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what really sucks is. i can feel my mood and my resilience returning bit by bit -- it's far from Good but it's DEFINITELY better than it was a few months ago -- but i can also feel The End Of The Year coming. which. is a bad time. every time.
#The End Of The Year starts around my birthday. (which is in two weeks. yikes.)#and every year it tears me down to studs. and takes months to recover.#i really really really want this year to be different. i hope it can be.#but btwn starting school and moving out. idk if it's realistic to expect anything more than Survival.#AGH. i shouldn't worry about this rn. it doesn't do any good to be worrying abt rn. but AUGHHH. you know.#I'M SCARED ALL THE TIME.#izzy.txt
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Final manifestations for Book 7?
I'm trying REALLY hard not to build up any solid expectations, because I wanna go in ~fresh~! they're already so far away from anything I thought would happen (not in a bad way, I'm just accepting that I'm on Miss Yana's Wild Ride at this point and we're seeing this thing through 'til the end, by gum). so it's nothing too major, but:
they've been handing new crying expressions out like candy lately, I want to see some delicious Malleus tears.
honestly I want everyone to cry buckets. their tears sustain me. the more Silver angst specifically I get the happier I am.
SILVER!!!! 👏 VANROUGE!!!! 👏
just let him have this. the poor boy's been through so much. let him have his big "I'm proud of you, son" moment with Lilia.
I'm 100% expecting Grim's arc (and probably whatever's going on with Crowley) to be its own episode, but a nice hook to leave us hanging on would be good!
a nice hook though, please, I don't think I can take another "Grim is attacking us! now wait eight months to find out what happens :)" cliffhanger...
some Meleanor? as a treat? just a little bit, a tiny quick flashback or something, please Twst I just, I just want to see her again. let her have a little ghost cameo like Dawnathan Knight got. Lilia and his kids are all having their big group hug or whatever and she can gently fade in to be all like
(turning asks off until I'm done playing, SEE YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE Y'ALL)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 13 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 13 spoilers#one last chance for me to be wrong about everything!#(no it's good i am enjoying it SO much) (just stomping right down on all of my personal like buttons with its whole weight)#(it's just also VERY good at totally subverting all of my expectations)#i don't think we're actually gonna get a permanently dehorned malleus though#just because it feels like an insane thing to remove the most iconic part of one of the most iconic characters of the game#but i could see like...a temporary thing ala raisin vil#or a permanent smaller change like cracks/chips or something (kintsugi horns would be super cool actually)#but i do think it's more likely we'll find some way to keep the status quo re:horn design#if this was the END-end of all of twst then maybe but they still wanna sell merch of this guy so they can't change his design TOO much#i am sorta wondering if he might get a bit of a power nerf though? take him down from ridiculously overpowered to just normal overpowered#idk they made a point of saying the horns were specifically what caused the weather stuff#and the weather stuff has been called out in particular as one of the reasons why mal being so stupidly magical makes him pretty unhappy#everyone's scared of him all the time and he has to actively try not to accidentally kill people when he gets upset#so. idk. maybe it was just a little worldbuilding. but i thought it was interesting they brought that up was all!#me: i'm not going to form any expectations (writes a whole thing speculating on the fate of malleus' horns)#look it's now or never okay#that end of episode rhythmic better be SO cute because i'm already losing my entire head over this
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hey all, linked in this article are a bunch of GoFundMe fundraisers for animation workers who have been displaced by the LA fires--if you have the capacity to donate that would be really wonderful!
