#I'll miss her forever
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Hey, folks!
To those of you who’ve been waiting for a new chapter, I have some bad news: my dog passed away two days ago. She was such a sweetheart, and lived a long life (13 years), this was coming. Deep down, I knew it and tried to put some distance between us — I couldn’t. I try to rationalize she was old and hurting, but I miss her so much, the grief I feel is still raw. I can’t write. I’ve tried, but each word frustrated me. Usually, writing is therapeutic, but not now. The pain is too vivid. I’ll take a few days to deal with my new life without the fur baby and unwind. I hope to have something, no matter how short, by next week. I just need a while to mourn.
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I can't stop thinking about Nina's parents seeing her after months of going mia with no hair "living" with a girl acting weird and immediately thinking "oooh she's a homosexual. Makes sense now" but it was just cancer
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#bleach#bleachedit#ichigo kurosaki#rukia kuchiki#kuchiki rukia#kurosaki ichigo#anime gif#animeedit#shounenedit#eri gifs#anime#ichiruki#*#oldanimeedit#fyanimegifs#animangahive#anisource#ichi always shooting bedroom eyes at her before and after and even between their entire banter here#like fckin simp you missed her so much huh!!!!#also sorry this is so low qual i just saw it stuck on my to-gif folder but i havent really gotten a better copy in forever#i'll just redo when i ever get to that haha
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I hope this isn't weird but I've been reading this by @batmanisagatewaydrug and I had like the sudden, strongest urge to make art properly for the first time in ages, so uhhhh have some Jessie (or Jess? Can I call her Jess because I love her?) who is a terrible wet cat of a woman!
I wanted to get this done fast and human anatomy is not my forte so I traced a picture of Natalie in the City, who's a fashion blogger and has some cute fits, though no supervillain ones as far as I'm aware :3
#ham art#i think jessie lies wetly fixed my art block?#after i started this it motivated me to finish off a little comic that's been in my drafts forever and post it and i've got anime fanart#rotating in my mind now! :D maybe i'll even finish off my valentine's unburied art from last year#also i know the tiny underboob window's wrong because she wears a bra that would render that salacious little bit of skin invisible#but i just could not resist#i hope i've done her justice!#jessie is the coolest and awfulest and i love her she's so fun to read thank u op#also i've come to the realization that if i'm just having fun drawing i don't actually have to do the parts that aren't fun i can skip that#if i find drawing human proportions and perspective in general stressful and just wanted to do the fun outfits and face/makeup and hair#i can do that! this is like. a hobby. so i don't need to laboriously force myself to get better at anatomy if i don't wanna#also also i was so pleased that i guessed ricochet's colouring correctly on the first try! (except i missed the freckles)
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she lives in my head rent free all utilities paid but that's okay because i am a generous soul and it's of no expense to me i have the money it's fine. no this isn't causing me any kind of serious psychic or spiritual damage bro why do you ask
#it's fine this happens every time i am made aware of ex friend's existence it will pass. i feel like one of the moles in whack a mole but#it is going to pass 👍#it's sooooo crazy how grief and anger can coexist. yes i miss you no i don't ever want to talk to you again yes i still want to poke you#whenever i see anything you like and used to gush to me about. you're my forever antagonist tht i will never trust again but#also it is possible that despite my best efforts the love is still there. what about it#i don't like her now tht i know her but i do still like n miss the person i thought she was and what relationship i had with tht person :/#sighhhhhhhh. who wants to shoot me with a tranquilizer dart i'll stand real still so you don't miss
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Had to put my baby to sleep yesterday, and I feel like I'll never get over it. She was 19 years old, and I had her literally since the day she was born.
Don't forget to love your pets today.
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Just started actively sobbing because I realized that this is my last year with Ms. Colligan and she's the most amazing teacher I've ever had and I think. I have issues.
#“do you think I would have let you come here if I didn't know you could do it?”#“you're better than most of the kids in there. you don't need to beat yourself up like this”#“I'll get you a banana I'm sure you'll feel better after eating”#“have I ever led you astray?”#I love her so much I'm gonna miss her#I wish I never had to leave her#I wish I could just stay with her forever#god I have attachment issues#I just hope that I don't stop loving band when I'm with a different director#I'll make it far Ms. Colligan#I'll make it far#I'll do it for you#I won't let you down#vent ish#tbh please reblog tho#if you have your own sweet band director stories I wanna hear em‼️#band stuff#band
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My nails r getting kind of long. Almost to claw mode. I kinda don't wanna cut them tho bc I kinda wanna paint them for my birthday weekend
Nonzero chance of seeing my mom on mother's day. By my own choice, I guess. And I'm still not sure how I'm feeling about that. But ykno what, it'll be my birthday weekend, and I'm going to make sure to live it to the fullest..!!!
