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I want to ask my friends very deep and substantial questions because all of my friendships feel so superficial (on my end specifically) right now and I want them to be deeper.
#air's antics#I'll make a list LMAO#I want to know people#I want that kind of platonic intimacy#because bonding over fandoms that die is one thing#but knowing someone and maintaining that bond past mutual interests is another#I had mentioned to my therapist at one point that I didn't want my parents to know me#And I think that has extended to my friendships now#Like do my friends know ME or do they know a shell?#Like do you actually know my favorite color or is it my favorite color because people expect it to be?#You know?#Shit like that LOL#don't even get me started on how distrusting I have become#I don't even trust my therapist#LIke bro?????????????????????????????????????????????????#can you CHILL Air can you open up to someone eventually??#😂😂#I'm so sorry if any of you have tried to or want to get closer to me#I am currently making that impossible :' )#But please know that I AM trying.#I'm pretty resilient though like it's a miracle I still laugh#Despite the numerous times I am told that my laugh is too loud and hurts my mom's ears lmao#I think she just hates my laugh tbh#And I kinda do too but well it's the way I laugh //shrugs
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a little 'thank you' gift for my beloved friend @once-in-a-blood-moon who made this lovely fic ☺️ (go read it here!!! 🫵)
also posting it today because day 19 prompt is 'solomon' 😗
#this might be my only entry for the event because... college (ueehgh _(´ཀ`」 ∠)_ )#it's already oct. 20 in my timezone tbh but anyway#obey me#obey me fanart#art tag#fanart#obey me solomon#obey me mc#obey me month#also HI i saw you guys tagged me in that rec post and i havent commented on that yet but thank you for including me i rlly appreciate it 🥺#i swear i'll get back to it !! (im still making my own list in my head lmao)#i lovee you jo!!!!
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Here are some sketches I drew of Phantasmagoria Corrupted Burning Spice (Change) and Mystic Flour (Volition) :D
Just a fun lil thing while I debate to myself over whether to focus on the world-building or the story. Also Change as a cowboy..just for fun :')
#fyp#cookie run kingdom#cookie run#crk#cr kingdom#vanillaverse#phantasmagoria crk#burning spice cookie#mystic flour cookie#fun fact: I think Burning Spice will be based on Shiva and Vishmu#My next post is going to be cherry blossom crk theory 2.0: Burning Spice edition lmao#watch be rant about these gods I know barely anything about but will research for hours on for the sake of cookies#also I know my au idea series is on number nine#but the list is actually on 26 now#i'll get to transferring all that eventually :'D#volition gets six arms#change is a living furnace#imagine have the sun inside your chest#not very fun#he's also a user of solar magic#which is the next planned for Knowledge's lessons in magic series#it's already done actually#i just need to decide whether or not I want to make it look like dnd pages like I did with healing magic
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i trust a happy few with shadowpeach because they just Get It™
#the girls who get it. get it#and the girls who don't. don't#like i'll make funny little crack aus#or just what if scenarios in general because it IS fun#but canon shadowpeach????? i trust these guys ONLY#which is also why my fic list is so small lmao#believe it or not i did search the ao3 tags and read so much but only these chosen few understand what i understand#and that's okay#shadowpeach
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How did you manage to handle not one, but FOUR separate accounts in fl? I recently made the account for my HD little guy but having to do the tutorial again just seems miserable
there's... weirdly several answers to that question, actually??
a HUGE part of it is due to the way FL is structured. the 10-minute action timer is a core part of the game on a fundamental level, and the fact that i can very easily run out of stuff to do on one character and thus have an excuse to quickly and easily swap to another is just... convenient? satisfying? i'm not entirely sure how to explain it. the fact that i can make progress even while i am fundamentally simultaneously Not Making Progress is like pure dopamine for my freak insane awful little brain. there's just something really pleasing about spending all of my actions pursuing The Goal Of The Day™ on one account before casually swapping to another and doing the same without feeling like i'm wasting time or acting to the first account's explicit detriment. the downtime helps! the recharge time helps! the structure really really works!!