#i know colleagues and friends of colleagues who have lost their homes and t's been so nerve wracking ive completely wrecked#my schedule because i've spent so much time obsessively checking for updates and making sure my friends and coworkers are okay#i hope any followers/mutuals from the LA area are staying safe as well--shit's scary!!!!#also for those wondering i am fine because i'm on the east coast just scared and worried :( wish we could take all this snow and dump it#over there
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Something Borrowed, Something Blue.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#wen ning#jiang cheng#There was a violent war within me to caption this 'Brothers shop too'. It is the funnier caption.#Alas! I have a pay-off to build up so I must continue in theme.#Next comic is one I have been so excited to draw. I'm so excited to share!#Turning the spotlight back to JC for a moment here: It struck me while drawing this that we don't actually have confirmation-#-that this is the same town LWJ met WWX in. In fact it actually makes more sense if they aren't going to the same town each time.#After all - we clearly see that despite the high number of rumours - no one recognizes him *or* Wen Ning.#This does bring the implication that JC has been wandering around villages and towns trying to bump into his estranged brother.#Just lurking around shop stalls with a menacing aura. Hoping his hubris detector suddenly spikes high and he finds WWX.#He brings a threatening aura to the farmers market that is actively scaring off the customers and curdling the milk.#How long was he trying? I previously pointed out that LWJ was probably trying for a few days...but how long was JC trying?#Neither him or Jiang Yanli knew LWJ told him about the wedding...so it stands to reason they might have be able to find him sooner.#It was all just a matter of poor timing...Jiang Cheng got cucked again by LWJ and he didn't even realize it.
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—Evan already forgave you. He loves you.
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#fnaf#michael afton#evan afton#fnaf 6 au#me doods#RAAAAA I'M DONE#for this part at least#gonna make a some more mini comics for this au but for different scenes#evan never held it against michael. but he was afraid of his brother for a long time#but fnaf 1 happened and he knows that the strange security guard is somehow his brother. he's seen how much michael has change#and for all that he's scared of michael he still loves him too#evan's just glad that he and lizzy can finally talk and be w michael#tho he's sad that it has reached this point for them
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decided to draw some of your guys' tags from my harlequin sun and moon post!!! These guys are so much fun and you're all so funny >w<
#there were so many i wanted to draw!!! I might have to go back and do a part two hehe#also too scared to spam everyone by tagging accounts but i need you guys to know i love you all sm!! sending u all so many little kisses!!!#fnaf#fnaf fan art#fnaf security breach#fnaf daycare attendant#fnaf dca#dca fandom#dca au#fnaf sun moon#digital art#artist on tumblr#harlequin#clowns#answered asks#<- this doesn't really count but because i am drawing other people's tags i'm putting it here!#folks commenting on my art really motivate me to keep drawing ;w; you are all so insanely sweet and absolutely make my day every time!!! <3#just over here crying akjsfhsf thank you all so mucchhhhhhh ;;w;;#harlequin au
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I'm happy to be able to finally, officially, introduce my first Iterator oc, Three Signals! :"D
As one may tell, I can't help myself but to write novels on top and around my ocs, so apologies for the large amount of text.
Their lore is almost completed and I'd advise to referr to posts from here onward, if anyone is interested :0c
The story is grounded on a lot of my personal lore interpretation and headcanons, but those I will establish in a separate post some time! For now, it's still not 100% figured out, so there will be plotholes and uncertainty ^^);;
Three Signals belongs to a group far away from the in-game location. Specifically, a group pretty close to, if not outright including, Sliver Of Straw. That group is not particularly well integrated, and most members prefer to keep it to themselves.
After first generation was built, an issue arose; due to a large distance in the South between them and another group, the communications were weak, the signals were getting lost over particularly tall mountains. To fix that, Three Signals was strategically placed to bridge the distance, equipped with advanced for the time satellite plate, additional cell towers etc, essentially becoming a cell tower of the group.
A very vocal Iterator who quickly proved their creativity and love for their people and arts, became a perfect breeding ground for artists to find shelter from a rather conservative group climate. Their citizens were eager to involve TS into everything they did, only further strengthening their bond. They enjoyed their cyclical life together so much so, that the idea of Ascension slowly grew to be something undesirable. That raised controversy and distaint in the group against TS and their city of "heretics".
At some point, the tension grew enough to cause action to be taken. Other cities demanded arrest of TS's leaders and most prominent figures. TS and their city resisted, resulting in overly drastic measures; the city was pressured into compliance by force. Cutting off delivery of supplies and eventually attacking TS themselves with a malware attack, to shake the people out of the perceived heresy. A traumatic event for everyone involved. TS struggled to freely speak ever since.
Time passed, and the day of Mass Ascension came. Many of TS's citizens were not thrilled, many were fearful, many reluctant, many cried and reached out to their beloved Iterator for comfort. TS did their very best to comfort them, using what their city loved most; song. They sang, they sang all together, the city slowly rumbling with thousand voices into a solemn roar, then grew quieter and quieter again, until the very last voice left to be heard was Three Signals alone. And then silence ever since.
