#I'M JUST SO FUCKING PROUD OF THIS JOB

[sodawithmoss]

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due to the fact that in the second series we were confirmed that the participants of the show still have some kind of sleep and dreams - my theory that Kinger suffers from insomnia was confirmed. and this means that these small "hangups" of the Kinger may actually be a banal attempt to sleep at least with his eyes open. or he is just autistic.

[why-the-heck-not]

me, a responsible being, working on the coding project as I should vs. me, a dysfunctional shithead, getting distracted by reading about brains (once aGAIN damnit (it's my favorite "I need to study my field but bc I should do that it's an impossible unthinkable feat now, so I'm reading about something else to fool my brain I'm still being productive"-topic))

[hxhhasmysoul]

wouldn't it be nice if the author of the fics finished them. the author is me.

[nachtwandeling]

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[graciebrams]

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[stardustedknuckles]

It's been so long since I've had to exist within a group of people consistently over many days and damn, I nearly forgot I was autistic. I found out yesterday that though I get along with almost everyone at work, most of my coworkers thought I was a huge bitch who hated everyone for a little bit (and one still does, which is how this whole thing came up at all). I was bewildered like. No I'm very often dizzy or in a bit of pain and I'm very focused on taking care of the dogs but I'm not - I don't dislike any of you? I've never been mad at you, you guys thought I was mad?? Just an alarming disconnect between the way I see myself and the way I come off to others. I have never once gotten the hang of behaving like a regular person, but it appears that time has taken me from "generally silly person with an offbeat sense of humor who doesn't take things seriously" to "stoic hardass who doesn't like you and thinks you're stupid also." I did not authorize this change. It's throwing me for a loop. I feel like I'm 6 again being told to stop talking over people's heads because I just learned a new big word and I wanted to use and share it. I like assholes with a heart of gold in media. I don't want to be one??

[born-to-lose]

I love being the always single person in my family, mad respect to my sister for constantly dating guys for the last 8 years, I would have shot myself

[wild-at-mind]

I crave validation so strongly. I wish I could help everyone in the world and yet I am unable to help myself.

[kuiinncedes]

what do u meannnnnnn i'm abt to be post college graduation 🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️

[branjo]

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[army-of-bee-assassins]

i went to an end of the year party at a professor's house tonight, just hung out with my classmates and chatted. it was a nice time tbh! i like my classmates and they like me, which seems like a simple enough thing but still feels strange since i was so extremely antisocial back in undergrad. i'm even like semi popular in the cohort, i think bc i organize most study groups and speak up in class a lot with questions that people are sometimes too afraid to ask. i brought scones to the party and my classmates were talking about how they'd seen that i'd written scones on the sign up and they were all excited to try them. it was easy just talking to people. idk. i feel like grad school is just generally going better than i really ever expected, especially socially, and that's nice.

[iwilltranscend]

i JUST want to get into this phd program this cycle holy shit

[izzy-b-hands]

prolific is slow, so more filming and posting it is for today (tho I'm making!! slow progress!! towards enough ad revenue for a payout, and i got like 100 views across all my stuff yesterday alone! which isn't a lot for most ppl but for me it's !!!! which makes it worth it to try and keep up the tighter filming/posting schedule as best I can)

[absensia-archived]

I've spoken briefly about this before and, again, it's usually something I leave in the little details of Charlotte's portrayal, but it's really been on my mind lately so I wanted to write out some of the prominent traits that continue to establish that, despite having gradually accumulated more experience, capital, and property over the years, Charlotte remains coded as working-class. It is crucial to both the narrative itself and her actual existence as a vessel for the primordial void, also known as Khaos. This means that she still has no ( legal ) credit cards and continues to thrift almost all her belongings, including her clothes, books, and furniture ( with the exception of shoes and appliances.) If you are someone who regularly meets up with Charlotte, you might begin to notice ( if you are perceptive ) that while she may be variably early, right on time, or show up in some unexpected state, she is rarely ever late and certainly never without a legitimate reason as to why. It is also not uncommon for Charlotte to juggle multiple jobs at the same time, and the only time she'll agree to a single job, at the exclusion of all other work is if she knows that that one job will be worth it. Related to this is the fact that Charlotte has a very hard time saying no to job offers; it's a habit ( read: stress response ) she is trying to unlearn, but it continues to be a struggle. Lastly, despite having successfully taken on leadership roles in the past, Charlotte expresses a strong dislike for being consigned to a "boss" role as she still much prefers to be hands on, in the action, at risk rather than sitting back and letting others do the work. She becomes restless if she finds herself "at the top" or in the position of too much obvious power; recall the adage about how it is lonely at the top, and how isolation is not something that the void's vessel can allow. She needs to be among people; she needs to be present to catalyze chaos. That being said, this doesn't mean that Charlotte simply allows herself to be treated or thrown away as a mere lackey or just another body, but that is still part of the struggle, isn't it?

[pumpking64]

i hate what this last semester has done to me, to all of us really. i am sitting down and trying to do some research for my upcoming bachelor's project and i just... really don't want to anymore? like the entire uni thing is just, so unappealing right now it's actually making me want to cry, because i know i was excited about this in spring, i know i loved uni and the learning process and everything about it. if i hadn't loved it i'd think "ok fine this apparently isn't for me and that's okay" but that's not the case?! and it makes me so furious that the thing that has taken that joy (hopefully temporarily) away from me is just one horribly rotten semester paired with one horribly rotten exam held by one absolutely horrible supervisor :/

[fratboykate]

Hey papi, how is it going? We miss you around here

just finished rereading all of cfau like two seconds ago. ngl...i kind of hate it but...again...im my own worst critic so 🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️. ironic that the only chapter i wouldn't tear to shreds and do a page one rewrite on is the shooting chapter. the one that kept this from being done for years and that i ended up randomly writing on impulse last year is genuinely the only one that isn't absolute hot garbage from top to bottom lol funny how that worked out