complaining right now are gonna be totally okay with Billy's story. But right now we just can't know for certain.

Also I just have to say I see way more people hating on lesbians right now than I see lesbians being outright homophobic in the tag...

[ninjagirlstar5]

Star, stop changing Tamami's design challenge (impossible).

No, for real, I think this is the fifth redesign I've done of her character. I don't know why but the past designs I've made for her just weren't satisfying to me for some reason. Some of the designs I decided were just bad or didn't suit her while the others were similar but I just didn't like how it looked (tank top, large sweater, scarf, the rainbow bracelet and a long skirt). But I...think I've finally landed on a design that I liked the most out of all the ones I've made so far. (Please let it be the last. Please, my brain and heart. I would like to settle on a design and move on!)

ANYWAYS, I used Teruya's DRA sprite as a base for Tamami since, well, she is his mom and she's about as short as DRA!Teruya (or maybe shorter, I don't know, the wiki gave me two heights for his DRA self. I decided she's about 4'8'' to 5''). So it made sense to use this sprite for her, even when I made slight adjustments to her eyes and nose by making the eyes a little wider and bigger and the nose a bit more pronounced as DRA!Teruya's nose is very small. Out of three of the five designs I've made, I kept this short hairstyle of hers with a large ahoge as I loved this style the most and didn't want to change it. I based her bangs off of SDRA2!Teruya's length and style and the back of her hair like DRA!Teruya's, but I changed the way the strands looked so that it'd look more like her own hairstyle but you can still see the resemblance between the two of them. The ahoge, though, is very much real, unlike Kojiro's and Teruya's (they canonically style their hair like that on purpose), and she cannot fix it no matter how hard she tries. So she just gave up and let it be. Tamami got stuck with the protagonist trait, even though she died before the events of Danganronpa, lol. I've never been a fan of fictional kids looking like carbon copies of their parents. Like, you have the meta-power to design these kids anyway you like and you just make them look exactly like one of their parents? Unless their look-alike appearance is plot relevant, it's just weird for them to look so much like one parent that they can easily be mistaken as siblings and has zero resemblance to the other. And that's saying a lot coming from me who looks a lot more like my Irish dad from skin tone alone, but even then people can tell that I'm at least Asian because of my facial structure and even asked as such, tying my appearance to my Filipino mom. I don't know, I just like seeing a mix of traits for the kids to have inherited from their parents, you know? So, since Kojiro already has a design with green hair and green eyes, I decided to have Tamami have a different hair color, gray and green, but she also has green eyes, just a different shade. Teruya inherited his mother's eyes while getting his father's hair. Since I headcanon Teruya to have freckles, Tamami has freckles as well and as I mentioned before in this post, I adjusted her skin tone to be more obviously tanned instead of dusty from my older drawings of her. And then there's the outfit, which is a dark gray tank top, a long denim(?) skirt, dark reddish-brown boots, a blue handkerchief scarf to match with Kojiro, and a big fluffy yellow sweater with a checkerboard pattern that is tucked into her skirt, and long puffy sleeves that hangs off of her shoulders. The rainbow stripes on her skirt and the rainbow bracelet ties her design to Teruya's as he wears a rainbow as well, and I thought it'd be a neat idea for them to have a similar love for rainbows even though they've never met (cause she died via childbirth). The thought of Teruya still inheriting some of his mom's mannerisms and traits even though they never officially met scratches my brain in a good, angsty way. I wonder what Kojiro thinks whenever he recognizes parts of Tamami in Teruya...And that's it for Tamami's design! Hopefully it'll stay this way.

Tiny characters that can beat the shit out of an enemy that's much taller than them will always be peak character design, you can't change my mind on that.

[master-k0hga]

G W E N D Y L L - OC

[ Category: The Promised Land ]

" Queen of the Silver City "

Notice: I have loads of OCs but there are also sub categories.. Like OCs with "Important roles" and "side OCs" which are not entirely my "Main OCs" but still very much matter to the worlds I've created with them... This is //cough// In association with the Promised Land and the Frostclaw.

| AKA " Madame Gwendyll ", Gwendyll rules another kingdom/ highly populated settlement, which just like Aurelius position as a king for the Golden Palace, Gwnedyll is the Queen of the Silver City; Which is made up mostly of, you guessed it, silver structures even down to the people.... Who are actually beings of organic silver but you get it-

