#I’ve been trying for over a year.
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mumblesplash · 1 year ago
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heartbreaking: this viral post is saying things you completely agree with in the most irritating way possible
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windowsandfeelings · 8 months ago
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Have you cried in an airport terminal this morning? Do not recommend it!
FUCK. AETNA.
#ok fuck it idk why I was trying to be so quiet about this#I am trying to have a baby!#I’ve been trying for over a year.#it is a complicated and very expensive process when you’re doing it on your own#(and sometimes when you’re not doing it on your own)#I’ve had 2 chemical pregnancies but nothing has stuck#as I’m sure you can imagine it is VERY EMOTIONAL and VERY STRESSFUL#I can’t even tell you how many times I have called my mom crying this year#after a lot of stops and starts I finally met my insurance co’s definition of infertility and qualified for IVF!#except I found out this morning that I didn’t!#I was supposed to do a retrieval with my next cycle and now that’s not happening#(unless I want to pay for the whole thing out of pocket which I’m trying not to do)#anyway there is a path forward but it’s not the one I wanted to take#and it’s not something I want to be dealing with right now as I’m leaving for my favorite annual vacation#(if this flight ever actually takes off. it’s already delayed an hour and a half.)#but it’s okay. I will persevere.#and at least I won’t be returning home to 2 weeks of injecting myself#(this is the thing I was so nervous to tell my dad about)#(I thought he was gonna have ~feelings about the sperm donor aspect)#(but he didn’t! he was just happy for me and supportive and gave me a fist bump?)#ANYWAY THAT IS WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON WITH ME THIS YEAR THAT I’VE BEEN SO VAGUE ABOUT#it’s basically consumed my life and like half the reason I started pottery was so I’d have something else to think and talk about#and when it finally works I will be SO HAPPY#WHEN
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sunnemona · 10 days ago
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☆2024 has been so difficult for me, and i want to end the year off on a high note by thanking everyone who’s been there for me through it.
☆thank you for talking to me. thank you for listening to me talk to you in return. thank you for staying on vc with me to play games or talk or draw or cry together. thank you for keeping my secrets. thank you for telling me yours. thank you for the gifts you’ve given me. thank you for the advice you’ve offered when i needed help. thank you for the silly messages you've sent me unprompted—it is so joyous to be remembered when i’m not around. thank you for making me feel safe. thank you for letting me stay by your side. thank you for staying by mine.
☆the passage of time is so scary to me, i think. once things are over you can never get them back—all you can do is move forward and hold the memories close to your heart. thank you for the memories you’ve given me, i will treasure them eternally. i am so happy that we get to keep moving forward together, from one year into the next.
☆to kia, diggs, casey, and everyone in sweaties gang; to wewa and rei; to lorel; to eliza and mitsu; to wiz and corbell; to alex, nash, geddon, and paperd; to worm and goldie; to candy and ashe; to haze, mono, benji, and chasm; to my partners (sasha, robin, and keith); to steel; to michael, and to collie;
i am so grateful i know you. i am so grateful we exist here, at the same time, together. thank you for everything. i love you, i love you, i love you.
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#and to the rest of my tumblr followers & mutuals & friends; thank you. i appreciate you endlessly#thank you for the attention and support. thank you for being here. it means infinitely much to me.#through this difficult year art has been a huge help in getting me through to the other side;#i hope you have loved looking at mine as much as i loved making it.#thank you for sticking around in my corner of the internet to watch me flourish. i hope you stay a bit longer. ♡#and in case the very specific person i am thinking of is somehow reading this#i've been trying to figure out many things lately#one thing i am certain of now—even if i wasn't before—is that of all the wrong things going on in the world#ending an unconditionally loving friendship over a sans au ship you don't like is… silly. and chronically online.#but more importantly fickle. and cruel. i will not do that to these people; not for you. not for anyone else.#i will not judge the morals of those around me based off arbitrary (and in the long run meaningless) things we disagree on#but on the actions they take in the real world; the love and kindness i’ve always been shown unconditionally#not everyone is like the person who hurt me#the world is so full of light and love if you try to look for it#i wish you well too.#☆💬 / text#☆sunne friends#☆sunnesona#<- different from how i usually represent myself in my art but still me. perhaps even more so#alright enough chattering from me#good luck in the new year; i hope very much that we are all still here this time next year#thank you so much everyone. from the bottom of my heart.
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malenjoyer · 8 months ago
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Good morning 🙏🏼
I want to thank everyone their support with reblogging my stuff over the years and reblogging some of the context of the situation.
Tumblr and Instagram is filled with the most supportive people I’ve ever had the chance of meeting. The last time something like this happened, I didn’t have much support, not even from people I thought were close to me. It took me a year or two to be okay with being perceived again in fandoms. So I’m very grateful for everything.
