#I'M SO SORRY FOR THIS FAWN

[brydde]

* ✉ [ @4ger ] asked : ❛❛ if bry.de was a video game final boss, how would the battle unfold? consider things like mechanics, the music, the setting, the stage, potentially the story etc. is he one of those fuckers who get a second stage when you think you've already beaten him once? ❜❜

The game has started with Bry.de pulling you out from the dark, and it will end with you condemning him into this dark. (Pull his plug, watch him go out like a light bulb.) He has been a friend, a teacher, but now he's the thing standing between you and the world as it was, as it has always been. An uncomplicated reality with rules. A realm where all your loved ones live, but you don't belong. Awake. Asleep. Real. Not real.

Your character wakes up in a dream in a forest high up in the sky. Bry.de is there, waiting in a clearing. There's no need to say anything. He knows what you have come here to do. An oppressive soundtrack begins to play.

You call for your trusted weapon, Nightmare. In an instant, a flaming sword materializes in your hands. Instead of calling for his own blade to meet yours with, Bry.de looks at the sky and wishes for rain. And rain it falls, dousing the flames on your sword, rendering the fire damage null. The game prompts you to approach. You have no other choice.

You fall upon him with Nightmare. The QTEs are tough. You fail most of them. (You are meant to fail them. It's a deliberate game design.) Bry.de easily sidesteps your every attack. When he does retaliate, it's only to push you back. You barely take damage from it, but it gets frustrating after a while. His voice is full of pity when he pleads for you to stop. Your character hurls swears at him, angry that he's in control even now.

You realize the only way to make him take damage is to weaken him first. Change the arena to your advantage. You know his weakness. Why not use it to douse his flames like he had yours? You close your eyes and dream of a city. High-rise buildings rise from the ground around you two, tearing the trees from the earth by the roots. The ground shakes, and so does your controller. The buildings groan as they shoot up towards the sky. Above the groaning buildings, aeroplanes soar through ominous grey clouds with engines louder than thunder. Trains and cars appear around you only to crash into each other, polluting the air with toxic fumes and creating more sound. Every loud noise comes together to create an ear-bleeding cacophony that seems only to affect Bry.de. You and Bry.de fight for dominance of the dream. Black, oily liquid flows from his eyes, nose, and ears. He's covering the city in it. You stand ankle-deep in this mysterious black blood. He looks like he's screaming in pain, but no sound comes out of his mouth. You win, you think, when Bry.de falls to his knees, hands covering his ears.

The game gives you two choices. You can cut Bry.de's connection to the Dreaming, or you can eradicate the Dreaming entirely. Cutting him from the Dreaming means sending him into a dreamless sleep, never to wake. Tens of thousands of dreamers will follow him, eventually. They will live for a while, but it will be a slow death for every single one of them. Bry.de has a plan to save them all. Forever. If you let him go, he could save them all. But his plan involves breaking the world as you know it. You're not sure what "breaking the world" entails. Will it save tens of thousands only to doom billions? Bry.de is sure it won't, but he is just a man (despite you looking at him like a god).

Destroying the Dreaming means destroying all things beautiful and dreamt. It means no more dreams for you. No more dreams for the dreamers. But it also means no more nightmares. No monsters to bring back to hurt your loved ones. It will be a quick death. You'll just go to sleep; every dreamer and dreams will go to sleep, but it means you'll have made the world safer for the non-dreamers.

So, death either way. You could have a chance of a good life if you let him win, but the game doesn't give you that option. You have no other choice.

Whatever you end up choosing doesn't matter. It ends the same. Bry.de grabs your blade when you approach him. He looks you in the eyes, more aware than you realize and strong still. You realize he hasn't lost this fight. This is him surrendering out of his own free will. He's tired. He's so, so, so damn tired of fighting. He loves you. If you want this, he'll let you have it. You have chosen wrong, but he doesn't hate you for it. Time is a spiral. He will come back again. Maybe you two will be friends again. Maybe you both can change the world forever together next time. He guides Nightmare into his heart. It cuts not only his flesh (dreaming and waking), but also his connection to the Dreaming. He has made the choice for you.

His head falls forward. In the dream and in the waking world, Bry.de takes his last breath. Your controller shudders in your hands as he takes his last breath. The controller's light changes from red to white.

The world is still open for you to explore after this seeming victory. There are quests to complete, people to save. You still have your other companions, but it feels as though you are walking the world alone. He's not there to ask about a relic you found. He's not there when you need him to do his magic. You feel Bry.de's absence in everything.

[simpingforcys]

Oh how I love this man. I adore every part of this man.

I won't lie, my 5-year ago self would be screaming if she saw me now on her knees crying 'why' and all I could be saying is "he silly"

[circus-clownn]

my part of an art trade I did with @oskarpaffzz <33 !!!!