The Silver beings are an interesting race, because unlike the Golden people where their skin is just of golden aesthetic down to their make-up and eye colour, the Silver beings are in fact born of entirely organic and silvery metallic "structures"; They look both fleshy and also look like their made of metal at the same time, to which is still unknown even to their own people if they were either just built by their very late ancestors, or if they somehow adapted to naturally fuse with metal armour of like years of mutations of some kind.. But either way, yes they indeed can open up their faces to reveal tissue and wiring/coding (sort of like an animatronic, except they don't open their faces willingly..) the Silver city are in fact neutral to most other kingdoms and settlements, to the Golden Palace is it mainly kept professional, however with the rise of the Deceit making their rounds harassing and murdering many with their evil deeds, Gwendyll and her people stray far away from that conflict; As the last time they aided in protecting the Golden Palace, it's King and people, they were nearly wiped out to extinction if not for Aurelius's backup (from the Vermin) if they hadn't intervened and put a stop to Kira's attack on the Promised Land.... Either way, the Silver beings tend to suppress their human emotions somehow as to not get personally involved with conflict and other issues outside of their Kingdom walls

Extra Info

The eyes of the Silver beings are in fact organic like our eyes; However unlike our eyes, the Silver beings can actually replace their eyes sort of like a light bulb.. Just a little more technical. And their site tends to stay consistent with every potential replacement

Their blood is black, sort of like tar or oil; They tend to reuse lost blood into fuelling other things, like vehicles, machinations and so on

It may look like they are wearing armour, mainly can be seen on their "headpieces"; but it is actually the structures of their actual head. Gwendyll for example along with many others of her kind, appear to "wear" helmets like knights, but alas it's not

Briefly were allies with the Deceit along with the Demon Children of the Sun tribe before things went south and Gwendyll, although risking her and her people's lives with such a brave move, betrayed Kira and his plan

Although it may seem like Gwendyll and her people are fighting for their lives and surviving in complete secret ever since betraying Kira and his army, believe it or not but although secluded that only a few allies know of their whereabouts (The Golden Palace included), they are in fact living a life of luxury since going pretty much solo

The Silver beings and their body temperature never changes no matter the climate, they will always remain a pleasant "mild" body heat which for others traversing through hard environments along with them, could very much help the more vulnerable travel more safely as long as they are in very close proximity to the Silver being. The ladies of Silver are very popular with the Inferno Elven males for this reason alone, plus their offspring tend to become the most "unstoppable" of outcomes to some

Although Gwendyll may have "called it off" when it came to fighting back against Kira and his lifelong plan of claiming everything as his own with his own power, she isn't much of a saint either herself.. during her and her people's time working under Kira they had done their fair share of killings and other deeds, one of of them being nearly successful with the plan of kidnapping King Aurelius's son to use as a form of "power source" for Kira's immortality and eternal ruling before things went south; So it was no doubt that Aurelius himself was rightfully of Gwendyll when she all of a sudden one day seemingly shifted in behaviour and pleaded for his aid when the "bigger evil arises" one day.. Which is why Aurelius himself only keeps their relationship with the Silver beings more professional, as he feels any personal or secretive info gets revealed or such to them, that Gwendyll would relay it back to her "leader". Whether his concerns are true or not is another question as it seems nothing has "happened" just yet

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I've only really got a few refs in my drafts that has been done in the span of a few weeks/one month or two but I am very much taking my time when it comes to adding the vital info and so on about all of my OCs.. So don't really expect me to be so active or anything online.. Especially now that me and my family have a cat to take care of now along with still dealing with other busy things offline.. I'mean by the time I probably even post this (and have hopefully drawn more OCs refs and stuff by then) it'll probably be a good while before I'm able to happily post again, especially since the whole "monthly art spams" seems to be a thing that's out the window now... But oh well I'll just do what I can!..

Anyways still don't know what the fuck I'm even doing here anymore, my writing has only gotten worse when it comes to OC descriptions and I'm not getting better at anything anyways so dchvk

Gwendyll didn't exactly change much herself either tbh, but this is pretty much my start off design I have for her before actually giving her a proper ref and such.. Most of the leaders of the Promised Land besides Takeshi and heck even Kira didn't really have all that much going on for them before I decided to keep on with fleshing out this land between dimensions and stuff so I'm really am going on with this fully blind... Even I don't exactly know what I'm doing or where I'm going with all this stuff.. And quite frankly I don't really care anymore, I'm doing what I can and just being in even more pain than I already have been on the daily like usualy...

... But yeah, Gwnedyll's new design is what I'll be going with since it's a lore more simpler and easier for me to work with without feeling too overly overwhelmed with character and world building..

And I believe that's all I have for this post til I eventually get on with other stuff and refs..... I'm even falling a sleep trying to just tyype some fcking shit what the hell......

Tjjthmtkthm Shits been in my drafts for fcking months and there was only two posts I've finished rjrgndjn,,,,,,, so I'll just post these in the meantime cuz I have NOT been drawing! Lmao ffhmfm..............