More time passed. Sliver Of Straw sends out the Triple Affirmative broadcast-
But TS, being equipped specifically to pick up weak signals, has heard something else coming from her; distressed cries of pain, and then the Triple Affirmative. Essentially convincing TS that it was nothing but an erroneous cry of a dying Iterator.
Horrified by what they witnessed, TS was moved to do whatever they can to try and comfort their fellow Iterators, to try and avoid something like that happening again. And what other way could TS do it, other than broadcast comforting tunes? A sign that they're not alone, and something to hopefully offer an alternative to spiraling into madness.
Their broadcast is wide ranged, but not enforced, and they're not even sure if anyone is listening or not- if its even effective or not. But at the very least, they can say they tried something.
(More to come)
#man I really hope to do a comic an animation or SOMETHING out of this#thank you very much to anyone who has the time and energy to read it all#big smooches for you#official oc introduction#rain world#rain world oc#rw iterator oc#rw oc#rw iterator#oc three signals#three signals#I'm very happy with how they turned out <3#I am aware I'm meddling with some big canon characters and I admit I'm a little scared#don't want to ruin them or something#but this is just a self indulgent fanfic and I hope it's okay <3
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idk man i don't think anti-civ shit should be nearly this controversial.
"some societies, including most if not all contemporary societies, require slavery, state coercion, and/or environmental devastation to maintain the benefits that they provide to their citizens. we think that this is bad, and should not be done, and are willing to give up the benefits that require slavery, state coercion, and/or environmental devastation." -> generally admirable even if people don't put it into action that much; few would say somebody is a bad person for feeling this way.
"most modern technology, including motor vehicles, cheap computers, disposable plastics, our entire global transportation chain, and like half of 'renewable' energy solutions require either environmental devastation, capitalist coercion, or slavery to produce and maintain; i.e., they either cannot be made without destroying species or ecosystems, OR nobody is willing to do them except under threat of death - at least in the ways that we currently know how to produce these things" -> not considered to be in good taste to point out but generally hard to argue; usually handwaved with notions of "green tech" coming in to make things better, that we just need new engineering improvements, that we can harvest from the moon(??), that we can just stay inside all the time(???), etc.
"combining the first two things, we think that the production of these things should stop immediately, and that society should learn how to survive only on things that we know how to create and maintain without slavery or ecocide; at least until such a time as we develop means of production that are communal, and well-integrated into the rest of life on earth" -> generally considered naive and unrealistic but still admirable
"no, seriously, the slavery, societal unrest, psychic flood, and environmental devastation are all real, and directly responsible for the apocalypse that we literally all now acknowledge to be happening right now" -> also generally accepted, generally handwaved with weird "well what can you do?" responses
"so we really think we should stop making these things NOW instead of waiting on more far-fetched solutions that will come too late to save most life on earth." -> well now you're just the fucking devil. I guess.
#look i GET it. i take estrogen AND insulin daily. i know it's scary and upsetting. but what the fuck!!!! jesus!!!!!!!#what do you think is happening right now! we are BEYOND out of time and people still insist that there was never any other option?#HELLO?!?!?!?!?!#“what if we just stopped doing some of the things that we currently do” impossible. die.#love to anarchblr and i don't think anything they said in the most recent discourse i saw circulating was Wrong at all#i just found their tone to be. insufferable. and i needed to write something that was similar but not Like That.#idk man like i'm genuinely confused by the hate anti-civ shit gets. is this like. post-green-scare fearmongering or something
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I just realized I never posted photos of this really pretty harvestman i came across a while back. Note the green pedipalps and the dark and light spots on its back.
