#I’m still in the recovery phase lmao

[disastrous-table]

Just a tiny sneak peak on what I’m winging at rn. Just to help me get back into writing again and because I was inspired!!

Note: since this isn’t very planned out there will most likely have plot holes and might not make much sense. That might also be because I’ve been in such a burnout with writing for almost half a year or more.

[daycourtofficial]

I had a very long Bucky Barnes phase so I’m just curious if any of you did too lmao

[bisluthq]

Oh that reminds me! I just sent the long message about the anon with the roommate maybe being in ED zones.

There was an anon who asked recently about what to do when you get the munchies with your period.

Literally eat more at meal time. I’ve been learning a lot about this stuff (from actual drs lmao, like not IG influencers) and I can’t remember all of it, but basically your cycle can be broken up into 4 weeks/ phases and each phase requires different things.

Your body uses a lot of energy to have a period, and it needs a certain amount of energy to make one and recover from one. The shedding of the lining of the uterus and the back pain is literally to prepare you for childbirth and just the same cramps but typically to a lesser degree than actual childbirth. So it’s good to stick to light exercise during and just after your period and eat extra at meal time because your body needs it. That’s why we snack during it, because we NEED more to push the blood out easier.

Once your period is over, it’s recommended to eat high iron foods and extra water / less caffeine or anything that acts as a diuretic, because you need to top up the fluids you lost and restore the blood levels. It’s not like you’re gonna become dehydrated and bleed out just cause you had your period (unless there’s something seriously wrong) but doing that stuff makes it easier for your next period. The next 2 weeks is when you have the most energy to burn, so if you have a workout routine, that’s the part of your cycle when you can run heaps, light big weights, do endurance and CrossFit type shit (if that’s something you’re capable of!) but then you want to slow down just before your period to lighter weights, less CrossFit type stuff, not as much endurance, and keep it less strenuous. Pausing/ doing lighter versions of whatever you do before your period starts until a couple days after it’s finished gives your body more energy to push out the blood because your body doesn’t think you NEED to hold on to it to fight the bear or whatever primitive thing we’d do that CrossFit mimics lol.

An easy way to see if this applies to you is if you’re mostly having brown blood, it means it’s old blood and there are a few possible reasons for it, but one is that your body is like ‘I’m not gonna get rid of this fresh uterus lining because I might need to send it to the muscles’. If you slow down the pace of whatever your workout routine is, and eat more at meals if you’re hungry and wanting to snack or getting period munchies, it will likely help you have a much easier period.

A lot of the workout routines have been designed with male bodies in mind and they have a 24 hour hormone cycle, not a 28 day one.

So I’ve changed my workout from doing like weight lifting day, cardio day, Pilates day stuff each week to:

Period week + a few days before and after: walking and Pilates, if I’m feeling it I’ll do a light jog, but I do less steps these days too, unless I’m only walking.

The rest of the time: weight lifting a few days a week, push myself with cardio (within the healthy limits) to either run faster or further, and less time doing Pilates stuff, but I just feel really good doing a few stretches. So I’ll do like 15 minutes during this time and then on my period (when I feel like it lol) I’ll do a full class, or a 30 min session at home.

It has made a huge difference to my periods and my fitness is still improving even though I do light stuff for 10 days. Like I’m seeing better results in terms of lung capacity, how far and fast I can run, muscle growth and how much I can lift, and my recovery time is better.

Obviously, everyone is different and needs different things and will feel better with different things, but if you’re having bad periods with old blood, bad PMS, bad back pain, etc and wondering why you’re tired and hungry (and have seen a dr to rule out things like PCOS and endometriosis) I really encourage you to try a version of the above for 3 months and see how you go. I’ve been doing this for 6 months (it takes 3 months typically for a woman’s hormones to reset) and my periods are a lot easier. It’s super interesting to learn about too because just knowing why you’re hungrier (especially with dumb ass diet culture we were exposed to 😫)… like it just makes sense. Well it did and does for me. lol

Sorry for another essay Nat, I tried to edit but I also feel the need to tell everyone about this stuff because I had so many tests and drs appointments and legit just changing my workout schedule and allowing myself to eat more when I was hungry was all I needed to do 😭

this seems like amazing advice!

[tiredtwed]

I guess I need to update this, I’ve been here for 1,5 more years now. Met a lot of nice people and I’ll continue being here well, forever I guess. This intro is somewhat accurate still, but I’ll highlight the stuff that idk is still the same in purple. I’m sending you all love and light. I come and go sometimes when life gets in between but I’ll stay here until I’m ready to recover.

Last time I was here I was like 50 kg. I recovered somewhat but then my dad died. Now I’m here again but at 91 kg. I love my life :,) btw I’m pro recovery and if you’re in a recovering phase please don’t look at my tumblr content.

Do not interact if:

-you’re underaged

-you’re fatphobic

-you’re anti lgbtq+

-you’re recovering

-you’re abelist

Also don’t send me d*ck pics thank you.

Who am I? Good question, let me tell you what I know this far:

- Y’all can call me May

- I’m swedish and can barely spell in my own language so sorry for major grammar/spelling errors

- I’m 20 y/o

- loves anything creative really, singing, playing instruments, drawing, crafting, you name it

- I have been a gamer since idk I got my first computer, I have over 20000+ mod files on the sims 4 ;w;

- I grew up with k-pop and I am an army, my bias is Jin.

- I’m also a metalhead (nice combo I know lmao)

- I’m autistic, have OCD, depression, many phobias, struggle with sh aaand disordered eating.

Rn I’m in a pretty dark place in my life, and I really appreciate all interactions with my posts (cuz I feel like someone cares/sees me heh). My dm’s are open too, but I’m not interested in any “coach” or s*xual content.

Sending y’all love and light💜

[thegalleonsnest]

“I Got It”

The road to recovery is a long one, but it’s ok to cry. Everything will be ok.

Yes, I am not immune to Liz/Egg bittersweet angst. This has been something that came to mind as @scooopybanooopy and I were discussing post Snaxtooth Lizbert & Eggabell fluff/angst. The idea of a stubborn Lizbert attempting to push herself to be independent while still in a heavy recovery phase just wouldn’t leave my mind and I couldn’t stop thinking about it. So I drew it out.

This was a difficult one to actually make. The idea was clear in my head, but executing it was a different story. I ended up working on this on and off for about 2 weeks. Figuring out the paneling, structure, and pacing ended up extending this comic over 3 pages. It’s a slower paced one compared to what I’ve made before, but that’s all more the reason to learn and go for it, especially with this idea sitting in my head for a good while. Again, I’m not a comic artist, so I don’t know all the ins and outs of it, but I did try to create a good flow between panels.

Hope you guys enjoyed this one, or at least went on a mini emotional rollercoaster.

Bonus Material down here (Full Page Illustration shots, fun facts)

Fun Facts:

I faked a bunch of the perspective shots. I was trying to get the perspective tool in CSP to cooperate with me, but I couldn’t get it to work the way I wanted it to, so I just winged it. Most I used was the symmetry tools.

I drew that bookshelf 5 times and there were about 18 books on there. I did not realize how much I hurt myself having to redraw that damn bookshelf over and over again lmao.

I haven’t drawn Eggabell or Lizbert in my current style up until now. So I was drawing them pretty inconsistently as I was figuring them out, specifically Eggabell. It wasn’t until I started working on the final page illustration during the sketching processed where I figured it out. She’s a fluffy Egg now.

Lizbert & Eggabell’s Wedding photo. It’s one of my favorite things I drew in the final page. Buff Walrus Lesbian deserves a wedding dress.

[goosegoblin]

Food talk, eating habits cw: Hey Jess, I’ve been vegetarian for 3+ years and I just came to the realization that I think I’ve been using my vegetarianism to further my disordered eating. More restrictions = more control = suffering but I feel like I deserve it? It’s fucked up. I’ve started to eat a little bit of chicken and shrimp lately (like a couple times a week) and I honestly feel a lot better but a part of me wants to cling to being vegetarian. I think it was one of my coping mechanisms during the last couple of years when my mental health extremely declined and my anxiety+depression got horrible, but I can now see that it actually made everything worse. I still feel really guilty eating meat even though I’ve started to enjoy it again, and I think renouncing my vegetarianism will be a shock to everyone in my life because 99% of them are heavy meat eaters and this became part of my personality unintentionally. I’m sorry if this is rambly or seems like a dumb problem.

I somehow missed this and I'm so sorry, OP.