[grinchwrapsupreme]

Obsessed with Dr. James “Knows Theatre Schedules and Terminology” Wilson

[jils-things]

IM SORRY IM HAVING CUTENESSAGGRESSION I CANFIMSORRUIM GENUINELYSOSORY😖😖😖😖😖😖😖

[ali3nboyfriend]

last anon here, i'm transmasc and have had maybe the worst time possible on tumblr trying to find community here wrt my gender without accidentally falling into discourse and transphobia over and over again. in the face of feeling like i don't have anywhere i belong and that everyone else fuckin hates me for no reason, your blog is just so refreshingly Normal. i don't think you're particularly extraordinary or anything but it was just nice to see you rb that post about trans guys who get pregnant after me having a weird gender morning, so thank you. i can still kill in your name if you want though

i love you so much and i'm holding your hands.

i try and look at the discourse and stuff i see re: trans men especially with like... as much empathy and compassion as i can. a lot of the vitriol slung towards us on this platform are from our fellows who are hurting just as much as we are. sometimes it's because they don't realize what they're saying is hurtful, and sometimes it's because it is an unfortunately very human compulsion to try and grab control of whatever you can when you feel like you don't have anything you can control in your life. this isn't excusing some of the stuff i've seen said by any stretch, but it does kinda keep me from getting like........ doom spiral upset or angry about it. (not that i think that's what you're doing! just that it's how i process my own feelings about it)

i also think a lot of marginalized folk never really learned how to properly unpack their disgust responses to certain situations. we live in a society 🤡 that's very reactionary (at least, a lot of western societies are reactionary by nature, esp the United States), and it makes sense that when you've been geared up to React on a dime to something you don't really feel that you have the time to sit and deconstruct what it is you're actually doing. a lot of us haven't been taught to dig through why we feel the ways we feel about different people in our community, about why some other people would want to undergo their journey w their sexuality or gender differently from us, about why other people would think about things differently from us at all. and i know that can feel contradictory, because it is, when being in the queer community is entirely about transgression against strictly adhering to what's considered "normal" or "standard" in sexuality and sex and gender. but honestly i think so many people don't realize that coming to terms w yourself and walking away from your oppressive or stifling upbringing is only step 1, and step 2 is unlearning everything you were taught. my personal motto is "if it's not hurting anyone in any tangible way, or if the people it might theoretically be hurting are of sound mind and consenting to that, why should i actually care?" i try not to reblog discourse-type posts in general unless i 100% back what they're saying.

anyways point being is that like. it's not your job to teach anyone what they're doing and saying is wrong but it helps me, personally, to understand that a lot of the time they don't really realize they're being harmful and in fact think they're being helpful and advocating for the community. and i know it's a meme to say "people need to log off and go touch grass" but i honest to god really do think a lot of the really dumb and frustrating discourse i see on this site would just disappear if everyone spouting it logged off and talked to another queer human person face to face. which i understand is not something everyone can do. does not mean it would not help them lol.

people in the community IRL often just aren't talking about the things we see from the community online. they're all fuckin living their lives and using whatever labels and naming conventions they think feel right without caring about, like.... defining them. if you have a queer presence in your area at all and you're able to go to in-person things it might help a lot of the frustration and hurt you're feeling to see if they have any meetups you can attend? literally just googling like, "lgbt [CITY NAME HERE]", you can usually find some kind of pride alliance or LGBT org, and those things are almost always doing movie nights and meetups and stuff. you do have a place and you are wanted and i'm sorry you've been subjected to seeing shit that's made you feel in any way otherwise.

[hard-times-paramore]

You know what, I didn't like the Barbie movie much. It wasn't progressive at all.

It was funny. That goes from person to person on wether the movie is actually good and fun and worth your time. I just didn't think it was progressive and profound like it was being marketed and/or talked about by literally everyone.

I feel like it tried so hard to be progressive that it ended up making fun of and trivializing very real concerns like patriarchy and feminism. Like, it looped the other way and ended up being reductive instead. The whole thing was extremely yassified and white (there wasn't intersectionality at all). I didn't actually think a movie like that was gonna try to be deep, and it honestly shouldn't have.

I also thought the movie had too much stuff crammed into it. Barbie is a feminist icon. But she's also the reason girls are insecure. Barbie is discovering herself. Ken is the villain and he's plotting a men uprising. Feminism and patriarchy are discussed superficially. Ken doesn't actually care about patriarchy and wants to discover himself too. Mattel is there. And then the ending felt super hamfisted too.

There's a lot of other problems too, I know I'm only brushing over the surface, but other people probably have criticized it better than me. I just know that I watched it, not even expecting anything other than a fun lighthearted movie and came out with a bad taste in my mouth. It sucked.