#opiliones#arachnids#chelicerata#bugs#harvestman#bugblr#the light spots were a very light green iirc (it's been a while) but they just look white here#there's a photoset of a really cool harvestman going around and it reminded me of this one and i realized i never posted these pics#spider#(ik they arent spiders but i'm tagging it as that for blacklist purposes#bc i imagine that someone who's really scared of spiders probably doesnt care that actually opiliones are not spiders just close relatives)#i think its so cool how i didnt even know opiliones were a thing until a couple of years ago and now i see them all the time#turns out they're pretty common around here#(not that i never saw them before i mustve just assumed they were spiders)#theyre usually not as pretty as this one though#most of the ones i see are just black or dark brown#also i have a massive backlog of pictures ive never posted of bugs and other nature stuff#my stuff#my posts#outside tag#nature
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im a big fan of esper powers slipping loose in harmless ways when they're happy
#LETS GO LETS GO LETS GO i love this one so much i love them#rishou#ritshou#RITSU BEING A LATE AWAKENED HAS A WEAKER GRIP ON HIS POWERS SO THIS SHIT HAPPENS AND I XJDJCJ#and shou. he is very deliberate with his esp! that's um. upbringing and everything he went through#he has fun with them he experiments- absolutely! That's fanon. but they never slip out of his control#he thinks he'd freak if it ever happened (👀) so the fact ritsu's do sometimes and-#-how it ties to his emotions is a huge point of curiosity for shou#mp100#this piece makes me fuzzy im just so glad it came out as intended#the sketch (which was done.. 5 months ago) i edited to have this bad quality photo taken in the dark vibe and then chased it when rendering#but still had to brighten the end result cause Phone Performance idk how you guys have your settings so better safe i guess#but still!! i bet this looks super dark and indistinguishable to some even with max brightness because say they're out in the sun#and im scared of that!!#but man i sat on it long enough i wanna post And i won't sacrifice my vision this time. can't brighten a night till its not night anymore#its a long persisting issue of mine- drawing with full brightness on ipad and then transferring to the phone and going Why is this so bleak#Despair#it's why i grew to hate post production editing it's always so-.. degrading?? discouraging??#I'm progressively better at catching and fixing that problem early on#sketches will still be murky af but I'll copy paste the full image fix the curves and then either go back and switch all the colours#OR FUCKING DRAW OVER THE EDITED SKETCH LAYER WHICH I'VE BEEN DOING A LOT LATELY ITS SO WEIRD AND LOOKS KINDA COOL#and aaaall stems from laziness (read: time management) like bruh those 40+ layers? i aint going back there to fix every colour#mp100 fanart#mob psycho 100#mob psycho fanart#ritsu kageyama#shou suzuki#kageyama ritsu#suzuki shou#ALSO i deliberately tried to make esp blend with the environment; nothing dazzling and mindblowing. felt right for this piece
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she might've dyed it black but the pink is still showing💘
#AAAAAAAAAAAAA#that's my opinion on the trailer#you guys have no idea how actually insane i am#I. LOVE. VI.#I'M. FUCKING. SCARED.#i fucking love this design#i dont care what anyone says#rip to the time i black boxdyed my hair#the urge to do it all over again now is insane#me being an adult is dangerous cuz i WILL alter my appearance for a hyperfixation and nobody can stop me#arcane#arcane season 2#arcane fanart#vi#arcane vi#vi fanart#league of legends vi#arcane season 2 fanart#arcane s2#fanart#art#my art
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#mrs flood who are you: time lord edition
#dwedit#doctor who#mrs flood#fifteenth doctor#the master#jacobi!master#tenth doctor#jack harkness#martha jones#twelfth doctor#ninth doctor#*#okay here is my argument: mrs flood IS a time lord but her presence here has nothing to do with the doctor#instead she's here because of ruby. she's seemingly part of/related to the pantheon of discord & we know that ruby is connected to them too#so i think that she was deliberately placed as ruby's neighbor by the pantheon/oldest one/ruby's mom/? in order to watch over her#it also explains why she was there to check on ruby in 1.04. once she realizes she's on the phone w carla she says 'nothing to do with me'#and she leaves. which implies that it COULD have had something to do with her. if it had been something else going on#ANYWAY. to get to the time lordness of it all. rn i personally believe that she's a time lord that's been hiding on earth for 50+ years#bc i don't think she recognized the police box as a tardis initially. that first quote should be taken at face value.#instead picture this: she's watching over ruby as per usual. a police box is there - weird but nbd. then it dematerializes in front of her.#she drops her groceries. she's shocked. she kinda looks scared. if she already knew it was a tardis why would she react like that?#so imo she knows OF tardises. she DIDN'T know the police box was one. and she's worried the time lords have found her hence the fear.#but when nothing happens and nobody comes at her she realizes she's still safe#later when she sees the doctor she realizes the tardis is his/he must be a time lord. he doesn't identify her but that's happened before#so then when she asks him who he is i think what she's actually asking for is his title. WHICH time lord are you.#bc lbr if she knows abt tardises then she knows about time lords and if she knows abt time lords she knows what it means for ruby#to be joining him - and that's why she wishes ruby good luck. meanwhile this is clearly the outcome she WANTS (them to be together)#bc she gets visibly upset when the doctor seems to decide to leave without ruby.#and for once i'm not master clowning bc the list of names the doctor gives out is VERY interesting. some of them we've never heard before:#the bishop; the conquistador; later he adds the pedant and sagi-shi and reiterates the bishop AGAIN. so i wonder if she's the bishop.....