So this is super super super common! Super common. I don't think I know any recovered anorexics/ ED ppl who didn't go through a veggie or vegan phase. I was vegetarian for years! The common explanation given is that it's a convenient way to cut more foods out, but I think that's a bit cynical. I think it's a lot more likely that when you have an ED, you just... genuinely don't think you deserve to eat. Eating anything feels like saying "I feel like I deserve to eat these things", and doing that with something as ethically charged as meat and animal products is extra terrifying and wrong and gut-wrenching, and you just want to be Good and Do Good and so you cut them out because fuck, at least that's something you can do right, how dare you think you deserve to eat more than animals deserve to live when you barely even deserve to breathe-

I actually went back through my Facebook Messenger because I have a really clear memory of messaging an old friend of mine when I entered recovery. This friend was massively important in identifying my ED in the first place, and was also a very, very strongly committed vegan. I was in the exact same place you are now, and I was terrified. Here is a segment, all the way from 2014, with the only changes being names redacted (and an irrelevant bit removed):

'So I'm in recovery from my ED (doing pretty well, if I say so myself!), and as a part of that, I've started eating fish and meat again. That's because I found it near-impossible to discern whether the reasons I had dropped them from my diet were ethical or disordered. [...] The thing is, though, that I feel so guilty and like I am failing. I often think back to you and [name] and [name], and that you would hate me/ judge me immensely if you knew what I was doing (and I can't blame you).'

so like. just to clarify. this problem does not seem dumb because i have had this exact problem lmao

anyway, her reply- and again, this was from a girl who had been vegan since she was thirteen and had been very clear on what that meant to her- included this:

'Jess, of course your health comes first, and I think [name] and I would both be prouder of you for wanting to get better than we ever would you wanting to be veggie. You are being really awesome, and I hope you keep going strong! So if you ever feel down about eating, know that there would be absolutely no ethical judgement from any of us- there couldn't be.'

She was right, you know.

It's okay. You are okay.

Go and eat some chicken, my friend. It's all going to be okay.

xxxxxxxx

[redgokus]

I was SO conflicted to send this then you said MORE NSFW REQUESTS and I said now I HAVE to send this. Maybe something along the same lines of Yandere!Kyo, but he HAS to take you from behind? Maybe he likes lording over you like that, holding your face in the pillow? 🙈🙈 (maybe use those manilla ropes, too...)(im so sorry if this is a dumbass request i'll hide in shame feel free to delete)

A/N: (whistles discreetly) so... read the warnings with this one LMAO. 

First Part

Song Pick of the Day: Ugo / The Dead Pirates

Warnings: Yandere, Rough Anal Sex, Degrading, Dubcon, This Is Not Nice

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You have your good days and your bad days. Predictably, Kyojurou likes the days where you’re good the most. It just makes sense. 

Those are the days when you’re obedient and docile. You let Kyojurou coo over you and love you all he wants until he’s had his fill, and you don’t complain when he feeds you and cleans you. He doesn’t trust you enough yet to let you off the bed and into the shower, so for now, the two of you have made do with removing the sheets on the bed while Kyojurou cleans your body with a warm rag. He does this every other day with gentle, loving hands- because your cleanliness is important for your physical and mental health, and he wouldn’t want you feeling uncomfortable at all!

Besides the ache of your wrists and occasionally your ankles. You both will have to just live with that.

Your bad days though- those are rough. Filled with shouting, cursing, fighting, and lots of bleeding on your part and occasionally on his if you manage to land a hit on him. All couples fight, and he understands your violence based on the situation you’re in, but he’s already looking forward to the future where you stop looking at him with such hatred as you try to bite his fingers off. 

Kyojurou tries to warn you. Your first warning is always the rope- fine silk changing to rough manila as he binds your hands to the bed frame. Another warning is when he ties down your ankles. He warns you because he doesn’t ever want to hurt you- and yet, regardless of his care and his effort to keep you unharmed, you continue to push, push, push. 

All your limbs are tied down on the bed as Kyojurou rests his hip against the dresser while you scream and yell as he looks at his nails with disinterest. He told you a long time ago that the room was soundproof, but somehow you’re still convinced that if you’re loud enough, someone will hear you- save you. Save you from what?

Kyojurou? The man who loves you so much? 

Eventually, you start taunting him, cursing him. This is typical and expected since Kyojurou is out of reach; the only way you can harm him is with your words, and you’re especially determined to do so today. And, unknown to you- yes, it does hurt. When you insult his mother for giving birth to him, call him an awful son and brother, wishing for him to perish in hell- yes, those words hurt. Being in such a loving relationship to a spiteful one was a rough transition; Kyojurou remembers when you used to love him as much as he loves you. 

You still love him, but things are just different now. You’re going through a phase. Kyojurou keeps his face calm and stoic as he reminds himself of this while you yell at him- it’s just one of your bad days. That’s all.

Yes… Kyojurou clears his throat and quells down his anger by clenching his jaw and tapping harshly on the dresser with his fingers. Just a bad day. 

His eyes drift to his watch eventually. He had promised himself that another punishment would come if you kept it up for an hour today, and you’re only seven minutes away from that mark. As he looks up to your face, still full of hot hatred, Kyojurou decides that you’re probably not going to stop anytime soon. So he’ll forgive himself later for being a little hasty as he takes two strides toward the bed. 

Kyojurou’s sudden movement seems to startle you, your threats going quiet as you stare at him. When his hands go for your ankles, you flinch- and yeah, that kind of hurts his feelings too, but he’ll live with it- and then you gape as he undoes the knot tying you to the bed. 

“Wh- what are you doing?” 

You keep your eyes on him as he moves to the other side of the bed, untying your other ankle. Despite your minor freedom, you don’t move to kick him, and Kyojurou takes note of that- that’s good, and deserves a reward. 

So he’ll fuck you a little less rough than planned. Maybe he’ll let you breathe. 

When Kyojurou walks up to the head of the bed, undoing the rope of your wrist and then leaning over your head to do the other, he feels you trembling. “Kyojurou, what are you doing?” You try to keep your voice firm and stable, but he hears it. He hears the fear in your tone, as much as you try to hide it. 

For the first time, you are conscious and unbound. Kyojurou keeps the last piece of rope in his hand as he leans away, staring you down with a hard glare. It’s silent in the room- eerily so. 

One second, two… three, four, and then all the way up to ten. Time ticks almost visibly as he stares at you, watching your every movement.

Kyojurou hums after fifteen seconds, nodding shortly. “Good. Do you know what I’m going to do to you now?” It’s the first time he’s spoken to you today since you started your tantrum. The effect he has on you is obvious as you flinch again, your eyes flicking away from his and toward the bed as you curl up defensively. He grunts, his hand moving to your jaw and grabbing it harshly, forcing you to look at his eyes. “I asked you a question.” 

Your own jaw sets as you clench your teeth. “No.” 

Letting go of your face, Kyojurou moves fast enough to startle you, giving you no time to fight back. He forcibly flips you over on the mattress before he settles himself on top of you, placing a knee on your back as he grabs your arms and forces them up. With the same rope from before, he puts your wrists together as you start to scream again, tying them to the bed frame over your head. Your body viciously moves as you try to get him off you, but Kyojurou is much stronger and heavier than you as he puts his weight on your back and makes you choke. Leaning over your ear, he whispers. 

“I’m going to fuck your ass,” he practically purrs as the words seem to make you freeze, “and because you were good just now, I’ll use lube.” Biting your ear, he pulls on it, hard enough to make you yell. “Don’t make me take that back.” 

Your body slacks from beneath him and he smiles, taking off the pressure of his knee on your spine. He hovers for a second, waiting for you to start fighting again, but he’s pleasantly surprised when you stay docile. What a good lover you were- you just needed to be put in your place every so often, that was all. 

“There you are,” Kyojurou sighs, leaning down again to press a kiss on the back of your neck. He’s gentle, soft- for now. As punishment goes, this wasn’t going to be the usual lovemaking you usually had, but for now, he missed you. He takes advantage of your compliance as he peppers loving kisses all along your neck and shoulders, down your back as his hands rub the ache where he pressured his knee against your spine. “There’s my precious baby,” you shiver when his body crawls down yours, still leaving kisses everywhere until he reaches your bottom. 

He grabs one of your cheeks with a firm grip, smiling as he spreads you open. You whimper from above him as you feel his lips meet your entrance. 

“Not yet,” you can feel his hot breath on your skin until he leans away. The sound of a bottle cap opening fills the silence of the room, and then his hands are back on you, fingers tracing the rim of your ass with cool lube coaxing them. Much to Kyojurou’s surprise, you don’t lean away, even from the cold. 

Your ass tilts up as you push against his fingers. Kyojurou can’t help but laugh. 

“Oh, sweetheart,” he purrs as he pushes two fingers in you at once. You groan from the stretch, but he doesn’t give you a recovery period- you asked for this, after all. He fucks you with his fingers deeply as you squirm from under him, choked breathes leaving you every other second. “You’re a fighter, I’ll give you that. But deep down, I know you love me so much, just like I love you.” As he spreads your ass with his fingers, he leans down to kiss the skin of your bottom. When he bites, his teeth sinking in, you gasp. “Either that or you’re a closeted slut who can’t help but enjoy it. I wonder which is worse for you?” 

“I’d rather-” Your face moves as you bite into the pillow next to you, eyes squeezing shut as Kyojurou adds another finger, fucking you ruthlessly. You force your hips to still as you breathe in and out slowly. “I’d rather be a slut than love someone like you.” 

You really loved to fight. Sometimes, Kyojurou wonders if you’re more of a masochist than he is. 

“Alright. If you want to be a slut so bad, then I should just treat you like one.” He removes his fingers from you quickly, and he doesn’t miss the muffled whine you make into the pillow. He scoffs at that, wiping the lube on his fingers off on his pants before he quickly undoes his belt, leaving it around his hips as he pulls the zipper on his pants and takes his cock out. 