i'm technically only actively playing three, maybe two accounts minimum. the only reason the fourth (the one that'll be my future BaL playthrough) currently exists at all is so i can get his earlygame completely out of the way now and not have to waste time running through it all later, when what i actually want to do is play the ambition i've made myself wait a full year to play. and also getting free goodies as seasonal stuff happens,, something something surprise tools to help us later. the only two accounts i'd say i'm really "actively playing" at the moment are caeru and lark- and of the two, lark takes the most priority, since his ambition is the one i'm currently pursuing in earnest. for a couple months now- despite being My Main FL Character- the scoundrel has actually been pretty inactive on a gameplay front outside of the occasional progression in TLC and discordance content. purely by virtue of having Very little left to do outside of Very long-term grinds and vanities. they're in their "now what?" "now you can start playing the game" era. they've graduated to previous protagonist background cameo in a sequel anime series. they're like the yin FLPC equivalent of red at the top of mount silver. they're Literally just vibing rn. i only keep posting about them regardless because i'm insane and i will never ever ever ever ever let that bat go. but yeah, big TLDR, outside of doing the bare minimum to keep making waves/notability up every week, i'm not actually spending that much time on accounts i'm not currently actively interested in playing. and that accounts for way more gaming spoons than you might think.
i have a virtually lifelong history of playing MMOs, especially and specifically world of warcraft. i was born in the endless grind for useless video game pixel vanities and/or bragging rights. molded by it. you all have merely adapted to doing the same piece of content a pointlessly excessive amount of times for literally no reason besides whimsy and folly. me? i've done my time. i've served my sentence. i've spent weeks doing the original burning crusade netherwing dailies. i've devoted days to running praetorium over and over and over again, back-to-back, nonstop, long before square enix cut it in half and made it NOT take at minimum an hour and a half per run. i've perfected my silverwastes + auric basin goldfarming strategies. i've (almost) crafted dragonwrath tarecgosa's rest. i've killed the sha of anger so many times its dying scream of agony is embedded into the very fabric of my being. ""only"" doing making your name content four times over? that is nothing to me. it means nothing to me. it is so infinitesimal i can do the persuasive seduction quests in my sleep. it's not a matter of handling misery, or having the capacity, or even sighing as i remember the brass embassy raid segment of the watchful questline seriously i don't know why i keep forgetting that exists or what even is my problem with it i just am so consistently mildly inconvenienced by it and its highly specific resource requirements and it is the worst thing ever. maybe i'm just so used to the scoundrel's near-infinite money and troves of disposable items that i've completely forgotten what being poor is like. despite having done that step 3 fucking times now. ahem. anyway. i have transcended the feeble mortal bindings of my resistant-to-grinding flesh and ascended to a higher plane of enlightenment, they may call me insane but they will be the ones left laughing when they see what that "insanity" has wrought, i've usurped them, i've usurped them all-
hacks and coughs and awkwardly clears my throat. i mean. uh. um. Ahem.
the empress' court artistry + tales of the university nerfs helped too.
#and yes#before you ask#i have forgotten which account has which items/has done which content many a time#i think the most painful incident was forgetting to keep up the scoundrel's making waves while i was still playing nemesis with caeru#given that im trying to build it up to 12 and reset their specialization... that was uniquely painful#then again they have like 40 BDR so it wasnt actually that inconveniencing lmao#fallen london#ask#long post#sorry for the infodump + sudden villain monologue.#all jokes and personal accounts aside i totally get the apprehension abt doing that stuff again#it's not for everyone. not by a long shot.#im only doing this because im genuinely invested and in love with this silly little browser game#and way back when i started i made a (only half metaphorical) solemn oath to experience all of its ''main stories''#and truly see everything it has to offer#(bc i like. physically cant do hyperfixations by halves. i need to consume Everything abt the thing or i'll explode)#(and even then i'll probably explode anyway. it's either completely drop it or go All In until it stops taking up so much space in my brain#(and. given the track record. that is not happening with FL for a while yet)#but like. that isnt actually normal behavior. just. just to clarify.#from what ive seen a VAST majority of people do not go out of their way to play literally every ambition#and that is so valid. it is so overwhelming. you have to juggle so much.#you have to play the earlygame So Many Goddamn Times.#(as i said. served my time. did my sentence. i am my scars. etc etc)#the best advice i can give as someone who's so completely desensitized to that repetition it doesnt even phase me anymore?#the same advice i can stress to all FL players. legitimately just take ur time with it. play when you want to.#dont when you dont.#sometimes you have to grit your teeth and bear things. and when it comes to alts you Will have to grit your teeth and bear it all again#but the beauty of this being a game that one plays for fun is that unlike. say. crushing deadlines or annoying coworkers in real life#you are completely within your power to decide when where and if you want to grit and bear it all#..wow this is ADVANCED yin rambling holy shit. i actually reached the tag limit. i think this ask should be put on some kind of list
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Maladaptive daydreaming.