#speculation nation#my thoughts about her are all jumbled up after losing my dad & then her hospital visit a few weeks back.#and i bought her a thing of earrings from the farmer's market. i havent bought her a present in Years.#idk if it's just compulsory reaction to How Things Are rn. but. idk.#it never has been simple i suppose.#god i really do hate that my birthday is always near mother's day..!!!!! my forever curse!!!!!#at least leap year made me dodge a day-of event this year. the last one was when i turned 21#but bc of leap year my bday went from saturday to monday. missing mother's day by a day ❤️#makes me wonder what sort of life i'll be living 6 years from now. when i think the next mother's day event will be.#will i still have a mother then? i have no fuckin clue#my heart tells me no. but i also have 'everyone in my life is going to die soon' paranoia now so thats probably biased.#Oh Well. either she dies or she doesnt! i'll deal with it either way.#in any case. birthday! nail painting!!! i think i want to do color changing nails#my favorite blue/green polish that ends up being teal on the in between. love that shit so much
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Heading out of town for my trip to see my long distance girlfriend in person again!! Extremely EXTREMELY nervous but very excited!!!
#it's only been 5 months since i saw her in person last but it's felt like FOREVER i missed her so much#i get to see her for Valentine's :]#also put Hallows in my outfit for today lol‚ i was hoping to save my special bird jacket for its special coordinated outfit#but unfortunately it's cold as shit and i want to be warm lmao#maybe I'll even wear my tiny cloak over top it if it keeps getting colder I'm gonna be FREEZING during the trip lmao#three eyed cats in my living room#hallows#hallows nightbreeze
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Fish
Written 11/04/24
Preen against the grasses and pluck at heartstrings,
You are the natural comfort of all natural beings.
I look into the earth and see your eyes in its beauty,
I look into the sea and pity that your reflection is not there.
I see you in the earth because the earth is honest.
You are as pure as the dirt that crumbles twixt my fingers,
You are as smooth as the mud that cakes so cleanly,
You are the grass that cushions my calloused, weary soles,
You are all the great things that normality is afraid of.
When they ask me of you I will only speak of nature,
I can only speak of the wildness of your youth, yet
Intertwined with the innocence and purity of your heart.
You make me forgive the earth for dirtying my hands.
You make me love the way the trees sing in chorus,
All they say is your name, I'll never exist in a forest
Where no sound exists, for when the tree falls, it is you.
You will always be there. You are the one constant.
You diverge the current, you are the stone that splits
The tide. The dew that clings to the grasses envies you,
For it cannot exist everywhere at once in nature as you do.
So, when they ask me what I think of when I hear the rain,
Smell the petrichor, and see the dawn of a new day rise,
I will say simply: I think of you.
#my poetry (green)#i love this one. i used to hate it.#i wrote it for a friend after she asked me to write her a poem#i normally wouldn't ever do that. ever.#and i normally don't write happy poetry#but more than half a year later and the meaning of the poem hasn't changed even though we don't talk anymore.#i love her and i miss her. I'll never have another friend so pure in heart and nature#LOVE YOU FOREVER FISH
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they should invent a kind of yearning that isn't obscenely expensive to satisfy
#x#have you ever desired someone so bad it made you want to die#like every moment you spend together is so precious that it makes the physical & logistical limitations into pure agony#i should be able to bring her water when she's feeling overwhelmed & help her with her little daily tasks#then make sure she's well fed & held tightly until she falls asleep#& i should be allowed to do this Forever!!!#& i shouldn't feel like i missed out bc i fell asleep bc my body's all messed up from my stupid idiot shiftwork#& now i won't have those moments back & I don't know when I'll have another chance to see her &. god give me a fucking gun already.#gnawing at my own leg until the bone snaps.
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I love your work and creativity on power couple Baatar Jr and kuvira but when will we get more of THE power couple Corvus Glaive and Proxima Midnight ?