Your body tenses as you bring yourself up on your knees, trying to look over your shoulder to meet Kyojurou’s wild eyes. “W-wait- I’m not ready yet-” 

“I thought you wanted to be a slut, baby?” He leans over your body as his prick glides against your ass, his hands tightly holding onto your hips to keep you propped up. “I think a slut can handle what I’m going to do to you.” 

Kyojurou groans as he spreads your cheeks, entering your ass with a full, deep thrust. So, so tight… Perfect. 

“Good, sweetheart, just perfect,” he smacks your ass and you clench up, making him laugh as he begins to thrust. Nothing about it is nice or kind- no, he doesn’t have that patience anymore. And this was punishment, after all. His pace is fast, rough, and deep- his teeth sinking into your shoulder and making you cry out as he fucks you. 

It’s unfortunate that you’re enough of a whore that you’ll always feel good regardless, already moaning into the pillow as Kyojurou roughly pounds his hips against your ass. The metal of his belt hits your thighs, making you whine as your muscles clench from the pain- and that’s just perfect. It feels wonderful around his cock. 

Kyojurou laughs next to your ear. “Feeling good, baby? Even though it’s me?” 

“N-no- fuck!” He slaps your ass again as he pulls his upper body away from you. His hand moves to the back of your head, tightly fisting your hair enough for it to hurt as he keeps your face shoved into the pillow. Your moans are muffled but clear as day to him. 

Despite it all, you’ll always enjoy it, because it’s him. No one else could fuck you like this and keep you moaning- only him. Just him. 

He knows this even if you deny it over and over.

“Come on darling, I know you love it so much,” Kyojurou grunts as he shoves your face deeper in the pillow, and you start to violently squirm, struggling to breathe. He moans when it makes your hips meet his, helping push him even deeper in your ass. “Fucking perfect, love you- you always feel amazing, baby, even if you’re a whore.” 

He can hear his name leave your lips, frantic shouts still muffled by the pillow, and he moans. He knows, in the back of his mind, that you’re begging him to let you breathe. 

But he decides to ignore that for now. He decides to be ignorant and pretend you’re chanting his name in pleasure, just like you used to. Kyojurou bites his lip as he fucks you even harder, grunting as pressure increases in his gut. 

“Fuck- sweetheart, I’m gonna cum-” Your ass clenches around his cock again and he smiles, moaning loudly as he finally takes his hand off your head. Immediately, your head rises from the pillow as you breathe in sharply while Kyojurou grabs your hips with both his hands and focuses his thrusts. 

“Please-” You practically sob, “Kyojurou-!” 

The metal of his belt slapping on your thighs was forgotten on his end, but not on yours. The stinging of it on your skin feels like it’s cutting into you, and you choke another moan when his hands finally wander down to your sex. “Oh- fuck!” 

“That’s it, darling,” Kyojurou purrs. “Come on,” 

“No-!” 

You cum. Your whole body tightens up like a wire as your eyes roll back, Kyojurou continuing to quickly rub at your sex as he speeds up his thrusts on your ass, stinging metal continuing to hit you like fire. You can hear his grunting and wild moaning, his insane chanting about how beautiful you are, how tight and warm. 

A few more thrusts and he’s cumming, filling you up full with his seed as his hips stutter to press flush against yours. 

This is usually when Kyojurou will help clean you up, pressing kisses against your head as he whispers apologies for his rough treatment. Kyojurou can tell you’re expecting it as your body relaxes when he pulls out, but- no. While he loves you dearly-

You’re still a cunt. 

He catches his breath as he wipes his cock with tissue from the nightstand before tucking himself back into his pants, fastening his belt around his hips again. Your eyes meet his and he smiles, cooing under his breath as he gets off the bed and kneels down on the floor. His hands come to your face, thumbs tenderly stroking your cheeks. 

“I hope you’ll be on better behavior tomorrow, dear one,” he whispers. “Because if you want me to be nice, you’ll have to be nice, too. That’s just how it works.” 

Quickly, he stands, his hands leaving your face as he takes a step back. Your eyes widen as you watch him gather his things- “you’re leaving?” 

“Mm,” Kyojurou nods as he smiles. “I don’t have time to waste on brats. You’ll stay like that until I decide to forgive you for everything you said today.” He rearranges the watch on his wrist, checking the time. 

It’s still early. Maybe he can make time to visit and eat dinner with Senjurou today. As he heads for the door, you shuffle up your body to sit up awkwardly while your wrists are still bound.

“You- please don’t leave me like this-”

Right as he’s about to close the door, he remembers. “Oh! Right.” 

Leaving you tied up like that would have been an awful idea. But he’s not really in the mood to retie you... So as he goes to his closet, he takes out some handcuffs, and before you realize what’s happening he clicks them around your wrists. “Thank you for reminding me,” Kyojurou spares one kiss to the top of your head before he finally leaves. 

When he closes the door, he stays for a second. Your furious screams can be heard just barely- he takes a few steps down the fall and nods his head in content when the noise fades away. Never hurts to check every now and again. 

But! He’s rather hungry now, so it’s time he called his brother and made some plans. 

[hollandorks]

the fact that you're a marvel/tom fan with a current fixation on battinson.... i think maybe we are supposed to be friends?? also MOTN is an actual masterpiece and chapter 30 really just put a cute lil bandaid on the wounds caused by the last few chapters, and i'm sure with the epilogue we can expect a full and complete recovery <3<3

i am very excited for the sequel and also all the blurbs to come and idk what the proper protocol is to become an emoji anon or whatever lmao but i’ve decided i’m gonna be one and i shall use this one —> 🤠 :-) (if that’s okay with you?? i’ve never done this but for you it just feels ~right~ lmao)

okay thanks for coming to my ted talk have a good night xoxo

- 🤠

Yes we're besties now, sorry you have no choice!! My Tom + co phase has such a soft spot in my heart. Those were the good ole days! I mean I still love him but battinson has kind of shoved him into a deep dark hole so whoops.

Also yes the next two parts should help with a full recovery!! That was my plan all along 😉

And Idk the protocol either but this seems good! Please just don't change it because I am dumb and I'll always forget it changed 😂 I've got a proper little gang of emoji anons now yay!!

Have a great weekend! 🥰

[wetookanoath]

niniiiiiiiiiiiiiiii what are you up to?

uhm...

on a personal level: i’m currently unemployed and already had a breakdown about it when it happened. it was hard and unexpected and the reason i haven’t been consistent in any social media is because i’ve been concentrated on finding a new job at the same time i’m preparing an official catalog of my original fiction, reviews, articles and more in english to send to several agents in the US. my new goal is to publish in the english-speaking market where i believe i may have a better chance to get a bigger public, since the kind of fiction i write the most is not truly liked or appreciated in LATAM.

currently on a journey to recovery from other stuff, about to see my little brother move out the house on december, and on march next year i have an test to make a history major in the local university, which i’m excited for since i’m in the middle of researching Something and i have decided, i want to do it professionally.

finally, in the middle of translating various of my short stories to english, planing on transforming a fanfic (*eyes emoji*) into a full book that i want to pitch to a few agencies i’ve found, and making random appearances in podcasts and whatnot to talk about fanfic, fandom and other writing stuff (mostly female fiction, female gaze, romance and horror).

and on a more lighter note, aka fandoms: my cobra kai obsession is currently dormant. i’ve been into a variaty of fandoms for a while now, but i’m currently deeeeeep into my obsession with motorsports AGAIN, but mostly f1. this is something i’ve always loved but my favorite driver (who happens to be our local driver lmao) is currently doing well and is in a good team for the first time in years, and he’s been signed up for a second year, so i’m!!!!!!! SO HAPPY!!!!!!!

(yes, i have my ships there lmao)

my other big thing right now is ted lasso, a show i fucking love and i have one of those otps i can’t stop thinking about there (tedbecca), and on my dune phase once again like i’m 15 again! i got my tickets yesterday and i’m so excited to see the movie, I KNOW it’s gonna be awesome.

still into adam driver, taylor swift, cobra kai... i recently went full 19 years old me and obsessed over loki when the show was coming out, i really liked the show and i won’t accept wank about it (i’m not here to fight, babes), i went back to shadow and bones SADLY. i still can’t believe they truly got THE ben barnes to be the darlking, like--17 years old me can’t believe it still sdjfbfnsndfb, really loved being back in that fandom with the same ten people i met all those years ago here in tumblr, and i’m still a little bit into each of those fandoms.

but yeah, right now is more of f1 and ted lasso kind of thing lol

thanks for asking, nonnie!

[sketchyrambles]

Here is a list of content I’m currently into so ya’ll know what you’re getting into here lol:

Voltron Legendary Defender (I refuse to acknowledge that seasons 7-8 happened lmao. Still love the show and characters otherwise. Working on a fun rewrite with my friends.)