Oh well Idfc enough to bring regular activity to this shitehole :333

. Gwendyll, Art © Me . DON’T RE-POST .

[mariocki]

Funny Games (1997)

"Why are you doing this to us?"

"Why not?"

[see-arcane]

I might have pitied this deformed woman

With all due respect ACD why is everyone calling someone with a limp deformed... Also to be honest I would have felt more horror from the story if Gilroy found her attractive and/or charming and enjoyed her company and work relationship but also did not love her for whatever (non-physical) reason, because then there could have been a potential inner conflict and guilt, instead of ''this is out of my hands she is icky-looking and a crone (Gilroy you are 35) so I have no self-doubts about being in love involved on top of it all yay''. Having him vehemently dislike her all the time minus during hypnosis removes those layers.

It isn't 'everyone' in the story who calls her deformed, though. It's just Gilroy. No one else is mentioned deriding her for her disability or her looks or anything else beyond Penelosa's talent.

Considering ACD's comparatively progressive track record with the Sherlock Holmes stories--a series notable for how often it takes the side of oppressed parties, including abused or preyed-upon women--I can't see Gilroy's ageist and ableist views as anything but an intentional setup for the narrative payoff of his disgust as well as his anger and fear.

The story does feel slightly karmic at the start and, to give ACD the benefit of the doubt, I agree with you that having Penelosa not be an attractive hypno-dominatrix likely played a part in Gilroy's initial revulsion at her controlling him into playing paramour. I think this was intentional for the character's buildup, but also for the audience's. Even in the present day, there's no ignoring that there are demographics out there who are Highly Interested in the erotic implications of hypnosis. BDSM for the brain, puppet master kinks, et cetera.

If Miss Penelosa had been hot, or even just pretty, I wouldn't have been surprised if the horror story ACD was trying to put together would lose much of its punch in his era's audience. Sure, it's still icky that Gilroy's a man being Controlled By a Woman (!!!), but having her be attractive would 'soften' it for them. Still, all this is only in play if ACD was really truly adamant about selling the horror of 'A Stranger Now Owns My Free Will and Is Planning to Violate My Life in Intimate Ways.'

It could also have just been intended as an eerie scientific*** what-if adventure applied to a then-popular (and wildly overestimated) practice of the time. Or maybe he meant it as a straight-up supernatural escapade in the vein of vampiric mesmerism from a psychic monster. I don't know, I can't ask him.

All of that said, the horror is soured a bit by Gilroy being a haughty skeptic snob who had some comeuppance heading his way in the first place. Similar setups are common in horror flicks today, where we get to cheer at least once in a movie when the Big Villain takes down a more commonplace bad guy. There's no scare there, just vindication.

And me being me, that's not enough. Because I am all about two things.

One, adding more horror to everything, always, forever.

Two, making life harder for Jonathan Harker.

Jonathan 'Holiest Love means I Will Walk Backwards into Hell to Protect/Stay with My Wife Whether She's Mortal or a Literal Monster' Harker is not about to shit on anyone for a bad leg or some crow's feet.

More importantly, we've already seen his reaction to sexy sexy undead ladies trying to hypnotize him into compliance so they can take certain bloody/eternally conscripting liberties with him.

To judge by the 1000+ Dracula adaptations that show the directors' fetishes in full view, Jonathan being preyed on by the hot vampire Brides is seen by many people as...you know. Hot. Enough to rewrite and bastardize his character every time to make him seem like he was genuinely tempted by them.

But He Was Not.

He was being hypnotized into artificial attraction and paralysis so the ladies could take their turns with him without his fighting back or trying to run. Which he does later! More than once! Every time this voluptuous trio tries to hypnotize or corner him again, Jonathan catches on and sprints in the other direction. He is not into that shit no matter how pretty you are, ladies.

Specifically because, as I and Bramothy Stoker cannot stress enough, Jonathan Harker is strictly Minasexual. All Mina all the time. 24/7 Mina lockdown 365 days of the year. Mina, Mina, Mina. Mina? Mina. (I personally headcanon him as demisexual with shades of biromanticism and ace, but that's beside the point.)

The point is, even if Penelosa was a knockout, Jonathan wouldn't notice. He wouldn't care. Just as his love would not have been stopped by Mina turning into an actual monster; he would rather be damned and in love than slay her and be holy. You can bet your ass if Mina suddenly had a handicap he'd still be enraptured with her to the point of blasphemy. You know he's going to still be heart-eyed as they grow older. Jonathan Harker is made of unconditional and extremely focused love. It is all-encompassing and yet it belongs to a single person. It's the kind of love we all wish we had for ourselves.