#daydreaming#maladaptive daydreaming#maladapting daydreaming disorder#maladaptive behaviors#maladaptive coping#dissociation#immersive daydreaming#dimond speaks#yeah so adding this to my list here lol#my therapist helped me realize i dissociate a LOT and the primary way i do it is through vivid daydreams#they usually happen at work but they also pop up if i'm having a bad day or... anytime really.#i've also come to the realization that i have at least one of these a day which is not good fgsjh#my therapist says they're not inherently bad especially since they do have a positive effect on my emotions (if its a good daydream)#but it's gotten to the point that it's affecting the way i work#and they can last for a LONG time too#i haven't timed them but i do know they've been over 30 minutes at work before#this is either due to ADHD autism PTSD or a mixture of the three lmao#weeeee#anyway. this post isn't really intended to be a vent post#it's more like a 'this is my experience' type post#it just kinda comes across as somewhat vent-y#but that was because i wanted to try and immerse the reader into what its like to have these daydreams#like mine look NOTHING like this but making it more generic would help others understand it#the void is the general dissociation from reality#then you emerge in the dream#i can feel things as if i'm there- the sun the wind and sometimes even physical touch#and i'll stay there until something snaps me out#strangely i can get my work done while i'm doing this- i just wont have any memory of doing so. it's like being on autopilot#anyway. I hope this post was helpful to someone out there#if you also maladaptive daydream YOU ARE NOT ALONE! it's valid and you're not 'faking' anything. it's a genuine trauma response.
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i'm going to make an art tag list!
I wanted to make a tag list whenever I post my art so interested folks can see it when it's posted instead of it getting buried.
i've seen others in the fandom do this, and I know i like being on tag lists, and thought it could be a good idea!
This will include SPN fanart and sketches. This list isn't for when I post original art or anything -- just bc I know not everyone would be interested in that and I'm mostly posting fanart ATM.
*It's not an obligation to reblog; it's just that if you like my stuff, and want to see it when it's posted instead of it getting buried on a dash or if you're busy and want to come back to it.
If you're interested, you can message me or reply to this post!
I'll start implementing it on the next art I post <3
#i've done tag lists before but then i kinda stopped bc i lost track of t and most of the time it was for my writing#idk if i've ever really done it for art before so#regardless#new era#new list#lmao#again you're not obligated to reblog if you're on this list#it's just if you wanna make sure you don't miss anything i post#not to say that my stuff isn't worth missing or anything but y'know#bc we're all around this world on different timezones#and i don't lke reblogging my art 930801938423 times#so yeah okay anyway awelkfajwelj i'll stop rambling. the coffee is getting to me
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and for asks too – please know that i have a buuunch of them and it takes me a while to get to them no matter how long the ask is and no matter who it's from like i have moots stuck in there i have anons stuck in there me not answering is NEVERRR anything personal i just can't keep up with anything
#it could just be a one sentence long message and it will still take me time to reply#i wanna apologize for this too but i feel like that would imply that the situation will get better#and that i'll get better#but i don't think that's the case#like i will always be slow#with everything#and godd my tbr list too#i have a million things to read#THAT I WANTTTTTTTTTTTT TO READ#THAT I FUCKING WANT TO READ#but there's so much going on inside my head and it's so hard to focus#sometimes i can get on a Roll and then i'll answer a bunch of asks in a day but then it takes me like WEEKS to answer the others#i have things that are months old in there#MONTHSSS#and i do feel bad#i feel like shit#but unfortunately#those feelings do not help me at all#if anything they just make everything even harder to do lmao#isn't life just so fun#i'm not even living properly i don't even have a job or anything and i still can't do shit#yay#mayor of loserville#tw vent
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Bartimaeus AU but it's Matilda
So I watched Matilda because I couldn't get the idea of Ms Lutyens = Miss Honey out of my mind; and I think Nathaniel deserves a happy ending with a cottagecore lesbian coded mother, but it actually works surprisingly well??
• Instead of Matilda Wordwood it's Nathaniel Underwood.
• Instead of telekinesis Nathaniel summons Bartimaeus to cause trouble.
• "Sometimes you have to be a little bit naughty" -*summons a demon in his bedroom*
• Lavender would probably be Kitty.
• Nathaniel and Ms Lutyens bond over art rather than books but he still reads way above his age and is a very intelligent kid.
• "Arthur Underwood lived in a very nice neighborhood, in a very nice house, but he wasn't a very nice person"
• "Underwood was so wrapped up in his own silly life he barely realised he had a son, had he paid any attention to him at all, he'd have realised he was a rather extraordinary child"
• "The happiest part of the story is that Nathaniel and Ms Lutyens each got what they had always wanted; a loving family."