Young Justice (Finally watched season 4 and I am now in the process of recovery from the emotional damage I received from this season jfjfjfj)

Pokémon (Including most niche games like the ranger series and mystery dungeons)

My Hero Academia (Caught up in the manga and omg so much is happening jfjfj. My poor heart can’t take much more of this ;-;)

Naruto (Still recovering from binging this show. I’ll get to Boruto eventually lol)

Dsmp (not as much anymore but I still enjoy some things from the story)

Httyd (I will never recover from the movies. So much nostalgia and warmth to this franchise)

Ghibli (Howl’s Moving Castle is my fave)

Demon Slayer (Finished the manga! Can’t wait to see it all animated!)

Full Metal Alchemist Brotherhood (Pulls at my heartstrings every time jfjfjf)

Genshin Imapct (Not so much but still love looking at all the pretty characters and world building)

The Arcana

Arcane (Need to rewatch this show so bad! Can’t wait for whenever season 2 comes out)

Legend of Zelda Breath of the Wild & Tears of the Kingdom

Fire Emblem Three Houses (Also three hopes)

Monster Hunter Stories (Need more of these games honestly. They’re so fun and beautiful. Especially Stories 2. God I hope we get another stories game that continues with the characters from the first one. I think that would be so cool seeing them interact with you as the rider being older.)

Avatar the Last Airbender

The Legend or Korra

Vox Machina (Season 2 was fabulous! Loved seeing more backstory for everyone. Grog’s was one of my favorites!)

Spy x Family (This show has awoken my spy phase again lol)

Monkie Kid (Update: I have now caught up with this show and it has given me *serious* brain rot. I love these monkey bastards so much!!😭)

Ninjago (I have returned and now I’m wondering why I ever left this beloved show? I’VE MISSED THESE NINJA DORKS SO MUCH!!😭)

The Owl House (I finished the whole show and I’m entirely unwell!😭 I will love these good witches forever!)

Slugterra (Does anyone remember this show? I rediscovered it and forgot how much I adored it! Fabulous show and makes me cackle😂 Please watch!)

Into & Across the Spiderverse (I need the rest of the year to process across the spiderverse. ITS SO GOOD GO WATCH IT AHHHHH!!!!!!)

Mech Cadets (I just finished season one on Netflix and I adore it! Beautiful Mech designs and just so much diversity in this show! Please give it a watch if you’re look for something like pacific rim and evangelion! And the art style is so prettyyy!!)

Castlevania (Just finished watching it and it’s amazing! I was throughly impressed with the story and all the characters. Trevor, Alucard, and Sypha were just so refreshing and fun to watch. They all have great chemistry and bounce off each other well. Loved seeing all the vampire diversity too.)

Castlevania Nocturne (OMG!! What a way to start a first season! Gosh I can’t wait for the second season! We got even more diversity and dope magic fights. Still great chemistry between the characters. Also, how dare they end season one like that! I need season 2 as soon as possible! Ahhh!!!)

Transformers (AUTOBOTS ROLL OUT!! I have had *major* transformers brain for the past month now. I finished reading through mtmte and lost light and cried my eyes out😭 I’ve rewatched my beloved show transformers prime and got to watch shows I hadn’t watched yet such as rescue bots, transformers animated, and I even managed to watch some of the cyberverse show. I watched season one of robots in disguise too and they did Bumblebee and Optimus so dirty!😭 Anyways, I’m deep in my transformers phase and I don’t plan to leave anytime soon🩵)

Delicious in Dungeon/Dungeon Meshi (I adore the anime and have already started to collect the manga! Such a fun mesh of cozy cooking meets dnd but it has a mystery going on in the main plot. It’s well done and the character designs and food look fantastic! Makes me want to eat good food and draw every time I watch a new episode. Absolutely adore this story and its characters💕)

These are what I’ll mostly talk about here but I may update this in the future if more come along. Okay byeeeee!!!✨

[calpalsworld]

Not "autistic anon," but also autistic, (being called maybe ableist made me want to put this out there before go to bed) i thought Zane was depicted that way purposefully by the writers. He has stereotypical traits like taking things literally, and has an actual humor switch. The writers have done things with Zane before like have him lose bodily autonomy (during that one Wu's teas short) and did something with his voice be it making him unable to be understood or talking too loud and the forced pirate voice by Jay. (what you're doing isn't too different from that, right?) I thought it was just a little iffy to distort his body and memory bc that could be interpreted as something not that I'm sure what exactly, it's some kind of disability. I dunno. I'm not good with putting this to words. I hope this makes sense.

Sorry I went to bed but now I’m awake 😭

Also I ended up totally spilling all my thoughts here rather than only specifically replying to you please forgive me context: my scary zane concept design, & my ninjago rewrite i refer to a lot 

Im a little confused but I think I get what you're saying? You're saying the Ninjago writers absolutely DON'T write Zane well (you listed examples of this) and you don't want me to fall into the same trap?

I had the opposite logic earlier. I thought: If Ninjago writers made Zane have stereotypical autisitic traits while also being a dehumanized robot, I may as well embrace it, say he is autistic blatantly, while also making him do funny/cool non-human robot things, so its clear as possible the two aspects of his character are literal and separate and not a metaphor for each other. But you're right! I do have a choice and I dont have to embrace things! :)

Like there were a couple ways I was gonna reject the original, for example, I never wanted Zane to have a funny switch, and I hated how other characters could fuck with Zane and he didn't even care 😬. I want to change that stuff. So youre right, if I am changing shit like that, it would be counterproductive for ME to GIVE him MORE traits along that theme. 😬😬😬 I should try to feel less obligated to portray Zane like he originally is. I still like the concept of "scary zane" (for reasons i explain below the cut) but I might tone it down a bit like with the claws and weird proportions and shit. I’d def make him look more skeletal and undead. That was my original intention, but i didnt execute it as good as I could have.... idk if anyone could tell thats what he was supposed to be like...my bad! But rn I dont wanna redesign him I wanna draw other stuff like normal alive Zane. Sorry LMAO 😳. Like I said in some earlier asks I think, I think Im gonna focus rn on how I should portray season 1 normal not dead Zane so thank you and feel free to share any other Zane thoughts ^_^ SOME OTHER THOUGHTS:

Also I Wanna Argue Some Stuff But I Understand its a Weak Argument Since All of This Context was Just In My Brain (so don't take this as an argument, just as me rambling): I don't want messed up things to happen to Zane and for it to just be ignored. I think if Zane is going to have fucked up things happen to him, as all characters must, its best for it to happen during a season where he actually addresses his feelings about being a robot (learning to accept that he will always be himself, regardless if hes "human" or the "original" or whatever. (thats how I always interpreted his emotions)). But I wouldn't have the other Ninja be very phased by Zane's looks because the whole point is they already love who he is (seasons 1-3 were about getting to know Zane) and now Zane himself just has to learn the physical, robot part of him is okay. Its about person-hood rather than humanity. Because the season focuses around Zane's soul, and because he lost his original body, I feel like I could mess around with his current, temporary body and have fun and make it scary. Because that body should be irrelevant. I understand it possibly being upsetting for an autistic character to be designed like this, but other people I talked to see it the opposite way. They find it comforting for him to look so different but still be himself and be so loved. SO IM ABSOLUTELY NOT saying its wrong to be bothered or to hate it or to feel any way. Just that I personally think it would be cool for Zane to be portrayed with a little spice lol, so thats why I like scary Zane for season 4.

Another Thing I Wannna Say But Is REALLY Hypocritical: (this isnt directed at anyone I just REALLY want to say this) I know I say "this is Zane but scary, he looks like fnaf" so he's obviously dehumanized, but I always felt like "scary" is more of an objective fact. Its an instinct. But what's "not human" is subjective. I think there is a problem with saying anything different from "average" human is dehumanized because that could extend to real people. Lol I know its bad for me to compare FNAF-ass Zane to real people, but I mean he could be real. People can have exposed teeth, and people can be shaped weird. And when someone first sees a person who looks like that they'll probably think "woah those features are scary" by instinct. And that surprise doesn't make someone ableist obviously. But bring that person’s humanity into question is NOT an instinct, and is fucked to shit. This is kinda a bad point for me to make since its about the fictional FNAF Zane I drew, and I am NOT implying ANYONE was thinking like this. [especially not the original asker anon who I am totally forgetting about at this point OOPS]. But I just thought it was an opinion of mine I couldn't go without mentioning when talking about dehumanization and disabilities.

^^^ I think you (anon) understand what I mean and might’ve said the exact same thing as me if you were writing a long ass response? I think this because you started to bring physical disabilities up and you said it was "a little iffy." ^_^ So we agree, but I don't see Zane's relation to real life disabilities as "a little iffy" I see it more like "complicated"? IF THAT DIFFERENCE EVEN MAKES ANY SENSE?????? I feel like a lot of things about Zane are really just complicated and need the right context, rather than the concepts necessarily being wrong -- NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT! THATS THE WHOLE REASON I DO THIS STUPID REWRITE! XD thats why a lot of my rewrite SO FAR has been the same concepts and plot beats, but different dialogue n specifics and such. I like a lot of concepts in Ninjago but I dont think they were presented correctly.....! :( So I guess all we can do is wait and see if I make Zane offensive or not....???