But like, that's a deeper analysis of the movie, and that movie isn't deep at all, so on the surface I can say it was pretty funny.

[mummer]

"sara snow" as if that could have ever been a real name. get real. That is a drag name

[emilycollins00]

HIM!!!!

Amazing art by @usuallyangrypanda my beloved 💕

[dandyshucks]

part of the reason (a big part. maybe the whole reason tbh idk LOL) why i think a lot about Gu.zma standing up for me and that sort of thing is bc it seems like in my real life (online and physical world) every time someone is cruel to me in a group setting, noooobody does anything. or if somebody says smth bad about ppl like me (whether that be irt queerness, indigeneity, neurodivergence, or smth as simple as personality traits) then everyone in the group just... seems to think its my responsibility to say smth. i feel like it always falls onto my shoulders for some reason to stand up for myself and/or ppl who are like me. and its so tiring and isolating 😭 (i think i have just had Really bad luck when it comes to ppl in my life sdfjkl my family is. obviously not good. and then friends have been few and far between, and the friends i have had have often not been very good)

so to have someone who would actually take on the responsibility to say something and have the difficult conversation w whoever is saying the unkind thing so that i can just... be safe and not have to struggle through that myself. is something that is very meaningful to me lol. it feels kind of unreal to think that anyone would do that for me, so i try to think abt Guz doing that for me to like,,, work thru any shame of Wanting that to happen in real life. bc if anyone does that irl, i want to be able to let them do it instead of (what i may very well do out of instinct) jumping in to tell them they dont have to do that for me bc "actually its okay, im fine and it isn't that big of a deal, it didnt rly bother me ahaha ^^;; you really dont have to do that for me, its probably best to just leave it alone bc i dont want any trouble, i dont want you getting into anything bc of me hahaha ^^;;;;"

[villainsidestep]

fawn for the character bingo and fawnchen for the ship bingo? bcs i miss both of them

what if we just left fawn's at 'no.' and that was it

should've still done it just for the bit tho

and yes absolutely fawnchen is divorced !!! fawnchen are divorced (fawn's death during hb) exes (chen realizing his feelings post-hb) who reconcile (him immediately clocking them in the street that one time and then chiding himself for chasing ghosts again) in extremely healthy (casual 'hey I saw your autopsy' lunch) ways

[circus-clownn]

Send me specific questions about how I make mime and I'll answer with honesty

i want some REAL questions about her. Whatever you're curious about

[ennalydonsbee]

@fawndubois

They'd won. The vox had won. vox dei.

She'd danced on a capitolite roof when it had been announced, grinning and smiling. Her parents, estranged as they were, had only texted once, a week later, after word must've spread to them about what their 'daughter' was up to- had been up to for a year. They were in hiding, it read. she was disowned.

That was fine, she didn't need them. hadn't really wanted them, honestly. She could've turned that over, but didn't bother. let them hide like rats in the sewers of this new and brighter world. No more games. No food, either. but that was just because they were working out new trade routes, right? ones that would make food more equitable around the whole country. She'd starved before, she could do it again.

Vox Parva was busy at work. some vox had scrounged up what probably amounted to half the spraypaint in the city, and Enna got to work making murals for the vox in broad daylight, without a mask. She was grinning, happy. thrilled as she walked back into the tower, smelling of spraypaint and happy to be a part of such a good thing. "Hey!" she greeted someone in the lobby- anyone in the lobby of the tower now had to be vox, or at least vox enough not to be one of the loyalists in jail or hiding- "Vox dei! How's your day going?"

[nervocat]

NERVO ARE U PROUD OF ME AHAHSJDJD im giGgLING SO HARD

fawn is back with another amazing wallpaper guys!!!! (Blade edition)

[arabian-batboy]

I have been in the mood to watch some Shoujo so I finally got around watching Fruits Basket since its one of the most iconic Shoujo out there and it just feels like I’m missing out on not watching it and while I’m definitely enjoying it so far, I have to admit that Yuki’s (and Kagura) annoying ass almost made me want to drop the show...

[g0thiclygh0ulish-diaries]

The Fallen Deer Winslow Homer 1892

Fawn response

Floorboards creak and eggshells crack under my feet. one wrong step and I can't turn back what if I say the wrong thing and you'll hate me. if my spine grows too strong I backtrack. retreating into the grass frozen for a second like a dear in headlights. licking the dents of the car that hit me so it does not get mad. if I try to stand up for myself and in defence bite back all backbone grown in starts to retract when your teeth are bared I've done it again, shown an undesirable emotion do you hate me? when you use my name it makes me scared. no no, it doesn't matter water under the bridge. I'll say whatever pleases fawn for your favour if it will fix any rift that you caused. but it was my fault for reacting to who cut me first with your claws.

Kaci O'Meara ☆