• "Nathaniel discovered to his great surprise that life could be fun, and he decided to have as much of it as possible- after all he was a very smart kid"
• Instead of Magnus (Miss honey's dad) it's Martha Underwood as Ms Lutyens' mother who died.
• Simon Lovelace instead of Trunchbull, who is Ms Lutyens' Uncle or cousin/brother because they're quite similar in age.
• Lovelace is paranoid about being found out as the murderer of Mrs Underwood.
• Nathaniel uses Bartimaeus to get Ms Lutyens' home back and scare Lovelace away.
• And Arthur Underwood signing the adoption papers over to Ms Lutyens at the end because absolutely everyone needs that to heal their soul.
#Miss honey and ms Lutyens are both cottagecore lesbians tho change my mind#I'll be honest I hate that movie lmao I rewatched it to make sure I hate it as much as I remember#<-Yup I still do 😅#Mainly crack but also if anyone does anything with this 👀👀#Now I can't get Lovelace is Lutyens' relative out of my head#<-Add that one to the headcannon list#Both blonde and I always pictured her with glasses#I was thinking Nouda/ faquarl/ makepeace as trunchbull instead cos I like simon 😭#And Faquarl has the vibe with the meat clever#But simon makes more sense with miss Lutyens standing up to him#bartimaeus trilogy#bartimaeus sequence#bartseq#bartimaeus#nathaniel underwood
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This is part 3 of a list of archived and currently playable dress up games from StarSue. See part 1 HERE and part 2 HERE.
I Love Fashion Scarah Dress Up
Boo York Nefera de Nile Dress Up
Sweet Screams Draculaura Dress Up
Swim Class Venus Dress Up
Dot Dead Gorgeous Lagoona Dress Up
Gloom and Bloom Catrine DeMew Dress Up
Lagoona Scaris Style
Elle Eedee Dress Up
Swim Class Rochelle Dress Up
Coffin Bean Twyla Dress Up
Shriekwrecked Rochelle Dress Up
Flara Blaze Dress Up
Music Festival Abbey Dress Up
New Scaremester Catty Noir Dress Up
Sweet Screams Frankie Dress Up
Frightseers Clawdeen Dress Up
Heath Burns Dress Up
Lagoonafire Dress Up
Iris Clops Dress Up
New Scaremester Twyla Dress Up
Scarily Ever After Frankie Dress Up
Pyxis Prepstockings Dress Up
Scarnival Skelita Dress Up
Gilda Goldstag Dress Up
Posea Reef Dress Up
Kala Mer'ri Dress Up
Marisol Coxi Dress Up
Zomby Gaga Dress Up
#idk if i ended up repeating dress up games but if i did my bad?#total accident shbfnjfg#there were a LOT of games to dig through here its kind of a mess lmao#tossing this out there#GO HAVE FUN I GUESS#there aren't any more on internet archive right now so idk if i'll make another list or add onto this one#im not sure#monster high#web games
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Damn, these two fandoms really shook a lot of people. Soooo like for a starter from one of my Arcane or DanDaDan muses? You don't have to specify muse but you do have to specify which fandom you want. They will most likely be one liners unless I get a burst of inspiration.