Also something about the memory part - yeah i agree i was surprised no one thought that was weird to make jokes out of his memory issues..... BUT I am like 100% firm on making his memory take longer to come back because I think its stupid how quick Zane was able to recover from literally dying. Like its just dumb to me. Hate it. (also bc memory & soul mechanics is ummm kinda important in my rewrite.... for reasons). Another memory thing btw, I was going to make his original amnesia come from hitting his head in an attack against the Skulkin when they stole his dads corpse, rather than his dad fucking choosing to make him forget. (its a sweet & iconic scene, but Um, WHY?!!!?!?!?!?) He has to follow data recovery instructions he finds in his dads diary. I think in that context it makes moments of memory loss somewhat different for Zane's character? Instead of loss of autonomy associated with disability, its a literal violent loss of autonomy associated with being traumatized by physical force. Idk how to phrase it exactly but I think that makes some vibes different?

Sorry, I think I got really distracted, and I don't know if I responded well to your points. Because uhhhh I think I agree with your stance actually? If I understand correctly? Fuck Ninjago writers for making the robot lose autonomy (a stereotypical robot theme) while also making him seem clearly autistic (NOT A HAPPY THEME FOR AUTISTIC PEOPLE) and not addressing it. And also auuugh Zane with a weird body is a difficult topic - kinda sussy pretty iffy.

Lol anyway idk if this made any sense and I REALLY rambled on you. but this was nice 👉👈 more Zane criticism pls love you and i love zane. i hope u dont feel mad at me because then it would be weird that im saying that lol. if you do feel mad at me tho you can send another ask (ILL TRY TO JUST LISTEN NOT RAMBLE NEXT TIME) but assuming ur chill rn, love you thnx

Take this page, don’t mind cole’s ass.

[jaideite]

hi :D could i request tamaki with a s/o who cries easily? i adore your writing fiakdndncnc

wow so like I got super carried away with it ... but it was so cute to write !!! thank you for sending this in and awe stop your making me blush 🤡

on another note; Happy Thanksgiving everyone ! Hope your enjoying your time with your family!!

edit: THIS WAS SUPPOSED GO OUT ON THANKSGIVING F*CK ME WITH A LUNCHBOX happy holidays !

TAMAKI WITH A S/O WHO CRIES EASILY

— tamaki has learned that with you, positive compliments mean crying

— “Your one of the bravest people I know.”

— “T-T-Tamaki...”

— he just shakes bc he made u cry

— and then he just whips out a box of tissues and then turns around to hide behind the wall while you cry over his compliment

— mirio commended you on a quick thinking move you made and tamaki had to ask for a couple toilet rolls from the janitor to dry up your tears that fell from your face

— you are so glad you keep makeup wipes in your bag because your mascara ran like the flash down your face skdkxk

— people in the halls just stare at you guys because jeez man he just complimented you it’s not that big of a deal—

— “I’m gonna make you proud Tama!” you blow into the tissue

— “You already do.”

— the waterworks are activated again

— he likes giving you compliments but he doesn’t like seeing you cry

— even if they’re happy tears

— “y/n, please don’t cry love...”

— you just huff and bawl your eyes out because hE cAlLeD yOu LOVE

— how are you not supposed to cry at the pet name like ???

— when you guys are out doing hero work and people compliment or cheer you guys on

— tamaki hides against the wall and you just swallow and start fanning your eyes

— “Y/HERO/N are you ok?”

— “I’m fine I’m fine I’m fine it’s just—“ sniff “whEW ok ok I think I’m good”

— then you look down at the crowd of people it’s all over man

— your quirk should be tears instead of whatever it is

— god your so glad you decided to put a mask on your hero costume cause when you took it off your mask had imprinted against your face and soaked all your tears and the eyeliner you used to fill in the gaps makes you look like a raccoon

— you kind of just 🥴 but keep it moving

— people are kind of surprised when they ask who asked you out first and you reply tamaki

— he gets shy when you tell the story bc he can’t believe that he was that brave and the fact that you cried that much kekskdkfmdn

— it took weeks for him to finally work up the courage to tell you he likes you

— every time he would walk up to you you would turn and he would pretend like he was going the wrong way

— until finally you turned and he managed to keep his ground

— “Tamaki! Is there something you need?”

— he just freezes and starts shaking

— mirio is in the wall thumbs up, nodding and ready to push him back around incase he goes to the wall to hide

— meanwhile he’s shaking like a leaf and stuttering looking back at you and the wall

— your vv concerned for him and ready to ask him does he need to go to recovery girl but then he finally speaks

— “I...I...I really admired your strength and quick thinking today...”

— “Oh...Tama—“

— “And uh...I think your really cool...and sweet...a-and pretty...i uh...”

— he gets so nervous he wants to turn around and run

— good thing nejire is around the corner so she can stop him lmaooo

— he’s shaking and your quiet until finally he just pulls out two tickets to go to an amusement park

— “And I...I was hoping you would go out w-with me.”

— poor tamaki is practically about to phase through the floor with all this shaking

— your just quiet until you make a noise and he looks up

— and holy shit your crying

— the big three are all confused like what lol he just asked you out not insulted you skdksks

— like snot running down your nose lips doing that weird inhale thing they do eyes red and makeup messy

— idk why y/n hasn’t invested in any waterproof mascara tbh

— he’s panicking and he’s like “oh no I did something wrong oh crap oh crap oh crap oh crap”

— “I-I-I’m so sorry if I said something to offend you—“

— “I’ll go out with you!” You cry pulling out a handkerchief

— he just stares at you while you blow your nasty snotty nose into a handkerchief that’s gets washed 5 times a day

— “W-W” he cringes at that nasty blow you blow into the handkerchief and wipe your eyes “What day?”

— “I-It’s Saturday...if you...want to go.”

— you wipe your nose with your sleeve and take the ticket “Thank you Tamaki. I can’t wait to spend time with you.”

— then you leave and he’s just shaking bc yOu wANnA sPeNd tImE wItH hIm

— tamaki.exe has stopped working

— anyways fast forward a couple days and you guys head to the amusement park

— ur concerned bc he keeps hiding behind you while you guys walk around

— in reality he just really wants to hold your hand but he’s too shy lol

— so he just fine with walking behind you

— you guys play a couple of stands where you guys play and you continuously lose and he wins most of them and then shyly gives you the presents games and go on a couple rides and all in all have a good time

— he wins you a cute plushie of your pro hero agency and you swallow back your tears

— anyways you guys get to one of those stands where you can win a prize and

— There’s a Fatgum plushie smiling at you both

— you turn to him with a huge smile and go

— “I’m gonna win you one.”

— poor baby doesn’t know what to say bc he wanted to win you another plushie

— he wants to be manly like Kirishima kskdkskf

— but anyways you step up and grip the handle and swing as hard as you can and make it up to seven

— seven

— seven

— he watches your facial expression fall like a roller coaster and he is confused as to why you look like your about to cry

— but no you just pucker your lips and give the next person the mallot and walk off and he follows

— and your guys take about nine steps before you erupt like a geyser

— Everyone is just staring and he’s trying to calm you down but your just not lmao

— “Y/N, please. Calm down.”

— “I CANT BELIEVE I LOST!”

— “Y/N love it’s ok I still like you.“

— you just pause and look at him and he’s like starting to panick realizing what he did

— and you just stare and then start sniffing again

— he hoped him telling you he likes you would calm you down

— but it didn’t he just admitted his feelings and now your shook

— so he’s panicking and your crying because you lost AND the fact that he likes you

— wow you are sister shook

— but anyways once he stops panicking he finally manages to calm you down so you can enjoy the last half our of the amusement park

— your still bummed out about not winning like any of them at all but hey now you have stuffed toys to put on your bed

— he takes you to the bathroom first so you can clean up the mascara that has run down your face and made you look like a raccoon

— he gets you some food too because after crying you certainly do get hungry

— “What did you eat Tamaki?”