It's the kind of love that someone like Penelosa--who latched onto a random handsome prick of a professor after she had known him LESS THAN AN HOUR and started plotting to groom him into her personal Ken doll--would do anything to have for herself; Jonathan Harker, the true Prince Charming, the gallant beloved, the guileless charmer who holds the One He Loves above himself, above God and Devil and the world itself...being wasted on some pretty young thing who hardly needs such a treasure.

It isn't fair. Mrs. Harker will never appreciate dear Jonathan like other, more deserving women would. Not like her. She would show him. Help him through the motions until he learned better; learned to love in the right direction.

Her direction.

Only if given the opportunity, of course.

(👁)

In short, yeah, Gilroy was not the best option for a sympathetic horror story protagonist who we could feel real fear and empathy for. We only really get a glimpse of that toward the end, when Penelosa escalates enough to start injuring innocents and tries to make Gilroy throw acid in his fiancée's face. A big scary leap, but also too late in the game for a proper punch. Especially with the abrupt copout of the ending. Bleh.

I think we can do better than that. Say, with a protagonist who can balance on the pro-and-con line of keeping the supernatural puppet master of their life happy enough to not act rashly, who knows the value of dancing on eggshells in a tight spot, who could tug the heartstrings of villain and audience just enough to let fuller and far more frightening machinations come to light as time goes by.

Especially with certain other powers lurking in the shadows, which might make a trifle like death a far less permanent end to their ~romance~ than it ought to be.

Don't you agree, Mr. Harker? ❤

P.S. Gilroy's still absolutely getting his ass handed to him in this take, don't you worry. He's been demoted from crush to chew toy to minion. RIP sir, but you're not off the hook just because Jonathan's distracting her with his dreaminess. Get to work.

[nerdyfangirlingbooks]

Every now and then I remember the times I would mention to my flatmate that I was thinking of buying myself something reasonably expensive (that I had been eyeing up for months and had budgeted for) and she'd tell me that I shouldn't spend that much money on something I didn't need and it would be stupid etc etc while she regularly impulse bought things that cost at least as much and she would use once (while complaining that she was under a lot of financial stress and couldn't afford <$3/week for 2 months for a rental washing machine when ours broke). She is... perhaps not my first call for financial advice

[bumblingbabooshka]

Processing some things

Also the fact that he's crouching with his hands on his knees is so cute to me for some reason?? He does this in another episode too - the one where Chakotay finds a symbol on an unknown planet...it's just so adorable to me. He could just lean down but no. Also of course his fingers are spread again - GOTTA utilize the whole hand whenever you do ANYTHING (if you're Tuvok)

[dredshirtroberts]

i was going to say i hate when i'm right but actually i enjoy the sensation of being correct even if i don't like the thing i was right about. So I'm very happy to be right so often, actually (especially now that no one in my life is actively trying to gaslight me)

[keeps-ache]

oops‎‎‎, i, ‎did it again - i overcheesed the spaghetteh,

[greppelheks]

I think I'm slowly starting to understand that me being constantly exhausted is just because I'm finally safe and my body is no longer running on adrenaline and cortisol all the time. I've been fighting against the exhaustion for over a year but I haven't actually allowed myself to rest without feeling guilty.

[luxraydyne]

honestly thinking abt it i’d definitely have preferred if danganronpa v3 had actually fully committed to the “fiction that hates you and mocks you and wants you to question why you still enjoy it bc you become brainless amoral voyeurs whenever you engage with it, you people kinda suck ass tbh actually” reading all the way to the bitter salted earth end. like i doubt i’d have *liked* the weird superiority complex vibes from it and the whole deflected creative ennui onto the audience still. but i’d for sure have to at least *respect* the gumption, the sheer full-chested audacity of the choice, especially in the context of this specific franchise, if the writing didn’t spend like an extra hour pussyfooting around doing a watered down, sugarcoated little backpedal into “oh no, not you actually bc you specifically are special and nice and good and don’t count”. this trial is way too fuckin long anyway like pick your bit and stick to it binch. call me a sucker to my face binch come on!

[arcadequeerz]

m.

[braveburned]

I know I joke fairly often about how people should adopt gregory and while that's because I genuinely want him to have that kind of love and care, I need to clarify he's not going to make it an easy path to get there — gregory is a deeply angry kid with a strongly rooted distrust of adults that, given the circumstances, can be genuine fear ( particularly of authority figures ).

he's going to lash out in an attempt to keep people away from him. he's going to assume anyone who tries to care doesn't actually care about him, and only does so out of obligation. he genuinely believes when people get to know him, they stop caring about him.

freddy gets off easy because he's an ai. he's literally programmed to care about kids. real, actual people though? he's convinced himself they will always leave him behind.