I just wanted to post that I appreciate all of the asks and I’ve been reading all of them. I actually get anxious I’m spamming everyone too much so I probably won’t reply to everything. Please don’t feel pressured to support me financially, there’s is a free option on patreon to follow. I’ll post future project plans and occasional updates because I still love comics and I still love DC/Marvel. I do enjoy having people following along for my art/reading journey so I would always be okay with people just following for free. My brain is telling me this post is too long now so I will go 🙏🏼😭
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marimbles · 3 months ago
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someone over the age of 30 tell me it’s gonna be ok
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gomzdrawfr · 20 days ago
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Bam bing bong, summary of my doodles in 2024
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#what a year#ive never compiled it neatly before#i was gonna wait it out cuz i havent finish my Christmas pieces yet but im also like ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fuck it so yeah hehe#this year I’ve expanded my socials to bluesky and instagram#I’ve always did two collabs this year which is still wild to me (im planning to do more next year hopefully)#(if my social anxiety can just get over it)#in tappy’s voice: gomz no balls#i also need to do more color piece#launching ☕️ this year has helped to do that#to do at least one colored piece each month#i have a video of me going thru my doodles from January to December in the works but i think i might not able to finish it on time#we’ll see#still gotto tackle the last few ☕️ requests after con#this year I’ve drawn a lot more Price!! that’s why he’s the main character this year#i would put Raven but she’s always a main so#im really happy to have found a nice chibi style and stick with it#consistency is always a struggle for me esp with my non chibi style#some of what i drew this year was awful HDJSHSHS but its nice seeing progress#December suit Price is my proudest non-chibi work and I wish to continue that style next year#moving forward I want to continue to improve and do better but also take it easy#burnt myself out too many times this year due to drawing nearly every day + stress + uni#stress management plan is needed but i SUCK at it#me as a pharmacy student counselling patients [it is important to try to relax and manage stress properly]#what a joke JDJDHDHHD#at least my blood pressure readings stabilized finally on gawd it was on the borders for a few months#it’s been a fun year and I’ve made a lot of new friends too#drabbled in a few fandom and community here and there#thank you for having me everyone :)#gummmyart#art summary 2024
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itspileofgoodthings · 2 months ago
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my seniors have been so quiet all year and it’s been fine cause we’ve had a lot of writing/research to do but I need them to talk to me now so i was hit by a bolt of inspiration two days ago and I made them all tell me their comfort level with sharing aloud, rating themselves on a scale of 1-10. I then averaged the class score and they’re a 4.5. I then told them yesterday we needed to raise the score the tiniest bit. And the 1’s and 2’s didn’t need to be 10’s just maybe 3’s and 4’s. And they tried! They talked more 😭
#it’s sooooo hard because when a class is quiet my default is to assume you hate me#which is so hard because I need a response. which is why I actually can handle a loud raucous class pretty well because it’s just about#holding their attention and redirecting#but when they’re quiet it’s so hard. but i’ve really forced myself to be like ‘they don’t hate you they’re just quiet’#and they ARE#and actually they are reading (not all of them lol) and a lot of them want to learn#it was really helpful going to try to capitalize on this today#I had a moment a few weeks ago where I taught them a poem and it was crickets and I was like sigh they hate it and me#but then I said wanna learn another one? and like—seven of them nodded at me with big eyes and quiet enthusiasm#and I was like okayyyyy there is something going on#it feels so different teaching them than any other class it’s been a real learning experience for me#also yesterday we were talking about Jane Fairfax and Emma hating her lolololol#and Emma being frustrated with Jane’s reserve and I teased them a little bit#I said you’re not cold but you ARE reserved and I am Emma trying to get you to tell me about Frank Churchill at Weymouth#literally lol#ALSO it hit me like a ton of bricks yesterday that this is the class where I need to tell them WHY I make them tell me all the plot details#and we go over it together#and the actual concrete purpose of it. cause it isn’t just book-clubbing it!#it has to do with guiding them through a novel but also teaching them how to do it themselves#I get so prickly when people think it’s just book club behavior#if I was in a book club i would be a tyrant which is why I belong in a classroom#ANYWAY I AM WASTING THE DAY AWAY#but i have woken up with great excitement because I’ve been mulling on the seniors all year#and I feel like I’m getting somewhere#teaching tag
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charmwasjess · 1 month ago
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If Lucasfilm hires you to develop a project what do you pitch?
(Happy Thanksgiving btw 🦃)
Forgive me o’ Geode, friend and sender of fun asks, but the pitch would be me asking to use the restroom and then sneaking out through an open window.
I know! I know! What a boring answer! That sounds so cynical and unfun! Jess LOVES Star Wars content!! So why is she crying?!
Problem is, I think I would want to pitch The Acolyte. 
Of course, I disagree with Leslye Headland’s take on the Jedi Order completely. But I can’t say I didn’t have fun with that show, or that I wouldn’t have tried to do the exact same thing she did with some meaningful differences: get a Jedi-centric story away from the Skywalker Saga, explore weird places, make it dark and edgy and sexy, diverse leads, LGTBQIA+ characters treated like real characters, big tasty lightsaber fights. And it would get cancelled just like The Acolyte did, as none of the things I wanted to fix about the show were the reasons for its failure. 