— he holds up a chicken leg (food and an actual chicken leg on his arm) and you end up choking and laughing

— he just smiles softly bc he’s glad he was able to make you smile again

[danielsarmand]

ok i said i would do this and my body won’t let me go on with my life until i do but i feel like there’s so much to say about each episode that i cannot make a comprehensive post so i’ll just do separate ones for each one. i am only halfway through the show but here’s my absolutely not required opinions on tua 2x01

i have to say when i first started watching i wasn’t sure i liked any of the situations the guys were (are,) in and i am still not positive that i do? going by number order so it’s easier:

luther... well, actually not much to say about that, what a start. but him and five are probably the ones that left me the most neutral, in the sense that i was just happy to see him and i didn’t think much of anything — the situation he is in might be a bit weird but that’s obviously tied to his inability to exist without a father figure of sorts despite how fucked up said father figure might be so like... classic luther

diego... i mean. it’s just that i don’t really get it? like, not him being in a sanatorium — that, all things considered, i get — but his obsession with saving kennedy. okay, he has a hero complex and i always did know he’s a bit on the dumber side (sorry diego) but the volume of his idiocy is astronomical now like what does he expect to even do doesn’t he understand he should interfere as little as possible with historical events and why is he running around telling people kennedy is going to get shot i mean you’re just BEGGING to get hospitalised aren’t you,,, plus don’t uh... don’t sue me but i don’t really like the whole subplot with lila, she is an interesting character and i already have my theories about her so obviously she’s going to be more than just a possibly romantic plot for diego but at the same time way from the trailer they pushed so much on this and on them being sexually attracted to one another so there’s a lot of... unnecessary bits that honestly i would’ve lived without (especially considering patch existed and wasn’t this collective fever dream) but of course that’s how tv shows work so whatever

allison... yeah i mean. i don’t. i don’t really get her marriage as well, lmao. i like that she is a civil rights organiser and i do think what’s happening in her storyline is important and has to be shown in such a context but, even though she does explain she thought everyone was dead and that five would take years to get back to her, i have. so much trouble believing she would move on THAT quickly. not from luther i mean, just in general, from the fact that she has a daughter in another timeline and all. the LAST thing i would think of in her place would be marrying someone and possibly starting yet another family i won’t necessarily be able to keep and for some reason i have serious trouble believing anyone would think differently but i do get it’s subjective and she needed something to latch on so idk, i can’t really like this but i will try my best to understand it i suppose?

klaus is... a mess. that’s just. that’s just klaus for you,,, he is sober but he doesn’t seem to have changed much because his main problem is being a dickhead and he still hasn’t grown out of that phase so honestly i wasn’t expecting much from him and i can’t be disappointed if i wasn’t expecting anything (: NJFGESRGNESK i do love klaus a lot but what else is there to say

five is five and he’s doing his classic five thing so apart from him being a genius comedian which absolutely cracks me up i am just happy to see him in his little shorts again with his funny old man walk and his threats to anything that moves

 ben. ben. absolute love of my life light of my eyes my sweet baby angel... bitch. NFEJRNGJKSERG i knew that, since he’s going to have way more space this season, being a regular and all, his sassy remarks were going to multiply, and i do love that he gives shit to klaus all the time considering klaus has been doing the same exact thing AND WORSE for years on end but i have to admit when he told him “nobody wants your shit, klaus. that’s why you’re always alone.” that felt like a bit much to me. i know klaus deserves to be called out on his bullshit to hopefully grow a bit, and i know ben just said this as a spur-of-the-moment sentence and then they were back to being the funny bickering duo who hamster fights on the street, but i just... it hit me just how genuinely tired ben must be. because he’s always been nothing but supportive, and he did always call klaus out but he never went that far and always said the complete opposite actually, which is things like “there’s nothing luther wouldn’t do to save your scrawny little junkie ass” and “you can do it” and “you don’t have to do this alone, i know how important this is for you”. so, yeah. i felt a bit meh about it, i will admit this. i also felt like i was overreacting and got over it pretty quickly but it did sting, also because as much as i’m always on about klaus being an idiot i still do love him a lot and i was like okay... okay please settle down now,,, the “unfinished business” thing i’ll mention later on because there’s a whole paragraph i need to write about it

i absolutely love that vanya has lost her memory in a sense, because this does really give a blank slate to a character that was so far gone i’m not sure how recovery could’ve taken place. i do think when things will start to resurface we’ll have to deal with that, but also vanya seems so much more... at peace. and assertive. and sure of herself, or at least not so... i don’t know how to phrase it. not so much of a passive bystander. she doesn’t know who she was, she doesn’t know what happened, but she seems to know who she is now in a way and — even though no powers were used in episode one yet — the control this gives her over her powers is amazing. without even knowing she has them, she can control them better than she ever did, just because of how much more calmer she is in general. i love that for her. i love her so much ): she is the cutest bean ever i just want to kiss her on the nose i am In Love and i love that she’s so good with harlan and that harlan seems to get things about her she probably doesn’t even get herself yet. i am more invested in her bond with harlan than i am in her bond with sissy, if i have to be honest. i guess i just don’t care much about romantic relationships in this show lmao

yeah i? think episode one was pretty much it? just getting to know where the characters are at this moment in their lives and familiarising with new elements and as i said i expected to be a bit less... meh with it all but it’s episode one so it’s not a big deal

OH YEAH I AM so sorry for hazel i loved him so much and i had no idea this was going to happen so i was so shocked when he suddenly died feels like shit just want him back

i do love the swedes a lot i know they’re some of the bad guys (though honestly i doubt they’re the main villains) but as i mentioned already they’re just so interesting both visually and in how they operate and i wonder if they’re some of the other kids born the same way as the hargreeves because they call them twins later on but they look nothing like twins + one of them drinks this weird thing at some point which definitely wasn’t milk so i’m wondering what exactly are they but i’m sure there’s plenty to unpack there

[headcrossed]

hiii can i get rfa + minor trio reaction when mc accidentally fart when she is with them? It's the first time tho 😂😂😂😂😙 thanks alotttt

A/N: Oh my god, nonnie, this is comedy gold, I love it XD Hope you enjoy!

RFA REACTS TO MC FARTING IN FRONT OF THEM FOR THE FIRST TIME

Yoosung

Oh boy get ready he’s the most awkward about it of all of them

You’re probably both playing LOLOL, having a grand old time

Now, he’s a practical baby boy. He gets that people have biological functions and all.

But… he’s so absorbed in his honeymoon phase with you that he just… forgets???

So when you beat a boss, turning around to high-five him, and you accidentally cut one? You both pause.

He’s just as stunned as you are, and immediately turns red from second-hand embarrassment.

By the time it occurs to him to try and be cool and ignore it, you’ve both paused for too long for that to happen, and you probably start apologizing.

“Oh god no! Don’t be sorry! I’ve just… never heard a girl fart before… wait! No… god, I mean, everyone does it. I do it too! Oh that’s such a weird thing to say, isn’t it? I was just…”

oh no sweet boy you’re making it wORSE

But after a long string of apologies, he concludes with “don’t be embarrassed, MC. It means you’re eating well and healthy, and that’s all that matters!” 

are u eatin tho?

Zen

You and Zen are home at last after a long day on set, which means you both get to indulge in what is known as the “Two B’s” in this household: beauty treatments and beer >:3

You two cuddle up on the couch, a couple of cute face-masks plastered to your faces, a beer can (or two) on either side of the table, and a good k-drama on tv.

Problem is… you hadn’t eaten anything that day. And you’d forgotten that fact completely before sitting down for this wonderful ritual with the hottest rising star in the world right now.

Despite knowing this, it was a complete surprise when you suddenly farted right into the couch.

You prayed that the cushion would have muffled the sound enough that he didn’t notice.

But a split second later Zen lurches in his seat a bit, trying not to spit out his beer mid-sip. 

He starts chuckling a little, holding back his laugh with the back of his hand.

“oh my god babe, did you just-… in front of me?”

He cuts of mid-sentence when he sees the look on your face, and just smiles wider.

“Oh-haha… awwwwww, you look so cute when you’re embarrassed, jagiya, I’m sorry.″

He kisses the top of your head then, and then pulls you back into his warm embrace like you were in previously, even closer than you were before.

“Don’t be so embarrassed babe. We’re a couple, right? Humans do gross stuff anyways, so don’t be worried about it in front of me, okay?”

Jaehee

You two were in a nice little coffee shop in the middle of the shopping district, scouting out competition for the shop and also treating yourselves on your day off. 

Jaehee sat across from you, holding your hand as you enjoyed a well-made cappuccino.

Everything was perfect… except for when the stuff you ate for breakfast came back to haunt you.

You try to hold it in, but then suddenly you BOTH fart, quietly, but loud enough to be heard by each other.

At first, you just stare back at each other, a blush slowly creeping up on Jaehee’s cheeks. 

You both utter your apologies amidst small, nervous laughs and coughing before going back to what you two were talking about before. 

Jumin

Here you were, having a nice and quiet dinner at home.

Jumin sat at the table across from you, smiling as you conversed about your day, and seeming to enjoy his meal.

Suddenly, you feel it. The urge to fart is upon you, and if you had any anxieties about farting before this, they’re probably amplified when you hang out with Jumin.

(I mean??? He’s a rich dude. He’s probably uppity about this kind of stuff…right?)

So you’re probably doing your best to hold it in, waiting patiently for the most opportune moment to just let it out and get it over with.

Said moment actually comes sooner than you expected however.

Out of the corner of your eye you see Elizabeth the 3rd getting ready to jump down from the kitchen counter, where she’d been perched for most of your meal.

She eyes her target landing spot, and you poise yourself, ready to let it out when she lands.

Everything went perfectly.

She jumped, sticking her landing with grace as always.

Your fart was timed impeccably, coinciding perfectly with her delicate thud on the ground…

… except. EXCEPT.

You really underesitmated the sheer volume that your fart would produce when it actually left your body.

The sound echoes in the dining room a little. Elizabeth jumps where she stands in surprise, giving you a side-eye before hesitantly going back to wandering elsewhere. Jumin’s eyes widen just a touch, mid-bite with a mouth-full of steak.

It’s dead quiet in the aftermath.There’s no way he didn’t hear that and you know it.

“… E-excuse me…” you say, weakly. Trying to at least make a polite recovery.