All Muses Under Cut
Arcane: Vi Jinx Ekko DanDaDan: Okarun Rin Sawaki
#✰ — OOC ✶ Look Among The Galaxy#I started posting about both of them and so many of you started shaking me outta nowhere ))#Which I appreciate tbh I just thought it was hilarious lmao ))#I'll do starters while I work on my drafts/inbox ))#I'd make it an inbox call but let's be honest for most of you I'm probably already in your inbox eleven times ))#Already building yet another queue because I'm insane so why not add more to the to-do list ))#Also any mutual can like for this it's fine ))#Even if we have like 30 threads already you can like this and ask for 31 idc ))#Start 31 threads with me you won't ))#You can ask for multiple starters too idc ))#Anything goes here I am so open to everything ))
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Hesitantly posts this and then runs away
The black line above some of the ships is to indicate that my personal (current) queer headcanons for one or both of the characters in the ship means the ship wouldn't work in a romantic sense, which is an aspect of things that does influence my opinions of ships a bit but that's a more personal potential discomfort thing with ships so I disregarded that while actually ranking them but that's still an aspect. I might've missed adding it to some of them because there's so many ships on this but you get it. I sorted the ships in the individual tiers based on game as well so the order in each tier doesn't mean anything
Any of the ships that are on this tier list maker that I didn't rank were either because they were with characters I didn't know, I just didn't feel like ranking it, or they were ships between the teen characters and adults which is ew
Some of the ships in the "I'm particularly fond of their dynamic as friends", "I can understand this", "Okay", and "Not fond of" tiers can go back and forth a little bit as well, it depends
#persona 3#persona 3 reload#persona 4#persona 4 golden#persona 5#persona 5 royal#I'm not tagging any of these ships lmao#if there are any mistakes in this tier list I'll freak out I've looked it over 20 times now to make sure#also the “understand” “okay” and “not fond” tiers don't mean I don't like their dynamic as friends or in general#I realize the one tier name can seem like it implies that#my opinions of things are more specific then what a tier list would allow without it being a million tiers long#if you want to know my specific opinions of the character dynamics then please just ask me and don't assume. ill yap about it when I can
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// If you're not blasting LIVE & LEARN on your way to a Sonic concert, you're doing it wrong, friends. I'll likely be scarce here until late Saturday evening or Sunday morning! I have my laptop with me, but since I'll be with my husband, I won't be on TOO much ( until he inevitably falls asleep extremely early and then tries to deny that he did. ) 💙❤️
#(( the concert i saw in LA was so good that I'm going for round 2 in my home state#they added more tour dates and North Carolina was lucky enough to make the list. 😩👌🏾 we win for once lmao.#hope everyone is well! I'll be reachable on discord!!! ))#;; oh jeeze what now? ( ooc )
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top 5 nautical characters <3
brother. do i need to say it? must i invoke his name Today, Dies Dei, The Lord's Day Of Sun?
ged sparrowhawk, earthsea (it's my list, he counts to me)
admiral croft, persuasion
will laurence, temeraire
ahsa, the long girl in the soup from destiny 2, a giant and ancient sea serpent in a methane sea
runner up: captain smollett, treasure island, but ALSO captain amelia, treasure planet. both of them.
ask me my top 5 anything!
#laurence is on thin fucking ice but i'll allow it for this list#and sorry to wentworth for being overshadowed by his boss in every single list i'll ever make lmao#thank you!!#bolt top 5
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was checking our ur etsy and came here to find the missing tipjar lore and (if u will forgive me for making an entirely unasked for suggestion) maybe u could bypass the rules by having a digital download tipjar ? like for $5 we get a thank you png or something !! would love to support u on top of getting some more prints .
that's exactly what the old tipjar was!! It was a digital download, if you bought the "Tip" listing you could download a pic w a thank-you note that has pics of Jorah and Toby in it. Etsy wasn't mad that I wasn't offering something on the listing- bc I was offering a bespoke Cat Image - but just the fact that it was meant to be a tip in the first place. I think it was a keyword thing. they said they don't allow, quote: Listings created solely for the purpose of transferring money, including collecting “tips”, “gratuities”, “donations”, or other types of “crowdfunding”.
#SO TIP JAR CANNOT BE lmao#also thank you for caring enough to Want To Tip!!! that's really nice of you!#actually it's just really nice that ppl did genuinely USE that listing when it was live on my shop.#when/if I ever make my own store that is not hosted on etsy I'll be able to use a tip jar again#but like... I ain't allowed#but I mean I do still have a tip jar in the sense that there's a paypal.me and a kofi that I own#I just can't build those into my etsy shop#OH WELL!#sergle answers
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my favorite edits - 2023 edition 1 / 2 / 3 / 4 / 5 / 6 / 7 / 8 / 9
#ts4#simblr#once again i don't know how to tag this so...#i'm just gonna use the same tags i used last year ig#2023 was apparently the year of the monster boyz#only 3 of these are not mb posts & i'm ok with that actually#ik i've said it a million times already but#i had soooo much fun doing mb stuff this year!#i'm really excited about all the stuff i have planned for the AU tbh#like. i have a list#i'm hoping................... to get the origin stories done at some point.#probably gonna do some writing here soon ish.#i've gotta make all of the side characters still & finish the character page so idk. i'll figure it out. i have a lot of ideas#i really wanna start sharing more about the story & the boys' actual personalities so that's probably what i'll focus on this next year#edit-wise i mean. like doing lore edits & stuff. idk#making cricket's was really fun so i think i'll like making stuff for everyone else too#i just have to not try to do a whole story bc then i'll lose interest. it'll be like the degenerates all over again lmao#idk why i just hate making story posts#lore posts are fine but story posts? mm no. not for me. idk how but they are different in my brain ok#n e way#i rambled. sorry. bye lol
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