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I can't answer an ask two times so I'll just smack a low res screenshot sorry XDDASLJDAKL😭💀

There they are, this was the original idea but then I though of that softer one XDD (I'm sorry it's been ages since I did that ask 😭).
Wild would definitely be that nasty, ewww 💀. I MEAN, he ate those monster guts in the first place bruh 💀💀💀💀. He's wild ;).
I'm surprised Legend didn't get mad at Wild ruining his hat, HIS BELOVED HAT- He was being too nice already by taking care of him XDDJASH.
And Four poor guy, idk where I saw that headcanon but thanks, now he's scared of throwing up :***, like, he could take any hit or have a really ugly wound but don't even mention that thing in front of him. I can see it XD.
Thank you so much for the ask (double ask :·3¿) it was really fun doing both doodles and I hope you like them hehehe!!!!💖💖🥹
#linkeduniverse#linked universe#lu fanart#lu legend#linked universe legend#lu four#linked universe four#lu wild#linked universe wild#my art#I had a friend who was really scared aswell and omg I can imagine the struggle#so now Four is scared too >:)#let's pretend the background doesn't exist okay 💀#I DIDN'T KNOW WHERE TO PUT THEM AAAUUUUGGHH#also I'm so sorry I posted this almost two months late but the comic eats all my time X'D#now I'm doing some requests I have in my inbox since december I feel so bad sorrysorrysorrysorry TAT#I promisse I'm not ignoring you I just need more hours a day#you can request but just know that I'm not the quickest at drawing augh#the good thing is that some random day you'll get the little surprise that I did your request muhehehe >:·3
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ISAT & Dungeon Meshi swap!
#in stars and time#ISAT#Siffrin#Loop#Dungeon Meshi#Thistle#Mithrun#This is incredibly self indulgent art but I've been doing commissions for other people - I can have this treat.#Two series that have me in a death grip right now and boy did the realization of the parallels between these characters hit hard.#Siffrin and Thistle are the “Forgot what it was all for” duo. The “I'm scared to let it go (it must be let go)” duo.#Loop and Mithrun are [REDACTED] [GO CHECK OUT THESE SERIES SPOILER FREE]#God I have so much to say about the Loop and Mithrun parallels. I won't here because I refuse to spoil people on ISAT.#What I *will* say is that both these characters had a similar curve in my interest in them.#Which is “I was ambivalent until the near end - where they then shot up to become some of my favourite characters ever.”#We love characters with an incredible arc that reframes them so intensely that you the reader will never be the same after.#Anyways! (rotates both these crossovers in my head at a rapid orbit and gazes at them fondly).#This is my sandbox and I get to eat the sand!!!#I've got some MDZS/ISAT swap content coming soon as well. My sand eating knows no limits apparently.
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surprisingly i drew him a Second time, used isabeau for values practice bc i love him (i'm still afraid of fanart)
#isabeau#isat#in stars and time#in stars and time isabeau#isat isabeau#isat fanart#in stars and time fanart#i'm so scared at all times xoxo#he was a good warm up tho i keep itching to draw more isat#look at my art boy
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Uhhh hi five pvp civ fans sorry I was being cringe
#I'm lowkey scared to post my art#Like I post all the time on other platforms but tumblr?#I haven't posted my own art since January eugh#Honestly wouldn't post this if my sister didn't tell me to#I put so much thought into some things that just got covered up#I'm gonna make a video explaining it#pvp civilization#pvp civ spoilers#evbo#mcyt#pvp evbo#fanart#my art#digital art#art#artists on tumblr#evbo fanart
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