His eyes close. He finishes this bite of his meal, laying down his utensils and using a napkin to dab at his mouth.

His face is completely neutral when he looks up at you and says:

“Are you well my love? Perhaps there’s too much fiber in your diet, I can speak to the chef and ask him to cut down on the-”

OH MY GOD JUMIN ARE YOU KIDDING ME THAT’S NOT WHAT YOU SAY IN THIS SITUATION STOP

After that awkward 5 minute discussion on your dietary habits (jesus christ, Jumin) he reaches for his glass of wine.

“I must say, though… you have absolutely perfect timing. I regret not getting a video of that.” he says, chuckling casually, his smile only half-hidden by the deep maroon of the red wine in his glass, eyes trained on you.

No matter how surprised you are by that reaction, you end up smiling with him, and continue with your meal.

He’s not only cool about it, but also his usual human-shitpost-self about it. Why the hell were you worried?

Seven (Saeyoung)

So you’re hanging out, eating honey bhudda chips, drinkin’ phd pepper, maxin’, relaxin’, all cool.

You’re watching some dumb ytp or something equally hilarious and meme-ish.

And suddenly, without warning, you end up laughing so hard that you let out this big ol’ toot.

You keep laughing, hoping, PRAYING that the volume of whatever you’re watching is loud enough to mask the sound of it.

But any hope of that is completely dashed because he immediately, IMMEDIATELY starts laughing harder.

“Ha HA HA did you just fart??!!”

HE’S.  FUCKING. CRYING. LAUGHING SO HARD HE HAS TO TAKE OFF HIS GLASSES TO WIPE AWAY THE TEARS AND PAUSE THE VIDEO

You can be embarrassed about it all you like but his laugh is so infectious you’re probably laughing right along with him

He hugs you then, still laughing while saying “noooo! don’t be like that! it’s okay, babe! Let it out! Look I’ll do it with you this time! We’ll have fart solidarity!”

lmao omg seven gross XD

V (Jihyun) 

The floor is covered in a cheap plastic tarp as you and Jihyun happily work on opposite ends of the room.

You had both decided that it was time for some paint on the bland old white walls of your new home, and so you spent the morning moving all the furniture out so you could do so.

You had a coffee break not too long ago, however, and you were feeling slightly gassy.

You make an excuse, trying to leave the room and go to the bathroom before anything embarrassing could happen.

Except riiiight when you reach the doorway, you let out a little fart, and it echoes quite loudly in that empty room.

You wince, whispering out a little “sorry”.

You turn around then to gauge his reaction.

He is not fazed. at. all.

As in completely oblivious to what just went down.

He’s just standing there smiling and painting away.

He turns his attention to you after you stare at him for awhile, still blissfully ignorant as he says “There something you need, love?”, with a smile.

Finally realizing that he really didn’t notice at all, you continue on your way to go and relieve yourself. 

Truth is, he did notice, but he wants you to be comfortable around him, and those things are just naturally embarrassing when you first do them, so he figures if he doesn’t make a big deal out of it, you won’t either in the future. (you go Jihyun 10/10)

Saeran

It’s date night, and considering who it’s with, that usually means dinner, ice cream, and whatever horror movie is playing, and not necessarily in that order.

You get to the movie theater, and it’s not crowded at all. There’s only one other couple there, so you basically have the pick of the theater.

So naturally, you sit smack-dab in front of them. It entertains Saeran so to ruin someone else’s good time.

In the middle of the movie, whilst having a sip of your soda, realize that you gotta fart.

But you’re pretty sure the movie is gonna pull a jump-scare soon, so you try to hold it in and wait

Try is the operative word, because when the movie gets quiet and you’re sure the monster is gonna pop out, it turns out it’s a false alarm, and you fart so loud one of the people sitting behind you jumps.

“That was scarier than this whole movie has been so far” one of them whispers, laughing a little.

You try to shrink down in your seat, embarassed, but Saeran puts his hand on your shoulder.

He turns around, staring at the couple behind you.

*MURDER EYES ACTIVATE*

“Do you want to say that to my face, pal?”

Without saying a single word the couple gets up and walks out of the theater, eyes wide in fear, praying they wouldn’t be killed like all the victims in the horror movie before they made it to the door.

Saeran throws his arm back over your shoulder, grabbing some popcorn from the tub you were holding in your lap and popping it into his mouth.

“T-thanks.”

“Don’t get me wrong, you’re gross, babe.” he says in-between bites, “But you’re my kind of gross.”

(P.S. if Ray’s out to play he’s got a can of rose-scented febreeze on hand at all times so it literally smells like roses)

Vanderwood

Oh god get ready.

For Vanderwood this kind of stuff is grounds for divorce. You know this. So usually you try to not let it happen as best you can.

But it’s a little hard when you and Vanderwood are cooped up all cozy together in the safehouse cabin for a few days. (He told everyone that he was “on a mission”, but 90% of the time when he says that and Seven isn’t tagging along, it means he’s getting away with you and leaving Seven to suffer)

He’s made it look quite romantic. Fur rug on the floor, fire roaring in the fireplace, rose petals and champagne, the works.

He’s trying to put the moves on you, sweet talking in your ear in the low glow of the fire.

... what a shame it was that the dinner you shared before this was very filling, and that it caused you to let out, what you’d hoped would be, the smallest of toots possible. 

The color may drain from his face a bit, but otherwise, he’ll try his best to just ignore it and move on to… ehem… more fun activities ;)

[greywindys]

If you don't kind me asking, what inspired you to write The Answer? (Btw, your ffic is the only thing that gets me through life so thank you sm!)

Hey there! And nope, don’t mind at all. Thanks so much

I always have to think about this question because there are so many answers. It came from many places and stories that inspired me. I guess what started it was me wanting to write out a possible recovery arc for Murdoc that was about about him and not motivated by or built off the pain of any other character. I also love road trip stories and/or stories where a character is searching for something and grows over the course of their journey (i.e. Everything is Illuminated, Little Miss Sunshine, CROSSROADS lmao etc.)…and I like 2Doc. I’ve also always seen 2Doc as a slow burn and wanted to try to illustrate that in a way where it could be possibly seen as something that happened in their universe after the current canon or not, depending on how the reader felt (i.e. not in between phases. The original version of TA was set between phase 3 and 4 which I trashed because like…regardless of how I ended my fic it would still be limited by whatever transpired in phase 4 and future phases and that wouldn’t be as fun, imo).

So the basic premise became - 2Doc road trip, slow burn, Murdoc recovers/begins to recover, post canon. But then the question became…why are they on a road trip? Why is just the two of them on a road trip? That’s when I began to consider Murdoc’s mother and some personal parts of my life. I’m adopted and I’ve never met my biological family. My adoptive family is amazing and love them dearly but it’s always been a unique experience growing up and knowing you have this unknown part of you that exists somewhere out in the universe that cares about you even though you don’t know each other. And it dawned on me that like, technically Murdoc could have that experience, too. So then I *finally* knew I had the plot I was looking for - he was going to try to find her. So I stopped working on the original version of “The Answer” and got to work on what the story was really meant to be (for me, at least). And then I wove in canon and built up the sequence of events that would get him, and later 2D, to embark on this journey from there. The horror elements came later as I developed his mother’s story more and reconnected with additional stories that inspired me (True Detective season 1, It Follows etc). And I was very nervous to post it at first, but it was something I wanted to share so I went ahead and took the leap.

And the rest is history haha.

[makeste]

BnHA Chapter 007: Costumes and Comforting White Rice

Previously on BnHA: Aizawa had everyone do fitness tests. Turns out superpowered children are very talented. Deku broke his finger.

Today on BnHA: COSTUMES. AND A GUY NAMED LUNCH RUSH

Notes: As always, all comments not prefaced by an ETA are my unspoiled reactions from my first readthrough of this chapter. I’ve read up through chapter 11 now, so any ETAs will reflect that.

so the title is “costume change”, ooh I’m intrigued

All Might is helpfully rehashing the shit that just went down in the last chapter in case we missed it or weren’t paying attention

basically “Deku fucked up his finger but it was actually somehow the coolest thing ever”

right away Izuku is still crying his gritted-teeth pain!tears, so the unbroken streak continues!

aw Ocha is really happy that he did well and now won’t get expelled

I think Bakugou is broken

[waves a hand in front of his face] you okay there pal. deep breaths. it’s going to be all right

and now he’s fucking launching himself at Deku, presumably with the intent to beat the living shit out of him, oh dear

but teacher’s not having that shit

OH MY GOD AN ACTUAL EXPLANATION FOR THE MAGIC SCARF

YEEES THIS IS HOW WE DO THINGS IN GROWN-UP MANGA! WE EXPLAIN OUR PLOT HOLES LIKE ADULTS

THIS IS SUCH A FUCKING RUSH GUYS

also these panels are hilarious

voop

god bless, the logical explanations for everything just keep on coming. now EH is explaining that the reason he always looks so fucking shake-and-baked is because he has to maintain eye contact in order for his powers to work. I love this, it explains so much. the goggles, the eye drops, the creepy intense staring. and it’s such a good handicap for what would otherwise be an insanely OP quirk

just. thank you jesus. thank you oprah winfrey. thank you tom cruise

do you know, so far I haven’t had a single plot thing to complain about in this entire manga series. (except maybe the whole “surrounding community somehow doesn’t notice the beach cleanup happening right under their noses for ten entire months” thing.) can they possibly keep this up?