I don’t think it’s just Star Wars, by the way. It is ROUGH out there for creative people working on projects, big or small. The industry is changing in ways that are still being realized as stories change to franchises which change to corporate properties managing streaming conglomerates. I imagine it will get a great deal worse before it gets better as companies start to cheap out on AI. I’ve talked to Netflix producers, friends who write for Marvel projects, and closer to home, my partner just realized the creative dream of a lifetime: the book he’s worked on for seven years got published by THE publisher in his scene. It’s a success! His fans are fantastic! The reviews are great! He’s sold so many copies so quickly that he would qualify for NYT bestsellers criteria if they listed his genre. His experience with the process was like pulling fucking teeth. He was unsupported with the book on every level by his publishers, fought for every good decision, and the whole process was exhausting and demoralizing.  
I can’t imagine how quickly the dream turns into a nightmare for someone taking on a Lucasfilm project, getting the chance to tell a story they’re deeply passionate about, and then it fails utterly for reasons entirely outside of their control.  
Anyway, without invoking Apollo’s red ball, I do want to talk about a Dooku: Jedi Lost adaptation for a second. Because of course, imagining well done cinematic scenes of certain favorite moments in that book - the Tirra ‘taka or Sifo-Dyas’s sandstorm while Dooku’s blue blade is just cutting down foes left and right - make my nips so hard they just break off and go flying around the room, smashing up the furniture. It’s impossible not to dream “well, what if they just did it really well?” 
But here’s where I think it falls apart. Regardless of how you view the platonic or romantic nature of Sifo-Dyas and Dooku's relationship, a good half the book is two male characters having intimate, affirming conversations about their feelings. Can you imagine a Star Wars property where the male leads look at each other and say lines like “you’re here. With me.” or the whole “I’m in.” “I”m in�� exchange as their ship literally falls burning from the sky? Disney would probably turn it into a lightsaber fight, and yeah, I’d reblog the shit out of those gifs, but I think it would erase something core that I love in the narrative that is perfectly captured in the medium it’s in right now. Something tender and understated and rare.
....And even if they captured that aspect perfectly, part of the “fandom” that hadn’t seen a Star Wars film since May 2005 would bleat “woke” and complain that their wife left them because someone (me) ruined Count Dooku.
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sashimew-the-cat · 2 months ago
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I had a stroke of inspiration, and in a few hours this thing popped on my screen lol (click for better quality)
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I DID IT I FINALLY DID IT! I finished my Tim costume evolution! Yes there are more that I didn’t do but I like to stick to seven.
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Which one is your favorite costume and why is it not the Drake one?
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aurosoul · 1 year ago
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Modern Paleolithia (part 1 of ?)
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grimmweepers · 4 months ago
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life comes at you so fast
#tw personal#tw death#tw cancer#not my usual silly goofy post but it’s hard to remain that way when there’s a lot weighing on your mind#cancer sucks#and it’s unfair how quickly it can take people from us#one moment they seem fine and the next they’re in the icu with a week left to live#he passed two nights ago#i wasn’t planning to post about it but i have the tendency to disassociate from my grief#so here i am instead of wherever the hell!#it’s heartbreaking because he and his wife weren’t just my mum’s bosses - they were long-time friends#i have clear childhood memories of playing at their house with their son#his youngest child is only 3 years old#as soon as he found out he started giving his final messages to his staff#obviously nobody wants to die in that situation#but you could feel how much he *wanted to live*#when i was told about his death it was in the morning and it didn’t feel real#every time i had seen him in the last year he always had a smile on his face#it’s always been hard for me to deal with the prospect of death#and understand how fragile life is#how REAL mortality is#it hits even harder when it happens to someone who was so FULL of life#sighs#life comes at you fast#sometimes in all directions and in every possible and testing way imaginable#i’ve been trying to write and feel any sense of normalcy this evening but for a multitude of reasons i have a sinking feeling in my stomach#sometimes when i’m upset i try recycle the feeling into excitement or happiness over something else#yeah … i can’t really do that tonight#apologies if my energy is bleh. hold your loved ones close. now i return you to my regular scheduled programming
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astrobei · 1 year ago
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he’s fine, he’s just in his sam winchester era
day 3 of @bylerween2023: demons, devils, and exorcisms. nooooo will don’t drink the demongorgon blood noooo
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ruushes · 6 months ago
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having to rest my hand today bc i hurt it drawing all those fucking daisies and realizing i don’t have a second hobby
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nicollekidman · 9 months ago
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never thought i'd see ms cruel summer song of the century shit so much on tswift... is this character development?
not enjoying an album of music does not equate to shitting on taylor nor does it connotate any type of development because her old music is still right there and she's still my wife <3 music just happens to be subjective and does not require blind adoration.... cruel summer song of the century!
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stellewriites · 1 month ago
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thanks for the tags @dwarvenagenda & @pricegouge !! 💓
it was fun to check my stats for this year :3
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funny to compare how i started my year vs how its ending (fandoms im writing for, fic length range, themes and tropes i’m preferring, etc).
i’ve found that although ive maybe written less and had less interaction in general from readers this year i’ve truly found some amazing people that i consider good friends on here now :’) and i wouldn’t swap that for anything!!
blank copy below and npt: @pricetagged @ohlawdthebirds @sentientcave @syoddeye @gloard @wraithdance @buttdumplin @luvrodite @mikichko @lewistoferrari @disgustingtwitches
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