Aaaahh thank you I'm glad you enjoy my Baatar and Kuvira stuff!! I know they're quite niche so it makes me happy to hear people like my work with them ;;
But gah yeah it has been a while since my Corvus and Proxima days, I actually miss those two a lot ;; I had a TON of content for them, a lot of it still in my folders tbh I just definitely got distracted by LoK :'D also my fire for Marvel has pretty much gone out, I haven't really been vibing with Phase 4 so my brain has just kinda moved on~ I still really love my old Marvel favs, like Ronan and Crystal as they were so important to me for so long, and of course Corvus and Proxima too, so even though I'm really not in the Marvel space anymore, I'd really love to revisit those characters sometime, especially since my art for humans/humanoid characters has improved a lot since then!
While writing this I was looking through my Corvus/Proxima folders on my computer and phone and gosh yeah there's a lot of content I never got around to finishing/posting- both art and fics ;; I had a lot of extensive stuff about my version of Proxima's species, my redesigns of everyone, as well as everyone's time before The Order came about, and especially the development of Corv and Prox's relationship. Hopefully one day I can get back to it all!
I did find this old wip in my folder as well, I still like where it's going so I'll definitely have to bring this back sometime lol I always loved the idea of Corvus' scrawny lizard ass just getting fucking Hoisted by his giant wife
#Proxima Midnight#Corvus Glaive#Corvus x Proxima#The Black Order#Marvel#Fanart#WIP#Ask Matsu#[ I honestly really miss drawing these two a lot ;A;#it makes me happy knowing people remember my older content haha#I'd like to get back to them because I had a lot of fun stuff going on with them wah#never underestimate my ability to get completely fucking Derailed by a glasses man askdjfsgf#*makes Baatar sit in time out* let someone else have some attention for once#but man Proxima still is The Woman for me I swear#others have come and gone but my love for her will forever remain#I'll never forget what she did to me in 2020#if you were there you were there alskjgfd#but yeah aah I'm sorry LoK has become my main thing for so long and just kinda drowned out everything else :'DD#I've got more original content in the works but I do wanna return to some older stuff like Prox and Corvus#Ronan and Crystal too! ]
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The fact that I see my bestie again in 7 weeks is my reason to get up every morning 😭
#-ˋˏ ༻sunlit serenade#it's been 6 months I miss her stupid face so much#but you know how it is with adults and their schedules#gonna spend the entire weekend glued to her side and cry on my 5 hour drive home#I'll just kidnap her I guess :((#Forever grateful for tumblr that I met this amazing person she has my heart and soul
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My day will be going so fine and all of a sudden I feel like I'm 14 again
#Paige speaks#It's missing my mom hours lads!#Just. fuck man seeing her go from healthy to dead from cancer in the span of 4 months had such a toll on me#She should have been celebrating her 40th birthday in March! But she isn't she'll forever be 35#I'll be her age when she had me next year. How am I supposed to feel about that#Sorry for such a depressing post chat the horror that is grief has started its haunting on me
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wikihow to get over a friend you used to have that your brain is eternally unable to let go of
#don't mind me. just. venting ig#i'm just forever unable to move past that incessant deep desire to just... be able to share time with her#to be able to exist in her presence#it comes and goes#i don't know if i'll ever know for sure why that friendship didn't work out#for the longest time i assumed it was because of me#whether because that selfish infatuation shone through just a lil too much#or just simply because of how Uninteresting i know i am to be around#(it's not like she'd have been the first person to ever get bored of me...)#and like. while it's probably at least a lil bit that...#realistically i think that‚ more than anything else‚#she just changed. and it just wasn't the kind of thing she was interested in anymore#which... is what it is. change is natural#...#still hurts though#far more than it should#i think she's well. isn't that all that matters?#why can't i just let go?#....#i miss you‚ ███#forgive me for that
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i can't believe that it's almost been six years without jonghyun because it doesn't feel like it at all. i still miss him just as much.
#looking up at the moon and thinking of him. i'll miss you forever jjong#when he passed i was going through a really rough time and man. the release of poet artist kind of saved my life#and i'll never be able to thank him for that#haven't been able to bring myself to watch persona: sulli yet but maybe i should#it's like poet artist in that it's a piece of her voice i never thought i'd get#but i also don't want to watch it because then that's it. that's the last of her. and that kind of breaks my heart.
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