“is your finger okay?” “yeah.” NO

HGUMNANAA A FLASHBACKKKKKK A BAKUDEKU FLASHBACK. HOLD ME. I NEED TO SIT DOWN

they’re so cute they’re so fucking cute. Izuku following him around fanboying about quirks. Baku saying Deku’s probably won’t be as cool as his. trampsing along through the woods catching bugs. using the nicknames

and now Baku is FREAKING THE FUCK OUT because he’s been the special one all this time and now Izu finally has a quirk too. like, he seems pissed off, but also strangely threatened. like he’s really nervous that Deku might all of a sudden outshine him. once again, I am speculating if there are possibly secret self-esteem issues. I know it’s too early to be theorizing and I’m just going to look like an idiot but I CAN’T HELP IT. Deku is so good and pure and kind and smart, like he has everything going for him, but because he didn’t have a quirk, Bakugou could always rest assured that he was still better! but now DEKU HAS A FUCKING QUIRK. that’s like the ONE thing he solidly had on him and now the gap is narrowing by the minute. hmm. hmmmmmmmmm

disclaimer, he’s probably just an asshole and I’m projecting character development onto him that doesn’t exist sob I know

BUT MAYBE NOT?????

anyway we’ve apparently seen all we needed to see of these tests, because Deku sums up the rest of it in a couple of summary bubbles. “after this we finished up and I hung in there but it sucked”

yay now the results. which sad son of a bitch gets kicked out I wonder. it’s occurred to me that it might not be anyone and EH might just have been fucking with them, but you never know

HAHAHA

[SLAMS HAND ON TABLE]

NOT TO TOOT MY OWN HORN BUT I CALLED IT AND I’M A FUCKING GENIUS. [drinks a glass of water too fast and chokes]

this motherfucker is such a troll

Izuku appears to be phasing into another dimension from the shock of this news. meanwhile this smug-looking girl with a ponytail standing next to him is all like “I already fucking knew”

you know what, smug ponytail girl, ANYONE can say that AFTER the big reveal. the real MVPs are the ones who saw it coming a whole entire page before it actually happened, so you can shove it okay

and now Eraser Head is saying “we’re done here”? but I want to see the rankings, damn it

(ETA: funny how in the anime he shows the rankings first thing and THEN all the rest of this goes down. somehow he’s an even bigger troll there.)

and he finally takes pity on Izuku and sends him to the nurse’s office. you really shouldn’t need a teacher’s permission to go see the nurse, but I guess it’s the thought that counts

and there we go! rankings. so Izu’s all the way down at the bottom. and surprisingly Bakugou is not quite at the top? AND WHAT’S THIS?

THIS IS A NAME I RECOGNIZE. THAT’S DISCOUNT ZUKO BY GEORGE 8D

please be introduced soon, I’m excited to meet you

no idea who that person is at the very top. but hey good for them

hey guys. guess who ships All Might/Aizawa ever since their rivalish history was established in the previous chapter. [points to self]

so this is good stuff

look at this shade being thrown back and forth. or rather, EH throwing shade and AM struggling to throw it back but he’s too much of a straight arrow for it to really work lmao. “april fool’s day was over a week ago”

also oh shit last year he threw out the whole damn bunch. those guys must have SUCKED

oh my god now All Might is smugly confirming that EH likes Izuku too

hey guys here’s a closeup of All Might’s reaction to this:

you like krabby patties don’t you squidward

my boy Izuku out here accumulating mentors like... something... that accumulates a lot

that’s right, he has TWO whole mentors. what a legend

I got really confused for a second when the following panel said Izu was going home after the first day. even though I know it’s not a boarding school, I somehow tricked myself into thinking it was for a sec

oh hey it’s Iida. he wants to know how Deku’s finger is

lol he didn’t remember being healed last time. thank you for that, information bubble

I’m serious, it’s not essential information but it helps the series to remain consistent with itself, and it shows that the mangaka so far is remembering even minor details like this, and I’m honestly really impressed

Horikoshi Kouhei is the author. just looked it up. I gotta remember that. Good job so far Horikoshi-sensei. also he’s apparently younger than me?? nice to know that some of us millennials are out there crushing it at least

oh snap Recovery Girl cautions him that if he keeps getting hurt he’ll eventually run out of stamina and die. wtf. is “stamina” really a finite resource like that? can’t he just get a good night’s sleep and replenish that shit

I’m genuinely wondering how long him not being able to control his powers is going to be an issue then. I’m starting to think not that long. at first I thought it would be a very slow process, because if he got too strong too quickly it would be bad for the story. but on further reflection, it’s really the other way around. there’s only so many times he can be the only guy without any powers and trying to figure out what to do before that shit gets really old. basically right now he’s TOO nerfed

“I thought Iida was scary but he’s actually just super-serious.” he’s very nice for a 40-year-old trying to hang out with a bunch of teenagers. I’m sure you two will be good friends

Ochako!

Iida’s calling her “Infinity Girl” since she threw the ball so high it registered as “infinity meters” on Aizawa’s scale. I wonder if this name will stick, cuz I like it

haha Ochako doesn’t know Izuku’s actual first name and calls him Deku. he was listed as “Izuku” on the results board, though. you could hardly fail to notice that, since he was in last place. she just wants to call him by the cute nickname. fucking sly move there

hmm apparently he doesn’t like the name Deku? or he’s just trying to play it cool with the Girl He Likes

(ETA: now I know the whole sad story of “Deku” and its various meanings. I wonder just how much work Horikoshi put into selecting this name and its kanji)

like he said, he fucking loves that name

“it’s like the Copernican Revolution” hahaha what. a quick Google search confirms that this was the whole shift from people thinking the sun revolved around the earth to realizing it was the other way around. I completely fail to understand what this has to do with the situation of Deku letting Ocha call him “Deku” because she thinks it’s cute. this metaphor is beyond my fucking grasp

(ETA: I must have been tired or something because it’s obviously just that he’s done a 180 from hating the name to embracing it. still a weird analogy but whatever.)

ohhhhhh here come the feels ready or not

SHIELDS UP. IT’S THE PURE, GENTLE HAPPINESS OF A BLOSSOMING SHOUNEN FRIENDSHIP. THE PROTAGONIST’S FIRST FRIENDS EVER. NO, I MUST BE STRONG, DAMN IT. DAMN ITT

oh what the fresh hell, All Might

first the training!! ten months! grueling!! then the entrance exam!! fighting a bunch of giant robots! not having the slightest clue about how to actually use his brand new powers! then the first day of school!! you think you’re finally safe, but NO we’re going to have a trial that may possibly expel you! but he somehow makes it past that too! surely he’s in the clear NOW, right? he has to be?? but nooo, the SECOND day of school, THAT’S when tHE REAL FUCKING TEST BEGINS, FUCK

WHAT THE FUCK IS THE THIRD DAY GOING TO BE. THE END OF THE WORLD?

lmao Mic teaching them English

lmaaaaao everyone is bored out of their fucking minds except fucking Izuku, that FUCKING NERD

the school chef is a sentient humanoid vacuum cleaner named Lunch Rush

nice try with that gimmick there Lunch Rush, but you’re no Best Fucking Jeanist

“the white rice is comforting, so I go with that!” fucking damn, Deku. maybe try branching out just a little

by the way, Izu is narrating all of this like it’s already an established routine, but isn’t it still just the second day? or was All Might just talking out of his ass before about that “real test”

omg

it’s All Might’s class. don’t tell me this was what he was talking about when he was going on about the “real test” fjksj

PROFESSOR LOCKHART. PROFESSOR GILDEROY LOCKHART IS THAT YOU

yet again they talk about how differently he’s drawn sob I can’t

everyone: [turns and winks at the camera] WE KNOW WE’RE CARTOOOONS

what is this pose

gri gri gri

“today’s activity is [holds up a card that says BATTLE] BATTLE”

UNIFOOOOOOORMS

I MEAN COSTUMES

YEEEES. I’VE SEEN DEKU’S COSTUME IN TUMBLR POSTS. I WANT TO SEE HIM WEAR IT YES PLEASE

HERE WE GO

-- PFFFFFFT

Bakugou looks... I’ll let you know when I stop laughing

Ochako looks like your standard Marvel heroine really but the two little buttons on her chest give it an extra dash of cuteness

Iida looks like a fucking super sentai with that helmet

Yuri on Ice, Mickey Mouse, Kermit the Frog, and Tall Guy with Pterodactyl Arms look fine, I guess

do not fucking tell me the chapter’s going to end before we actually see Izuku

...

the chapter ended before we actually saw Izuku

I’m going to kick you you stupid chapter

there isn’t even a bonus character bio at the end, it’s just a thing about all of Horikoshi’s assistants. good for them, I guess, I know they work fucking hard and they’re doing a good job so far

guess what I’m going to do. “read the next chapter.” yep